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arolesbianism · 4 months

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Thinking abt my bndori ocs again... I need to draw them more I love them all sm

#rat rambles #oc posting #band posting #momoko especially drawing her earlier made me remember just how much I adore her #but Im also thinking oh so hard abt kou I need to rework their design for the 50th time at some point #momoko has such a perfect design tho she's like high key one of my favorite designs Ive ever made #I just think her shapes and colors are neat #I should totally make them all furry designs even if I dont rly have any ideas for them #I do generally make momoko a frog in au stuff tho so she can be a frog ig #yuriko is technically sorta a bat in the random card au but thats mostly just a nodd at rokka backstory #the other two do not as of now have any connections to any animals so I fully have nothing for them #I could see yori being some sort of hog or smth and kou could be a mongoose or smth idk #that also reminds me Ive been meaning to make olivia and jackie furry designs for funsies #I mean I already moddled their designs off of animals so it wouldnt be hard #Ive just been struggling to draw thats all #hopefully Ill keep building momentum into getting back into drawing more #although today was kind of rough I am starting to get off my ass a lil #mostly cause I finally found smth that I want to do in the future even if its just seeing my friends #I wanna meet them in person and the fact that thats smth I have to look forward to is making me feel much better #even if it wont happen soon just the fact that Ive added that to the 'thing I will do someday' list helps a lot with my mood #cause its just smth of a future I can get into my head yknow?#smth I can think of thats not just today and tomorrow

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lemongogo · 6 months

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what is their problem tbh

#lg doodles #nooo dont turn ur art jealousy into misplaced hatred noo~~#sry ive been thinkig of yotasuke a lot recently so im goig 2 make it ur problem too #also i liked yatoras beanie + glasses look hes kind of a loser #they r drawn ontop of jayjaykay shibuya spoiler drawing if u can believe it #blue period #yotasuke #yatora #ngl im still so floored by the admissions reveal #inwhich we find out yotasuke was never accepted 4 his art .. LIKE THTS CRAZZYYYYYY #smth so real abt their shared envy . and their disconnect w each other #n yet they still hang out tgt #n for the like . wats it called . idk its 2 am #their like . perception of each other as artists n how that inverts w the reveal . U KNWO WHAT J MEAAAN #like yatora always revering yotas work and yota struggling to understand yatoras passion n yatora feeling inadequate #and yotasuke almost protected by his skill alr bc he has that foundation and he thinks thats all he needs #n then like .dealing w the realization that u can have all the skill in the world but if ur msg isnt there if ur passion or ur identity isnt #in ur work then what are u saying for urself (yotasuke) vs yatora realizing that his art can and does speak for itself n that is just as #important or just as transformative as having smth visually pleasing and that being a storyteller can be ur strongest asset #and u are as much an artist as the guy who renders still lives w utmost ease (ytaske)#n thats not even going in2 the way they feel . yota like art is an obligation and yato like art is a decision u make for urself #these 2 are sick inthe head .

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cathalbravecog · 9 months

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veep dad comfort art

#veep dad :]#i have Not been well mentally tbh the second im with friends i DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE anyways ill be VENTING A TINY BIT HERE #i need excitement in my life but im like #has no social life #oopsies...!#so i thought yknow what would make me happy rn. My Veep Dad #yea thats it #also ive been struggling with motivations to play ttcc and draw so....#apologies for being in the game less. especially as im in the post game with almost everything done #im usually kinda really goal oriented in games and yeah having no tasks or close friends to play with #im just kinda THERE and getting that initial push to do stuff is very hard #my motivation has just been at an all time zero (again) and it upsets me bc i do wanna do stuff...not bc ohh productivity but bc #i just wanna HAVE FUNNNN #anyways erm.... thanks for listening to my little rant here again. i dont know where else to express this sort of stuff. feels wrong to dum #it on strangers who i know are there for my art but. whatever. yknow #just wish i was more motivated in general but my life is Just Kinda Sad and im an Antisocial Anxious Wreck Dear Cog #senior vice president #sr vp #veep dad #personal tag if i dont wanna main tag....#doodles #traditional art #guz art #toontown

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stabberghost · 1 year

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splaboing

#wouldve drawn off the hook but i struggled. so hard. im sorry #and sorry for all the splatoon art im taking a short break from gay puppet junk and ocs. surprisingly #i just dont wanna get burn out considering thats all ive been drawing months #anyways rambling over #stabberart #splatoon #splatoon 3 #deep cut #splat3 #shiver #frye #big man #squid sisters #callie #marie #splatoon art #splatoon idols

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waluigisgaybf · 6 months

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Lineart turned out well!!!!! and I added colour to his eyes for a nice lil pop of red 😩👌

BUT GOD, Im legit so happy with this

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stick-named-figure · 1 year

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prompt list

march 1st - favorite thing to draw

i think my favorite thing to draw is kinda whatever i'm drawing not gonna lie! favorite part of drawing depends on what i'm drawing too. dragons are a deep favorite of mine though and i started thinking about making a stick that's also a dragon lately.

#Their pronouns are capitalized btw. like you can use whatever just capitalize it #self post #self art #not avm #I REALLY LIKE DRAWING. btw. all the posts thats like “art is suffering” idgi lol.#even when ive struggled to do something i dont think ive ever been like “i hate drawing fuck it get rid of it” idfk #but i like tihs little guy . the guy ever.#haven't come up w a name yet tho lol #mARTch2023 #i think im just gonna post these to here n reblog them to my other sideblog

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qumiiiquinnquin · 6 months

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ill never be good enough at anything

#vent #events of today only proved it #im genuinely so close to giving up completely #i dont feel happy when I draw because I know its not good enough and im ashamed when others see it because I know they think the same thing #I dont feel satisfied or accomplished when finishing schoolwork because I know others will have done it better and responded better and im #the stupidest person of the entire class. some things I just dont understand but I know everyone else or lots of others did #i cant do anything right. i cant socialize correctly. i cant remember to do anything. i cant keep any stable relationships #i know if i get a job they'll ly me off or fire me within days max weeks. i dont expect to be able to hold down a job for long #i dont have the skills necessary to become what I want to be which is a meteorologist. i struggle in math and that career is a lot of math #i actually want to be an artist too but ill die a lonely death. i cant even do this class. and artists are not paid enough to survive #hell what I do right now with art in my spare time is much worse than others. a mouse and microsoft paint. both arent good enough #i cant not compare myself to others. i know that they're all better than me. and im around these people every day and see it on social medi #i really want to put my art in our shredder and permanently delete files. i want to drop out. i dont know what to do with myself because i #know that im not good enough for anything except lay in bed like the depressed piece of shit i am and end up getting kicked out #i thought about just leaving class today and throwing myself down the stairwell from the top floor i was already on #just over the barrier thats right next to the first flight of stairs that prevents people from falling off the stairs from a height #the one you can look down and see the following flight of stairs. just throw myself down from that and hurt myself significantly.#ive been thinking about jumping again. from a new part of campus thats higher than where i initially wanted to fall from #if not those then sl!t my wrist or run into traffic #i just need to d!e. There's no room for someone as worthless as me #i cried when I came home today because im just done. i cant carry on and itd be better if i didnt. itd be preferred.

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britneyshakespeare · 9 months

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I don’t think he ever read any of my poems now that I think about it

#tales from diana #when we first met i told him about my poems and i gave him some free copies of this small local literary magazine they're published in #he pretended to be interested but never actually said he read them. i dont think i asked more than a couple times #but if i recall correctly he told me unprompted a few times he hadnt #perhaps thats why he thought of me as more of an artist than a poet. he had seen me draw but i dont write poems in front of ppl #and it takes one second to look at a drawing (and to not appreciate it) (as he didn't for the most part)#even though i explained often that id only been drawing for like a year and im still very much a beginner and it's a huge struggle for me #it's very very hard for me to draw i don't consider myself good at it. ive made a FEW good works but im not a good artist #im not confident but that's ok ive enjoyed my progress #there were a lot of little things id do for him that he just wouldnt acknowledge much or seem to care about #so much for trying to make an impression on ppl #i think some ppl only want to be around you so they can suck up your company and feel validated #i have to be honest. that is nothing like me at all #im fine being alone. i could never be addicted to ppl as some are.#long story short this guy never cared about me

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13thsinnr · 11 months

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kitten ill be honest daddy has no motivation to do anything anymore

#thats nothing new i guess #im feeling really creatively unmotivated as usual but like .... im starting to just feel like fuckin.. its not worth trying #feels like all the skills ive tried building mean nothing at this point #and it feels like i didnt really get anywhere . and that its all going away now that i havent been drawing and writing as often #i dont want to put this on twitter cause i have a lot of people there i dont wanna bring down #and ...... like #i guess im scared of being friends w a lot of people who feel more artistically accomplished than me #ive always been just kinda 'ok' at everything and ive never had one standout skill that ive been good at #its always been smth ive struggled with but lately its been getting to me #i dunno.#i feel like theres always so much going on. and i just never want to do anything anymore.#vent

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vyibunni · 2 years

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drawing this really brought me back to middle school

#vb ocs #original character #at least if youre finnish you can relate hjdjshskd #in their world/country you take school pics in uni as well okay jdjdkd in the first year!#so this is levi in his first year at uni. so before he became feral lmfao #but yeah ive been really struggling with drawing recently so im happy i got this done #i want to do this kind of drawing for all the characters but i gotta do this so that i dont put the #usual amount of pressure on myself that makes me not do it: they dont have to look the same to this!!!#its okay if the styles dont exactly match ! just do your best and get it done thats the most important!!#jsfejsjkfkdjdd i hope i get them done some day

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arolesbianism · 9 months

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Another quick drawing from last night

#keese draws #eternal gales #oc posting #oc #ocs #oc art #experimented a lil bit with giving her some more visible dark fur #I think I like it but Im gonna have to draw her a few more times to make sure I think #my main concern is that it might make her look a lil too similar to mason pattern wise #which is already smth Ive struggled with in the past lol #also yeah I <3 using brushes incorrectly #idc what the creators of any given brush intended if I can use it for funky lineart I Will use it for lineart #also yeah Ive been grabbing a bunch of free brush packs lately so thats why Im actually drawing shit again lol #tbf the glory drawing was me wanting to use a base procreate brush Ive been meaning to mess around with but I used some texture brushes too #with all my new texture brushes making bullshit backgrounds will be a breeze 👍#oh also Ive been trying to use those dumb layer filter mode thingies for the first time lately with my shading #idk how Im feeling abt them tho tbh multiply is nice ig but I kind of dont like how it dulls out the colors sometimes #like I know it makes the shading more coherent but idk sometimes I like the more grading shading #idk can yall even tell the different dndmdkdndh #I might just be being too picky with my colors or smth I always tend to assume the worst abt my colors #anyways sceduled and now eepy time from the past and good morning future me

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dayraiser · 1 year

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slowly (more like suddenly and without warning. but) weaning myself from my social media dependency but rest assured natm and fnv are still absolutely rotating in my head all the time. ramble in tags

#its kind of funny actually how i can still feel like part of a fandom #despite not really actively participating #i find it hard to post traditional scribbles and stuff even though thats all i post #because i used to like. ONLY do digital #struggling with a lot of personal stuff that means i dont draw digitally much anymore #but anyways! just in case anyone was wondering where ive been #im doing kinda ok! just not producing too much post-able stuff yknow? lol #i hope yall dont mind the slowdown of reblogs n such #please be patient w me as i work on myself in the real world ^_^#diem says things tag

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moonlit-dreamers · 8 months

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"Hurts." Says the Sun.

"I know." Replies the Moon.

Moon can't eat the nightmares this time.

rubs my grimy little rat hands together IT DONE!! ITS BEEN COMPLETED! this has to be one of the biggest projects ive done in a while. but its finally finished!

made this for @sootybunny once upon a dream au/fic. this specific scene was so- mwah heart wrenching. the lines i put down are the ones that hit me the most emotionally so here ya go <3

versions without static and without text will be under the cut

also maybe a bit of rambling :) (also warning for spoilers teehee)

ALSO REBLOGS APPRECIATED

ill be honest, this was quite the struggle. took me a bit to find the posing and the fucking hands were a pain in the ass. the clothes were also a struggle but quite a big of it was covered by shadows or different body parts so yippee! but despite how i struggled and how i still lowkey dislike certain parts of this drawing im still really proud if it!

but just- this entire au the fic the everything- all got me in a choke hold. i have so many theories about it and so many thoughts but my brain isnt letting me put it in a way thats even mostly coherent so yeah- maybe someday i can reblog this and write down my feelings fully when im not half asleep

but im just loving the apocalyptic setting and how everything is so scary and messed up. the whole "virus" going on with the automatons (which i have my own theories about tho sooty has seen/heard them a bit :]). im also obsessing over moons character. he sees himself as such a monster and it doesnt help that the way hes treated only reinforces it. we see it especially in chapter 3 and OW all of them hurt/pos

but yeah! this was by far my favorite scene in the fic. except maybe that one silly scene where sun gets yoinked and things get a bit goofy and everyone nearly dies :) but thats a close second

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thewinterpillarhashira · 15 days

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i owe everyone a smol collection and commentary to wips/scraps i did before, during and after the fime i went into ur average cliche hollywood cringe emo phase

^^ THIS. oh my god, where do i even start about this.

MY GOSH this was like, the last thing i did b4 i fully succumbed to burn out as a whole LMAO

i made this becoz i got inspired by marc brunet doing yoneyama mai’s style vid that passed by my feed as i scrolled through hoards wanting even a single dose of motivation to prevent what i knew was an upcoming artblock.

and y’know me, i HEART yoneyama sm. so seeing that was my absolutely yumyum cup of tea—temporarily 😭

u see, EVERYTHING WAS GOING SO WELL⁉️ until i reached my limit at (unsurprisingly) hair shading.

needless to say, this was scrapped becaz—sure, the idea was overall wonderful—but the way i did the blue moon weed flower and the lighting was just NOT it for me at all. nuh uh (i essentially went through a major sob story era after this BUT i convinced myself it was just a phase—and guess what? IT WAS!! showed myself i own me n i do me 🗣️ WHOS THE ALPHA⁉️😈)

(..i aint ever physically, mentally, emotionally nor spiritually recovering from typing that.^)

^basically, after struggling to find myself for a while, i soon fortunately managed to get back to it in the slightest!;) andddd so, recently, i alas decided to do something just for me.

no more frieren fridays(+apothecary dairies) were honestly hella extra upsetting when it happened during an existential crisis moment. but hey, i got to finally draw some characs i rlly love!

these are some 30 min warmups to both challenge and to have fun myself considering its been quite some time since ive picked up my pencil and done smth worth my while.

personally content with this. moreover, it genuinely helped a lot for me to start drawing stuff again;)

^now a quick sketch i did with a palette that was somewhat out of my comfort zone.

if you’d notice, i usually use pastel colors when i do things—which i realized as i reminisced my journey and the friends we made along the wa-

in short this was a lil tryout i didto NOT do’at 💪

nothing much to say here other than that this is my forgotten genshin oc whom is now practically a test dummy for me to use whenever i have to experiment colors bcuz she doesn’t have an official one (yet…jk thats never happening sux to be her 😂🤣)

^notbing much I've got to complain about here

it's literally just a mulihaohao art style study

with ri as stelle lmao

i merely got too lazy to get it done

will prob finish....ext year-

..last but DEFO the least, a hu tao with miku fit sketch i ditched

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hyolks · 5 months

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Hi! I'm loving the designs for your FMA cowboy AU, especially Al's! I was wondering, would he have any sort of speech impediment from his lower jaw being metal? It sounds like he still has his teeth, palettes, and tongue, but what about sounds that need both lips, like M, B, and P? Just curious if he'd struggle with those. Love your art!

thank you sm!! :") al's design has been both really fun to parse out and also a nightmare. thank u for this question this is getting me to tackle the things i hadn't particularly thought out

heads up! intense injury cw!

initially what i had for Al was that it was just his jaw was replaced with some scarring along the right side of his head and neck. my initial drawings actually didn't incorporate any neck connection but the most recent times ive drawn it it's extended to the neck bc tbh that makes more sense to me, idk what i was thinking originally. theres no additional support for the automail jaw. what was i THINKING.

so a little more than half of al's jaw is actually missing. he's got automail for the right side of his jaw, a replacement for the TMJ and some jaw muscles, as well as extending a bit further down his neck for muscles that impact movement. the jaw that we actually see (that's similar to the armor in fma) is a cover for wiring protection, and it extends over to the other side of his face both for balance and for aesthetic purposes

al retains his upper lip and at least a portion of his lower lip. he's missing up to his lateral incisor on the right side of his lower jaw, and he still has his tongue. his jaw's range of motion isn't super extensive, and is also constrained due to scarring on his face

i think al would have similar issues that come with TMJ irritation/TMD. some ppl with tmd mention sounding like they're slurring or mumbling, as well as speaking slower to articulate better.

since he's still got a portion of his lower lip, he'd be able to make p, b, m, v, f sounds, but they're a little more whistle-y. same with s and z

his normal speaking voice would be pretty soft, hoarse, and a little wheezy. people mistake him for mumbling a lot. he tries to move his jaw as infrequently as possible, so it often sounds like he's speaking with his teeth together

thats about all of my thoughts so far!! feel free to send in any thoughts/corrections!!! :")

#tune in as ash learns robotics to figure out if their au design would work #now i just have to. tackle. everything else about...... al's design mechanisms.............................#also to other ppl who have sent in questions about other aspects of the au: i see u. i see u #fma au #alphonse elric #wastelands au

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sir-fluffbutts · 11 days

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hi fluff! Ive been a big fan of yours for a while and ive been following your oc's stories for a while especially the axolotls but im more confused on your otger plot and lores such as

Lotl.corp (hope i spelled that right)

Fish market

And

Angle café

Along with others stories Such as Berry and that blue haired priest character. If you dont mind can you explain certian plot points and lore im just really confused and i'd like to know more so i can get more used to seeing these characters and understand tbeir stories

HELLO!!! AND OH 😈😈 let ME

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without spoiling anything,

the axolotls story follows latte as the main character (although i use chiffon as the "main character" in my YT stuff)

muffin (his brother) has went in a coma after a freak drunk driving accident 5 years ago and he's SURE chiffon(his little brother) has to do something with it.

the story goes as latte try to track the evidence down and make chiffon face proper punishment by the law.

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fish market follows pepper as the main character

he's a troubled indevisual with issues but is slowly stepping away from the shadow his past created, however he have done something to someone that backtracks all that and made him became the worst version of himself

i haven't went into lore specifics of this story yet so sit down and enjoy the show 😎

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angel cafe story follows blossom as the main character

he (a tracker hellhound) had escaped hell in hopes of running away from his unfair treatment, however this made him public hell enemy #1 and he is being activly haunted by almost everyone

a high angel (cupid) named valentine has took him in and they're in a temporary symbiotic relationship cause valentine needed someone to track something, a powerful demon named eve

again! this one you gotta sit down and enjoy the show cause i haven't even introduced backbite yet

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the humans lore is....built different

cause it don't really have a specific "lore", its more of bunch of slice of life storys with sprinkles of timelines of horrible butterfly effects and resets

the main characters are

vincent, a art college student who draws buff furries for a "temp living". he can tick anytime and kill people but thats for a another time

joie, a college dropout that has the will of a wet sponge. currently living with his cosmic horror boyfriend and he has the curse of regeneration

barry, a event host and a bar owner who has a tiny crush on his childhood friend. he also has been a canibal (not a killer!) before but this is wierdly very unrelevent to everything

and colin, who dropped out of uni to seek for his true passion but struggling, mothers everyone mentioned above and is the most normal guy here, childhood friend of barry

with bit of side characters such as

mael, a prist at a local church who has darker intentions

amy whos crushing on vincent (he is not getting the hint at all, at this point she has suspicions that he's 🏳️‍🌈?)

rico, a random kid that seems to follow the main cast

and him

#ask #THE STORIES I HAVE.....MY +600 NOTE PAGES.....#hyperfixiation of a thing nobody knows about is so strong man im suffering

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