A special kind of intimacy between characters

[Not restricted to romantic dynamics!]

- I tear bread into smaller pieces to feed them to you, as if I am Jesus, or a mother bird. You may view me as a savior but I would kill for you

- Being there for the other person when they're sick - In a gross, disgusting way. Holding them unwaveringly through the wretched and repulsive, unflinchingly. Don't apologise, just survive. I'd do it again.

- You're scary, but I'm scarier. You don't know that yet, but I hope you won't fear me when you do.

- You're scary, and thank God for that. I'm more than happy to close my eyes when you use it on others. I am a coward.

- One character knowing exactly what the other one would really like to ask for, but is too self conscious or selfless to. Thus, they do it and provide, without the other person needing to outright request it. The self conscious character always makes sure the other one knows it's not obligated and they're always free to decline, and the other one nods firmly, knowing that, and still doing it.

- Sitting next to each other at the end of the world. Because it won't be okay. But they've accepted that

- "You destroyed the thing I love and I can't forgive you for it." "I can't forgive myself either." "I still can't hate you despite that." "I can."

- "Please hate me" "No."

- One character understanding when the other is in too low of a state to act like a decent person currently, and so they don't step over those lines that they'd normally tolerate. The first character holds the other one responsible for things later nonetheless, when they're able to actually carry it

- Two characters sharing the negative perceptions and opinions they've had of each other over the years. This can either lead to a realization that, respectfully, out of deep understanding of each other, they decide to not stay in touch with each other again from now on. Or, it can lead to a realization that thanks to this understanding they now have, they're more ready to become closer and have managed to clear the air with this conversation

- Characters of notably different ages talk and reflect on time that has passed between them. They feel a connection over how different their circumstances were. The younger one audibly wishes they could've done or changed something significant, to which the older character pointedly and gently tells them it wasn't their place to. Let us old crooks handle the tough things. (It wasn't your fault you spent formative years like this. I'm sorry you had to)

THE clip. you know the one

ELLIE WILLIAMS + IMPORTANT MOTIFS

1. Polyphemus Moth 2. Knife 3. Snowflake (Winter is Coming)

Anyways. Atsushi is a butch lesbian and Akutagawa is his femme victorian goth boyfriend girlfriend. Btw

drawings of my oc loren (he/him) from 2022 that i still like

He-

Alessio moved to cover him-

Needless is a non-binary lesbian to me

icon commission for @/rottingdoodle on Instagram of their DnD character!

//re-blogs welcome, do not re-post, and please do not use this as your own character or oc//

I noticed ur rqs are open...could u draw your winner gijinka again Grins Wide (maybe loser too if u want. Maybe)

this ask made me get up and run around like a deranged beast /pos so of course i had to finish my designs for them... and draw some doodle pages while i was at it...!! i had just been thinking about finalizing their designs so it was perfect timing really :]

i feel like the vibes of my winner design is like... a cool music teacher whos secretly a retired rockstar and they dont want anyone to find out about it.. lol.. also i was going for a "dresses like Gonzo" kind of look. i think i succeeded. jurys still out if they are actually a music teacher but thats the vibe

i was so excited abt drawing them that it took me a bit bc i kept having to get up and go crazy .. hehe but yea bla bla bla i love weenor and loosr i hope u enjoy :D

kunikida who started expanding his wardrobe. he now wears skirts to work.

when he first started wearing skirts he was anxious about what people would say about him, but all he got was compliments. (and flirting from dazai)

he gets more comfortable, and starts wearing flowy tops to match his skirts.

I've seen a couple of people say this was Scott Dixon's first Long Beach win and it is actually his second -- he won in 2015, beating Helio Castroneves and Juan Pablo Montoya!

// All of my muses are Bi. ALL OF THEM.

ppl aren't gonna nominate you if you just keep asking for it over and over

Hey uhh, ... not to rain on your parade and all that but, I've got something to share with you:

I kinda help run the awards? So maybe I just like advertising it? Food for thought.

Watching The Gentlemen and seeing Michelle Dockery (who I’ve only ever seen as Lady Mary in Downton) glam to the max—red lips, gold hoops—with a gun in hand, pure London, saying “Listen to me, cunt, you take one step forward and it’ll be the last fucking step you ever take.” and I’m just beside myself with happiness at my movie choice.

ALSO

Charlie Hunman in this film is delicious.

Is Izzy a Gentlebeard supporter now, or is he inserting himself in a relationship that doesn't need him because, despite all his progress, he still cannot fully let go both of Ed and of the desire to be a captain's special little guy?

Gestalt, Leopold/Loeb, & Like Minds

Once again, Like Minds (2006) is sticky in my brain. This time because if we take the movie’s explanation of Gestalt as a framework from which to view Nigel/Alex and the very clear subtextual comparison to Leopold and Loeb (they come up twice in Sally’s research) then the idea that Alex is an entirely innocent party falls apart entirely and if the writing wasn’t so against a woman being right, Sally should have realized this.

Not to bring up how Alex’s “Nigel’s death was a means to an end” comment should have been a fat clue again but mentioning that in conjunction with Gestalt should have clued her into the fact that what Alex meant was Nigel’s death was a moving part in the larger, more import whole of what they were trying to achieve. At some point before the trigger was pulled, either one or both of them had to have realized that — you could argue Nigel realized it in the moment and Alex only saw it after but in conjunction with everything else it’s hard to believe Alex was that slow to the punch.

This also leads me to another point: Nigel, at least at the beginning of the encounter at Casa Colbie has no intention of dying — he wants his Maraclea, that's why set the whole thing up, so why does he end up dead at the end of the night? If I'm being honest, my little conspiracy is that Alex realized before Nigel did that he had to die. Maybe he realized Nigel was truly his Maraclea (but that’s a topic for another day). Alternatively, perhaps one or both of them realized that they had to “become one” as Nigel puts it in order to be at their fullest potential. It is heavily implied in the film that Nigel is still “haunting” Alex. He can still hear him and feel him. If this is the case, Alex is both the unprincipled man and he has the implement for killing in his head. They can no longer be separated, they are one.

Also if we just map them onto Leopold and Loeb, it’s clear that Alex’s version of events want us to view Nigel as Leopold, the ‘dominant’ partner in the gestalt relationship and Alex as ‘Loeb.” Leopold is the one who believed that he and Loeb had some great destiny BUT if we look at the empirical evidence we are given, Alex is, function wise, the Leopold in the situation. He is the “unprincipled man” where Nigel is just the “implement for killing.” Also the only thing we are told by Alex that Nigel said that it is provable (Sally found the notebook) that he said is that entry on Alex in his notebook in which he accuses Alex of having delusions of grandeur. So let's take Nigel's only actual words at face value here -- If it is true that Alex in fact does possess delusions of grandeur as Nigel said, then that makes him much more like Leopold. Loeb also notoriously saw himself as a “submissive” partner to Leopold and wanted to be dominated by him. Similarly, Nigel seeks direction from Alex and sees himself merely as a “spade.”

All this is to say that I do not believe for a second that Alex is innocent of their crimes because when you dig into subtext of gestalt as presented in the movie and the irl case that the movie is based on, it is so damn hard to believe he is. I think this is the puzzle he wanted Sally to solve but she couldn't because of her bad writing.

This is also all very gay. Leopold and Loeb were very gay but again, that's a topic for another day.