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Will Graham and Hannibal Lecter
Hannibal (2013-2015)
#hannigram#hannibal#nbc hannibal#hannibal lecter#will graham#hannibal x will#mads mikkelsen#hugh dancy#--mine#--ship: hannigram#--fandom: hannibal#spouse just watched digestivo so i had to gif this#also i can't believe i'm meeting them irl what the fuck
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Okay cus I can here's little explanations for why each song in the Bill playlist is in the Bill playlist as of today (i change it a lot).
Razzle Dazzle- song about tricking people via showbiz. Specifically making them trust you. That's all he does.
Birdhouse in Your Soul- 'ahaha you can trust me ahahha :] or can you >:]'
Hip to Be Square- Patrick Bateman. Also it's about how cool it is to conform.
Dancing Queen- The ABBA songs are on here cus I think he'd like them. Dancing Queen is his favourite.
Winner Takes it All- Also an ABBA song but it's got some Bill themeing to it like you kinda gotta play dirty to get what you want cus the world is unfair.
Can't Decide- I remember.... 2014.....
I'm Gonna Win- Spiritual successor to Can't Decide in my head. All about how this guy's never gonna give up ever. Bill literally refuses to die out of spite multiple times.
Talking in Your Sleep- Movie song. It also goes hard.
My Way- Asshole anthem and another song he'd probably like irl.
Lifetime Achievement Award- This one is more Vanny singing AT him but yeh, get revived by an obsessive fan, idiot.
Run, Rabbit, Run- Bnunny :]
Science Fiction/Double Feature- He's a freaky sci-fi guy (this is kinda a compromise for Sweet Transvestite cus I don't have the BALLS to put that in the William Afton playlist sadly).
Feed My Ego- About relationships being for his benifit only. Wonderful.
Icicles- Mostly here cus Henry is the song that leads into this one on the album. It's got the whole motif of taking people out with you though which Bill totally does.
As Your Father I Expressly Forbid It- He's a suburban dad.
Do It All The Time- Mostly here cus of the robotic beep boops and general aura of world domination.
Ruler of Everything- DO YOU LIKE HOW I-
Kiss Me, Son of God- Bill has weird religious themeing and also he SUCKS.
dancing around in circles until my little feet fall off- CLOWN MUSIC.
We'll Meet Again- He... he always comes back....
Waterloo- About loving losing a fight. Brilliant.
It's Only A Paper Moon- Another song he'd like IRL but it's also about believing something so hard it becomes true. It's also an important part of A Streetcar Named Desire which is a play I think he enjoys.
The Snake- Literally that one Candy Cadet story in song form and it goes hard.
Variations On a Cloud- WHY DON'T WE KEEP IT COMING BACK AND COMING BACK AND
Make of This What You Will- Mostly just the vibes are correct with this one I think.
AD INFINITUM- He's not beating the Spampton allegations. It was either this or I straight up just put Big Shot in here.
Under My Skin- Makes me think of remnant and loss of identity.
well, better than the alternative...- He's a suburban mum. Next to Razzle Dazzle this is the most Bill song. There's even a rabbit reference in the first verse.
VIRUS- aaoaugh the bunny is malware in myyy commpurter..
Mx.Sinister- He's a little obsessive maybe a little.
2econd 2ight 2eer (that was fun, goodbye.)- Lots of lines in this one just scream Bill at me till I start dancing soz.
Noel's Lament- Bill would fantasise about being a 20s French sex-worker I think that's in character.
Something Something Lake- This is how I conseptualise UCN.
Fairytale of New York- His ex-wife calls him a fag.
Murder on the Dancefloor- Goes hard. Also he kills people.
I/Me/Myself- Fucking.... transgender.
#GOD DAMN this is long#long post#uuh yeh :] yay :] music :]#william afton#yelling about the bear#ahe
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i've been having some discourse thoughts recently and going back and forth, and I don't really have a final conclusion at the moment so I'm just writing it out to try and make sense of it. I am not intending to get into heated arguments or cause problems, I'm genuinely just trying to question thoughts and beliefs I've been holding to that i picked up from others to be certain whether or not they're solid and I want to continue in that manner because reflection, introspection, and critical thinking are good practices. and posting it because consulting and engaging with others and perspectives outside your own is helpful. so don't mind me trying to sort myself out it's a genuinely earnest attempt to properly reason it through
the crux of it is that I realized it seems hypocritical of me to say I firmly believe in shipping and letting ship, supporting fiction's right to be fucked up and unhealthy, controlling your own experiences, for people to do what they want with fiction because fiction is not reality and should be a safe space where you can explore fucked up things, agree that policing what you can and can't do with fiction is a dangerously slippery slope, and then also turn around and condemn wylinh/wylinh shippers
I don't like the ship myself, I've made numerous posts discussing why I find it harmful--the main thing being its an adult x minor ship (Alden and Della's relationship is completely different, do not bring it up here as a counterargument. you can ask me to explain further if you don't understand). But people are allowed to engage with things that would be harmful or predatory or questionable or etc. in fiction; it's fake. People have said it before, but writing about murder doesn't mean you want to commit murder and all that.
So then since its okay to ship fucked up things because this is fiction, the problem with wylinh seems to become that people ship it in the same manner they do other ships without adult/minor dynamics, not with the understanding that it's got questionable elements. That it's okay to ship fucked up things but you have to do it a certain way that I think is acceptable (you have to know its not really healthy irl), and I don't think that's a mindset I want to have? That people's shipping needs to meet a standard I set? Even if I don't like it? I'm not arbitrator I don't get to decide those kinds of things for others, I just get to decide for me
And another big argument that's been made (including by me) is that children/young teens read these books and find fandom spaces even if they're not supposed to be here, and that that exposure could normalize a harmful age dynamic. Because while Wylie and Linh may be lovely people, they're fictional and it's not reflective of how an age gap like theirs would look irl and children could end up missing red flags of predatory people in real life by thinking of it like idealized fiction. But think of the children rhetoric is one that has been often criticized as cover for more malicious intentions (such as in politics) with the convenient safe fail that if you disagree, you must not care about children.
Part of the critique of that rhetoric is also that the actions being defended don't actually help or protect children. So I'm now wondering, does trying to stop (I can't think of a better word at the moment) wylinh shippers actually achieve that goal of protecting impressionable kids from idolizing an unrealistic relationship, or does it just motivate them to hide it and not trust the people who are, to them, unjustifiably criticizing them?
Wylinh is a widely disliked ship in the fandom, and that's okay, we're all allowed our opinions including negative ones. I just feel as though I'm contradicting myself on some points and want to straighten them out for myself. I don't like Wylinh, I don't ship it, I don't engage with any Wylinh content because of the aforementioned reasons. But my personal dislike shouldn't shape fandom spaces and others' actions, and making sure people are shipping things the "right" way feels like a much more harmful slope.
And if the best course of action to align with that is to just focus on myself, not engage with what I don't like, and politely share my thoughts without forcing them on others or trying to control their actions when the opportunity arises (though maybe this isn't the best course of action, there may be others), that makes this whole post feel redundant because that's...already what I'm doing. I suppose this is just to change my internal perspective not my outward actions? My intentions?
There's no real final conclusion to this, it's just me going "hmm, I've been criticizing wylinh shippers for shipping what I think is a harmful ship, but I also believe in shipping and let ship and allowing fiction to explore harmful things and not controlling others. can these co-exist or do I have to rethink something?"
and I think the answer is I have to rethink something? and that something is criticizing people for shipping wylinh. i still maintain my critiques and dislikes of the ship, but that's a separate thing. i find it more important to maintain and respect individuals right to engage with fiction of all sorts how they want to, without control from others
there's probably a million ways to negatively misinterpret things I've said, so just know all of this is genuine reflection made in good faith. i am earnestly trying to figure it out, and if anyone has input or opinions or perspectives they'd like to share you're welcome to, provided its also in good faith.
alright cool that's all, please do not be mean to me as I try to be a better person because I know its a discourse heavy topic :)
#kotlc discourse#discourse#i can't help but feel like I haven't worded this well and its all going to go wrong if I post this#but also. i am not going to let myself be ashamed of questioning things. even if I come to a similar conclusion at the end#so. don't be like 'how could you entertain these ideas--' because you need to think through both sides to best understand your own position#and i'm trying to figure out what that is#i don't want to just go along with what others say I want to understand where I stand and why#and right now its that I think I thought of wylinh shippers in a way that contradicted other beliefs and values I hold#and I want to correct that#so. this post is me trying to figure it out#i keep writing tags to stall because I'm nervous you'll all hate me for this#but like I said. won't be ashamed of questioning things#also am open to other perspectives and changing my mind#i can learn#augh this is. stressful. be nice please I'm trying to be a good person#long post
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Hiihi ! Question ! Who's ur ideal man but realistically speaking if it makes sense lol ? Personality and appearance. Ik that you've talked about it before but if you couldn't have the 'tall rich and handsome ' type irl what else would you go for ? I hope it makes sense 😅
For appearance I'd really like it if he had fluffy hair. I love playing with people's hair and I'd especially love to do that with my s/o! I'm also really into kind smiles and eyes. Whenever I meet someone I always make a point to look them in the eye because I am a firm believer of the saying that a person's eyes are the window to their soul. Of course, this method isn't always super full proof but I'd say it works 95% of the time for me.
Personality wise, hm. Kindness is a must, I can't stand brutes. I'd also really like him to be patient, more down to earth. I have a bad habit of wandering off inside my own head so having someone who can force me to snap out of it would be fucking amazing. I'd also love it if he could tolerate my goofiness - I say some of the most random and weirdest shit that comes to my mind and I'd be happy if he could at least find some amusement in it. I also want him to have his own hobbies even if they don't match my own. Be passionate good sir, I love that!!
I also want him to communicate and be honest with me. Let's not play games, just let me know what's wrong and how I can help you.
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So uh. I think I've decided that I want to be a little bit more open about some things on here bc honestly trying not to acknowledge it is just causing me a ton of unnecessary stress (and I'm sure as fuck not acknowledging it irl lmaooo) so yeah. So I'll start with this: I'm currently unemployed and living with my parents (mom and stepdad) and my younger but also adult brother (they all have some form of income but it's only just barely enough to get by). Now on its own the whole all of us living together thing should not be that big of a deal apparently according to what I've learned from hearing other ppl's experiences in similar situations. Unfortunately my parents do not think like this. My mom especially is convinced that we are literally ruining her life so y'know that's fun (:
Okay but seriously. I'm about to sound like I'm trying to downplay this (and maybe I am bc. Yk.) but like a good 80% or so of the time it's. Fine. We get along okay. But I know that's only bc we never acknowledge The Problems outside of the few bad days and we always just go on like those never even happened. And here's what I mean by bad days btw: ""Family Meetings"". Yeah that phrase is literally a fucking trigger for me now it's fucking bullshit. When I was younger it meant "me getting screamed at about how fucked up I am and how fucked I'll be in the "real world" and how I'm just "a soft spoiled little bitch bc I never got my ass beat" (like my brother. bc he's definitely fine and has no issues at all lmaooo) (and usually without the bitch part aside from once when I was a teenager) and now it's more "me getting screamed at by my mom abt how I'm ruining her life and her marriage" etc. etc. So yeah. My stepdad is a little better in that he only yelled at me one time when I was like 12 I think? And then never again. And he seems to at least understand that if screaming at still hasn't "fixed" me after 25 fucking years then it's probably not going to so yeah. And he did actually kind of stand up for me during the last one (in late September-ish) which I know isn't much but it's still way more than anyone else has done so I do appreciate it.
Anyway the last one was really fun (terrible) I got the usual + being told I being disrespectful for not coming out to the living room bc I was having a panic attack and quite literally frozen and unable to move 👍👍👍 And I've also been limited to just my phone since then bc my mom took my computer (bc god forbid we consider there might be a reason I'm on it so much) and still hasn't given it back and tbh I think I'd rather kms than ask for it back so that's fun too (:
I am aware that this is abusive behavior and that screaming at your child for any reason is in fact child abuse btw. It took me until very recently to come to terms with that even while knowing that (and I'm probably still not fully there tbh) but I know. It's that fucking generational trauma bullshit yk. My mom's side of the family is Fucked Up like her parents were terrible and their (mostly her dad's idk the other ones lol) parents. Yeah I'm not even comfortable talking about them right now that's like a whole other thing lmao. But yeah I know that doesn't even remotely make it okay.
And yeah like the day after shit like that happens we just never acknowledge it again until everyone's losing their shit again because nothing ever changes. Believe it or not being screamed at does not help me figure out how to navigate getting a source of income or how I'm supposed to do anything when we sure as fuck can't afford another vehicle or how I'm ever going to be able to afford my own place to live lmaooo. And I also literally cannot even talk to them about any of this without losing my ability to speak so that really doesn't help either (: I sure as fuck haven't tried calling out the bullshit either bc fuck that there's no fucking way that's going over well and I couldn't even if I wanted to (: (: (:
So I'm just kinda stuck here ig. It's really not too bad (most of the time). I'm not saying that to minimize or invalidate anything either I just want you all to know that it's not like super urgent or anything, I'm not in danger, my mental health isn't great obviously but I'm not at risk of hurting myself or suicide or anything. Promise <3 I'm a tenacious bastard sticking around out of pure spite and a desire to keep creating things if nothing else lmao :)
God this is kind of a trauma dump lmao but that about sums it up ig? I'm also very much open to advice if anyone has any <3
#srry if I come across insensitively with my jokes and stuff btw#I'm not trying to be I just cope by making fun of how absurd the logic is now that I know it is lol#vent#tw abuse#tw suicide mention#tw victim blaming
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Okay this is not a meta post and more of a real life thing but...
I am at constant conflict whenever I spend quite a bit of time on Tumblr or try to take it seriously. On one hand, there is the drive to just get in to it, enjoy it as much as possible, try customizing it and make this a pseudo blog/diary/interest discussion page. But of course there is gonna be hangups. One is the cold hard material reality: I can't just spend all my time on tumblr, I have things to do and places to go. That is the most reasonable but they'll always be weaker arguments. Like thinking to myself "Why take tumblr so seriously? it's just a website" and that would be the most annoying. On some level, I agree, I have made posts like these before and I express this sentiment but damn is it such a shitty thing to resolve within yourself. It's reasonable when I spend hours on tumblr just scrolling, it feels like a shithead pissing in my ear whenever I customize my tumblr or make a post that's longer than a few lines. Like, I really am negging myself over a few posts 😂.
This attitude also applies to tumblr mutuals. I love you guys and we vibe together but trying to get 'closer' to you guys it's very complicated. Whenever those polls pop up saying "would you like/let mutual do interaction?" I'm always tempted to vote "it's complicated/something else" instead of any other option. And there's so many reasons why I think that. One is that I have IRL people I meet up with, I just don't wanna be the guy who spend all his time with moots and ignore my IRLs. The annoying thing is that it's more just a fear that just fucking negs me, I don't sincerely believe this. The other reason is knowing the person beyond the internet persona. Boomers rant and rave about people hiding so much shit behind a persona and I believe them. For me I feel there's a shitty tension between making posts about myself and how I actually am; I always make myself more sympathetic. Like if people would knew me actually they wouldn't hate me, rather they'd just be disappointed with me in a way that fills me with existential dread. And these doubts are on top of me actually wanting to chat it up with some of you guys. Honestly I am operating on Boomer stranger danger type of internet safety mindset. Thankfully it's not the type to encourage callout posts, far from it, but the type to be anonymous, even more so than some other users. The worst thing is that it just feels like Op-sec LARPING with me feeling so annoyingly smug about it.
This mentality is just reflecting what I mention in my pinned post. When I mentioned I have a "bad habit of doing things online" I meant blogging and creating a persona when my life was kinda going to shit. Sure it wasn't that bad, but I felt guilty cause I was posting online and just ignoring shit loooooooool. Miserable 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰. The part of deleting "even if takes one second of my university time" doesn't apply because I kinda wanna waste time here and I am out of university 🤭🤭🤭.
In regards to the points expressed in the first paragraph, I feel like I have gotten better. I am coming into a posting flow and aesthetic and I feel like I have more control over my tumblr account. I honestly believe saying what you want to say and posting what you want prevents you randomly dragging about and just passively reblogging and scrolling. In other words you're more satisfied and waste less time.
Anyone else feels like this 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗????
#not even gonna bother tl;dr this#Followers I just laid this on you dash like a yoshi popping out an egg 🐱🐉🥚👆😃
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ok so this is weird but i felt like you would maybe understand me and i needed to rant. so i'm in my 20s, and i've always been attracted to older men, old rockstars, fictional characters, famous people, you know the stuff. when i was younger it was more normal cause why would i crush on a 16 yr old boy right? i've had a relationship and a few flirts but nothing actually real happened. fast forward to my 20s, i start to actually have feeling for people in my age group. but anytime i have the massive crush on someone i can never get them to crush on me back. and i'm like, social, have hobbies - you know, i'm not like i'm isolating myself from people. i don't know how to say this without sounding weird but i don't think i'm particularly unattractive either. i mean i'm no VS model but you don't need to be that to experience love, right? each time i get my hopes high up about finally my crush/s liking me back it never happens, i get over them and go back to my old ways - obsessively crushing on rockstars and famous people. making playlists and pinterest boards for people i'll probably never even meet in real life. and it makes me feel like such a loser because i'm a grown ass adult. people my age get married and have babies. and i'm not one of those people who believe fandoms are for teens only but at this point it's not even that much about the art for me anymore, it's purely romantic and sexual. i'm pretty certain it's a coping mechanism for the lack of intimacy and sexuality in my life. i've basically wasted my young years without experiencing teenage love and turns out my 20s aren't different either. i feel like i'm the only person in the world who's in this situation and at this point i feel like i'm just not meant to experience romance of any kind. i'll just spend my life yearning for people i'll only get to touch in my dreams and that's it. sorry i just needed to get this off my chest, i hope you're having a good day x
Oh my dear...the 20s are a truly horrible time. I'm in late stage twenties and i'm only starting to really love life. 27 was my turning point.
The great thing about our blorbos is that they'll always love us back even if they don't actually know us. It's the Almost Famous of it all.
The truth is, these obsessions can coexist with our irl romantic life. But I understand the pain of wanting to have that chance at romance and it not feeling like it loves you back.
You're doing great. I bet you're beautiful. And people who are already getting married and having kids, that's their journey. I sometimes get jealous, particularly of women who already have kids because I want to be a mother so badly but I also know I'm not ready.
I'm sure there are people who look at you and think, wow what I would do with all that freedom.
i'm pretty certain it's a coping mechanism for the lack of intimacy and sexuality in my life. i've basically wasted my young years without experiencing teenage love and turns out my 20s aren't different either. i feel like i'm the only person in the world who's in this situation and at this point i feel like i'm just not meant to experience romance of any kind.
I can guarantee you're not the only one feeling this way. There's actually a sociological thing happening where people are avoiding relationships, especially women because now we aren't going to fucking settle for emotionally unintelligent men (assuming you're looking to be in a het relationship).
I am sure people will see this post and be like damn yeah that's me too. I wasn't in my first relationship until I was 22 and that was only a year and a half. I've dated so fucking much on dating apps and been miserable over. I've just gotten into my first relationship in almost five years because I just couldn't suffer fools.
You're stronger than you know. I know how isolating it can feel.
The joke about dating and crushes is you can't use the notion that "insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting a different result". You have to keep that hope alive, have to keep showing up and having an open heart.
I've been rejected so many times. But I've learned over the years actually it's not a me problem. It's a them problem. You are wonderful in so many ways, anon (I just know it). You just haven't found the person that is ready for that. All it takes is one.
Don't give up. My asks are always open. Sweet bean, I love you!
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I WAS AT STAGE WITH PARAMORE 💜
Wow. I can't believe I'm writing this. Here I go.
Disclaimer: English is not my first language and I'm writing this at the airport on my phone without thinking too much. So, sorry if I mess up with the grammar or something 🙏 (by the time I'm uploading it I'm already at home cause I wanted to add some pictures).
I made this account very recently because I was embarassed about fangirling too much at my main blogs where irl people followed me.
I dedicated this account mostly to aruani (snk) fandom but you've probably realized that I also share a lot Paramore stuff.
Well, I wasn't planning on ending anonymity anytime soon but... something BIG happened to me.
Last thursday I was able to go to my first Paramore show ever at Dublin. I've been dreaming about it for so many years. I've watched so many videos of fans going up stage at Misery Business and I've cried so many times watching them. I travelled from Spain, wrote in a huge sign "I crave to sing with you", arrived at queue at 8:15 am aprox, and waited (I had General Acces tickets!). The amazing Tom gave us some numbered wristbands so we could leave the queue and stay warm and healthy without losing our spot. He was the sweetest. Meanwhile I took a walk around, lucky enough to meet Brian Robert Jones and take a pic with him!!! Around 4 pm we were back at the queue and, yes, I was able to be at the same spot. ❤️
The second I entered the arena and realized how close I was to the stage I started ugly crying hahahaha. Rozi Plain was so sweet, Bloc Party was awesome (I really like them as well!!). And then they came out. At that moment I wasn't even crying anymore, I think I was disassociating a bit 🤣
They were amazing. Hayley is so talented, pretty and fun. THE ENERGY. I was holding up my sign maybe for too long and I could hear some people complaining about it behind me, which I totally understand... I felt so bad I started crying about it so I decided to not hold it up again until Misery Business :_) But soon the guilty tears turned into emotional tears, and I cried a lot during most of the show. I was SO EMOTIONAL during Last Hope... 🥺
AND THEN
Misery Business starts. Time to make Hayley spot me 🙏 Omg my stomach hurts while writing this... SHE. PICKED. ME. SHE FUCKING PICKED ME. I didn't realized, my boyfriend literally had to tell me because I was so nervous I didn't realized. Ok I think I'm going to cry again hahahaha.
She said she had been watching and knew exactly that it was going to be me. I can't believe it. At that moment I was so euphoric that I just went with the flow. Obviously I'd been preparing myself for this but you need to know I'm a very socially akward person, I have many anxiety issues, but IDK WHAT HAPPENED TO ME BUT I'M VERY PROUD OF MYSELF 😭😭😭 Hayley hugged me very hard, I told her I love her and thanked her a billion times. She is very tiny and I'm a big tall person but she PET MY HEAD 😭😭😭❤️ I can't believe she was so sweet!!!! I did it, I sang the song, I danced with Hayley, she said my name, we headbanged together... an amazing dream come true. I asked her to sign my (diy grow up) jacket and SHE DID IT!!! I was told to left very quickly (obviously 🤣) but she managed to sign it for me on time 🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ (I also brought a marker in my pocket on purpose). I mean I WAS SO READY FOR IT 😭❤️
After that people were AMAZINGLY NICE TO ME. THANK YOU ALL WITH ALL MY HEART. It means the world to me that the other fans felt happy for me, so many people congratulated my, you are in my heart FOREVER. I felt kinda bad because I'm from Spain and I started thinking that maybe I didn't deserve it, that it should have been anyone from Dublin... I find it very difficult to feel worthy of all the goods things that happen to me, and to hear so many fans telling so many nice things, hugging me, even asking for pictures... You really made a difference in me. I'm crying. I wish I could share with you the feeling. THANK YOU DUBLIN. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!! ❤️
This has changed my life forever. I also met Louise from Bloc Party after the show and she was LOVELY, eveything about that night has inspired me forever. I've been dreaming about making music by myself since I was a little child and just started to actually make it (kinda 🤣) a few months ago. But now... I feel so blessed and inspired I'm gonna try harder from now on.
MY WILDEST DREAMS CAME TRUE. Thank you Hayley for choosing me, thank you Paramore for changing my life, thank you Dublin for the unforgettable experience, thanks to the lovely fans I met there, and THANKS TO MY AMAZING BOYFRIEND for being there with my ALWAYS by my side. He knew it was going to be me. He fucking knew. I'm so grateful. I've been crying since that night. I'm crying right now and I'll never stop crying about this. This is a once in a lifetime experience, I am the luckiest person. A picture could not contain the way it feels.
WE LOVE YOU. WE LOVE YOU AND WE ARE PARAMORE. ❤️
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#paramore#hayley williams#hayley#misery business#fan on stage#lucky#dream come true#miz biz#paramore tour#paramore 2023#this is why#riot#this is why tour#dublin#ireland#paramore dublin#paramore ireland#feelings#THANK YOU#hayley williams with fan
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You know what, fuck it.
All 50 questions, go
........................okay..! i'll do c!brick :D
1 : do they have any crafting hobbies?
of course she does! she's a borrower! brick is really good with a needle so she makes a lot of like blankets and tapestries, occasionally clothes too :D andd honestly she'll use anything to make anything,,,
2 : do they wear perfume/cologne? if so what scents do they prefer?
brick doesn't wear perfume because she doesn't know what it is. and if she did, she wouldn't touch it :) (i hate perfume irl too)
3 : do they enjoy cooking?
no, she wants things that need no preparation!
4 : do they enjoy baking?
no for the same reason, but she likes baked goods. then again no one's thrown her into a kitchen before,,,
5 : do they have any tattoos? if so what are they and do they have any meaning?
no tattoos!
(more under cut)
6: if they were badly injured, and for whatever reason couldn't go to a hospital, who would they go to for help?
well she can't go to a hospital at all, so the only thing to do would be to go to c!orchid or c!becky
7 : do they have any unusual fears?
c!brick is pretty fearless because of her cockiness and need to be brave. and if you look deep down inside her she doesn't have anything particularly unusual. i mean.....if being crushed under a hand or squeezed to death counts as unusual to a non-g/t fellow,,,
8 : do they collect anything? if so what and why?
she collects lil pieces of stone when she's outside. sometimes she does stuff with it but there's just a growing pile of pebbles and rubble in the corner of her room. the first lil piece of stone she found was a brick, hence the name :D there's no real reason behind this
she also collects the normal borrower stuff: bits of scrap, matches, string, etc.
9 : when they're sick what do they do to feel better?
she's standoffish as hell so she wouldn't immediately go to c!orchid or c!becky unless she was like dying, so she would stick to herself for a while until caving and maybe asking a human for help. but to feel better, she'll usually just craft something. maybe rearrange stuff in her room (terrible for being sick but mentally it calms her)
10 : do they have any regrets?
not really. being seen by c!becky and eventually meeting c!orchid can sometimes linger in her mind at night but she doesn't exactly regret it, it's just that underlying fear from when she bothered to follow some of borrower code
11 : do they have any addictions?
nope! she likes a lot of things in one serving
12 : do they have a sense of style? regardless of the answer do they believe they have a sense of style?
a borrower's clothing style (and just general style) depends a lot on the material that their human has, and more specifically the stuff they can get their hands on. but from what c!brick gets, she thinks she has a nifty gift for knowing how things will look.
13 : do they enjoy poetry?
she has no idea what that is! if she did, though, she probably wouldn't. she'd appreciate it but it won't hold her interest
14 : do they have a hard time opening up to people?
yes! chatting with her can come kind of easily (more so than actually opening up) but it takes a while for her to warm up to people
15 : what kind of sense of humor do they have? or do they have one at all?
i'm not going to bother thinking of a whole new sense of humor, so my humor. she has my humor.
16 : do they want or have kids?
she doesn't have any, and never wants any
17 : how easily would they be convinced to do something that goes against their morals?
it would take a while, if it ever did work. she does things a certain way and generally she doesn't like ruining that flow! very stubborn
18 : how easy is it to become their enemy?
very easy! even with the newfound friendship with c!orchid & c!becky, brick still kind of sees them like a playful threat. so imagine that but there's no underlying joke
19 : how easy is it to become their friend?
eh, depends. like i said, it takes a while for her to warm up to people, so therefore she doesn't exactly just click with people. and as she likes doing things her own speed, she prefers if people don't try and pry her out of her home or out of her comfort level (which is pretty non-existent considering her whole "fearless" facade. so it'd take a few weeks to be acquaintances, maybe a month for friendship. could be longer,,
20 : do they have a strong connection to their culture?
ehhhh not really. from the start she never really bother obeying borrower code because she knew the danger but also took into consideration how a handful humans don't throw a fit when they see a bug and knew there was some hope.
21 : what is more important to them: friends or family?
friends all the way. she doesn't really have any family because they left her on her own once she reached a certain age and she hasn't seen them, or any other borrower, ever since :)
22 : would they ever betray anyone for money?
money has no value to brick, but she probably would if it did or if she was human,,,,
23 : how would they want to die?
in a fight with a cat. context? nuhuh :)
24 : do they have any enemies?
everyone is kind of her enemy. sometimes in a playful way and other times in a genuine way
25 : do they have a daily/night routine?
as a borrower there isn't a ton you could do to spice up your day. it's either walls, house, or outside. so she kind of follows a routine of borrowing in the late night if she needs something, practicing hobbies during the day and venturing around the house in the early morning. but after she meets c!orchid & c!becky they do more spontaneous things since yk..humans
26 : have they met any of their heroes? did they regret it?
brick doesn't really have any heroes, her life has been independently done for her whole life
27 : has a chance encounter ever had an unexpected effect on them?
c!becky finding her ofc! that turned her life right around :D
28 : are they a #gamer
of course 😎 (no)
29 : if they were real would you be friends with them?
100%, she seems SO cool
30 : if they had the chance to be famous would they take it? if they are famous would they rather they weren't?
she probably would take the opportunity to be famous. just because
31 : what superpower would you choose for them and what would they choose for themselves? if they have one would they choose something else?
i would choose shapeshifting for her and she would choose invisibility!
32 : if they could change one thing about themself, what would it be?
she would change nothing! she is surprisingly satisfied with herself
33 : do they play ttrpgs? if so what kind of characters do they play? or are they more likely to gm?
they don't play ttrpgs but if she did she would get SO invested in acting out things. (tinies playing ttrpgs are my favorite thing ever)
she would probably be some like evil character with a god complex with a terribly high amount of betrayal arcs that are way too packed together to even be surprising anymore,,
34 : how well do they deal with grief?
she hasn't experienced it yet, but she would probably be bad at it and have unhealthy coping mechanisms
35 : do they believe in fate or do they believe that they are in charge of their own destiny?
she believes she's in charge of her own destiny! but there's also a part of her that believes everything happens for a reason, which is a part of her trying not to be so pessimistic about everything
36 : would they ever kill someone? have they already?
she would probably kill someone. not intentionally (maybe) but by accident maybe if she took one of her schemes too far
37 : are they religious? if so do they have a strong sense of faith, are they uncertain, or are they somewhere in between?
she's agnostic (leaning on atheist) with a sprinkle of unsure pantheism (like me :D)
38 : what are their dreams like? do they have any recurring dreams/nightmares?
brick rarely dreams. rarely rarely. when she does she barely remembers it in the morning and just continues on with life, unbothered by any nightmares or dreams she may have had!
39 : would they ever crash a wedding?
for fun, yes. for personal benefit, also yes, but it's more unlikely.
40 : if they found a sword in a stone would they try to pull it out? how would they react to being able to pull it out or not?
she would try and pull it out despite being so small, and DESPITE BEING SMALL, she would complain about it and call it rigged
41 : do they learn from their mistakes?
for about 2.7 days then she does it again :D
42 : can they speak multiple languages? if yes what do they speak and why?
brick speaks english and that's it. they've picked up the general like "hola" and "uno" but other than that she's boring
43 : can they handle stressful situations?
yes! she works really well under pressure, especially if she's yelling at someone :D
44 : who, if anyone, would she trust with her deepest secrets?
nobody. maybe a bug
45 : do they plan in advance or just wing it?
wing it! sometimes she'll make a rough outline for a plan but generally she just goes into it headfirst and hopes for the best
46 : would they lie to get out of trouble?
absolutely. she's really good at it too despite never being in a situation like that,,
47 : would they lie to get someone else out of trouble? even if they would have to take someone else's place?
she would lie to get someone out of trouble if they were close to her. she does like snitching. but she probably wouldn't do it to take their place unless they're REALLY close to this person
48 : how likely are they to go on a quest for revenge?
as soon as someone does something inconvenient to her, she's plotting revenge. this is the only time she plans something
49 : do they have trouble keeping their enemies and their friends straight?
she's small, so it's not easy, but she definitely tries to keep people straight. sometimes it works, but more often than not it doesn't,,,,
50 : what is your favorite thing about them?
ehhh appearance maybe? this is for borrower!brick not the like more non-human brick i have in the works but still i like her appearance a lot! her personality is close behind bc i stole it from techno & george sdhfdgdfjs
wow orchid you really just had me to do that...
t- thanks for the ask :'D
ask game !!
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👾 for kaija!
Handshake with Hell, by Arch Enemy! possible CW for flashing lights, didn't affect me but my photosensitivity is a bit weird regarding screens (as in, it's most often triggered by stuff I see IRL instead) so better safe than sorry.
And after all is said and done
Since the moon eclipsed the sun
Can you feel the wrath of truth?
Does it burn you like abuse?
so a lot of Kaija's character arc involves the fact that being the Knight-Commander of the Fifth Crusade is… kind of an emotional rollercoaster, to put it mildly.
she craves independence, she hates commitments and being tied down and having things expected of her, but she's also not above a good old power trip; and being in a position like that, where people look upon her with respect, with awe, makes her feel—not good, per se, but validated in a way that is born entirely out of jaded bitterness. like, "ha, you idiots spent so long treating me like shit because I'm a tiefling, and now that I'm of use to you somehow, now that you see my 'true' potential, you're falling over yourselves to worship me." it annoys her as much as it makes her unbearably smug.
she wants people to look at her and see not just the Knight-Commander but someone they would've spit on in the past, and she wants them to feel burning shame and regret. can you tell why she gets along so well with Woljif lol
in this case, despite her overall personality not fitting the Moon archetype, she'd be the moon that eclipsed Galfrey's sun—Kaija is the morally questionable, ethically reprehensible tiefling that took over the Crusade and made it work.
And after all is said and done
When the dark delays the dawn
Walk your path towards the reaper
Learn that hell is other people
Kaija, uh. does not get along with most council members she's assigned, lol. as well as the whole deal with Galfrey sending her into the Abyss, which breeds a resentment so deep that the only reason why Kai doesn't go apeshitt and attack Galfrey upon meeting her at Iz is that at that point in her timeline she is extremely high on the "I AM BETTER THAN YOU" juice and thinks Galfrey is not even worth her time, lol. (and also because Irabeth is there and, differences aside, Kai has a lot of appreciation and respect for Irabeth, and she wouldn't want to strike her down after everything they went through together.)
but also this particular lyric is heavily heavily related to Areelu—at her worst moments Kaija sees Areelu as some sort of twisted mirror of herself, and the later revelations about the source of her mythic power do not help at all, hence why she drops them as soon as she gets the chance
Fool me once and I'm numb
Twice and I'm dumb
Thrice, I won't be fooled again
Fool me once and I'm done
Twice I succumb
To a handshake with hell
so remember the emotional rollercoaster I mentioned above? the power trip is there sometimes, and other times it feels like she's just a pawn on a chess board, being dragged around according to someone else's will. and it pisses her off very, very badly. and when Kaija is pissed off, she, uh. takes drastic measures, so to speak.
at first it just leads her to antagonise people and get all belligerent when she really shouldn't, then in the Abyss she gets actively violent and indulges in her worst desires and impulses, then in Act V/post-game she declares Drezen's independence out of spite. #girlboss.
In the end, we only reap what we have sown
Can't leave well enough alone
and lastly, although still related to the above—she's a firm believer of "fuck around and find out", lol. "we only reap what we have sown" is just the more diplomatic way of putting that. 😌
#Maia speaks#OC: Kaija#thank you Romeo!!!!#apologies for how long & all over the place this is LOL I just really like talking about her :3#EDIT: ok I can not make the Spotify embed work . awesome#alright YT link instead then. my apologies#EDIT EDIT^2 oh my god why is Alissa so fucking hot. help.
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*gets dragged in clinging to a roomba* so tell me more about this Dusk to Dawn story 👀? The characters? The bioweapon project? Any plot points you want to talk about? Whatever you have i’m here for it
There is so so SO much lore to the story of Dusk To Dawn that I simply can't do it justice in a text post, but I will do my best to cover the basics.
2 alien races are at war: The Amphizori and the Cryozak. The leader of the military branch of Amphizori, Raika (he/him), decides "hey what if we made a bioweapon out of alien wolves and we made it so that they have enhanced senses, can camouflage even on an infrared scale, are solar powered, and only attack lifeforms that resemble the target (humanoid) would that be fucked up or what?" So he recruits a bunch of scientists to make these (project stendri, also called shadewolves by humans). Also Raika is a piece of shit btw he treats all the scientists, especially the lead scientist, Keicazil (he/they), like total shit and emotionally manipulates most if not all of them.
Raika decides to use the newly discovered exoplanet with sapient life on it (Earth) as a testing ground because he sucks. All of thr scientists are not ok with this but are forced to go through with it anyways bc he's their boss. This is when keicazil and his boyfriend start to formulate a plan to tell both alien races of the horrors that Raika has done, save Earth, and just straight up mutany this dudes ass.
While this is all going on there's shit going on with the humans too!!
There are 4 main characters:
Elias Ramsamooj (he/him), Kepler Manzello (they/them), Rowan Flowers (he/him), and Faith Vazquez (she/her).
Other important characters include Sage (she/her), Hazel (she/her), Christine Murray (she/her), Angelica Murray (she/her), John Miller (he/him, and Noel (she/her).
I'm not gonna go too much in depth in all their stories bc there's A LOT to cover but essentially Kepler and Elias have been online friends for years and were planning on meeting up irl. Halfway through Elias' road trip to meet Kepler the alien invasion happens. They end up meeting up but only after shadewolves have killed Kepler's family so they're pretty fucked up. They later meet Faith who was left for dead by her old group of friends (there's SO many layers to that group btw it's a similar situation to what happened with the scientists and Raika). They then meet Rowan and save him from being murdered by some people who belong to The Children of the Wolf (It's a cult. Similar to we the people from thr sun vanished but also very different at thr same time).
After they meet up they meet up with Sage and Hazel, the 2 leaders of thr Community. (It's basically just a small town lol they are very well off tho). Faith pissed off thr leader of TCotW and there's like a mini war between the community and the cult lol bit I'm not gonna go into that.
Just know that story has a happy ending ^_^ I'm hoping to turn it into a book someday maybe
ALSO The Children of the Wolf are lead by Angelica Murray. The cult believes that the shadewolves are angels sent from heaven to cleanse the earth of sin. They protect and "live in harmony" with them. They also believe anyone killed by a shadewolf was "not following in the path of god."
They're insane and. Yeah just all around not a fun group of people. Especially their leader she's also a dick LMFAO
That's all I can tell yall for now. This story takes a bit of inspiration from the sun vanished arg too if it wasn't obvious though nothing that can be pointed out very easily (I hope lol)
#starry answers#dusk to dawn#cw cult#cw emotional manipulation#ALSO rowan and elias have a slow burn friends to lovers arc. i love them lots#Kepler also gets an alien girlfriend named Koda but that does happen till after the main story is over#other fun facts are that Hazel is mute and speaks using asl#sage is hazel's sister and kind of works as her interpreter for newcomers who aren't familiar with asl#asl is taught at the community! they have therapists and good doctors too!#characters without last names means i dont have a surname for them yet sorry 😭#cw religion#just in case. the cult stuff is super heavy im realizing#the whole story is#if anyone needs anything else tagged just tell me!!
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Going episode by episode in what I loved in Unsleeping City. Spoilers so warning!!
Episode 1: Start Spreading The News
For starters, love the title. Nothing like a Sinatra reference when talking about NYC. Starts off with Brennan really jumping into how much of a New Yorker he is with both the joy he describes the things he loves about New York and how gross it is lol. Also the hate that all the people who've lived in New York have for SantaCon. Just a fun little aside.
Pete's intro is perfect for him. I loved him from the first moment and was so invested in him. Such a complex character. A wild magic drug dealing trans sorcerer who always wears a cowboy hat and who is a total mess. Like, the biggest mess. He's such a mess I love him. The fear in his eyes when his dad appears and the bubble scene with his dad is amazing. Nod is such a pretty place and Pete's first visit is so insane. Brennan really had some fun with that one.
Sophia "Bikes" Lee Bicicleta has the funniest introduction and by God is she a hoot and a half. Knowing all I know about Dale makes this all the more painful ngl. Her crying over that ladies hair is amazing. Also, as someone who lives with a housewives fan and enjoys a bit of it as well, the way he got the accent down perfectly is so much fun. She is also a mess in a different way and she's the best. The short stories line was so fucking amazing. The bachelorette party and the following the guys is such a cool scene. And her alluding to Kugrash is so funny.
Ricky Matsui is my emotional support himbo and I love him! He's so pure and such a civic responsible nerd it gives him magic and I love that. So sweet and so genuine and so hot and so dumb. The selfie message to Esther and his obvious crush are so cute. Esther is so damn cool and competent. And so very patient with Ricky lol. Ricky rescuing Pete is such a great way for them to meet and the beginning of a beautiful bromance.
The minute Kingston Brown from Uptown was introduced, I knew he would be the coolest person ever and I'm so glad I was right. And how his powers manifest as the city taking care of him like he takes care of it is beautiful. And I still can't believe that the butt guy became and actual important part of the plot. Like, the heck lol?
Kingston and Pete's scene is so fun. The arrival, the cure, seeing
And then comes the only rat I will ever like. Kugrash being introduced with Wally is so sweet and funny. A dumpster druid is such a great idea and no one could have played it like Murph. And him meeting Sofie is so cute I love it. And also I love how down for anything Sofia is.
Misty Moore is an icon and if she existed irl I would be obsessed with her. And I love how she does absorbs glamour but she also does her best to inspire and bring joy to the people who she takes it from. Also she's such a bitch boss I love her lol.
The lion boyfriends at the library are so cute and Alejandro is the best. That explaining of what the Unsleeping City is so fun. And of course the place they all meet up at the library. It's truly a magical place. And I agree, an empty Time Square is so fucking creepy.
All and all, I pretty much loved the whole intro episode as a really way to get to know the PC's you will come to laugh, cry and freak out with.
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Our brain is an intricate organ and "machine" that causes conflicting emotions, thoughts, and opinions. It is far too complex to reduce to simple properties.
Your last Anon had the courage to admit that he had racist thoughts caused by his environment, but he recognized them and is now working on them. There are countless others in this position who absolutely deserve the opportunity to change and improve.
It's scary how much the environment/family is ignored and thus haters simply classify Billy as "racist and evil". I studied psychology and understanding problematic people is of upmost importance in this world. I myself was brought up with racist values. I am of Indian origin but born and raised in a small European country. Those of my own country of origin were the ones who judged me in a racist way. I was too dark, for in the eyes of the "upper class" lighter skin is to be praised. Ever since I was little, my familymembers and circle of friends always made comments to my parents or to me about my skin color being too dark. Contradictory, I've developed a hatred for white people over the course of my childhood and adolescence. Of course, it should be noted that not all Indians are like that, I am referring specifically to my family and circle of friends. I will omit boring long details, but after long self-analysis, help from psychologists and self-study, I finally found inner peace and saw the error of my ways. Hatred towards white skinned people or my co-nationals won't make me happy. It only made me angry. I don't hide the fact that I've cut people out of my life because of my false hatred.
Life isn't as easy to classify as good or bad as the online haters want to make it out to be. People have wrong beliefs, opinions, ways of life, sometimes intentionally, sometimes unintentionally. It is important that you are willing to change. I'm sorry if I've written so much, but your recent conversations with anons have inspired me. I don't normally want to reveal my story like that, so I still prefer to remain anonymous, but I think it's an important topic. What these haters are doing right now with their false moralism is harmful. I hope that one day they will also recognize the mistakes in their behavior and learn from their mistakes. Hopefully someday they'll look back on their online hating days and try be better and not be so quick to judge. Have a wonderful day, keep up the amazing work. I love your blog <3
I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to share this with me and staying on anon is more than welcome! I won't add anything to your story because it deserves to stand on its own and should be read as it is but I do want to continue off what you said about antis realising their behaviour isn't alright.
We've all been idiot teenagers on the Internet and done or said things we now don't believe. I used to have arguments with people I would now agree with, strangers who I'll never meet or speak to again but in the moment it feels so important to get your point across instead of walking away.
Thing is, I never harassed people or sent death threats and this new mindset of "its just on the Internet" is such bullshit. Have they stopped showing anti cyber bullying things in school because we had that shoved down our throats from a young age along with online safety and privacy but that's a whole different topic I'll go into another time.
The Internet is treat like it doesn't have irl consequences but it damn well does. More so than ever. Yet, people are attacking actors, fans, writers and all sorts over fictional people who don't exist at all. I can't imagine not understanding that telling someone to kys or going after their appearance or personality has impact and can affect someone deeply. People accuse Billy of being a bully but antis are far worse than he ever was to the point they target real abuse victims for relating to a fictional one.
Liking a fictional character does not reflect your views or opinions. Its s fucking character in a TV show. I could rant all day but I'll stop and say that humans are complicated, complex and very very stupid at times but we change and grow and develop as people as we age and experience new things. Everyone deserves a chance to do so.
Thank you! I really appreciate being a vessel for this!
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i never really realized how much of the sam and colby fan base is just made out of judgmental pieces of shit 😭
no offense, but i was just scrolling through your account and i always see so much negativity and judgement from people in your asks all the time. i left the fandom for a while and now i really regret returning cause it’s just non stop negativity everywhere like damn.
like why do so many of people complain about every single fucking thing. like too many things that i see people complain about are really not as big of deal as you think it is.
i get what you mean. however let me put this into a different perspective, especially as someone who's been running this account and has allowed ppl to voice their opinion since 2019ish.
i think sometimes we view opinions that aren't the "norm" or aren't like ours as negative, especially if it's something we disagree with fully. i think we're quick to think that someone who is complaining about something is being negative when the opinion itself might be neutral, or not really all that negative in the first place compared to someone else's opinion. and personally i think that just bc an opinion is negative, doesn't mean that the person is bad.
for example: i complain all the time about snc's merch and how i think it's lazy or not as creative as it should be. and while i say that often enough on here, irl i don't really mention it. that thought doesn't plague my mind constantly. i only get reminded i don't like the merch when they come out with new ones. and even then, i'm not really upset the merch doesn't meet whatever standard i have for it. honestly, i think their merch is fine, but it could be better. but sometimes it's fun to just vent that the merch doesn't look as good or it's just an x on a black shirt lol
yes, it's a nitpicky opinion to have, but…. who cares. that opinion doesn't make me look down on snc or their brand. it annoys me in the moment, but that's it. and i think that can be said about a lot of opinions that get voiced on here. and side note, i think it's hard most times to gage how upset some ppl actually are. some, i think, come on here and aren't all that upset but bc tone is hard to read thru words, things can get misconstrued.
that's not the say that ppl don't go hateful real fast sometimes. i agree, sometimes ppl just complain waaaaaaayyyy too much about things that aren't important or that really shouldn't effect them that deeply. some ppl hate someone so deeply that they will literally scrape the bottom of the barrel just to find something ELSE to hate on them. usually with those ppl, i try to realize that most likely, they have something bad going on in their life that they can't complain about or don't know how to express, so they take their frustrations out on something not important like (fill in the blank fandom thing here).
that's why when someone comes on here, guns blazing about something that really isn't that big of a deal, i usually tell them that if X person is pissing them off this much, pull back. unfollow, mute, or block them. at the end of the day, snc are supposed to entertain you. and if they aren't doing that, let them go. go find something that does instead of complaining and constantly getting pissed off. however, some ppl will never do that, bc some just like being angry. so, i end up constantly just repeating myself in this category.
i think it's also good for me or us, the ppl viewing these opinions constantly, to just take a step back and not let their opinions effect our mood. while that's easier said than done, believe me, it's still a good thing to remember that you don't have to let ppl's "negative" opinions upset you. that's their opinion to have, but not yours to keep.
i think as a whole, this fandom is very loving when it wants to be. i just think there is a lot of moving parts and A LOT of miscommunication that causes arguments and fights to happen that make ppl angry. i also think there is A LOT of frustration in the fandom strictly bc there's a lot of doors that lead to no where when you start asking questions or want to know more about something, if that makes sense. if the fandom at large upsets you, ignore it. or only take it in little chunks.
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welcome to a game of random asks ✨💅
sometimes I have the urge to ask people i follow the most random things. especially if they're people I keep up w.
Answer only the ones you feel comfortable answering cause i honestly sometimes go too far i think 😭 🦕
What's the adopted council? I see you posting it a lot mwehe
what's an autistic trait that affects you the most?
what's your biggest red flag? you can name more than one btw 🚩
what's your ideal romantic partner?
do you have any regrets?
what's your biggest pet peeve?
do you love your mum?
what's the worst thing you've experienced in a relationship? doesn't necessarily have to be a romantic one.
what's the biggest hyperfixation you had?
are you most likely to confront someone or be confronted?
are you an extrovert or introvert?
based on your posts, I'm assuming your quite popular in school?
do you ever have the fear that someone might be manipulating you? either online or irl. (cause personally i have the fear that someone would stalk me then use my personal sharings against me 😭
describe your closest most dear friend with three adjectives
are you more likely to manipulate or be manipulated?
what's the best thing your dad has done for you?
what's your dad like?
how much do you love your dad? lmao i already know its a yes i just want to have fun seeing how you'll describe it
do you believe in zodiac signs? if so, is your zodiac accurate to your personality?
what's your personality like when meeting new people?
are you the type of person who gets crushes on someone because of one kind act?
are you close with all your family members? what are they like?
what do you when you're bored?
what's one thing you wish to improve about yourself?
how do you deal w backstabbers or people who hate you? both online and irl
name 3 characters you kin the most
are you a dog person or a cat person?
name one goal you have in life
do you want to get married and have children?
do you think a girl and a guy can be best friends without developing feelings?
do you have a faith or religion?
name one controversial opinion you have that will get you canceled if people knew.
tehee~ im done. again, don't answer the questions you don't want to. this is just for fun
Okay this is a lot–
Adopted Parents Council is a tag all related to my kiddos and me interacting with fast food parody accounts, basically my character– And also myself! When you see my posts with that tag you notice that easily. On the other hand, the «plinko mori» tag are things that are more personal or actually real life facts lol
SENSITIVITY TO ALMOST EVERYTHING; Bright lights, I can't walk on streets 'cause of the light of the cars; textures, I avoid eating most of nuts, vegetables and fruits because of that; loud noises, wearing headphones that cancel most of the noises around with music, it's complicated because they don't work in specific scenarios that happen a lot at school; temperature, having a big change of temperatures makes me sick or when the temperature is too "a lot" for me I end up with stomachaches, panicking or easy to annoy– If not that I'll say not understanding sarcasm
I would say the blackmail or manipulation but I think my biggest flag is having a lack of empathy and almost 0 morals
Based in the few I know I can actually answer with The British is an ideal partner (maybe platonically?) but the most green flag I know is a user, close friend, called Mumu <3
Not saying a symptom to a doctor, that's my biggest fucking regret
DOGS- I HAVE TRAUMAS WITH THEM HOW THE FUCK I'M STILL ALIVE IN MY FATHER'S HOUSE?
Of course I do not love my mom, she doesn't love me either so corresponded hate 🫶🏻
My mom literally screaming when I was an infant «I wish you wasn't even born», «I'll hit you so you can cry for a good reason» and «You don't know how annoying you can be» but at least now just the last thing she says it lol she denies the rest it's annoying
Monster High, I traumatized my dad
When I get angry I confront people a lot– That will sure happen next week at least 3 days. But when I'm not angry I get confronted by almost anything I do
Introvert
I'm popular at school because I wear headphones in all moments, specially at classes, and because I get along with teachers actually so yeah "kinda" would be the right answer
Yeah I do, but then I remember I also manipulate people and I feel better
It would be probably my friends Koku or Barb– Koku would be "traumatized, kind and polite" while Barb would be "pendeja, brilliant and funny"
Manipulate, I'm a fucking Ougai Mori kinnie
Believe my words, believe me when I explained any sickness, take care of me, not having problems with my existence, being patient with me and Idk be a good not abusive dad when coming from an abusive family
Mix Beelzebub and Belphegor from Obey Me!, Sakunosuke Oda and Ryurou Hirotsu from Bungou Stray Dogs and those four together are my dad: Questionable past, can kill people, extremely kind, soft, sleeps, eats and smocks a lot, shares obsessions with me and well I took the autism from him
For you to have an idea of my love for my dad– People thought I was incestuous when I explained
I do not believe but my mother is fucking obsessed with it– She says that cancer is accurate for me but I don't know anything except the crying part. I cry a lot so at least that's accurate
I-I don't fucking know I'm so sorry
Yes I'm the type of person who falls in love because of a tiny kind act THAT'S HOW I STARTED HAVING A CRUSH IN A TEACHER
Just to my dad, I'm almost a copy-paste of him both physically and psychologically. The things I took from my mom is be 148cm/4'10" inches tall and be a tiny bomb
I read, listen to songs, practice a song or play in my cellphone
Not falling in love with toxic people that SOMETIMES are kind with me
I either cry or expect them coming is hilarious– Because this last option happens a lot so I just traumatize those people with anything or just be like "Idc"
Ougai Mori, Kunikida Doppo and Paul Verlaine, all of those from Bungou Stray Dogs
Cat person– I love cats and I'm fucking traumatized with dogs
Publish my works: poems, novels, short stories, etc
No
As a pansexual trans man, yes of course, I have a girl best friend and we'll never be in a romantic relationship
Satanism Of Lavey or the satanism that doesn't believe in the existence of Satan (because there are two types of Satanism lol)
I already got cancelled for loving Ougai Mori but to add something and not explain it further I'll say that defending a dictatorship
Thank you for the questions! I loved answering them 🥰🫶🏻
#long post#adopted parents council asks#adopted parents council#adopted overlords council#last tag related to question four
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