tytyty for posting the idol!! gosh its better than i remember. plus the ending in that other post 😭😭 poor sysba 😭 and malchus in the original chamber facing the ceiling like ughhhh my heart

i also just finished the update finally & i hope there's a chance for us to give sysba their money back cause mc aint gonna be one of their sugar babies & we didnt find that cab 😔 like no take your money back bb we love you for YOU not the ventacoins

anyway i hope you're having a good week lol <33 all the attollo brainrot in my head

I'm glad you got to enjoy it again!!

Oh I never considered an option to do that, but that would actually be a sassy little move on MC's half LMAOOO. I might... actually write that in. I mean you're gonna dance with them at the gala if you go their route so might as well have some snarky banter while you're at it <3

Thank you!! I hope your upcoming week will be wonderful <3

can’t talk about it

[ID: Black and white comic of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. The comic starts with the sounds "thud, thud, click". Vash, mid-action of peeling an apple, turns to the sound, noticing who it was that entered, and says, "Oh, Wolfwood, you're back." He resumes back to his apple in the next panel as he speaks, "Where'd you go? You snuck out of bed quickly this morning..." Wolfwood's hand then enters the panel, hovering over Vash's cheek and Vash looks up as Wolfwood asks, "Can I?" Vash responds, "Not going to talk about it?" while using a hand to gently hold Wolfwood's hovering hand and presses a kiss to his inner palm.

Vash then gets up fully, setting down the knife down on the table and the apple onto a plate, He leans into Wolfwood as Wolfwood explains, "Had to meet someone. Nothing interesting to talk about." Vash kisses Wolfwood's left cheek and a hand moves to cup his other cheek while muttering, "You're being vague." Wolfwood says neutrally, "If yer really that curious, keep askin'. We  can talk about that instead of doing this." Vash leans back and responds, "Let's talk after, since... You look so tired."

The panel pans to a close up of Wolfwood's downcast eyes, bags heavy underneath his eyes. He doesn't allow Vash to sit in that moment for long though, then saying, "Yer not helping, Spikey. Being all slow with it... I could fall asleep right now." He moves his hand to start unclasping Vash's coat, starting from his collar. Vash with red cheeks, responds briskly, "Oh, shut up. I'm worried about you. I can't be worried?"

The final shot shows Wolfwood's back to the viewer while Vash's softened expression can be seen as he holds gently onto the side of Wolfwood's face and a hand firm on his waist. Wolfwood responds, "I'm fine, seriously," pausing for a moment before continuing, "Is it okay to still..?" Vash responds, "Yeah, it's okay."

The next image is a shot from later that night after the previous comic. Vash and Wolfwood are now in bed, half naked. Wolfwood's buries his face into Vash's chest, his arms wrapped around him, while Vash is petting at his hair. Vash reminds him, "Hey. You said we'd talk about it." Wolfwood pauses for a moment before piping up, "In the morning? I'm sleepy." Vash says, "Okay..."

The next two pages start from the morning after. Wolfwood is already fully awake, pulling on his outer jacket as he says to Vash, whos' still bundled in his blankets, "Breakfast is on the table. Make sure to eat it. I'm going to grab some things in town and then we're leavin'. Got it?" Vash says, "Mh." Wolfwood responds, "Good. See ya in a bit." The dialogue starts to shift into Vash's inner thoughts now, as he gets up and eats toast, thinking, "Wait. Weren't we supposed to... talk about it?" The next shot then shows him fully up, meeting Wolfwood in town. He carries a half worried expression with him while Wolfwood slides on his glasses for him. A quick panel shows Wolfwood's tired expression from the night before and quickly juxtaposes with Wolfwood in front of him who's smiling gently, the shades covering his eye bags. Wolfwood asks him, "Still not awake yet?" Vash pauses, his thoughts stirring, thinking, "Oh. I guess I was getting ahead of myself... thinking you owe me that kind of honesty." He smiles at Wolfwood and responds, "I'm awake!" His thoughts continue, "Maybe one day, you'd trust me enough to share your burdens."

The final image shows Wolfwood pulling at Vash's cheek and Vash complains, "Owwwww why..." Wolfwood quickly says, "You were thinking something stupid, right? It's all over yer face." Vash mutters, "Nooo, I wasn't..." END ID]

What are some of your favorite animals?

First off. Little baby!!!! Baby!!!!!! Adorable!!!

Okay now that that's out of the way, here are some of my favorite animals

Lynx are one of my favorites!!! Big paws and lil tail and absolute apex predators

Pangolin have been some of my favorite animals since I was little!! They're so so cool

Pikas only live at super high altitudes and they're actually a benchmark species for global warming, as we can track their shrinking habitat as they get forced higher and higher into the mountains. They collect flowers and greenery all summer and stash it in their burrows to dry, and then eat it in the winter! Also they're very very loud

Tanuki! Also known as the Japanese raccoon dog! They are not related to raccoons but they ARE canids, and in Japanese folklore they're very common figures, usually as mischievous and jolly spirits, sometimes gullible and absent minded, but talented shapeshifters and givers of great wisdom. They're also really, really cute

And last, but definitely not least, is my dad's dog Scout. He can count to five, understands enough English to argue with my dad about things, and he does a spinning jump move when you say what he wants (like "does scout want to go outside?") We did not teach him to do that, he just started doing it on his own. He's the perfect beast and I love him

I know last ep was intense af but it also has one of the funniest scenes in ncis hawaii like I did laugh I truly did

[Spoiler for 2x21]

That scene when Kate was like okay dont tell Swift tho and he was like umm too late and she just kinda facepalmed and laid down "hi nice to meet you" and she was just...speechless truly a no good bad day for Kate

Then Lucy "you were chained to a KITCHEN POST" Tara, the same Lucy "i cannot lie" Tara delivered what is basically a "you're doing great sweetie" with the fakest smile in the fakest cheerful voice lmaooo

it was fun seeing whistler have such a full body reaction to embarassing herself in front of a superior (?) authority figure like that. she's had her fair share of goofs on the show, but mostly in front of the team or lucy. seeing our proud, career-driven, normally put together girl looking like she wanted to shrivel up and die and then flopping on the bed like that was fantastic (i love whistler's mannerisms, even strict mean girl DIA whistler in s1 was very expressive, thank you tori). and she didnt even finish the line she just gave up like 'its nice to...yeah" like girl needs a break 😩😂 one of her first few forays into outright rule-breaking and nothing is going right LOL

i feel like a big chunk of why lucy's so likeable comes down to yasmine being so good at what she does because the way she pronounced kiTcheN PosT and the way she acted out fake and frustrated lucy on the phone was funny af. terrible actor lucy strikes again. she's trying her best to be the best supportive girlfriend ever, but she's worried as hell and rightfully so after randomly finding out her gf took half her closet and booked a flight to venezuela with her suspended boss somehow without her knowledge at all! and now theyre both in terrible danger! and she also wants to punch the boys and her new temporary boss in the face for encouraging this.

tennant better send these two on an all expense paid vacation after this bc they are going thru it

Tuvok and Chakotay making out near silently in some damaged and thus rarely-traveled corridor (because using one of their quarters feels too official) and they’re holding hands for Tuvok’s benefit (though Chakotay doesn’t mind, in fact he likes it. Too much, he thinks sometimes. It’s too domestic. It’s the thing they’re trying to avoid by avoiding each other’s bedrooms.) and Chakotay’s eyes are closed but Tuvok’s are open because he doesn’t get why humans close them and he’s staring at the space where Chakotay’s iris might be if the lid wasn’t there instead and Chakotay’s thinking about how he can imagine that this is Janeway kissing him if he ignores that the skin is too cool and stops himself from threading his fingers through Tuvok’s textured hair and Tuvok knows exactly what he’s thinking because they’re more-than-touching and he’s telepathic and he’s very intentionally sifting through his own thoughts, plucking out the ones that concern T’Pel as he grabs Chakotay’s wrist before it can ghost the nape of his neck, guiding it to his hip instead.

there’s a progression in there, somewhere, of even going from ‘the master might kill me any day now :(‘ to ‘the master is going to kill me :) she’s not going to let someone else do it after all this time’

I am so stressed that I feel like I'm getting an ucler or something. All I wanna to do is just decompress and work on my fic. unclench and not feel guilty about my anxiety and life stuff...or have the stress lingering in the back of my mind. Writing has helped with this in the past. But the last few weeks I've reach the end of my day and my brain is just floating in a bag of anxiety and I caaaaan't make words. I can only think about writing. At least I've managed to unfuck the snarly bits of my draft before this latest Anxiety happened. So tired. I just need to survive this week. just like last week and the week before. I want to make more words....horny philosophical words...vilgefortz...and geralt... it's 18k...i could probably write like 2k about me spiraling out of control about this writing experience but I don't actually know if that would be interesting to read about. my writerly brain has been catching up to me since it got disconnected by The Depression nearly a decade ago. Brain has woken up now. no longer feel like a desiccated husk. it's really is a joy, even when writing is hard. cause i love writing so much and i couldn't do it for so long. and also omg I just all the other fic growing in my brain. words. i want them out of me. and that sweet ambrosia of Finishing Things and posting. my yennskier fic wips... my radskier wip(s??)... all the other wips. piles of wips. my Ciri grief thing. my words. my storiessss. i have well over 60k of stuff that i need to finish, edit, and post. so many words already there. aaahhh.

writing! but anxiety brain. augh.

Grateful for tumblr ✨ discourse ✨ in a way because I would have never even considered tomgreg as a ship or a particularly interesting dynamic without the obsessive analysis on here— I’m so enthralled by everything else that it never even crosses my mind (and didn’t seasons 1-3 when I watched it before I got into the fandom)

But now I’m horrifically obsessed with it and get drawn back in every time I open this gotdamn website like damn I was getting all invested in the meta political tech nightmare of it all but now I’m emotional because gay codependence!! aaaaa!!!!

I had the weirdest fuckin' dream last night and imma yell it here because nobody will care/look anyway.

I went to a very small Ghost gig and got a sort of VIP pass deal which meant I could go backstage and meet Tobias and all that and it was so fucking weird.

The first time I went backstage he just treated me like a fan which, yeah, I expected. Sign a few things, put on a happy face despite being exhausted from performing, small talk, yadda yadda.

Then for some reason I kept going to these oddly small gigs of Ghost, except every time they were bigger and had more fans and better venues, and I kept getting approached by the lady who had given me the VIP pass in the first place who seemed to have a literal clipboard every time of stuff the VIP pass included, and apparently today we were doing arts and crafts. (???)

Not one to put down a weird situation I go "Aight, let's go." And suddenly I'm being led to a room where there's a lot of almost childlike fuckin' arts and crafts supplies and a much less exhausted looking Tobias who is already busy fixing random shit together into a primary shool-esque art project. He seems happier to see me this time, as though somehow I'm a friend.

We chat and arts and crafts, and even dream me is trying to figure out this bizarre scenario and eventually he's like "Lemme add you on discord so we can keep in touch." Wild.

I was annoyingly woken up midway through having a discord conversation about how much I suck at Swedish.

This is the first time I've had a Ghost dream and the first time in a long time I haven't just had a nightmare as per my usual sleep routine. Felt like I should write it down somewhere for posterity. And who knows, should anyone actually want to read this drivel maybe they can derive some dream meanings from this and let me know? No? Yeah, that's fine, I'm used to people ignoring my random internet blatherings anyway.

I need to make a call today, in at least an hour. I am so scared so much right now. I need to make a call. It may be very helpful (oh, please let it work out). I need to make this call. My stomach is consuming itself. I will make this call.

I saw a post the other day asking when people became anxious, when they lost the carefreeness of childhood. I have always been afraid. I have no memory free from the disorder. I have always lived with: be afraid, and do it anyway.

and i am scared.

mental health just straight up plummeting

Greek night :) Αγάπη μου 💜

Besties I finished the last episode of The Unsleeping City Chapter 1 last night and I’m not okay

josh's nieces are in town for the next week and they came over yesterday. i wasn't super up for it but it was actually a great time (not thrilled about the mess i get to clean up tho. they love to play dress up with my closet and i don't mind but nothing gets put away fjdjdj)

ANYWAY

one of them told me about her boyfriend (which was like ??!! for me) and the way she went about it was:

"(something something) my boyfriend Liam. we're having problems right now but we're working on it"

AND SHE SAID IT SO SASSY

BABYLOVE YOU ARE 9

10 IN AUGUST

WHAT DO YOU MEAN RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS FJFJSJDJ

That moment when…

The short about the family glamping and getting attacked by dinosaurs is WAY Better than the actual feature film.

the way i've been playing dragon age almost non-stop since friday bc i'm still grieving after wednesday and i needed a distraction.