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First Time

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say STAND WITH HONG KONG AGAINST THE CCP!

Stranger: hi

Stranger: haha sorry

You: nice abs

Stranger: lol thanks

Stranger: like your smile btw you seem cute af haha like wtf

You: how mamy times ur on the gym

Stranger: try 3-5 times a week

You: that dedication tho

You: hahaha

Stranger: haha i try

Stranger: oh shoot and you got that freckle dayummm

You: i did go once

You: i puked

Stranger: you got the whole package hahah

Stranger: oh shoot that means you a hard worker

You: its a beauty mark

You: more like a cursed mark

Stranger: it really is

Stranger: nah

Stranger: beauty mark for sure

Stranger: dides find that super sexy ngl

You: hahah calm ur tits boo

You: im here for wholesome shit

You: but i dont know why im on the unmonitored sec

Stranger: yeah? for example?

Stranger: oh lol like what wholesume shit?

Stranger: you low key "bored" or nah ll

Stranger: sorry im so excited

You: im here for stories and confessions from you guys

Stranger: just always haha like what?

Stranger: what you tryna hear?

You: im not into sext and stripping stuff. Treat me like a commercial from dicks lol

Stranger: haha aight

Stranger: where you from tho?

You: im in the middle east rn

You: working :(

You: you?

Stranger: really

Stranger: how old are you?

Stranger: im basic form the us

Stranger: in FL

You: 23 haha do i look younger?

Stranger: haha yeah you look good for 23

Stranger: is it cold there?

You: haha dont make me smileeee

Stranger: haha why

Stranger: you have a fucking great one lmao

You: nnah im just covering my ppajamas hahaha

Stranger: haha ok..... why tho?

Stranger: protection from the dicks?

You: coz people might think ill strip when i have this angle

You: and they see a shoulder and shit

Stranger: ahh gotcha

You: hahahah correct

Stranger: oh shoot that shoulder...

Stranger: lmao

You: haha shhh

Stranger: haha you funny

Stranger: what time is it there?

You: so are you here for dicks or boobies before u met me?

You: its 2am

Stranger: honestly?

You: oh shit its the us timezone wait

You: 125PM

Stranger: dang nice

You: were on the opposite part

You: wait my sister is calling

Stranger: gotcha makes sense

Stranger: ugh and your voice.... :)

Stranger: you are literally the cutest thing lmao idk why tf you on omelge haha

Stranger: I hate to break it to ya bt... I saw your pajamas

Stranger: haha and even your shoulder ;)

Stranger: watch out

You: hahaha dont get horny or youll leave me

Stranger: haha I would never leave you

Stranger: you would leave me if anything

You: i would if you start asking me to strip off my comfy blanket

Stranger: haha dang

Stranger: I just want you to feel good lol

Stranger: so if you comfy that's chill

Stranger: but you did ask why I was on here....

Stranger: you honestly want to know?

You: noooo haha

You: youre naked

You: and shit

You: so i kinda figure it out

Stranger: haha i got pants on

You: im just stalling you before u encounter some dicks again

Stranger: lol sorry a man's curious

Stranger: ive just never done anything with a girl so i can't help it

Stranger: you know?

Stranger: you gotta remember back in the day don't ya?

You: back in the day?

Stranger: haha when youve never actually done anything with a guy

Stranger: you weren't curious?

Stranger: or want to experament?

You: oh okay

You: so how was your experiment going?

Stranger: haha not good everyone skipped and there were no girls lol

Stranger: that's why im shocked you stayed

You: hahaha so thats why stayed with me

You: even tho i want that non stripping part

Stranger: hnestly yes.. and you are super cute fr

You: haha dont make me smileee

Stranger: I mean idk... even if you don't want that I can't skip you haha

Stranger: I wish i could make you smile lol

Stranger: your so chill

Stranger: and are those little dimples?

You: i dont have dimple look

You: i wish i had.

Stranger: you have little ones

You: how about u?

Stranger: one the corneres of yor mouth

Stranger: nope i dont

You: i love how you smile then go back to the poker face

Stranger: hah you do it too :D

You: haha copycat

Stranger: nah nah nah

Stranger: im defo not copying you

Stranger: i don't have that much style lmao

You: hahaha stop idolizing me

You: its just meeee~~~~

Stranger: haha im not

Stranger: youre just you....

Stranger: and super dope and cute lol

Stranger: haha yes that' smile

Stranger: i love it

You: hahaha tell that to girls around you and you'll get a girlfriend instantlyyy

Stranger: what's that?

You: are u shy in person?

Stranger: kinda

Stranger: like irl yeah...;(

Stranger: kinda sucks

Stranger: like I can talk to em but like scared to shoot my shot and have it be wrong lol

Stranger: guess that's why ive never done anything

Stranger: I just want them to be happy

Stranger: ya know?

You: aww you are soo sweet

Stranger: I don't wanna do anything they have to or want to say no to

You: i bet your future girlfriend would be soo lucky

Stranger: haha hopefully

Stranger: only she might be disappointed I don't know what im doing...

Stranger: do ya think?

You: you look like a nice guy not the douche type you know

Stranger: lol thanks I guess

You: and i bet youll love her endlessleyyy

Stranger: that's the goal ;)

You: well they say nice guy finish last hahahaha i remember the niggahigga

Stranger: haha ess

You: but right now ur stuck with me haha

Stranger: nigahiga is hilarious

Stranger: haha happy to be lol

Stranger: jk..

You: so good to hear that ahaha

You: lol

Stranger: it actually sucks to have to look at your smile all the time

Stranger: like ughhh

Stranger: man its horrible

You: whyy

Stranger: *note lots of sarcasm lmao

Stranger: im kidding your too cute

Stranger: it would never be horrible haha

Stranger: and you have those deep eyes you look deep into

Stranger: why can't you be in the staes?

You: hahaha that why i dont stare at people.

Stranger: why its a gift

You: they get hypnotizedd

Stranger: haha ok that makes sense then hah

You: hahaha US is crazyy right now

Stranger: true that

You: even in my country is crazy

Stranger: what is your country?

You: i can't even visit US even tho i want to.

You: lot of racist stuff on the internet

Stranger: oh dang that sucks ;(

You: Philippines

Stranger: the internet is garbo

You: but most people think im chinese

Stranger: don't listen to it

You: coz of my eyes

Stranger: ahhh that makes sense haha

Stranger: nah that's why you so cute idk why but phillipino's are so attrative

You: hahahaha coz we got everything in our blood. americans, spanish, chinese

You: maybe indian too?

Stranger: haha that explains it

Stranger: got the best of all worlds

You: hahaha we like the powerpull girls

Stranger: lolll you goofy :P

Stranger: what do you do for work?

You: maybe u can visit PH then, my face is very common there

You: im in corporate bullshit haha

Stranger: haha doubt i

You: you?

Stranger: t

Stranger: ah gotcha

Stranger: im in colleg still

You: what course you taking?

Stranger: business managment/ entreprenuership

You: i hate collegee haha the test and stuff

Stranger: haha its tough fr

Stranger: good for me tho

You: haha ur same like me. your gonna be stuck to a desk too in the coming years

Stranger: nope

Stranger: I hope never to be at a deskjob 24/7

Stranger: hope to start a company or go into relations and build a small company

Stranger: my dad does it and has his own businesses and that's wht i hope to get into

You: i hope you achieve that!

Stranger: be my own boss its stressful as heck but workhard itll pay off

You: Dont be a corporate slave like us haha

You: yeah youll be so good at managing people

Stranger: haha someone has to do the dirty work

Stranger: lol why do you say that?

You: hahaha true dat

You: well based on our convo

You: you look nice but has that fierce aura haha

You: im not guru

Stranger: lol fierce aura

Stranger: your too nice

You: haha i hope it wont be a disadvantage

You: being too nice

Stranger: haha you can never be too nice so long as you know when to switch

You: haha from dominant to submissive?

Stranger: haha what do you mean?

Stranger: don't get me don't tease me lol

You: haha sorry your confused face made me smile

Stranger: lol

Stranger: ywe talking about business thenyou ask, dom or sub?

Stranger: haha im lost

You: i think cockteaser is my worst trait. I lead you but no action :(

Stranger: haha i mean...

Stranger: you could change that

Stranger: nothing you dont wanna do tho haha

You: haha naahh im good with reading

You: aww you know me now

Stranger: haha in some senses

Stranger: ;)

You: hahaha im more like into imagining than action

You: i love reading those confessions

You: on what guy do to girls

Stranger: ahhh gotcha

Stranger: haaha that's kind hot

Stranger: im more into action but I love pleasing so like compromise?

Stranger: lol

Stranger: wanna know what i sevretly fantasy?

You: whaaat

Stranger: like very intamate sensuall start with like cuddling ahhh

Stranger: it would be amazing

You: have you ever tried that?

Stranger: be the big spoon holidng someone so close

You: youre good with words

Stranger: keeping each other so warm as i wrap my arms arudn them

Stranger: then softly kissing the back of her neck with my lips

Stranger: as she feels my soft breathe on the back of her neck through her hair

Stranger: ugh it would be amazing

You: i had goosebumps reading that

Stranger: ugh such a tease... I want her to feel so good

Stranger: get goosebumps and have the shivers

You: she would be very lucky

Stranger: just tease her and let her feel amazingg

You: tell me more please

Stranger: id just be holding you close hands on your hips wrapped all the way around you

Stranger: as the little spoon youd look over your shoulder

Stranger: our eyes would meet and lock gazes our lips moving slowly closer and cloer

Stranger: seemingley drawn together

Stranger: then our lips would finally meet

Stranger: softly caressing eachother as our eyes closed and we just felt the moment

You: its so good it hurts so much. i cant even breathe

Stranger: so close so warm so much energy courseing between us

Stranger: ugh yes

Stranger: wed bgin to roll aroudn on the bed

Stranger: so much passion

Stranger: our lips locked so tight

Stranger: our lungs would be gen to get sore and tight from not breathing but i wouldnt care

Stranger: id just press into your lips more

Stranger: you being my everything

Stranger: then finally to breathe id slip my lips down look you in the eyes and wed both smile

Stranger: as m my eyes looked at your whole beautiful body as we were on the bed

Stranger: so amazing

Stranger: slide my lips down sloly from your lips down to your chin

Stranger: to your neck

You: damn ur sooo good

Stranger: you trusting me wholly exposing your vulnerable neck

Stranger: thanks ;) just imagine what i wish we could be doing

Stranger: your beatufil amazing self ughhh it would be soo good

Stranger: its honestly making me horny.. so sorry if i get too excited ;)

You: girls would be so jealous reading this chat from you

Stranger: id be kissng your neck softly yet passionately as my hands held you by your smalll of your back and your hip

Stranger: feeling your body up and down with my waarm rough yet gentle hands

Stranger: just teasing you wanting you to feel soo good my lips would continue to move down

Stranger: slowly kissing your chest

You: never in my entire life i would imagine this would happen

Stranger: looking you ito your eyes after each amazing smooch

You: i feel like reliving those gone wild stories on reddit lol

Stranger: well if you wre from FL it would have to happen

Stranger: haha yes it would be so perfect

You: if i were in florida you would never glance at me

You: im too small to be noticed haha

Stranger: my hands would slip up under your shirt and yud draw a short breath but trust me anyway

Stranger: amazing things come in small packages

You: that could be ur branding for ur business haha

Stranger: my hands would realol sure

Stranger: ugh you are so cute i love it

Stranger: does it make you feel good?

You: the air here is so thin i have to breath so heavy

Stranger: ughhh that is amazing

You: its so good it hurrrrts

You: thank you for making me feel this way :)

Stranger: ugh id wanna make your eyes go back into your head just imagining

Stranger: how amazing it would be bb

You: my feet is all curled up just imagining it

Stranger: ugh yes ;)

You: you swoop me with you words :(

Stranger: should I keep going?

You: go on

Stranger: and feel free to add in or suggest things

Stranger: where was i?

Stranger: u remmember?

You: wait

Stranger: ugh and you have th eperfect hands <3

You: your hands is under my shirt

Stranger: yes thats right

Stranger: Im just about to make my big move

Stranger: im so nervous but I go for it annyway

You: but you found out i have a petite body

Stranger: my hands under your shirt my lips kissing your ches from your

Stranger: low cut chirt that sags

Stranger: your petite body is so small under me and my big hands

Stranger: im 6'2

Stranger: (fr)

You: you would just toss me

Stranger: and my hands slip behind and unclip your small petite perfect bra

Stranger: id be very gentle or unless you wanted something else

Stranger: ;)

You: gentler please

Stranger: your bra would just seemingly slip off

Stranger: and wed again look at each other and grin

Stranger: you slightly nervously in anticipation

Stranger: but exceited

Stranger: i relieved you are feeling soo good

Stranger: id then go down to your stomach

Stranger: lifting your shirt up and crawling it up your stomuch right above my lips

Stranger: at your wasitline moving up

Stranger: then to your bellybutton and slightly above

Stranger: before id pause

Stranger: look you in the eyes and keep going

You: damnnnn its so hot!!!

Stranger: running my hands up ands down your perfect petite and small body

Stranger: you are amazing

Stranger: so sexy and hot

Stranger: in those same pajamas your n

Stranger: in*

Stranger: then id get to your ribcage with my lips

Stranger: youd draw in a deep breathe of pleasure

Stranger: it wold give me the courage to keep going

You: my hands is so sweaty just reading

Stranger: right up to the very bottom of your bossom

Stranger: id be in awe of your amazing bidy

Stranger: making me so tunred on

Stranger: my lips wold quiver and keep going

Stranger: so softly yet excitedly with passion

Stranger: (if we disconnect add my snap)

Stranger: masonbrink 8

You: i just waxed down there :o

Stranger: masonbrink8

Stranger: your perfectly smooth body

You: i dont have a snap!!!! :(

Stranger: im at the bottom of your soft boobs so amazingas im lifting youru pj's with my hands kissing rihgt behind

Stranger: how can we find if we lose eac other?

Stranger: my intenet is bad

Stranger: internet*

Stranger: I keep lifting....

Stranger: your pjs are now up to the bottom of your nipple

Stranger: im teasing you so hard and it feels so good for both of us

Stranger: as I rip my shirt off too

Stranger: show my abs as you run you perfect hands over my abs and i have you lift your hands

You: my heart is beating soo fast

Stranger: we hgaze deep down into each others eyes and I lift yoru shirt

Stranger: exposing your amazingly soft supple body

Stranger: your petite breasts

Stranger: are they big or small or medium?

You: my boobs are small but my nipples are always hard

Stranger: ugh that' the perfect comboooo ;)

Stranger: kissing your underboob

You: perfect for bitting

Stranger: working my way up not missing a single spot

Stranger: except the nipple

Stranger: im just teasing it

You: what a tease

Stranger: making them harder and harder

Stranger: my hands are grabbing you by the hips feeling all along there

Stranger: my bb is amazing

Stranger: then I do it

Stranger: look up and grin

Stranger: I move right to your left nipple

Stranger: teasing it soft t first

Stranger: with my tongue and lips then to your other one

You: jusmyo marimar

Stranger: as I get a little bit more playful

You: hahaha

You: its omg in spanish

Stranger: haha what is that?

Stranger: ugh yes perfect

You: i want to roll on my bed its so perfect :(

Stranger: then I tease your little rock hard nipples with my teeth

Stranger: fotly biting them teasingly as my hands are having a great time on your perfect body

Stranger: and you are running yours all along my abs going down to the waist

Stranger: feel free to do whatever bb

Stranger: i want you to feel soo good

Stranger: if your want to rooll or rock a little or tease a little feel free ;)

You: my hands is too small to explore every inch of you

Stranger: your small little hands meeling the edge of my waistband

Stranger: feeling*

Stranger: teastingly snapping it as I giss your beatiful nipples

Stranger: and I do it right back slipping my hands into your tight little wastband

Stranger: ugh yes your sooo cuteee

Stranger: so sexxy

You: sorry i have to get comffyyy

Stranger: its perfect i can teell you are because I think you are moaning a little bit ;)

Stranger: that is so sexy making you feel soo good

You: i know its so hard not toooo

Stranger: just echaling with pleasure

Stranger: do it I want to make you moan bb

Stranger: I want you to just feel it all

Stranger: so then I was teasing your waistband as I kissed your nipples

You: this is heaven right nowwww

Stranger: id slowly go down off of them

Stranger: never missing a spot but working my way back down

Stranger: then skip a bit to your bellybutton

Stranger: wanting to make yowanting to make you soo wet for met

Stranger: your freshly waxed body id just slip right down it

Stranger: my lips nearing your bandline

You: its hard for me to get wet. try harder :)

Stranger: edge of your underwear and your pajamas

Stranger: ok:P

Stranger: tell me if you are getting wet tho bb

Stranger: with my lips nearing your sensitive spot

Stranger: my hands on your thighs as im on top of you

Stranger: your layig back with your arms above your head

Stranger: clenching the pillows trying not to squirm too much

Stranger: my hands soflty touching your thighs teasting them

Stranger: just brishing closer and cloer on your inner thigh

Stranger: you know its coming but cant wait

Stranger: so sxcited you can't contain a little shiver and soft moan

Stranger: so I think im gonna do it

Stranger: should I d it?

You: no

You: you go back to my lips

You: teasing me more

Stranger: you knew what was coming :P

Stranger: I keeo going down but then

Stranger: im sooo close to your tight little pussy starting to get wet then I pull back

Stranger: look you in your eyes and go back to your lips

Stranger: pasvery softly very softly

Stranger: quick kiiss then pull away taking it all in

Stranger: feeling every inch of your soft lips as they are so moist and n chemistry with mine

Stranger: i continue to hold you by the small of your back and do this over and over

Stranger: holding the back of your head and kissing you

Stranger: softly

Stranger: slowly getting more passionately

Stranger: we begin rolling on the bed and around the room

Stranger: we don't care we are just locked in enamored

Stranger: just fully enveloped in teh moment and each other

Stranger: I pull away once again

Stranger: leaving your lips midair trying tdeperately to meet mine

Stranger: then you feel my lips on your neck again

Stranger: with your eyes closed you jsust embrace it

Stranger: it feels so good

Stranger: sending shivers throuout your body

Stranger: sort engouh to be gentle and leave yo wanting a little bit more

Stranger: just a little bit mroe passion

Stranger: the passion that is always growing between us

Stranger: you just close your eyes in pure bliss

Stranger: as I pull away and you never know where my lips will land

Stranger: jsut slowly teasing yoru chest

Stranger: maybe surprisingly on your nipple as they are soo perky and hard like they are so cold

Stranger: or maybe on your vulnerable exposed nck

Stranger: or maybe on your perfect soft lips wating there to meet mine

Stranger: my hands just holding you close

Stranger: pulling you in

Stranger: as you wait for my lips to land in thos places you are running your hands along mmy body

Stranger: from my chest across my abs

Stranger: to my beck as our lips meet

Stranger: neck*

Stranger: around my back just soaking it all in

Stranger: as am I with you

Stranger: you feel over my shorts how beautiful you arelly are

Stranger: with how much you are teasing my

Stranger: me

Stranger: with your small little hands you just feel how hard your making me in my pants

Stranger: busting to get out but I won't stop kissing you

Stranger: I won't stop n omatter what you do

Stranger: then I finally give us some distance

Stranger: we look each ohter up and down

Stranger: you grin and slip my shorts off

Stranger: leaving me in nothing but my boxers

Stranger: you can feel my warmth as my shorts are slipped off and feel me pressing up against you

Stranger: once again my lips begin to make their way down your body

Stranger: just crawling ever so slowly

You: this is ittttttt

Stranger: it seems like a lifetime

Stranger: i get to your waistband of your pajamas finally

Stranger: I look up, we grin

Stranger: we both know this is it

Stranger: I slip my hands down your pajames holding you by your hips and go give you a quick kiss

Stranger: right on the kips

Stranger: foftly as I slowly slip donw your pajamas

Stranger: you hardly notive but feels so good as your being freed

Stranger: what did you say?

You: dont type so fast

You: cant barely read it

Stranger: ok perfect

Stranger: you are just so beautiful

Stranger: I see your whole body laid out before me so small and beautifully petite

Stranger: perefection

Stranger: I continue to slip your pajames down and take them off your ankes as they get caught

Stranger: you are just lying there... in bliss

Stranger: we are feeling so amazing

Stranger: almost as if te moment will lsat forever yet only 2 seconds

Stranger: completely naked except our unerwear we are in totall hapiness

Stranger: your eyes rest on my boxers and you grin

Stranger: hands go down and tease me so much

Stranger: right around my cock making it sooo hard as you brush the edges of it

Stranger: it feels so good on your small hands

Stranger: evyour hands are even

You: i dont really know how to do hands

Stranger: a bit sweaty beacuse your nervous

You: im more of a mouth kind

Stranger: its ok

Stranger: then you surprise me

Stranger: I go back up to your lips and neck

Stranger: teasing them once more

Stranger: then

Stranger: all the sudden

You: why are u thinking

Stranger: you reverse it

Stranger: I lie down and you come up on me

Stranger: our lips still locked as we flip

Stranger: but now your on me your short little legs feel my whole body as your resting on me

Stranger: then you begin to do something

Stranger: exactly what I did to you

Stranger: you you work slowly from my lips

Stranger: to my neck

Stranger: caressing so carefully and gently with your perfect lips

Stranger: I let you go becaues it feels soo good

Stranger: then you keep working down from my neck

Stranger: occasionaly pausing

Stranger: as you run your funger down the center of my abs

Stranger: feeling every bumb as syour finger and lips pass over it

Stranger: you are just seeing the pure tease on my face and are enjoying every socnd

Stranger: your lips begin to get close

You: i love every word

Stranger: you see the elastic of my boxers

Stranger: with a great smile you continue

You: think of me when you do your thing later

Stranger: with great anticipation

You: WAAAIIIIT my battery about to die

Stranger: plug it inn

Stranger: all fresh and ready to continue?

You: go on

You: is it kay to eat my sandwich

You: youre making me hungry

Stranger: :P well you wil be eating something soon ;)

You: hahaha

Stranger: do you ever tease yourself while you read?

Stranger: too feel good to the max?

Stranger: even if you don't show

You: no i just let it feel sore down there

You: throbing

Stranger: haha your such a tease

Stranger: is it throbbing rn?

You: it stopped coz u stopppped

Stranger: ugh well you were so close

Stranger: so close to my waistband

Stranger: your eyes begin to catch my bulge

Stranger: a perfect smile goes

Stranger: across your face

Stranger: your blood is rushing full of pure bliss

Stranger: your hands are sweaty

Stranger: you are trhobbing from all the teasing

Stranger: so you contnue

Stranger: your view is here iwth only my boxyers

You: damnnnnn

Stranger: then you see my bulge

Stranger: kissing each abdomen

Stranger: you want cam on my face or here?

Stranger: because I want you to feel so good

You: faceeee. i love ur reaction

You: every small breathe

Stranger: ughh yes

Stranger: you are such a tease

Stranger: makng me so tunred on

Stranger: do you think you can help me after?

You: lets see how it goes

Stranger: ok ;)

Stranger: so you were at my waistband with your lips

Stranger: questioning

Stranger: do you make the move and finally give me everything ive been wanting?

Stranger: you decide not yet

Stranger: run your finger along it then you go back to my lips

Stranger: lying right on top of me

You: tease you moreeeee <3

Stranger: and we go into another long makekout

Stranger: im practically bursting at my boxers

Stranger: but you dont care

Stranger: you can tell

Stranger: you feel it on your body as your laying on top of me

Stranger: then onve again

Stranger: I flip you over

Stranger: this time exploring a bit

Stranger: kissing your shoulder

Stranger: gently right to your collar bone

Stranger: making you really feel every breathe as yoru lungs are so tight

Stranger: your small little body is so wound up

Stranger: you can't take much more so you decide to do it yourself

Stranger: you rub your hands and fingers across your clit really quickly as you quickly inhanle

Stranger: it is so close throbbing

Stranger: but you take them off

You: but you stopped me

Stranger: just teasing them that muchh more

You: you want to be in control

Stranger: I grab your hand

Stranger: yo need to wait

Stranger: You need to wait for my mouth to finally please you fully

Stranger: you won't want to move your hand but you allow me to place it back on the bed

Stranger: where you have to hodl the covers

Stranger: im holding each breast taking turns

Stranger: mteasing you more and more than I thought I could each time

Stranger: your nipples are so hard

Stranger: sticking straight up

Stranger: right into my mouth where they brush my teeth as i gently play with them

Stranger: softly yet a little tough so it doesnt hurt

Stranger: you are having to do all you can to keep you hand from slipping back to your underwear

Stranger: slowly teasing under there

Stranger: you begin to move your hand

Stranger: but again

Stranger: I catch it

Stranger: you trhob harder and faster than you were before

You: you tease so mch i love ittt

Stranger: your body is seeming like it is yelling every muscle in your body

Stranger: just do ittt

Stranger: it weill feellll sooo goood

Stranger: just rub it a little more

Stranger: but im hokidng your hands in place iwth one of mine

Stranger: as I sense your uge and am fighitng it for you

Stranger: you can't control your short sharp breaths

Stranger: and your exhales as you are moaning

Stranger: so softly

Stranger: yet so despereatley

Stranger: I begin to notice something as my lips once agin slip down below your belly button

Stranger: your panties are getting a bit wet

Stranger: i grin and look up at you

Stranger: I see you want me to keep going down so bad but i continue to hold your hands

Stranger: Ido go down

Stranger: of shoot

Stranger: I randomly matched iwth someone else

Stranger: she has her tits out

Stranger: im sitll just holidng

Stranger: you

You: hahahahah what do you mean u matched with someone else

Stranger: another tab

You: go on let me eat first

Stranger: no

Stranger: Im gonna skip here

Stranger: dnne

Stranger: you are too aamzing

Stranger: my lips are still hovering so close as they pulled of your stomach

You: she must do all the action im here for the pussy throbing stories of yours

Stranger: right above the wetspot on your panties

Stranger: you want it so bad

Stranger: but I continue to move downward

Stranger: right to your bare thighs

Stranger: my lips land right on thm after softly kissing your panties on the way by

Stranger: you though that's what you wanted....

Stranger: but really

Stranger: It just made your urg efor more worse

Stranger: yurge for more*

Stranger: my lips are on your thigh

Stranger: slowly going to your inner thighs so perfect

Stranger: my hands up on your chest

Stranger: I feel something in your legs as I get close

Stranger: they quicker a bit

Stranger: jsut shake a little

Stranger: your hand begins to fight mine

Stranger: but I hold it down

Stranger: not allowing it to satisfy your pussy

Stranger: no matter how hard you fight i you can't get there

Stranger: liek now

Stranger: you can just brush over it yet you can't linger

You: sorry iwas distracted something in my mouth

You: from the nuttella

Stranger: as im hoding you ther all I can notice is your panties getting wetter and wetter

Stranger: its ok

Stranger: your moaning is getting more often and more often

Stranger: once again I lift my lips

Stranger: then ever so slowly

You: coz were getting on the best part

Stranger: move them to your panites

Stranger: right over them

Stranger: you can practically feel my breathe

Stranger: teasing down your clit and g spots

Stranger: you quiver again letting out a huge sigh

You: where is the g spot

You: i cant even find it

You: :(

Stranger: hopeefully we will find it in a minute ;)

Stranger: instead of kissing right down n it I smile again

Stranger: so gently rub up it with my han as I bring my face back up to yours

Stranger: our lips going to meet ocnce more

You: no

Stranger: only this time all that is racing through your mind is your pussy

You: dont kiss me

You: with vag juice on ur moth

Stranger: I will kiss you

You: noooooo

Stranger: i don't have juice yet

Stranger: I just barely kissed your pantie befre it was all wet

You: once u go down theres no coming back to my mouth

Stranger: But I still won't totally kiss you

Stranger: just one little smooch on the neck

Stranger: my hands getting as close as they have ever been

Stranger: just the edges of my fingers brishing the edges of your panties

Stranger: you can practiacally feel me going all the way

Stranger: yet instead

Stranger: I pause

Stranger: One more time

You: i still havent reciprocate

Stranger: Keep an eye on your hands making sure you don't go to please your pussy

Stranger: as I slip my boxers off

Stranger: since you know it isn't time yet no matter how much your pussy is screaming at you you woldiny jump on me as I allow you

Stranger: quickly kiss over my chist to my abs

Stranger: this time it isnt just my bulge you feel

Stranger: you feel mmy bare warm cock

Stranger: aginst your thighs as you slide down lips getting closer and closer

Stranger: you feel it pules as your pussy throbs

Stranger: seemingly made for each other

Stranger: yet I don't allwo it yet

Stranger: yout mouth is on my happy trail lips forming a kissing grin as you imagine

Stranger: finally

Stranger: you are getting down to what you pussy is really craving

Stranger: you feel it throb with your heart

Stranger: I put my hands on thour head

You: not yeeetttt

Stranger: holding your head steady

You: i need to do you first

Stranger: I make you look me in hte eyes

Stranger: I grin and say im a gentleman

Stranger: so a furiosly flip you over

Stranger: hold your hands down again

Stranger: this time go straingt to your thighs and lower abdowmne

Stranger: I notice your panties are almost soaked

Stranger: so much wetter than before

Stranger: I thin this is finally it

Stranger: your nipples are fully erect

Stranger: your pussy is so tight and wet it is throbbing harder than youve ever had

Stranger: your breath speeds up with anticipation

Stranger: as I look up at you kissing your inner thigh

Stranger: Once more I feel you quivker only more than ever before

Stranger: but you let out a sigh

Stranger: imagining it is just another tease

Stranger: im just gonna pull away leave you wanting forever

Stranger: but no

Stranger: as you close your eyes

Stranger: waiting to be left thhrobbing once again

Stranger: about to give up

Stranger: you suddenly fel it

Stranger: feel it

You: i want to be on top

You: guide me

Stranger: my fingers brushing acrossyour

Stranger: panties

Stranger: sliding them off finally

Stranger: as we flip over

Stranger: you getting right on top of me as I slip your panties onto the floor

Stranger: your legs spread on either side of me

Stranger: you are finally ready

Stranger: so excited of finally not being disappointed

Stranger: do you want to tease a littleunder your blanket as we finally make it? feel free it will add to the story if you want

Stranger: I hold your hips

Stranger: two hands as you are right on top of me

You: no i like your storyyy

Stranger: you reach down with your small little hands

Stranger: yes I will keep telling you

Stranger: it

Stranger: grab my cock and realize its been waiting as much as you

Stranger: you just feel it up and down

Stranger: fantasizing about how good it will really feel

Stranger: just lost in the moment

Stranger: it feels like perfection that will never end

Stranger: after a minute

Stranger: I take oe hand

Stranger: and finally decide

Stranger: to guide you

Stranger: I take control of my throbbing warm cock and look you in the eyes as you sit on both knees

Stranger: directly on top of me

Stranger: your eyes closed in pure bliss

Stranger: anticipation

Stranger: I take my cock

Stranger: with my other hand your body

Stranger: slowly guide it won

Stranger: down

Stranger: the tip just brusihng your throbbing pussy

Stranger: we are finally

Stranger: after everything

Stranger: both totally bare

You: is the other tab still open? :(

Stranger: exactly where we want to be

Stranger: no

Stranger: I skipped her for you

Stranger: ;)

Stranger: why do you ask?

You: i heard something just now

Stranger: as my tip just ever so slightly brusehd your pussy

Stranger: it is magic

Stranger: both of our eyes close

Stranger: we can't keeo em open

Stranger: as our eyes roolll back

Stranger: our breaths shorten

Stranger: we gsasp

Stranger: its more than youve imagined

Stranger: as I slowly rub my tip against your wet throbbing pussy

Stranger: slowly warming up

Stranger: your pussy seems to be reaching out and grabbing

Stranger: almost trying to pull me in it just want to go

Stranger: but I slowly just apply more pressure

Stranger: you just lower yourself with each inch your eyes go back further into your head

Stranger: and your exhalesrunrn into louder moans

Stranger: you sllwoly got down past the tip

Stranger: there are still 5 more inches and your tight pussy wants it all

You: what with the other sound :(

You: i cant concentrate :(

Stranger: you keep going as you feel it right up against your walls

Stranger: im sorry I have no idea

Stranger: its just me and you tho

Stranger: 5 more inches

Stranger: you just sit down even further

Stranger: 4 more

Stranger: it alread fells like heaven

Stranger: youre pussy is just gushing now

Stranger: just wants to lubricate to go deeper

Stranger: I go out after 3 inches in

Stranger: youve only gone halfway

Stranger: back in nice and slow

Stranger: as you exhale moaning with me

Stranger: as finally Im getting to enjoy your whole perfection

Stranger: as we become truly one

Stranger: you are up to five inches

Stranger: feeling so full and like you can't go

Stranger: but you push yourself all this anticipation building you up wanting to take it all

Stranger: finally

Stranger: you succeded

Stranger: you feel it up in your small body and it is pure completion

Stranger: you feel it right against your walls

Stranger: and wiggle in pleasure

Stranger: so warm

Stranger: so hard

Stranger: so tight

Stranger: so perfect

Stranger: you just go up feeling it slide along

Stranger: then back down

Stranger: youre still fully stretching and loving every second

Stranger: you on tom of me hands on your hips

Stranger: encouraging you to go faster

Stranger: you are slowly speeding up

Stranger: moaning

Stranger: more and more as we go faster

Stranger: just gasping for ari yet loving it all

Stranger: never wanitng to end

Stranger: then i begin to move my hips

Stranger: thristing

Stranger: somehow going deper than you though possible

Stranger: you know what we finally find?

Stranger: i ht something you neer have felt before

Stranger: it sends electricity througoutyour whole body like youve never felt before

Stranger: you shake

Stranger: as I thrust it happends again

Stranger: you are in awe

Stranger: pure pleasure

Stranger: just feeling us work as one

Stranger: so deep it is your G-spot

Stranger: every ride up and down is like a new snensation

Stranger: you can't stop

Stranger: it is the best feeling in the world as you feel it perfectly and me smiling up in bliss a tyou rding me

Stranger: your moaninng gets uncontrollable b

Stranger: but you don't care

Stranger: you just want more

Stranger: so I slow down

Stranger: then go nice and gentle

Stranger: as your breathing settles I then go fast again

Stranger: shocking you

Stranger: with that shivering g spot

Stranger: again your back to maoning so muucchh

Stranger: you can''t stop

Stranger: you are feeling as if your pussy is throbbing again

Stranger: youve never had this feeling or beeen this wet

Stranger: getting all over my cock sliding up and down

Stranger: we are running out of breath but don't care

Stranger: fater

Stranger: faster

Stranger: yes you moan

Stranger: just like that

Stranger: over and over

Stranger: felling of happiness overflowing

Stranger: screaming yesss

Stranger: it is everything you imagines

Stranger: then as we are going faster and faster you begin fto feel this new thing

You: everything and more

Stranger: yes and more

Stranger: youve never felt this before

Stranger: you feel as if your pussy isn't just throbbing but your gonna let loose

Stranger: a feeling you cant control

Stranger: you can't do anything but moan and go faster

Stranger: it feels better and better

Stranger: so your going faster and faster

Stranger: bumping up and down

Stranger: g-spot g spot gspot

Stranger: you didn't think this was possible

Stranger: then all the sudden you let one loose

Stranger: you scream as if in pain but it is pure pleasure

Stranger: you couldn't get wet boefore

Stranger: but now

Stranger: your letting it al out

Stranger: your pussy begins to gush all over

Stranger: squirting all over my cock as you go up

You: i neer tried that before

Stranger: it is so amazing

Stranger: you never triend squirting?

You: i dont think i can

Stranger: all women can if it is right i think

Stranger: some more and some less

Stranger: but you can

Stranger: did I make you wet at all?

You: when i feel i gotta pee i stop pleasuring myself

Stranger: you just need to let ygo

Stranger: that's the difference

Stranger: you feel it all building up

Stranger: then almost like you have to pee

Stranger: while your riding me

Stranger: but you don't care this tiem

Stranger: its too good

Stranger: you keep riding

Stranger: I don't stop

Stranger: then you let it all lose

Stranger: never knewo you could do it

Stranger: but let it all go almost like your beigng

Stranger: inly it feels like perfection

Stranger: you are in pure harmony

Stranger: squirting everywhere but I don't care because Im there too

Stranger: as I pull out you continue to squirt

Stranger: and on your final moan... i can't hild it

Stranger: let loose all over

Stranger: finally my rock hard cock can't take it

Stranger: it explodes shooitng cum

Stranger: all over as you are insipire for one last squirt

Stranger: as you rub your clit

Stranger: we finish together

Stranger: sighing with totall satisfctin

Stranger: it was perfect

Stranger: my first time

Stranger: and your first time squirting

Stranger: and finding your g spot

Stranger: we lie next to each other

Stranger: breathe

Stranger: look at each other

Stranger: then smile ;)

You: its so perfect

Stranger: then we fall asleep and can't wait for nect time ;)

Stranger: it is perfection :)

You: youve been rock hard for almost 2 hours

Stranger: hah ayeah.....

Stranger: its huritng my balls now lol

Stranger: so im starting to not get as hard its all pent up

Stranger: do you want to try something or are you satisfied?

You: im so satisfied i can touch myself

You: you need to do it also

You: or else it will hurt

Stranger: yes ;thank you

Stranger: do it together?

You: i dont like people seeing me when i touch myself. But i want to hear you

Stranger: did i earn it?

Stranger: it would be so amazing

Stranger: ighhh

Stranger: I can't make noise still but you can watch

You: let me turn off the lights so i can concetrate.

You: whyyy

Stranger: I have a roomate

Stranger: aww turning lights off ;(

You: hahaha how can you jack off with a room mate

Stranger: its ok I guess I just wish wait I can still see you

Stranger: because you are too sexy lol and he is sleeping

Stranger: its exciting

Stranger: daring

Stranger: edgy

Stranger: you ready bb?

You: i wish you could read some of it to me but you have a roommate :(

Stranger: yes maybe next time

Stranger: is there any way of contact?

Stranger: bfoere we do this?

Stranger: ugh your so dang hot teasing with that lip

Stranger: make me want to do this soo badd

You: our convo is too damn sexy

You: we can meet again here next week

Stranger: it is

You: its too dangerous outside

Stranger: email?

Stranger: yes

You: lets make a tag here

You: im only available every saturday.

Stranger: my email is [email protected]

Stranger: saturdays are best for me

Stranger: email for time?

Stranger: every sat is different for me

You: 2AM your time?

Stranger: 1AM my time?

Stranger: that would be best

You: whats ur timezone?

Stranger: Central

You: hmm whats our tag

Stranger: first timers"

Stranger: ?

Stranger: first timers

You: its too common

Stranger: what then?

You: blanket

Stranger: ok

You: can u check if theres similar

You: on your other tab while sexting with me

Stranger: sure

Stranger: didn't fine anything

Stranger: blanket

Stranger: 1am

Stranger: Saturday

You: what time is it now?

Stranger: 6:55

You: am?

Stranger: yes lol

You: you didnt sleep?!

Stranger: haha no

You: im sorry hahahha

Stranger: ive never done this and you were too perfect and you wanted to keep going haha

Stranger: so 1AM next saturday again?

You: wait let me set a reminder

Stranger: ok

Stranger: then we finsih off to make it memorable?

You: haha okay you can only here me okay

You: i need to concentrate

You: to find that freaking g spoty

Stranger: please to

Stranger: do*

Stranger: I will try my best without seeing you

Stranger: what do you want to see from me?

Stranger: face or my cock bb?

Stranger: yes bb tase it make it so wet for me

Stranger: tell me when your getting close with thumbs up

Stranger: im so hard for u rn

Stranger: if you can talk and tell me when your close ill cum with you

Stranger: yes find that g spot bb

Stranger: fast n slow

Stranger: deep strokes bb

Stranger: show me ur face if you can bb

Stranger: mmm im sooo hardd

Stranger: ready whenver you are bb

Stranger: get soo wet fro me

Stranger: so I can go nice and deeo

Stranger: scraping those walls

Stranger: and say yes bb when your close an dI should go

Stranger: ride me bb

Stranger: nice and fast then slow

Stranger: fast for a bit

Stranger: then faster then slowww

Stranger: im edging so hard for you bb so close

Stranger: take it niceand deep bb

Stranger: im so close to cumming bb

Stranger: are you?

Stranger: answer real quik sexy

Stranger: i can't hold much longer

Stranger: im about to cum

Stranger: did you cum bb?

Stranger: ready for me?

Stranger: thumbs up or say yes or type bb

Stranger: I wanna cum for you

You: soooo hot <3

Stranger: you too ;)

Stranger: wich you could see how much that was for you

You: sorry i didnt see ur chat

You: i was so focused

You: go clean an dsleep all sunday okay

Stranger: haha thank you

Stranger: do you finsih good?

You: i dont know if its done coz its still throbing

You: you know i cant squirt

Stranger: ;)

Stranger: well I hope you had a great night

Stranger: im gonna get some sleep now :)

You: go on then good morning haha byeee

Stranger: bye ;)

Stranger has disconnected.

#blanketomegle

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Different anon here: because I'm lame I crack myself up thinking of an au where yondu survives and travels with the guardians, getting to know them and slowly becoming more and mores done with his sons weird taste in friends.

Oh my, isn’t this a rare treat, and something that completely puts a massive smile on my face! To go from writing a super fun meta for one nice Anon based around our local space dad…and then to turn around and see that another lovely Anon has wandered into my askbox to discuss more Yondu things?

And not only that, but also share with me an adorable headcanon of him and his son post Vol 2 where everything is good and happy and nothing sad ever happened no matter what James Gunn tries to make us believe?

Oh, I am going to have a fun time with this~

(Lots of Yondad meta and headcanon under the cut, as well as a small drabble where Yondu and Drax get along and embarrass Peter! Prepare for feelings as well as silly things!)

First off, I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again. The Guardians of the Galaxy fandom is just absolutely and all around lovely, and they certainly know their way to my heart with really great ideas coming from their really awesome minds!

Honestly, how could you not just adore this fandom and the people within it?!

Ah, but regardless! Hello there different, but equally as great, Yondu Anon! (Or would you rather me call you Yondad!Anon instead? Seems kind of fitting, yeah?) And thank you very much for popping into my askbox! Seeing all these messages from you guys just really makes my days all the more brighter; you just have no idea!

But there I go, getting off track; for shame! Anyway, you said that you make yourself giggle over a scenario where Yondu travels full time with Peter and his Guardian family after the events of the second film, and that he just, slowly but surely, becomes even more done with his son’s very bizarre choice of friends the more and more he gets to know them?

And, on top of everything, you somehow actually consider that idea to be lame?

Oh, but my dear Yondad friend! That is where you are sadly mistaken, because I don’t think that that idea is lame whatsoever! In fact, I think that it’s a very wonderful idea actually! And one that I, too, often think about in terms of post Vol 2 headcanons – be it silly or cute or just somewhere in between!

And actually, reading over your message reminded me of various ideas that me and my friend @packratofdenialism had in regards to Yondu’s relationship with the Guardians. The ones that come to mind first and foremost being that, other than Rocket and Groot, it would probably be Drax that Yondu would end up having the best kind of friendship with, before anyone else in the group.

And why him of all people, you may be wondering, and not someone like Mantis, considering that she is basically in some ways Peters’ adoptive sister, and Yondu has a thing for strays?

Well, honestly, the reasoning behind this is that Yondu and Drax are actually rather similar. Both warriors/killers with their own sense of honor, both fathers in their own right, both pretty bad with emotions, and yet ends up, after a massive tragedy, accepting a new family…as well as various others I’m probably not remembering.

And besides all that, there’s also the fact that both Yondu and Drax have one amazing ice breaker to spark their friendship. And something that would most certainly embarrass the hell out of Peter once he hears them talking about it.

That Drax was one of the first Guardians whom considered Yondu Peter’s father.

And since we’re all about giving out headcanons, and you had such an awesome one messaged to me above – how about I give you one in return? One that will give you all the emotions, possibly silly and heartwarming both?

(Inspired by late night conversations with @packratofdenialism, love ya friend~!)

Because honestly, can you imagine the look on Yondu’s face when Drax pulls him aside and he begins to discuss just how wonderful the relationship that Yondu has with his son is? And how proud he must be to have raised such a grand warrior, or how blessed Yondu should feel to see Peter grow and become a leader of his own crew?

I mean, it’s one thing to say it among friends, and have it be played off as a really big misunderstanding…

As well as have Peter totally deny that Yondu is the dad he’s always wanted, or that he ever called him Dad emotionally after he was saved from space, or how this is something that both father and son are still trying to get used to saying at all…but, dude, that’s only meant to be private sappy bullshit just between them! Not said in mixed company, or aloud, or ever! What the hell, Drax!

But to bring it up again, in a small ship where everyone can hear, and in front of Yondu no less! Peter isn’t sure whether to crawl under the ship’s controls or just smack his head repeatedly into the wall, because he knows well enough that nothing that comes out of this is going to be good, and he’ll probably never live it down…

I mean, just imagine!

“Ah, at long last! I get to go one on one with Quill’s father!” “Sure as hell hope yer not expectin’ the two o’us ta’arm wrest –” He pauses half way through his playful words; realizing slowly just what Drax said. “Wait, whadda’yer sayin’?”“You are indeed the true father of Star Lord? I know that your son tries to deny it with great enthusiasm, but it is surely so plain to see!”

So Peter would just groan aloud, because it was bad enough the first time around but now other members are listening in, and part of him just really hopes that Yondu will cut Drax off with some joke.

And yet, Yondu just smiles. Letting out that very asshole kind of laugh that is hidden with deeper emotion; because it may be slightly embarrassing to be considered Peter’s father by someone – as well as surprising, considering no one is judging him for said feelings…but somehow it just feels right.

“Hah, yeah, ah’guess ya could say ‘dat.”

And at hearing that Yondu isn’t angry, and is possibly going along with it, Peter just pops his head in and glares at them both with a massive blush on his cheeks.

“OH MY GOD YONDU NO. Don’t encourage him, ya stupid ass blueberry! Seriously, man, he’ll never stop at this rate and dude, we’re getting a damn audience here!”

And Drax interjects, because how rude of Peter to call his father a blueberry!

“Do not disrespect your father, Quill!”

And slowly, Yondu just looks over at Peter and sees his flustered look, because he knows that they were never the type for outward or open emotion. But after everything they went through, they could use a little bit of lighthearted teasing, and oh god it’s just so easy!

And he gives him a far too knowing smirk – like yep boy, ya wiggled yerself into dis, now ya gotta deal wit’it.

“Ey, ya heard him, son! Ya go on and treat yer daddy wit’ ‘sum kinda respect!”

And Peter just goes full on blood red, because oh my god Yondu why, and stomps out all the while screaming.

“THAT’S IT. IT’S OFFICIAL. I AM DISOWNING ALL OF YOU.”

Then Drax would look over at Yondu curiously; still hearing Peter squealing down the hallways.

“Is he always such –”

“A big ol’ drama queen? Hell yes. I mean, damn, th’ stories I could tell –”

“Oh! Please share your tales, Udonta! I would be overjoyed to listen!”

Hours later, Peter comes back totally drunk, and being far too done with his new extended family of embarrassing people and dad jokes, and oh my god are those two still at it after all this time? If I turn that corner they better not be exchanging baby pictures, what the hell.

And Yondu is still next to Drax, and he has this massively proud smile on his face. And he’s explaining in detail about the first time that Peter tried to shoot the special blaster that that he had given his boy for his birthday, and how their training session ended with Peter accidentally shooting Yondu in the leg instead of the Yaka Arrow that was meant as the target.

And Drax is just laughing out loud, as he often does when he is happy, and Peter expects Yondu to still be angry because of the accidental maiming that happened all those years ago and yet –

“Boy gave me one helluva scar! Still got it too! And oh damn, was he sheepish! Thinkin’ I was gonna up and whup ‘im for doin’ it. Hell, lookin’ back I probably scared im’ cussa my shouting an’ all…but I was REAL DAMN PROUD!””As one should be! To know that your child holds the courage to take down his target no matter who it may be! That shows true strength!””And even’tho dat shit hurt like hell, I was just thinkin, durin’ his stupid ass apology, how ‘dat trick shot coul’ be used on the field! Git’im all backed inna corner, and hav’im hit his target when ‘dey least expect it?”“Ahaha! Imagine the look on your enemy’s face when they are taken down by such a small and frail child!”“Hell yeah! I mean, I always ‘igured Petey to be sumfin’ special, but after all ‘dat, th boy just kept on surprisin’ me!“

Maybe Peter assumes that half of this conversation is just his drunken mind playing tricks on him, because Yondu was, and is proud of him? And Drax is agreeing? And they’re actually getting along? And it’s not just at Peter’s expense?

Obviously he had one too many.

And yet, the more he continues to listen in secret, the more he sees his old man actually smiling, and sees him getting along with his team, and not having to worry about anything that Ego put on his shoulders, or Ravagers betraying him for daring to care…

And sure, maybe he’s still getting used to all of this; the thought of him having an actual family.

…One that is filled with talking raccoons and green skinned warriors, tiny trees that enjoys his odd taste in music and a blue skinned dad with a flying arrow, as well as a brother that still is loyal even though he doesn’t have to be after what happened with the Ravagers…

Okay, so maybe his family is a seriously weirdass one…but it’s still a family nonetheless. And the more that Peter thinks about it, the more he walks away from the conversation, and finds himself placing in certain earbuds from a certain Zune and playing a certain song to help him deal with his awful hangover…

…He realizes that yeah, embarrassing and mismatched and crazy as it may be, this family is still his – and it just feels right.

There you go, Anon! You gave me the wonderful idea of Yondu getting to know the Guardians and just wondering where he went wrong in Peter’s upbringing because SERIOUSLY SON WHY THESE IDIOTS. And in turn, I gave you an idea where everyone else slowly just becomes totally done with Yondu – mostly Peter, because THE EMBARRASSING STORIES, DAD WHY.

As well as some additional feelings on top of the silliness, because why not?

Thank you so much once more for coming into my askbox and talking Yondad related headcanons with me! I deeply appreciate it, always totally have fun with it, and I surely hope that you enjoyed my little mini fan fiction that I gave you in return! (If anyone wants that posted on it’s own without additional talk, just ask.)

Lots of hugs, hope you have a great day full of joy and fandom feelings, and I hope to see you around soon! Pop back in anytime!

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hallelujuh · 7 years

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hello yes i just finished lord of the flies (and then watched the 1963 movie immediately afterwards) & i rlly luv piggy so im gonna yell abt Just Piggy Things™ even if no one cares

piggy’s the first character we’re introduced to, after ralph ofc, so that means we’re supposed to get attached, and boy did i get attached..

ass-mar

the fact that he’s been called mean nicknames so long that his real name doesnt matter to him?? he doesnt care what hes called?? poor thing wtf??? hes like eleven hes too little for this

the Flashing Anime Glasses. especially the one w the fire when he starts laughing maniacally. same.

im talking about: “then he laughed so strangely that they were hushed, looking at the flash of his spectacles in astonishment.”

also: “’i got the conch,’ said piggy, in a hurt voice. ‘i got a right to speak.’” let him speak hes the only damn reasonable one. also stop hurting him hes been hurt enough goddamnit

k but how much he loves ralph? and ralph is annoyed by him??? but then later he confides in him & cries over him & their friendship is my fav in the book so. they bond it just takes a while. but piggy was always good to ralph awe

“i was with him when he found the conch. i was with him before anyone else was.” he finally made a friend dont u take him from him ;-;

k speaking of the conch, in the first movie, his laugh when ralph’s blowing the horn for the first time??? aw??? a rare moment of joy in that sad ass movie??

‘63!film piggy is the sweetest & cutest i lob him. ‘90!film piggy was annoying as shit tho i refuse to talk about him.

in the ‘63!film when he puts his hands on his hips when jack says “shut up fatty” and then hides behind the tree when they all laugh at him.

god in the book it’s easy to forget theyre actual babies but with the movie u cant possibly forget and theyre so cute but defenseless it’s so sad

i kno these actors r like 70 or dead now but i wanna go back in time & give them a hug. especially piggy cuz hes a pouty chubby bub gOD IM SO SAD

one last note on the film before i get back to the book: the movie rlly encompassed how awkward i imagined piggy to be & i luv that. also his story time abt camberly was adorable + educational (for me, anyway)

how hurt he is when ralph tells the other boys his name, poor thing ugh :(

“’let him have the conch!’ shouted piggy. ‘let him have it!’” yes stand up for poor lil mulberry child

“piggy knelt by him, one hand on the great shell, listening and interpreting to the assembly.” hes so fuckin sweet??? hes like the mom of the island hes so nice to the littluns i luv him

and when he gets upset over the mulberry boy probably bein killed in the fire :’( hes the most sensible and the most empathetic of all the other boys. what a cinnamon roll. unproblematic fav. true neutral. 10/10. the best boy.

my second favorite line in the whole book: “then, with the martyred expression of a parent who has to keep up with the senseless ebullience of the children, he picked up the conch, turned toward the forest, and began to pick his way over the tumbled scar.” tired mama piggy lmao

he wants to make a sundial?? hes so smart aw

piggy thinking ralph’s patronizing smile was a friendly one :( :( he just wants a friendddd hes so naive & sweet im sadddd

i think it’s implied most of the other boys (particularly the choir boys & ralph) are from a nicer, more upper class part of england, &, despite his intelligence, piggy’s more lower class, judging by his cockney-esque accent (his use of ‘them’ instead of ‘those’, etc.) and also “piggy was an outsider, not only by accent, which did not matter…” idk why this is cute i dunno

“piggy arrived, out of breath and whimpering like a littlun.” me in pe. but also poor thing ;-;

“piggy sniveled and simon shushed him as though he had spoken too loudly in church.” i interpreted shushed as, like, consoled, more than, like, ‘quit crying, ya baby’, which was more what he was doing, but still…first of many cute piggy & simon interactions. i’d ship them but theyre like twelve so nah. but they cute as buddies

“this was too bitter for piggy, who forgot his timidity in the agony of his loss. he began to cry out, shrilly: ‘you and your blood, jack merridew! you and your hunting! we might have gone home-’” this hurts because if jack hadn’t gone hunting, they may have been rescued before simon or piggy died :( :( :( horrible vague foreshadowing

simon getting piggy’s glasses for him when jack throws em ;-;

simon giving his piece of meat (not a euphemism, goddamnit) to piggy.. god simons so sweet hes my second fav

“only, decided ralph as he faced the chief’s seat, i can’t think. not like piggy…he could go step by step inside that fat head of his, only piggy was no chief. but piggy, for all his ludicrous body, had brains.” why does ralph resent piggy sm. it’s like it psychically hurts him to compliment him, even just in his own head. jeez. just cuz someones fat doesnt mean they cant be smart?? the 50s were weird

“piggy came and stood outside the triangle. this indicated that he wished to listen, but would not speak; and piggy intended it as a gesture of disapproval.” aka ‘i’m mad at everyone so im gonna stand two feet away & glare at you all’ aw haha

when he tiptoes onto the triangle cuz hes done w his protesting ahaha aw

“piggy held out his hands for the conch but ralph shook his head.” idk i thought the mental image was cute. “gimme pls” “nuh uh”

what he says about the beast & life being scientific…me & piggy would be buds if he was real lmao

“ralph nodded to piggy. ‘go on. ask him.’ piggy knelt, holding the conch. ‘now then. what’s your name?’ the small boy twisted away into his tent. piggy turned helplessly to ralph..” honestly piggy & ralph are the mom & dad of the colony (jack being the asshole uncle) it’s so cute

“’that’s a clever beast,’ said piggy, jeering, ‘if it can hide on this island.’” sarcastic piggy is sarcastic

more sarcastic piggy earlier in the book: “you got your small fire all right” i lob him

indignant & shrill piggy… and his quote: “’what are we? humans? or animals? or savages?’” honestly lowkey want that tattooed

i fuckin hate jalph but admittedly jack’s jealous lil “’that’s right–favor piggy as you always do.’” is salty & gay lmao

the whole three blind mice convo…i luv

particular highlight in that scene: “’i’m scared of him,’ said piggy, ‘and that’s why i know him. if you’re scared of someone you hate him but you can’t stop thinking about him. you kid yourself he’s all right really, an’ then when you see him again; it’s like asthma an’ you can’t breathe. i tell you what. he hates you too, ralph—’” POOR BABYYY

also “’i know about people. i know about me. and him. he can’t hurt you: but if you stand out of the way he’d hurt the next thing. and that’s me.” IN THE END ROGER’S THE ONE WHO HURTS HIM UGH :(

“’keep piggy out of danger.’” YOU ASSHOLES LET HIM DIE

piggy holding his breath until his asthma acts up & then the boys just leave him??? what dicks

“jack cleared his throat and spoke in a queer, tight voice. ‘we mustn’t let anything happen to piggy, must we?’” AND THEN YOU LET HIM D I E U SALTY BITCH QUIT IT

“piggy put on his one glass and looked at ralph. ‘now you done it. you been rude about his hunters.’ ‘oh shut up!’” why dont more ppl ship them?? compared to jalph theres nothing??? theyre like a married couple it’s precious. like i said - mom & dad of the island.

piggy getting braver & being more of a leader once jack leaves!!! im proud of him!!

“he [simon] sought for help and sympathy and chose piggy” k the two most humane & sympathetic kids on the island, and the two doomed ones, gravitate towards each other & look out for each other & it so sadd

piggy being “so full of pride in his contribution to the good of society” he didnt deserve his fate he was so good im so sad

samneric & piggy making a little mini feast for them?? thats so cute???

also “piggy broke into noisy laughter and took more fruit. ‘he might be.’ he gulped his mouthful. ‘he’s cracked’.” piggy u get teased for bein different why would u tease simon (behind his back too) for bein diffrent u hypocrite. noisy laughter tho aw

piggy & ralph laying by the fire & talking…ralph didnt deserve piggy honestly he wasnt even grateful until the very end for such a good friend in such a horrible situation??? ugh

“when he understood how far ralph had gone toward accepting him he flushed pinkly with pride” see? good friendship. piggy just wanted a friend & to be considered valuable. and ralph finally started appreciating him

“piggy took off his glasses, stepped primly into the water, and then put them on again.” prim: stiffly formal and respectable; feeling or showing disapproval of anything regarded as improper. idk why this is funny to me

when he gets annoyed and starts slapping the water & yelling. temper tatrum lmao. dont blame him

“piggy stirred the sand under water and did not look at ralph. ‘p’raps we ought to go too.’ ralph looked at him quickly and piggy blushed. ‘i mean–to make sure nothing happens.’ ralph squirted water again.” they’re so fuckINGN CUTE

“piggy touched ralph’s wrist. ‘come away. there’s going to be trouble. and we’ve had our meat.’“ SO MUCH OF THIS STORY WOULDVE BEEN AVOIDED IF THE OTHER BOYS ACTUALLY LISTENED TO PIGGY

“ralph sat down in the grass facing the chief’s seat and the conch. piggy knelt at his left, and for a long minute there was silence.” i luv their dynamic sm. ruler & adviser. no questions asked. ultimate loyalty. so good.

piggy trying to be all rational about simon while ralph freaks out…what a scene. also i luv how awkward their convo w samneric immediately after is

piggy wants to be rescued most and hes the one whos killed!!!! bullshit!!!! justice for piggy!!!

when ralph says piggy should write a letter to his auntie & he takes it serious & ralph laughs & piggy doesnt get it. awe.

the scene where they take his glasses ;-; u made my boi piggy hav an ass-mar attack u monsters,

PIGGY GETTIN ALL BADASS & DETERMINED & TALKING ABOUT WHAT HES GONNA TELL JACK

“he held out the conch to piggy who flushed, this time with pride” and then “piggy sought in his mind for words to convey his passionate willingness to carry the conch against all odds.” the conch is the only constant on the island, the only dependable thing he has besides ralph, so hes so invested in it, hes pretty much deemed himself the caretaker of the conch, and it dies with him…

the scene where piggy reassures ralph & it says “the twins were examining ralph curiously, as though they were seeing him for the first time” is probably my fav scene in the entire book…it just really shows, in a couple of lines, the characters that ralph & piggy are, and what their relationship is like, and why they’re a partnership throughout the whole book. fantastic.

“’am i safe?’ quavered piggy. ‘i feel awful–’” fuckin foreshadowing, i hate it. imagine being practically blind on a cliff and then, minutes later, falling to your death. god it’s terrible.

piggy crying for ralph not to leave him actually hurts like psychically in my chest. him and simon were babies??? i know it’s fiction but kids are the sweetest things, not even fictional kids deserve to be killed so mercilessly??? im so fuckin sad

his last words…powerful and iconic.

i dont wanna talk about his death. im very sad

k ik it’s terrible but when he died his skull cracked open & his brain more or less fell out (”and stuff came out”, “with his empty head”), and thats p macabre but it’s also symbolic and genius bc when roger killed him he also took away the only thing he had going for him, the only thing that gave him superiority over the others - his intelligence. his brain.

of course, have to end on: “ralph wept for the end of innocence, the darkness of man’s heart, and the fall through the air of the true, wise friend called piggy.” cue me shutting the book, hugging it to my chest, and sobbing

#lotf #books #sorry i just. im rlly emotional & i rlly luv piggy #txt

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streetcornertwoam · 7 years

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currently watching some different videos of hannah hart and right now watching a livestream thing she did for her book buffering, where she was signing copies and answering questions...fun stuff

ANYWAY...

so...it’s nearing the end of the video, and she read this question from a girl named becca (i’m assuming spelling lmao) from aurora, IL (which if you happen to know anything about me...I live in IL...and that’s only a few hrs away from me) so initially that was like really like ‘oh fun!’

but then...she read then question...

i’m gonna paraphrase it ‘cause i’ve had to pause the video and like...stop for a minute ‘cause shit got real fucking Quick lmao

basically just ‘what advice would you give to someone who has just come to terms with the fact that they’re bisexual and unsure if they’ll ever be able to come out’

like...Holy Fuck

it’s...too real right now lmao

admittedly I probably would have reacted this way regardless of where they live...but the fact that it’s somewhere so fucking near me is just like O.O

...and I mean like...I guess I’d say I’m ‘out’ like on here...but that’s different, ‘cause...no one really knows me on here (or talks to me lbr haha) so y’know...it is different

and like...I still kinda...pause when I’m talking aloud to myself and saying it

I mean...it’s not even been a year since I started thinking ‘i...might be bisexual’

I wish I could remember when the thought like first permeated my head, but I know it was sometime last yr...and probably in like...April-May

...and like the second it came up, I was like ‘DEAL WITH THIS ANOTHER DAY’

and just ignored it basically...and then like every few weeks, it’d kinda pop back up again...and then finally sometime during the summer...I was like...ok...let’s...look at my life and the facts and...think about this

and it still took me a few weeks, thinking about it off and on...but then after actually asking the advice of someone on here (anonymously of course lmao)...that...definitely helped

i still thought about it, but after that...i did feel more confident in saying it and knowing it to be true about myself

like...i’m 26 right now, and in a few weeks i’ll be 27...

it’s hard to change a perception you’ve held of yourself for so goddamn long, but...fuck i was so in denial about things

just a few weeks ago i was thinking about something and i was like ‘christ you should have realized when you were still in fucking high school dude’

but y’know...there were always guys...and y’know...ahaha...i definitely was never popular, i wasn’t and still wouldn’t consider myself an attractive person

so i mean...even the few guys that i went to HS with that i would maybe find attractive were all assholes anyway, so that totally ruined it

and i dated guys...i kissed...a lot of guys lol...like...just a lot

y’know and my last day of HS i started dating this guy i’d known like...since i was fucking 5 dude

and he was the first (and unfortunately so far only) person i’ve had sex with

and we dated for like... 3 1/2 yrs and then...long story short, he became a fucking ass and we broke up

(that’s not really what happened...i was terrible too...i was...yea i was a bad girlfriend...in the...manipulative way i guess i’d say now...i hate saying that...i hate knowing that i was like that...but...he wasn’t great either...we should have broken up long before we did...and i think that was a huge issue for us...but he still did some Fucked Up shit...and it’s been...4 yrs now??? and like...I still can’t think about him or anything without just...yea...i’m still not over it...i’m over him, but the situation? it’s all just so fucked...so like...probably not everything he did was entirely his fault...but...y’know...there were just...he lied about things...a lot...they were little things....but....they were lies nonetheless...and then when i’d days...weeks later find out the truth i’d obviously be Pissed...and then it’d be a big fight, and y’know i’m ‘overreacting’ and ‘this is why i didn’t tell you’ and blah blah blah’ LIKE NO OK...SO...for like...i don’t know...a week or two before I turned 21 I didn’t hear from him AT ALL...like...I had no fucking idea where he was...what he was doing...if we were still together...fucking Nothing...expected to hear from him on my birthday...Nothing...i was obviously initially pissed but I got hella fucking wasted and then it was whatever... and then like...i don’t know...another week or something went by...(i might be remembering this wrong...maybe it was like...a bit before my bday i didn’t...whatever anyway) basically i didn’t hear from him at all for like...2 weeks or some crazy shit and then one night I’m sitting in my room watching Torchwood (yea you bet I fucking remember this...it was the ep where Tosh and Jack go back in time and they meet the real Jack Harkness just fuck my shit up) anyway so I’m watching that and I hear the doorbell ring...and I just instantly Know. I don’t get up, I just keep watching the show...and then I hear a knock at my door...I don’t answer. Knocks keep coming....still don’t answer...(my door is locked but i don’t have a lock on my door...the way the knob is if you like...push it in and turn it it locks) so there’s a tiny little hole on the other side that you can push a very small screwdriver (or the stick of a dum-dum sucker lmao) into and you can unlock the door...so after a few minutes my door opens this way...and it’s Fucking Him...I just...like straight up ignored him and kept watching my show ‘cause like...you don’t talk to me for WEEKS...and then just show the fuck up?? fuck you (at this point we’d been dating for not even 3 yrs) anyway...eventually i have to pause the show and y’know what he fucking tells me? what he’s been doing? before we even started dating he had planned on going into the marines...like he signed some shit saying he was interesting or whatthefuckever i don’t remember what it was anymore...so keep in mind that was like..3 yrs ago almost....says...’so you remember when i was gonna go in the marines’ etc etc etc..basically...they like...got in contact with him (after all this fucking time????) and said that he was now recruited or whatever (i honestly don’t remember what he said...christ it’s been 4-5 yrs now) so he had been in Missouri doing training something or other...and like...i’m immediately fucking Suspicious...and he’s wearing a fucking marines t-shirt and has a lanyard like that’s Proof...and just...eventually it got ‘worked out’ and then it was just like...this thing that was gonna be happening...he was gonna in the next few months be leaving to go do that...and like...there’s even more to the story than just this...but...it’s such a fucking lie right??? but i was so goddamn desperate to keep him...like...that was my problem...i’d had boyfriends before, and like..only one that i would even say was vaguely as serious (and not even really ‘cause y’know...i was like 12 but...the feelings...and it was only for a few months but at the time...that was the most real) anyway...so y’know...first real serious honest to god we’re gonna get married boyfriend...first person i’d ever had sex with...huge thing....huge moment in my life...and...i didn’t want to lose this person...i put up with the most ridiculous shit ‘cause i didn’t want to be fucking alone...i ruined one of the best friendships i ever had ‘cause i never spent time with her...and just...would spend it with him...or wouldn’t hang out just in case i could ever see him (his parents were fucking...omg the actual worst) just..just...so much Bullshit

sorry that’s just all one big long fucking pile of shit right there lmao...if anyone actually reads that then...good on ya, but also im super sorry

so...then at the beginning of 2012...i’m single...and i was a fucking mess...like...he left (btw...not to join the marines...he just...like fucking left the state so y’know...super legit dude) and...i’m still not sure if it’s just...a coincidence or whatever, but like...immediately after that I got So Fucking Sick

like...i had the worst ear ache...like i was crying it hurt so bad, so finally had to go to the doctor...yea the ear infection i thought i had? turns out it was like a fucking terrible case of strep...like Awful...but my throat didn’t even hurt...it was just my ear...so that happened...

and for like...months i didn’t leave the house really...i mostly stayed in my room, i like...barely talked to my parents...it was...hard

and then summer came, and i went to the swim and golf club that my parents own (and which is now closed and i wish they could sell it) and i started hanging out there again...and i made new friends...and it was honestly? like the best summer...it was...so fucking great

there was this lifeguard...and he was just so cute, and I had the Biggest crush on him...but he was like 5-6 yrs younger than me lmao

like...I was so fucking pathetic...you could see the goddamn hearts in my eyes

and one of the reasons that i’m bringing this up is ‘cause...that first summer then...there was this girl that was also a lifeguard that I had ‘known’ sorta ‘cause she had grown up coming to the pool and had been friends with my sister and knew my mom and they were all really close and whatever...but i never really hung out up there so i didn’t know her...anyway...she had like...just come out to everyone as gay...it was a huge... (she was also like...a few yrs younger than me) and anyway...we eventually became like...Really Good friends

like...we talked a lot, and y’know...just hung out and shit...and...hahaha...i remember this one time...she said to me she’d like to just once take me out on a date...like...just a really nice proper date, and blah blah blah...and asked what my mom would think and i kinda laughed and said she probably wouldn’t care and asked if i would and i said ‘yea i definitely would we should!’ and it was just like...we were Cracking Up (we did that a lot....we both had super loud obnoxious laughs) and like...I was seriously really excited about this idea??? like i remember telling TJ (that was the cute lifeguard) Elaina (that’s the gay lifeguard lmao) is gonna take me on a date! like...I had HUGE smile...and he kinda got wide eyed and was like ‘uhh...what?’ and I was like ‘no no no...just...’ and tried to explain it in such a way that was like...basically i was pulling the ‘no homo’ bullshit...

and i mean even looking back now, I didn’t have a thing for her...I really enjoyed her company, and I thought she was funny and fun to be around, but like...it was never like secret gay crush shit. but the fact that i was So Excited and interested about a girl taking me on a date??? like...fucking Hello Self

and then I got engaged to a few of the lifeguards lmao

...one of which happened to be another girl who I was like...kinda intimated by ‘cause she was just...like real quiet and I didn’t think she’d like me...and then we just started talking one day and got on really well

like...she made me a duct tape ring and everything...i think i still have it somewhere...and again...i don’t think i ever was like ‘fuck i think i really like her’ (but that could be ‘cause like everyone knew that TJ had had a Thing for her for a long time...so it was like...Awkward for me lmao) but she was really nice and very pretty

y’know...i’ve done this a lot throughout my life...which (i think?) it’s a fairly normal thing...but...y’know been ‘engaged’ or ‘married’ to different friends of mine that were girls y’know...and i just...never thought into that much or anything...and i don’t know if that’s ‘cause there really was never any sort of attraction or just because i was just so in denial about things that i just...didn’t let myself think about it...i really don’t know

the first time that i can remember thinking about another girl that i ‘knew’ i was like...18-19...and it was when i was really involved on twitter lol...and i made lots of new friends all over the world and it was honestly one of the best times of my life

...and i remember...lmao...’cause our initial bonding thing was over craig ferguson, and that’s how i was introduced into fanfiction and all that stuff...and i eventually wrote some (absolutely Dreadful) fics...and anyway...one of them...AHAHAHAHHA christ this is embarrassing...

one of them...I uh...wrote about me and this friend of mine...and uh...well...anyone remember the movie Hot Tub Time Machine? yea basically...that’s where i got my idea...we got into a hot tub...went back in time...to...sometime in craig’s past (i fucking wish this wasn’t true...but it so embarrassingly is) and uh...we had sex...the three of us...

....yeaaaaaaa

and like...it was...mainly just...basically we didn’t do much sexual things to/with each other...but we...did kiss at least i remember...and...something else, i can’t remember what lmao...and like...i remember being So Embarrassed writing this thing (she knew all about this btw...i mean I fucking posted it for everyone to see on the website they created for him...i think it’s all still up and if I wanted to i could go and find it but I’m definitely Not doing that) and like...I don’t honestly even know how or WHY i was like ‘I should write about you and I going back in time and having a threesome with Craig Ferguson’ like...i could have made it just me...or just...anyone else...but the fact that it was fucking self insert....with another girl...who was a good friend of mine at the time...

OH YOU KNOW WHAT...I...might have decided to do it ‘cause...ahahhah...she ended up in a dream of mine...her and Craig...and...did we kiss? fuck I don’t remember, but I remember her and Craig in the dream...and kisses were exchanged but I don’t remember with who or whatever...it’s been so many years...anyway

and y’know...she was (still is) a very pretty lady...she was a couple yrs older than me...and we talked a lot about real things...and she gave me advice on things...and, lol...she actually taught me some German words and stuff (she was German herself) and uh...she would like...help me learn how to say things correctly...we never got real far or anything, but it was fun...and I think I was probably...a little bit attracted to her...yea

but...y’know I was again...18-19...I had a boyfriend...it was...there was a lot of New Things

...actually by the time this all happened I was probably at least 20...but still

and then I eventually after a few yrs...was able to be like ‘oh this celebrity lady is really pretty’

‘cause oh yea...i also was that person that was like ‘i can’t say if another girl is pretty/cute/hot/whatever ‘cause that’s gay’ so...sorry about that lmao

and i eventually got over that...and then i was more comfortable with saying so and so is really pretty

and then...Billie Piper happened...oh that beautiful lady

and then it was ‘oh i have a girl crush on billie haha’

and then karen gillan with those ‘legs that go on for miles’ that’s an actual thing I used to say about her All The Fucking Time

i shit you fucking not

but nope...still just a total hetero girl crush....

and there have been various and many others...

(i’m skipping A LOT of other little things that are like ‘dude...you’re at least a bit attracted to girls...you’ve watched videos on youtube of girls hardcore making out and gotten off to it...you were like 15 then dude...accept it’)

so...there’s that

...and loads of other things

wow this...really went off the rails lmao

if anyone fucking reads this whole thing you deserve a goddamn medal ‘cause holy shit is a fuckton of embarrassing shit

but...i honestly feel better getting it off my chest

...i still don’t know if/when i’ll be able to totally come out to my family/people i know in RL as bi but i hope that the day does eventually come...

i had thought the other day about how...i really maybe should wait til my grandma passes ‘cause...well, there’s lot of stuff there (she’s great and i love her so much but she’s very much a church lady and gays go to hell and she’s still sure that my uncle who was gay is there and it’s upsetting to her and etc)

but like...i hate to have to hide this from her, but...i don’t know it’s hard and confusing

which is another reason why I’d like to as I said the other day get a tattoo of a violet on like the inside of my forearm...just..a little something for me that i can look at and know...and then...eventually work on telling people

(funny how i was thinking last yr during coming out month and all that stuff like ‘oh maybe i can do this next yr’ HA! good joke self...that...probably won’t happen)

so yea...anyway it’s probably time that i finally wrap this shit up

seriously if any of you read this...well fucking done, i’m sorry i’m such a mess and type like shit

#personal #this one is fucking long #like...i really went off on a tangent #that was...not what i meant to do #sexuality #...that's mainly what it's about #or rather that's what started the whole thing lmao #i can't believe i'm gonna post this with the potential thought of people reading it #wow self

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