once again asking WHAT is all this then

kacey rohl w a neck wound in a spn episode yep exactly

no new single gonna go watch spn i guess

Sooooooooooo I'm rewatching SPN, and just reached season 4 😍

I LOVE CAS!!

How he slowly becomes becomes his own angel, he stops been a soldier and embraces his doubts as a good thing.

(Also his jelly face when he realised Ana and Dean's relationship 🤣)

Oh and the foreshadowing!!!

tagged by @trials-era-sam thank you ana my love <33

Answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you want to get to know better.

Name: remy

Sign: pisces

Height: 151cm

Birthday: mar 7

Time: 3:18 am lol rip

Favorite band/artists: all time favorite will always be linkin park. currently enjoying frank ocean, the weeknd, and kendrick lamar

Last movie: last movie i watched (that wasn't a rewatch) was just like heaven

Last show: began house of secrets: the burari deaths on netflix

What I post: spn, f1, a whole lot of other stuff

Last thing I googled: "lebron james height" lmao

Other blogs: none active, used to have a game of thrones/asoiaf sideblog but i can't keep sideblogs OR plants alive lol

Do I get asks: yesss

Following: idk like 1k lol?

Average hours of sleep: 6ish

Instruments: does singing count lol

What I’m wearing: my pjs lol

Dream job: writer, or oral and maxillofacial surgeon

Dream trip: trekking through the karakoram

Nationality: pakistani

Favorite songs: soooooo many lol

Last book I read: i'm glad my mom died by jennette mccurdy

3 fiction universes I’d live in: lotr if i get to be a hobbit or an elf lol. narnia because it seems fun. and the pirates of the caribbean universe because keira knightley

tagging whoever wants to do it! if you see this, consider yourself tagged<33

Season 7 suuuuucckkkssss

I was tagged by @spneveryseason​ thank you!!

This is gonna be hard since I haven’t actually watched any spn except the first four eps, the finale, and A Very Supernatural Christmas in years lmao. (I’m trying to rewatch but Netflix keeps being a bitch.)

Sibling status (younger, middle, older, only child...) - oldest. I’m also a daughter so I need compensation for that.

How long have you been stanning for -stanning Sam since before I even watched the show, so probably since like 2012? I started watching in 2014 I think.

Favorite Sam era - oh this is hard... probably s2 or s3.

Favorite spn season, but if the only criteria was Sam’s hair -also hard bc I love almost all of Sam’s hair (except s10 wtf was that), but I’m gonna go with season 5.

Favorite Sam-centric episode - I can’t really say bc I can’t remember which eps were Sam-centric since it’s been so long since watching them. But Ana said All Hell Breaks Loose Part 1 and I do remember that one so yeah going with that one bc it was really good. Oh! I do actually really like Mystery Spot even though it’s painful af and actually way darker than the ep presents it. And I hate how fandom treats it. :/

Any ships you may like to mention - sastiel I guess?

Favorite song you would/have put in a Sam playlist -not to be Edgy(tm) but “Monster” by Skillet.

If you could steal one thing from Sam’s wardrobe, it would be - well I already have his purple dog shirt so.... lmao. but I also agree with Ana. His v neck gray pyjama top because it looks SO soft.

Complete the sentence: If Sam cishet, then WHY.... -his crossroad demons always men?

Favorite unhinged Sam moment - I don’t remember what ep it is but I think it’s in season 4? When he’s drinking the demon lady’s blood and the demon dude goes to stab him and Sam uses his powers to fling him into the wall and with his mouth all bloody says “wait your turn” YEAH

You must have some intense headcanons you need to talk about, tell me one Sam hc that drives you insane - oKAY. this is gonna be long. -cracks knuckles- so I have never seen this take before probably bc the disorder is so rare  (hint: it’s not there was just a huge movement in the 90s to discredit it lmao) but during his time in the Cage (which I take his estimates to be true so he was there for 5,000+ years bc I believe Hell time and Cage time are different) he had to split in order to stay functioning. So when he gets back and his wall is broken he basically has DID/OSDD (dissociative identity disorder). Those parts in himself in that one ep? They actually exist inside him along with probably hundreds of other parts/alters to hold and cope with all the trauma and they can “front” (be in control of the body). They’re a very covert system tho bc if Dean ever found out he’d flip. Also he definitely has introjects of Lucifer and Michael, probably multiple ones. So like hallucifer? Not just a product of the psychosis but also a literal person/part that lives in his head and torments him (tho it’s not really Lucifer bc it’s still a part of Sam’s psyche). This is why despite being in the Cage so long and being tortured in unimaginable ways he can still function. Because the Sam that is normally front doesn’t have access to all his Cage memories. Other parts hold those memories and keep them from him because otherwise he would literally be non-functional.

okay so that’s my headcanon. If you want to know more about it or even just DID in general PLEASE hmu. I would love to talk about it.

Tell me something about the hbo Sam that lives in your brain -he totally wears black nail polish and make up. Also embraces his psychic power more.

Oh no, the writers forgot to give Jess a personality! Now it’s up to you. Tell me, what was Jess like - she was definitely the kinda that encouraged everyone but esp Sam. definitely sassy and they probably had sass offs. she’s fiercely protective of the people she loves. she was super excited to bring Sam home to her family and they loved him even if he was a little weird.

Biggest injustice Supernatural commited against Sam (be as brief or as ranty as you desire) - season 6-15 ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  lol jk. probably the s9 arc. That was... yeah. Or Lucifer being brought back in s11.

And finally, just say something about him that makes you smile - his compassion. Just how soft and gentle he is when talking to witnesses/victims/etc.

I’m tagging: @girlbossjared @car-romancerdean @wingsanddimples @armymaninashtraysaweverything @itsjustallaboutsam @itstartswithbloodshed @ilysm-mybabybrother @milfsamwinchester @marvelis @spectator-sam @mlmsam @haloforsam @crownsandfreckles no pressure if you don’t want to do it!! And if I didn’t tag you and you want to do it, consider yourself tagged!!!

I started loving Sam after rewatching the show a couple of months back and I could finally see the warm soul and overall virtue that he possesses' although he was supposed to be evil. He endured so much crap and all he can give in return is love and care. It helped a lot that I started reading fanfic and got into the fandom, in a way, it was the spn family that helped me see Sam in a completely different way, at the start he seemed so immature and ungrateful towards Dean that I didn't (pt1)

care for him. The dynamics between the brothers remind me of the one I have with my sister, we didn't have a good relationship until we both reached our mid-teens and I realized she was her own person and she had to do her. It goes deeper but translating my experience to the bros and seeing it externally, analyzing the whole deal, I got to love Sam like I love my sister. (pt2)

So, that's my love story with the Winchesters and I'm pretty sure I've told you this before but you're one of the reasons I love Sam, because of your work (directly or not) I could unveil a lot of things about myself and how I interact with others. Hence, this is a thank you note in a three-part ask. Again, I hope it gets better, Ana. You're loved and appreciated.

I actually completely relate with your asks. In a lot of ways. I have never re-watched SPN start to end. Just binged my favorite episodes like a thousand times, so I’ve never had the opportunity to reevaluate Sam in earlier seasons. But you are right there. Till like the 4th season, Sam annoyed me too. More because Dean’s gut instinct was always frigging right and Sam barely ever listened.

Besides, Dean was the one who sacrificed a future, made a deal for Sam, went to hell, and was tortured so it was easy to feel for him and be a little frustrated towards Sam for wanting to leave his brother for the Stanford dream.

Even though Sam showed way too much remorse in season 5, way too much faith in Dean, jumped in the cage to save the world, was soulless, had hallucinations, was abused, got possessed, took on trials, the list is endless... All those times, I liked Sam, even sympathized with him a little, but I never empathized with him.

When I first got on tumblr, and started writing, I had my requests open. The first request I had was a Sam X Reader. And I still remember thinking why did it have to be Sam, cause Dean came so much easily to me. But I attempted it, and found out how easy it was to love Sam. When I started my first series, “The Email” I had to actually step into Sam’s shoes. Feel what he’s had to live through and that was when I fell head first in love with him. I couldn’t understand how I had not seen him for who he was. He tries so hard to do the right thing and he fails too, but he gets up and tries again. He’s a beautiful character! And it makes me so happy that I can help people see him the way I see him

I am so happy that you and your sister are on good terms now. I have two sisters too and can very well understand how important that bond can be

I have said this before and I’ll say it again. You are by far one of the most precious people I know. That’s a legitimate fact. You are way too kind and awesome. Thank you so much for all the sweet words. Love you!!

Send me an ask telling me what you love about your fav SPN character/ actor/ blog/ tumblr friend

dick blindness strikes again

dick blindness is a real thing it happened to my friend castiel

we deserved more of them

sam king of getting left out

truly the funniest show on television

THE drowley scene of all time

stab me in the face it would hurt less