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#and i can only give this so much of my attention span bc I'm also thinking about how hard i failed my modules from last semester
Uni lecture is making me think about my future for a minute and auuuggghhhh the agonies
#personal#taking a brief break from it bc the feeling hasnt quite overwhelmed me yet but i dont think I'm going to be okay by the end of it!#its asking me to consider what my strengths are. what kind of role I'd like to have in the industry when i graduate#these are questions that i SHOULD certainly have answers to but they kind of just make me not wanna be alive yk? bc i have no answers#I'm not really good at much. like the things I'm best at I'm still completely unexceptional#what are my strengths? don't have any. next question#what job do i want to have in the industry? well that requires an answer to the first question doesn't it#not to mention it requires me to think about graduating and having a job and I've simply never imagined myself getting that far#and i can only give this so much of my attention span bc I'm also thinking about how hard i failed my modules from last semester#my best grade this year has been a c#one of them is a marginal fail meaning i do the reassessment this year (i think)#the other is a hard f. what does that mean? do i resit the entire course next year? maybe#and i can't look it up just yet bc i need to make it through the lecture bc I'm really far behind this other module already#and it's only week 3 and i have a presentation tomorrow#and if i stop watching it im not convinced I'll bring myself to start watching again!#so instead i was just sitting here trying not to get overwhelmed by all of the things i should be thinking about!!!#that's why I'm making the post tbh. just to organise my thoughts and get it out of my system and give myself time to breathe#and my phone keeps buzzing while i type and if it does that one more time i will launch us both out of the window I'm so fucking done#semester has barely begun and im so fucking overwhelmed already#I've joked about being the token nt mutual before but honestly the past few years I've just been getting gradually more convinced I'm not#this can't be how everyone else is experiencing life. surely#like dude I'm so out of fucking touch w the concept of being a human#so in summary: augh the agonies
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dracoandthehounds · 2 months
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🎨 link your favorite piece of fanart and why you like it
Okay so my favorite piece of fanart is (obviously) the fanart that artsaveo-o drew (@artsaveo-o) for Draco Malfoy and the Fall of Icarus 😭😭😭😭😭. Because I STILL can't get over the fact that someone drew fanart for the fic I'm writing!!!!!!!!! Have you all seen this???? Nell depicted in art :'''''')))) there are no words.
But.... to pick an art that isn't related to something I've written lmao.... (also... I am horrible at picking favorites, so here is one I just really really like so much)
I think this one by @tnxgodimginger just really speaks to how I see Draco and Harry in my head, especially with how their expressions were depicted. I like Draco looking a lil love-drunk lmao and I feel like it really comes across in this piece!
🧩 what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately
this is a good question!!! Also a hard one lol. There's not very much that will prevent me from giving something a try. I like to challenge my own interests and likes, and try to see if I end up liking something that I thought I wouldn't. I also read the tags pretty extensively, but I'm far more likely to just slowly lose interest in a fic, or give it a few chapters before giving up.
So the only things that would really immediately make me jump ship would be like too many basic grammar issues or walls of paragraphs (bc I literally cannot read them, and I have a short attention span lol).
(the other thing that has regularly made me click away, no matter how many times I try to just give it a chance, or read out of curiosity is Dra.mion.e... I can't explain it, but every time I've tried to read it, I just can't... my brain stops functioning. which is crazy bc I can read draco & harry dating other people... I just can't do that specific ship for some reason.) (this isn't me ragging on Dram.ion.e, btw. it's just a weird phenomenon that happens in my brain lol)
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monstersinthecosmos · 6 months
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HI <3 Sheith VC anon here back with a very humble request. So I've read TVL and am currently reading QoTD, just finished the Devil's Minion chapter (oH mY gOD my HEART). I'm going through the books a bit slowly bc life stuff, but I have sooooo many thoughts and feelings and feel like I need to read lots of fic to work through it LOL. I would love it if you could rec me some (or tons of!) fics that wouldn't give me (m)any spoilers re: stuff that happens after this point in the series. I realize this might be a kind of hard/maybe impossible request because a lot of those spoilers would be referring to things that chronologically would have taken place prior to DM for instance, but I'm so starved I thought I might ask just in case! I'm not suuuper partial to any specific ships (Lestat/Louis is a bit boring IMO 😭 but I love them so I'll take it) and I don't have any NOTPs, so I'm down to read pretty much anything (esp if it's spicy and/or hurts my heart and/or features Armand lmao). Totally fine if this is too much trouble or if it turns out to be an impossible ask indeed; thank you in advance anyway! AND THANK YOU AGAIN for introducing me to these brain-rotting books lol I spend like half my waking hours thinking about Armand now.
SHGKJALDS I SPEND HALF MY WAKING HOURS THINKING ABOUT ARMAND TOO SINCE LIKE THE YEAR 2000 LMFAO im so glad you see!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU GET IT MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So babe tbh the reason I started writing Armand/Daniel fic at all is because there really ... isn't that much? And I was like GUESS I GOTTA FUCKIN COOK FOR MYSELF. So tbh I haven't actually read a ton of VC fic at all. The otp:true filter for them on AO3 (excluding TVverse fics) only has 237 fics hdkjgalds but you can start here LOL. I think for the most part you'll be able to tell in the tags if it's post-QOTD because people usually will tag like "post canon" or "Prince Lestat Era"; for QOTD fics check for a Devil's Minion/Devil's Minion Era tag. I don't always remember to tag my own fics but my only post-canon D/A fic is called "In the Trials of the Heart" and all my others are Devil's Minion era and shouldn't spoil anything ! Be aware that the TV fandom and book fandom sometimes overlap so there might be stray TV fics in the book tag; it won't spoil anything bc the TV canon is a completely different story, but it might not make sense if you jump in to read it. So without actual fic recs I'll share some authors that I really trust!! Have a look through their VC fics!!!!!!!
apoptoses (pervert extraordinaire 10/10, all the D/A fics are Devil's Minion era except for Blood Sanation so go nuts!) covenofthearticulate (this is Ash, she actually writes Loustat & Louis/Armand mostly but she's so smart and I trust her so much!!!!) Diabolus_Invictus HekateInHell (writes a lot of Lestat/Armand and also has a human AU called Our House that I'm obsessed with!) ImhereImQuire Nothing_But_Paisley rainandcoffee (if you're sick of all of our doom&gloom you can find fluff and lightness here!) whisperbird (just one VC fic but I think about it every day of my life I love it)
Whenever I remember I try to post VC fics that I do read, kinda like how Sheith fandom does Wednesday Fics, I try to tag #VCFicFriday so try there too!
Anyway if anyone wants to add to this post and share recs PLEASE DO I actually am not a great fic reader bc my attention span sucks and I'm picky about canon compliant porn LOL! But help our new friend out if you want to share any!!!!!!!!!!!!
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cocomeow · 1 year
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Update after 1 month of Coco being here
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I didn't expect her to be this cuddly? When she's not tired she's mostly still not seeking out cuddles, but if she is, then she's immediately coming up for snuggles and ENJOYS them a lot. Lays sometimes on my chest/neck/almost face, to the point I can barely breathe. Often meows at me before laying on me, too.
Besides that, she's still the sweetest independent princess. Even when wanting to be alone she's staying near one, but just wants her personal space. Didn't expect that too of her tbh cause she always fled from her littermates and mom, but she's kinda clingy with all of us.
Did I ever mention she sits on me when I sleep sideways? Apparently my shoulders are very comfy.
Grooms herself so loudly that she is always waking me up.
Has a bad attention span and can't focus on a toy for more than 2 minutes, especially on her own. Playing with her works mostly better but not always. Only if the toy is new.
Dislikes most soft textures? She doesn't acknowledge her own little bed, blankets (she likes to get them put on her, but she always prevents having to walk on any), pillows, anything cuddly tbh, but loves cardboard and other rough textures.
Doesn't really seek out warm places!? Often prefers cold areas. I'm confused about that cause they're originally desert animals and I always knew cats that love it as warm as possible?
Got used to living here cause she's seeking out a few more sleeping places than the bed only, she's getting comfy at more locations.
Plays hide and seek & tag T_T it's the most adorable thing I've ever witnessed in my life.
Her agility improved soo much, she's so extremely fast and more confident when climbing.
Started chewing on cables, oh boy... She doesn't scratch any furniture or walls, but she's still obsessed and goes haywire (ha) with anything stringy. At least I got to do cable management bc of her.
When I try to distract her to not chew on cables, she'd rather chew on the cables than play. No distraction ever works, so they have to be hidden.
She also doesnt't (want) to listen, the vet said that clicker training would work, well? we tried it out and it's just not... working. She knows she's going to get a treat after listening to "no", so she does stuff she isn't supposed to, listens shortly, until she gets a treat and then repeats the process a few times. But she's also a cat, so I am not surprised she's not immediately supposed to know everything. She doesn't ever do anything maliciously, as she doesnt get aggressive, so I'm unsure whether she's very clever or actually possesses only 3 braincells and is forgetful.
Speaking of never getting aggressive, she never once hissed yet. The worst she tried was a gentle nibble, but usually she flees stressful situations.
Most stressful situations for her so far have been my noisy relatives, and the telephone ringing. She got used to the vacuum cleaner really fast.
Food is everything for her and she tries everything possible to get it. Meows like crazy when she wanna get treats, too.
Giving her deworming pills was more than easy cause they got hidden under food and she just... devoured it.
Once she went to her toilet, then she heard that we prepared food for her, RAN towards the noise as if a lion was chasing her and left a poop in the way... she didn't finish going to toilet bc of utter excitement, just did it while running lmao. Sounds worse than it is tbh, was pretty cute to see her THAT excited (besides the cleaning up part ofc)
Clipping her nails works really good when she's tired, I read to give cats treat rewards for each nail so they know it's positive. For her it doesn't work, she gets feral after a treat and afterwards it's not possible to clip them cause she's so hyper and immediately awake after getting something to eat. So everytime I need to brush her or clip her nails, it's not needed to give her a treat. She's fine with almost everything the moment she's tired.
Very very curious, has to discover EVERYTHING. What is extra cute is, that she likes when people clean here, change sheets, etc... She always sits beside and watches.
Often scream-meows when leaving her alone, sometimes even when it's only for a few minutes. Poor baby waits at the door and meows and meows. ;_; If she realizes it takes a bit more to come back, she goes back to sleeping.
Once one scary moment happened, it sounded like someone got shot outside and we all just panicked a little. Coco seemed to notice, as she went person to person, purred, and afterwards laid on her back, showing off her stomach. She is truly sweet, I really think she tried to calm us.
Gave her save plants to eat and she absolutely destroyed them. She only tried a little bit to eat them, but she plucked like 70% of the leaves and played with them instead.
Also already reacts to catnip? I thought kittens usually don't, but she does. She just rolls around on her back then lol.
Conclusion:
she's a kitten, ofc I expected her to be a bit stressful, but every moment has been 100% worth it so far and I can't adore her more cause all good moments outdo anything negative 🤍
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bonesandthebees · 17 days
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Okay I'm on desktop because my mobile Tumblr is bugged and won't let me view profiles so I haven't been able to send any asks but I'm here now.
Spoilers for The Priory of The Orange Tree btw for anyone who hasn't read it yet (do it. Go in as blind as possible)
I have been reading Priory and was slowly reading a few pages at a time but because I was sick and getting used to some new meds I'm on (hurray for experimentation and diagnosis on the horizon), I found it hard to actually sit down and just read it but I did it today (yesterday? it's 2am) and holyy shit. I went from being just under 20% through the book to 51% (I track my progress with books w a Notion to motivate myself to read lol) in one day and read about 400 pages. I have just hit part 3 after Ead is exiled.
The world is so rich and the characters are so interesting and I can already feel the ideas I have for my own fantasy world and how I can improve on writing / world building from this since complete fantasy is one of my weaker points as a writer but I want to try my hand at doing one that I would maybe publish in the future.
Tane my beloved. I love Tane so much and as much as I love Ead and Loth's povs, I always found myself wanting to go back to her perspective and learn more about dragonriding and the culture of the East, especially in the earlier parts of the book. Loth is a pov I wasn't expecting but I liked more than I thought I did. Especially when he gets to the Priory it is so interesting to see the reaction of someone who believes so much in the religion of the Vitrudom. Also the Yscalin situation breaks my heart. I felt so bad for the Princess during her entire conversation with Loth.
Niclays is the only pov that I don't particularly enjoy. I like his personality and I find his backstory to be interesting but I'm just not as invested in his storyline as I am in everyone else's.
I have stopped myself from reading just to have some restraint and try to get some sleep but I am so excited to read more. Wish I had someone to talk to in person about it but none of my friends are as into books as I am or as fast at reading.
But overall I love this book so far and I am already planning on locating and devouring other books by Shannon, including Day of Fallen Night and her other series I believe the first book of which is called Bone Season? Anyway feel free to give fantasy book recs as I want more. Poppy Wars and Unwind are already on my list.
I generally like darker books but I also like romance from time to time (sapphic preferred but I am not heterophobic)
Splitting into 2 parts because this is already really long.
-Shark anon (it's me I swear)
shark hi omg you have priory talk for me I'm THRILLED
that is so much of the book to read in one day holy shit good job. usually I read for about an hour to an hour and a half every night of whatever book I'm on (although I was reading 2 hours every night with both priory and a day of fallen night bc I was so into them all I wanted to do was read them) and that's about the max my attention span for reading can handle before my brain gets tired
okay you ask for more fantasy recs at the end so I'll answer them here and then put all my priory thoughts in the read more below
She Who Became the Sun by Shelley Parker-Chan is less fantasy focused (although there are fantasy elements in it) but it's really interesting with the historical setting (1300s mongol-ruled China) and has incredibly fascinating themes and conversations about gender and masculinity and all that. there are both sapphic and gay relationships focused on in the book. it's definitely darker than priory with a lot more discussions around moral greyness and complicated characters. also, I actually liked the sequel to this one He Who Drowned the World more, although it was way darker than the first book and also made me cry. twice.
right now I'm reading a book called The Fifth Season by NK Jemison, and I love the worldbuilding in this one so much. the POV and narration in the book is done in a fairly unique way at certain points, but the world itself is really what's drawn me in. it's fantasy but in a darker way. the world of The Fifth Season is one that is constantly torn apart by earthquakes so it focuses on a culture that is used to the apocalypse happening basically every few centuries. it's just so interesting to explore a culture so deeply rooted in survival and doomsday prepping and there's also a very fascinating magic system at play here. there is a queer relationship featured in it (only for a part of the book), but it's not sapphic
also right now I'm reading a book called The Jasmine Throne by Tasha Suri. there's absolutely no reason for me not to be obsessed with this book, but I'll be honest it hasn't grabbed me quite like Priory did. I'm taking a break from it to read the Fifth Season so maybe when I go back to it I'll be more invested? but it's very good! It features incredibly rich worldbuilding with a fantasy empire inspired by Indian culture/history, with a somewhat toxic sapphic romance/dynamic blooming at the center. definitely a lot of potential for this one so we'll see how I feel after I finish it
okay now priory talk time spoilers under the cut
but yes the world is SO rich and all the characters are so interesting. the reason I wanted to read priory in the first place was bc I was trying to read a lot of royalty-centered fantasy to help me write rose, and then I just got completely sucked into the book itself. samantha shannon's worldbuilding is just so richly layered and complex but it never feels too dense to understand. like it's a Lot, but it all flows together so well
definitely agree with your opinions on the POVs. when I was reading I was mostly interested in Ead and Tane, and then Loth got way more interesting to me once he left Yscalin for the Priory. Niclays was the only POV I really struggled to connect to. I liked him a lot more towards the end but even then I still preferred the other POVs. I really like him as a character and I think Shannon does an amazing job with his arc, I just didn't click with him as much as I did the other three POVs
if you're interested in learning more about the East you'll LOVE a day of fallen night. we get to see so much more of Seiiki history with the dragonriders and the government and all that. actually adofn just gives you so much more worldbuilding in general which was incredible for me, because the world and history of the roots of chaos series is what has really roped me in. like I love all the characters so much and I'm usually a character first girlie, but I honestly would read about any characters Samantha Shannon wants to write about in whatever point of history in the roots of chaos world because I just love the world itself so much. but yeah adofn is incredible both story wise and worldbuilding wise (and tbh I think I felt more attached to the characters in adofn than the first book but that might be recency bias). you get to learn so much more about the East as a whole (not just Seiiki, but you spend time in the Empire of the Twelve Lakes AND another country not mentioned in the first book called Sepul), you get to learn about and see a ton of Hróth which is only mentioned in the first book, and you get to see a lot more of life in the Priory as well. it's just so so good you'll love it
I haven't read the bone season and I don't know if I plan to because I read the description for the series and it doesn't seem to be my type of vibe, but I'll consider it if I get through my current reading list (which is ever growing tbh)
so so glad you're enjoying priory so far I'm so happy that so many of you have taken my recommendation
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hi I hope you're having a good day
may I inquire about yours ocs? c:
anon get out here get out here so I can hold your hand and know your face and leave a lil smooch on your cheek (I'm already giving one to @eclipsedmoon87 for replying to my other post asking about them lmao this is for the both of you)
okay so this is gonna get kinda long so just bear with me here
I've got a handful of different OCs but there's only two that I've really fleshed out and I will tell you about them now!
before I start telling you about them tho it's important to establish that they're a part of an AU that's an offshoot of the end of MTMTE/LL in which that the universe they end up in has a cybertron but every Cybertronian is a beastformer
and my OCs are two of these beastformers! they are twin turbofoxes named Turnpike and Trailhead
Trailhead is excitable but just as easily spooked and incredibly fucking smart. He loves experiments of all kinds (even if they're not the safest) and he causes Turn so so much fucking stress all the time from how reckless he can be. He's always carrying some type of blaster, but he's not really that good of a shot. Beware all who may be in the general direction of where he's aiming. He's also religious, but not in a way that was considered palatable back planet-side, as he believes that with the bodies and capabilities Primus gave them, they should use their longevity to find out the full potential of what they can do with their own bodies. Basically, he loves mods and loves his alt-mode dearly, which is frowned upon back home.
Turnpike is the more level headed of the two, they are very stoic, standoffish, and incredible with swords. I'm working on the worldbuilding for this AU still, but I've fully cemented that Turn used to be a fighter in the arena back on Cybertron. They're not religious per se, but like they believe in Primus and similarly to Trail believe that Primus gave them their ability to transform for a reason, and that their robot modes are not their "true form" but that both are equally true and ingrained into them. They have a hard time getting close to people due to how alienated they were before being recruited in the arena. Even after gaining mass popularity there, they still didn't like all that attention and were generally mistrustful of many people.
The two of them are sent out on a mission to gather energon from lifeless or abandoned planets since the naturally occurring energon that was provided by the fruits that grew on Primus' Hand (a giant ass cyber tree that basically spans over the entire planet in one giant system lol it looks like a forest but is actually all one organism) but those trees stopped growing at around the same time that the Blight appeared
The Blight is basically a neurodegenerative disease that causes any who contract it to gradually lose more and more of their memory and have lapses where they will transform into their beast mode for extended periods with little to no responsiveness where they may wander or become aggressive until one day they transform and never return to their robot mode. Their memories and ability to communicate disappear leaving them as seemingly nothing but a standard mechanimal if it weren't for their transformation seams remaining. Despite meticulous research, the cause and cure are still a mystery
luckily the Blight doesn't kill whoever contracts it, but they're not the same after. most who undergo a full regression end up escaping into the wilds never to be seen again beyond occasional glimpses
While on this mission, their ship is critically damaged and despite it being taboo for cybertronians to communicate with outsiders, Trailhead rigs a distress beacon that ends up being answered by the Lost Light
from there the two of them meet the crew and learn things about themselves and I have more plot ideas planned there but I'll leave that a mystery for now because that's more fun
instead I'll keep telling you some little things about my OCs bc that's what you came here for lmao
since they are turbofoxes, the two of them can be very mischievous especially when they team up and the Lost Light crew finds out very quickly just how wild the two of them can get when properly motivated which is quite often since Trailhead is usually the instigator and Turnpike gets bored a lot
other tidbits to note:
Turnpike is a bit of a lurker and loves to sneak around where they can't be seen. They've got some attention deflectors that Trail made specifically for them so they could avoid fans back home and they love to use them to spy on the crew even if Minimus has told them it's against regulation. They'll stop spying once they know they and Trailhead are actually safe aboard their ship. Before long, they learn just how much they love the simple things: music, arts and crafts, and even dancing. That's when they finally start to break out of their shell and really become close with the others
Trailhead has no such hang ups however. Within minutes of meeting and talking to Brainstorm he immediately dove into finding out everything he could from him and Perceptor. By that first night aboard he's already getting drunk at Swerve's with Brainstorm and Nautica and making friends with everyone he can. His biggest vice however is his vanity. With a life of working in a lab day after day and nothing else to do with his spare time, he became incredibly invested in his own appearance, and as such is very protective of it. One scratch in his finish and his mood is dashed for the rest of the day.
and here's some design concepts I've put together for them. The ones in color I originally traced from a panel of dominus bc I was just trying to figure out a direction and I can't draw for shit so like ignore that I'm working on it lol and the second one is a sketch where I'm just trying to figure out some more realism in the way they're put together like in terms of joints (been inspired after assembling a few model kits I guess lol) as well as playing with some shapes.
(the one with the pink is Trailhead as you could likely guess lol he likes his colors bright)
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Anyway I'm still figuring that out and I'm way more of a writer than an artist so any work there is especially slow going forgive me but like hopefully you can see what I'm going for there
some other fun notes:
the two of them become obsessed with Minimus. They love to call him big brother to get on his nerves. For them, it was a term of endearment used with the other turbofoxformers in their skulk in the old days, but after everyone else caught the Blight, Minimus is the first other turbofox they've seen in centuries, so in addition to it being entertaining to call him that bc it irritates them, it's also comforting in a way. They also love how small he is since on their Cybertron turbofoxes are quite a bit larger than in the LL Cybertron. they're both a little over a head taller than Minimus when he's irreducible. Once they get comfortable with the crew, they're constantly plotting how they're gonna get Minimus into the nest they share so they can all sleep in a pile in their alts like Primus intended (according to Trailhead anyway Turnpike just likes it bc it's cozy)
but yeah I've got like a million random notes about this AU and these two scattered all over my docs and one day I'll have the motivation to actually write the whole damn thing lmao but for now I hope y'all enjoyed my ramble about them and please tell me what you think of my little guys
oh and I haven't gotten their sexualities set in stone yet since I'm still trying to figure out what kind of endgame would be the best narratively for them both I'm pretty set on Turnpike just not really giving af but being a total romantic who commits to one partner only and that Trailhead is somewhere in the ace and aro spectrums like he doesn't really give af about romance or interface but also isn't opposed to fucking around with his friends if he thinks it might be fun and he enjoys making other people feel good and hasn't figured out what he wants long term just yet
so like I know I wanna pair Turnpike up with someone (and already have someone in mind feel free to guess) and as for Trailhead I'm still not sure what his love life will look like just yet hell I might even leave that one open ended if it would serve the story better I just know that he'd be happy to find the friends he finds on the Lost Light they both are but I feel like he'd find satisfaction in that alone while Turnpike would want more if that makes sense
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I also had an idea for him ending up in a sort of queerplatonic polycule situation with some of the other characters that I thought might be fun to explore but it would be a while before I'd get the logistics of that down well enough to be able to implement that so we'll see lol more people = more complexity and I can only handle so much of that before my brain starts to smoke but the image is in my mind and I want to make it real if I can
oh god I accidentally talked about this a lot longer than intended lol I hope anon and anybody else who might be reading this likes these dorks too bc I need the motivation to write this story and also would love people to bump ideas off of for potential side plots and such since I want to write something more long form and there's a lot of blanks still
at last my little guys are unleashed on the world uh T&T be upon ye
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isa-ghost · 21 days
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About how much time a day, or a week do you spend on writing your fic?
Cause I've been reading fics for years, but haven't started writing until relatively recently. I always knew in the back of my head that it took time to write and come up with the stories, but until recently I hadn't even begun to actually understand the time and energy it actually takes to write a fic. both short and long ones.
Now that I've started to think more about it, it would probably benefit fandom spaces a lot to more widely aknowledge the time it takes. It could probably help with the consumeconsumeconsume mindset of fancreations that I know that I've had, and that are present in a lot of fandoms, especially bigger ones
100% that last part, yeah.
See, for me it's even more complicated because not only am I squeezing writing between irl obligations like class, homework, work, family dinner, sleep, etc.
But I also have ADHD, so I'm battling my attention span and the temptations of my hyperfixations, as well as keeping up with my friends, fandom spaces, etc. I don't want to neglect any of those.
But focus is very difficult when I don't have absolutely nothing going on, which means I often need to shut everything completely out (which can take a lot of self control). I'll vanish on my friends and social media for hours, but still pause here and there to catch up on what I've missed for a short while before returning to writing because I HATE falling deep out of the loop and having a lot to catch up on is overwhelming. On top of that, how easily words are flowing and such also impacts how much or how long I write.
So I don't know if I have a simple or precise answer as to how long. But nonetheless, it's HOURS.
So far, for the 4 chapters that are published, I've sat down multiple days in a row OR every other day if I have time-consuming irl obligations, and written as much as I could before something depleted my motivation or I reached a good stopping point. Lately that's amounted to 1-5 paragraphs depending on the scene I'm at.
If it's something my plot plan has left more open-ended, it can take hours for me to work out how exactly I want to get to the next plot point. The Ch 3 Pissa date and stretching out the Ch 4 Eggza day was MISERABLE /lh because it was super open-ended since I wanted to give myself room to improvise, I don't like rigidly over-planning things bc a lot of the fun in writing is filling blanks between points. I get some AWESOME ideas in the moment thar aren't initially planned in my plot. For example, the foreshadowing I included in the Ch 2 nightmare where he hears Missa scream? If you check my post of my plan after I published the chapter, I pulled that out of my ass. It was originally just supposed to be a nightmare where he could hear Fit, Etoiles & Missa yelling to each other. I never planned for him to hear what's implied to be Missa injured.
But even though improvising is important (and required at some points of AMFMN), it's kinda hard to sit down and think of what to do with those parts when your hyperfixation streamer streams 3 days a week and on the days he doesn't, you have class + other things to do + other streams you refuse to miss + friends + etc etc etc and therefore you don't have a perfect distraction-free time to just go ham.
It takes a lot of self-discipline and control to not engage with stuff so I can focus on writing. And even still, depending on how cooperative my brain is that day, that can still be hours of writing.
Generally I try to chip away at least 3 paragraphs or get from one plot point to the next per day until the chapter is finished.
So TLDR; I spend hours a day, which totals to even more hours a week, working on a chapter.
It's equal parts because I get in the zone with writing and smash out a huge amount of the plot points planned for the chapter, OR I'm struggling with flow/attention span/a bunch of other things.
Due to my schedule, Tuesdays, Saturdays and Sundays are usually the best days for me to write. But even still, I have class Tuesday until close to noon, possibly other streams (curse you Sneeg and Fit /lh), work every other Saturday, family daily routine things like dinner, and the occasional plans with irl friends.
So uh. I do be battling the horrors sometimes to get chapters out. But now that Phil is finally possessed, I have a feeling I'll be breezing through things easier. I know a lot of what's happening next and I'm a whore for the drama. :3c
You have NO IDEA how much watching people scream and lose their minds over crumbs and currently published chapters motivates me. I'm so fucking excited for late game fic. Like Chapter 9 onwards. Ohohohough
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borreloadsavagedragon · 10 months
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Guess whoo, our butterfly girl Droite/Dextra for the ask meme 👀🦋
DROITE!!!! I'm so sorry this is so late omfg, I have the attention span of a squirrel gdjsakljkg
First impression: I'm the worst so when I first saw her, I was like 😳😳😳 Oh she's gorgeous Her design and color palette both are impeccable I needed to know more about her immediately
Impression now: Oh my god I love her, I was not disappointed for what we were shown, in fact I'm rage-induced because of how LITTLE we saw her One, her design is SO good, I've considered cosplaying her before omg I love how strong-willed and all business she is, I know it's like trope-y that the one woman is the voice of reason between all of the just unhinged members of the Heartland government but she also gets things done, she's got a coldness to her, I really vibe with her gjdsklaj I'm also so unbelievably salty she only got so much screentime to show off!!!!! Like honestly the Zexal girls were too strong and got shafted too quickly for the plot's sake bc it would be 100 episodes lighter, but Droite especially felt cruel because she was shown to be SO smart and cunning, but she wasn't allowed to show it off more and of course one of the duels where all of her tactics were on full display had to be against the main villain of that season, agh In a perfect world, she put Tron in the hole <3 Also she can just casually fly a helicopter? Sign me UP
Favorite moment: God, her duel for Gauche is just so touching, genuinely that tag duel is one of my favorites in all of Zexal, and the Spartan city episodes in general are some of my favorite to rewatch anytime I feel like throwing on some Zexal because you see how far the pair of them both come from their backstory, their shared trauma being under Heartland's training, and then also the stress of being put under government operations It's her push that is the first true crack in Alito's hold on him The only thing I'd change is having her win, but it's a yugioh show so we can't have that, aggressive side eyes at gallop
Idea for a story: I'm a sham and I don't have any ideas for her specifically at the moment BUT I need to find an excuse to put the three of trainees somewhere..........
Unpopular opinion: I think we all agree she was shafted and underappreciated so I'm not sure omg I guess I as a person am afraid of butterflies and therefore am creeped out by her deck so that's... a thing We're not gonna dissect that today GJSDAKLGJAGK
Favorite relationship: I LOVE her dynamic with Gauche, I absolutely love them, I love that she went with him and how much he cares about her in return, I love how clearly you can see what they've endured as a pair, like they're the definition of soulmates and that's without giving a romantic context, while I'm also on board with them as a pair, I also love that without needing to label anything, they're just two people who will find a way and will stay together in any lifetime I also like where her and Kaito end up after the fact, I wish they'd somehow squeezed one last private conversation into the Spartan City episodes like in the WDC when she calls him out, but I do love he came around on her and Gauche both and how he recognizes her strengths and her spirit, like even vocally defending her skill to Rio and Ryouga is a huge step for him since the last time we saw Kaito consider Droite, he was relatively in different, because even when he was playing the part of the aloof, distant soldier who didn’t need help, he was watching and taking note of her in his own little gremlin way However I'm also beating Kaito with my bare hands for his initial treatment of her, he literally fumbled the bag
Favorite headcanon: Oh you KNOW she keeps in contact with Kaito, she'll video call him when she knows he's working long hours in the lab, sometimes to vent about Gauche, sometimes to make sure he's not spending his entire life working
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for the ask game - 4, 12, 21, 26 :)
4) Are there any writers that inspire you?
tons! my attention span for sitting down and reading physical books has withered and died over the years but I still grab onto sentences and passages I like from all over the place lol. the writing in Succession is obviously wildly inspiring to me. I really like Catriona Ward for her creepy crawly prose and Gillian Flynn (duh) for her antiheroines (Dark Places is my favorite book of hers which is a controversial take - I liked it a lot more than Gone Girl.) I have such a soft spot for T. Kingfisher (Ursula Vernon) for her dark worlds, though historically I've dinged her books for pacing and characterization issues. Karin Slaughter writes reliably engrossing crime thrillers which are like candy to me. "I'm Thinking of Ending Things" by Iain Reid was an INSTANT favorite for me when I read it and I need to try his other books - they're sitting neglected on my shelf lmao. the only Grady Hendrix book I cared enough about to finish was "The Southern Book Club's Guide to Slaying Vampires" and I did Not rate it favorably overall because it was riddled with problems... HOWEVER he can write a great gross-out horror scene. I have to give him that because I love that shit. there was one scene involving like a cockroach and an ear canal that I remember more clearly than anything else in that book lmao.
12) Tell us about a WIP you’re excited about.
I have 2 primary wips rn and they are: A) The Shiv Fic, which I feel like I've been putting off for ages bc I'm worried I won't get it right lmao. but I wanna do shivrome dynamic exploration soooo bad and also crack into some Shiv character motivations that are too close to home for comfort :)
and also B) fuckifng wincest in 2023!!! their dynamic is so rich in s2 though I have to get my teeth in it again
21) Favorite pairing to write for? (platonic or romantic!)
kenrome is my favorite rn love those fucking freaks so much. I can't adequately summarize why which is why I need to write whole ass fics to infect you with my brain worms
26) Is there anything you’ve wanted to write, but you’ve been too scared to try?
ORIGINAL FICTION. I've spent the past 5 years at least waffling abt it. I'm so scared I'm not a talented enough writer to draw people in without their preexisting investment in someone else's world to build on top of. and naturally bc I'm a neurotic perfectionist this means I've barely tried at all so I don't have to confront the possibility of failure.
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why league of legends and not a traditional sport like football or basketball or something like that? it's such a toxic community, why do you choose to be part of it? (no offense intended, not being judgemental, genuinely curious.)
none taken- while the professional scene is slightly less toxic than the game itself, yeah it's still a mess. which is why the extent of my interacting with it is watching and occasionally posting on tumblr about it- i don't even play the game.
(this got a LOT longer than i'm sure you were asking for, i'm sorry about that. the tldr is that i really love the game and it delivers things that no other sport does, traditional or esports)
as for why not a traditional sport... a lot of it comes down to accessibility, i think
i love sports in general. i love super bowl parties, if i'm invited to watch a live game i'm so excited to go. some of my best childhood memories are from Cal football and basketball games and Giants baseball games. but tickets/cable/streaming services cost money, and i just don't have enough of that.
lolesports.com is free, as is the youtube channel.
why league among all esports, though? there are two parts to that, i think. why not something else and then why league.
what i love most about sports is the team. it's teamwork and trust and big picture strategy that i love the most.
i couldn't get into starcraft or smash- individual sports, including traditional sports, just don't interest me as much. (pokemon vgc is an outlier bc i fucking love pokemon, and wolfe glick is SO great, but even that doesn't hit the same amount of passion as league does)
so then why not cs:go or overwatch? those bitches are fps, which gives me a headache to watch and that perspective makes it feel more focused on the individual than the team as a whole.
so the question remains: why do i love so passionately the professional scene of a game i used to play as a form of self-harm?
because i love it.
i fucking hate playing it, but as a game, i think it's beautiful. it's got a fantastic balance of both individual and team skill expression.
and let's be real. there is only one way to play baseball. there are only a couple of ways to play football. basketball's a bit more variable, but it's still fundamentally the same every time.
there's so much more room for creativity in league. both forced, because patches and updates actively work to facilitate fresh metas, and natural, as certain teams or players will find styles that work best for them, with pocket picks or counter-meta strategies or just looking at the meta and going "no, we're good enough that we don't have to do that, we're gonna do things our way go fuck yourself"
there aren't rules like double dribbling or illegal passes. once you're on the rift, the only hard limit is your skill as an individual and as a team.
i love that each game, barring absolute massacres, has three stages, and seeing how they flow into and through each other is always a delight. each game has its own narrative in a much stronger way than is possible in many traditional sports.
i love that games are shorter. this isn't really an issue with basketball, as those games are also high octane and pretty short, but i've got attention span issues, and football and baseball can get so samey 2+ hours in.
league games are about half an hour, a nice concentrated dose of competition. (94 minutes the dream my beloathed)
i'm also a sucker for a good narrative, and by god league is full of them. from R7 winning the LLA's first international best-of series just this morning to Faker, who i'm not going to go into right now because this post is already so long, and his history goes back 10 years with no sign of slowing down (hopium. the day faker retires i will actually cry)
so yeah. from mind games and strategies in draft to skill expression and team coordination and shot-calling in game, i love every second of a league of legends game, as both a game and a more general sports fan experience.
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strings0fcontrol · 8 months
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Just a weird lil observation undeserving of tags
I just realized that I spat out roughly 40k words (+/- 38k are published, the rest are still all over my notes. It might even be way more than 40k) in less than a week, including a plot. I was doing this casually. I didn't plan a plot. I'm just writing down whatever weird lil scenes my autistic brain is sewing together in real time. I've watched Hannibal once. About a month ago. I've been roleplaying (primarily) Hannibal since. Sometimes Will. All of this is from memory. And the few snippets I picked up along the way in interviews. (What I'm trying to do is rewatch the show, scene by scene & really take it apart, but I'm currently struggling with that since I gravely miscalculated, fucked it up & realized I don't have a Blu-ray device for the CDs. So, I first need to get that sorted out. Hannibal, on Netflix, isn't available in Germany, so you can see my problem here.)
Now, my autistic half is relatively manageable, it's quite similar to Will's manifestation & after my formal diagnosis, I've gotten a very good grip on managing my triggers & generally, staying in control of them. Most of the time.
On the other hand, my ADHD is a dominant infernal disaster dumpster hellscape of problems, always taking detours through the wild lands of distraction. We have a love/hate relationship. I'm (usually) highly medicated just to function bc I have the attention span of a fruit fly, I'm severely traumatized & my energy levels hover in the negative realm. The meds are fucking up my liver, so I haven’t been taking them over the semester break/pause, whatever it's called in English, which means I'm usually completely & utterly useless in that state. Strong executive paralysis. So, the fact that in my unmedicated state, I've managed to vomit out roughly 40k words of a novel in less than a week is an incredible milestone. I'm not even sure if the story is good. I'll have to rework it on a couple of corners. This is also just phase one, since I'm now, once I rewatch the show, going into phase two, where shit will really go wild & the actual story begins. I didn't even think I'd make it past the first chapter. I was sweating to make it to 6, I was crying when I reached 10 & I nearly fainted when I made it all the way to 14. And, once again, I'm so very glad that Hannibal has touched my little world, bc not only do I love that show, the books, the movies, everything, it's pulled me out of my depression & given me something to be happy about, bc those (almost) 40k words mean I shouldn't give up on myself just yet. I'm not a complete disaster. There's still untapped potential. There's still energy. I can feel the fire in my soul again, I feel alive again, I'm curious again, I'm feeling joy again & so much more. I'm very grateful for that little revelation. So, my sincerest thanks to the universe & to everyone involved in the show, movies & books.
Danke. I'm feeling my spark again, thanks to you. It's been dead for nearly 15 years. And. I want my future self to look at this when the insecurity strikes again. Believe in yourself, child. Believe.
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notes bc i have the brain worms but not the attention span to actually write anything but anyway
*karnaka's ship experiences a malfunction when he enters earth's orbit, he never figures out what happened exactly because the damn thing begins to break apart and he crash lands. it ends up as so much junk spread across several miles and one of the reasons he's later prone to disappearing in the woods for extended periods is because he's trying to collect as many pieces as he can before someone else finds all this alien tech laying around.
*he gets super banged up. his armor is glitching and not only is his cloaking not working, neither is the thermo regulation. it is early march in washington state and he is injured and freezing. he ends up coming across my cabin and just busts into it.
*i am not home at the time he does, but when i do come back i notice immediately the screen door is hanging loose and immediately begin to see the folly of keeping my gun inside instead of on me. i just always figured if something came up and i needed the damn thing i'd be inside and home, not on my way back from fucking aldi.
*i end up relieved it's not a hungry and confused bear ransacking my house but perplexed at what to do about this giant creachure bleeding all over my kitchen. i know it's unlikely he can understand what i'm saying but i basically approach him like one does a strange and potentially violent animal by speaking calmly and using body language that shows i'm not a threat.
*which is kinda funny considering like
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i don't think he'da been fucking worried about it (why did this site do me dirty and give me the kids shadow im-)
*i parse that since he's injured he's probably freezing. there's still snow on the ground from a couple days before, and while i don't normally have the heat on, i edge my way across the kitchen and living room and get the fire going.
*karnaka is definitely interested in getting warm, but also proceeds to immediately pass the fuck out when he tries to stand up and move.
*i conclude i picked the wrong fucking day to pass on buying booze.
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Also any other fanfic writing tips? Do you have thoughts on chaptered fics vs longer one-shots? Do you ever struggle with characters feeling ooc?
I'm working my way up to finishing a couple WIPs and am very very nervous about posting them on ao3 😬😬
ooshdjsfh i think it’s funny when ppl ask me for writing advice bc i am a Mess but i will try my hardest to be helpful w this!
for the first bit, personally i’m a fan of oneshots, both writing and reading (there are exceptions for both ofc!!) just because i usually don’t have the attention span to write or read chaptered fics unless they’re finished and under 5 chapters ! but both of my chaptered fics are/were chaptered literally because i wrote too much to make it a oneshot without it feeling kind of clunky and awkward LOL i don’t usually write fics with big fleshed out plots anyway, and it’s more like a general storyline with a focus on individual scenes instead of the overarching plot, so i’ll write it all in one go! and i always write more than i think i will, so stories i plan to be like 10-15k ALWAYS end up at least 20k somehow 😭 personally i just rly appreciate when chaptered fics are consistent w uploading (as much as possible for the author) because it’s really hard for me to commit otherwise, which is why i don’t rly write them myself!!
and Oh My God anon,, i struggle CONSTANTLY w characters feelings ooc im always so concerned w my mike especially, since so much of s3 and 4 was more will pov and we didn’t get as much of an insight into mike’s internal struggles and thoughts like we did with will (the castle byers scene, van scene, jonathan talk, etc) so i’m always worried that the way i interpret him is not the same way that others might! and characters like lucas and dustin and max are easier since their povs in the show have stayed pretty consistent since their first appearances, and even will is easier for me to write (although i prefer mike which is pretty obvious maybe LOL) but mike Stresses Me Out a lot,, whew !!
if ur having trouble w that my advice (or at least what i do, take it w a grain of salt siskfjsjf) is think whether or not u could imagine this character saying that in the show. like, if this dialogue was added to a scene would it feel weird and out of place? do they usually use words like that? are there words used in the show specific to this character? (e.g: robin with “dingus”) i do take a lot of creative liberty w characters like mike and will especially when writing fluff fics, since so much of s4 and the end of s3 has been Sad and we haven’t gotten much humorous interaction from them, but i always try to ask myself if it’s true to their dynamic. like, mike would never ever pull off being suave and cool (except maybe in will’s unreliable narrator pov) because he gets flustered and is kind of an idiot and will is canonically a little bitchy and a little snarky and one of the only people who can put mike in his place so .
and thinking abt their motivations and Why they act/think the way they do: in byler’s case for example, will is selfless to a fault where he keeps putting other people before him, he’s so scared of his own needs making him selfish or a bad person that he often backpedals too far trying to amend that (s4!!) but he gets frustrated pretty easily (he’s the one that’s Started both of the infamous byler fights, the one that blows up first) and isn’t afraid to call mike out on things !! vs mike who tries really really hard, and has so much love for the people in his life but he’s inexperienced in it and doesn’t know how to show it in the way they want (saying ily to el, being a good friend to will) and a lot of his own inner monologue being fueled by the fear that the people in his life don’t need him anymore and yk . stuff like that . idk i just think abt these things a lot when i write!
anyways i am not qualified in the slightest to give any of this advice so FEEL FREE TO IGNORE THIS !! but anon if u ever end up publishing those wips (pls do) PLEASE don’t hesitate to drop me a link i’d love to check them out! posting fics can be rly scary but my advice would be to have as much fun with it as u can! play around w tropes and dialogue and writing styles and povs as much as u want. it can be easy to get caught up in writing what u think ppl want to read or thinking u Have to write smth bc someone asked for it but literally just write whatever u want (that’s like . not insane and awful for obvious reasons) and enjoy urself!!
hope this helped !! <3
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birdantlers · 2 years
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18 and 19 for the ask game por favor please
(I forgot to copy them but basically these asked your opinions on GT and super)
18. I have seen two episodes of GT, however I do know the general synopsis/arc plots.
My first exposure to gt was a bit tarnished because even though it made little sense to do so, Nick aired it like the WEEK after Kai ended. So GT came immediately after cell saga, which was so inconsistent and confusing to kid-me that I just didn't watch it after the premiere lol.
I get that Kai Final Chapters didn't exist at the time, but tbh I would have rather they just not aired GT at all. Because rather than just having the end of Kai hit me with the full force of a finale, I just thought the story was continuing seamlessly at the time. Also that meant I got gradually more bitter as they slowly stopped airing Kai in favor of GT haha.
First impressions aside though, GT does have some ideas that I like, and I do want to watch it in full someday. I also tuned in to watch the episode where Piccolo dies (bc I happened to catch the bumper for it woo) and I really like that scene. So much so that I still have a fully scripted pmv about it.
GT has a lot of irritating drawbacks like pacing, lack of conviction for a lot of stuff that happens, and very limited spotlight on the wider cast (why is Goku the mc again for fucksake please pass the torch already) but it does interest me.
Also trunks can rock a butch fit and thems facts ok. Gender envy
19. I have not seen Super. I've seen some of the movies, and I tried to read the manga recently, but reading dragonball is not as investing to me as watching it. I think it's a combination of my woeful attention span and just personal preference. That being said, I do know generally what happens. Just less so than GT
I'm gonna be honest, the visuals are the biggest biggest turnoff for me. It just doesn't look like dragon ball—or sound like it, for that matter. I know very well about the complications with production and the abuse the animators suffered, but that doesn't change the fact that when I see characters' busted faces and godawful proportions and bad color palette,, I just can't get invested. It literally takes me out of the moment. I'm glad that it gets better later on, but man it gives me like. DB uncanny valley lmao.
Also I must be honest, I'm just not super invested in what the story puts forward. I'm beyond tired of Goku and Vegeta-centric stuff even without having seen Super, and some story choices are made that make me roll my eyes. Gohan's characterization in particular, as well as the whole Mai debacle.
I do like the slightly more laid back slice-of-life tone, and seeing how close the characters have clearly grown over the years is really sweet. But when there's Frieza and alternate universes and gods and crushing power crawl and whatever else, I just.. don't care, man. I know it's a shonen, but I need more emotion in my stories than what I've come to understand DBS has.
OGDB's tone and scale is vastly different, so this isn't as much of an issue with that, but long about the middle of Buu saga, I really began to understand how vital it was to have a character like Gohan as a lens for the plot. Whether intentional or not, he brought a lot of emotion and very needed.. sort of somberness to DBZ. Imo, he was the emotional core of it. He wasn't the only one, but it's very clear that DBZ's objective was to show his maturation.
Even if Toriyama wanting to end DB at cell saga is a rumor, I still think Cell saga makes for the better ending because it's a completion of Gohan's arc that really hammers home the passage of time into a new age. Then Buu saga implies that it's going to keep going in that direction, only to backpedal and make it about Goku and Vegeta again.
Even though Vegeta's arc was wrapped up in Buu saga, that's kind of where my investment in his character ends. He's not a bad character, but from what I understand his arc in super is pretty derivative and almost a repetition. I'm sure Vegeta fans love it, but the simple fact is I'm not a Vegeta fan. Or at least, my enjoyment of the show isnt dependent on him. Or Goku—though I honestly think Goku has been underutilized if you can believe it. Specifically in terms of an emotional arc.
I really wish he and other characters would be given struggles, doubts, fears, conflict, etc that DON'T solely stem from fighting or an opponent or their strength or what-have-you. I really want more depth and introspection in DB (and it's there! I promise you it's there and you don't even have to break the show's vibe to portray it), but I'm not expecting anything much.
DB is stagnating Hard to me, which was part of why DBSSH was such a breath of fresh air..... Even though it still fumbled the ball with it's emotional throughlines but that's an Entirely different tangent too long for Tumblr tbh. It gave the more neglected characters a chance to breathe and have their own story, and it at least presented some ideas for some various character-driven emotional arcs,,, kind of. Maybe it was an accident bc idk it sure feels like it at times. But it at the very least gave me hope.
Dragon ball has to shake things up and get some fresh eyes on the ball if it's ever going to be as resonant as Z or ogdb imo. I desperately wish it would start taking itself more seriously and introduce more cerebral and challenging ideas, but afaik that's not what's been going on. So I have yet to get around to catching up on Super.
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//Hi there, mod! I've just realized my latest ask in response to the other two Squall answered might have been too intense. I also hope you're not getting harassment from behind-the-scenes from other anons. And I've realized Squall likely won't change as a better person, not anytime soon, but I'm sure you're wonderful!
{{Hey! The dip in activity here isn’t to do with harassment or anyone pushing too far IC. I just get easily distracted haha. I think I’ve only deleted a single ask over the past week or so, bc it was somebody overeager to do something I’d already said no to. You’re right that Squall isn’t gonna be changing drastically any time soon, because I’d much prefer to pace out my writing on this blog.
Learning about eebydeebies deserves to be a plot point all to itself, for Squall, bc unlike other characters who can just speedrun learning all about rotomblr’s quirks, it’s something he has very strong and hurtful feelings about, and I think it’s interesting to give that its own spotlight, without worrying about multiverses or Pokémon-free realities. It both lets me flesh out how Squall feels about an inarguable complication to his job, and gives other pokebloggers a chance to expose their EBDBs to (at least, imo) unique takes on anti-eeby sentiment. As long as everybody stays respectful of boundaries and polite OOC, I welcome some extreme IC stuff! Squall’s behavior IS extreme! Even his “polite” conversations have some casually horrible stuff slipped in.
So again, no worries anon! This is entirely on me and my attention span. I’m planning on sinking most of my energy into @tlblitzle rn (she’s got a journey going I’d like wrapped before Indigo Disk drops, and I’ve been dragging my feet for months), and then in a few days I’ll be back to writing Squall :) }}
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feel free to rant more!
what baffles me is that people don't interact with gifsets here but they do on other platforms. a gifset that hasn't reached 1k notes will have a gif with 10k likes on twt. like they have to seek out content here but cannot interact with it here?
i'm just baffled about tv shows and movies. if you aren't part of a big sourceblog, and don't post within the hour, you are doomed... like 10 years ago, with weekly releases, it could sustain a fandom for the whole 7 of days, not just one hour.
bahahah i will 😌 you've enabled me now
tbh i use twitter very rarely so i have no idea if people steal my gifs and repost them there. but i'm 100% sure it's happened bc i know it happens to me here regularly. i hate when it happens. it's super frustrating and it's not okay.
i guess my answer to why they get so much interaction on twitter instead of here might have something to do with twitter just being a much bigger platform paired with it having an algorithm. and also how do you measure/what do you consider engagement on twitter? is it just the likes or is it also the retweets? to me here on tumblr i disregard the likes most of the time. what i consider engagement is if someone reblogged the gifset. so if we use that same logic to twitter and count the retweets/quote tweets (or whatever the fuck they're called), i don't think the engagement is better on twitter than it is here (i might be wrong tho since i don't really use twitter that much).
the normalization of lurker accounts on twitter (like i mentioned in the other ask), might also have something to do with the engagement being low. i get so many blank blogs following me/liking my posts and i can't tell if they're real people or bots. like i mentioned before, this is becoming more normal on other platforms, and i think tumblr has a job to do in this regard. they need to understand how the internet's changed, and then develop with the internet, while at the same time not loose what makes tumblr special/different from other platforms/social media.
as to why people seek out content here, but not interact with it might have something to do with tumblr's image? i think a lot of people look at tumblr a little like pinterest. that content just suddenly appears here and no one owns it (tbh pinterest is problematic in it's own way when it comes to stolen content but that's a topic for another day). tumblr gets looked down upon i feel like. people look at it like the 2012-2014 ~tumblr aesthetic~ or superwholock. so why would you admit that you have a tumblr account in 2023? maybe that's why they don't interact?
the sourceblogs and posting within the hour of something dropping is a whole nother beast tbh. like you mentioned "10 years ago, with weekly releases, it could sustain a fandom for the whole 7 of days, not just one hour". i think this has to do with our attention span being shorter. maybe we also can give netflix some of the fault in this with dropping whole seasons at once and the rise of binging. you have to see it the moment it drops or you're already too late. if you missed your shot of this small window, no one cares anymore bc we've moved on to the next thing <- lol super cynical of me maybe?
i think the idea of sourceblogs are a good one (and tracking tags). it's us gifmakers way of supporting each other and spreading our gifs to a wider audience (while tumblr continues to make it harder and harder for us to actually post gifs and have them be seen).
but as someone who's not in a lot of sourceblogs, but are still a gifmaker (maybe not predominantly tv/film but i do gif it!), i do feel left out or at an disadvantage a lot of the time. my gifs are not a priority, they go in the queue. and when posting gifs as soon as something drops is the only way for you to get notes/interaction- it sucks for me that my gifs will be reblogged when it's too "late" and people have lost interest. maybe they also will be reblogged at a time of the day when the dash is slower, or not reblogged at all sometimes.
moral of the story: pls interact with gifs and reblog them. it's more appreciated than you think. and don't steal gifs to repost them!
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