sam and dean / spn 5.16 dark side of the moon / spn 2.21 all hell breaks loose part one / spn 10.23 my brother's keeper / spn 2.22 all hell breaks loose part two / spn 10.23 my brother's keeper / after abel, dante émile

"yes, it's you I welcome death with... as the world caves in" - matt maltese

[ID: a collage with Sam Winchester on the left hand side, with a concerned, pained expression. his face is smeared with blood. Dean Winchester is on the right hand side, looking at Sam. his face is also smeared with blood. "yes, it's you I welcome death with as the world caves in" text is written across the collage.]

EXT. HOUSE – NIGHT

D: What made you change your mind?

S: I didn’t. I still wanna find Dad. And you’re still a pain in the ass. But, Jess and Mom - they’re both gone. Dad is God knows where. You and me. We’re all that’s left. So, if we’re gonna see this through, we’re gonna do it together.

D: Hold me, Sam. That was beautiful.

I am truly loving that almost every J/M friendly blog I follow is getting the same anon message over and over and over in the hopes that one of them might say, by golly, you're right anon! Jensen and Misha are *clearly* only work buddies and spend absolutely no time together at all!!

Boat trips? Nah. Nascar racing? Not here. Ice cream day trip? Nada. Vatican Mass? No, sirree bob. Shopping? Uh-uh. Dinner with Danneel? Whaaat? Wine tasting events? Say what?! Dinner while getting to know one another? Whoosit?

And let's not forget that ALL of the cockles photo ops/pics are most definitely, without doubt.... manips. I mean, cuhlearly, they added in Jensen after the fact. Like, how could we be soooooo oblivious?

Edit:: I'm editing myself to include other obvious "work related " events. I give you:

West peeing in Jensen's garden and falling into his pool (they were running lines, I'm sure); The 10 yr anniversary mark at the same restaurant, poss the same table and oh, lookee how close they were sitting (oh wait, they were discussing the nuances of SamnDean);

The countless sharing of clothes (somehow related to the show, I'm sure); the matching if not similar bracelets, rings and necklaces; the (ahem) suspicious museum date (they just happened to be seen moments apart at the same place, Misha happened to be seen in Jensen's neighborhood) but I'm sure that was work related as well;

Misha being spotted multiples times on and around set hanging with Jensen and Danneel; the time Misha posted a pic of Maison and JJ playing together; the sharing of the baby blanket; both Danneel and Jensen supporting Misha and Vicki's book; Danneel wanting to work with Misha in the TSA shorts; Danneel thanking Misha (and Vicki) for supporting the FBBC.

Now that I think about it... that's a really dedicated working relationship. I guess I'm doing my co-workers dirty.

For the ask game: 2, 3, 6

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2. when do you think the climax of the show is?

i think it’s 8.23: sacrifice.

it works as a fitting climax on a number of levels: for starters, as a spectacle, it’s probably the last truly Epic finale that the show has given us. there was genuine tension, enormous stakes, and final moments that were both frightening and awe-inspiring. before s8, spn had given us a number of finales like this but alas, none since.

the scale of it is absurd, but not the farcical kind of absurd that the later seasons delve into (though it is its own kind of interesting) like personifying primordial concepts like the darkness and god and reaching into alternate universes. the first big arc in spn ended with the gates of hell being opened to let demons out. now we have an attempt to close them for good, tying in everything else we’ve discovered along the way: angels and their weird politics, castiel’s downfall being his weird devotion to the winchesters, prophets, old angelic languages, and the winchesters with the power to change the world for good, but not condemn it forever because of their failure because honestly, who’s that powerful?

i also feel like it was the last finale with genuine, palpable conflict between the brothers and the closest we get to looking at the connective threads between the winchesters’ dysfunction and the world lurching from apocalypse to apocalypse (way before chuck is introduced as god/the ultimate scribe and ends up muddying the waters). 

sam has had a taste of what his life could be beyond hunting, of what it means to move on and build a future instead of building a monument to grief and guilt, and season 8 was a near endless parade of sam being told how deeply, fundamentally wrong he was. for his reality to be dismissed as gauzy fantasy while dean literally lied about what happened to castiel when he left purgatory. for him to be bent and broken and reshaped into this creature who would willingly endure unimaginable pain and sacrifice himself for this mission. and what was this mission? it was absurd from the start. locking away all demons forever? this is an objective without sense or pragmatic consideration beyond being something to Work Towards As Hunters Again. dean was willing to have the people he once helped save killed all over again if it meant this could happen, negating his own lectures about hunters having a responsibility to keep people safe. this mission created a domino effect of events that continued all the way to the series finale. and it is in season 8 that we see this connection the most closely.

the mission wins, in a spectacularly sad scene where sam self-flagellates and burns himself inside out both literally and figuratively for dean’s love. it’s depressing, but the show’s depressing. the very last scene of 15.20 is depressing. sam and dean become samndean after this in a way that’s depressing. it’s the perfect climax.

3. Describe the different ways in which limnality shifts as a central theme in Supernatural (or a specific arc/character given)

it exists as physical spaces: living out of the car and motels, heaven and hell and earth and entire universes as porous planes, living everywhere but belonging nowhere. it exists in the psychic split between your body and your essence; that you can exist as just body, or just soul, or just mind, or somewhere in between all three. it exists in the way samndean swing on the cusp of saving the world and condemning it; at the uncomfortable intersection of their violence and love. it exists as death: a place in between two breaths, two blinks, that can disappear like it never existed. 

sam and dean aren’t really hunters but they aren’t really men of letters either. they aren’t quite human, not quite Other--they’ve had their body and soul split apart and other things fill the cracks, killed the devil and raised hell, but it still only takes a misplaced nail and bad timing to kill them. they are separated from any kind of permanent community, cycling through friends and lovers (some more tenacious than others) who kill and die for them. and they end their story in an eternal ellipse, having changed nothing at all despite having shaped their own god in their image--

6. Do you have any psychological headcanons (or canon interpretations) of the characters?

i’ve said this a hundred times before and i will say it a hundred times again: soullessness is a wonderful depiction of the changes that a person might undergo after great trauma, how those changes aren’t going to be something socially palatable or something their loved ones can recognise, that person’s own desire to revert to a Before state despite not understanding what that even means and the terrible mix of good intention and inhuman coercion that goes into ‘correcting’ them.

i don’t like to ascribe diagnoses to anybody outside of a professional setting--even if it’s fictional characters--and i can only look at traits that suggest a bigger picture. that said, the portrayal of the central relationship as a progressively abusive one with all of its ups and downs and the despairing black hole right at its centre? masterful.

EDIT: oh, oh, oh! how could have i forgotten s7′s hallucifer? i think sam continues to hallucinate him, especially during times of great stress. hallucifer is distinct from lucifer himself in that he is sharper, and meaner: a product entirely of sam’s brain.

castiel taking on sam’s trauma in 7.17 (analogous to acute psychiatric treatment so that sam has the strength and resources to build his own wall, so to speak) and seeing hallucifer was like the imprint of a bright light on your retina after you close your eyes. hallucifer was bright, and loud, and everywhere. and every so often, he comes back. 

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( ask me questions about spn! )

hai..how are you? im new to your blog but i love the ships you mention like stere* ,zi*m and others but i couldnt remember the ship names (sorry for that). i dont really know the rest but i would really love if you can take time to talk about them and how you get into them. i really appreciate that..tq

oh hey! I’m fine hamdulilah, I hope you’re doing good too!

awww someone actually caring about what I ship omg!! thank you?? I have a lot of ships anon, but I’m only gonna list my top favs.

1- Ziam: Bestfriends, dark hair and yellow hair. A real life ship and the reason I made a tumblr in the first place. I have talked about it before way too much, just go read my old asks, or you can follow my ziam blog. 

2- Stucky: Bestfriends, dark hair and yellow hair, both died. The greatest love story of all time. My favorite OTP of all time. The reason I’m like this. The Patrochilles 2.0. I could literally talk about it for DAYS and it wouldn’t be enough. I could lose friends for this otp. I blocked mutuals for shipping Steve and bucky with others. I am so so so far up this ship’s ass that I can NOT and will NOT accept people calling it a br*mance. I would DIE for this ship, it was the reason I got to know one of the most beautiful people on earth: Sebastian Stan. I fell in love with this OTP the moment I laid eyes on it, and I will never forget the day when a mutual reblogged a fanart of them under the water, Bucky’s hands on Steve’s Jacket, kissing him the way they were supposed to in the movies. I’m so emo just go see my edits to see how emo I am for this OTP.

3- Patrochilles: Bestfriends, dark hair and yellow hair, both died. Have you or have you not read TSOA? if not, you really should. There will NEVER be a better book than TSOA, and that is full offense to every other author and book. I don’t think it’s a surprise that I’m so weak for this OTP, since Patrochilles is just another version of Stucky. I’m a sad gay emo, I like things that make me suffer and cry what can I say. Here are my edits for it if you’re curious (warning: spoilers).

4- Samndean: Bestfriends, dark hair and yellow hair, both died (multiple times even), soulmates. Okay I can understand why people would dislike this ship: incest. But first of all: I don’t ship them sexually. Second of all: they are in love romantically. Like really really in love, too in love that it’s fucked up. You can’t understand the beauty of this ship until you watch the show (although I stopped at season 10), and even those who ship sam and dean don’t really realise how beautiful and heartbreaking that relationship is. It is the most interesting relationship after Hannigram.

5- Reaper76: Ex bestfriends, dark hair and yellow hair, both died. I never played overwatch (even tho I’m a gamer), but the moment I looked up the ships in the fandom I fell in love with reaper76. Mchanzo is the popular ship and I don’t mind it, but if you know how I ship, you’d totally expect me to be a complete slut for Reaper76. The characters have a tragic past, but I’m a slut for that too. Bonus points for being an interracial gay couple cause I AM THE BIGGEST SLUT FOR THAT TOO. I really recommend reading this fic about them it’s just too good.

6- Rinharu: (ex) Bestfriends, different hair colors and just another otp that proves what I said earlier: I’m a sad gay emo. If you’re not into anime, you won’t know of this, but it is a pretty popular ship. The! angst! is! real! in! this! one!!!! goddamn I miss my boys so much i cry. Free! will always be one of my favorite anime of all time.

7- Evanstan: friends, yellow hair and dark hair, real life ship. listen!!! to!!! me!!! there is no!!! universe!!! in which!!!! this bitch Huda!!! wouldn’t ship seb and chris together!!!! and chris’ big fat crush on seb doesn’t help at all!!!!! i am so !!!!!!!!!!!!

8- Jackbum: I mean come ON!! come on!!!!! yall know how it is by now lmao.

9- Ianjr and petopher: daddies, Bestfriends in real life, enemies on the show. I am so mad these two ships are too unpopular I’m gonna scream I am so mad!!!! go check out my tags for them and you’ll get it i am so!!!!

10- Hannigram: I don’t want to spoil anything but please for the love of god go watch the show then come talk to me later after finishing it. I’m so hurt I miss my murder husbands every single fucking day.

If you like one of those ships I love you. Message me if you want to talk more about them becuase I’m always ready for that.

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Supernatural 5x04 & 5x22 // Richard Siken - The Dislocated Room

It's okay, Dean. It's gonna be okay. I've got him.

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4x22 | The Voicemail

Sam per Episode: 2x05 Simon Said

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