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Jim White — All Hits: Memories (Drag City)
Reasonable enough, perhaps, that drummer Jim White, after four decades in the trade and with a sprawling resumé of indie rock collaborations (not to mention percussion duties in the Dirty Three!), would only now get around to releasing his first solo album. After all, drums by themselves offer a challenging compositional palette, at least in certain idioms. However White, who is deeply respected by his peers, makes some clever moves on All Hits: Memories which clear the way. The first move is to turn toward free jazz, where solo percussion is a bit more familiar than in indie rock. Without doubt he has the chops, too, shifting between groovy phrases and episodes that expand and branch rhizomatically. While it would be difficult to pinpoint his central references here, and while I suspect that difficulty is intentional, it's hard not to hear Milford Graves in the room.
The second move is to play/think not just in rhythm but in sound; each song contains at least one or two rewarding sonic surprises, as White plays with room echo or drags a stick around the ride like a sound bath meditation bowl. These moments give somatic depth and draw the ear in close. It is a chestnut, but headphones add a lot to hearing this album.
The third move is working with brief songs, most of which are essentially vignettes (with just a couple of exceptions). There is a feeling here not unlike, say, J Dilla (and without drawing generic comparisons otherwise), who in his own solo work built breathtakingly complete musical worlds in 30 seconds, only to leave them aside for the next lush thing. White builds worlds similarly, extending the kit in gorgeous ways in rapid fire assemblages of ideas.
Lastly, there is a feeling of manipulation in much of the album's production, an insinuation of treatment in the studio. I have no idea whether that is the case, and I prefer not to check. In the mid-1990s many artists, perhaps fascinated with new studio tools ready to hand in bedrooms and apartments, played with the blurred line between live performance and post-hoc manipulation. (See e.g. the gorgeous, nebulous percussion on Stereolab's Parsec (1997)). There are elements of All Hits: Memories that seem to be looking backwards, perhaps to the aesthetic concerns of that moment, or to earlier moments of sonic synthesis (there are Stranger Things-like retro swells on several tracks). The title itself, of course, feels like a tongue-in-cheek, playfully self-aggrandizing glance backwards. There is a whole lot converging here.
Benjamin Tausig
#jim white#all hits memories#drag city#ben tausig#albumreview#dusted magazine#percussion#dirty three
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"Why won't Gale shut up about Mystra" do you know how trauma processing works
#gale of waterdeep#it's all about those memories hitting once you're living in an environment away from the abuser babeyyyy#i be. having thoughts#maybe that should be my next fic tbh
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thought of the day: the way that everyone forgets noah and yet will be forever influenced by his presence in their lives is kinda appropriate for TRC as a coming of age story. do any of us truly, consciously know each person, event, or place that shaped us into the people we are today? though our consciousness forgets, their memory is inseparable from the way we go about life.
#and we honor that memory just by living our lives!#(well of the good stuff anyway)#will articulate this better at some point#but like…we all have forgotten childhood friends or encounters#it doesnt mean they weren’t meaningful#and forgetting noah was of course supernatural but its not like it erased all traces of him from their minds!#just bc they dont know his name doesnt erase his friendship w ronan his playfulness w blue his companionship w gansey his quiet allyship#w adam. Like his presence MATTERED and that feeling of deep understanding and friendship is something you feel in your bones#greatest hits
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content note: discussion of suicide.
this next monday will be the six year anniversary of losing one of my friends to suicide.
when he died, my high school barely mentioned his death, even though for other students who died by things like car crashes or illness, there were so many public expressions of grief. they believed that having any memorials for a student who died by suicide would encourage other people to die the same way. in their rush to erase the circumstances of his death, they erased the memory of his life.
there are so many things i am angry at that high school about in terms of how they treated mental health (mandatory reporting and collaborating with cops, their refusal to recognize the ways in which that system led to peer-to-peer crisis support, their refusal to recognize the ways that trying to keep each other alive through trial and error was scary and exhausting, carceral disciplinary policies, etc etc etc). but i think one of the things i am still angriest about is the way they enforced shame around his death. it felt like they were retroactively blaming him for the constellation of circumstances that made suicide an option in his life. it felt like they were blaming those of us who missed him and cared about him and wanted to grieve him. it made those of us still there who were actively suicidal feel even more scared about the reaction if we did reach out for help from one of those mythical safe adults.
as an adult now involved in psych abolition/mad liberation work, it makes me so fucking mad to see the ways in which he was discarded by people in authority positions. and the older i get, the more options i have found in my life for making sense of the world and finding healing and community and support which were never available to him because he died when he was 16 and the only things offered to him were a carceral psychiatric system that blamed him for his own fucking death. it feels so incredibly unfair.
i miss him and i think i always will; i can't remember his laugh or the sound of his voice or his favorite color any more and that aches. this grief is so heavy and it feels harder in a new way each year, when i become older than he will ever be. sometimes meeting new comrades or seeing new anticarceral suicide support models hurts because i wish so fucking bad that we had that back then. i remember how close we came to losing even more people that year and i know it is simple fucking luck that i'm still here when he's not.
i remember another letter (never sent) that i wrote to a friend while they were in an ICU bed after a suicide attempt when i didn't know if they would live or not. i have spent so much time in the past 10 years begging for anything to keep me and my friends alive, but even in that letter i knew that there is so much fucking violence that is hidden beneath psychiatric logics of cure and safety that promise a "solution" to suicide. I knew that institutionalization, coercion, and shame would not have helped build a life more liveable for him or **** or any of the people i've loved and lost since.
there needs to be more fucking options for care and support that aren't so incredibly cruel to suicidal people. i know so many people doing incredible work in alternatives, peer respite, a million different frameworks for healing and liberation. but it makes me so mad every day i have to live in a world where there are still people restrained, locked up in psych wards, having all autonomy and personhood taken away from them. knowing there are dozens of people every day getting blamed for their deaths the same way he was blamed for his.
i miss him. i cared so fucking much for him. and he died by suicide, and all of those things are true. he has been dead for 6 years and he lived before that and the people who loved him want to remember all of him; our celebrations of his life should not require hiding the way that he died.
Image description: [1000 origami cranes in all different colors and patterns that are tied together in strings of 25]
(these were the 1000 cranes we made to give to his parents, in memorial and recognition of how much he meant to us.)
#personal#suicide tw#suicide mention tw#psych abuse tw#psych ward tw#ok to reblog if u want#psych abolition#mad liberation#psych survivor#it's a lot of grief hours over here and will be for a while all week i think#lots of grief so many ways this year for so many people#but this week. his memory . my grief for him#is hitting especially hard. i think partially because of all the transitions in my life. i'm graduating college. he will never become an ad#adult.#i think i might ask my roommates if they will go do something to remember him with me. maybe making origami cranes and sending them off in#the river. or writing things down and burning them#idk. grief is hard#six years in grief is different. but hard
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Hot take about Sky angst, regarding the curse of Demise, because I haven't seen anyone talking about this possibility in all those years I've been in LU fandom.
Guys...
Sky has no idea about the curse
Because think about it. Why would he know about it?
My man has been electrocuted multiple times, with magical - basically divine - lightnings in attempt to defeat Demise. All the while fighting for his life with a literal GOD OF EVIL, after spending an entire afternoon fighting an army of monsters and a Demon Lord/creepy ass Sword Spirit. Not even mentioning how worried sick he must have been that entire time, if this time he was also too late too save Zelda.
(always too late too slow not enough and late late late)
I don't know about you, but I don't think he was in any state of body or mind to listen to some dudes last words, when he had to focus on not passing out because he has to make sure Zelda/Sun is alright.
(It got a bit long so rest of the rant under the cut)
Fi gave him clear, that Demise received a mortal blow and that now it's only a matter of time until he dies and that was all Sky needed to stop paying any attention.
Just go through the motions. His vision is blurry, but that's alright just stay awake. Fi chimes to rise his sword. He does. There is some black smoke suddenly surrounding him, but Fi get's rid of it with her light so it's fine. It's probably why she asked him to rise her skyward. The last fifteen minutes he's been following her directions nearly blindly anyway, because his mind is still foggy, he's not sure where he is or what he is doing he just have to get to Zelda.
And then she's there. And everything is fine.
Impa fades, Fi sleeps and he finally rests. Or rather crashes as the exhaustion finally catches up to him.
But he recovers, as best as he can, and live on.
And then eight other heroes, just like him, appear and take him on a quest across the time. They become friends. Then brothers. Soon he feels like they knew each other their entire lives and can't imagine how he can move on after the inevitable goodbyes.
He is so happy that no matter what, there will always be someone among his people, someone from or even outside of Hyrule, to stand up against evil, no matter how many times it will try to show it's ugly face. He's a bit bummed that there even is a need for a hero to show up, but hey! He is not so naive to think people are and always will be only good. Things happen. Some people are just terrible, and some take it out on the entire world.
But somewhere along the line, he starts to notice... something weird.
They all fought that same guy (some of them even multiple times!) called Ganon or Ganondorf. And while he is overjoyed that none of them even heard the name of Demise, he feels kind of singled out. Few of them mentioned an idea of reincarnation. Mentioning Zeldas' connection through blood of the Goddess and their connection through a spirit.
A spirit of a hero.
He always though it was a figure of speech. A way to describe someone courageous who fulfills the quota of being a hero.
But it's not about a spirit of a hero.
No.
It's the Spirit of the Hero.
His Spirit.
An idea begins to form. A distant memory he didn't even knew he had. Maybe nightmares about that fateful fight starting to get clearer by night. Maybe he spends some time talking to Fi and he does not like the feeling he gets from her chimes, even if she can't really talk in her slumber. Maybe he even prays to Hylia in some distant era in an unfamiliar place, so she can deny or confirm his suspicions.
Goddesses, please, may he be wrong.
Because he loves them all like a family. Because they are family. Because he has seen their haunted expressions and blank eyes, he has heard their stories and horrors they went through and nearly all of them were so young, too young, and the thought that he was the direct cause of it-
Sky had no idea that Demise trapped his spirit in a cycle of reincarnation. He had no time to process it or find coping mechanisms before the adventure with the chain happened. He found out during it, slowly putting it together and coming apart at the seems before their eyes.
Sky didn't know about the curse.
And I say, it could be really interesting to watch Sky fall.
(And if anyone knows a fic exploring this idea please let me know! I searched but couldn't find any)
#linked universe#linkeduniverse#lu headcanons#linked universe headcanons#lu sky#linked universe sky#some curse of demise rant because I have thoughts#I love sky I promise#I just also happen lo love angst#and sky angst#having a traumatizing moment burn into his memory and haunt his every waking moment is all cool and dandy#but think about the slow realization before it finally hits#my rants
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Don’t think I ever quite said what my LGBTQ+ headcanons are for the boys, so these are my current thoughts! Always changing of course but this is what I feel most strongly right now.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt headcanons#rise donnie#rise leo#rise mikey#rise raph#donnie and leo’s sexualities being practically swapped was unintentional but it works way too well#same with mikey and raph tbh it was a happy accident#anyway I kinda hc raph as the type who doesn’t care about physical appearance just if you fight lol#Mikey’s more than happy with friends and family#Donnie is a BIG romantic but he needs time to sus a person out fully before he gets the hots for them#leo meanwhile isn’t keen on romance unless it’s with someone he grows to really really REALLY trust#I could go on and probably will later (knowing me) but it is late and I am tired haha#turtle art tag#curious as to what everyone else headcanons#the only one of these I’ll defend forever is Bi (female-leaning) donnie and trans leo#all the others can change over time but I really like where they’re sitting right now#I hope these are the right flags too because it was kinda hard to find them#went looking for transmasc flag in particular but I couldn’t find a solid agreed upon version 😭#ngl a big part of why I hc mikey as aro is because of a pun#my phone often misspells aromantic as aromatic and- and you get it- because aromatic herbs and- and Mikey is a chef do YOU GET IT#note that while I hc leo as bisexual (male-leaning) I still think he’s prob closer to demi in that as well just not as far into the spectrum#if that makes sense#headcanons are fun and hard to narrow down at the same time alas#I made this in like an hour can you tell djjdjd#I drew them all from memory so if there’s anything wrong…shhh#and if you’re wondering for April and Splinter#Both are Bisexual (female-leaning) but April is also Panromantic#I almost wanna make Splinter demiromantic too so Big Mama’s betrayal hits just a bit harder
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Isn't it fun how everyone saw what terrified them most, but Nya's was so "unbelievable" that she broke out instantly? She was shown the one thing that was supposed to terrify her, make her spiral. But of course it wasn't real. It's Jay. If there's one thing she never once doubted, its that Jay is absolutely smitten, so of course he'd never forget her. What a silly thing to think, to be afraid of. She went through so damn much for this boy, and him for her, and we know how she is. Wouldn't it be petrifying if all that work, all that emotional turmoil, that clawing for love, could be forgotten just like that? Its quite a feat, really, that she can finally be confident in knowing such a fear is irrational.
It was easy to break free from such a place. It was only ever meant to scare her, and she has nothing to be afraid of. Right?
#ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#dragons rising#lego ninjago#lego ninjago dragons rising#nya#ninjago nya#jay walker#ninjago jay#text post#dragons rising s2#oh its going to be horrific when they find jay i want it SO BAD#nya is going to spiral. she is going to hit a new mental health low#HERES THE BEST PART#isnt it horrifying. when the only other person who remembers a time that never existed#a time when wishes should never have come true#forgets all of it? there were only two of you in the entire world who remembered that timeline#you could say nothing ot anyone else. but you could speak to them. could share it all#when the nightmares came and shaking from memories. there was someone to know and comfort#and now its all gone. its all forgotten. theres nothing. its only you. just you.#no one will ever know what happened to you#wouldnt that fck you up every which way to sunday. when the nightmares exist only to you#if theres only you to ever whisper about pirates. did it even happen? can you prove it?#nya is going to crumple into DUST. no happiness for any of them
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#OH NO THE IDOL BEAM HAS HIT EVERYONE EXCEPT THE MEANEST ONES IN THE CLAN 🤣#can u imagine.... the absolute catty group energy coming out of these 3 if they had to sing together...#the idol beam bazooka is one of aster's fave weapons of ???profit#rei and kuya hate standing beside each other so dante always has to be in the middle#everyone who attends any of their shows will get their memory instantly wiped after the event#whether it's by illusory magic or fiery explosion (fire comas don't completely erase the memory but they'll certainly distract)#or father directly clawing someone's eyes out#actually i wouldn't put it past kuya to just make an entire illusion out of the thing#so he wouldn't have to move at all or put any effort into the silly song and dance.#he sittin backstage with the catering table while the audience screams for the fake show happening on stage#kuya the pioneer of IRL MMV projection magic. incredible#actually u kno what. aster hits them with the idol beam#and every show is just the three of them playing UNO#that would still bring in money#the drama. the intrigue. the competitive spirits flaring and tables being flipped. what a spectacle#aster#kuya#dante#rei#nu carnival
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--I only wish to be with you from dusk to dawn, watching the world's frost and snow. Just want to wander long streets and narrow alleys with you, watching the moon on the eave.--
THE LAST IMMORTAL 神隐(2023) - EP. 14
Dir. Chan Ka Lam
#the last immortal#zhao lusi#wang anyu#cdrama#mygif#cdramaedit#cdramasource#tli#im not even caught up to this point yet it just rly got me even in a clip?#i loved this scene 😔 esp. with the ost like it really captured the sweetness and innocence of young first love#like something abt young love...... its at its purest form unsullied by external forces and you only experience it in this state once#b4 growing up and getting jaded and cynical abt relationshps and the world and i feel like a world weary old person#looking at their youth and innocence like i just want it all to work out for these kids i hope their hearts don't break too much#i want this to last a little longer for them i want them to live in this bubble a little longer b4 they get bulldozed by the world#its sweet tinged with a bit of sadness she's all dressed up to marry him. gathers flowers along the way with-#excitement and expectancy. lovingly puts a flower on him to match hers with his promise of forever in mind thinking its not far while he ha#no memory of his promise or his feelings towards her#ost so good and hits a weak spot of mine- singing abt wanting to experience just the ordinary everyday things with the person you love#don't you wish that's all love could and should be?
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went back to the first few eps of dff to get a memory refresher and when fluke says por will probably die soon, jin says
and the camera cuts to phee giving jin this look
which may be absolutely nothing at all but i can't stop thinking of it as a "oh? now you're desperate to help? now you're worried about letting a friend die?" face
#dead friend forever#dff the series#my memory is so bad i can't remember a damn thing about exactly how the shit hit the fan at the start of the show#and it's amazing rewatching after seeing everything that happened in the past flashback eps#i like the idea that phee has some long revenge game in mind#and it's fascinating going back with that in mind#i support phee in making them all suffer#as a treat#this show is incredible like at first i was like: how are they going to keep this interesting for so many episodes?#but now i'm like OMG I HOPE THEY HAVE ENOUGH EPISODES TO TELL THE STORY#unbelievable lol
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As Tales of Symphonia was my first Tales game and the only game I've beaten like five times completely... it holds a special place in my heart. I really love the cast and I was a walking strategy guide for it back in the GameCube days.
I had all the unlockable outfits carried over into NG+ (gotta collect those swimsuits baby) and honestly. I just. Really like this game. I haven't played it in a while but I have it on PS3 and now I long to hook it up and play it (sorry to my many other Tales games I haven't beaten once on PS3......).
#tales of symphonia#colette brunel#martel yggdrasill#i love my dottr coletteeeeeeeeeeeeee#and also i love everyone but anyway here hi hello#this game really hit me as a kid and i dont know if id enjoy it as much now but i still wanna try again lol#my kiddos......#did i possibly print out the strategy guides from gamefaqs and then proceed to memorize all the solutions back in the day?#yes i did indeed print out SO MANY guides for various things for this game#but hey man i had a blast with learning everything#granted my memory is now fuzzy but its to be expected after so long
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That Voyager's "Remember" is a reworked TNG/Deanna Troi script makes sooooo much sense. Weird Telepathic Aliens? check. Erotic Dreams? Check. More Chakotay and B'Elanna scenes standing in for Will and Deanna? check check check....
#This has all the hallmarks of a Deanna episode. and also greatest hits of other Deanna episodes.#I have no memory of this episode. EXCEPT for the foreheads.#I popped it in this morning on a whim#Star Trek#Star Trek Voyager#Remember
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For All Mankind | 4x07 "Crossing the Line"
"Former director of NASA, Margo Madison, has returned to the United States, nearly a decade after defecting to the Soviet Union."
#g o d#this show makes me so unwell#'returned to the us nearly a decade after defecting to the soviets' is SUCH an understatement agh#*high pitched noises*#I was not expecting to see this this episode even after the convo with irina#every new shot of this sequence was a new pain#just one after another after another#ws and the actors are just hitting it out of the park again and again and again#also fyi her name is definitely still on that memorial just in case you want to be as stressed about it as I am#for all mankind#fam spoilers#margo madison#eli hobson#my gifs
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princess memories
#i tried to rewatch gopri but it just doesnt hit me in the right spot#like it used to when i watched it as a child#but nevertheless i still miss gopri and especially haruka#i wanna rewatch it one day to bring all these memories back#precure#pretty cure#go princess precure#haruka haruno#haruno haruka#cure flora
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I'm so spoiled by writing for fantasy and science fiction fandoms. How are you supposed to give a character amnesia in a universe without magic or technobabble?
#you can pretend it's by just hitting them over the head but that's bad science#and i can only stand bad science when it's 400 years in the future in outer space#i mean concussions do give memory problems but you know I want that real specific forgotten years of memories#then remembers it all in the end#and typically the things that cause retrograde amnesia in real life are not cured with true love's kiss#and i don't want to write about someone recovering from tbi unless that's what i'm writing about
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fist clenched so hard my bones r cracking. i do not know han sooyoung's writing style. i know she writes well. i know she writes poorly when she is trying to impart 1863 lives onto a little boy. but i don't know what she writes when she's bored. i don't know what genres she likes and i don't know what her favorite metaphors are. does she like giving happy endings. i think she doesn't. but maybe. maybe she does. maybe she likes to make stories where the cruel reality of the world isn't as visible. she's jaded and guarded and mean but she still. hopes. han sooyoung, what is your writing voice?
#im losing my mind#i have read orv but its canonically through kimcom's disjointed memories implanted into random authors. im not getting all of sooyoung.#my wall of impossible communication is there.#WHAT DOES SHE WRITE LIKE#TELL ME MORE#WHAT DOES SHE WRITE WHEN SHE'S NOT WRITING OUT OF LOVE BUT OUT OF NECESSITY AND BOREDOM AND TO EARN MONEY#orv spoilers#yeah the caffeine from earlier is hitting
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