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i accidently deleted my post about me being nervous for my appointment with my caseworker's assistant.
and uh... that was on the 4th and i have still have not mentally recovered from it.
cw / tw : mental health, sexual trauma, slut shaming, victim blaming, misc. (if there's any i need to add let me know)
like, getting slut shamed of all things for an appointment made on the basis of me struggling with sexual trauma is fucking wild--
he literally asked me if i was "dressed like that for a reason or just for fun", and later asked if i was with the guy who s/a me for attention. after i told him my relationship with said person (just friends), and he kept implying, asking, and acting like me and him had and/or were dating. like no ??
for half of the appointment he was telling personal stories, 2/3 were about people he knew who s/a women and one about straight up rape. like... what ?? and he was telling me them to show how 'people like to take advantage of other people', but ofc i know that, i'm an adult and even told him i both know it wasn't my fault and that the person who did it is a piece of shit.
also him implying that i had a drug addiction because of a situational overdose. fucking wack.
my issue rn, is that idk what to do. i thought i was going to just get reffered to a counselor, but now he wants to see me again and do it himself. the two couselors i can see are both men ; something i'm not comfortable with. and i don't even know if there is another caseworker there willing to see me due to my mental health issues.
the mental health system is a fucking at this point i swear--
they also made an appointment with a med nurse without even calling or texting me. and i am not looking forward to that in the fucking slightest, because they put me on an antidepressant notorious for making you sleepy/groggy/out of it ; after i told her i have medical trauma with being over-sedated / over-medicated.
when i called about it two weeks in saying it was fucking me up she told me stay on it. and spoiler, i didn't. i stopped taking it that day, heaven forbid i want to be able to function at all--
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#028 List of Handy Excuses (A)
Supervillains are, obviously, not the most considerate people in the world. They steal, they kill, they unleash an army of mutant squids on a populace caught unawares, they loiter, and they do it all the absolute worst times. Like, how hard would it even be to just call up any given hero and try to coordinate schedules? It’s not hard at all. Bad guys are so rude. And so, as it so often happens, heroes need good excuses to extract themselves from any given situation in order to go and fight crimes. Sure you can go with the classics “I have to go to the bathroom now!” or “I think my mother is calling me!” or “My refrigerator is running and I’d better go catch it!” but after a while people will start to get suspicious. To circumvent that problem, or at the very least, delay it, we’ve devised a list of handy excuses sorted alphabetically by occupation (This way you can always blame work for ducking out of your important family functions. Then your family won’t hate you. They’ll just hate your job.)
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Accordion Player
A Pigini Mythos just went on sale. (Yeah that’s right, I did some accordion research. Trying to appeal to the accordion crowd. Accordion to the internet this is the rarest one. editor’s note: not everything has to be a pun Zach!)
Accountant
There is a graphing calculator related emergency I must leave!
Boring Convention™ the convention for boring people is being held right now. It’s a convention so boring that they didn’t even bother making a fun abbreviation like BoCon or BoCo. It just doesn’t deserve one. Anyway, bye.
Acrobat
There is a one-time-only dual sale on trapezes and leotards I need to go.
Hey there’s a super-battle going on, maybe the Amazing Death Defying Acro-Knight will be there and he can teach me how to do that super cool move he does where he does a backflip while kicking a bad guy in the face.
Actor
I was just offered to role of a supervillain in a new direct to DVD movie, I must go to the scene of this supervillain attack to do some research.
My director just called, she says that since we’ve blown through our special effects budget, we’re going to just film the latest disaster film at a real super-battle, wish me luck.
Actuary
I tried looking up what an actuary does and I got very bored, very fast. Just get up and walk out of your actuary cubicle and go save the world (wo)man.
K fine someone on the internet dumbed it down for me so here’s a “real” one: In order to properly determine the risk of death or injury in a super-battle I need to go get some hands on experience. (YAAAAAAAAWN)
Acupuncturist
That supervillain is clearly very stressed out. If I could just get down there, and stick some needles in them, I really think I could defuse the situation.
Doesn’t “acupuncturist” seem like it would have two c’s after the a, I’m going to go on a long etymological journey to discover why it doesn’t.
Addiction Counselors
One of my patients is addicted to super-battles. I need to go make sure they’re not there.
Administrative Worker
My Dictaphone, which I often use in my administrative work is “on the fritz.” I am going out to get a new one. Don’t wait up.
Admiral
That bad guy is attacking the water which is, of course, my domain.
The Navy is calling me.
That bad guy is attacking the land which is very close to the water which is, of course, my domain.
Admission Directors
I need keep changing my location constantly to avoid being hounded by parents of prospective students who are trying to get their children into my college.
One of my applicants put down “superhero” as one of his extra-curricular activities so I’ve been going to every superhero fight to make sure that that’s on the up and up. I haven’t seen him yet. He’s probably lying to me. This is almost definitely a huge waste of time.
Advertising
I want to go pitch these new sleeker and aerodynamic bottles to that bad guy. I think he’d like them. He could fill them with poisons or energy drinks or whatever it is bad guys drink or keep in bottles.
I think I could really improve this superhero’s “brand” like I don’t know, for some reason the blood stained viking helmet and iron trident he’s sporting aren’t really endearing him with the public.
Aerial Rigger
If I don’t replace those aerial masts nobody will. And you know what happens then? We lose communication in one of many buildings. And you know what happens then? Relationships breakdown. Communication is key folks. And I’m the key to that communication.
Agent
Do you think that superhero has representation?
Do you thank that supervillain has representation?
Do you think that cowering bystander has representation?
Do you think that police officer who is clearly way in over her head has representation?
Agronomist
There’s some seed farming that needs doing, and I, the world’s greatest agronomist (feel free to say this even if you’re not really the world’s greatest agronomist) am the only one who can properly determine the proper way to technologically do that.
Air Traffic Controller
DO YOU WANT PLANES TO CRASH BYE.
Airline Clerk
During a supervillain attack people are always in a rush to get out of the city and the only way to do that is to purchase airline tickets and I am the only person who is fit and capable enough to sell them those tickets.
Alchemist
I’m going to transfigure that bad situation into a good situation
Algebra Teacher
I’m going to go FOIL some crimes. (You’re allowed to give up your secret identity if you can make a really good pun while doing it.)
If I join that fight that bad guy could be defeating in only a fraction of the time.
I need to go subtract that bad guy from this town.
Allergist
The pollen count here is TOO DAMN HIGH. We all need to leave.
Ambulance Driver
Just go! Who the hell is going to stop an ambulance driver from leaving somewhere!
Anchorman
Wouldn’t this broadcast be way better if I was actually reporting from the scene of the battle?
(Wouldn’t this broadcast be way better if I was actually reporting while actually throwing punches at the bad guy at the scene of the battle?)
Anesthesiologists
Ok this one is kind of sketchy but in a pinch you could just dose everyone you’re with with anesthesia and then just duck out with no explanation… [Note: We are only recommending that you do this if you are a profession at anesthetizing people, no one else do this!]
Anger Management Counselor
Ok, this actual supervillain clearly has some unresolved anger issues. I must go where I’m needed.
Animator
If I don’t get to the office a cartoon character will die.
Announcer
I think we can all agree that super-battles would be a lot more fun to watch if someone with a nice deep buttery voice, someone such as myself, was there to announce the comings and goings of the various superpowered and/or costumed fighters.
Pigs. In. Spaaaaaaaaace. (Read it in the voice! Read it in the voice!)
Anthropologist
I’m leaving now. Don’t question it. It’s something I picked up while doing field work. Leaving abruptly. No one question it.
Arbitrator
Uh, I’m going to go arbitrate that superhero fight. (Pfft that was an easy one.)
Archeologist
Some guy just dug up some dinosaur bones and I am the only one who can guess how they fit together. I’m the best at guessing what dinosaurs looked like based on the bones we dig up. It’s like my thing. Ask anyone.
There’s a temple that needs exploring someone hand me my whip and my special hat.
Archer
I should get down to that battle, my bow and arrow skills may come in handy. (Hahahaha I’m kidding nobody’s going to believe this just say you’re going to the bathroom or something I dunno man.)
Architect
A building was just destroyed. It calls to me. For healing.
Archivist
Someone needs to go get a detailed record of this super battle… for the archives… why shouldn’t it be me.
Someone found something really old that needs to be stored. But not like in a museum where people can see it and enjoy it. And not like in a time capsule where it can be dug up in the future. I’m gonna go stick in the archive where if anybody ever wants to see it, they have to talk to me first. This is also, incidentally, a great way to make friends.
Art Critic
Someone’s just painted something. I can feel it inside of me. I must go insult it.
Art Restorer
Look at that, they’re fighting near a museum. I need to get down there in case some art gets damaged. In the art restoring business it’s first come, first served.
Artist
I have been struck with a burst of creativity I must retreat now to my studio where I must not be disturbed! (Ideally there’d be a secret passageway to your hideout from your art studio.)
I have always wanted to paint a super-battle.
Artiste
Ie havee beene strucke withe ae burste ofe creativitye Ie muste retreate nowe toe mye studioe wheree Ie muste note bee disturbede!
Ie havee alwayse wantede toe painte ae supere-battlee
Assistant to the Regional Manager
I have the most important job in the office, where I go and when I go there is of no concern to you (Jim)!
Assemblyman/Assemblywoman
Look if a super-battle is going down you know somebody’s going to be assembling something.
Assassin
Uh, I’m going to go assassinate that supervillain... (are there many superhero assassins do you think?)
Astronaut
I am going to space.
Astronomer
I am going to go look at space (no this one won’t work if you say that everyone’s going to want to come and look at space with you because space is rad.)
I am going to go look at telescopes (there we go.)
Astrologer
I don’t even have to come up for one for you guys. If anyone could think of a good lie on the spot it’s the people who come up with horoscope predictions.
Athletic Director
Wow those super-people look to be in relatively good shape, I should go scout them for my high school volleyball team
Attack Drone
My programming requires that I leave immediately.
Beep bop beep boop. I’m leaving.
Auctioneer
I’m going once. I’m going twice. I’m gone.
Audiologist
It doesn’t actually matter what you say, most of the people you’re going to be with can’t hear well anyway.
Auditor
Wait a minute, I recognize this supervillain. I audited his evil agency. There is no way he could afford that giant badger mecha. Something is awry here. I must get to the office.
Author
The spirit of the pen has possessed me I must go and write right now.
Tune in next time where we tackle all of the B occupations (well ok, next post is actually going to be about alien invasions, we’ll probably do one of these like once a month or something.) If you have an A job that isn’t represented here (speaking of representation, I’m pretty sure there isn’t any difference between an attorney and a lawyer so you’ll have to wait like a year til we get to L.) By all means, contact us. Or just stay put and never go off to do superhero stuff. Or come up with your own excuses.
#superhero#how to#excuses#alphabetical lists#we're not crazy we're just thorough#accordions#accordion players#pigini mythos#accountants#Boring Convention#acrobat#Death Defying Acro-Knight#actor#actuary#acupunc#acupuncturist#addiction#addiction couselor#administrative workers#admiral#the navy#college admissions#admission directors#advertising#aerial rigger#agent#agronomist#air traffic controller#airline clerk#alchemist
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12/05/2019
So for any of my followers or people who may just come across this post. There will be many tears, fears, and joys in it. As you all know it been a while since I wrote. I’ve had a very hard yr as you all know and the holidays are hitting me harder than thought.
To start got lost in the world. I have never felt so unglued in 10-15 yrs as I have in the last yr. I lost myself truely and it hurts, it's scary and no one understands it unless they live it.
My depression kicked in during surgery and rehab. then my body slowly came unglued. My bipolar came raging back full force and I started having anxiety attacks like I’ve never had.
Suicidal ideation, drinking myself into oblivion and finding out just how many codeine I could take without dying became a daily thought
I have a wonderful supporting boyfriend who has pulled me up through all this and im not sure how or why. I have never gone under existence like this time. I didn't want to color, which is my biggest out and music, I didn't want to watch tv, read, use the internet, FB, messager, sleep, play with my cat or dogs, go outside or to appointments. I was just not sure who I was what I wanted to do or what I should do.
I have never been so lost in myself and it was the scariest thing ever.
they changed my meds to diazepam 5mg 2x daily and an extra 1000 mg daily. I go back to dr tomorrow. I will try and keep updated but as always can't promise anything...
My memory is terrible more so than last, I lose thoughts all the time and feel lost inside my own mind.
#dd#memory#depression#addiction#bipolar#anxiety#diazapam#depicote#phyc#Couselor#coloring#writing#lost
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“Vocabulary Reform.”Originally posted on OnTheEmmis.com circa 2005. ICECAP is the former incorporation of Enthusiastic Sobriety Programs. It has since dissolved due to the efforts of survivors from OnTheEmmis.com
okay so I know that vocabulary reforms have been discussed in the past, but I personally would like to see another discussion here.
Changing of words and their meanings is one characteristic of a cult. "loaded language" maintains the "us vs them" philosophy utilized in Meehan et al's cult, ICECAP.
Many examples are words that are made up for cultic purposes, and others are standard english, with loaded context in order to insure sub-ordinance and total-ism.
I am writing an essay on Meehan's programs, which purposes are of my own *wink*.
i would appreciate any submissions, but would like to focus more on loaded language than on buzz words such as "hot carl" and the likes. (although inclusion of these could be funny).
CULT:
usually a totalitarian group which uses the tenets of thought reform in order to gain complete submission into a communal group preaching new-age or philosophical/religious ideals.
ICECAP's "cult means something more to the effect of "a group of people gathered together for a common cause". Acceptance of this definition ensures a mental brick-wall to any member being told they are, in fact, in a cult.
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RESENTMENT:
usually a long-term anger, justified or unjustified.
ICECAP's definition adds to this, stating that Resentment is strictly unjustified, obsessive anger that turns it's possessor into a base-level, un-evolved being less that human. the term is generally pointed towards people that disagree with one or all ICECAP philosophies.
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WINNERS:
ICECAP uses this positive word to label its own members. Cult members are encouraged to "stick with winners", meaning the group, and avoid all others. The sad assumption in this use of the term is that if you aren't a winner, you're a loser, and this black-and-white view furthers the groups totalistic ends.
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GNARLY:
surfer buzzword, taken by ICECAP to be a compliment of spiritual evolved-ness.
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EMMIS:
ICECAP's word that means a promise never to be broken. This can, and has, served as a means for ICECAP higher-ups to achieve a super-ordination over it's members. (...ever been asked to "emmis" not to tell a secret? I have). Breaking an Emmis can result in a total loss of credibility.
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HIGHER POWER:
used in AA to refer to one's sense of a God or benevolent supreme being/force.
Used in ICECAP to refer to the group, or the love of the group. This instills a totalistic trust i a member for his/her group and it's control over his/her life.
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COUSELOR:
usually refers to an individual that has undergone extensive training in psychology, thousands of hours of training, and is an expert and helping people with psychological and/or addictions disorders.
ICECAP's use of the term refers to an indoctrinated recruiting expert who has both been through the cult's hierarchy and had minimal training in ICECAP addictions, and no realistic certification or degree. This term is used for staff members to gain credibility with new parents and members.
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LOVE:
ambiguous in its own definition, Love is generally characterized as a genuine appreciation for a person or object, or as a caring for another.
ICECAP's terming of Love involves the reformation of personal ideals to adherence with the group. It also refers to the "Love-Bombing" typically experienced by new members or IOP members. ICECAP systematically manipulates feelings of caring in order to achieve a heightened morale within the group and to achieve an effective indoctrination of all members. People say "love is blind", and this form of love-bombing can thus "blind" members to the detriment of involvement with this group.
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FEAR:
a phobia or strong and unpleasant discomfort about a particular subject matter or situation.
ICECAP uses the term FEAR to signify all emotions other than love. This is a totalistic view of the emotions, used for purpose of expulsion of negative feelings within the group (or at least the acknowledgment of their existence). The result is a tranced euphoria associated with inclusion in the cult. Furthermore, the existence of FEAR within a member is prodded to be a symptom of spiritual-sickness, and the expression of negative emotions is hampered.
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will write more when I have some time. please, post 'em if you got 'em.
#enthusiastic sobriety programs#enthusiastic sobriety#enthusiastic sobriety abuse#2005#cult#bob meehan#clint stonebraker#meehan#believe survivors#troubled teen industry#thought reform#undue influence#troubled teen#breaking code silence
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Counseling
Me: *sitting in the waiting area with no appointment*
Counselor: *walks in*
Counselor: Uh! What are you doing here?!
Me: Surprise! I have problems.
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Me: I was sitting outside with my destructive thinking and thought the 3 words a person like me cannot think or say, "I don't care." I know when I start thinking or saying those 3 words, destruction on myself follows. I can't get to a point like that because I am likely to do anything without thinking.
Counselor: You ain't hangin' by a thread anymore. Your thread is now a rope in which you can save yourself.
Me: Or hang myself.
Counselor: When you came in this time last year, you were hanging by a thread. Your emotions were all over the place and nobody wanted anything to do with you.
Me: Some still don't.
Counselor: *hands me a note card* We are gonna make a list of things you care about! What do you care about?
Me: *thinks for a long time and a smile crosses my face* My Grandpa!! And Marvin!
(10/28/2014)
#counseling#therapy#therapist#couselor#psychologist#mental health#cutting#cutter#self harm#self injury#non-suicidal self injury#drug addict#drug abuse#drug addiction#addiction#addict#recovery
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