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cause-i-am-a-mastermind · 1 year

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not to be a crazy swiftie, but i have a theory about midnights....

it might not even be new, but it's new to me, okay?

i wanna say, that I don't know shit about Taylor-lore, all i know is just bits and bobs and the bops (haha), that's all the context i have.

if you observe the songs in order:

lavender haze - the start of the relationship, start of lover era. it's a new relatioship, he's so accepting of her and all the drama that was around her, she feels the lavender haze creeping up on her (lover album - baby blue and pink clouds, pink+blue=purple -> lavender haze) she's so in love that she doesn't even care what people are saying ("talk your talk and go viral, i just need this love spiral, get it off your chest, get it off my desk")

maroon - the start of the end, a happy memory in the present, but looking back, it's all shades of red. "Red" is a song, in which she describes love as red. she described the love she felt towards him as golden in Daylight. looking back to the happy memory, she realises that he might not be the one, although she still loves him. comparing red and maroon (with burgundy and the other shades she used) we can feel like she really grew up between the two songs, these darker shades of red feel more mature

anti-hero - it all ties back to being a people pleaser (as she called herself in her newly released song" you're losing me"), the relationship isn't working out, so she tries to find the problem in herself. what I'm unsure about is the identity of the anti-hero. is it Taylor who finds all the faults of the relationship rooting from her, or is it Joe, who does not even seem to notice them? it's also notable, that she didn't leave Joe inher will in the music video. they either already broke up, or she already lost faith in the relationship lasting much longer.

snow on the beach - it was a good night. she thought the spark between them was gone, but that night was different, and it gave her hope. it's weird, it's like a dream, something she didn't think would happen, just like seeing snow on the beach. "I can't speak, afraid to jinx it" it made her so happy to have the spark back, but she's scares to mention it, just in case.

you're on your own kid - this song is a bit different, it could be interpreted in completely different contexts, but it also feels like they started to spend time apart from eachother. she's still hopeful, and is still looking to change herself, in case she can save the relationship. but it's just not working out. the one she loved the most, the one she thought was THE ONE just isn't, she's feeling lost like she's all alone in this world.

midnight rain - i saw someone say this was actually from Joe's pov, and it kinda makes sense. maybe both character's are Joe. "he" is his younger self, maybe from before they met, the one, who was looking for a bride. but it all changed, he changed, just like a day changes to another when midnight hits, a completely new day, a new person. the "I" is his current self, the one who is only chasing fame, wanting to make his own name. the song shows, how Taylor feels it's her fault that he changed. Before he met her, it wasn't a problem, but once they started dating, he was known as Taylor Swift's boyfriend, so he wanted to make his own name. this wouldn't have happened, if it wasn't for Taylor, so she simply blames herself.

question...? - i might be just dumb for this, I don't see anything in this, might be about cheating, or just thinking about cheating??? idk. she might started to realize she can't keep blaming only herself

vigilante shit - she's just in her girlboss era, don't mind her, she's servinggg

bejeweled - she gave him everything, he gave nothing. she's a bad bitch and she shows it. she was less public during the relationship, but she's still bejeweled, she can still make the whole place shimmer. "i polish up real nice". he gave up his chance, of always being first, so he now has to "wait in line" - he didn't put her first, so why would she?

labyrinth - he's trying to win her back, and it's working, kind of, but she knows, she can't let go of her walls, despite that being what everyone expects of her

karma - this song is for anyone who wronged her, but there are three, who got a verse dedicated to them, and i believe the third might be for Joe "ask me what I learned from all those years, ask me what I earned from all those tears"

sweet nothing - finding the pebble brings back a memory, that he might not be the villain she made him to be. she might have realised, that she went to the other extreme, that instead of blaming it all on herself, she was blaming it all on him. but it's not like that, it's not black and white, they both had parts in why it didn't work out.

mastermind - she's thinking about how they met, and the fact, that she was pulling the strings, which is a romantic gesture, kind of, but it does feel a bit artificial. we all have this belief that meeting our soulmate just happens, it's supposed to be love at first sight, and she might be feeling like she ruined their chances by pulling some strings right at the start.

the bonus tracks don't seem to follow any chronological order.

the great war - it ties the songs together, it makes the story a whole. when the relationship started to fail, she had everything bottled inside of her. she fought her feelings alone, although he tried to be there for her, it was just feeding the fire. she was blaming him, and despite seeing the situation more clearly, it was the great war. their biggest fight, they couldn't just "plant a memory garden" and act as if nothing happened. "the worst was over" "we survived the great war" they thought this was a huge fight and it's over, but the first world war was also called the great war, until the second happened, so the song title was also foreshadowing another fight.

some people think Bigger than the whole sky describes a miscarriage. which would make a lot of sense, as that tends to have its toll on relationships.

paris - 'yeah, nothing bad happened, we were in paris, remember?' this might be about how the public had no clue about the hard patch they were experiencing, this is the version, that we heard, thinking everything is fine and they love eachother more than ever. "romance is not dead if you keep it just yours" - that's a fucking lie, their romance was literally dying, but they couldn't just say that

high infidelity - it's either about her cheating on him. or the fact, that his feeling were never as strong as hers "the slowest is never loving them enough". maybe april 29th is not the day she cheated, but the one, where she soent the whole time daydreaming about them being married (second verse)

glitch - it completely disregards how she described their meeting in Mastermind. they weren't supposed to become a thing, it just happened, it was just up to chance, that she wasn't "in someone else's playground". the whole relationship happened because of a glitch, she didn't want to have a serious relationship

dear reader - she's talking about her experiences and giving advice, but her main advice is "never take advice from someone who's falling apart" but she's the one falling apart, you shouldn't take her advice, because she's so hurt that she can't see straight ("you should find another") - at first it's just whispers, then at the end, she's the one who tells the "reader" that they should find someone else to take advice from

hits different - this song is after the breakup, but doesn't make it too obvious, but might be the reason it was not online until now. it's not easy for her to move on, because he wasn't just 'one of those Kens, she'd just ghost'. "now the sum burns my heart" this line is referencing Daylight (love is golden like daylight) - love is burning her heart. the breakup made her a mess, she's crying over objects, she goes on tangents about him, so she doesn't get invited anywhere anymore, she still hopes for him to come back

#taylor swift #midnights #midnights 3am #midnights 3am version #taylor swift midnights #am i reaching too far #am i reading too much into this?#you're losing me still needs to ripen in my brain #i love to read to much into things #it's like my hobby #proofreading is for losers #i hope I won't regret wasting 3 hours on this shit #i will probably get embarassed and private this #midnights theory #be honest should i check myself into the nearest mental institution?#I shouldn't have drank that coffee #i am high on caffeine

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mishapen-dear · 3 months

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hi qsmp fans ive got a curiosity

#qsmp #qsmpblr #hello fellow canucks i know youre here #That One Mutual i am waving to you specifically #im curious about all the other countries too tho #and how far QSMP community actually reaches #at least here on tumblr lmao #i saw that cellbit map

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charcubed · 7 months

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oh everyone and their DISCLAIMERS about how “lokius will never be canon because disney and marvel are awful, but”........ well I have nothing to lose so. fuck disclaimers! this is my idea of fun! what if it CAN and WILL be canon, huh? what if the story is gonna go where it seems to be headed. what if I say they’re going to kiss on international streaming television. who’s gonna stop me

#I was in the tag on here again so. midnight shitpost time #lokius #but for real the disclaimers are like.... idk #are there Assigned Queerbaiting cops???? or are we policing each other #before anyone takes this too seriously yes I get it’s about ‘hopes’ and keeping fervor down and whatever #but the pendulum swing is just. tiring #to the extent that it has swung #sorry this is not articulate unlike my tweets on this topic semi recently #I will not let the corporations steal my joy preemptively or disappoint me preemptively. if they’re going to I’ll cross that bridge later #otherwise I find it far more exciting and entertaining to presume we live in a world where we get nice things #let me reach for the stars. because by God one day we WILL hit them #also per usual: abolish the nonsense word queerbaiting. Thank you and goodnight #PS I am not actually mad at fans protecting themselves and their emotions. I get the baseline reason. I am annoyed by The Situation #and with the use of the word ‘queerbaiting’ it all rooted in a fundamentally stupid or incorrect or shifting premise #chars loki posts

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trentcrimminallybeautiful · 1 year

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sometimes i wonder about the people ted left behind in the us. i mean, the way he is, the little we do see of his coaching from then, i have no doubt he had a great impact on his players and staff there, too; that they loved him, too. but like, we never see ted still connected to any of them. i understand why like, on a doylist level--narratively it would just clutter things to have this whole other cast, and beard is already there showing his previous important connections, but like. i dunno. i just wonder.

#is this foreshadowing to him leaving richmond?#is it that he has more friends than he knows but he doesn't reach out? but he was far more comfortable/confident before i think #(see sharon and 'i am a good coach')#hmmm.#this also just makes me think of like. one or any of them cming to visit #also see trent crimm talking to any of them (i read an EXCELLENT fic somewhere with trent like #early on digs into ted's past and finds a testimony from his former players #and i love that so much but i'd also love to see him directly interact with one of them #especially if they're expecting him to be trying to digging up dirt and just like #him abruptly admitting that no--ted got to him too got to his soft side #he doesn't want dirt. he wants to understand #ANYWAY its fine im just rotating this)#ted lasso

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salsa-di-pomodoro · 11 months

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Ok but can we talk about the absolute horror of being watched and monitored 24/7 that the ancients must have had. The citizenship drones being like an Alexa that's constantly following and listening to you (except it's five pebbles and not Alexa lmao). The fucking OVERSEERS. THEY'RE CALLED THAT FOR A REASON. BECAUSE THEY'RE SUPPOSED TO BE WATCHING THEIR CITIZENS AS WELL AS THE ENVIRONMENT ALL THE TIME. (I would talk about the fact that they all show arti fucking ads as well but honestly idk what else to say about that. Capitalism got yet another society 😔). That's some fucking nightmare fuel dystopian society settings we are being hinted at. You know the Big Brother Is Watching You thing. The book. Yeah that's what it reminds me of.

The Iterator Is Watching You.

#imagine not being able to escape being watched any second of your life #imagine being one of the first ancients who saw an iterator come into being #imagine being one of the first ancients who had to go live on top of them #imagine being one of the first amcients to be constantly scrutinized by the overseers #i bet they knew this wasn't really a good thing #no matter how religious they were. by the time of pebbles though they were far too religiously indoctrinated to realize this was bad #(as a society i mean. theres always some who disagree and figure out what's going on)#disclaimer i have never read the book i am talking about and only know it through references and pop culture. still tho yk what i mean #rain world #rainworld #rain world iterator #rw iterator #iterator #rw five pebbles #five pebbles #im tagging him too even tho hes only mentioned i wanna reach more ppl with this #pls i may not have said everything i wanted to say cause i cant get my thoughts straight rn but i want to hear what yall think about this #agh the whole situation is so fucked imagine being the Big Brother in this and not even having a choice in it.#imagine that everyone with critical thinking knows this and cant do anything about it.#not even mentioning the cataclysmic level rain the iterators brought. like dude who thought this was a good idea.#imagine all this + the end of the world and its ecosystem as you know it happening right before your eyes #and you cant even blame the person at fault that much bc they were literally fucking born into this #rw overseer #forgot this one #rw ancients

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puppetmaster13u · 6 months

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A rule to go by if you're a goon in Gotham lol

Possessed Doll Au belongs to @phoenixcatch7 go check her out!

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cementcornfield · 3 months

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good morning, ok time for me to be a little insane upon first waking up a little hungover on a sunday

we all know joe is in arizona for his friend's bach party/the little autograph signing thing yesterday. (i don't know exactly where that was but i know he was definitely partying in scottsdale because he is a basic bitch <3 <3)

and then last night ja'marr posts the most random blurry picture on his story

the only point of which seems to be establishing that he is now also in arizona. (in phoenix which is like 20 minutes from scottsdale). it's not a picture of ANYTHING!!! like it's just some blurry shot from the back of an uber. truly the only point of this is to say he's there.

and now i woke up and thank god i screenshotted it because HE DELETED IT!!!!!

i invite you all to draw your own (insane) conclusions

#am i saying that ja'marr went to arizona for joe???#yes.#i am crazy though #but i mean #we get all these miserable shots of joe #he's flipping people off in the club #he's reached his breaking point!!!#does he call ja'marr and beg him to come and make the weekend better??#does ja'marr see all this and take the initiative on his own??#and why oh why did he delete the story?????#did he even tell joe he was coming #or was he too shy about it so he just posted a story hoping joe would notice #and either joe did notice and so he could get rid of the story #or joe didn't and he was embarrassed and removed it #MANY THOUGHTS #👀👀👀👀👀👀#is all i'm saying #hi hello if you've made it this far i love you #you're following a crazy person

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yakourinka · 5 months

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#I want to donate a little bit of money.#not much. I am unemployed and the exchange rate is terrible #but I want to donate a bit to palestine right #the issue is there's so much conflicting reports about whether the aid ever reaches them or not #mersal foundation is running a charity campaign for feminine hygiene and medical products with red crescent palestine #and I want to donate to that #but are they getting the aid. and if it's red crescent I might as well #donate to my own country's red crescent #and if I'm doing THAT I might as well just buy dinner for the president #that's the issue with ME charities. no offense to anyone but if you know you know. and I know #charity tracker doesn't seem to have much info on mersal either #I can also just donate to palestine legal US or palestine action UK #the former is a legal fund for people who lose their jobs and shit to new wave mccarthyism and the other one is #the lads protesting in the UK apparently #but like. I want to donate to palestine #and it's really a small amount too hgjkfgnkds seriously there's no need to go this far for 20 dollaroos #but that's like 1/5ths of my rent right #do you understand #anyway does anyone have any suggestions

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laurabenanti · 1 year

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written content creators of tumblr (fan fic, poetry, original works, etc.):

if you're unsure what any of these are, here's something from write practice to provide a general overview. and here is an alignment chart for kicks and giggles.

#polls #c*polls #idk i'm kind of just being nosy and curious and therefore here i am #it's cool if you reblog i actually wanna see how far this reaches because boy oh boy #i am so very curious #also pls let us pick different poll lengths tumblr 1 day is too short and 1 week too long ;-;#also yes i will be srbing this a few times because i can #love u

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dahldahlbills · 2 months

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just hit 50k in cryptids wip :’)

#chugging along but the book is getting WRITTEN #I have 12.5 scene left btw…#technically in my outline I’m a little past the halfway point #but I think I have ~30k left to go 👀👀#it’s always so funny when you reach a milestone like this bc despite the agony of writing the thing you get all tingly and sappy like..#oh yeah :’) I wrote all that!! I’ve made it so far!!#ive got weird feelings abt this story but i am quite proud #it’s also been a while since I’ve progressed this far with an original project and ngl.. I really missed this feeling 😭#creating is cool!!! we love writing!!!#and just you wait until I reach the end. I’m gonna be so annoying about it (<— will most likely feel too shy to even say anything)#I wrote 5 scenes in like.. twoish weeks. which doesn’t seem like a lot but with the little time I have it honestly is #so if I’m consistent I could finish this draft in ~4 weeks???? 👀👀👀 like.#in a month I could have another book done. that’d be crazy.#anyway. yeehaw :D #blahblahbills #lol I know this means nothing to most people bc I literally never share anything abt this project lol #ew I used lol at the beginning and end of that tag but I don’t feel like retyping all that 💀

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deus-ex-mona · 1 month

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series i’m gatekeeping from my family vs series i’m ✨ok✨ with my family knowing i’m into:

#‘why do you gatekeep hw from your irls?’ well. the thing is. i just ✨don’t want to✨#and. like. i’ve already led my family to believe that i bought bl manga when i was buying idol sengen at animate #so i think im already past the point of no return in that regard. so. um. yeah.#thank you village vanguard for the unexpected μ’s content in 2k24 you truly are yappa saikyou #i s w e a r falling back into my ll phase almost 10 whole years after i first got into it is unexpected tbh #compounded with the fact that i can now actually afford whatever im looking for. so. like. my wallet is in crisis lol #i had just reached my savings goal last month but now i’ve overspent bc i saw great deals on resold honoka-chan hoodies and i couldn’t help—#so now i have 2 identical hoodies lol. but i’ll keep one of them safe in its packaging bc im unwell like that ig #my merch whaling is out of control i s w e a r but my oshis are just too cute aaaaaaaaa #i probably should open another savings account instead… maybe that’d keep my spending under control…#b u t for now honoka-chan jersey im looking for you #tfw ur oshi is decently unpopular amongst the fans so hardly anyone resells her merch lmao #so ig the relatively fewer fellow fans she has are more dedicated to her than fans of other more popular characters lol #but at least her stuff (when resold) isn’t as overpriced as the actually popular members (birb and tomato)#so my wallet isn’t crying as hard as it could’ve been? ig? hunting for almost 10 year old merch is a pain fr though #either way. the grip idol series have on my wallet is truly insane #i wonder how many bags of chips i could’ve bought with the amount i’ve spent on hw and ll merch to date…#at least a thousand… i think. maybe even 2 thousand if my past gacha game whaling is taken into consideration…#…this is probably why it’s important to have a decent paying job ig.#oh well. at least i may be making b a n k this month with how much ot i’ve had to do this week so far…#i hope i won’t have to work till 5am again over the next 2 days… that had been a horrible experience.#help what am i even talking about anymore why am i having a life crisis right here and now u m.#anyways. dni if you dislike honoka-chan. thanks for coming to my crisis rant. see you when the last stage mv drops ig ok byeeeee

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randolphbellmd · 18 days

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i do not like this phase of recovery

#3 weeks post-op in a 4-6 week recovery window is code for #am i doing too much? am i doing enough?#is this door too heavy? should i be reaching this far?#can i go back to work? can i afford not to go back to work?#what do you mean i can take this vest off next week…things aren’t healed! should they be? why aren’t they?#and when i’m the only one asking and answering these questions it’s super fun :)#this post brought to you by me taking the bus to work and having a two-hour minor panic attack the whole time #and i’m sure that accelerated heart rate was great for surgical recovery but hey #tbd

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sourcherrysconezz · 1 month

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Overarching Story of Dema, Trench, and Clancy - Theory / Insight

I haven't listened to Twenty One Pilots this deeply since middle school. With the new album coming out, I decided to look more into the lore of Tyler's universe, and I have a theory on the overarching story; what the story could representing.

TL/DR at the bottom

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I view all of this as representation of feeling trapped by mental illness. When you run, it pulls you right back. The Bishops represent the struggles that come with mental illness, or those habits that bring you back. In the Jumpsuit music video when Clancy is caught, Nico marks him with black paint before trying to take him back to Dema. The black-out paint on Tyler/Clancy's neck and hands from bits of Trench and all of Blurryface may represent that weight of mental illness, along with the labels and marks coming with it.

Clancy tries to run, but he can't escape. Nico will always find him. Scaled and Icy may represent the mask put on to hide everything going on in his mind.

Now, in the new album and next story arc, Clancy is returning to Dema and therefore, facing the Bishops. He is facing his demons. He is facing his mental illness. He's learned he can't run, but he can fight back.

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TL/DR: The Trench and Clancy story may be a commentary on mental illness and the inability to run away from it, but the ability to fight back and conquer it. OR I could be projecting.

#idk im mentally ill #might be projection #or im reaching too far #twenty one pilots #twenty øne piløts #trench #i am clancy #tyler joseph #josh dun #blurryface #scaled and icy #clancy #skeleton clique #dema #overcompensate #next semester #heavydirtysoul #jumpsuit #nico and the niners

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sassmill · 4 months

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“If a lot of men get killed at one go, does it make the killing of one man less of a crime? I don’t know, Andy, I don’t know. I’m only twenty and they say today the world is ours, but Pa was twenty once and felt the world was his, and long, long ago Mad was twenty too, laughing at applauding audiences, smiling from picture postcards, and when I am as old as she is nothing will have changed…”

Daphne du Maurier, Rule Britannia (1972)

#think about the context of this woman writing this right #she was born in 1907 #so by the time she was 20 she had lived through one world war with the next right on the horizon #as well as at this point witnessing the effects of so many other 20th century conflicts #she’s 65 at this point and this is what she sees ahead for future generations #which I’ve no doubt others saw coming as well but just like everyone for USUK in the book is acting #I’m sure plenty read this and thought but that could never happen not now not here not to us #but look where we are today #look at the genocide being enacted in Palestine #I want people to read this book in 2024 and think hard about it #because the events of the book are happening to white people in England right #I’m not at all trying to say she described anything on the level of the real world atrocities currently happening #but the slowly building anxiety of ‘but what could really happen they won’t do that’#then overnight all these new restrictions and retaliation #phones cut power cut water cut travel ban #just because it’s happening to people far away from your life #doesn’t mean it could never happen #you wouldn’t see it coming or think it was all that bad until suddenly it was too late #obviously I am reaching to apply this book to today but I think it could make certain people reexamine their mindset #daphne du maurier #rule britannia #quote #this book is making me think so much about imperialism and occupation and military states and civilian cruelty #through such an interesting lens considering what I know of Daphne du mauriers life up to the point she wrote this #this was her last novel #and it’s so different from her other novels #like this to me is her equivalent of a Connecticut Yankee in king Arthur’s court #except it’s just the ending where everything becomes terrible so fast

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yaoianime · 2 months

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Soon im rly gonna do it

#🕸️#sui mention #< in the tags tho cuz it feels nicer to talk abt this in tags than in the post itself cuz to me posts are like talking normally but tags are #like whispering? talking you can tune out if you want but whispering is rather more voluntary to say it doesnt matter however #every single year passes and i wish i didnt live in each and every one of them i feel disconnected dissatisfied empty disappointed every day #it can be a small part of a day or a bigger but its still there clenching onto me like and never letting go im tired of it theres always a #wall between me and otyer ppl im unsure if i put it there or was it put there by other ppl but its there and even if anyone tries to reach #into it do i understand how even if close are we really far away it makes me understand just how much of an abnormality i am and how much i #cant ever be like them no matter how much i try and climb and crawl until i bleed its exhausting its maddening #almost everything i do is shaped by spite i wear one bracelet for years out of spite i dont smoke out of spite i dont shave my hands not #only because im normal abt body hair but also out of spite the more i know ppl the spiteful i get only way for me to truly like someone is #to keep them at a lenght outside that wall if they get in then theres only two choices for them to dislike me or even hate my entire being #or me to shove them back out without ever letting them get in #coworkers say im a nice kind person but im not its all just a facade to make my life easier and to suit myself im hateful but i dont believe #its entirely my fault after all they will to my face make fun of. laugh at. and hate everything of me they would see in other ppl that dont #hide it deep within like i do and then it rly hits me how different abnormal foul disgusting and unnatural i am #im hit with his every talk that goes on too long every word that keeps going every touch every expression every comment made on my behalf #its exhausting to live this way i fear im near my limit i havent reached it but who knows when i will #i sometimes dream of doing it and leaving behind a note wishing nothing but painful suffering to everyone i ever knew irl but i dont want to #do that to my best friends and my dog but who knows how long its left before the thread breaks #thats all like comment and subscribe if you personally would do me a favor by taking me out back and shooting me

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hecksupremechips · 2 months

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Minor thing that really irks me is when people treat the femc route in p3 portable as like the lesser story or like it’s a fanfic where nothing that happens in it is the “true” canon like. Bitch. The femc and everything that happens in her version of the story is just as canon as the male protagonist and everything that happens in his story. And there’s literally been so many fucking versions of p3 at this point like the base game, fes, portable, the movies, stage plays, reload, as well as spinoffs and manga and they all do things differently. I don’t see anyone acting like the base game is more canon than, say, reload so why do they do this with portable? Why can’t the (infinitely superior) version with the female protagonist just be respected for five fucking minutes goddamn

#persona #persona 3 #kotone shiomi #its the misogyny yay #but god i am so tired of her game being treated as not actually canon like it literally is #theres multiple canons dipshit there is no true version of this game #and also people saying she doesnt fit the theme or some shit like. she literally does??? and honestly she does it better #like you can really feel the love she brings to the group and how she gives everything life and helps everyone #but also just how it all comes with pain she smiles and befriends everyone but shes always been so deeply alone and she doesnt want anyone #to feel the pain shes felt and so she carries all those burdens on her own and when everyone goes to reach out for her #its too late far too late shed sacrifice herself over and over for these people and theyll never once see her cry #she also you know. actually has good social links and gets to know everyone not just people she wants fuck #so you get to see just infinitely better versions of every character with her she really does bring out the best in them #and another thing in particular with the disrespect of her story is the way shinji living is treated again just like #some kinda fanfic au by someone who didnt wanna cope with their blorbo dying like ughh #shinji surviving is just as canon as him dying there is an entire canon where he gets a happy ending and it is once again #much better than versions where he dies like ive. exhausted myself with explaining it but its just better #so yeah basically out of spite i like acting like kotones story is actually the one true canon #and when people mention stuff that isnt in her story im like ‘huh? what? that didnt happen’#cuz whos gonna stop me

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