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aristocratic-otter · 11 months

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I'm back! I was absolutely determined, after being sick and swamped with work for the last few weeks, that I would post today. I have so many words to share! But first:

Thank you to you lovely people who kept tagging me even though I've not posted one of these in a month. Thank you to @facewithoutheart, @aroace-genderfluid-sheep, @fatalfangirl, @larkral, @cutestkilla, @prettygoododds, @artsyunderstudy, @confused-bi-queer, @ivelovedhimthroughworse, @moodandmist, @nightimedreamersghost, @hushed-chorus, @blackberrysummerblog, @j-nipper-95, @theearlgreymage, @you-remind-me-of-the-babe, @ileadacharmedlife, and @wellbelesbian.

Bits from my many, many WIPs below (8? 9? I'm losing track...)

From: A new fic, set in the Age of Sail (one of two possibilities for my COTTA this year):

Simon

The sky is a perfect blue, the breeze is licking against my cheeks like a happy dog, and Tyrannus Basilton Grimm-Pitch is the biggest arsehole on all of the seven seas.

You’d think he was five years older than me, the way he acts, not a measly few months. He’s standing across from me, frowning fiercely as I take my time thinking through the order he’s just given me.

“Show me the cargo hold, cabin boy!”

The command, coming as it was in the high voice and posh accent of the SS Watford’s most obnoxious passenger, caught me by surprise. Tyrannus Basilton, or Baz, as I’ve heard his mother calling him, has ignored me for the most part, since we set sail from the port of Southampton. When he’s come across me in his explorations of the ship, he doesn’t say anything, he just stares at me like I’m something particularly foul that he’s just stepped in.

I hate him.

From: My Cobb!

Why on Earth would Penny be fated to fall in love with a Normal?

It’s impossible. So I should be encouraged, right? This means that Baz and I…that Baz and I…

I wince away from finishing that thought. I don’t know why, but it’s been bothering me more and more over the last few days, the thought that my destiny is to kill or be killed by Baz. Maybe I just wish for a kinder destiny?

No. I can’t possibly wish for that…with Baz…just, no.

From: Westward Son:

Agatha is nuzzling his cheek with her palomino nose, but he doesn’t appear to even notice the horse’s presence. He’s miles away. No. It’s all I can think. No, I won’t let this happen again. No, I won’t let him pull away or lose himself in pain and grief. I won’t lose him.

From: Saving Simon Snow:

Baz’s lips are as soft as I remember. He gasps against my mouth, but doesn’t pull away. He lets me kiss him. Like before, I can sense his inexperience in the way he lets me control the kiss; when has Baz ever let me control anything? But he’s not unwilling, that’s obvious. His lips move under mine, and his body sways towards me.

I slide my hands around his hips and hold him steady. I kiss him. He sinks into my chest. We’re so close now that I can feel the faint chill of his skin under his clothes.

Because he’s a vampire, I think, and then dismiss the thought as irrelevant. Because he’s a boy. No. He’s a man. He’s my husband.

From: Snow Fox, my other contender for COTTA, an American Revolution AU:

I watch the boy, as he bows to Agatha Wellbelove before taking the first position of the minuet. She curtsies in return, before turning to face in the same direction he is facing, and raising her hand elegantly as an offering. He accepts the offer with his free left hand. The pianist begins a bouncy tune, and the pretty young couple begin the mincing steps of the dance.

Wellbelove is beautiful; of course she is. She’s the flower of the colonies. I expect that the British soldiers eying her from the sidelines think so at least. I myself couldn’t care less for her abundant charms. My eyes are dragged over and over to the boy dancing the intricate forms with her.

He’s beautiful too.

From Raising Dragons (almost done!):

“Hey Rosebud,” I whisper. Baz calls me that, and Gran told me that my grandfather used to call Lucy, my mum, ‘Rosy-girl’. I try it out. “My little rosy-girl. Or boy. You are a miracle, you know that?” The baby blinks at me, wisely. As if they’re saying, ‘of course I am, catch up, dad!’.

From To Heal A Broken Mind:

“Dr. Pitch,” she says, continuing to blink at me slowly. “Am I to understand that you’ve been keeping a patient here, in your office, all day?”

Oh. Oh. So that’s what this is about. Fuck, I never thought she’d notice.

“I…” I try to speak, but the words jam up in my throat. I swallow, and try again. “He’s a…friend.”

“Is he not also your patient, Doctor Pitch?”

I fight to control my expression. This is bad. Helplessly, I nod. “He is.”

And from my mystery collaboration!:

“The symptoms all line up with hypothalamic dysfunction,” he reports in a grave tone. “Enhanced senses, hormonal surges, fever, sweating, mania, uncontrollable laughter.”

My heart sinks. That sounds very much like what I saw with [redacted] “Have you found the mode of transmission yet?” I ask.

I guess that is 8...but I started plotting out my discord exchange fic today. So yes, I am insane.

#cotta 2021 #cotta 2023 #american revolution #blue lagoon au #dragon babies #secret project #cobb 2023 #house au #oregon trail au #canon divergent fic #forced marriage au #wip wednesday #co/ws/awtwb #simon snow series

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a-tale-of-legends · 7 months

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I finished the relationship post ( family guy death pose) Right now it's mostly like. Who's with who and familial stuff. A lot of uncertainties, that'll probably change in the future. But with that all said, here. I spent way longer on this than I should have ha

Prof Oak - Had a thing with Agatha sometime in the past. Most likely didn't end up together long term ( I mean obviously) and Oak married someone else. She's no longer alive, as is their child, alas.

Red - with blue

Green - unsure

Blue - with red

Daisy - probably has herself a boyfriend

Brock - focused on work, but is bi questioning ( considering dating men)

Misty - ????? She has a boyfriend in the games????? So possibly????

Surge - closeted gay man. He comes out eventually when it really sinks in how queer the league is lmao.

Erika - Happily dating/ married to her old archery partner.

Koga - has a wife that's still alive

Sabrina - Not sure how to feel about dating. Focusing on herself.

Blaine - Simply not interested in dating.

Giovanni - Gets so many bitches lmao. But is married to Ariana in this au.

Ariana - Also swimming in bitches imo. Married to Gio, had two kids that ran away from them rip. Likes getting catty with Archer lol

Pertel - unsure

Lorelei - dated a lot but doesn't get anywhere

Bruno - Isn't interested in relationships atm,but is pan ( much to people's surprise for some odd reason)

Agatha- Had a Thing with Oak once. Terrible experience never again, she's single but probably had a trail of dead husbands in her wake.

Lance - aroace, single dad of 7 ( Kanto trio, johto quartet)

Elm- Wife and two kids ( one of them being Aiko)

Silver - Bi. User to date Aiko before turning his eyes to Kenji

Falkner - Not sure if I want him and Janine to just be mlm wlm besties or an actual couple.

Bugsy - Nonbinary/Agender and waaaaaay more focused on their work with bugs than any relationship atm. ( debating if they're aroace or gay as hell)

Whitney - Gay and dating Jasmine <3

Morty - Morty/Eusine. Not sure if they are dating by the johto arc or not.

Chuck - Has a wife and maybe a kid of his own

Pryce - is a granddad himself. A widow.

Clair - unsure. Has gay aunt vibes but again. Unsure.

Proton - Gay. Gay ass man

Archer - Down bad for Giovanni, insanely jealous of Ariana……probably is Giovanni's side bitch tho lmao

Karen - Honestly, probably gets with Will and maybe Grimsley. Maybe.

Will - Same as above

Birch - has a wife and kids!

Wally- Ends up dating Jin and Kohaku after a long ass time pining.

Roxanne - Maybe with Brawly I dunno.

Brawly - Maybe with Roxanne, again dunno.

Wattson - Unsure. I think in the anime he has a son so maybe????

Flannery - Not dating anyone, but she is pretty gay

Norman - has a wife and kid

Winona - need to think about Steven-Wallacd backstory, but I am liking the idea that she used to date Wallace. Though overall, I'm unsure.

Liza and Tate - ( shrugs ) Tate, for some reason, reads me the type to get crushed easily. But outside of that, they probably don't think about dating until they're older.

Wallace - Looks above at Winona. Still, he ends up with Steven for the long term.

Juan - Single man, doesn't plan on having kids, since Wallace exists.

Phoebe - Unsure

Sidney - Unsure. Wonderful hype man tho

Glacia - Okay so. I saw one hc that Glacia was Siebold's mom and it stuck with me for so long. So I think she had a husband, that left one way or another ( either he died or she divorced him) and she's been single ever since. Her relationship with Siebold is…. complicated. Edit: Glacia is no longer Siebold's mom, rather she's his aunt and legal guardian. They're relationship is still complicated, but there's a level of care here.

Drake - Not interested in relationships

Steven - with Wallace.

Archie - after prison and a lot of therapy, I imagine he gets back with Maxie

Maxie - Same as above.

Shelly - Shelly x Courtney is an interesting ship I've seen but not sure if I want to make it canon. Shelly does get a lot of bitches tho.

Matt - Same with Matt lol. Matt x Tabitha is something I've considered but not sure on. Probably not, given how both parties are, but I'm keeping the option open.

Courtney - Look above at Shelly. Also she does have that obsession with Maxie, though I'm not sure if I want that to be familial or romantic.

Tabitha - Look above at Matt. Tabitha is. Interesting to say the least. The more I think about it, the more I think the ship I mentioned above…. probably wouldn't work. Same with Shelly and Courtney to an extent. Honestly I think he's perfectly fine being single.

Lisia - Bi bi bi, baby. If I wasn't clear, I do plan on making her and Anabel an item.

Anabel - Look above

Noland - Unsure

Greta - Unsure

Tucker - gay as all hell and has had many flings.

Lucy - Serial dater than just can't get them to stay. Probably at a point where she thinks it's better for her to just focus on herself for now.

Spenser - Has a loving wife that's still with him, even at this age.

Brandon - Single, is married to the live of adventure

Zinnia - Requires therapy and traveling around to her to really get with someone.

Prof - Rowan - single. Probably dated a bit in the past but is now married to his work.

Johanna - Not exactly divorced ( yet), but hasn't spoken to her husband in years sooooo. She's not exactly looking for someone right now.

Roark - unsure

Gardenia - unsure

Fantina - Unlike her cousin/sibling ( Tucker), Fantina does actually have a partner. And lots of fans lmao.

Wake - Unsure

Byron - Divorced, but is living happily.

Maylene- Ends up with Candice

Candice - Ends up with Maylene

Volkner - Flint duh

Aaron - Not entirely sure. Definitely queer I think.

Flint - Volkner duh

Bertha - Hmmmm. She deserves a wife. I'm giving her a wife

Lucian - I like the idea of him having feelings for Cynthia, but it's unrequited. Sorry bud.

Cynthia - Bi and has her eyes on a certain actress

Cyrus - Choosing to focus on himself before even considering any type of romantic relationship. Will combust if someone flirted with him.

Mars - Likes the idea of going on dates, never actually been on one.

Juniper - People are too scared to get close with her. Probably for good reason. Fantina is trying ( and failing ) to set her up with someone.

Saturn - Used to be hella gay for Cyrus, but now is just picking up the pieces of everything. Doesn't know how to feel about him, so he's focusing on himself and work.

Charon - No bitches

Palmer - wife and kid

Darach - far too focused on taking care of Caitlin to even consider dating.

Argenta - Wine aunt. Happily single

Thorton - aroace

Dahlia - a free spirit, so she likes having her options open.

Cheryl - Gay

Marley - Also gay. Maybe I should make the date ( shrugs)

Mira - A kid who's main concern isn't dating or noticing who she likes. As for in the future when she's older…no clue.

Buck - Has a crush on a boy on Stark mountain. Doesn't have the guts to confess ironically enough.

Riley - :)

Cedric - Divorced

Aubrey - Married to Fennel :)

Cheren - Gets with Lear*

Bianca - Gets with Roxie

Cilan - Single, too shy to really consider putting himself out there.

Chili - Aroace

Cress - Single, is looking.

Lenora - Canonically married to Hawes. Doesn't plan on having children as of now. They kinda have Cheren for that, ha.

Burgh - I'll give him a win and let him have himself a boyfriend

Elesa - Is with Skyla

Clay - I've definitely seen different takes on him. For now he's a single father of one ( Wayne)

Skyla - Dating Elesa

Brycen - This came to me out of nowhere, but he and Marshall are dating. No one knows except Alder.

Drayden - I already have him as Ingo and Emmets grandpa so, he definitely got with someone, though I think he's single now.

Marlon - Has so many bitches but is too intertwined with the ocean to notice lmao. Maybe one day.

Grimsley - I mentioned he might be a part of a polycule with Will and Karen, but like. Grimsley's a mess. He has many many failed relationships under his belt.

Shauntal - Happily single.

Caitlin - " What? No. Go away"

Marshall- As mentioned before is dating Brycen.

Alder - Widowed granddad.

N - I know he's asexual biromantic. However I'm unsure of what to define his relationship with Kamari. But for now I'll say he's single, living his best life.

Ghetsis - ….I have. No clue.

Colress - Also have no clue!

Sycamore - Has a whole Thing with Lysandre. The sap in me wants them to get back together, but alas.

Dexio - I just saw someone else do it and thought it would be fun. He ends up with Cassius.

Sina - Not sure. I don't even know if she's truly interested in anyone. Possibly aroace.

Shauna: Probably had feelings for Jude and Dante at some point. Probably over then and living her best life.

Trevor - As of Kalos arc, faaaar more focused on the pokedex. After that he probably gets with Tierno.

Tierno - Same as above except he's more focused on dancing.

Viola - *clenches fist* Viola and Perrin are so freaking cute but I don't think they fit in my timeline!!!! So sadly, Viola's gf is someone else.

Grant - Has major feelings for Siebold, but unsure if he feels the same way.

Korrina : Wants a girlfriend so bad ( another sad case of two characters being at different points in the timeline so I can't ship them within the au. This time it's Bea)

Ramos - Was married to his husband for a long time, until he unfortunately passed away. He tries not to let it get him down.

Clemont- His sister keeps trying to get him to date someone lmao. He's moreso interested in his machinery but maybe one day?

Valerie - Debating if I want her to already be with Grant and is aware of the budding feelings between him and Siebold ( it ends in a poly) or just have her single in her own world.

Olympia - Single and is completely fine with that.

Wulfric - has a wife and two kids of his own! Loves them a whole bunch.

Drasna - :)

Siebold - Has not yet realized any of his feelings lmao.

Wikstrom - He has a wife. No kids.

Malva - Messy. Loved and resented Diantha in their relationship. Wished Lysandre would stop putting Diantha on a pedestal, while alSo wishing she was on that pedestal instead. Didn't know how to feel when Diantha ended up with Cynthia.

Diantha - Tried dating a man once. A publicity stunt if anything. After that she realized she was very much a lesbian and was talking more to Miss Cynthia.

Aliana - Unsure.

Bryony - Dating celosia

Celosia - Dating Bryony

Mable - Unsure

Xerosic - lmao

Lysandre - Was with Sycamore. Was.

Kukui - Married to Burnet and ends up having a kid together. Guzma joins in a poly.

Burnet - see above.

Hau - gets with Gladion in the future

Lillie - ends up with Ames

Gladion - gets with Hau in the future

Illima - Big ass crush on Kiawe. Thinks he's being the perfect flirt. He is not.

Hala - has a wife, one son ( who left ) and of course, little Hau as his grandson.

Lana - Unsure *

Mallow - Unsure * ( might make their relationship like the anime tho)

Kiawe - Thinks Illima is kinda weird ( but does have feeling for him)

Olivia - Canonically and chronically single. Girl suffering out here.

Acerola - Unsure ( child)

Sophocles - Unsure ( child )

Molyane - Has a boyfriend of his own, both of them are nerds together.

Nanu - Meowth man. So no one.

Mina - 👍

Hapu - Unsure but she gets flustered very easily.

Wicke - Aroace, happily looking after her friends children.

Faba - No rizz at all. Bitchless.

Guzma - Ends up in a polyam relationship with Kukui and Burnet. Genuinely doesn't know how he got to that point, but he's….happier.

Plumeria - Had the hots for Ames' mom but that didn't go anywhere. Single.

Kahili - Unsure

Magnolia - Still is with her husband. Sonia is her only grandchild.

Sonia - Dating Nessa

Hop - Um. Not sure. I like Hop x Bede but also not sure of I would want it in canon. Hop is ace too, so he's not really focused on those kinds of relationships for the most part. He does get flustered easily lol.

Marnie - It takes her 5 years to get with Naomi. But they get there!

Bede- Similar to Hop. Though I'm honestly just having fun writing his platonic relationships with everyone. He did mistake his platonic feelings/friendship with Naomi for a crush but he quickly realized it wasn't the case.

Milo - Ends up with Gordie

Kabu - Uncertain only bc I like so many hcs. Like I like him and Peony together but also just him vibing by himself is fun. Also him and Melony is cute. So yeah, not sure.

Bea - Eh. She's more focused on school and martial arts to care.

Allister - Has experienced a crush before but is waaaay to shy to do anything about it. Grateful to have the crush as a friend though.

Opal - Much like Agatha, has a history of dead husbands.

Melony - Divorced and has 5 kids ( Gordud, a daughter, and then triplet sons)

Gordie - Ends up with Milo

Piers - I might change this later only bc I'm really thinking about it, but I do see him in a poly relationship with Leon and Raihan. Again might change.

Raihan - Look above. But unlike piers, him and Leon are always end game.

Leon - Again. Look above.

Rose - Had a relationship with Cassandra before realizing she was pregnant was Carol. Was pretty much married to his work after that.

Oleana - similar case to Courtney, though maybe after a lot of therapy she gets with a nice lady.

Mustard and Honey are a couple, with Hyde.

Peony - Similar case to Kabu. Not sure. He has Peonia and recently Carol so he's honestly living his best life.

Klara - Way too toxic to be in a lasting relationship atm. She probably gets better after IoA but uh. Yeah. Not a great dating life.

Avery - Probably had never dated anyone ever…..yeah I can see him and Klara getting together at some point. It is, surprisingly, pretty healthy.

Sada and Turo are, miraculously, together in this au. They're also both dead.

Clavell- Unsure, waiting for the indigo disk to come. To really make my judgement. Was planning on giving him a husband.

Nemona - Unsure. Power of friendship real tho.

Penny - Unsure. above.

Arven - Unsure, again. Look above lol.

Note: I have shipped Arven and Ramona and Nemona and Ramona before but I'm ultimately unsure if I want either to be canon.

Giacomo - Unsure ( please understand I am in shipper hell here)

Mela- Slow to any romance, due to past experiences.

Atticus - Unsure

Ortega - is only 13, and while he knows who he is, he takes much more enjoyment being around his friends.

Eri- Is with Carmen. Duh.

Okay gonna cut the single format, let's get right to the case.

Dendra/Miriam.

Larry is Divorced…..and also has his eyes on Hassel and Brassius who are already a couple. Has not made a move and plans to never ( he fails at this btw). Giacomo is his son ( until I change my mind).

Ryme has a partner but they broke it off. She's happily single now.

Tyme is the opposite with a husband of her own.

Iono doesn't date cause that would mess with her viewers.

Katy and Saguaro seem really cute,I'm considering it.

Jacq - Single dad ( Ramona). Is unaware of a theater teacher's feelings towards him.

Geeta and Rika definitely has a Thing but neither of them really addresses it. They're in their own world.

Poppy - Just wants Larry to say he likes Hassel and Brassius already. Also thinks boys have cooties.

Grusha - Was too depressed to consider dating anyone but is coming around to the idea.

Raifort scares people away lol.

Kofu - Unsure

Tulip - Just doesn't have the time to date

( aggressively points to Luca and Kieran) Kindergarten Divorce.

Carmine - Unsure. Wouldn't be surprised if she scares some people away.

#r rambles #legendverse #this took so long #if you guys have any hcs you wanna share go for it lol

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rodolfoparras · 2 months

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Palladium anon here again :3 tho if it's not taken could I be the 🌱 anon?

and yes absolutely horn play is hot, especially when the character is really sensitive with them. Teasing them and/or using them as handle bars when fucking them??? Extremely hot. I've seen some ppl want to like fuck the horn and in theory I understand but most horns are pointy😭 you're gonna scratch up your holes bestie be careful

Also sharing my winx, trix , specialist and some others sexuality headcanons because I have been hyperfixated on this forever and I'm so happy to find other queer ppl to talk to about it!!

Helia and Flora are definitely bi or pan, you can not convince me otherwise. I'd say they're poly curious maybe?? Despite the show having every single couple go through a jealousy arc🙄 I think Flora and Helia would definitely be open to dating someone else if they both liked them

Riven, Bloom and Stella are all bi with a male preference

Layla and Naboo are a bisexual power couple and I will die on this hill

Musa and Timmy are bi with a fem preference.

Brandom is straight, mandatory for every queer friend group is the one cishet guy that's just there.

Sky is questioning, having gay thoughts from living in the dorms with other men and seeing them shirtless

Now I'll probably get hate for it but I think Tecna as an aroace lesbian is neat. Like her and Timmy were cute ig but I like tecna better on her own outside a relationship. Also her struggling with feeling like a human and more robotic fits with the unfortunate stereotype aroace ppl get. Her arc reminds me of what my aroace brother went through

And as I mentioned before, Palladium is definitely a bisexual transmasc! Avalon and Valtor are gay

Icy is a mean lesbian Darcy is bi with male preference. Stormy isn't sure what exactly she is but definitely not straight.

You can def be 🌱 anon sugar!!

And yes I def agree that the most appropriate ways when it comes to hornplay(word?) is to use them as handle bars, fidgeting with them to rile up your partner or even licking and sucking also one thing idk if this is possible but like if they could make the horns vibrate by humming and have the sound travel through their body and up to their horns?🧎🏻‍♂️

I def agree that helia and flora are bi or pan! Especially helia I’m not trying to say that gay ppl have a look bc fuck stereotypes but…look at this man I wouldn’t even be surprised if helia went by he/ they

Also I can def see riven as bi. One thing I rmr disliking is how toxic his and musas relationships became I’m sorry but it was so silly to me even at that age 💀 like every other episode there was jealousy drama

Also I forgot about Naboo man he was so pretty!!! And I can def see both of them being bi!

SUGAR IM FUCKING SCREAMING BC TWLL WHY I KNEW WHO BRANDON WAS BEFORE EVEB SEARCHING IT UP MOST ANNOYIMG ASS STRAIGHT MAN

Also yes!! I 100% agre that sky is bi curios big buff dude crushes on another big buff dude

Also I really like your take on tecna! Tbh I rmr even as. Kid i could understand she did not want to be in a relationship 💀

Avalon and valtor are definitely old gays 🧎🏻‍♂️🧎🏻‍♂️

Also I like your take on the sisters! I don’t have much else to say bc lord knows they annoyed me in the show 😭

#alec answers #🌱 anon

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the-golden-ghost · 1 year

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multiples of 5 for davy bc he’s my fav(y)

5. What is your OC’s first memory?

He's 5 years old and it's one of many hideouts. It's dark. Agatha is keeping watch nearby and Davy can smell the scent of her cigarettes. Usually his job would be to keep quiet and stay out of the way and be ready to run or hide when they tell him, but tonight Osric's in a good mood. He asks Davy if he wants to hear a story, and of course, Davy is more than happy.

It isn't often he gets to sit next to one of his guardians and be spoken to like a living being, but tonight he does. He has no idea that such a thing is normal for most children. To him, it's something rare, and awe-inspiring.

10. What deadly sin would best represent your OC?

Wrath, possibly? He's not violent but he can get intensely angry, he just tries to keep it under wraps.

His main flaw is that he holds grudges which I guess would fall under wrath? He's just a bad communicator who doesn't know how to let things go

15. If your OC could have any pet, what would they choose? Why?

He has a ferret! Her name is Smudge and she's 3 years old and trained (but doesn't always listen!) He carries her around in one of his coat pockets a lot. Never leaves home without her <3

Why did he choose her I'm not sure yet! I don't know how he ended up with her, only that he did. Actually my first thought is that she was given to him as payment for a favor and he was like "what is this and what do I do with it" and then ended up loving her more than life itself, as you do

20. If they came from their world to ours (if not already in our’s) how would they react? What would they do?

He would not enjoy:

Cars (I mean the amount we have now)

The Internet

Cellular Phones

Okay he'd like wikipedia but he wouldn't like social media AT ALL

Advertising that's in everything all the time

Modern music

Actually I don't think he'd like anything. He'd be very annoyed and immediately want to go back to the desolate magical hellscape from whence he came, cause it's a far cry better than this

25. What inspired you to create them / how did you create them? Were they originally a fancharacter? What was their personality / design like when you first made them?

He went through a few iterations.

Version 1: Faith's second in command. Dull. Basically just a shy unassuming yes-man with no personality other than doing whatever Faith says and having no will of his own. Pretty much created just so she'd have someone to back her up

Version 2: PIRATE this is probably his most known iteration to date. Cold. Abrasive. Not even very good at being a pirate. Very little in the way of Piratey Charisma and Swashbuckling Yo Ho Ho Energy. He could fight but didn't want to. He didn't even really like stealing things why did I make him like this

Version 2.5: Wizard Pirate. Funny, but I lost the plot. This was where he was when I dropped it and did the reboot. He was a bit more fun in this version and less of an ice-hearted dickbag (loved his crew) but it just didn't work. My skills at combining Wizard Piracy were simply not there, and simply didn't work for Davy. He wanted to kill a god though, that was hysterical but again, Didn't Work.

Version 3: Thief and conman. Early reboot version. Didn't really work either. You really think this unassuming nerd is going to con anybody? Give me a break. He still kind of works as a thief but

Version 4: EX-THIEF just trying to find a place in the world and not die. I like this one since instead of trying to pick a trope and force him into it I'm finally just letting him exist and just be what he is. Which isn't really anything specific; he's just a weird, shadowy guy with weird, shadowy goals

30. Do they want to get married? Why or why not? Would they ever want kids? Do they have kids? Why?

He doesn't want to get married; he is aroace and understands that marriage is usually a romantic endeavor. He wouldn't want to make his spouse sad by not being what they want or need him to be.

That being said I did have it that he and Faith briefly got married for plot reasons and then divorced later? I may take it out but I think it's funny. But as to a Real Romantic Marriage, no, he wouldn't do that.

I don't know if he wants kids. He'd be a good father, but he doesn't believe he'd be a good father so he considers it out of the question. Funnily enough he had a daughter named Lydia in one of the earlier installments, but she didn't make it past the update.

35. How is your character’s imagination? Daydreaming a lot? Worried most of the time? Living in memories?

He's not very imaginative in the sense of creation or storytelling, he's a problem-solver. He figures out what needs to be done and how to get it done as easily as possible.

He does worry but it tends to be action-oriented, not just meaningless distress. Sometimes it can be too much, though. He will get an idea of something horrible that can happen, work to prevent it, get another idea, work to prevent that, and get stuck and exhaust himself trying to prevent anything from going awry rather than moving in a direction he actually needs to move.

Living in memories? God no. He forgets as much as possible. And he's good at it, too.

40. Your character is getting ready for a night out. Where are they going? What do they wear? Who will they be with?

He doesn't go out much and when he does he sticks close to Faith for the most part, or else hangs back as much as possible so as not to be observed by anyone.

He dresses well, but simply. Nothing flashy, nothing that would get him noticed. Usually he might slightly underdress just so people will think of him as not worth their time and ignore him. And, always, he is with Faith or Lilah. Very few other people have his trust.

45. If your character was given a slice of pineapple pizza and they HAD to eat it (or something bad would happen), how would they react? Do they even LIKE pineapple pizza?

He would uhhhh probably throw up. No he doesn't like pizza, pineapple or otherwise. I mean he'd eat it but he would not enjoy it

50. If your character was presented with imminent and unavoidable death/fatality, how would they react? Would they try to avoid death anyways? Would they try to make their last days count?

He'd be... depressed? He's spent his whole life trying to avoid death and has gotten himself out of more scrapes then he can count and to him it would feel like all that fighting for survival was just... meaningless.

On some level he knows it'll happen eventually and he's kind of always been expecting it, but he's only in his 20s in the story proper so that's not an especially long life. He'd try to make his last days count, sure, and he'd absolutely do everything he could to dodge fate, but it would mostly just make him sad.

#my OCs #Davy #sorry for the million page long book I just love to talk about him

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[VICE VERSA episode 5 parts 1&2]

Someone pointed this out ages ago but it suuucks that Tun’s dream is coming true and he isn’t even there for it

DAMMIT WHEN UP AND AOU GRABBED EACH OTHER’S FACES IN CELEBRATION THEY SHOULD’VE KISSED

Uh Puen, you went from “I’m not messing with you” to “ayyy thanks for the kiss it worked wonders for my script”, not a good look

Omg I loooove the director

Again, as an ace person, the “I’m not into love” “just open your heart” dialogue is a little……

THERE’S NOTHING WRONG WITH SHOUJO FFS, FRUITS BASKET IS ONE OF THE BEST MANGA OUT THERE

“It’s about a very nosy man” “you mean me?” Yes thank you Talay that was the joke

“I see you like it, so it has my attention” Puen: *d-doki*

So, uh, Puen? Here’s a lesson about love: most people in a serious relationship are open about themselves

Ugh, I understand how painful it must be for Talay to see how much distance Puen has been keeping between them

“I’ve always wanted to date younger boys” UHH–

Imagine being stuck in the wrong universe alone because the only person who made it bearable went back, fuuuuuuccckkk

“That answer means you won’t wait for me, right?” TALAAAAY ;;;;;

THE “MOUTHING WORDS” THING CAME BACK IN THE BEST AND CUTEST WAY POSSIBLE

It’s one thing to have different rules and materials but now we have proof the whole-ass /climate/ is different, good god

Someone pointed this out ages ago but it suuucks that Tun’s dream is coming true and he isn’t even there for it <<<<< yeah universe travelling pretty much sucks no matter how you look at it, because the person you switch with can either a) ruin your entire life (IM LOOKING AT YOU TESS YOU TWAT), or b) make it better, which is obviously the preferred option, but it’s still hard in a way because you weren’t there to experience and earn all that, which is also why i think tun will never really become a part of 'friend credits'

DAMMIT WHEN UP AND AOU GRABBED EACH OTHER’S FACES IN CELEBRATION THEY SHOULD’VE KISSED <<<<< IM SORRY I CANNOT SPEAK ON THIS however you are very right and no one can convince me that these two haven’t at least kissed a couple of times as practice in the past

Uh Puen, you went from “I’m not messing with you” to “ayyy thanks for the kiss it worked wonders for my script”, not a good look <<<<< king of making his life so much more difficult by hiding himself behind the ‘it’s just for my writing’ excuse!!!! but also i think it’s very important to notice that when talay points it out in the flashback puen replies “i kissed you because i felt like kissing you”. since puen is so bold, i feel like we tend to forget that he also never had a real relationship or any big experience with love before talay, so most of the time he’s just playing it by ear and learning as he goes. the kiss was such a big step forward in genuinely acting on his feelings, however he’s still gonna make a lot of mistakes, even if they come from a good place

Again, as an ace person, the “I’m not into love” “just open your heart” dialogue is a little…… <<<<< yeah unfortunately the show isn’t too aroace friendly since it’s so big on romantic love and some things come off as pretty distasteful since talay is so against it at the beginning, i just hope it’s not gonna make you too uncomfortable!!!

THERE’S NOTHING WRONG WITH SHOUJO FFS, FRUITS BASKET IS ONE OF THE BEST MANGA OUT THERE <<<<< HALLELUJAH AMEN PREACH IT FRIEND!!!!!!!!!

“I see you like it, so it has my attention” Puen: *d-doki* <<<<< I ABSOLUTELY ADORE THIS MOMENT because the show focuses way more on puen taking down talay’s walls rather than the other way around so i deeply cherish all the little scenes where you can see just how much talay is affecting puen too. puen acts so confident most of the time but as soon as talay flirts back or shows genuine interest for him he turns the puppy eyes on and he's like 'you're INTERESTED in puen? you're interested in puen for real? oh! OH! love for talay. love for talay for one thousand years!!!!!!' AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH FOR IT he is both confident and shy and likes shoujo and just wants to love and be loved AND IM SORRY FOR BEING SO DISGUSTINGLY BIASED BUT I WOULD DIE FOR HIM

“That answer means you won’t wait for me, right?” TALAAAAY ;;;;; <<<<< the way it breaks my heart to remember all the times talay expressed his fear of being left behind and how puen reassured him over and over again that he wasn’t going anywhere only to have the universe separate them anyway later on……. CURRENTLY CHEWING ON AN ENTIRE TRAY MADE OF GLASS

THE “MOUTHING WORDS” THING CAME BACK IN THE BEST AND CUTEST WAY POSSIBLE <<<<< MOST PRECIOUS MOMENT IN THE ENTIRE SHOW THE LITTLE RUN AT THE END WAS DEVASTATING. bet he spent the rest of the evening writing puen + talay all over his notebook and drawing little hearts around it

I just feel bad for Talay because it feels like he won’t allow himself to fall in love with Puen because Mr Cool Guy insists on keeping that emotional distance despite obviously being head over heels, RELATIONSHIPS NEED TWO (or more) SIDES PUEN <<<<< it’s so interesting to see how other people view the different stages of their relationship because the first time i watched the show episode 5 was actually a big turning point for me. coming from episode 4, i was still very attuned to talay’s feelings, but weirdly enough this was the moment where i started to feel puen’s honesty and understand his wish for talay to get to know him without any preconception tied to ‘puen the actor’. i do understand how closing that part of himself off and not telling talay his real name can be perceived as emotional distance though, that’s definitely valid, please don’t get me wrong!!! i’ve just never felt like it mattered that much because to me puen is letting talay know a part of himself that he hardly ever shows to anyone, the real puen, and that's what's important

#hope it doesn't look like im disregarding your opinion at the end because that's the last thing i want to do #i value your opinion and perspective on things a lot!!!!#vera and monica watch vice versa #m: ask

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what are some random papyrus headcanons you currently have?

ooughwhhghgh anon you know the EXACT way to my heart. got a map to it and everything. a real good and fancy map. the ones with sea monsters in the corners

autistic adhd papyrus real

he tends to think of anything he doesn’t understand [and even some things he does!] in terms of puzzles, since they’re a lifelong special interest and they help him contextualise things! for instance if he’s navigating someplace he’s never been before it’s easier for him to visualise things as an incomplete map that he has to find the pieces [landmarks] of than it is to just wander until he finds his way or go up to someone and ask for directions [talking to people he doesn’t know very well is also a puzzle and he has more trouble solving that one because sometimes the clues lie to you]. this approach to things makes him astoundingly good at working through things logically, although between the difficulties applying this sort of thinking to unpredictable social situations and his occasional penchant for insane troll logic he doesn’t have a 100% success rate

in addition to this he’s a really visual thinker and can understand almost anything really quickly if he has a way to visualise it, whether it’s explicitly given to him or he thinks of one himself and suddenly goes OH I GET IT NOW. anything that doesn’t come with a coherent visual metaphor is borderline impossible for him to grasp, though. dude needs his diagrams

he likes playing video games, at least when he isn’t hyperfocused on his duties as a royal guard in training, and he tends to get an insane amount of mileage out of them because once he beats whatever objective the game explicitly gives him he’ll start making up his own self-imposed challenges or ‘puzzles’ instead. like if you gave him tetris he’d be super into the standard a-type and b-type modes, but once he gets tired of those he’ll start doing stuff like trying to play in time with the music, or without rotating any pieces, or painstakingly arranging incomplete lines so that the empty spaces form some kind of intricate pattern

gloves and especially scarves are a comfort accessory for him! even before/after the battle body is a thing and he’s wearing different clothes from one day to another pretty much every outfit he wears includes those accessories. if it’s too hot for a huge warm tightly-wrapped scarf he just grits his teeth and wears it anyway

the reason pap hates grease so much is that it sets off literally every single sensory issue he has. it sticks to you when you touch it just a little, it feels just as gross through your gloves, it’s hard to wash off, it stains your favourite scarf so you have to put it through the washing machine twice to make absolutely sure it doesn’t smell weird later and stress you out again, it has a gross taste that stays in your mouth for ages, it’s just the worst! how his brother stomachs the stuff he’ll never know [and it’s not because he doesn’t have a stomach, that doesn’t mean he can’t have standards either]

papyrus knows that sans suffers from depression, and he understands what that actually means as opposed to just having a surface-level grasp on ‘sans isn’t happy as often as he should be’. the issue isn’t that he doesn’t understand or desperately want to help, he does, but the sheer magnitude of sans’ issues is just substantially more than papyrus has any frame of reference for. the best he knows how to do is to be as blisteringly positive as possible in hopes that some of it will rub off on sans, while also refusing to enable any of the lazy or blatantly self-destructive habits sans has that papyrus can tell aren’t making him feel any better. short motherfucker needs a trained therapist and/or antidepressants more than anything but papyrus is doing everything he can, and while papyrus being papyrus is already enough to keep sans going he’s helping as much as he does specifically because of the deliberate effort he makes to beat sans’ depression over the head with a bone until it runs off hissing

wow that one got long lmao sorry i just really hate when people portray papyrus as completely oblivious to sans’ problems when he’s pretty strongly hinted to understand them to at least some degree and 1. it literally makes for such a better story on both the heartwarming and crushingly tragic ends of the spectrum if pap knows and is doing his best to help 2. even if it didn’t people are still deliberately ignoring huge chunks of papyrus’ characterisation in favour of portraying him as the smol little innocent cinnamon roll uwu bean who doesn’t understand anything and y’all have got to realise the implications of forcing this personality on the most heavily autistic coded character in the game :|

on a more lighthearted note, papyrus can reluctantly but wholeheartedly appreciate a good pun or cleverly-planned prank, he just knows that sans likes getting a rise out of people with them and goes with his instinct to groan over his instinct to laugh because it makes sans happy. sans is completely aware that papyrus is doing this, so there’s an unspoken self-aware undertone to their whole routine lmao

whenever papyrus, sans, and undyne are together they have this wacky dynamic where they’re all constantly tossing the straight man role around like a hot potato and i want a dumb sitcom about the three of them living in the skeleton household that goes absolutely mental with this wacky dynamic and god damn it i’ll write it myself if i have to

papyrus gets to kin me for this one, there’s like a single phineas and ferb dvd that fell into the underground a few years ago that made its way to him in one way or another [sans probably gave it to him with no way of predicting the special interest hell [positive] he was about to unleash] and he immediately became obsessed. he can recite entire episodes from memory because he watched them so many times the audio got burned into his brain. his favourite character is doof and he considers the annoying dog his personal perry the platypus. when he gets to the surface and finds out that there’s like 200 more episodes he cries with happiness

aroace papyrus also real

it’s getting late so i’m going to leave this here but i am always down to talk about papyrus. i fuckin love papyrus so much guys

#thank you anon [mouth kisses you but very platonically and only via psychic power rather than my actual mouth]#thirteen year old papyrus in a lab coat he stole from his dad acting out doofenshmirtz scenes in a fit of goofy excitement #sans sits in a cardboard box helpfully labelled 'TRAP' and listens and occasionally says 'gkrgkgkrk'#they proceed to get in trouble for playfighting #sonic forces me to answer questions #just fucking whatever #anon

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polyhexian · 3 years

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TMI LOL

I was like a big tomboy as a kid and like a "late bloomer" as everyone used to say because I wasn't interested in boys like the rest of my peers and then I rolled into high school and at 12/13 I was like I guess I'm bi? I don't really see a difference between like, which gender I like more or whatever. And then at 14 I heard about asexuality and I was like oh, yeah, that. That sounds right. So I figured I was aroace actually at the time, mmmaybe bipan/ace but like if any of y'all were like. Also knew what asexuality was in like 2008 then haha. Oh man. Fuck AVEN. That shit was toxic as fuck. I'm glad the internet has homogenized so many experiences because ace culture ten years ago was the most toxic shit imaginable it was so rife with homophobia and elitism and essentialism fucking. Can you be a gold star ace??? God knows that was the ideal. Anyway that shit sucked but THEN I was 17 and I had no friends but a 25 year old man told me I was pretty and I was like um yeah I mean... Sex might be... Okay... I guess... Sure... Anyway that's when I started drinking too much and I finally got away from him at 19 but now I'm like, wow, I let that man shape my sexual identity and now it's a mess! And that's when I began My Slut Phase which was like two frankly insane years where I went to great lengths to acquire the most fucked up and weird stories about my sexual escapades as humanly possible. I had a three way in an anime convention bathroom. Shit was wild. I never used a condom, but I DID use a fake name and I desperately desperately hoped every encounter would end in someone hurting me, I really genuinely wanted to get murdered. Anyway I didn't! And then I got a new boyfriend I actually liked and lo and behold eventually he was like "I don't really wanna have sex if you're not gonna enjoy it and you don't look like you're enjoying it" and I'm like what the fuck. What are you talking about. Shut up. That's insane. Anyway now I'm 27 and I haven't had sex in ages and I'm not planning on it again and it's pretty dope. Also I've never had an orgasm and you can TELL reading my smut that I have no FUCKING IDEA what people are talking about and also reading smut makes me so overwhelmingly nauseous I can't breath so like I think I've reached a point in my life I like, am forced at gunpoint to admit I really just like, don't like sex, but like, what the fuck, right???

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mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune · 3 years

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My Thoughts On The Youtuber Channel “Little Light Studios”

first of all, I had to take some nice breathes in and out, to try to calm myself.

because frankly, after discovering about them, and their view on Anime...

I was pretty much peeved.

first time I found out about them about well a little bit ago,

I wanted to just look up something to listen to, like songs from Sailor Moon.

but then I saw a video that talks about how another Channel has some misinterpretation about cartoons/anime.

I had to look up the name of the video that has to do with “Anime Exposed”

to find the channel responsible.

let me say this, there are different anime in the world,

not all of them will be for kids, and it is the parents (no matter if they are a dad & mom, two mothers or two fathers or even a renny & mom or dad & renny)

responsibility to make sure that the little kids DO NOT watch some anime that is not meant for them, not until they are in the proper age to watch it.

and if I had to guess, not all humans know that the whole “star” thing

it’s called a pentagram right? it’s original meaning was of course demonetize.

but that can not be helped.

you know what is like to be hurt by a toxic religious person..?

I had been hurt by a toxic religious person before,

just because I believe in Mother as well, don’t mean they make me feel bad,

I mean I still believe in God and even Jesus.

but that Toxic Religious person I encountered a few years ago,

had no right to make me feel bad about me believing in a Goddess too,

and I’m pretty sure I did mention my gender identity as well that time.

like I said before, I still kinda still see myself as my biological-sex/gender,

but I also see myself as non-binary too.

that person had no right to misuse those words at me,

saying “may the lord have mercy on you” or it might of been “may god have mercy on you.”

I even pointed out how bad it was making me feel, and what did they do...?

they kept saying it to me again, they were making me feel really bad, hurt my feelings and making me cry, and did they care...?

if you guessed “No They Did Not”, then you will be correct.

I had to block them because of it.

also I didn’t watch the full video that talks about how wrong the source of the bad mouthing anime, because I had to look up the source, and from what I can tell.....they are toxic...

I had a really bad experience with a toxic religious person...

I don’t mind if a friend is religious or even atheist.

and I don’t believe you should force a religion to someone,

it should be of his or her or their free will to convert.

and the whole Virgin May being 12 To 14 Years Old when she had Jesus,

is obliviously a lie that HUMANS wrote.

she was 16 years old, and yes I used my pendulum to ask that question.

the one I was trying to get that very answer from, well I was trying to ask Azriel.

even if he might end up pulling a prank on me, at least it wouldn’t be a mean one, like a certain Angel, who I trusted on March, but now he has a restraining order on him, he can still help other people, but he is NOT to get too close to me......

even if I can still trust Angels, I want to remain causation around those who would try to hurt me “to make me better”

even if Angels (well Full Angels, who aren’t Earth Angels and made up both a Angel & Human Soul) are suppose to be like Good...

there is somethings that Angels should make sure to do,

and that is not cause emotional harm or let emotional harm befall someone too many times after they had gotten better from another bad feeling.

I don’t believe that Angels should just ignore this very important thing,

yes there are duties can be important, but you can not neglect the emotion of the heart/soul of the very beings you are trying to help.

or let some Youtube Channel like “Little Light Studios”

just assume things about Anime.

perhaps once I do cool down a little more, I will try to fully watch that video, where they will possibly bad mouth Anime....

I am a bit more fine than I was starting to feel when I found out about that channel.

it’s no wonder I am Semi-Misanthrope.

at least not all religious people are like that, and don’t take some Anime or Cartoons the wrong way.

another thing that humans should know, is that before Anime....

that disgusting stuff that was mention, was around even before technology.

and humans should not place the blame unless it is something like a certain Movie that one of the heads of Netflix refuse to get it off there, because of the age of the main character of the said movie, and even if I haven’t watched it,

just looking up the info on it, tells me how sick and filthy the man is who refuses to make it go away....

also because of a animated story on Youtube I had watched before,

that has to do with what happen to a girl, and how her mother had to take care of the new baby, and had to wait to tell the said baby girl the truth of what went down.....

I wanted to pray a blessing of protection for all the children who suffer from what that girl did....

even if it might seem mean and might be a bit cruel to some humans....

but hoping those who even try anything, will get a bad tummy ache and a headache, so they wont be able to do anything really bad, is best than hoping worse for them....even if ya might have those thoughts just a little bit, ya try to bury them deep deep DEEP down....

I do hope that maybe other people will pray for a blessing of protection for children too, there was more to what I was asking for, but I rather not say what it is....

but even if there are good people in religion,

there have been some really bad people in it,

that have done unforgivable stuff.

most of them being Priests, who are equally as bad as some Scoutmasters and those who work under them...

maybe I should try to do some meditation after I play my Xbox,

it might help...maybe...?

I know there can be different levels of toxic-religious people,

if someone is semi-toxic religious, then it means they aren’t as bad as the full kind of toxic religious person.

I know I can’t tell my family that I’m not Christian, after discovering that.

it turns out I am both a Ma-Acolyte & Neo-Christian.

I can’t tell my family I am Ficto-Aroaceflux (or just Aroaceflux for short)

I did try to tell my Mom, well first I wanted to hear her thoughts on Asexuals.

but she misunderstand that all Asexuals are Gay,

not like there is anything wrong with that.

but all Aces are different, some will have a double sexual/romantic identity.

like some who are Aces, will be either Biromantic or Panromantic or even Omniromantic....or will just be Ace or Aceflux or Aroace or Aroaceflux.

plus I had discovered that my species identity is Demi-Human.

anyway I did want to tell my Mom, that I am Asexual Flux...

but her view and misunderstanding about all Asexuals being Gay,

and I know the bad view of those who are....

another thing to know is that even someone who is Ace,

can be Heteroromantic, I guess it would be like Heteroromantic-Ace...?

I know there is that whole toxic view thing, sometimes when you are a kid

you grow-up believe it to be true, until you start to learn and see the view you were told was wrong, was something that was not really wrong at all.

but sometimes, you can’t tell your family they are wrong, because you become scared of them hating you or giving you disapproval if you try to come out of the Ace Closet.

I am in the Ace Closet, and can only be open about it online.

I did try to come out of the Ace Closet, to try to tell family,

but because of the obvious disapproval, I had to hide the fact that I am Asexual

and try to drop it.

I even had to hide in my room, where I had cried.

my feelings were hurt, I was lucky I didn’t end up crying in the room where I was trying to ask my Mom about her thoughts about Asexuality.

I can’t ever EVER tell my family that I am Aroaceflux, or about my new religious belief or my gender identity or my newly discovered species identity.

I know that they wouldn’t approve.

I was curious, so I decided to ask if Solomon approves of my identities

(as in the whole Gender, Species and Aroaceflux Identity.)

well according to my pendulum, he doesn’t.

well he ain’t the boss of me, well I might technically be his daughter,

like any other of his descendants....

but he misused his power, just like his dad....

and when I say “daughter” I mean being his Descendant Granddaughter.

when I was watching a Anime, I started to really think about the meaning of Grandparents and Grandchildren.

your Grandparents, are still in a way, a Parent to you, even if they didn’t bring you into the world, they are still technically your Parents too, and so are your Ancestors, just in a different way from the ones who brought you into world,

and or who adopted you.

Solomon is a Butt, just because he is my Ancestor-Grandfather,

don’t mean I can’t see him as being a butt...

I can’t help but wonder if his actions will affect his own descendants...

which sadly I am one of them, and if I was allowed and able to...

I would kick his sorry butt...

the only good thing about being his Descendant-Daughter,

is that I will NEVER take the throne, and after the stuff that went on before...

I rather never have anything to do with taking the throne, and be happy to be biologically female, so being his descendant, being born biologically female is in a way, a super blessing.

I’m pretty sure some info I had heard about before,

is that it is only the MALE descendants can take the throne,

but it can’t be the descendants of Solomon.

Best. News. Ever....of All Time.

after talking about Solomon (and possibly the other stuff before him.)

I had the need to listen to Lily Allen’s Song F**k You.

maybe that tarot card reading that creepily did mention about Gemini having Royalty in The DNA, was right....maybe in a way I am breaking a cycle from my ancestors....them mentioning some names I know, was kind of scary.

I wish not to say the names that was mention, it was way too real there.

I wonder if it would be either funny or ironic,

that a biological female descendant of King David and Solomon,

would end up playing the song “F**k You, By Lily Allen”

Lady Godiva is the Better Ancestress.

it is just my view, not everyone has to agree about it.

but I am ashamed of those two for different reasons.

one King David, didn’t freaking punish his sicko of a son

who had hurt his own daughter, and if Grandpa King David had what we have now, he would get in big trouble for not punishing his sicko of a son.

oh and let’s not forget that he was coming on to a married woman,

who he ended up killing the husband of the said woman.

and even if Grandpa King Solomon, did end up meeting Grandma Naamah.

which I’m not really sure if it is true that Asmodeus did have a hand in it by accident that those two met....

but even after meeting Grandma Naamah, he could of just gave that ring back from where it came, the misuse of power is too great.

plus I do worry such power that he had on his person 24/7,

may have imprinted into his DNA and cause it to accidentally be inherited by his children and his children’s children and so on and so forth.

But I think I might just be a bit paranoid about that.

I got enough to worry about with the whole Asmodeus thing....

plus with the readings that the sign for Gemini keeps getting.

I should try not to worry about it, and well to be honest....

I might have had him on my mind WAY too much, maybe since 2020.

I try not to think about it too much, and try to think logically.

knowing that it has to be a trick and well maybe it is a good thing not a lot of people believe that he and some other being exist.

after listening to Lily Allen’s Song, I decided to listen to something else.

I am listening to Into The Night By Santana feat-Chad Kroeger.

I hope toxic-religious people don’t try to find something wrong with that song.

I am not having any of that.

and I sure as of a Mother of a Dastard, ain’t gonna let no toxic-religious person

say that something really bad about the Ghost Rider Movies.

(you don’t have to like the movie, but don’t dislike it because it has some stuff in it that some will view as “the work of the devil”....)

yeah it has some man in it that was suppose to be some “Devil”

that the guy who becomes the Ghost Rider, makes a deal with.

but it was so his dad would get better, but the deal had a twist.

but the power that was given to him,

turned out to be from a ANGEL who went bananas crazy.

plus the boy in the second movie who ended up being the son/vessel

of his so called “demon dad” but that doesn’t mean that the boy had to be just like him, and he did the right thing by returning the power back to the man who is known as the Ghost Rider.

I like both the first and second movie of Ghost Rider, and I hope there will be another one someday.

I should try to do some stuff to take my mind off of jerks that end up peeving me off when they are either the normal type of jerk or the toxic-religious type jerk.

sometimes those types can bring the worse out on someone.

I wasn’t even planning to talk about this stuff tonight,

I just wanted to play on my Xbox, even play more of Mass Effect,

and even watch some stuff on my Xbox as well.

I did NOT need to find out the bull that is going on with that Little Light Studios.

those who are subscribe to them,

don’t have to agree with me being disgusted by well what I had found out.

I know you can’t make everyone see reason,

if you are born into a super toxic religious family,

and you end up being well having a different sexuality or gender identity,

than what you are expected to be.

sometimes, it is safer in the closet....

even though my feelings were really hurt, when I knew I couldn’t tell my Mom about me being Ace (well Aroaceflux ) and I had to keep it a secret and keep it together and acting like nothing was wrong, then going back in my bedroom and letting myself cry.

I know others have it way worse, even if I did come out of the Ace Closet to my Mom, it is likely she might still love me but will try ways to “fix” me...

maybe try to get me dates, with some guys I don’t know and might not feel comfortable being alone with because of well, I did mention I do have

Semi-Androphobia & Virginitiphobia.

a few years ago I did have a panic attack while in the car.

it was a little dark, and I was alone and it was when we were getting ready to move to the house we live at now.

I was scared of certain stuff happening.

even during the day, I don’t like being left along in the car.

I mean I could go inside the store, but I don’t feel like doing that very much.

I think I am doing a bit better since that panic attack happen.

I think my Virginitiphobia has become a Semi-Virginitiphobia too.

so maybe it is a improvement.

and if there is some form of therapy for Virginitphobia,

even though I still have my V-Card, I know I wouldn’t want to go through Exposure Therapy for Virginitiphobia.

I don’t think I can trust that, maybe the talking it out maybe...

but that exposure therapy, I am not sure I would trust it.

even if it is true some use a virtual reality

(I tried to look up how it is done, and one of the info had something about virtual....)

I wouldn’t fully trust it.

even those who still have the V-Card and have Virginitiphobia, can still be cautious, even when it comes to therapist, who might want to use the exposure therapy.

what sucks is that some, think that type of fear is a mental illness.

anyway, I don’t think I am a very big fan of Little Light Studios.

when I can I will try to watch the full video that I had found that belongs to them, that talks about Anime.

but once again, before Anime, and even technology.

back in the stupid ages,

there were humans who have done sick and twisted stuff.

just like how Grandpa King David’s Sicko of a Son hurt Auntie Tamar.

worst daddy ever, of all time.

and Grandpa Solomon ain’t no better....

I guess maybe, I am glad I had admitted to the whole Asmodeus thing,

but I am trying to not to think about too much and try not to be tricked.

I guess some might take it really seriously or tell me I have nothing to worry about, and it will stop soon....well I am gonna hope that there is nothing to worry about and it will stop soon.

I don’t mind the fictional versions of him so much, and well I am gonna just try not to think of well ya know.

plus even if there are other Gemini who might be going through a different thing, that has to do with some guy or gal or other, who is romantically interested in them but they are trying to push that kind of persons away, because it is likely they just gonna hurt them and break their hearts.

if by chance, some of those readings do match some Geminis but not all Geminis....

I rather think that if half of those do match me, it is most likely a trick and a way for me to be tricked by Asmodeus.

the best thing I can do, is try to make sure to take my mind off of well that stuff.

and maybe check on the readings for Gemini, and hope it does show that it turns out it has been a trick the whole time and I was in the right to try to ignore it and try not to fall into a trap.

I am NOT being a Tsundere, just to be clear.

and yeah at times, he has been on my mind, I think it started sometime around 2020, and I want to try to hope for the best that it is just some form of trick and I can just try to take my mind off of it.

I can’t talk to my family about it either, I guess I could pray for some kind of sign about the whole thing...but I think I will wait until tomorrow or the day after tomorrow to ask that kind of thing.

I even started to worry that the reason no bird had moved into the bird house,

is because of Asmodeus, and I started to remember another time when I was a little girl, when we had pet birds and they died too soon.

I kind of want to hope and pray that either a crow or raven move into the bird house.

maybe I am just being paranoid about whole bird thing, I mean it takes time and I just gotta try to be patient.

I just need to try not to be tricked and I need to try not to let toxic-religious people get to me so much either.

maybe I should wait a few days or maybe a week, before I try to watch any video by Little Light Studios.

I have only known that channel for a short time, because I had only found out about them tonight....but I still don’t like it.

not all anime/cartoons will be for children,

some will be for everyone, but some will not be.

some really mature stuff, needs to be hidden away from little kids,

and try to explain to them that they are too young to see it.

and making sure to hide it really good, so they can’t find it.

oh and this is what had kind of freaked me out

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jb-7BO-Yjwg

it is still a good reading, but some stuff that was said, did freak me out.

I mean I am a Gemini and I am a descendant of Royalty.

but I am pretty sure there are other Geminis who saw that, who might be descendants of royalty too.

I am just gonna try to hope that reading was about a different Gemini who is a descendant of royalty.

even if they said “You Are Next In Line To The Throne.”

I don’t want it....Nope, No Thank You.

Fudge This Cheese I’m Out.

the reading was still good and interesting

(still was freaky to me because of reasons.)

but at least the person who did the reading, isn’t a bad person.

or a super toxic religious person.

I think I should try to make sure to take off my mind off of those Little Light Studios.....

even if someone does point out about some stuff on Anime,

like there are some Anime and even Cartoons,

that are not for little kids, and parents should know that fact.

and if you were a little kids when you were exposed to some mature stuff in movies, once you get older, you get the knowledge that let’s you figure out

that you were too young to watch some stuff you were not suppose to.

so you try to make sure the same mistake doesn’t happen again.

I try to keep any M Rated Video Games and Movies or Shows,

away from little cousins.

I have my reason to want to keep my guard up when it comes to both demons and angels....and I don’t just mean the fallen angels.

I’m just gonna try to take my mind off of that Youtube Channel

that peeved me off.

I at first wanted to talk about that whole Youtube Channel,

but I started to talk about some other stuff too.

like admitting about the whole Asmodeus thing, but I am doing my best to try to keep my mind on other stuff.

anyway I’m gonna just go back to what I was going before finding out about that Little Light Studios, I don’t think they would care about how they might of not only peeved me off, but others as well.

I still think it is best that I wait maybe a few days, maybe until June,

to try to fully watch their video that talks about Anime.

I love Anime, but I will try to fully watch their video, even if it might end up peeving me off.

either later or tomorrow, I will try to do some relaxing meditation while listening to music.

I’m gonna hope the next time I sign in, I can just check out some stuff on here and or work on and post the Undertale AU idea I came up with

that’s called The Journal Of Chara.

I don’t feel like trying to write the next chapter now, for obvious reasons.

another thing I should try to keep my mind off of,

is the whole Pepe Le Pew thing, of course some humans aren’t gonna mention the times he has been a victim at times, or the fact that Amy Rose or Fifi La Fume are just like him in a way.

sure Amy has gotten better, the Sonic Boom version of her and the Sonic from that series, is one of my OTP’s.

I really hope that Pepe and even Fifi, are rebooted to keep them safe.

anyway I best go before I make this any longer....

and try to keep my mind off of what I found out about, which had to do with that whole thing about “Exposing Anime.”

see ya later, stay safe and hope you all understand my feelings about all that.

the next time I sign in, I hope to just check out some stuff on here,

and post up some drawings or just write the next chapter of my AU-Story.

PS:

I want to play it safe,

so I put mature warning for one of the tags for this.

and I really will try to watch the full videos of Little Light Studios....

that talk about the Anime.

just not now, I am still peeved towards them, so it’s best that I wait until next month to try to fully watch any of their videos.

I want to try to stay away from their videos, until maybe a week or more.

#toxic religious people #so annoying #misanthropy #phobia #mature warning

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otherpeoplesheartachept-2 · 6 years

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A Not-So-Classic Fairy Tale

(Carry On Countdown Day 14)

(SnowBaz)

Length: 1,607 words

Genre: fairy tale, ???

Trigger Warnings: There’s some alcohol use but not like black out drunk or anything

(Ok so I feel like I need to explain for this to make sense; it’s like Beauty and the Beast but Agatha is Belle, Simon is Gaston, and Baz is Lefou Ok? Ok.)

Once upon a time, in the far away land of Watford, where magic and curses and dragons were real, there lived a girl. Her name was Agatha. She was beautiful and fair. She had long blonde hair, and stunning green eyes. Her magic was clean and pretty, it resembled daisy’s in a field and pink, soft velvet. Practically all the men (and some of the women) in the quaint village wished she were theirs. Especially a certain lad by the name of Simon Snow.

Simon was golden. The town was as infatuated with him as they were with Agatha. Though he had started life as a poor orphaned child with nothing to his name, he quickly became a favorite among the townsfolk. He was a hero, strong, powerful, and full of heart. He had bronze hair and tan skin; a galaxy of moles and freckles. His magic was explosive, like green smoke. It felt like a super-nova: too much all at once and impossible to control.

It made sense, in a classic fairy tale sort of way, that the pair would end up together. The hero boy and the pretty maiden girl. But Simon had been chasing her for a while. Presenting her with flowers, showing off his sword tricks, talking to her about how adorable their children would be.

None of it worked however. Agatha, though there was probably not an accurate term for it at the time, was Aromantic. She had no intentions of settling down with Simon Snow; in fact, she had no intentions of settling down with anyone. Agatha wished she could hide away somewhere else, with only her father and her best friend, Penelope.

Unfortunately Simon was completely oblivious to Agatha’s feelings. But he was oblivious to a lot of things. Including his own feelings at times. The biggest thing he over looked thought, was Basilton, his friend. Their relationship had started with hate, Basilton coming from a wealthy family in Egypt and Simon being an orphan and caused many disputes between the boys.

Now, Basilton was Simon’s most loyal companion and trusted friend. He was tall with long black hair, usually pulled into a small pony tail, and had dark skin. His magic swift and graceful, he loved using fire. Basilton, did not fit well into the perfect fairy tale story arc however. He had more than platonic feelings for Simon. Basilton repressed these emotions because he knew that stories never end with the price and the price. He also knew his friend was head over heels in love with Agatha (and he was fairly certain Simon Snow was not interested in other men).

One fateful day, Simon had proposed to Agatha. He’d asked Basilton to help set up something magical, literally. The ‘show’ was spectacular. It consisted of roses and fireworks, a whole orchestra, and a heart of fire with Simon in the center holding a ring. Agatha was more interested in the spell Basilton had used for the fireworks than the ring in Simon’s hand. She, as kindly as she possibly could, refused his offer of marriage, and retreated to her cottage.

Simon, left in the aftermath of his confession with nothing to show for his effort, felt distraught. He didn’t understand why Agatha didn’t love him. He didn’t understand why things weren’t working out like he always thought they would. Defeated, he sulked to the town square and decided ale might help his mood. As he sat on a stool, Basilton spotted him.

“So… how did it go…? Eh? Should I write the minister? Request he arrive early tomorrow?” Basilton nudged his friend, surely the pair would be happily wed within the week. He pushed his personal opinions of that away and focused on being a supportive friend. If Simon was happy, Basilton could be happy.

“Cut it out, will ya?” Simon, sighed, feeling as if salt was being rubbed in his wound, even though he knew the mans intentions were pure.

“Aw, why Snow, did the golden girl turn you down?” He inquired, half mockingly, half confused/concerned.

“Yes, she did so can you please drop it?” Basilton’s playful smile instantly dropped.

“Oh Simon-” he sat next the other man, “-I had no idea, I’m sorry I would not have said that i-”

“It’s fine Baz, how were you to know?” Simon leaned into his companion as Basilton put a comforting arm around him. “I mean what’s wrong with me? Huh Basilton? Is it my looks, my magic? She rejected me. Humiliated me. Why?”

“Snow. It disturbs me to see you like this, “He turned to face the other man, “looking so down and distraught.” He took his shoulders, “look around-” Basilton gestured to the others in the bar, “Every guy here would love to be you Snow. Even if your magic is a mess.“ He teased.

“Everyone’s inspired by you, you’re the towns favorite guy.” Basilton stood up. “Honestly Agatha must be blind, ‘cause it’s not hard to see why.” Simon smiled at his friends attempt to cheer him up.

“Basilton, you can stop.” He pressed the darker mans shoulder.

“Stop!? Preposterous, I won’t hear of it!” Simon blushed. “Look at you! Bronze skin, blue eyes, no ones compares to your looks!”

“Seriously Baz, enough” This only made Basilton get louder.

“Your magic is unmatched! Your sword skills impeccable! Not to mention your punches!” He playfully hit Simon's arms. Basilton was on the verge of shouting and Simon, with the help of alcohol, decided to let loose.

“As a specimen, yes, I’m intimidating!” He mockingly declared and took a bow.

“My, what a guy!” Basilton gestured to his friend, the whole bar now paying attention to the popular, if not odd, pair.

“Simon Snow is the best!” He exclaimed. “And the rest are a mess.” He whispered to Simon.

Basilton continued lavishing his companion with compliments, trying to boost his confidence and also finally expressing some of his feelings inadvertently. The pair becoming more obnoxious and drunk as time passed. Basilton ended his stream of flattering remarks with,

“And his name’s” He drawled, “S-I-M-O-N S-wait.” He giggled, leaning on Simon for support. “What’s nest-next? S-O-W-N…? No no s-w… whatever. Simon Snow!!” And everyone cheered.

As the intoxicated pair laughed with each other, Simon remembered why Basilton was trying to cheer him up and became upset again.

“Basilton, thank you, but all this boost-boo-boosting my self-esteem isn’t gonna make Agatha love me. Face it, no one will love me.” Simon sunk into a chair.

“Now Snow,” Basilton whispered in the crowded room. “We know that isn’t true.”

“You can stop lying to make me feel better, Basilton.” Simon’s head hung.

“Snow, you could have anyone in this world you want, stop being so hung up on Wellbelove.”

“I know, I know it’s dumb I just-” Simon stopped, staring into Basilton’s gray eyes.

During the mage’s dramatic telling of Simon’s likable traits, the boy had realized some things.

At first he realized how lucky was to have Basilton as a friend, he was willing to make a fool of himself in public just to cheer Simon up.

Then he realized that no matter how many things Basilton found to praise him, Simon was still not good enough for Agatha, and he would never be as good as Basilton. Sure Simon was popular and ‘the most powerful magician alive’ but he couldn’t control his magic and he stuttered. Basilton however, was flawless in practically everything. His magic was powerful and controlled. His fighting skills, be it fencing, boxing, you name it, were refined and breathtaking to watch. In fact, Simon realized, everything about his friend Basilton was breathtaking. His tall figure, gorgeous hair, dark skin, even his quick wit and sarcastic comments made Simon envy him all the more.

Until, Simon came to his third and last realization: He had feelings for Basil, romantic feelings. At first he thought is absurd, Simon had never found himself attracted to another male, but as he thought on it more, it made a lot of sense to him. So when his friend had finished his ‘performance’ of sorts Simon realized there were now two people he had wanted that he could never have.

“Anyone you say?” Simon asked with a sliver of hope buried under miles of doubt.

Basilton unsure of where he was going with this reassured, “Yes Snow, anyone.”

Timidly, yet characteristically brave, Simon asked in a low voice, “A-any one? Even, even yo-you?”

Basilton looked into the eyes of the boy he longed for, sure that this was his drunk mind play tricks on him. He touched the smaller boys chin, rubbing his thumb over his favorite mole. Basilton didn’t understand how the great Simon Snow could want him, but he wasn’t lying when he said the boy could get anyone.

Slowly, carefully, Basilton leaned in until their foreheads were touching. “Yes, Simon, especially me.” And with that Simon Snow was kissing Basilton Pitch.

The men had started courting each other. It was awkward at first, with the town being a little disappointed the Golden Pair wasn’t as “meant to be” as previously thought, yet they weren’t exactly surprised at the news of Basilton and Simon.

Eventually Basilton did write the minister, this time to officiate his own marriage to Simon Snow, not Agatha’s.

Eventually, Agatha did hide away with Penelope. She had had enough of the small town and their small ways, so she decided to leave. Her and her closest friend traveled until they came upon an old enchanted castle, but that is another story, for another time.

And so they all lived happily ever after.

The End.

I have a lot of things to say in this authors note. 1st can we all admit that the scene in Beauty and the Beast where Gastons friend (Lefou) does a whole musical number to cheer up his friend is a little gay. Like just a little bit gay. 2nd This was all me just shamelessly plugging my hc that Agatha is aroace. 3rd adding on to that, can we have more classic style fairy tales with a-spectrum main characters? Please?4th I’m sorry for the cheesy title but I can’t think of anything better. 5th I’m actually proud of myself for this plot idea and this is the most I’ve written so far for any countdown prompt. Ok I think that’s all sorry for my rambling.

#day 14 #coc 2017 #carry on countdown 2017 #carry on countdown #carry on #carry on fanfic #fanfiction #snowbaz #fairy tale #fairy tale retellings #snowbaz fanfiction #simon snow #baz pitch #tyrannus basilton grimm pitch #beauty and the beast #gaston #lefou

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ol-razzle-dazazzle · 6 years

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All the gay asks bc you made me do all of them

OWO thank you I love you1. describe your idea of a perfect dateAll of them??? Kakhiwkdkalgr walking around the beach or going to a bookstore or maybe a forest to chill or an abandoned place for a spooky date??? Movie date??? Ocean date??? Marriage date??? All good!!! Crab catching would certainly be on the agenda though. The oceans the best2. whats your “type”My type? Uhh anyone that’s nice to me lmao. Someone i can joke with and I know that cares about me. Quiet on the outside but like, nurturing and fun when you get to know em. Someone that doesn’t let people treat em like garbage because i yearn to be like that. On a side note I’m not sure why but most people i used to tend to have crushes on were ISFJs (or ESFJs) probably because they fit the criteria above. I don’t really like people that are totally my personality, and I think it’s important to not surround yourself with yes people or people that vehemently disagree with you. And communication! V important In terms of looks though? The kinds of girls I’m attracted to vary a lot actually. Buff girls soft girls tall girls short girls thin girls medium girls big tiddy little tiddy it’s all good. I guess I tend to prefer girls that aren’t white (not in a fetishistic way of course it’s just most girls that I’ve had crushes on or knew that were gay that were white just had really bad personalities and that brand of White Feminism™️ sorry if I worded this poorly) brown or black hair I guess? Just someone that doesn’t look like me adjnrujbslltgbk. Also someone I can squish and hug nicely. Of course I think there’s a lotta bullshit with people limiting themselves to only a few criteria and the racism or body type discrimination is total bullshit. Fetishisation is just as bad. There’s just so many cute girls out there why be a shitlord to people y’know? 3. do you want kids?Later on in life, if my partner would then yeah sure why not. I hate babies though so I would...4. if you do, will you adopt or use some other form of child birth?Adopt definitely. I’d personally prefer to adopt a kid that’s older, because they have a less chance of being chosen and I want them to be raised in a loving environment. 5. describe the cutest date you’ve ever been onI’ve never been on an actual date ;v; but tbh any date I’d have with my gf would automatically top the list6. describe your experience having sex for the first time (were you nervous? or was it easy peasy?)I’ve never had sex so I got no gosh dang clue aside from fantasies, which I would be nervous as heck but ultimately want to be as adoring as possible and kisses everywhere7. are you a morning time gay or night time gay?Mornings when you don’t have to go to things are amazing and beautiful but otherwise afternoon or night time gay. Anything that isn’t midday is good though8. opinion on nap dates?I’d be down for it. Sleeping is great, but cuddling and sleeping? Even better! Doesn’t matter for how long but yes! Good shit!!! 9. opinion on brown eyes?Only the most beautiful thing ever??? Brown and black eyes being ugly is a government lie, they are gorgeous. Black eyes just have that deep obsidian stare and like an adoring cat with dialated pupils you just want to hug, and brown eyes??? When the light hits them or you’re staring into them? Beautiful galaxies my dude. 10. dog gay or cat gay?I love dogs but I would never own one unless my partner wanted one. They’re just not a companion I prefer to cats. Cats are very good and fluffy and compact in comparison to dogs. Dogs are amazing though and I need to pay every one I see. 11. would you ever date someone who owned rodents or reptiles?Dude we already planned to live in a pseudo-barn to have crabs, rats, bats, cats and lizards 12. whats a turn off you look for before you start officially dating someoneSomeone who’s very ‘my way or the high way’. (My mum’s a lot like this and it’s caused me to try to constantly be appeasing. But with my mental illness I’ve gotten a lot more irritated by it.) Or someone that is a bit too mean I’m joking about people to the point where you don’t know if they’re serious. (I have this problem a lot with ‘friends’ and it leads to a lot of doubts and depression.) Also highly argumentative people who want to seem better than you and debate everything you say. (Just...ew.)13. what is a misconception you had about lgbt people before you realized you were one?I live in a homophobic family, so I used to think gay was a swear word lmao. I was told that we were unnatural, burning in hell, hypersexual, all that shit. Issues on trans people were even worse, and back when I considered the possibility of me being a trans man (while I experience dysphoria In my body I don’t think I would ID as a man- at the time I didn’t know what agender identities were) I was made to feel like it was the worst thing ever or that it didn’t exist that everyone was just straight and ‘normal’ 14. what is a piece of advice you would give to your younger selfDon’t pretend you’re aroace to hide who you are, you’re autistic but that’s okay just don’t overwhelm yourself, try to do things to the best you can. Also toxic feminity/masculinity is bullshit don’t feel guilty about wearing anything. You’re gay it’s so much easier now and don’t let people dictate of make you defend yourself 15. (if attracted to more than one gender) do you have different “types” for different genders?Lmao nah. There is always that awkward moment when you think you see a hot butch but then he’s a twink. Bamboozled again. 16. who is an ex you regret?A few years ago I was forced into a relationship with some rude ass dude who ignored that I ID’d as aroace at the time. I guess at the time I had some comp het so I think that’s why I went along with it? It was kinda some toxic shit like nothing nsfw but he was just a huge dick that went off at the slightest disagreement and I’m glad I got rid of that trash lmao17. night club gay or cafe gay?Cafe gay by far!!! Well I’ve never been to a night club, but I’m someone who gets overwhelmed by loud noises and people, so it wouldn’t be the place for me. Cafes are relaxing18. who is one person you would “go straight” forNo one lmao, The only possibility of slightly me becoming straight is like a fictional character19. video game gay, book gay, or movie gay?Books and video game gay! There needs to be more gaymes, but books are good I just have less time to read them as opposed to gaymes which I can do whenever 20. favourite gay ship (canon or not)Probably RenMerry from Touhou! These two mean a lot to me, and got me into the series that helped me realise I was a lesbian! These two just work so well together that I strive to have a relationship like that- a slightly bickery old couple with the freshness of new adventure tied together with a love that will never fade away even as it transcends borders~21. favourite gay youtuberDon’t really have one. I’m not really into the British youtuber scene and the ones that I do sub don’t really talk about their sexuality or not (I think sailor j might be bi? But that’s about it) I usually watch comedy channels or vocaloid covers. Actually Oktavia’s Gay, yeah let’s go with her. Her voice is amazing and made me realise how much I love deep voices22. have you ever unknowingly asked out a straight person?Ahbkowejkboesh I’ve had crushes on straight people that I’ve wanted to hang out with but no of course not I’m too shy for that shit23. have you ever been in love?Yes! And I’m still doing so right now! 24. have you ever been heartbroken?While in a relationship? No. But like the whole ‘falling in love with a straight girl senpai and then everyone tells her that you have a crush on her which causes you to be distant to each other leading you to cry copiously at her graduation and never truly repairing your friendship which is all you ever wanted and never being able to talk to her again?’ ...y yeah 25. how do you determine if you want to be them or be with someoneHonestly I try to make a distinction between ‘people I have crushes on’ and ‘people I would date’ bc yeah someone might be cute but dating is another story. I’m someone who varies a lot in style (as someone who may possibly be gender fluid or agender but hasnthad the opportunity to explore that for family reasons) 26. favourite lgbt musician/bandUhhh Queen I guess? Idk I need more gay shit recommend me please. Queen is quality shit though 27. what is a piece of advice you have for young / baby gaysDon’t ever feel the need to apologise or defend you being gay. Be happy even if other people aren’t about you. If you’re autistic chances are you’ll question your identity, don’t worry about it and just love who you love. If you’re a lesbian especially don’t apologise or feel you have to be in a certain role to ‘be truly gay’ and also please ask people out otherwise you’ll never get anywhere- all lesbians are useless and I got lucky shjgowkgowlgr. But above all, don’t feel guilty and have fun exploring yourself and fleshing our who you are, even if you can’t always show that out loud. 28. are you out? if so how did you come outI’m not out to any family member (I say that I’m aroace but they believe I’m straight despite jokes on the contrary) but pretty much everyone that isn’t a complete stranger knows. I can’t help but talk adoringly over my girlfriend so it just happens. Otherwise I go on some spheal about homophobic bullshit dropping hints that I’m gay before saying I’m gay. It’s led to some shittalking and other various bullshit but I don’t give a fuck anymore 29. what is the most uncomfortable / strange coming out experience you have Believing I was aroace and my friends saying that i was in denial of being gay. I was like ‘lmao Domi’s just a friend I lowkey have a crush on her but she’s just being nice :^)’ then like a week later burst through the door like BITCH GUESS WHOS GAY FOR HER GIRLFRIEND 30. what is a piece of advice for people who may not be in a safe place to express their sexualityEvaluate the consequences of coming out. While I live in a homophobic family, Australia is somewhat accepting and there’s no conversion therapy to my knowledge at least (there are highly fundamentalist Christian groups but I’m not sure if they include forms of violence) Especially if you are in an anti-gay country or an area where you could be persecuted, I think it’s important to be out to at least one person you know who supports you. It could be online or a friend that you know you could trust (if you don’t know if you could try subtly bring it up and see their reaction, but better safe than sorry.) because it’s hard to go through this entirely alone. While it’s important to be unapologetic of who you are, it’s more important to protect yourself- this doesn’t make you wrong, but the people who make you feel wrong wrong.

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artlessictoan · 7 years

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Unrequited – SakuTema

ok this one is way longer than i was planning whoops i live for awkward tema and mutual pining it’s a modern au setting, kinda funny but also kinda sad, also featuring aroace shika.. bc why not

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“You know you could just say something to her, right?” Shikamaru said nonchalantly, blowing a smoke ring towards the sky, she exasperatedly swatted it away.

“You know you’re the last person I’d ever go to for love advice, right?” Temari glared at him for a brief second, before her gaze habitually skittered away, back to the gorgeous woman hunched over on a bench, using her lap as a desk as she scribbled furiously onto some form or another.

She’d been watching for a while now, Shikamaru had called her a stalker when he found out she’d been following the woman during their breaks at work – even though it would be far easier to just go to the break room like all the other doctors, Sakura seemed to prefer walking the short distance to the nearby park, to sit on this specific bench, under a heavy, ancient oak tree’s canopy, taking with her whatever work she could carry from the hospital – but even calling her every name for ‘creepy’ under the sun hadn’t been enough to stop him tagging along today.

It was creepy, she knew that, but she consoled herself with the knowledge that she wasn’t going to ever do anything, other than watch.

She just wanted to keep an eye on her, make sure she didn’t stay out too long, the day was cold and there was a thickness to the air that suggested rain, not that Sakura seemed to care, wrapped in her thick raincoat. She couldn’t even begin to describe why she found it so endearing, that the woman was so stubborn in this little habit of hers, but it made her heart flutter regardless.

Next to her, Shikamaru groaned, slumping even further down in his seat, so much that he might as well just be sitting on the damp floor. “Couldn’t do any worse than you.”

Temari didn’t even need to look to idly smack at his chest, so instead she kept her eyes fixed on the doctor instead. That beautiful, pale pink hair that had been so carefully tied back this morning, was starting to slip from its ponytail, the short strands that fell into her face getting absently tucked behind an ear, barely breaking her concentration as she juggled the files and clipboards on her lap.

She was nothing if not a hard worker, it was one of the things Temari most admired about her.

Not the only thing of course, there was also her intelligence, even as a recent graduate, she was respected by the hospital veterans, who often asked for her thoughts on their cases. And she had an incredible bedside manner, the way she could coax a smile from a nervous child and calm even the testiest of patients was utterly incomprehensible to Temari – who had gained a reputation as the most insensitive administrative manager the world had ever seen among her colleagues.

She was determined, she was practical, she was sharp and she was kind; basically, she was Temari’s perfect woman.

Except for the part where she didn’t know she existed.

Well, perhaps that was going a bit far, they’d spoken at least twice, and sometimes she would even smile at her in the hallways, a kind of smile that made Temari have to stop and clutch at her heart for a good minute or so after, gasping for a breath stolen by that woman who must be some kind of avatar of Spring and Hope and Beauty.

So, she knew she existed, she just didn’t care was all. So much better.

“You know if you keep glaring like that, she’s gonna start thinking you hate her.” And, once again, Shikamaru’s voice shattered her wonderful daydream, where a beautiful, pink-haired woman was getting down on one knee and declaring her sudden, undying love.

“I’m not glaring,” she snapped, feeling her cheeks starting to burn horribly and mentally blaming it on the cold.

He raised an unimpressed eyebrow. “You sure about that?”

“Ugh! Just shut up, why’d you even come?” she asked, already preparing a retort should the idiot make the obvious counterpoint that he couldn’t answer her question and shut up at the same time, probably in that annoying blank tone that always sounded far more sarcastic than should be possible.

But, he didn’t, in fact he stayed quiet for long enough that she started to wonder if he wasn’t going to reply at all.

“Because I wanted to see how bad you had it,” he eventually said, giving her a searching look, “and it looks pretty damn bad.”

She knew it was true, but that didn’t mean she had to be happy to hear it. “Like you know what you’re talking about Mr ‘Love is a drag’, maybe keep your oh-so-insightful words to things you actually know the slightest thing about, m’kay?”

Well… her insensitive reputation wasn’t entirely undeserved.

Luckily for her, Shikamaru was probably the most blasé man alive. “Riiight, because Ms ‘I’m so bad at interpersonal interactions I don’t know how to look at the girl I like without imploding’ is a fount of wisdom.”

She sucked in a breath, already preparing a long diatribe that would probably make her father roll in his grave. “As if you-”

“Uh, hey guys.”

All at once, that breath was released less like the explosion she’d been planning, and more like a leaking balloon, she didn’t even want to turn and look, but her greedy, greedy eyes were clearly plotting against her, because they didn’t waste a second drinking in the gorgeous image of a slightly dishevelled, slightly confused figure.

“You two on break as well?” Sakura asked, her expression vaguely uncomfortable, as though she didn’t really want to be there.

Unfortunately, her mouth chose this moment to completely dry up, leaving her looking like a gaping, wide-eyed idiot.

“She is,” Shikamaru helpfully supplied, nodding in Temari’s general direction, “I just wanted an excuse to get out of the office for a smoke,” he finished, holding up his nearly-finished cigarette as evidence.

Sakura frowned slightly, but kept any comments about bad habits to herself. “Should you really be saying that in front of your boss?”

He blinked, staring at her like she’d just grown a second head. “But… that would mean suggesting I actually respect her.” The grunt as she elbowed his side was deeply satisfying, she was actually kind of grateful; he always knew exactly what to say to get her out of a funk.

“Idiot, just get back to work already, would you? You’ll be staying after hours to make up this time, by the way.”

“Yeah, yeah, I got it,” he groaned, pushing himself to his feet and slowly ambling away, throwing a ‘Bye’ over his shoulder as he left. And suddenly, she wished he hadn’t, because now she was left alone with a wonderful doctor, vainly hoping that the cold wind would do something about her deepening blush already.

She couldn’t quite force herself to look Sakura in the eyes, so instead she stared at the hands clasping the stack of files she’d brought out with her; short, calloused fingers twitching and tapping anxiously.

“Well, uh, my break’s almost over now, so I guess I should-”

“Right! Yeah, I mean, same here-” god she just wanted to slap herself “-might as well walk back together, right?”

Sakura gave a tight-lipped smile, but nodded and stepped back, silently waiting for the blonde to stand up and start walking. She did so with an internal sigh, the first time she’d ever gotten to be alone with her crush and things were already painfully awkward.

And it didn’t get any better, the distance between the park and the hospital was short, barely even a five minute walk, but it felt like hours, they both mostly kept silent as they moved, occasionally making a forced casual comment about the weather or work, but any hint of conversation quickly sputtered and died before it could really begin, she started preying that they’d catch up to Shikamaru so there was someone else to bear the heavy air crushing them, but the man could be surprisingly fast when he wanted to be and probably expected her to use this opportunity to confess her feelings.

But she couldn’t, not when the object of her affections could barely look her in the eye for a second and her voice was soft and impassive.

It didn’t happen and, as they finally strode through the hospital doors together, she couldn’t even bring herself to look at the woman as she said goodbye, already charging towards her friend to chew him out for putting her through all that.

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Sakura sighed as she watched the statuesque woman march away, grabbing her co-worker’s arm and dragging him down the hall. Well, she’d just gone and blown any chance she might’ve ever had.

Of all the women she could’ve chosen to fall for, it just had to be the one with a boyfriend.

#narutofemslashweek2017 #ictoan writes #temari #sakura haruno #sakutema #naruto #jfc this one really ran away from me #i wasn't sure whether to make the pining mutual or not tbh but i caved in the end #bc ofc i did #dw i'm sure they get together.... eventually #actually i might have to continue this one bc i rly like the concept??#after some of my other fics are done though

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sage-nebula · 7 years

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Anyone asked Alain yet for the meme? If not, Alain, Manon, Steven, and Sycamore~!

Alan:

sexual orientation headcanon

Aromantic asexual! And if I can finish it (it’s at thirteen pages right now, and I’m near the end, I just—!), I should have a fic exploring him discovering this posted for Pride Month. (Yes, we’re two days out from the end of Pride Month, and I have another fic due on the 30th, and I’m still struggling to finish this, orz.)

But essentially, Alan is as aroace as it is possible to get. He does not feel romantic nor sexual attraction for anyone, period. As I’ve mentioned before, he never once shows any kind of attraction toward anyone during his time on the show, which is notable for the Kalos saga due to how many characters openly and blatantly expressed romantic attraction to others (including Alan’s own papa, what with the way Sycamore blatantly hit on Meyer like that). Alan is aware that romantic and sexual attraction are things that exist for other people—that other people get into relationships and the like—but it’s not something that he ever experiences himself, and usually it’s so far from his mind that he doesn’t even realize when others are hitting on him / when others take the things he says as flirtations (such as, I headcanon that Ayaka thought he was flirting with her in TSME 1 when he said that it was an honor to be complimented by her, but he wasn’t—he just genuinely meant that in a respectful way, because he’s a nice person).

Additionally, while he’s not romance repulsed (he’s not interested, but it also doesn’t skeeve him out), he is sex-repulsed to an extent. Like, it doesn’t bother him that other people have sex, and he doesn’t mind if they talk about it in front of him / doesn’t mind discussions about it, particularly since it’s something that occurs in nature with pokémon and whatnot. It’s a thing that happens. But the idea of having sex or being involved in a sexual act himself is one that does skeeve him out and make him uncomfortable. He’s not only not sexually attracted to others, and is not only not at all interested in participating, but the idea of participating makes him uncomfortable to the point of wanting to up and leave. It’s not a huge, drastic thing, but it still is a thing nonetheless. It’s a part of who he is.

mental illness / neurodivergent headcanon

Right off the bat, he absolutely has complex post-traumatic stress disorder, otherwise known as C-PTSD, as a result of being an abuse survivor. Based on canon alone, he definitely has it as a result of being emotionally abused by Lysandre over a period of years (two in my headcanon, but the exact time frame is unspecified in canon; all we can tell is that it was quite a long time). If we add the backstory I created for him to that, then he had C-PTSD even prior to that as a result of his abusive early childhood in Isolé Village. Living with Sycamore helped mitigate his symptoms and helped him heal considerably (particularly since Sycamore rescued him from Isolé Village when he was so little, and raised him for the seven years following), but when he was recruited into Lysandre’s service, the emotional abuse that Lysandre doled out on him reawakened and exacerbated the symptoms that, while latent, were already there. (Keep in mind, too, that C-PTSD can often strongly resemble a personality disorder when it occurs in childhood / adolescence—it shapes the way one grows and develops, and affects how they come to see and interact with the world. So this isn’t something that can ever be healed completely, nor is it something that will just “go away”. While Alan can and certainly will recover from his trauma, his C-PTSD is something he is going to be living with for the rest of his life, and something that has shaped him as a person.)

In addition to C-PTSD, I do think that he’s prone to clinical depression, as well as an anxiety disorder. His depression, while chronic, tends to not be severe unless it’s working in conjunction with his C-PTSD (in the sense that, his depression is acting up again while he’s also suffering a guilt / shame spiral as a result of his trauma, hence everything is exacerbated and the depression is a lot worse than it would be if it was just the depression acting up on its own). His anxiety, on the other hand, does tend to be more severe, particularly because Alan has the type of brain that never shuts up. Once he gets started thinking about something that stresses him out, he has a difficult time distracting himself from it. He’ll keep thinking about it, and think about it some more, and think about it even more, and this leads him on anxiety spiral that can spiral right down into a panic attack. (Of course, the problem is that Alan also tends to stifle his reactions to things and shut down / close in on himself, so it can be hard to spot. Yes, he’s having a panic attack, but since he shuts down and just goes silent, it can be damn near impossible for others to tell. That said, sometimes his panic attacks get so bad that he actually vomits, so … that’s a little more noticeable, even if he’ll usually try to get somewhere private (or at least with just Lizardon) before it gets to that point.)

So yes, he has C-PTSD, depression, and a major anxiety disorder. Fun times!

3 random headcanons

Only three? Heheh. I’ll try to share three new ones.

At some point in the Immortality AU he gets a massive sycamore tree tattoo on his back. It’s purely in black ink, and is rather stylized, but he got it as a tribute to his father, as well as … well … a reminder of his roots. ;)(… I’ll see myself out.)

He knows how to pick locks. Specifically, he knows how to pick locks with a paperclip. Even more specifically, he knows how to pick handcuff locks with a paperclip, and had to do this once when he was ten (which is also the time he discovered he could figure out how to do this). Yes, there is a story there, and yes, it will be written eventually. But the point is, he can pick other locks, too, if you give him a paperclip and enough time to work it. (And it doesn’t necessarily have to be a paperclip—a bobby pin could work too—but it’s just that a paperclip was what he had on him at the time, when he was ten. He was a lab assistant, what do you expect?)

Alan has various social media accounts, but he hardly uses any of them. Like, he has a Tripter, but he hasn’t updated it in months and probably doesn’t even remember it exists on the regular. He has a FateBook (and has had one for years), but he rarely posts things himself and changes his profile picture once in a blue moon. He does comment on other people’s statuses and the like, but again, his activity there is still pretty minimal, even then. (He’s also very selective about who he adds on FB. He has a very small Friends List, and even though the Friend Requests start piling up (much to his alarm) after he becomes Champion (and tbh he even had quite a few after winning the League), he just kind of … lets them sit.) Manon pestered him until he created a blog on Shakr, and so he does have one there, but … it still has the default theme. He has never posted anything. He never reblogs anything, either. No one even knows it’s his. He’s just not interested.That said, the one social media account that he does update at least semi-regularly? Immedigram. While he rarely adds captions to his photos, he takes a decent amount of pictures with his PokéNav Plus (or whatever the newest model is—Steven makes sure he stays current), and he uploads them to IG whenever he does. He has quite a few followers because, in all honesty, some of the pictures he takes while flying with Lizardon are downright beautiful. (And there are a lot of sky / dawn / dusk / star pictures. He … really likes the sky. It calms him.) So there is that, at least, even if Manon still thinks that his social media participation could use a lot more work. (Steven agrees. Alan just rolls his eyes and ignores them.)

Manon:

sexual orientation headcanon

She’s a lesbian, Harold.

Manon likes girls. She likes pretty girls! And this is something that’s always been a part of her, even before she consciously realized that she had pretty strong crushes on pretty girls right out of the gate. But once she hits her teen years it doesn’t take her long to realize that she really, really likes pretty girls, and from there to realize that she really only likes pretty girls. Like, guys are okay, she guesses—but they just don’t make her heart flutter the way girls do. Moreover, Manon being Manon, once she realizes this about herself she’s pretty okay with it. And by “pretty okay”, I mean that once Manon has a crush on someone, she goes after that person. She is not afraid to outright flirt with someone she is interested in, or outright ask them on a date, or outright tell Alan about how she found her future wife and they are going to get married and adopt three children and he better be her best man at her wedding.

“What’s her last name?” Alan asks.

“I’m—it’s—” Manon waves a hand dismissively. “I’ll get to that part. I’ll find out. It won’t matter ‘cause she’ll take mine, anyway.”

“Uh-huh.”

“What do you mean, ‘uh-huh’? What’s that tone for? Why do you always sound so disbelieving whenever I tell you I’m getting married?!”

“I think you just answered your own question.”

“Hmph! Keep this up, and I won’t let you be my best man!!”

(For the record, he’s not her best man when she gets married. He is the one, given the absence of a father in her life, to walk her down the aisle, though.)

mental illness / neurodivergent headcanon

While I’m by no means an expert on it, I can absolutely see Manon with ADD, as well as dyslexia. She tends to talk fast and jumps from idea to idea, and some of her most common questions have to do with words or vocabulary, which could stem from a difficulty with reading (like, if she has dyslexia + has difficulties focusing on the page, then learning new words could be a challenge). These two things tend to frustrate her and make her feel stupid at times, because if she was smarter she wouldn’t have such problems—but of course she’s not stupid at all. She just has a learning disability / neurodivergence, and that’s okay because she learns in different ways, particularly once she learns how to work around her learning disability / neurodivergence to find the learning styles that work for her.

(Bonus: She had no idea that she had either of those, but Alan noticed her mixing up words / letters when reading or writing, thought it might be dyslexia, and talked to Sycamore about it the next time they talked. The three of them sat down and discussed things, did some research, one thing led to another and that’s how Manon had some pretty big questions answered for her. Who knew.)

3 random headcanons

Manon loves flowers and plants of all types, which is a big part of the reason why she ends up specializing in grass-types (to the point of becoming the grass-type specialist of the Kalosean Elite Four). When she’s older she’s almost always wearing a (fresh) flower crown in her hair, along with hair clips that are shaped like leaves. She also gets flower tattoos along her arms, with each flower representing a different important person in her life. Also, while I always imagined that she would evolve Hari-san into a chesnaught someday, lately I’ve been toying with the idea that maybe he stays a chespin forever, similarly to how Pikachu will forever be Pikachu. People can laugh, but Hari-san can be the most dependable pokémon in Kalos even if he never evolves—he could be strong regardless. I’m not sold on that yet, but I’ve been toying with it lately anyway. (Besides, it’s not like he can mega evolve—that’s for Fushi-kun the venusaur—so there’s no reason why he has to evolve all the way …)

Yvonne ends up becoming her rival. She is high-key outraged when she learns that Alan helped Yvonne pick her starter pokémon / gave her advice. (“Alan, don’t help her, she’s my rival!!”) They end up becoming friends (girlfriends??) later on in life, but it’s a hot rivalry there for a while, particularly since Yvonne picked fennekin, which has a type advantage over … well, Hari-san, but also the rest of Manon’s team.

She gets her ears pierced when she gets older. Let me be more specific: She gets her ears really pierced when she gets older. Not only the standard piercings, but also piercings all the way down her cartilage, on both sides. She doesn’t get gauges, though; those are gross, even to her.

Steven:

sexual orientation headcanon

I’m … not actually sure, to be honest. I really don’t have a firm grasp on Steven; sometimes I feel demiromantic demisexual, but then I also think that he recognized that Sycamore was damn fine when they first met and was only half-joking when he asked Alan if Sycamore was seeing anyone. (And even then, the half-joke just came from the fact that Steven is actually in a happy relationship with Wallace, and wouldn’t pursue Sycamore anyway; he was just curious because, damn, Sycamore might be ten years his senior, but he is still attractive in basically every way.) He obviously doesn’t have a bond with Sycamore at the time, which would suggest that he’s not demisexual, but … I don’t have a clear read on his orientation, still.

That said, it’s entirely possible that he’s still demiromantic, and maybe … pansexual? Homosexual? Allosexual without a clear boundary even though he’s never been attracted to women? Something else?? Like I said, I don’t really have a firm idea here, haha. Maybe I’ll just cheat and say that Steven has never felt the need to identify with anything specific because his feelings are what they are, he’s in a happy relationship for now, that’s all that really matters. He is Not Straight™, and that’s all he knows, and that is all he cares to know, and if anyone wants to have a problem with him not being more specific, they are free to take it up with his metagross.

(No one ever takes it up with Metagross.)

mental illness / neurodivergent headcanon

I don’t really see anything here either, haha. ;; Nothing about his behavior really stands out to me, personally, as reminiscent of a mental illness or neurodivergence.

(Though that said, now I’m laughing a bit, because when Alan sends out Lizardon to fight the Primal Legendaries in TSME 3, Steven expresses exasperation at how Alan went and just did that without giving any warning, because it’s reckless and dangerous and why can’t Alan at least communicate these plans or ask for help instead of just doing everything by himself, and I just—okay, well, we can’t all be neurotypical, Steven. =P)

3 random headcanons

His relationship with Wallace is straight up childhood best friends to lovers. Wallace was pretty much the only friend he had growing up (because Wallace only ever treated him like Steven, versus treating him like the heir to Devon Corporation), and as such they have a level of emotional intimacy that is nigh unparalleled. That said, they also have a level of comfort with each other that can lead to things like—well, like this. (They really do love each other, but sometimes Steven drives Wallace a little nuts and Wallace is not afraid to let him know.)

Although he does genuinely love steel-types (and rock-types as well) due to his fondness for precious stones and rocks and the like, part of the reason why he chose to specialize in those types as a child is because he has an allergy to various pokémon dander. The severity of the allergy depends on the pokémon, and to be honest he’s not even entirely sure he knows all of the pokémon he’s allergic to, but when it comes to pokémon with fur, there is a definite risk that if he spends time around them / comes in contact with their dander, he will start to get hives, and might even have some trouble breathing. (This is also part of why he very often wears long sleeves; it creates less risk for him to come in contact with pokémon dander while out and about, and therefore less risk for his allergy to trigger, just in case.) Such an allergy can be treated, of course, but it can also make training difficult (not to mention emotionally painful, if he couldn’t even pet his own pokémon without hives breaking out), so he sticks to pokémon without fur, which thankfully, steel-types and rock-types have plenty of.

He is gorgeous, and he is a fantastic dancer, but he cannot sing for anything. It is said that children have been moved to tears by his singing, and trust me, those are not tears of joy. Never invite him to karaoke night. There will be much regret.

Sycamore:

sexual orientation headcanon

He’s gay. Like, 100% into men only. Although he has always been a rather charming person and finds it easy to charm women (something he often does unintentionally—he can’t help it, he’s just charming by nature!), when it comes to romantic or sexual interest he has only ever been attracted in men. He realized this about himself in his early teen years, and has readily embraced it ever since.

mental illness / neurodivergent headcanon

Sycamore has struggled with chronic depression for pretty much his entire life, the severity of which varies depending on where he is in his life at the time (so like, it was really bad in university, but it’s not nearly as powerful and is much more easily fought in adulthood, when he has his dream job and a happy family). He also has experience with an anxiety disorder, as well as that fun cycle of “I’m too depressed to get up and go to class, but now I’m anxious about failing my classes, and the potential for failure worsens my depression, and my worsened depression increases my chances of failing, which then heightens my anxiety, and …” And so on and so forth. That was a monster to deal with in university, let me tell you. (Fortunately, he wasn’t alone. As much as Fulbert might have grumbled, he did help Sycamore where he could. There’s a reason they remained friends after university, and the fact that Fulbert not only used tough love such as flipping Sycamore’s mattress to get him out of bed in dire circumstances, but also helped Sycamore complete some of his coursework on top of the work Fulbert had to do for his own program, is part of it.)

3 random headcanons

He doesn’t drink very often, but he is the lightest of lightweights when he does. He really only ever drinks wine when he does drink alcohol, but it only takes about two glasses (if that) before he is slap-happy drunk. One time he and Meyer had some wine with dinner (while at home), and that was the first time Meyer had ever seen Sycamore drink, and it was not very long before Sycamore decided that it was time to enact some Risky Business. It was a good night.

He really likes cereal. Like, a lot. Not even just a specific kind of cereal, but all kinds of cereal (well, all kinds of cereal that you eat with milk and a spoon in a baseball helmet bowl, anyway—oatmeal is not really his thing). He will eat it for any meal or snack of the day, and sometimes all of them if he can get away with it and doesn’t have a small child he needs to set an example for. He just … really enjoys cereal, okay.

As notorious as he is for bad fashion, one of his favorite parts of taking Alan in when Alan was five was buying him all kinds of cute little kid clothes and merchandise and things. (I mean, he loves pretty much every aspect of (unofficially) adopting that boy, but you know.) In his eyes, pretty much every article of clothing and accessory available for purchase was absolutely adorable, to the point where he could hardly stand it at times. Like, for instance, one of the shirts Sycamore bought him had a rockruff rolling around on the front, with the words “Rock ‘n’ Roll!” Another one had a cubchoo on it and said “Chill Out!” He bought Alan light-up shoes, and also a plush komala backpack where the actual backpack part of it was the log, which unzipped at the top (the komala was purely a plush). For the orange theme day of Alan’s first Festival de la Vie (when he was still five) he got him a charizard hoodie that had wings on the back, spikes on the head to resemble charizard, and sleeves that ended in clawed gloves (with little holes on the bottoms of the sleeves so Alan could stick his hands through). It also had a detachable flame tail. Alan wore it for weeks and Sycamore probably has about a hundred pictures. But really, though, Sycamore just found all the little kid fashion to be so cute and would spontaneously buy shirts or what have you for Alan for the sole reason that he thought they were cute, and it was honestly one of his favorite things to do. He frickin’ loved it.(Also, I haven’t decided if Kalos has a Halloween equivalent yet, but if they do, imagine that when Alan was five or six, Sycamore decided on a werewolf costume for him, based on rockruff. And because it’s always fun for the parents to dress up to take the kids trick-or-treating too, he dressed up as a werewolf based on lycanroc. PAPA (WERE)WOLF WITH LITTLE (WERE)WOLF PUPPER. ADORABLE. Fulbert threatened to call CPS but Sycamore felt it was #WORTH IT.)

#character meme #my valiant dragon son #compulsory babysitting #lab family #ryttu3k

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afearing · 5 years

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since apparently theres no consequences for delivering unto this website extremely long and good takes i will present to you my hot take on the ace d'escourse, with no sources because I Dont Feel Like It. its more words than is reasonable bc i have been stewing in this for like 4 years and if i dont type it out at some point im going to fucking lose it. no, literally, it’s 3 pages long in word about shit no one cares about anymore. please remember to like and subscribe.

some background on me, i id’d as ace for something like 8 years, from the first time i read the wikipedia page on it back in maybe 2009 or thereabouts. i also id’d as aro for about a year in 2016. that is to say, i have a lot of compassion and understanding for asexual individuals and feel i understand the inclusionist side of the argument pretty well, as i never questioned inclusionism until maybe 2014 or so, when the discourse blew up. i took some time off tumblr because i was so fucking distraught to think that, as i id’d as aroace at the time, that i had to come to terms with not being lgbt. lol i was a little too attached to being ‘gay’ because... fun fact, past dumbass self... you are gay. anyway, i really dont want anyone to feel that i hate them, but after i cooled off a little bit i realized that the exclusionist take on asexuality just makes more sense. hopefully i can explain why clearly enough.

i really believe that what is understood as aphobia is 100% of the time simply a manifestation of our culture’s expectations surrounding sexuality. while “expectations surrounding sexuality” as a very broad topic does indeed cover both the lgbt community and people on the ace spectrum, facing these issues does NOT make a person lgbt. i subscribe to the idea that lgbt is for people targeted directly by homophobia and transphobia. ace issues ARE super important to talk about and the whole inclus/exclus nonsense is entirely because this discourse has been put under the wrong category. im aware that probably most people will not care that much about my opinion on the correct framing of asexual activism as i no longer id as ace but i think this is important for everyone. sexual expectations also weigh on straight individuals, especially women, and i’m going to describe a few examples to try to demonstrate why i believe both that it doesn’t make sense to consider asexuality lgbt as well as why it does make sense to frame it as an issue based mainly in misogyny.

call out post for myself, i use reddit, and i think the r/childfree community is a good example of what i think the framing should be like. although it’s acknowledged that not wanting children has larger social consequences for women, both men and women talk about their issues in the forum, including horrific accounts of reproductive coercion and rape, the intersections with race/being lgbt/ageism (although they could do a LOT better with intersectionality, many posters do touch upon it), profoundly cruel comments made by those who have/want children, difficulty finding an understanding relationship partner, discrimination at work, misunderstandings and even hatred from family and acquaintances, discrimination in healthcare, etc.

i think you can tell where i’m going with this. even though being childfree cuts against the expectations for sexuality in most societies, even though it leads to unfair judgment from others, and even though they face discrimination on the basis of the way they express their sexuality, childfree people do NOT frame parenthood/childfreedom as an axis of oppression, nor do they claim that their lack of desire for children makes them lgbt. it’s not even a question if straight childfree people are straight, because duh? nor if the presence of lgbt childfree people makes the whole community fall under the lgbt umbrella, because it obviously doesn’t.

to drive the point home, the reason why this is NOT an axis of oppression is because parents face a ton of issues as well! they also face reproductive coercion as well as judgment over the number of kids they have, constant scrutiny and moralization over every aspect of their parenthood style, judgment based on parents’ age/wealth/sexuality/marital or dating status/race, housing and employment discrimination, especially for mothers, the government hating poor parents and cutting their benefits, and more i’m sure i’m not thinking of. again, this is due to societal expectations of sexuality. to complete the analogy, people who aren’t ace face their own set of challenges and discrimination. part of homophobia/biphobia is tinged with hatred of our sexual attraction; no one except for straight white men is allowed to really express their sexuality without backlash, and even then there is this shame leading to a lack of proper sex ed and horribly unhealthy understandings of sexual attraction in a large portion of the populace. so calling aphobia an axis of oppression is just not right. and in addition, the large proportion of lgbt aces doesn’t make asexuality lgbt, that’s not how groups work.

some more on what i mean by ‘expectations around sexuality’... in terms of my experience in the US, there is some blueprint in many people’s minds of what a person should be like in terms of sexuality, and that is something like “cishet, abled man, who is neither ace nor aro, who gets laid regularly (but not to excess) starting no later than 18 and ending no later than 28 when he settles down with one cishet abled wife, also neither ace nor aro, who has only had sex with up to three committed boyfriends, and they have precisely two children, approximately two years apart in age, whom the parents can financially and emotionally support to the utmost, because they are also moderately to very well off, and the parents work under traditional gender roles to raise their children as conventionally as possible.” and if you deviate from this script in ANY way that’s viewed with moral panic and scrutiny by someone. and the connection to misogyny is that women are seen as sort of the bastions of sexual morality. we are punished especially harshly for nonconformity.

if you’re poor you’re fucked because either you don’t have kids or you can’t send them off to private schools and feed them fancy organic shit. if you’re lgbt or polyamorous or aro or ace? fucked! if you dare to reproduce as a disabled person, and if your disability impacts your parenthood, especially for women, you’re practically crucified even in liberal circles. if you have too few kids or too many (don’t you know only kids turn out weird? / how can you possibly raise 5 children properly?), if you have too much sex or too little, if you split up the work in your relationship not along gender lines, if you do unconventional things in your parenthood, like accept your trans kids or move a lot or any number of other things, the social judgment rains down like the fires of fucking hell. meaning practically no one can escape it!! huge bonus to the screaming crowd with pitchforks if you’re a person of color or a woman, mega ultra bonus to women of color.

but does that make everyone i just talked about lgbt? no! although every single one of the groups i mentioned is tangentially related through this issue, even though all of them face a lot of horrible problems and discrimination, that does not make those issues inherently lgbt. again, they are tangentially related and i could see a good case for solidarity among many of the groups mentioned; all of them are fighting for greater acceptance of different kinds of relationships, greater acceptance of seeking happiness and being who you are rather than pressuring everyone to conform as much as possible to the LifeScript. but all of those groups are equally related to the lgbt community - that is, tangentially only. just as you can be childfree and straight, a stay-at-home dad and straight, a straight woman of color, so too can you be polyamorous and straight, ace and straight, or aro and straight.

that’s it for my main point. ace and aro people? your lives are hard. i’m not going to downplay it in any way because i know there are a lot of people who actually hate your guts. fuck, i’ve seen people full-on shittalk asexuality, in the internet and real life, in the most blatant of ways, so it’s not just something you can necessarily escape by logging off. not as much so for aro people tbh but i predict as much once the Public gets more wind of your existence. i fully believe that you face a higher risk of sexual assault; discrimination in relationships, housing, and the workplace; horrible comments from everyone who thinks their shitty opinion on your sexuality and love life matters; and I believe you that that hurts and is terrible and that you deserve a place to discuss and provide support.

but. those issues are not exclusive to you. they’re not exclusive to lgbt people, or oppressed people, and so those issues don’t and cannot make you lgbt, nor do they make ace/aro vs. allo an axis of oppression. our communities intersect, yes, considerably, but you are not a subset of lgbt. perhaps our rhetoric can help you, but because straight ace and aro people exist you cannot and should not consider yourselves lgb+. i think you understand that the issues you face are a form of oppression, but they are the result of the toxic and misogynistic sex culture in this society, which, yes, targets lgbt people but also, practically everyone, including groups which are definitively absolutely not inherently lgbt, such as parents, gnc straight people, poc, disabled people, the list goes on.

to conclude, what really converted me to being an ace exclusionist was the example of a straight grey or demi ace. how could you possibly argue that someone who falls in love with the opposite gender only, but with more conditions or less frequently than someone not aspec, is lgb+, can call themselves queer, etc.? exactly what material reality does that person share with a gay or bi person? i think that their issues fall in line with aspec community issues but extremely clearly not at all with lgbt ones.

the end but post script since i brought up orientation modifiers: perhaps it isn’t my place to say, but i don’t think that microlabels are very healthy and that it would make more sense for the ace community to work on expanding the idea of what sexuality is than to try to create a label to describe every single person’s experience of their sexuality. not that i think you should necessarily kick grey ace people out of the aspec community or that they’re not valid or whatever, but that perhaps it makes more sense to say that some people experience sexual attraction less frequently, and that’s alright. i don’t know. i spent sophomore year of high school poring over those mogai blogs looking for some new orientation label that would make me go like, oh my god that’s me! and believing that if those labels helped people feel that way they weren’t doing any harm. but what actually finally made me feel like that was expanding my understanding of what attraction is and a better conception of lesbian issues and why i might feel so disconnected from my sexuality and why i might be obsessing over every interaction with a guy looking for signs i was attracted to him but feel super disgusted whenever they exhibited interest in me. i spent so long trying to go like maybe im cupioromantic lithsexual and feeling terrified that that i had such a weird and esoteric sexuality that no one could ever possibly understand enough to be in a relationship with me... like, ok dyke! i know a lot of people have had similar experiences and i don’t think i know a whole ton of people now in college who are still doing that, which makes me think those labels are more harmful than not.

i guess that’s anecdotal but it’s easier for me to believe that a person could cling to those labels due to internalized homophobia than actually have a new form of sexuality heretofore undiscovered throughout all human history, but that’s just me. and so many of them just sound so unhealthy, like dreadsexual. i really wish people would work on expanding what not being asexual can mean and look like and i dont think there would be this drive to create these labels anymore. even demisexual which i think is probably the most mainstream conditional orientation, i think many people who have never heard of it and are perfectly content not to would describe the way they experience sexuality a similar way and just consider it normal. sexual attraction isn’t necessarily having your nethers set aflame upon first making eye contact with someone, it looks different for every person and it’s alright to just be how you are without making it part of your whole identity.

The End II. this is 2,200 words. if you read this far you’re a fucking mad l- *the academy cuts my mic line while looking directly at the camera like in the office*

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