one off mind miyayuu cover embraces me sweetly and snaps my neck just as i get comfortable

anyways. my happiness, thats all i wanna know

I have started listening to Unapologetic: The Third Narrative. It's a podcast from two Palestine Israeli citizens and it's brilliant. I don't agree with everything the presenters say (but then again, I don't agree with a lot of things a lot of people say so what's new) but they have some of the most open and balanced and nuanced discussions I've heard about the Israel-Hamas war. It's also really good for people who are looking for diverse opinions and trying to understand different perspectives as the presenters are from very different communities and regularly disagree on things.

The most recent episode has a guest who's family were kidnapped (5 have been released, one is still in Gaza) and they asked her about how she has stopped herself wallowing in hate and her answer was she literally doesn't have space for hate. Hate is so overwhelming, and there's so much work to do to actually push for a sustainable peace an end to this that there is not time to waste on petty spiteful hatred. With the amount of time I spend thinking about the hostages and their families, the people starving in Gaza, and trying to work out if there is anything I can do from the UK to try and actually help, I simply do not have time to hate. Maybe if more people put the energy they are spending screaming at those who disagree with and forcing randomers to choose sides, someone might actually manage to come up with meaningful ways to end this without the death toll increasing dramatically on either side.

It's also a super harrowing listen for me personally as all I could think is that I could have been her if my cousin hadn't been on holiday in Crete that weekend. People who lived near him were killed, one had to play dead with a bullet in his leg while his wife and daughter lay slaughtered beside him. I am so grateful that he was not home and so I have not had to experience people I know being killed an kidnapped, frankly I'm lucky in that respect - a lot of my friends were not as lucky as I was in that regard.

when I properly learn to code & program im going to create a free site for finding homework answers that allows other users to contribute as well. im sick of this paywalled bullshit

I still can't believe he did this, it didn't even amount to anything either because bakugo shot him down easily. I guess after a century of repressing his emotions all that hate coming from tomura just completely screwed his brain up.

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not to be like. y'know embarrassing but my current job is so stupid now I have so much potential and I'm stuck on this shit I could be doing so much better for myself and in general but the job market is ass lol

the way i wish my game was in english so i could do cute gameplay posts using its notifications etc. 💔

STOP MODERNIZING WINDOWS I DONT WANT ROUNDED CORNERS I WANT HER BUILT LIKE A BRICK HOUSE THESE ICONS LOOK LIKE TWINKS

so much of my personal ideology boils down to "we don't need to figure out whose fault it is" like i just simply don't consider it necessary to the problem-solving process. and in fact i think it's the number one reason why shit never gets done, ever. i understand the importance of "holding people accountable" blah blah blah but turns out the people who are the worst at that are the ones who need to do it the most, anyway

like i think to fish theyre just both people who shouldve died a long time ago and now they arent allowed to. because they need each other. and they both crave that and resent it.

I Need A New Job

I'm just going to have to look it up bc I've been in every single room at least three times and I still can't find it

king of the jungle - iac 2023

I hate being on dating apps and I've never (so far in my life) gone on more than one date with any of the people I met just kind of existing so I'm stuck in a weird limbo of 'I do like dating/the idea of dating enough to want it but none of the methods have really worked out'.

On the other hand because I'm ace and actually generally willing and able to imagine life without a partner I sometimes find myself just not wanting to expend effort. Because truly I think it's good to want to enjoy and experience my life fully without the presence of a partner. Especially in the face of a lot of pressure from society that tells me being married (to a cis straight man) will complete me in some way.

On the third hand I had installed specifically for this post however I'm also aware that 'never so far' is 27 years and I'm probably being a little over dramatic and that assuming good fortune I might have years to date and not date as suits my mood.

So in conclusion- blergh

electronic arts i am going to break into your headquarters and eat your servers