Yes okay Syrryl took his comm and left but WHY? Maybe you've talked about this before but a;lsdkf from the little I know Syrryl and Bertie are close and I saw your one post about Aurene and sign language (which was completely adorable, btw) and so: what happened that made him want to leave XD.

I think I’ve might’ve mentioned this before but I love an excuse to lore dump about my favorite boys so thanks for the opportunity.

So Bertie and Syrryl have been together for a very long time, since the very beginning of the base game personal story. And Syrryl has known he’s loved Bertie since the middle of Path of Fire. Turns out watching the god of war kill someone in front of you makes you realize some stuff. And Bertie knows that he feels something for Syrryl but 1.) he struggles to identify emotions at the best of times, 2.) he’s been a bit busy being the Commander and 3.) Bertie is kinda convinced that no one could ever be interested in him romantically. So he’s just labeled the emotion as friendship and moved on with his life. Despite the fact that he knows he feels differently about Syrryl than the rest of his friends. These two boys are pining idiots and I love them.

Fast forward to the end of Living World Season 4. Everyone’s on the airship back to Lion’s Arch, people are relaxed, everyone’s the happiest they’ve been in ages and people are drinking to celebrate. Except for Syrryl, a recovering alcoholic. And he decides that right now is the best possible time to confess his feelings for Bertie. Who is more than a bit tipsy. Bertie basically goes “uuuuuh thanks?” and falls asleep in the middle of the conversation. Upon waking up the next morning, Bertie remembers that something happened involving Syrryl but can’t recall the specifics. So, not wanting to make the wrong assumption, he acts like nothing happened until he can figure out how best to bring it up to Syrryl. Meanwhile Syrryl sees Bertie acting like nothing happened and assumes that Bertie doesn’t reciprocate his feelings and is politely ignoring last night’s conversation in the name of their friendship. Syrryl truly and honestly believes that Bertie doesn’t love him back and that sticking around would be a.) painful for Syrryl to be close to the man he loves but unable to do anything about it and b.) a source of uncomfortable guilt for Bertie to know his best friend loves him and being unable to love him back. So when they dock in Lion’s Arch later that day, Syrryl jumps ship with his stuff and vanishes. Bertie assumes that Syrryl has gone to report in to the Order of Whispers and, by the time he realizes that he’s well and truly missing, Syrryl has such a head start it’s basically impossible to find him.

And Bertie loses it. He tears Lions Arch apart searching, he’s calling everyone he can think of on the communicator, he goes so far as to storm his way into the Chantry of Secrets to beg the Preceptors for information. It’s only when Riel reveals to him that they have no idea where Syrryl has gone either, that it sinks in. Syrryl is gone. Syrryl is gone after a night during which something happened, something Bertie can’t fully remember because he was drunk… Bertie is terrified that he did something to Syrryl and equally terrified that he didn’t. Because if he did do something then at least he can apologize and try to make it up to him. But if he didn’t then Syrryl left for no reason that he can come up with and that doesn’t make any sense. So Bertie just spends the time before Icebrood Saga trying desperately to understand what happened and to find Syrryl and Syrryl spends that time wandering around avoiding everyone and being an angsty dipshit until they run into each other again at Grothmar Valley. Basically it’s soap opera confusion at its finest and I love them.

Rambling about EoD and some real personal stuff under the cut so feel free to ignore but I gotta get this off my chest somehow so here goes lol

I really really think that out of everything I’ve experienced with Gw2 in the last year and a half the ending of EoD is what’s gonna stick with me. It’s really one of those rare cases where you find the story you need right when you need it. I’ve been really struggling emotionally the last few months. I’ve been having bad chronic pain, I’ve been experiencing bouts of depression, therapy is helping but is still a struggle, the whole world, the pandemic, everything has been a lot recently. And I went into the first half of EoD so nervous and overwhelmed that I was getting adrenaline shakes during the boss fights. I was petrified about what was going to happen to the Commander, what was going to happen to me, what was going to happen to Bertie and Syrryl. These two mean so so much to me, they’re more than just characters they were how my boyfriend and I strengthened so many aspects of our relationship and what got us through so much of quarantine. And I didn’t know if they were gonna be ok. I didnt know if I was gonna be ok. And then…the ending of EoD happened. When I went down to the Dragonvoid, I thought, ok. That’s it. This is the end. I did everything I could and it wasn’t enough. And then Aurene got me up. I got up again and fought every. Single. Thing. I’d encountered over the past shitty year and a half. The rage of Primordus. The whispers of Jormag. Kralkatorrick’s pain. Mordremoths demands. Zhaitan’s death. I fought it all again. Syrryl went down multiple times and each time I was able to get him back up. To protect him. To shield him. To help my boyfriend up and keep him safe. Seeing everyone again new and old standing together being so goddamn hopeless and run down and tired and still. Just. Fighting. Back. Me and the man I love back to back at the end of all things. And the one thing that will always always stay with me if the Void of all things ever tries to take me away is the sound of my boyfriends voice as he stood on the ground below me as Bertie slowly lowered from the sky. The sound of his voice as he saw me coming down and said “Oh thank god I thought I’d lost you.” That was the thing of all things that finally made me start crying. GW2 has been my sanctuary my home for the past year and a half. I know that’s hardly anytime at all in the grand scheme of things but it has meant so so much to me in that time. I was scared EoD was gonna be the end. And it is in a way. But that’s ok. I’m ok. Bertie and Syrryl are ok. I don’t know what they or I’m gonna do next. But its not the end i feared. I’ll figure it out. We’ll figure it out.

“I thought I’d lost you!”