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#everyday the smallest things have me spiralling into such stupid despair
toytulini
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11 months
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mental health just straight up plummeting
#toy txt post
#everyday the smallest things have me spiralling into such stupid despair
#constantly fighting myself cos every single thing has me wanting to throw up my hands and walk the fuck off bc theres bo point
#whats the fucking point!! just despair and exhaustion and burned the fuck out and gnashing at the fucking walls and then spiralling into
#a stupid little self pity self hate spiral cos im just a weak stupid little baby who cant handle the real world. plenty of ppl have it so
#much worse and havent given up yet so whats my fucking problem? which is so stupid. but i cant logic my way out of this one
#so i am simply sitting here feeling so god damn bad
#and i dont even really have. a good reason for it. idk. like i dont have a lot of concrete quantifiable reasons i can present about why
#i am so goddamn miserable at my job. im just. going insane i need out im performing badly its not worth it theres no fucking point
#every day im fighting the urge to just fucking walk off over the stupidest tiniest things that are definitely not worth that kind of
#reaction. like yea maybe i do need like mental health meds or smth but i also know. i need out of this fucking. job. but i dont know
#like. idk its like my options are just kore of this same stupid bullshit or retail/food service. and like. shout out to retail and food
#service. i fucking could not i fucking cannot. but like im reaching that point here too. everything hurts all the time with no reprieve and
#all my options just feel like its gonna be ! even more stupid repetitive motions that wont help! like idk! idk what to do. i just
#wanna read about stupid little fucking worms and fish but doing that professionally im not sure im up to it and
#between me and that career path is thousands of dollars and homework. so
#now im the rat instead now im the rat instead now im the rat instead now im the rat instead
#trying so hard not to display idk red flag behavior but im Going Insane. i should just start crying at work. why bother hiding it. whats the
#point
#vent
#ig
#i should go eat. and waste the rest of my stupid fucking night playing zelda trying to soothe my brain enough to function except im not
#functjoning cos then itll be 5am again and ill have done nothing but play zelda and be up too late and go to bed and not get enough sleep
#and be a little to a lot late and be miserable and the cycle just fucking never ends
#not enough fucking podcasts about worms out there for this
#i opened several academic papers on tongue eating isopods to cope and barely read them bc i cant do that at work it takes too long and i get
#lost and my productivity is already in the shit and i need to stop being on my phone and i know that but like also if i dont fucking
#distract my stupid fucking brain right fucking now im gonna start throwing things and crying
#anyway. thats how im doing. bye
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