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Angel - Chapter 3

ITS HERE ITS FINALLY HERE IM SO SORRY. UGH THAT TOOK SO LONG.

but there it is chapter three. I literally wrote most of this chapter while i was in the lobbies of among us games. 

Warnings: Smut, swearing nothing too bad this chapter. 

words: 4.2K!!!!!!!

As the sun rose on the city, your alarm decided to screech its ugly voice across the whole apartment. Why you had decided that waking up at 5am, when you didn’t start work at your new job in Lord Industries at 9am, was absolutely beyond you. You chalked it up to nerves. I mean sure, you were fucking the owner and CEO but that doesn’t mean you’re going to become complacent about this position. Not only were you working in the largest company in most of the country, but you were also Head Marketing for your city’s division. 

           You started your day as you would any other workday, groaning and convincing yourself that leaving bed was worth it. After that, it was coffee and shower time, and if you were lucky you could throw in a cigarette on the balcony, and since you didn’t need to leave for another 4 and a half hours you thought you might just test your luck with multiple. 

Halfway through your shower you heard the phone ringing, you trudged out to the phone wondering who in god’s name was calling at 4:23am. To your great (and welcomed) surprise, it was Darius. “My dearest I’ve been told to inform you that I will be picking you up today, I’ll be at your door by 7:30. So, be ready.” 7:30? That was a whole hour before you were planning on leaving the comfort and security of your new home. 

           “Darius, I didn’t think we started until 9am why are you picking me up so early?” you queried. 

“Well, it seems Maxwell doesn’t want you catching a cab but also did not offer for me to take you both so obviously this means that I will be picking you up first and making me work extra hard.” 

           Oh. he doesn’t want to ride with you to work. You considered that it was perhaps because he didn’t want to incite rumors, but you found it strange, but nonetheless you told Darius that this would be fine and that you would see him at 7:30. An hour early. 

Only you didn’t see Darius at 7:30, in fact you didn’t even see him at 8, it wasn’t until 8:15 hit that you heard any word from him. “Darius I was just about to call a cab you never came? Is everything okay?” 

“Well, it seems Mr. Lord has contracted an illness, called a hangover. I picked him up at 6:30 to get McDonalds. I’ve already dropped him at work, I suspect he’s napping in his office as we speak.” you couldn’t help but laugh at the idea of Max laying on the floor of his office completely passed out. “I’ll be down in a moment, just let me pick out my shoes.” you said back to him, “ahh so I’ll see you by sundown.” Darius quipped back in a lighthearted way. If things ever went belly up with Max, you really hoped you could keep Darius around. 

The ride to the building was filled with the banter you’d become accustomed to with Darius, until you were pulling up to a big silver building, the largest in the city, obviously. You were in absolute shock and awe when you stepped out of the car, you’d thought for a moment in time, ‘woah, this is what ants feel like.’

“Hello ma’am could I see your ID and security badge please?” were the first words you heard when you walked through the doors to the lobby, you stammered over your sentences confused, you didn’t have a security badge, you didn’t realise you’d need one, Maxwell had never mentioned it. “Thank you, Keith, that won’t be necessary, Miss Y/N here is our new head of marketing, I’ve been tasked by Maxwell to escort her to his office.” Darius said coming up behind you. You hadn’t even realised that he had left the car, but here he was escorting you up the escalators. “Ahh yes, I see, of course.” the security guard, Keith, said with a sly smile and a wink. You knew what that meant, and it churned your stomach to think about. How many times had Max given his one-night stands jobs? If he was willing to do it for you, he was willing to do it for others. 

Unfortunately, your question was answered the moment you reached the top floor where Maxwell’s office sat. he had 4, beautiful, well-shaped, pardon your French but devilishly fucking sexy assistants. Why he would need more than one exceptional looking assistant was a question that in itself was the answer. 

“You can’t go in there, Mr. Lord doesn’t like visitors in the morning, he’s especially not looking for new, meat.” one of them all but sneered at you. “Holly if you would quit blabbering, I think I’d like to escort your new head of marketing to your boss if you don’t mind. Will that be okay with you?” Darius was on a roll today in saving you from situations with people. 

As you walked into his office, Maxwell was, surprisingly, upright, on a phone call, drinking coffee and looking all but exasperated. He opened his eyes for only a minute to point at you and then the chair in front of you, and at this Darius left the room and you had no savior from this situation because Maxwell, well, he looked mad. You were worried you’d already done something to upset you and that’s just what you needed right now. An angry man who housing you and providing you job security and most importantly, orgasm security. 

For almost 10 minutes you sat in that chair waiting for Maxwell to be off the phone, never looking up, as to avoid eye contact. When he finally hung up the phone Maxwell stood up, came around the desk and sighed heavily saying, “god I’m glad you’re here,” before all but smashing his lips to yours. Okay. not upset. That’s good, that’s easy to deal with. “I’ve only been here an hour and already I’m just ready to go to your apartment and fuck all my frustration out.” well you weren’t expecting that per se but it’s a welcome surprised. 

“Well, stop me if this is too unprofessional, but you have a perfectly good table to bend me over.” you said, looking up at him through your lashes, trying to look innocent. 

“God you’re incredible woman.” he said pulling you out of your chair and oh would you look at that, bending you over his desk. 

“I really hope you didn’t buy any pants in that shopping haul of yours because having access to your pretty pussy at work is going to work so well for both of us, he said hiking your skirt up just enough so he could pull down your panties, he bent over you until his mouth was hovering at your ear, “you’re going to need to be quiet angel, don’t want anyone getting the wrong idea about you now do we?” and before even finishing his sentence his thrust his cock straight into you. It took everything in you to not cry out, but you bit the back of your hand to keep yourself quiet. 

“God it’s only been two days and I missed this pussy, how have I fucked you so hard so often and you’re still this tight? You’re fucking magical, aren’t you? You and your magical cunt are going to kill me, you know that? If I could stop sleeping to have more time to fuck this pussy I would if I could starve myself from food and only eat you dear god I would. So, fucking good.” 

“I thought you said we had to be quiet?” you said to him, with a small smirk on your face that quickly vanished as he spanked your ass a few times, then started thrusting into you with such force you thought you might slip open, he pulled you hair to bring you up against his chest, “that shut you up, didn’t it, you fucking brat,” he said replacing your hair in his hand for your throat. 

Within minutes he was Cumming right into you, he must have realized you hadn’t come yet, only stopping for a split second to pull out, spin you around and replace his cock with his fingers, pushing his cum, back into your cunt, finger fucking you until you were once again about to bite into your hand, when Max switched hands and shoved his cum coated fingers in your mouth to keep you quiet. As you cum around his hand and screamed around the other one, Max could only look at you with lust blown pupils. 

“Well, I think this is the best first day I’ve ever had.” you said to him, completely breathless. 

“It’s about to get better angel, let me show you to your office.” 

He was right, your office did make it better. It was a big, beautiful space, with high ceilings, timber floors and a view to die for, you truly didn’t know how you got so lucky just from a random hookup, but you weren’t but to look a gift horse in the mouth. 

“Max this is absolutely beautiful, did the head of marketing get this office too?” you asked in wonderment. 

Well, actually no, this was my office, but I’ve taken over my father’s office, I think it’s about time I moved into it and you gave the motivation to do so.” his smile was small, but it was sincere, you think that might have been the first sincere smile you’d seen from Max. 

“I’ll let you get acquainted with your new space if you have any questions, my extension is 0204 okay? If any of my assistants give you any grief, just tell them that their bonuses are on the line they’ll smart right up. I promise.” Maxwell gave me a wink and then shut the door. You walked around the room, gingerly touching the walls, the painting, slowly sliding your hand across your desk, you felt a sense of pride wash over you as you sat at your desk, you weren’t really sure what to do first, you searched around your desk for notes, maybe the previous person in your position left. 

Just as you thought you’d found them, your door swung open, a woman with burgundy hair and a bright pink skirt suit walked through the door. 

“Hello sweetheart, I’m here to help you out, I’m your assistant and Mr. Lord told me that you’d be starting today I figured that he wouldn’t have told you anything, so I thought I’d come give you the rundown, I was the last guys assistant too.” she was really perky, very upbeat for 9:13 in the morning. “Oh, you probably think I’m so rude, my name is Sookie, Sookie Amelia Jersey, it’s nice to meet you?” he hadn’t even told anyone your name yet? Okay feeling less special now. 

“y/n my name is y/n y/l/n but just call me y/n, thank you so much I really have no idea what I have to be doing.” you said trying not to sound like you weren’t supposed to be there or that you didn’t know what you were doing. Which you didn’t. But she didn’t need to know that. 

“Well then let’s get right to it.” and with that, you and Sookie started talking business. 

 It seemed like the time was going so slow, that was until the door swung open once again, only this time Darius stood at the door, coffees, and an ominous brown bag. “I knew you wouldn’t have eaten, so I’ve brought sustenance, oh hello Miss Jersey.” Darius really just knew everyone, maybe he’s a wizard. 

“Darius you are absolute life saver, I think you might be the love of my life.” you said with utter certainty that Sookie now probably thinks there’s something going on between you guys. Ahh if only she knew. 

“And you are mine, dear, but before we begin planning the wedding might I suggest food?” he places the coffee down on the table and what you can now see are croissants. Hmm, 4 coffees, 4 croissants. And as if on cue Darius mutters that he’ll be back as he needs to deliver Max his lunch. 

“I didn’t realise you were already in with Darius. That man took me four years to crack, another two for him to start bringing me food, and here you are on your first day on a first name basis? Who did you fuck to get that treatment?” oh god had she caught on? Does this happen a lot? Does Max give jobs to everyone he fucks? Your mind is running a million miles an hour when you sheepishly laugh and tell some lie about how Darius was an old friend. She seemed to buy it as she moved on to talking more about marketing and what you’ll need to do. 

Soon it was the end of the day and Darius was back at your door telling you to meet him at the car. You said goodbye to Sookie and apologized for stopping her from working. 

You left the building and walked to the car seeing Maxwell in the back of the car. Oh. so now he’s good enough to go home with you but not to come to work with you. You see how it is. 

           You greeted him as you entered the car only for him to point at the phone, you looked at Darius in the rear-view mirror and you both shared a look between you that said, “here we go.” 

           Maxwell was on the phone the entire ride back to your apartment, only removing the receiver from his ear to say, “wear something classy I’ll be back at 7.” 

           What? 

           Its Maxwell Lord, you decided it would be safer for you to heed his warning and just wait to find out what happens. Maybe he just wanted to fuck someone high class tonight. 

            As it neared closer to 7 you kept meticulously checking your hair and makeup, making sure there was nothing on the red gown you’d chosen to wear. You really hoped you would figure out what was going on first, so you didn’t need have anxiety waiting to find out. 

           Just before you could contemplate jumping off the fire escape there was a sharp knock at the door, and a very sharply dressed Maxwell. 

           “Hello angel, I’m here to escort you to your first lord industries gala. You look incredible and I am definitely going to ravish you later, but we really should be going.” he all but pulled your arm out of its socket as he led you out of your door towards the elevator 

           “I don’t mean to sound clueless, but what gala? I haven’t been told about a gala?” you said to him, sounding slightly timid. 

           “Oh? Did I not tell you? We’re having a gala to celebrate the surplus budget this quarter and has my new head of management I thought it only proper to escort you there myself. Plus, there will be some CEOs from rival companies there, I do love to gloat to my competitors.” there was a new air around Max, he looked more pristine and confident. Tonight, was going to be intense you could already feel it. Even on the drive over he was, happier? Maybe he really did just get a kick out of showing off. You understood that. You couldn’t lie and say that it didn’t excite you to be walking in on Maxwell’s arm. To have all eyes staring at you wondering who you were and what you were doing with him. 

           As you arrived at the gala there was a slew of cameras lining a beautiful gold carpet. “We always go with gold because red is overdone, and Lord Industries is revolutionary. Were made of gold baby.” well that explained it. Not that you were questioning it, he did seem like the type to break the mould when it comes to luxury. I mean he was housing you just for the luxury of having convenient sex. It just seemed to fit Max really.

           Exiting the car, the barrage of flashes and yelling hit you like a wall, it was a wonder you didn’t freeze up under the pressure, but you walked next to Max with all the poise and confidence you could muster. The photographers were yelling questions at Max, not at you, but they were all asking about you, you kept your head forward and so did Maxwell. He didn’t say anything while walking past them and up the stairs, his expression only changed after entering the building. He turned to you and praised your level of composure before leading you up to two large doors. On the other side you could hear music and chatter, you wondered why you weren’t entering until you heard an announcer say “Folks, I’m sure were all having an absolute stellar time, but I’d like to draw your attention to the man of the hour, Mr. Maxwell Lord.” his voice rang out over large speakers as the doors opened and Maxwell lead you into the ballroom to polite applause. 

           You were stunned at how many people there were standing in the ballroom, you stood there feeling quite awkward at the stares that were being passed your way and the slight glares coming from some of the women, (and a few men) in the room. 

           “My friends and guests, thank you all so much for coming tonight and while I can appreciate that you would all like to go back to drinking my champagne id first like to introduce someone to you, your new head of marketing for Lord Industries, Miss Y/N Y/L/N. I’m sure she’ll fit right in with us and help us continue to be the frontier for this country.” Max had an excellent public speaking voice; he commanded the room, and you couldn’t lie. You got kind of wet seeing him so, for lack of a better word, bossy. 

           Max leaned in and whispered to you, “go mingle, if you need anything Darius will be floating around.” and then he was gone leaving you to your devices. 

           Thankfully, Sookie found you almost immediately, “I just knew he’d leave you floundering the moment you got here, he’s probably already in the bathrooms giving one of his assistants a ‘bonus’ doesn’t worry sweetheart I’ve got you covered ill introduce you to the actual important people.” and so she did. Within the hour you’d met the head of sales, Mary, head of finance, Samuel, and their assistants, Lorelai, and June. she showed you (but absolutely did not introduce you to) the head of Human Resources, Marcus, who was (in her words) a total douchebag, the head of purchasing, Manny, who apparently would want to corrupt you, you didn’t want to ask what that meant but you had some idea and wanted to laugh because if only Sookie knew. By the time you’d met Jenny, lady who ran the coffee shop in the lobby, Darius had found you both and you sighed a breath of relief, you loved Sookie, but you still weren’t too familiar with her. 

           “My dear you look exquisite I told you that you would look amazing in that dress.” Darius said with one of the biggest smiles you’d ever seen him wear. “You’re drunk aren’t you Darius.” you laughed at him; he was wobbling a bit. 

           “Y/N I am offended that you think I would drink at a work function. But yes, I am absolutely sloshed. Galas are the only nights I can get so drunk I can’t walk, and Maxwell doesn’t fire me, he says it’s good for me to let go, I have no idea what he’s talking about. I am very relaxed all the time, who wouldn’t be working for the prince of darkness. Oh god he’s not behind me, is he?” 

           “Darius you’re rambling, he’s not behind you, I haven’t seen you since he left me at the start.” you said trying to get him to stop talking so rapidly.” 

           “Well, my dear he has seen you; he’s been staring at you since Sookie found you.” Darius’ head vaguely pointed to the wall behind him, you stole a glance and sure enough there was Maxwell, talking to someone but not paying attention to them, he was staring right into your soul, it wasn’t a glare or even angry in anyway, but it was intense, like he was trying to read your mind. Somehow you believed he actually might be able to. You gave him a small smile and he nodded his head in your direction. You looked back at Darius, “he’s probably just making sure I don’t embarrass him.” you said trying to write off the fact that he was staring. Trying to convince him it meant nothing. Or yourself that it meant nothing and that there definitely was not butterflies in your stomach. 

           An hour passed as you and Sookie milled around the room, you lost Darius at champagne number three, with him and Sookie both calling you a prude for not drinking, and you telling them every time that you hated champagne and would much prefer tequila. 

           Suddenly a hand tapped you on the shoulder, you spun around expecting Max, or Darius or literally anyone else. But not henry. Not your ex-boss Henry Giorgio. “Y/N it’s so good to see you! I was quite surprised to hear that you had left us, but I can see why, head of marketing and you get to fuck the boss? What a steal!” your eyes widened from shock not just at seeing him but hearing what he said, you grabbed his arm and dragged him towards a wall telling Sookie that you’d be back right away. “What do you mean fucking the boss? I am not sleeping with Mr. Lord and I will not have you come here and try to embarrass me just because I wouldn’t sleep with you.” your voice was low but harsh as you spoke you him. 

           “Oh, please darling, this is Maxwell, every time a new woman under 30 starts at his company everyone knows that it because he’s sleeping with her, but you got head of marketing, you must have really shown him a good time, I mean everyone else just gets assistant jobs, but you, well that must have been a good blowjob.” he was snarky and rude, and you felt like you were going to cry. 

           “Oh, don’t tell me I’ve hurt your feelings, what did you think was going to happen? Maxwell was going to fall for you. Darling I wouldn’t even waste your breath on that idea, that man has never felt love, his fiancée went missing for god sakes and he came home and went to work the very next week. He doesn’t care about you. You could die and he wouldn’t notice.” 

You suspected that Maxwell only hired you because he could fuck you but hearing someone else say it mad tears begin to sting your eyes. You didn’t think you wanted Maxwell to fall for you until that very moment in time. Before you could say anything or think too hard on the subject, you felt someone come up behind you, it was Maxwell, and if you could have tensed up even more. 

           “Is there a problem here Mr. Giorgio, I should hope you’re not trying to steal back our new member of the team.” Maxwell also sounded tense, but you knew better than to think it was because you’d been upset and not because Henry was his rival. 

           “No not at all Maxwell, just giving her my good wishes, is all.” Henry’s voice was dripping in the smug tone you’d heard so many times working for Halo. 

           “Well then if you’re done, I’d like to steal Miss Y/L/N back if you don’t mind.” Henry merely waved Maxwell off but by then you didn’t want to be there anymore, your head was swirling, and you could only feel pity for yourself, you broke away from Maxwell to go find Sookie. 

           “I need to go home, please I want to go home, now.” you were trying so hard not to cry, tears stinging and threatening to spill over as Sookie led you out of the ballroom, and as you passed Darius, him quickly catching on and following. You didn’t see the confused and hurt look on Maxwell’s face.

           After you finally exited, you noticed the cameras had left, and you broke down in Darius’ arms as Sookie called her husband, Jackson, to come pick you all up. Darius gave Jackson the directions to your house, and when Sookie and Darius offered to join you, and take care of you inside you brushed them off giving them a lame apology about going to bed early and that you would see them tomorrow at work.

           As you showered and climbed into bed, you were mad at yourself for getting so hurt, this was just a business arrangement. You weren’t special. And you shouldn’t see Maxwell as special either. But you did. 

           And it sucked.

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1. Favorite Song at the Moment

lazybaby by dove cameron

i dont....think i need to explain myself. the brainrot has been substantial and has lasted almost 3 months. as ive said in other posts, i already loved her music, but THIS. THIS is what ive been wanting all along and quite honestly puts all her other singles to shame. (which sounds harsh but i just really prefer upbeat stuff ok)

2. A Song You Associate With Your Favorite Ship

i feel it comin by the weeknd

for mosh. the line “you’ve been scared of love and what it did to you” is what first gave me the idea. im actually working on edit rn with them and this song and im continuing to see how well it fits them, bc its all about not fighting and taking the beginning of a relationship slowly, which is spot on for them.

3. A Song That Could Be About You

rite of spring by angels and airwaves

ok mostly the chorus bc the verses are very specific lol. but the chorus is spot on me, every word, which is rare for me.

4. A Song You Think is Overrated

drivers license by olivia rodrigo

lees gonna kill for this one lmao. maybe its not my kind of music but it really blindsided me when this blew up as fast as it did, particularly bc ive followed a number of other disney stars music careers who couldnt get that well known even after a few albums, let alone one single. i also am just territorial with my fandoms and to see all these random people become obsessed with her in a day when id been following her for significantly longer and was just brushed aside for it is annoying.

5. A Song That Reminds You Of A Good Memory

untouched by the veronicas

it was like 5am on july 29 2017 and id just gotten home from seeing dove in mamma mia a few hours prior and still riding that high. and i cant stress how much i mean riding that high. ive posted about it before so some of you have been subjected to these stories already fjhgkjfdgjd. i laid awake just in complete bliss for literal hours simply because id just had one of the best nights of my life. this song came on my dash and i reblogged it, thinking immediately how from then on, i’d associate it with that night. and i have. the next year was rough, getting hardly any new content out of dove after 4 years of constant content which left me v understimulated, but just listening to this song would rekindle my love for her.

6. The Last Song You Listened To

break this down by the cast of descendants 3

i was hanging out with one of my fellow disney-loving pals and put my disney playlist on shuffle as i usually do with him. i usually skip the disney channel stuff when i do that but obvs i wasnt gonna skip this.

7. A Song That Makes You Laugh

hot stuff by donna summer

inside joke with my best friend. just gonna leave it at that. have heard it twice in the same antique store over the last couple weeks and lost it both times.

8. A Song You Want Your Mutuals To Listen To

taste of you by rezz feat dove cameron

need i say more. we’ve come full circle my friends.

i tag @iorde @browncesario @superbatson

i never check my mentions apparently @alpacalmond and @uiyutrentasei tagged me in a GTKM thing so im gonna do it oh uhhhh 2 weeks later LOL because i cant sleep and i hate myself

i tag @hal-strider if they didnt do it? and @noctiilucent, @kiyumiarashi, @whimsicmimic and @ataliaf uwu and anyone else who wants to do it!!

how tall are you: this is a cryptid question. i get a different result every time i try to measure myself and ive never asked anyone else to do it for me. some people tell me im very short, others have told me im average height for someone who is afab. im gonna hazard a guess at 5′5 tho.

what colour are your eyes: very dark brown

do you wear contacts and/or glasses: glasses. i literally CANNOT see without them. i mean like 2 inches from my glasses-less face is so blurry its unbelievable. i get super triggered by eye stuff tho so contacts are a no go ALSO i look weird w/o glasses anyway.

do you wear braces: no my teeth r p good actually. one is a bit wonky but thats life

what is your fashion style: i mean 90% panties and a sweaty 4 day tshirt because i just spend all day in my room like a goblin. BUT when i actually go out im ur basic ass post-emo trans dude with skinny jeans, converse and a too-big graphic tee. sometimes i spice it up with a plaid shirt because im fuckin GAY.

when were you born: october 12th 1999, babey

how old are you: 18 motherfucker flashes my titties and gulps a bottle of vodka im an ADULT

do you have any siblings: yes. a younger brother and hes a cunt

what school/college do you go to: im at sixth form rn (last yr of highschool technically if ur american but im not and hs finishes at 16 yrs old here deal with it). im going uni next yr tho and this years almost over for me academically since we go on study leave soon for our final exams. uwu overshares

what kind of student are you: the asshole who never studies for tests and does homework at 5am the morning before and still manages to pull straight As to everyones anger. im also the adhd class clown who makes random noises and cant concentrate half the time. ik i hate myself too im so annoying irl even more so than online.

what are your favorite subjects: in terms of actual content of the subject, english lit fs. in terms of classmates/teachers/general atmosphere DEFFO drama we spend half of our time eating cake, singing random shit and just losing our minds while filming it on snapchat which shouldnt at all be allowed.

what are your favorite movies: god idek. um. fuck. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i cant think of a single movie. ok ok ok i got it: white chicks, premium rush, scott pilgrim vs the world, the cornetto triology too i just love edgar hes such a great director. i like a lot of the marvel movies esp the spiderman hc and thor ragnorok and both gotg were p good. i love a lot of movies my brains just a void that sucks memories up into its fat gob and steals them from me forever.

what are your pastimes: sleeping, crying, used to be rping but i gave up on that, playing overwatch way too much and getting tilted because im shit, reading fanfictions did i say sleeping

do you have many regrets: dude. my guy. come in close. let me whisper in ur ear. are you close? no, closer. ok. 

YES

what is your dream job: whoo boy. im do indecisive and i think a LOT of jobs seem super cool that id never do i.e. be an actor or be in a band. my dream job since i was like 8 was to be a writer which is unlikely since i cant even finish a pwp oneshot. but thatd be cool. id also like to write plays and direct them but thats also wild and v dream > reality. 

would you like to get married: honestly. marriage as an institution? angers me. i dont like a lot of things about it. BUT. part of the reason i hate it is honestly if ur in a long long term relationship with someone ur better off married than not in terms of the benefits so. id happily get married if the other person wanted and/or we felt like it was the right thing to do, i just dont really care about being married or having a wedding tbh.

do you want kids? how many if so: no. hard pass. i might adopt if im long-term with someone who SUPER wants kids but that likely wont happen because i dont want to get into a long-term relationship with someone so desperate for kids since i dont have that same enthusiasm. sorry. ill be ur uncle gabe but im not having my own children im just not well equipped to literally have a full time job of making sure little idiots (meant affectionately) who dont know fuck from shit dont just straight up die. i can barely do that for myself.

how many countries have you visited: shit dude actually ive only visited like... uh... 4??? a lot of my holidays tend to be to the same countries (portugal/america) so i dont have that much experience like i feel like i do.

what was your scariest dream: hmmmm. when i was a kid i had these recurring dreams where i worked at this like. “zoo” where these MASSIVE, i mean ABSOLUTELY MASSIVE string rays that were also pancakes were like. hooked up to make electricity? anyway i hated the job because we all abused the rays super bad to make them generate the power and it sucked and it was all dystopian. there was stuff where like we had to kill the baby rays and stuff. anyway one day it went all planet of the apes and they broke out somehow and could fly and they killed loads of people and i had to go into hiding because they were super clever and could id who had worked at the zoo plant and wanted revenge. its super weird ik but this is pretty tame for my dreams they go HARD and BIZARRE and this one always made me wake up feeling super sick and scared idk. ur welcome.

do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/significant other: no im lonely but its ok because i need to work on me 

put your playlist on shuffle and without skipping the first 15 songs: ok so i dont really have a “playlist” per se so im just gonna use my top 100 2017 songs on spotify which ignores a lot of my non-spotify non-2017 bangers but whatever.

1) ‘My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark’ by FOB

2) ‘Tuxford Fall’ - Vasudeva

3) ‘Our Lawyer Made Us Change The Name Of This Song So We Wouldn’t Get Sued’ - FOB

4) ‘Fried Noodles: Getter Remix’ - Pink Guy, Getter (listen ive never watched any filthy frank he weirds me out but this is a banger)

5) ‘Brick By Boring Brick’ - Paramore

6) ‘Thnks Fr Th Mmrs’ - FOB (i really dont listen to this much fob this is crazy)

7) ‘Death Note L’s Theme Goes Metal’ - Charlie Parra del Riego (theres no defence for this)

8) ‘Turnstile’ - Vasudeva

9) ‘Idle Worship’ - Paramore

10) ‘Monster’ - Paramore

11) ‘Miss Missing You’ - FOB

12) ‘The City’ - Madeon

13) ‘Far Too Young To Die’ - P!ATD

14) ‘Don’t Stop’ - Nothing More (really this is the band i listen to much smh these results are so skewed)

15) ‘Smile Like You Mean It’ - The Killers

Church of the Poison Mind (Trixya) Ch. 7 - Dahlia

A/N:

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I’ve been going through a lot of pretty heavy real life stuff, and have just basically been overwhelmed, but I am so OVERJOYED to be writing again! And I thank you so much for your patience in waiting for this chapter! Here’s hoping the final chapters follow in quick succession. Thank you so so so much for all of your kind words and messages, they keep me going!

ALSO I’M SO SORRY THIS ENTIRE CHAPTER IS JUST ANGST. You’re welcome. :)

I would not have made it through this chapter, or life in general, without my lovely lesbians DjoodiGarland and Matilda_Queen. Thank you for always being there for me and loving me through this. And to Rosie, my beautiful, sweet love. Thank you for everything, I don’t know where I’d be without you.

“What kind of daughter are you?”

There had been a lot of shouting those days, a lot of name calling, a myriad of misspoken insults that sank into her skin like injections of lost faith.

Trixie spent most of her time calling rental agencies, shaking her mother awake, getting turned down by realtor after realtor because she was, well, she was too young. And truly, how could she expect any respectable adult to take her seriously?

“You have to be at least 18 to apply.”

 I’m not.

“Is this a prank call? Where are your parents, kid?”

Hell, if I should know.

”You have to file a credit report, first.”

What’s a credit report?

“Okay so, why can’t your mother come to the phone again?”

She’s ill.

”We’ll get back to you.”

No, you won’t.

Homeless. Trixie kept thinking, homeless . If it continues on this way, the sheriff will come and evict us and we’ll be homeless. Countless nights she’d lie awake, obsessively checking her emails, relentlessly disappointed, and she’d think homeless.

She’d stopped going to school, stopped trying to wake her mother in time for the truancy officers, in time for CPS, and family services. And nobody looked at her the same, they always held the same disgustingly patronizing eyes. Poor trixie, her mother doesn’t care, her mother can’t care, her mother had forgotten to care.

But still, they shrugged her case off. Afterall, there’d been no evidence of physical abuse. Trixie appeared well fed, well kempt. And this allowed for more time, for more phone calls and rejections. Allowed for more empty booze bottles and prescription refills, piling sinks full of dishes and dirty carpets.

And soon she found herself asking, “What kind of a daughter am I?”

—

“I’m very sorry, we… I should not have done this. It was inappropriate of me.”

“Katya…”

Through the fog of lost sleep and Russian folk flowing tinny through the car speakers, Trixie rubbed the sleep from her eyes, stealing glances from her seat on the passenger’s side. Katya’s eyes were narrowed and stolid as she drove, focused on the road, pale hair spilling out in heaps over her thin shoulders. And neither of them spoke, the ever-thickening gravity of the night before weighing on them like a fever dream. Trixie felt tender but weary, fearful. She wanted more, so much more than the situation could allow.

Somewhere, on some plane, Trixie knew that this was fleeting; that any feeling Katya might’ve held for her, couldn’t be sustainable. And she could feel the regret, hanging bitter in the air between them, that even though they hadn’t done anything measurable, it was the tenderness that stung the most. The cloying need for sweetness, need for more, contradicted by the wavering inability to act; but still, she yearned for Katya’s touch, for that laugh, and those wide, curious eyes.

The sun came into full view then, but the hour was still just as pale blue as the shine in Katya’s eyes. And as they pulled up to Trixie’s house, much to her surprise, Katya didn’t look over, but stayed steely, eyes cast over the dashboard. And Trixie sighed complacently, as the warmth had seeped out of Katya’s smile somewhere between Main street, and Beacon drive.

Trixie sat for a moment, quiet in her breathing, searching the side of Katya’s face, silently willing Katya to turn her head. Her sight followed the deep plunge of Katya’s cheekbones, down her neck, her freckled chest; and Trixie wanted nothing more than to reach out and let a hand fall to the back of Katya’s neck, but she resisted.

And just then, with a subtle haste, Katya sent her arm across the center console, over Trixie’s chest, and opened the passenger’s side door.

Confident there was nothing more to be said, she flipped a brief nod of thanks and turned in her seat to step down, but before she could, the light brush of Katya’s fingers found her cheek. And Trixie turned her head to meet Katya’s eyes, just as bright and heavenly as they were the night before, but riddled now with penitence. Trixie closed her eyes, leaning her cheek into Katya’s palm, a deep exhale leaving her like a calm under the waves. Softly, she opened her eyes, took in one last glance, and stepped out of the car, closing the door gently behind her.

Soon Trixie was watching Katya pull away, her car stalling at first, and then kicking up dust as it descended the graveled drive. A chill ran through her, smooth in the November air; and Trixie found herself, bleary eyed and sullen, missing the cardigan she’d forgotten in Katya’s back seat. All the while hopeful, incredibly hopeful, that its presence would carry Katya back to her.

With a forbearing sigh, Trixie carried herself up the porch steps and pushed through the front door. She entered, closed it quietly behind her, and tiptoed through the kitchen, kicking off her shoes by the basement door.

“Well, aren’t we getting in late…”

Trixie turned with a start, her heart skipping a beat. Kim was sat at the kitchen window seat, spooning heaps of sugar into a steaming mug of tea. And as the steam crept into the air, an image of last night’s coffee churned in the pit of Trixie’s stomach. Then she was desperate for it, remnants of that memory still latent on the burnt tip of her tongue.

“Or should I say,” Kim spoke again with a curt grin, “early? Given it’s 5am.”

“Okay, mom. I could ask you the same thing. What’re you doing here so early?”

“Waiting for you.”

“What, why?” Trixie chuckled, scanning Kim’s face.

Trixie crossed the kitchen floor and headed for the coffee maker, her hip brushing Kim’s protruding knee as she passed by. Her head ached with exhaustion, and while she was thankful for the comforting gurgle of coffee brewing, she felt irritable, raw; unsure if the coffee would help or hurt. Trixie laid her upper body over the center counter top, her elbows resting on the surface; and she closed her eyes, self-soothing, rubbing slow circles into her temples.

“So, you did forget?”

“Forget wh-” Trixie stopped, slowed, “oh, shit. Kim, I’m so sorry. I completely forgot we had- I just got so caught up in… wait, so you sat here all night… waiting for me? Why didn’t you just call me?”

“Well, no dummy, I’m not a freak. I woke up a little while ago. And I did call you, last night. But your phone was off.”

Trixie patted around her pockets, and upon finding her phone, ran her fingertips over the surface; the tips of her nails catching in the cracks of last year’s shatter. And while she powered it on, a soft silence hung in the air between her and Kim.

↳ Kim: hey, i just got in, pearl’s cooking again, im whispering tiny prayers for the safety of your kitchen. you leave school yet?

↳ 1 Missed Call: Kim

↳ Kim: Violet said she hasn’t seen you all afternoon, are you okay?

↳ Kim: say yes to the dress is starting in like 5 mins, do you want me to wait… or???? should I just assume I get to indulge in ALL of these facemasks by myself??

↳ Kim: yoooooo my skin abouta be TIGHT

↳ 6 Missed Calls: Caller ID Restricted

↳ Kim: ok it’s literally 1am, where tf are you????? im getting kind of worried here. ive had to stop violet from calling the police like 6 times

↳ 2 Missed Calls: Kim

↳ 11 Missed Calls: Caller ID Restricted

She shook a wave of anxiety and returned her gaze to Kim.

“I… I’m so sorry, I just, my-”

“You were with her again, weren’t you?”

“What?”

“Listen, I’m worried about you, Trix,” her tone softened, and Trixie met her gaze through clouds of coffee steam, “you-”

“Listen Kim, I’ve had kind of a shitty morning and it’s like dick o’clock and I really don’t have th-”

“You’ve just, you’ve been spending a lot of time with her, Trixie.”

“Excuse me? Are you policing who I spend my time with now?” Trixie said, still joking, but a little sharper than she’d intended.

Speech suspended for a moment as Kim drew in a long breath, and exhaled on a quiet sigh.

“Okay. First of all, chill. I just mean that… Listen, Trix, she seems sweet, she really does, but there’s some nasty stuff going around about her and I just don’t want to see you mixed up in that.”

Trixie could feel a bubbling heat rising in her chest, up her neck, spreading into a rouge across her cheeks. She poured the coffee into a mug, some splashing onto the countertop, and found herself rifling through the spice rack for cinnamon; she needed something to shake Katya’s impassivity, to bring her back to last night’s loveliness; but the scent alone burned Katya’s image in the back of her mind, a picture so clear of her face, so cold and distant.

She sipped slowly, cinnamon catching at the back of her throat, and somewhere in all of the coughing, Kim’s patronization had crept beneath her skin and set the surface ablaze.

“Honestly Kim, I love you, but it’s too early for this shit. And thinking about it now, literally none of this is even remotely your business. You don’t know anything about her,” Trixie said, biting. Her headache raged on, a sour pang radiating from the back of her neck. And she could tell she was overreacting, creating something out of nothing; but she couldn’t help but fall farther into it.

“Trixie, I’m your friend. I’m just saying, you always do thi-”

“Well, don’t just say . I’m stressed enough about this as it is, and I don’t need you, of all people, making this harder on me! You’re always on me about this kind of shit, and I don’t need it right now!”

“Wow, okay. You make plans with me. Break them. Fuck your teacher. And somehow, I’m in the wrong? Since when is carin-”

“I did not fuc- did you ever stop and think, for maybe even a millisecond, that the reason I’m spending all of this time with her is because you keep ditching me?”

“Trixie, do not put this on me. You always do this.”

“Do what?” Trixie snapped.

“You always turn things around on me! I’ve literally done nothing wrong here!” Kim stood then from the window seat.

“Oh, so it’s perfectly okay for you to promise me a ride, and then leave me stranded like three times a week, but the one time I make a human mist- “

“I’ve done so much for you, Trixie! This is not one human mistake . I knew you’d find some way to fuck this up. You know, I bust my ass day and night, and everyone fucking wants something from me. I give, and I give, and all you do is take,” Kim interrupted, throwing her hands into the air, and letting them fall hard to her sides.

Trixie watched the argument unravel from a space outside of her own body. She could see the anger leaving Kim in harsh waves; and though the salt water stung, stirred bitter words in her own mouth that threatened escape, she was able to rationalize, self sooth. She couldn’t fully give herself to the argument, knowing that this was long awaited for Kim, that maybe all the stress and chaos had finally gotten to her.

A person could only bend so far before it broke them, could only expend so much before they were due. And Kim, generous and giving as they come, had spent countless hours of her life twisting and contorting her time to fit the moulds of other people; but the words still hurt, still rang of distant memories of her mother’s disappointment, of rage and of acid.

“Fuck what up?” Trixie took a step back, her mind racing.

“Nothing, just forget it.”

“No, you have something to say, say it. You’re not my mother Kim, I don’t need you to take care of me.”

“Oh, that’s rich! You know, I might as well be your mother. Who the fuck do you think found you this place when your actual mother threw you out? Who got you the job you quit because it was,” Kim pulled her fingers into air quotations, “too much? Paid your rent when you couldn’t. Who busted her ass getting you into this school? You can’t commit to anything Trixie, and now, NOW, you’ve gone and figured out the ONE way you can fuck up school, too! I hope Katya’s worth it I really do. Because when administration finds out, you’re both fucked .”

A knot twisted tightly in Trixie’s stomach.

“Stop bringing her into this! You don’t know anything about her! Or me for that matter, clearly. But obviously , you have a lot to say,” Trixie said, almost shouting.

“You think she cares about you? You’re wrong, Trix. You need to grow up, really. She’s using you, just like she did Phi Phi. And when this all blows up in your face, like everything always does, you’re gonna come crying to me. And you know what? I won’t be here.”

Just then, a small noise from the staircase caught their attention. They turned their heads to find two thin figures perched at the top, eyes wide and watching. And Pearl opened her mouth to speak, but Trixie was out the door, leaving her coffee steaming on the counter.

—

Kim’s words, heated and stinging, followed her like a phantom down the darkened halls of her university. And while it hurt, ached a sore plight down the center of her chest, she knew that everything Kim said had been right. She’d been a bad friend, taken too much and given too little. And she could hear her mother’s words too, fresh as the day they were spoken, like silent criminals come to steal her composure.

Autopilot carried her to Katya’s class, wearing the same clothes as yesterday, in the same cracked makeup down her cheeks. Their eyes met and unmet constantly, knowing, each glance holding space a little longer than it should’ve. And Trixie felt as though she could cry at any moment, as the dull ache in her head echoed through the back of her skull, and the glaring need for escape ravaged all the spaces in between. She felt trapped, cornered, unable to escape Katya’s eyes; though she wasn’t quite sure she wanted to. She wanted someone to see her, that she was sure of. Someone to see passed the façade and tell her that it was all going to be okay; and she wanted that someone to be Katya; but some things just couldn’t be, and she was learning then, slowly but surely, that she had to make peace with that. Maybe they could come out of this on top, settle for glances and smiles, chats after class, and maybe, just maybe, Trixie could forget the rush. And if not forget, then settle for a dull ache of what could’ve been.

5 Missed Calls .

Class flew by in a blurred rush of muted anxiety, Trixie auto piloting her way through the motions, all the while hoping she could slip out near the end unnoticed; but much to her dismay, as Trixie had anticipated, the end of class found Katya beelining for Trixie’s desk, and any interaction between them became suddenly unavoidable.

“Listen, Tracy, I’m… I’m very sorry about last night, about this morning, I would never want to make you feel uncomfortable,” Katya started.

“Katya don’t, really. It’s fine, you haven’t don-”

“I think it would be… in better interest, if I didn’t drive you home anymore.”

“I don’t understand,” Trixie said, picking absently at the corner of her thumb nail.

“We can’t do thi-”

“We haven’t done anything.”

“You know what I mean.”

Trixie stood for a moment and let everything sink in, their eyes meeting.

Katya reached for Trixie’s left hand and brought it gingerly to her lips. So tender, so domestic. She placed a soft kiss on Trixie’s knuckle, then let their hands drift together to the left side of her chest. And through the cotton of Katya’s blouse, Trixie could feel the quick drumming of her heart, could see in her eyes a great fear, but also a great acceptance.

“I know,” Trixie said quietly, pulling her hand back.

She turned on a slow heal and started for the door; leaving Katya, small and teary eyed, stark in the middle of the room. And as Trixie stole a final glance, the light of the projector cast her silhouette like a specter across the back wall that sunk into the floor while the door swung shut behind her.

She’d only gotten a few steps down the hall before tears began spilling down her cheeks, probably carrying mascara with them. And Trixie blotted the space beneath her eyes, covertly avoiding eye contact with Jinkx as she passed her down the main hall just before the stairs.

7 Missed Calls.

 —

 She found herself outside then, heading toward the employee parking lot, under the usual tuck of trees that arched against the rain almost protectively overhead. Though many of the leaves had fallen and sunken into the grounds, there had been just enough to provide her shelter, and she stood for a few beats before realizing Katya wasn’t going to come; then again, neither would Kim. Trixie shivered as the cold hit her, her breath evident in the brisk, and she coiled into herself, wrapping her cardigan tighter around her hips.

She patted around her pockets and produced a crumpled twenty dollar bill, that she smoothed against her books and tucked into the side of her bra, the very last of that week’s allowance. While she scrolled through her phone in search of a taxi company, though they were sparse in these parts, she watched as cars puttered by her, subtly hoping to see Katya’s round the drive.

Before she could hit call, her phone lit up again, buzzing in her palm; a contact photo, her at a young age, eyes bright and glittering, a cheesy smile. And her mother, younger, less weathered, hair still long and curly, thin fingers pinching Trixie’s cheeks.

Until then, the calls seemed more like a minor nuisance, just a permanent fixture on the dashboard of her notifications, but now it cut deep; reminded her of all that she’d lost, all that she’d never regain. And she did something she hadn’t done in months, hadn’t done since Kim had found her and brought her here, she answered . And it went just as swimmingly as she might’ve guessed.

“I’ve been calling you for weeks,” a gravely voice slurred through the phone line.

“Are you, are you drunk?”

“What kind of daughter would ask that?”

Soon there was shouting. And Trixie lost all awareness of her environment, her surrounding; but she knew people were watching, she just simply forgot to care. And tears were spilling out of her, falling onto her shirt, tangling with the rain water washing down her skin.

The air was cold, her fingers red and pruning, phone pressed firmly into her cheek. Everything was spinning and far from sound, and as her mother continued her lamentation, Trixie grew more tense, more unabsolved. She felt trapped suddenly, by all of the forces outside of her own body, controlling her, prodding and pulling like the strings of a marionette. And she came to a startling realization; her life, wasn’t hers. This wasn’t what she wanted, this wasn’t who she wanted to be.

Before she could even hang up the phone, someone was tugging at her arm, pulling her gently from the rain, and from the watching eyes. Guiding her down into a car, her boots finding the comforting crush of empty coffee cups and to-go wrappers. And her phone found its way back into her pocket, as did her fingers, numb from the cold that she pressed into her thighs.

They drove in mostly silence, down familiar roads that were slick now with sleet. And the squeaking of the windshield wipers held an almost deafening stance against the silence.

“Tracy… Ar-”

“Please, Katya. Please , don’t.” Trixie said, drying her cheeks with the sleeves of her sweater.

“I’m sorry for what I said earlier, I just… You can still talk to me, you know.”

“No, I can’t. I really can’t.”

Just then, Katya pulled her car swiftly off of the road, hitting the curb and throwing the gears into park. She took off her seatbelt so she could turn to meet Trixie’s gaze.

“What are we doing here?”

“I want to talk to you. I want you to talk to me, there’s n-”

“You know what,” Trixie said, unfastening her seatbelt, “I really can’t. And you know damn well why I can’t.”

“I am not understanding this.”

“Because, Katya! I fucking want you, I want us, I want…” Trixie threw her hands into the air in exasperation, “this! And I’m so sick of everyone in my life telling me what to do, and who to be. Even you! Everyone is always… god, I don’t know! I’m so fucking overwhelmed all of the time by this expectation of who I’m supposed to be, how I’m supposed to act. I have never, ever, not once in my life, not had to fight for every single thing that I have and I’m sick of it. I’m my own person, we are both fucking adults and we can make our own decisi-”

Before she could finish, Katya’s hands were over the center console, pulling her face close, their lips finally meeting.

—

And suddenly her fingers are on me, in my hair, running down my neck. Our mouths meeting like it’s the first time, gliding swiftly over one another, melding us as one exchange of impassioned energy. And her breath is warm, and sweet, intoxicating . Everything I need. Devastatingly, so. From the light of the cars in passing, flickering across her skin, I can see every unspoken word, escaping into the expanse. She wants me, and I want her, and this may be fleeting but I’ve forgotten to care as her hands stroke passed my hair and down my back, sliding with a quick and heavy rhythm like she’s striking a match. Every ounce of angst in me cries out for her, yearns to be closer, to be deeper, to love long and speak sweeter. And I’m falling into her hard, like I’ve never fallen before-

 —

Their lips parted as Katya pulled away with haste, her eyes squeezing shut.

“Trixie, Trixie, I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have, we can’t do this!” Katya tensed, her accent thicker than ever.

And all of the spinning inside of Trixie stopped, her expression blank, eyes blinking quick and without rhythm. Her skin flushed, hot embers fading into gray coals.

“ Trixie ?” She said in a hushed exasperation, realizing that it was the first time she’d ever heard the name leave Katya’s lips.

“We can’t, I’m so sorry. I just, I care about you so much but we… we can’t Trix-”

“Why not? WHY NOT? You just said it, you care about me! Katya, please, not you too, you can’t do this to me, too. I can’t handle someone else telling me what I ca-”

“Trixie, please try and understand… I’m so so-”

“You know what. Save it. ”

And with that, Trixie was climbing out of the car, the garbage underfoot kicking out onto the sidewalk.

for the ask meme: all of them, but if thats too much maybe just the last 10?

Sorry for the long post aaaa1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? [I bought lottery tickets bc I was in texas and they’re not legal where I live and the cashier at the gas station didn’t even ask for my id. I tried to show him and he just shook his head and let me go???? He didnt even care wtf]2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? [Nah]3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? [Yea a little bit. I mean if it was just occasionally that’s probably fine? But a lot of my family has fucked up their entire lives with drugs so anything like that is iffy for me. It depends on how often they smoke ultimately]4: Do you find it easy to trust others? [I’d say yeah, probably. As long as you don’t fuck me over or guilt me within the first few weeks of knowing me id probably feel comfortable messaging you if I needed someone to talk to]5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? [Scrolling Tumblr]6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? [Probably my irl bffs lindy and raven!]7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? [Dump them. Adios fucker. I hope they’re happy with whoever they cheated on me with]8: Are you close with your dad? [Yeah I’d say so? I love him and he usually let’s me do my thing]9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? [Nah]10: What are you listening to? [Run by hozier]11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? [Sweet tea!!!! I’m from the south baby]12: Do you like hickeys? [Never has one so I don’t know!]13: What time do you go to bed? [Uhhhhhh 5am?]14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? [My siblings.]15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? [Nope I fuck up spelling a lot and have to go back and fix it no matter how many hands I’m typing with]16: Do you always answer your texts? [I try!! Unless I’m emotionally tired or forget]17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? [No. She’s my best friend now, actually]18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? [LIKE 3 MINUTES AGO I was complaining about how long it car ride home is]19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? [My irlbest friends, the cars discord chat I’m in, and a lot of my wk friends]20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? [I was writing ducktales fanfiction in my head]21: Is anyone else in the room with you? [I’m in a car with my mom for the next uhhh 7 hours?]22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? [Karmas a bitch]23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? [I was visiting family in Indiana, so yea probably? Tho I am pretty happy now too]24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? [Sometimes, with my old pal cat. She did some bad things so I stopped talking to her, but sometimes I want to catch up and see how she’s doing.]25: In the past week, have you cried? [YEAH over a darkwing duck episode]26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? [Grey. It has Mickey mouse on it!]27: Do people ever call you by your last name? [Noooope]28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? [I wouldn’t know]29: Do you have a best friend? [YEAH everyone in the cars discord and raven and lindy]30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? [No it was my great grandma lol]31: Who was your last call/text message from? [Call: red cross asking for my blood. Text: raven saying “dang”]32: Are you mad at anyone? [Not really? I don’t get angry very easily at all]33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? [When I was a freshman I was dating a junior]34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? [My great grandma! 88 I think]35: How many more days until your birthday? [LIKE a whole entire year. August 2nd]36: Do you have any summer plans yet? [Help my friend after her spine surgery p much. Visit family around the 4th of july]37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? [I have tons of girl friends!! All my best friends are girls (except em but they’re a good friend still!!!)]38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? [Lindy doesn’t know I’m trans]39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? [Uhhhhhhhhhhh next question]40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? [I try not to regret things like that]41: Do you think age matters in relationships? [UH YEAH?? An adult dating a minor ain’t my deallll]42: Are you available? [Lmfao yeah but don’t hold your breath I’m awful at relationships]43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? [My ex and bff dksdkdiajsai kill Me. I’ve had small crushes but I don’t rly let them grow too much if I realize they’re poppin up]44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? [Septum]45: Do you believe exes can be friends? [Yeah!!!!! I just reconnected with my ex from freshmen year and he’s cool]46: Do you regret anything? [Times where my mouth moved before my head could think and I hurt someone I cared about. Times where I didn’t listen. Times where I hesitated. But the past is a different country, and I try not to waste the present lamenting what I could’ve done.]47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? [Home. And the mistakes I’ve made.]48: Did you ever lose a best friend? [Yeah. She moved away and we just… talked less, and less, and less.]49: Was your last kiss a mistake? [Nah it was my great grandma]50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? [They have a bf and also dont like me plus im unlovable and bad at relationships and feelings *shrug emoji* the other person I’m interested in lives too far away and also doesn’t like me like that]51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? [Twas my gg and probably when I was a baby]52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? [All these last kiss ones are so angsty and sad and it was literally my grandma 5 hours ago I’m laughing]53: What was the last thing you ate? [McDonald’s French fries!!!!!]54: Did you get any compliments today? [Nah I’m in my road trip attire so I look like a mess]55: Where are you going on your next vacation? [New Orleans in October for voodoo fest!! Gonna see the foo fighters B)]56: Do you own anything from other countries?[I think I have Canadian money somewhere…]57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?[girls!!]58: Where have you lived most of your life?[Sweet Home Alabama]59: When was the last time you took a long drive?[DOING IT RN!!!!! 13 HOURS]60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?[yea but it was like, mashed up with truth or dare. Instead of kissing we asked them truth or dare]61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?[nah I’m pretty mild]62: Who do you text the most?[raven probably? Or max]63: What was the last movie you saw?[spirited away I think??? First time I ever saw it]64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?[I’m single, don’t remind me :P]65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?[I was 12 and right smack dab in the middle of my ugly awkward phase (thays still going on today!) So I had none lmao]66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?[nah]67: Do you curse around your parents?[GOOD LORD NO]68: Are you happy with where you live?[I? Hate Alabama. My city is okay but I want to move somewhere nicer]69: Picture of yourself? [I have a selfie tag. I would upload but I’m lazy. Maybe if I find a pic I like later I will]70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?[polyamory All the wayy!!!!! But monogamy is cool too]71: Have you ever been dumped?[probably in elementary school but I don’t remember? I usually am the one to end it bc I get freaked out and skittish around people genuinely caring about me so I break it up before they’re disappointed]72: What do you most like about making out?[being comfortable and close enough with someone to do it.]73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?[yup!]74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?[depends? I’ve asked to kiss someone and I’ve been asked equal amounts.]75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?[eyes? Idk there’s a lot that goes into finding someone attractive it’s hard to narrow it down]76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?[my mom]77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?[virgin]78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?[virgin]79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?[Any cartoon character I’m currently hyperfixated on]80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?[yes. But i would go slow and I wouldn’t want to meet their child until we were both sure this was something we wanted long term.]81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?[no its usually me? Wait i take that back!! One girl did while I was in hs but I’m pretty sure she only did it bc she just figured out her sexuality and I was queer and there.]82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?[nope I bottle that shit up!!!! But if it’s a long standing crush I’ll tell a few people eventually]83: Do you miss your last sweetie?[No.]84: Last time you slow danced with someone?[my friend Franklin at prom. We pretended to be spies on a mission forced to act casual as we scoped out potential enemies]85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?[??? Don’t like the skeptical quote marks. I’ve been in long distance relationships before, yes.]86: How can I win your heart?[just like…… be nice to me, ever, and I’m into it. Talk about things you like, ask me about things I like, try and get into/understand my interests and I’ll do the same?? Don’t make fun of me and don’t belittle my interests. The bar is low]87: What is your astrological sign?[leo]88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?[sleeping]89: Do you cook?[pasta!!!!!!!]90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?[yeah!!! 3 years of no talking and I reconnected with max recently]91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?[uh it’s complicated. Yes but idk if I’m in a good place for a relationship. I haven’t even begun to transition at all.]92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?[you say that like I could get multiple people to date me]93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?[nice dress style?? Glasses are good too. Idk questions like this are hard augh]94: Name four things that you wish you had![money, a job, plush darkwing duck toy, a car]95: Are you a player?[no]96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?[nooooope]97: Are you a tease?[hahahahaha no]98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?[nope!!! Not yet]99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?[maybe. But I don’t think you can love someone too deeply who doesn’t love you back]100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?[sure, plenty]101: Hugs or Kisses?[both??? Both is good]102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?[It’s Not shyness, it’s rejection I have a problem with]103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?[girls are pretty]104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?[Yeah I guess]105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?[If it was an open relationship and everyone knew the situation, then yea prob?? If not, then no.]106: Do you flirt a lot?[not really]107: Your last kiss?[my grandmaaaaa]108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?[not in a romantic way]109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?[not in a romantic way]110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?[next question]111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next?[nope!! It’s a hopefully nice surprise for future me]112: Does someone like you currently?[probably not lol but ive got no idea!!]113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?[sure]114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?[I want to fall in love.]115: Ever made out with just a friend?[yeah]116: Are you happier single or in a relationship?[in a relationship I think?]117: Your own question that you want me to answer. Just write it.[just send me an ask and ill answer it]

This got a bit of self hatred dashed in there whoops sorry!!!

boyfriend!yixing

FORGETFUL

will literally forget everything and anything

speaks Chinese all the time when he comes in because hes tired and not thinking

and you’re like ????? I don’t speak Chinese

and he’s shook because he didn’t even realise he’d slipped into it

even though he’s maybe the most forgetful person in the world he never forgets important dates

your birthday, anniversaries you didn’t even know you should be celebrating

he never misses them

always wants to do couple things with you

couples cooking !!

which really means he hands you things and drinks wine

and you make sure he stays far away from the rice

even though he insists he knows how a rice cooker works now

he just really thinks it’s important you sit together and eat with each other no distractions

couples workout !!

which really consists of you drinking the protein shake you made and watching him do push ups

he wants to make sure you share everything like your hobbies

so he takes you dancing with him

he loves trying to teach you his dances

and you always wanna know they newest exo choreo tbh

you die a little every time though because its S O HAR D

and youre not a good dancer

but yixing is always patient with you trying to teach you as best he can

and he insists on sharing your hobbies with you

he always makes time to share yours

and he’s always got some crazy new hobby to try together

y’all have done everything

synchronised swimming

bird watching

anything you can literally think of tbh

literally just loves spending time with you

tries to teach you guitar and you sort of suck

but he just thinks its so adorable you’re trying

he usually puts you in his lap and guides your hands

but you actually started to get really good

and he’d always catch you playing his

so he buys you a guitar for your birthday

and you guys always have impromptu jam sessions

also tries to teach you Chinese which you are also really bad at

but you try and you leave him little notes written carefully in Chinese

he keeps every single one

loves solving puzzles with you

he finds it really therapeutic

you get all the answers wrong but y’all have fun doing them

once he brought home a jigsaw puzzle of the globe

y’all spent daysssssss trying to solve it and you leave it half solved and the next morning it’s complete and you’re like ???????

and kyungsoo’s like lmao took me 45 minutes whats up with you two??

hes always up at like 5am so you pack him a lunch box and leave him a little note on the bathroom mirror with dry erase markers

and when he gets up he always erases it and leaves you a sweet little note

he loves talking to you and telling you about everything

whenever he gets homesick he just lies down with you

and tells you everything about china

and what he wants to show you

and makes a bunch of plans of where to bring you when you finally come visit

you’d been going out for years when you finally had your greatest test

you asked him to help you when you moved

and of course like the sweetheart he is he did

he spent like a week with you

painting the rooms

(which always ended with a paint fight)

assembling the furniture with you

you guys spent like an entire day trying to assemble your bed

you hadn’t slept the night before

and being as clumsy as you are you knocked over like everything else in the room

and you spent the whole night mad at inanimate objects

but y’all never got mad at each other

and that’s when you realised he was the one

because you were both tired, way too warm and angry as hell but you never snapped at each other

you guys never really had a fight until he came home too late one too many nights

you didn’t mind because it was his job and he just wanted to prepare for his solo as best as he could

to make everyone proud

but he had been home past 4 or 5am every night this month

if he even came home

and you saw him once in the last two weeks

and you were getting a little bit more than upset

even though it felt unreasonable

nd you told him you were getting kind of lonely by yourself and you missed spending time together

and he was like omg because he didn’t even realise really that he was upsetting you

so he promised to be home by 9pm and you could have dinner together and just spend time together

and then it was 2am and he still wasn’t home

and it all got too much for you and you just started crying

he came in and your eyes were all swollen and you were just sitting on the floor drinking some wine

and he’s like ????? what happened why r u crying?

and you’re like omg amazing!!! You’re late and you didn’t even remember!! Love this !! im going to bed!! Thanks for wasting my entire night!!

nd then he’s like no NO NO NO IM SO SORRY I FORGOT

nd you want to be mad at him but you cant because he didn’t mean to

nd you just breakdown and start sobbing and he runs to you

he’s cuddling you and stroking your hair and apologising

because he didn’t mean to and you know it and he doesn’t know how to fix it

nd eventually you fall asleep because you’re so tired

when you wake up yixing isn’t there

and you almost cry again until your door opens

and yixing comes in with water and some painkillers

in case you have a headache

and then he asks If you want to go out for breakfast or cook some

and you cry all over again because he is so sweet

always thinks of everyone but himself

so you always gotta remind him to look after himself

hugs hugs hugs

always hugging you

bear hugs

back hugs

side hugs

surprise hugs

hugs hug HU G S Hu GS

just loves to shower you in affection

like always kissing your cheek

or shooting you winks

nd you think its lame but that makes it all the more adorable to you

always cuddling you

sometimes he comes In late and sees you curled up on the couch asleep waiting for him

he just grabs a blanket and curls around you

nd you wake up and youre like ??? but you fall back asleep because he’s so warm and he’s home and you can relax

you get really lonely when he’s away

so he bought u bear to cuddle while he’s away

nd you do because it smells like him

nd he doesn’t feel so far away when you have the bear

really nice couple bracelets

the thing is you guys didn’t get them for each other

Suho got them for you

after a year

he says it a blessing so you will have a long happy relationship

since then you haven’t taken them off

lots and lots os skype calls when he’s away

if he’s gonna be somewhere for a while you actually send him letters

nd he loves every single one

it’s always such a nice surprise for him

nd he thinks its so precious you take the time to write to him

loves taking walks with you

especially in spring by the cherry blossoms

nd he’s just strolling through the park with you holding your hand when he casually says something like

“I think id like to have our wedding here”

nd you just choke on the coffee you’re drinking

because ?????????? marriage ???????????

nd he’s just like omg r u ok what happened should I call a hospital???

nd he doesn’t even realise why you’re having a heart attack

he just adores you so much

pls love him just as much

if not more

BIAS TAG GAME

I was tagged by @taeboos , thanks bby~

Rules: Go to this site and enter in your top ten biases from any groups and randomize them. The order they are displayed to you becomes their number (this just ensures that the process is random) and you just have to choose between the biases for each scenario!

Biases: (as given to you by randomizer)

Sana (TWICE)

Yoongi (BTS)

Taeyeon (SNSD)

Seolhyun (AOA)

Jackson (GOT-7)

Momo (TWICE)

Jimin (BTS)

Chanmi (AOA)

Yerin (Gfriend)

J-Hope (BTS)

Scenarios: (don’t worry, there is a question for every combination of biases (also, I randomized the pairs) and you don’t have to explain your answer, that’s just the way I am lol)

Go to a baseball game with 4 or 10. Seoulhyun or J-Hope.   jhope for sureeee, He’d have so much fun!

Play a game of twister with 1 or 7. Sana or Jimin Sana, her body is so much more slender, I love Jimin but his thighs would get in the way, omg but being that close to Sana might cause my heart to burst!!

Eat ramen at 2am with 2 or 8. Yoongi or Chanmi

I wouldn’t eat ramen at 2am, my face would swell up so much omg, but id say i’d do it for Yoongi, because i’d do anything for him, he is my ultimate~~

Watch a Disney movie in theaters with 5 or 10. Jackson or J-Hope

omg J-Hope again, he’s such a child at heart he’d love it!

Go hiking with 5 or 9. Jackson or Yerin Omg i feel like both would complain a lot about hiking, but between the two i’d say Yerin, because shes so cute and i can just imagine hiking in the cold morning with her nose a little red and i just want to kiss her cute little face on top of a mountain >^<

Swim with the sharks with 4 or 5. Jackson or Seolhyun

It better be whale sharks, i’d never put any of my biases in danger. Omg but i think watching Jackson freak out would be really funny lmao. Swim with the dolphins with 7 or 10 Jimin or Jhope

Jimin, Thatd be so cute, I can just imagine his cute little giggles while playing with the Dolphins

Fall asleep talking a 4am with 3 or 9. Taeyeon or Yerin

Yerin, I can actually see us having deep conversations on aliens and shit

Wake up next to 2 or 7. Yoongi or Jimin

omfg if this aint the most dangerous question!!! Of Course Yoongi tho, My baby!! I would wake up feeling like the luckiest person alive, id just want to bury my face in his chest and sleep next to him forever,  i am so straight for him >^<

Be stuck in rush hour traffic with 4 or 9. Seolhyun or Yerin

Seolhyun, I can just imagine soft conversation and drama osts playing on the radio

Build a snowman with 7 or 8. Jimin or Chanmi

Omg both would be super fun, but i’ll go with Jimin, I feel like we’d make it really funny

Spend a day baking with 5 or 7. Jackson or Jimin

omg Jackson would be interesting, Id have to witness that

Be stranded on a desert island with 2 or 9. Yoongi or Yerin

I’d never want any of them to be in that situation, but if im going to be selfish here. I’d want to spend the rest of my life with the coolest person ever, Yoongi. Although he’d make a terrible surviving partner I wouldnt mind dying next to my favorite person in the world.

Be hit by a car by 1 or 9. Sana or Yerin

SANA PLEASE RUN ME THE FUCK OVER

Hit 3 or 4 with a car. Taeyeon or Seolhyun

Oh shit this has gotten dark real fast.... none of them, I wouldnt want to hit either. But i’d go with Taeyeon, sorry Tae. I love you tho

Kiss 4 or 8 in the moonlight. Seolhyun or Chanmi. 

Why must you make me pick between my AOA biases???!! Okay but Seolhyun is literally a 10/10, I’d die to kiss her

Dance in the rain with 2 or 4. Yoongi or Seolhyun

Omg I want to pick Yoongi, but that is clearly something he wouldn’t do. He would complain and think its cheesy. But Seolhyun would do it! So even though I’d love to do everything with my UB, I can literally imagine Seolhyun and I doing this. Oh god why are there so many cute things im think of with Seolhyun, why must you guys do this to me?? >o<

Be kidnapped with 1 or 5. Sana or Jackson

oh my god, both would not be good. Jackson would probably die immediately, Sana wouldn’t be able to stop crying in order to brainstorm, but I guess thats better than immediate death, so i’ll choose Sana. I would try to comfort her and find a way for us to get home safely.

Arm wrestle 1 or 3. Sana or Taeyeon

I feel like since Taeyeon is smaller, maybe it’d be easier

Go to an art museum with 3 or 5. Taeyeon or Jackson

Taeyeon, she’d enjoy them, we’d take aesthetic pictures there. Jackson would probably knock something over and get us kicked out

Have a picnic with 2 or 3. Yoongi or Taeyeon

Yoongi, we probably wouldn’t have the classic picnic. I feel like we’d buy cup noodles at a gas station and sit at a park bench and call it a “Picnic”, but It would still be fun, and I’d just be happy being with him and talking to him.

Buy a puppy with 1 or 10. Sana or Jhope

Jhope, omg can you imagine. He’s be so excited and he’d play with puppy and itd be the cutest thing!!! Get a forehead kiss from 7 or 9. Jimin or Yerin

Either one would kill me! I’m going to say, Jimin. Idk why. I feel like its something he would do but then get all shy over after

Pick up 2 or 6 from the airport at 5am. Yoongi or Momo

Yoongi, I’d do anything for him. I feel like my heart would flutter the whole drive there, just thinking about seeing him. He’d probably fall asleep in my car and omg this is too precious!! WHy am I so StraIght fOr ThIs BOy???!!

Go on a roadtrip with 3 or 8. Taeyeon or Chanmi

Chanmi, I could imagine stopping at a souvenir shop with weird hats and stuff and trying them on and laughing at each other and taking weird photos

Have an all night study session with 6 or 8. Momo or Chanmi 

Momo, she’d be so patient with me, like a mom. Omg she’d be such a good tutor. Sing karaoke with 8 or 10. Chanmi or Jhope

Jhope!! OMG OF COURSE. SOPE WHO? We will become the ultimate vocal duo!!

Climb a tree with 6 or 9. Momo or Yerin

Yerin omg, she’d be fun. I worry that she would fall and hurt herself tho. Hopefully not.

Go to the zoo with 2 or 5.  Yoongi or Jackson

Yoongi, although Jackson would be interesting. I can imagine Yoongi pointing at all of the ugly animals and saying “that’s you” and omg lmao

Go bowling with 3 or 6. Taeyeon or Momo

I’m indifferent? Momo??? i guess

Have 1 or 8 do your make-up. Sana or Chanmi

this is like asking me who’s make up I like better lol. I’ll say Sana, i feel like she’d use a lot of pinks, and thats close enough to my make up style

Swim in the rain with 4 or 7. Seolhyun or Jimin

Jimin. Jimin would be about that. Idk why I think that, I just do. He would play around and not want to leave even when it started raining.

Share your favorite food with 6 or 10. Yerin or J-Hope

idk... i mean whichever one likes H.E.B tortillas more??? Maybe Yerin? Everytime BTS travels they seem to stick with Korean food. Idk.. hmm

Go ice skating with 1 or 4. Sana or Seoulhyun

Sana would be so cute, but she’s also very clumsy , so i’m going with Seolhyun

Get lost on vacation with 2 or 10. Yoongi or Jhope

omg yoonseok! Of course Yoongi tho, I remember Yoongi went the wrong way once and he was like “well the world is round” lmao. We could find some cool places tho by going our own way.

Get locked out of your car in the middle of nowhere with no cellphone signal with 4 or 6. Seolhyun or Momo

I feel like they’d react the same way. I’ll say Momo, idk

Rob a bank with 5 or 8. Jackson or Chanmi

lmao lets go rob the bank I got fired at, JKJK lol. Id definitely say Chanmi, Jackson would be a hot mess. Can you imagine??

Have 8 or 9 write a song about you. Chanmi or Yerin

Yerin, Omg I can imagine it being really cute, maybe with a music box in the background. 

Be embraced by 9 or 10 after you cry. Yerin or Jhope

Jhope duh, he’s my hope, my angel, Jhope!!

Have 6 or 7 cook for you. Momo or Jimin

Momo, I trust her cooking more... sorry chimchim

Have 1 or 2 be your sidekick. Sana or Yoongi

This is a hard one, I keep thinking about sana dressed up as wonder woman and i’m like yes, but also she is a goddess and im a potato.... Yoongi and I would make a good team but were both extremely unmotivated and the town would really be in jeopardy..... hmm.... Ill go with Yoongi and we can be the most useless lazy superheroes ever

Star in a K-drama with 1 or 6. Sana or Momo

oooh my Twice biases, well lets just have the classic kdrama love triangle. Lol Sana tho, but seriously We be bringing the LGBT representation! Hell yeah

Build a dresser from Ikea with no instructions with 3 or 7. Taeyeon or Jimin

Lord help me if I have Jimin as a partner. I’m actually good at putting Ikea furniture together, but I think Taeyeon would be more patient and follow directions.

Be in a zombie apocalypse with 5 or 6. Jackson or Momo

Momo, Jackson would be the first to die, he wouldnt be much help.

Run a YouTube channel with 3 or 10. Taeyeon or Jhope

JHOPEEEEEEE, obviously

FINALLY DONE

This takes a while but it was so much fun, so I’m gonna tag: @gizi-bae @peachyjihoonie @lesbiantae @syubbed @13lhg @yoo-a @namgin @ctrbl @jungkook-e @rosiitea @mywonho

Ballz 30/11/19 00:43.

So I've been pretty shit so far at this so future me bare with me while I try and make this part of my nightly routine sorry.

Anyway, so where were we? Oh yeah so this week has been pretty awesome actually lots happend, first off it was my mums birthday on Friday last week she totally thought I forgot (As if I'd forget the most important person in my lifes birthday). So I went to hers after work and chatted gave her her gifts she showed me lots of old photos alot I had uploaded to her old computer when I was like 21/22 some embarrassing and interesting stuff there in first year uni lol. But also some good project work I'd thought id lost.

So after I went to mum I came home and went to dnd awesome sesson killed the big bad didn't die are team is unbeatable boooyeah.

So Saturday I did some overtime at the warehouse on double time which is worked out on my salary broken down to its hourly rate and doubled from 8 till 1 so 10 hours worth of paid work not a bad day, all I did was pick and chat to some other people from around the business made a few new friends gemma and phil are both pretty cool.

I then went to meet my mum for lunch went to the woodlark had a lovely 16oz steak (I know I know meat, but come on last week 4 out of the 7 days I didn't eat any meat at all and had little on the other 2 days so this was a treat) it was sooo good and had some lovely chats with my mum on the way there and while eatting and on the way back. I should really see her more if my nans death has taught me anything it's that my mum won't be around for ever I used make the most of it while I can.

Then we had the most insane party at mine and Bryn we went to the cobbett for Grace's birthday and literally 11 people were in the house until about 5am until the last people were leaving at 6:45am it was great music friends drink and Charlotte brought sparklers and only joe and connor managed to burn themselfs lots of fun was had, lovely chat with bryn and Julia on my bed as well as trying to inform connor about why I want to eat less meat very amusing "but steak paul, but steak!"

The work week has been ok we started a new timetables it different I do orders by myself on Thursdays and that's pretty busy this week and processed 50 odd payments so I can probably do a little better but I did fairly well tbf.

And tomorrow is both my managers baby shower/colleagues birthday/finances xmas gathering which should be pretty fun with some good food and some good chats with everyone.

Also at work ummm idk I've been really enjoying conversations on the phone with one of the sales girls I feel like there has been some flirting both sides and I will see how that goes at both games night and the big Christmas party.

It's been a good week hopefully keep up going to the gym tomorrow we will see.

Strangers

Chapter 4

*buzz, buzz, buzz, buzz*

*buzz, buzz, buzz, buzz*

You slowly open your eyes awaiting light to hit your eyes. You open your right eye all the way expecting to be blinded by sunlight, only to realise the only light coming into your room is the light from your phone screen. Your growl rolling over grabbing your phone from your night stand, expecting to have only fallen asleep for a couple of hours. Only to realize its actually 5am of sunday morning.

"SUNDAY!" You sit up staring at your phone not believing you slept not only friday night, but also literally all through saturday.

"I guess i really did go into a coma.." You notice you have missed calls and messages from your best friend Tia and also Jimin.

"Guess I gotta let Tia know im not dead" you laugh as you pick up your phone bringing it with you to the restroom.

Y/n--<hey Tia. Best friend ol buddy ol pal, I very highly doubt you're awake this beautiful sunday morning at 5:15am. But I'm just letting you know I'm not dead. Just woke up from my sleep coma. Yay celebrate! Message me later k?>

You decide to read some of the messages Jimin also sent. One said good morning y/n and the rest were him asking about how your saturday was going. And also asking if you were ignoring him or blocked him. Another asked if Honey really did get jealous and take your phone. You laugh at this and decide you should let the cute stranger know your alive.

Y/n--<look Jimin. It was fun talking. But Honey said I cant talk to you anymore. Sorry. Goldfish rules.>

You put your phone down not expecting a message any time soon, but sure enough just as you start to pour a bowl of delicious, home made Gordon Ramsey approved cereal, your phone signals you've gotten a message. You finish putting the frosted flakes and milk into your bowl and sitting down at your small table before looking at your message.

Jimin--<well damn. If its goldfish rules then i guess we cant talk again. 😛>

You snicker a little reading this and started eating while messaging him.

Y/n--<well i guess i can always hide away and message you? He wont notice anyway😝>

Jimin--<oh thank god. Id hate to have to stop talking to someone who gets my poor sense of humor>

Y/n--<by saying it like that tho, arnt you saying that I also have a poor sense of humor? And here i thought I had made a new friend. Guess not>

Jimin--<😱 you would take what I said and turn it around.>

You laugh and put your bowl in the sink. Walking to your couch and turning on your tv. Noticing the time is roughly about 6am.

Y/n--<wait why the hell are you awake at 6 am? Only reason i am is cuz I slept all day and night yesterday.>

Jimin--<did you forget I said I live in Korea? 🙄. Our time zones are different. So about the times you wake up ill be getting ready for bed. And by the time you go to sleep ill be getting up>

Y/n--<aw. Yet here you are. Talking to little ol me😍>

Jimin--<aw sweetheart ill always make time for you. 😘>

Jimin--<as long as your "Honey" doesn't catch us>

Y/n--<omg. Okay. No more fake flirting.>

Jimin--<hey! Who said I was faking!? 😚>

Y/n--<😐>

Jimin--<alright, alright. Ill stop. For you.>

Y/n--<Oh thank you, almighty Jimin>

Jimin--<I could get used to you praising me 😏>

Y/n--<🙄 thought you were done?>

Jimin--<im done now I promise. Couldn't help but take that opening tho. 😉>

Y/n--<excuse me. Im gonna go say a prayer for your soul>

Jimin--<YAHH i said i was done now. Anyway.. how was your.. Sleep coma? I didnt hear from you at all yesterday and kept checking my phone, so my friends were making fun of me. 😒 I was not amused.>

Y/n--<aww did little jiminie miss me yesterday?>

Jimin--<jiminie? Giving me nicknames already sweetness? 😏>

Y/n--<call me sweetness again and youll have a better nickname. Called BLOCKED BICH>

Jimin--<nuu. Im done. I'm sorry.>

Y/n--<much better. But yeah. I slept all friday night and literally all of saturday. Guess I really needed it.>

Jimin--<you're probably over working yourself on school work. I'm sure you deserved the sleep>

Y/n--<its honestly my fault. i can't decide what to major in so im taking two things at the same time. Just in case I need a fall back. But to be honest? Talking to you, A complete stranger, is.. Idk kind of relaxing?>

Jimin--<yeah. I know what you mean. There's quite a bit going on here. And having a stranger that doesnt know about me or my life is nice to talk to>

Y/n--<omg.. Are you like . a serial killer?>

Jimin--< what!? No! Just.. life can be complicated you know?>

Y/n--<hehe. I know. just like messing with ya>

Jimin--<Hey umm.. Im gonna go to sleep. Maybe.. Talk again later?>

Y/n--<um. Yeah. That'd be nice. Goodnight Jimin.>

Jimin--< Good morning Y/n>

By the time you finished texting with Jimin you realized you were getting tired again. You laid on the couch and decided a quick nap will do.

You wake up to the sound of your phone ringing.

"Hello?"

"Jesus y/n, I've called you three times now. Did you manage to go back to sleep?"

"Tia its not my fault okay? I was tired again." you pulled your phone away from your face to check the time.

"Wow its 11'o clock? Didnt mean to sleep that long. Sorry Tia."

"Its okay. You needed sleep anyway. I was just calling to check on you. You didn't even message me friday night to say goodnight! I was so depressed."

You laugh over the phone with her.

"Um, yeah. Tia.. About friday.. You.. Remember that unknown number that called me during lunch?"