It annoys me how I talked about how nice the fandom was earlier this year, like I went on talking about how nice everyone was and how I loved being a apart of it, now it has left a real sour taste in my mouth seeing how much people hated on everyone and how toxic people can be

words don’t describe how much i love maths and science (minus chem)

U can have this sketch that's been sitting open in SAI for like over a month I guess

People care about what i have to say and even when I think no one is listening, I am often reminded that someone is always watching and listening.

and what if i just redid my tagging system

I saw someone ranting about Izzzyzzz and yeah...

thinking about dark link if he got out of water temple

link already has his world flipped by learning he's a hylian, and then on top of that dark link (assuming he's a complete copy of link) wouldn't even be himself anymore. he's just there, without an identity or sense of self bc the real link is out there but he's here and nothing makes sense anymore

I don't want to put u on blast so maybe this calls for a no one can reblog answer but I gotta know the harry stan hot takes

this has been sitting here awhile (since march 30th sorry) but here we are. This isn't well put together this is very much a rant apologies

my hot takes mostly boil down to how Liz is treated, by harry stans and extension some fans of, a certain ship. And how one story in particular is talked about.

if you don't see Harry and Liz as loving each other romantically etc that's obviously fine but like.. idk Liz is an important person and important part of Harry's life (they literally have a son together) and I just see her get either ignored or pushed to the side SO much by harrystans it's insane to me.

Liz is such an important person in Harry's life and even Peter's, I know the writers themselves forget this but she and Peter are also in fact, friends. but you would think she hasn't been within twenty feet of him by the way certain fans act. And, disclaimer, I ship parksborn, I like Peter and Harry romantically a lot but I think some fans really come off as 'ignoring female character in favour of my m/m ship'.

Outside of this, it really frustrates me the way I've seen harrystans talk about the story The Child Within, as, due to how I saw it talked about I didn't even know Edward Whelan (also known as Vermin) was.. the actual main character of that story and who that arc was largely about until a friend told me otherwise. Despite the numerous and many problems there are with Edward Whelan's character (being racism and antiblackness) the way I've seen people act as if the child within is actually about Harry and Peter, two white characters is not great in the slightest.

Also, lastly, as much I love him, some things are just not about harry and that is fine.

"we see gregory leave in every ending except the bad ending" FUCK YOU. we very MUCH DONT. in the dissemble vanny ending we very much DO NOT SEE HIM LEAVE. FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOURE SUPPOSED TO BE A GOOD THEORIST BUT YOU CANT EVEN REMEMBER THIS ONE DETAIL DESPITE IT BEING VERY EASY TO CHECK. FUCK YOU

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

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at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

my tears of the kingdom experience so far

I feel like many people have a fundamental misconception of what unreliable narrator means. It's simply a narrative vehicle not a character flaw or a sign that the character is a bad person. There are also many different types of unreliable narrators in fiction. Being an unreliable narrator doesn't necessarily mean that the character is 'wrong', it definitely doesn't mean that they're wrong about everything even if some aspects in their story are inaccurate, and only some unreliable narrators actively and consciously lie. Stories that have unreliable narrators also tend to deal with perception and memory and they often don't even have one objective truth, just different versions. It reflects real life where we know human memory is highly unreliable and vague and people can interpret same events very differently

It’s not that I don’t LIKE the Fandom Popular Pairings, it’s that I find the assumption that everyone ships them and the general all-consuming nature of said pairings to be kinda exhausting,