Letting myself become emotionally invested in a school crush like

the Cat walking in on Lister & Rimmer in the midst of a screaming argument w Lister holding Rimmer's ashes over the toilet and threatening to flush them. just pulls a face and walks out. NOT worth it.

With the revelation that Orym had a feeling Laudna killing Bor'dor would give Delilah a foot in the door again, and let it happen even as Laudna turned to him as a lifeline to stop herself. And with the Expanse and its characters on the brain. I'm just thinking about how sometimes, even in the absence of evil necromantic soul parasites, the important question isn't "is mercy the morally correct choice?" it's "is revenge the right choice for us?" It's about self-preservation. About staying the person you want to be. The person you need to be to keep putting one foot in front of the other every day. The person you can look at in mirror every morning. It's about knowing your friend will be disproportionately burdened by that choice and chosing to intervene. Not even necessarily to stop the killing altogether, just to stop your friend from hurting themself in the process. ("You're not that guy" but "I am that guy." "It's not about [them]. It's about us." "It wasn't mercy. It was vanity. I didn't want to think of myself as someone who wanted vengeance.")

In that moment Laudna needed someone to step in for her. To take the weight off her shoulders. I don't think Laudna wants to be the kind of person who kills to satisfy feelings of revenge (even without the threat of an evil necromancer hiding in her soul). Imogen pulled her back from the brink before. But this time she wasn't there. And Orym, in her stead, let her fall. When he could have chosen to intervene. Ashton too, to an extent, although in the moment it was Orym that Laudna looked to for restraint. Either of them could have made the kill instead. That this also put Delilah back in the picture... well that just makes this situation all that much worse. How does it feel to know that your friends let you free-fall into the dark? How does it feel knowing you let your friend free-fall into the dark? Worse, how does it feel to know you gave them that final shove over the precipice?

I rewatched the season two final recently and Mariner literally like,,, slides up to Ransom while telling the bridge crew about Freeman's transfer and steals his drink and sips from it and he just takes it back like it doesn't even bother him, he doesn't seem grossed out by it at all. Is this just normal for these two? Are they really truly 'share drinks without asking' levels of comfortable with each other? It's making me insane

Was collecting a bunch of text posts to make character memes and then decided to make some for my chickens because I think that’s hilarious

Quickly realized that I could do so many of these with just Rory

Sopping wet manchild with zero social awareness with incredible looks and a pathetic personality (deeply affectionate, that’s my son)

Boy King Seb :D

MIJAAAAL everyone say hi to mijaal ^_^

^ and a little height comparison between her and mary. its one part mary being short and one part mijaal being a bit lanky

school is ridiculous. they give you so much holiday homework in highschool that you effectively have 0 break for 6 years straight and then its immediately into fucking uni. that 1 or 2 month gap after highschool and before uni was the only break ive gotten since i was 12. only time my periods werent painful. i dont give a shit if break week in the middle of the semester is meant to be for "catching up and getting ahead" im not doing that. im taking a fucking break

it’s running concurrent to my headcanon that. well. the universe is so lacking in constants for the doctor, and if it’s after he’s experienced the loss of a companion, he’s not going to go have tea with someone else he once travelled with and had to leave behind.

it just makes sense to me, that he’d go seek out the master. especially if he’s barely restraining himself from making bad choices about breaking fixed points in time and causing paradoxes. and he’s right there, playing harold saxon for the world to see, and he’s right. there. the doctor can just go and see him whenever he wants.

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having bunny rabbits is like if the devil lived in your house and also he’s split into two creatures and they’re both half a foot tall

I’m so SICK Brooke was worried about Lucas and Peyton being a thing after he cheated on her with her best friend and then they go and kiss AGAIN and hide it from her AGAIN 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

And to juxtapose it with them (Brooke and Lucas) “learning to trust each other again” and all through that time intertwining Lucas and Peyton moments like. Be fr 😭💀 It could have worked better narratively (imo) if they would have separated them but by doing this it felt (to me personally!) that Brooke and Lucas were never that serious to begin with because their growth was always one step forward and three steps back.

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Lancer please if you’re still taking requests!

See this one was difficult anon bc I think about him literally nonstop so I have a great many thinks™️ about Lancer ough

Whether this ends up being true or not, Lancer probably grows up believing fully that he is the Prince of Legend, though he doesn’t understand the implications/responsibilities bc he’s like 6. The knight/coup probably happened when he was still little (just growing out of being a toddler) and since the door between the two sections of the dark worlds was sealed, it’s also likely that no one knew of Ralsei’s existence, or couldn’t be certain of his royal status if so since he’s an elusive dude (at the very least Spade didn’t seem to recognize him during the fight).

In that vein, King Spade superimposes that part of the prophecy onto the only “Prince from the Dark” that he knows, and in turn, as he spirals further and further out of control, believes that his son will be the one to aid in the destruction of their world. He makes no secret of this to Lancer, bc kids are malleable, impressionable little fuckers, and hopes that by placing this enormous weight on his shoulders it will manipulate and scare him into complete obedience. 

It...didn’t work (in the long run anyways, probably fucked him right up in the short term though). Probably bc Lancer wasn’t really listening (not his fault, he was trying but it’s like explaining calculus to a 9 year old he is just a little guy). Doesn’t help to have the one person in your life that’s supposed to love you no matter what despise you for crimes you not only didn’t commit, but have no possible way to prevent when the inevitable occurs. 

It’s just easier not to think about it, that is...until it’s too late. And by choosing his friends, he fulfills his role in a destiny that could have possibly been circumvented had King Spade been a better father. (or not. Who knows) 

"you can't headcanon eddie as gay bc joseph quinn said he would have loved for eddie to find a nice girl if he lived!" bold of you to assume that what actors say about the characters they play is 1, canon, 2, not completely random at times and 3, impactful on the way i myself view those specific characters

i'm glad i'm not the only one who hates the hair style he had in his driver's license picture