i aint doing daily journals anymore since i have a horrible memory and physically cannot do habits
but i need to write out some of my stressors so maybe i can figure out why i have a cold sore right now
my brother moved back into the house and currently my normally orderly and accessible landing outside my room is filled with many, many things
he also had some stuff inside my room for some reason
people at work are leaving to go open another store so we're going to be what feels like understaffed
my legs have been sore for the past 3 months and i have no idea how to get them to feel better
ive been gaining weight and i want to either lose it again or move it from my stomach area and more into my upper body. but i dont want to go to a gym so that limits my options for stuff
i can never get enough sleep
me being on tumblr at 11 when i need to be at work at 6:20 doesnt help with that
im still very lonely but thats not new
my dad has been recovering from his surgeries very well but unfortunately that means he is much more willing to tell me what i can and cant do even though i am 22 and am not being disrespectful when i do the things he says not to (playing certain video games) (like seriously resident evil 4 isnt that bad) (at least there are no war crimes) (unlike ace combat which you are fine with)
my charger is still out of comission but that is also not new
the subaru is i think completely fixed until i get the manual transmission installed
the z is giving me weird issues with cylinder 1, no matter what i do it misfires
and im getting more concerned that i wont be able to find a career. like, i dont want to work 60 hours a week at a car wash. but im not good enough at drawing to get commissions (unless someone proves me wrong) but im also too not bad to just not try
anyways i have problems with my life right now and my body is telling me something is wrong
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LOOOOOONG time no see I am back from the grave hiatus xDD
Not the comic I've been working on yet, but something else I've had in mind for quiiiite a while. For @shadeofsilentfire as usual haha you're the coolest Shade!!!!!!!
Once again, something for their fanfic. Every time I read it and the characters and narration mentioned the Angel I just couldn't NOT have this pop into my mind it's so so funny to me uejdueieidi
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Is this what Happiness is?
- hey so I haven't seen an interpretation of the bar scenes in Half that I fully agree with, so I wanted to throw my own two cents out there into the void and pray that it makes sense !!!
so, in the bar scenes in Half we see what I interpret as a hangout with old friends (or, hangout with old friend + his wife.) These scenes used to be the biggest piece of evidence for the cheater theory, but now that that's been debunked by the man himself, I have a new way of looking at them
~ before I go any further, I just wanted to say that I'll be calling the brown-haired woman whiskey for simplicity's sake
In this scene, Kazui turns to look at Whiskey, saying the lyrics:
"laughing together, side by side, this distance in our relationship is misleading me, is this what happiness is?"
With my guess (cuz that's really what it is there's no evidence for it) that Whiskey is the Bartender's wife i think this scene is Kazui being conflicted with what he's been told is true, that marrying Hinako is "true love", versus what he feels is true, that marrying Hinako has brought distance into their relationship.
He looks at Whiskey, a woman happily married, and wonders why his relationship with Hinako isn't like that.
~ shout out to @prisoner-000 for the following screenshot
in this post he points out that Hinako and Kazui's rings are silver in Cat, not gold like they were in Half, yet Bartender's ring colour stays the same.
For the sake of this writing I'm going to go with the first meaning they put out, that Bartender's ring is gold because his marriage is genuine.
But wait!! I hear you ask. This is Half and Kazui's ring is still gold in Half!! EXACTLY MY FRIEND!!
Kazui's ring IS still gold in Half because at the time of these scenes he's still fooling himself that this relationship is good, that he will eventually garner real romantic feelings for Hianko.
"laughing together, side by side, this distance in our relationship is misleading me, is this what happiness is?"
Remember this lyric that plays during the Whiskey -> Hinako scene. You know what other scene in Half this lyric reminds me of?
laughing together, side by side,
this distance in our relationship is misleading me,
is this what happiness is?
He's beginning to doubt if what he believes is true, he's beginning to believe the feelings telling him something's wrong (and remember, the scene right after this one is when he confesses (?) his secret to Hinako) ARE infact true, and that maybe the logic he's been following for so long has a couple holes in it.
I think these scenes are meant to show Kazui gradually realising that his relationship with Hinako will not work out. It just won't, no matter how hard he tries.
He's able to laugh together and talk with Whiskey because she's his friend, yet he can't do the same with his own wife? Even though, according to his gold ring, their relationship is supposed to be real and true and genuine?
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