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catboymingi · 3 years

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mirror, mirror on the wall - veninder chap. 8

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pairing: mingi x reader

genre: slight angst, fluff; soon best friends to lovers

word count: 6.2k

warnings: language

det har været et problem / siden vi blev alene / [...] / det er kærlighed, det kan være svært - it’s been a problem / since we were alone / it’s love, it can be complicated

mingi had no right to be as cute as he was, still running his fingers through your hair as you were about to start another movie, something that was only interrupted by a message to the group chat.

[san]: he either managed to fix things or y/n broke all his bones

[san]: no matter what it is i support you @y/n

you looked at the redhead with an expression you didn’t even know how to interpret yourself, because you didn’t know what exactly was going on in your head; looking at him had been more of an instinct than anything, but apparently it looked questioning or curious, because he started explaining.

“they almost beat some sense into me. i just really didn’t realise that you didn’t hate me until san was about to kill me, so that’s probably why they suspect you might’ve done the same. not that i wouldn’t deserve it.”

and even though the tiny mean part of you agreed that he did deserve it - maybe not to have his bones broken, but some kind of angry outburst - the much bigger part was able to tell that he was clearly still feeling horrible about it and knew that he hadn't meant to hurt you, and that part shut his self deprecation down right when it started.

"you don't. don't say that. you don't deserve to be hurt at all." your hands had gone back to rest on top of his which were still crossed in front of your body, giving them a small squeeze to show that you weren't angry and didn't harbour any thoughts of hurting him in the slightest.

"thank you."

his forehead was resting on your shoulder and you knew he wasn't just thanking you for saying that he did not, in fact, deserve an ass beating, but also for having accepted his apology so readily. as if there'd ever been any doubt about that, but apparently to him there had.

"what do you want to watch now?", you tried to change the topic, because while you weren't angry or upset with him you didn't exactly want to be reminded of being ignored for so long and also the reason why that had even happened in the first place. you wanted to forget that in this moment, just wanted to enjoy his presence and his warmth and that he was there.

"i don't know. do you have a recommendation?"

you thought some, and you did have one, but you weren't sure if you should suggest it. you'd watched random romcoms with him before, but that had been less a matter of recommending and more a matter of just accepting what netflix suggested. you felt a little awkward recommending a romcom, especially now that you were… in a weird emotional situation. or maybe it wasn't weird, but it wasn't one hundred percent clear where exactly you were, either - you were best friends with feelings for each other and an inability to act on them before you could be certain it wouldn't ruin things. were romcoms appropriate in that context?

"you're overthinking." of course he noticed, and you nodded.

"it's silly, but i feel like it's a little different now that there's… like, not even unspoken feelings, but feelings, in the air. i don't want to, i don't know, lead you on? even though it's not like i wouldn't technically want to lead you on, it's just… i don't know how to say it."

he hummed in reply, because while he didn’t worry about anything of the sorts he could understand why you did.

“just try not to worry. what do you want to watch?”

you didn’t want to overthink anymore, didn’t want things to be awkward, so you told him, even though part of you still felt a little odd. it was the first time you were even remotely close to a relationship, so you didn’t exactly know how to act, but you tried to do as mingi said and not worry too much.

“to all the boys i’ve loved before. i’ve watched it like seven times already, and there’s a sequel, too.”

but you still didn’t move to put it on, so he leaned forward, squishing you in a little between his chest and your legs, and put the movie on.

“it’s this one, right? everything is in finnish”, the last part almost a whine because it was near impossible for him to navigate your netflix.

“mhm”, so he put it on, leaning back again and pulling you with him because he wanted to be close to you and he wanted to hold you. then you stayed like this, watching the movie, in comfortable silence except when one of you let out displeased sounds at the main characters’ inability to figure out their feelings or their dumbass behaviour. you watched the sequel, too, and then more movies that were on your watchlist because mingi honestly didn’t care much about what you were watching as long as he got to hold you, first interrupting your spontaneous movie marathon to eat a little. that was the first time he actually had to let go of you that day, and he didn’t like it, but you had to eat so he accepted his fate.

it was getting somewhat dark about one third through the next movie, something that made you feel very cosy and somewhat sleepy, the screen of your laptop being the only thing that was illuminating your room. it wasn’t late enough to sleep yet, and you weren’t tired enough to sleep yet, but you were aware of the fact that you’d be incredibly tired quite soon, and you wanted to ask mingi if he wanted to stay the night, not if he was still awake enough to go home.

“mingi?” you were surprised that you already did sound somewhat tired - it was probably just because you were so comfortable, and also because crying all week had exhausted you.

“hm?” his voice came from above you, his chin resting on your head as it had for most of the movies.

“where do you want to sleep tonight? we have uni tomorrow.”

“can i stay here?” his voice made it clear that he half expected you to say no, but you wouldn’t.

“if you want to? that’s why i asked.”

“i’ll text the boys to bring my bag. or we could go fetch it together?”

you thought for a moment, then made a decision.

“can we stay at your place? i kind of want to go over when i’m not crying. and your bed is bigger.”

not that you’d need a lot of space - whenever you shared the bed you were wrapped so tightly around each other that you might as well be a single person -, but he agreed. the boys would probably be glad to see that you were doing better, and it might spare him an ass kicking if he brought you over without having broken your heart.

“which movie is this? we can finish it there.”

you texted him the name, then replied to the boys, whose previous messages you had ignored and who were making bets on whether or not mingi was still intact.

[y/n]: were coming over soon and i want ice cream

where the ice cream idea came from, you didn’t know. you just knew that you wanted ice cream now. it was a spontaneous craving, but one that the boys seemed to be willing to fulfil.

[yunho]: which flavour?

[san]: and do we need to plan for mingi too or did you knock out his teeth?

[y/n]: wouldnt he need even more ice cream if id knocked out his teeth tho?

[y/n]: but hes fine

[y/n]: and surprise me

“i don’t think san’s going to let me live this down anytime soon”, the redhead almost whined, and even though you hadn’t even done anything you felt like you should apologise.

“sorry he’s so angry at you.”

“don’t apologise. he just really cares about you, i can’t blame him”, then, to distract you before you’d start overthinking again, “let’s go.”

you shut down your laptop and grabbed your university bag along with your wallet, keys and phone charger, and then you left to the boys’ place, almost falling asleep on the train ride, but if you had your best friend would’ve carried you without hesitation. since you managed to stay awake he opted for carrying your bag instead, holding your hand all the way just so he could be sure you’d stay there with him. sure, the risk of you randomly running away was small, but never zero, and he wasn’t about to risk anything. and he just really enjoyed holding your hand, now having full permission to simp because you were apparently simping as well, though he wouldn’t call it that for you. you were cute, he was embarrassing, or so he felt.

“my favourite!”, san greeted you as soon as you entered, forcibly removing you from mingi because he decided it was necessary to hug you tightly even though he’d last seen you this morning. your linked hands hadn’t gone unnoticed, though, so his next words were him asking you if that meant he had to sleep by himself again.

“i’m sorry, sannie”, and you genuinely seemed to be, because he had been there for you all week and you felt a little bad for “ditching” him like this, even though he’d never blame you or be actually upset. he’d just threaten mingi to wait and see what would happen if he dared to break your heart again, because as much as he’d enjoyed having you there to cuddle he most definitely hadn’t enjoyed the fact that you’d been crying your eyes out on the daily.

“just give me half of your ice cream and i’ll forgive you”, and “deal” you said because it felt like a fair compromise.

“no bones have been broken?”, seonghwa, who had now entered the living room/hallway area as well, asked, and the tall idiot shook his limbs (and managed to kick your lower leg in the process) to show that he was still entirely intact.

“yet”, san warned, glaring at his friend because he’d noticed you flinch when he’d accidentally kicked you.

“don’t hurt him, he needs to dye my hair on tuesday”, you tried to convince the black-haired boy to leave your best friend alone, and that worked as a distraction, because now he was excitedly asking about which colour you’d chosen.

“technically, i chose”, mingi felt the need to make known, because while he wasn’t going to reveal the embarrassing almost-kiss and the following rejection he did want to somehow let the others know that he was still special, still your best friend. like a kindergartener arguing about who was cooler.

“which colour did mingi choose, then”, san repeated his question with the slight alteration, rolling his eyes but smiling because things seemed to be okay again.

“red”, you informed him and the other boys that were now all gathered in the living room and about as curious as san about your soon-to-be makeover.

“is that why your hair looks like this right now? preparation for a whole new look?” yunho hadn’t asked with any malice, but you’d honestly forgotten the mess your hair was whenever you brushed it, especially if you went outside after having brushed it, any humidity higher than 2% leaving you looking like your hair had exploded.

“that’s just what it’s like when i brush it”, exasperated because you were scared they’d think it looked bad - your parents, who had the straightest hair you’d ever seen (which had frequently left you wondering if you maybe were adopted), had always thought it looked bad and told you to straighten it to fit in better, even though there was absolutely no use to straightening it because if you didn’t empty an entire can of hairspray on your head the humidity would make it explode again in no time.

“if you do this in red that’s going to look really cool”, jongho told you, and you were strangely relieved. your hair was quite a source of insecurity, so you were glad they didn’t hate it.

“where’s the ice cream?”

your cravings were still going strong, you wanted ice cream now, and you also wanted to change topic from your hair to something with less focus on you.

“we got several flavours, so you can pick and the rest has to accept whatever you leave for them”, and because yunho had been the one to get the ice cream the boys didn’t even have the right to protest when he explained the rules of ice cream division.

“san, do you like banana?”

the boy in question nodded, so your choice was made. mingi fought for the right to be the next to choose and picked the second tub of banana flavour, and the rest managed to solve it a little more democratically. san was considered the least democratic, however, seeing how he not only had his own but also a third of yours (he’d been joking when he said he wanted half of yours, but you wouldn’t leave him alone until he’d accepted a third of it, at least), and mingi turned out to be more democratic than expected, having fought for the second tub of banana so he could share with you and avoid you getting less ice cream than the rest when you’d been the one to ask for ice cream in the first place.

once the ice cream was devoured everyone moved to do their thing, which, in the case of mingi and you, was finishing the movie you’d started at your place. rewatching, rather, because you couldn’t be bothered to look for where you’d left off. after that you decided to sleep, having to borrow clothes from your best friend again because you’d forgotten to bring a pyjama. he was glad about it, secretly, though he’d never admit it, because he thought you looked cute drowning in his clothes, it made him feel soft.

“goodnight, teddy bear”, laying half on top of him because you’d missed sleeping in his arms and because he was warm and comfortable.

“goodnight, y/n.” and though it wasn’t quite how it should be yet, though you weren’t his, he was happy.

having to leave you alone for class was the worst thing life could possibly demand from him, but life didn’t care. he (and the other boys, but that didn’t matter much to him) got to spend lunch with you, though, and you still hung out after university, even though you didn’t need to teach him anymore. monday was over fast, tuesday was almost there, and he was hardly able to fall asleep even though you were again half on top of him because he was so excited to get to dye your hair.

“you’ll look so cool tomorrow”, he informed you when you wanted nothing more than to sleep, but you couldn’t even be mad at him keeping you up because he seemed so excited. more excited than you, even.

“only if you do a good job”, you teased, head on his chest and able to hear his heart race.

“i definitely will.”

“what do i get if you don’t?”

it was just jokes, but he took his chance to make some sort of advance, because while he did want to show you that he genuinely did like you a lot he was still nervous about actually acting on it. what if you’d think he was stupid?

“a cinema date, and i get you all the snacks you want.”

“will you sleep if i say okay?”

you were trying to hide the giddy feeling in your chest by teasing him like this, but you were also starting to get incredibly tired - the clock had already crossed the line between monday and tuesday, and you just wanted to sleep. class wasn’t all too early the next day, but both you and mingi would have to get up early since you were planning to buy the hair dyeing essentials before university, so you needed the sleep.

“fine.” he wouldn’t be able to fall asleep right away, but he could try, at least. and stop moving so incredibly much.

“okay. now sleep, you need to do a good job tomorrow.”

“goodnight”, pressing you tight to his chest because he’d just scored a second date with you.

“can you please just turn off your alarms, just one single day?”, the redhead whined out the next morning when it was 5am again and he was forcefully removed from the land of sleep by the tone he’d come to hate because it did this every single morning he woke up with you, and you just plain refused to turn your alarm off by this point.

“maybe if you ask really nicely. good morning.”

then you crawled out from his embrace to turn off the alarm for now, looking at him with a smile on your face. he was still so tired - he’d gotten maybe four hours of sleep because of your inability to get up at a normal time -, and he looked adorable, rubbing his eyes for like ten seconds just to force himself to be a little more awake.

“good morning”, he replied, even though he was still somewhat grumpy at your alarm. he just couldn’t not say it.

“today’s the big day”, the day where you’d finally go back to looking more like you, and also the day where you’d match with the sleepy idiot in your bed. though he seemed significantly less sleepy as he realised that he’d be dyeing your hair today, sitting up so fast you wouldn’t have been surprised if he’d lost balance and fallen off the bed.

it seemed to be pure torture to have to wait for a more appropriate time to leave the flat, seeing how he was constantly checking his phone for the time, but it only left him all the happier when it was finally time to leave. he’d gotten dressed hours ago, in an attempt to get time to pass faster because maybe it would if the time gods saw that he was ready to leave - which it, much to his dismay, hadn’t at all, but it didn’t matter anymore now that he finally got to leave.

the store was near university and he bought everything for you, not wanting to let you pay because it felt like it was a treat for him that you were letting him dye your hair so he didn’t want you to spend money on it, even though you were just as excited. then you went to class, and you were relieved he was there with you when one of the girls approached you when you were about to sit down.

“oh, you went back to the old boytoy? didn’t like the one we picked?” her voice was sickly sweet, and if you hadn’t been clinging to mingi’s hand the way you were he probably would have done something he’d regret later.

“this boytoy is more than ready to do things you really wouldn’t want me to do if you try shit like that again”, steam coming out of his ears if that were anatomically possible, “so i suggest you fuck off.”

you were glad he was towering in front of you, protecting you with his body from someone that was supposed to be your friend, because while the girls hadn’t left you alone since the party reminders of it still hurt. and they’d especially hurt last week, when the redhead hadn’t been there with you, something that hadn’t gone unnoticed and given them a reason for even more teasing. you just wanted to forget all about it and you didn’t want to see the smug expression that would without a doubt be on her face.

“you’re no fun”, but she did leave and you visibly relaxed, the grip on the red-haired giant’s hand loosening.

the class went okay with him there, lunch with the boys was fun (they were teasing a certain redhead about how he seemed to be attached by the hip to you), and the last class of the day went by without any major happenings, either, and then, then it was finally time to go home and dye your hair, something mingi’d been waiting for ever since you told him he could do it. the train ride felt way longer than it usually was, and he decided to pick you up and run with you because he didn’t want to be so slow, a plan that was quickly discarded because running with you on his back did prove to be slightly more difficult than anticipated. he still urged you to hurry, though, and because you were physically unable to not do what he asked you to when he was excited like this you ran the last hundred metres to your dorm’s building, laughing loudly when you were at the door.

once inside he immediately beelined for the bathroom, wanting to start right away, but you told him you’d have to brush your hair first if you wanted a decent dye job.

“can i do it again?” and of course he could, because he was, admittedly, better at doing so without hurting you than you were yourself.

his movements were careful and he once more managed to get rid of all the knots without any major pain, running his fingers through your hair to make sure he hadn’t missed anything before going over to his bag and getting out something that looked suspiciously much like one of his t-shirts.

“i always wear this when i dye my hair, and since it’s already dirty i thought i’d bring it along”, he explained himself, throwing the shirt towards you so you could put it on.

“let me in when you’re dressed.”

your best friend put on the plastic gloves in the meantime - he’d had to buy new ones because your hands were definitely much smaller than his, and so were your plastic gloves -, waiting for his cue to start the dyeing ministrations on your hair. he most likely had a worse case of nerves than you did, because you knew how to treat your hair and he had no idea and he was scared that he’d mess up big time and you’d violently kill him for ruining your hair.

“get to work, teddy bear”, you told him when you opened the bathroom door, and you didn’t need to tell him twice. he prepared the bleach (with some help from you because if the bleach wasn’t just the right texture your hair simply would not accept it and dyeing wouldn’t work), then he carefully spread it on your hair, starting with the tips and working up so your scalp would get a break and you’d be spared the bleach sting for as long as possible. he was careful and you really enjoyed the feeling of his hands in your hair, the attention he was paying to his job, making sure he didn’t miss a spot.

you looked absolutely silly with the blueish paste in your hair, but that was half the fun of dyeing hair, looking like a complete mess until the job was done. because of the amount of hair and bleach you waited in the bathroom rather than doing something else until it was time to wash it out, mingi checking how light your hair was every now and then.

when both of you were pleased with the result he told you to lean over, carefully kneeling next to you, who was now on all fours with only your upper body leaning into the shower, and checking the water temperature before he went to wash out the bleach. his movements were slow and soft, making sure every last bit of bleach was gone before he handed you the towel that you’d used before whenever you dyed your hair black and which was, as a consequence, already covered in colourful little splotches of badly washed out dye and residue pigment that was coming out after showering. when he realised that you wouldn’t be able to grab it without either dripping onto the bathroom floor and all over yourself or landing face first on the shower floor he started drying your hair for you, too, attempting one of those towel turbans but not very successful at it.

“thank you”, you said once you’d sat up, smiling at him. he smiled back, then told you to dry your hair so he could see what you looked like blonde and finally put the red in.

“you’re so impatient”, but you were laughing because it was kind of cute, if you were being honest.

“yes, so hurry up.”

you had no choice but to comply, drying your hair as much as possible with the towel before asking him if he was ready for the big reveal.

“just show me”, the so far still lone redhead whined, and you finally did as he’d begged you to, showing him what you looked like blonde.

“so?”

he didn’t know what to say, because he thought you looked stunning, but he also didn’t want to embarrass himself by saying so when you weren’t even going to keep this hair colour. but maybe one day he’d have to go blond with you.

“if we weren’t going to match i’d tell you to keep this” was how he decided to let you know that he really liked it without seeming all too whipped. but maybe it was time to be whipped, because he did want to show you that the feelings you seemed to doubt were genuine, from his side. so, he added: “you look really beautiful with blonde hair.”

“let’s hope i look good with red, too.” he’d flattered you and you were a little flustered, so you tried to get his attention away from your looks and back to the task.

“you will.”

he first noticed that he hadn’t opened the dye when he was already wearing the plastic gloves, sending a sheepish grin your way and asking you to please open it for him. you did as asked, handing him the little tube so he could continue, and he once more carefully put the dye in, trying really hard to not miss a spot and spread it evenly. then you waited, again, until it was time to wash it out, which he did with the same amount of care as the first time.

once it was all washed out, however, he near caused you a heart attack.

“i think i messed up”, mingi informed you, and your head shot up in fear without caring about the fact that you’d be dripping all over the bathroom floor, because you half expected your hair to be falling out. you rushed over to the mirror, trying to see just how bad it was.

“what are you talking about? it looks great!” relieved that you would not have to rock a buzzcut again, because growing your hair out after the first had been a pain and you were so glad that it was as long as it was again, chest length and still going strong.

“no, i definitely messed up”, and now that you were able to look at him you saw the playful glint in his eyes, “so i owe you a cinema date.”

“you’re a fucking idiot”, heart still racing from the moment of panic he’d caused you, “if you scare me like that again you’re not going to get any date, ever.”

his expression quickly changed from playfully teasing to a very specific emoji, one with big, sparkling eyes, as he apologised.

“i’m sorry, please forgive me, please don’t do that”, something that only worked because you were so incredibly soft for him, especially when he looked like that.

“fine, i forgive you. but you can just ask for a date instead of near killing me.” how you managed to act like the butterflies in your stomach weren’t doing somersaults was beyond your comprehension, but you stayed cool, something you were happy about. relationships were weird and somewhat intimidating, as were feelings, and you didn’t want to make it even more intimidating and embarrassing by showing him just how excited you were about the idea of going out with him.

“let me try again, okay?” and before you had a chance to reply he continued: “will you let me take you out on a cinema date this week?”

“yes, but now we need to dry my hair before i ruin your shirt”, because the dye-water mixture that was dripping from your tips was leaving small stains already.

“it’s fine, that’s why i brought this one.”

but he still dried your hair for you, carefully, before looking at the finished makeover.

“do you like it?” you were nervous, fiddling with his shirt because what if he regretted his idea now? what if he thought you looked stupid?

“yes! you look cute, but also really cool, i don’t know, but it suits you so well.”

“i’m glad.” then, grabbed by the sudden desire to hug him, you wrapped your arms around him tightly.

“thank you for dyeing my hair.”

even though your hair was still moist and a little uncomfortable against his cheek he held you just as tight, happy that you seemed to like your new colour.

“do you want to go to my place? show the boys.”

you wanted to keep hugging him, but you’d have to stop that sooner or later anyway, so you might as well.

“okay. but you help me decide what to wear tomorrow.”

he followed you to your closet, and for the first time since he’d known you did he notice that it was divided, in a way, that you had two shelves for pants, shirts, skirts and so on. you pointed to one side of the closet - the shirt shelves were next to each other at the same height, as were the others -, telling him that this was where you kept the remnants of your alternative phase.

“can i take some clothes out? so i can get a better look.”

you nodded and soon half your closet was spread on the bed because he wanted to try putting together different outfit combinations.

“hold on, i have something i just remembered”, you interrupted him, walking over to your closet and fetching something from a drawer he hadn’t dared to open because he suspected he might be greeted by your underwear. you didn’t fetch underwear, though, instead throwing several pairs of fishnet tights at him, then a pair of what he assumed to be socks, and then, the biggest surprise, thigh garters.

“maybe this helps spice things up”, and it did, because you also owned a pair of red fishnets, something he chose as the base for the outfit. then, black high-waisted shorts with a distressed hem, an oversized black crop top (that crop tops could be oversized was new to him, but he imagined it would look cute), and of course, the socks that revealed themselves to be thigh highs and the spiked thigh garters that had almost cost him an eye when you’d thrown them at him carelessly.

“this?”

the redhead was curious to see what you’d think of his amateur alt attire - he had no idea if you’d like it, but at least he knew you weren’t opposed to the clothes as individual items because they were quite literally yours.

“i think you have a secret alt girl hidden somewhere deep inside you, and she broke free when she saw my clothes”, you joked, though obviously approving of what he’d picked out.

“just don’t like her more than me”, joining in on the joking, pouting at you before a grin spread on his face because he wasn’t able to hold it in anymore.

you collected the outfit he’d picked out, some makeup and your pyjamas, then you texted the boys that mingi was coming with a surprise.

you hadn’t bothered to change out of the hair dye shirt, your hair was still slightly damp, and your friend had red splotches on his forearms from where the gloves hadn’t covered his skin. it was pretty obvious that he’d just dyed your hair, which the two of you thought was kind of fun; maybe it was just the excitement from your first somewhat-date, but both of you were full of energy still, even though the dyeing was done already.

when you were in front of their door mingi texted the boys, telling them to gather in the living room and keep their eyes closed - he’d check, he informed them -, and while you were kept outside until he’d checked you luckily didn’t have to wait for long because they’d done as asked.

“open!”

you were the surprise, sporting a bright red hair colour and your hair looking straighter than they’d ever seen it, even though it was slowly regaining its regular curliness and puffiness.

“you look like you’re way too cool for us”, yunho decided, and the others agreed.

“that’s because she is”, mingi let them know nonchalantly, wrapping an arm around your shoulder and pulling you against him. he hadn’t considered how that would leave him unable to decently walk, though, starting to waddle towards his room while gently pushing you to move along with him.

“we’re going to watch a movie”, and off he went.

“what movie are we gonna watch?”

you were half sitting, half laying on his bed, watching him as he got out his laptop and joined you, motioning for you to make room for him so he wouldn’t fall off. his bed was big, sure, but you had to actually make use of that space, which you were very much not doing, leaving barely enough room for him if he were to lay on his side, which wasn’t the best movie predicaments. you readily scooted closer to the wall, though, sitting up more so you’d be able to watch him choose the movie.

“i don’t know, it feels like we’ve already watched so many.”

he was right; you’d watched about a dozen different movies by now, maybe more, so you were slowly running out of options.

“we could listen to music? just relax a little.”

“but we’re not going to listen to those songs you put on at the pyjama party”, he told you. “they weren’t exactly relaxing.”

“you can pick.”

he did, selecting some random relaxing lo-fi beats playlist on youtube. and because you were going to relax he put the laptop on the ground, laying down and making some grabby hands-adjacent movement at you so you’d come cuddle with him. and you did, wrapped yourself around him the way he’d been wrapped around you during your first movie night, an arm and a leg slung around him and your head not on his shoulder, not on his chest, but the space in between, and both of his arms were around you. he drew on your back, nothing in particular but just because you’d told him once that the movement relaxed you, switching which hand he used when the current arm started to feel heavy but not stopping even for a second. this situation made him happy, having you there and everything being calm; he wished it could last forever.

“are you tired?” mingi didn’t know why he’d asked - maybe because you weren’t moving at all, maybe because your breathing was slow and even, maybe because he was a little bit tired himself.

“mh, not really? just cosy. you’re like a big soft teddy bear.”

he felt so warm when you told him that, full of joy, full of soft feelings. you hadn’t talked about your feelings after that embarrassing and incredibly emotional situation at your place on sunday, but knowing that he did hold a special place in your heart, that you did like him the way he liked you, was enough to already make his heart grow to twice its regular, anatomically correct size.

his hands continued roaming your back, taking turns, sometimes trying to draw an actual shape, a heart, on your back, thinking you wouldn’t notice because you didn’t expect him to actually try to draw, but after several secret hearts you did notice that sometimes his movements seemed more coordinated, and then you noticed that he was drawing a heart, something that made you smile. he obviously wasn’t expecting you to realise what he was doing, so it was a genuine display of affection, not at all to convince you that he did like you but just because he wanted to.

even though both of you were convinced that you weren’t actually tired your eyes started feeling heavy about an hour into the playlist, despite the fact that it was barely past nine, and even though you maybe shouldn’t be sleeping in your street clothes you couldn’t be bothered to change, especially not when you realised that getting changed would mean waking up the gentle giant, whose movements had stopped and who was snoring just a little bit in your arms. you couldn’t possibly wake him up, and you couldn’t possibly bother him to turn off the laptop, so you just rubbed your cheek against the soft fabric of his shirt and closed your eyes, ready to doze off as well.

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cptnleviackerman · 4 years

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dig a lil deeper

tagged by @padmeamiala thank you my looove <3

1. do you prefer writing with a black pen or a blue pen?

black!! im not a maniac

2. would you prefer to live in the country or in the city?

probably the city, but not a really big city. ive had enough of countryside living tbh

3. if you could learn a new skill, what would it be?

if we're talking being able to just immediately know how to do this skill then probably the ability to play an instrument, like the drums

4. do you drink your tea/coffee with sugar?

nope

5. what was your favorite book as a child?

idk if this counts but I was obsessed with those yearly annuals you could get

6. do you prefer baths or showers?

probably showers

7. if you could be a mythical creature, which one would you be?

a witch??? a sorcerer??? idk

8. paper or electronic books?

paper definitely

9. what is your favorite item of clothing?

dUde what a question,,, probably my blue knitted-like jumper that I stole from my cousin

10. do you like your name? would you like to change it?

it's fine ig???? I still go insane when people actually use my name like holy shit??? that me??!!

11. who is a mentor to you?

I don't really think I have one :)

12. would you like to be famous? if so, what for?

yuh I'd love to be famous but only for the money though

13. are you a restless sleeper?

idk if restless is the right word but im kind of a light sleeper

14. do you consider yourself to be a romantic person?

i really could not tell you. do i sometimes long to be kissed tenderly??? yes. do I think about falling in love with my favourite characters every night before I go to sleep??? also yes. but irl??? idk man

15. which element best represents you?

i think water honestly

16. who do you want to be closer to?

physically??? nic 🥺 but if you mean like, mentally then no one bc I don't want anymore friends

17. do you miss someone at the moment?

yuh duh (NIC)

18. tell us about an early childhood memory.

i don't know if it's a memory or just a story that ive been told so much that I just think it's a memory, but on my first birthday party I accidentally called the police and they came to our house :))

19. what is the strangest thing you have eaten?

uuuuuggh idk honestly im not that adventurous when it comes to food

20. what are you most thankful for?

being alive

21. do you like spicy food?

yuhh but not /too/ spicy

22. have you ever met someone famous?

i met one of the supporting bands from my the vamps concert in 2018.also the guy from the gadget show with the glasses walked past me once

23. do you keep a diary or journal?

I keep a note of my dreams in a journal but not really anything else

24. do you prefer to use pen or pencil?

hhhmmm pen

25. what is your star sign?

aries :))

26. do you like your cereal crunchy or soggy?

cronchy

27. what would you want your legacy to be?

I'd be happy knowing I did the best with what I was given and that I was always kind when I could be

28. do you like reading? What was the last book you read?

hell yeah!! and doctor sleep by stephen king

29. how do you show someone you love them?

i used to be very bad at this, and over the past few months ive been forcing myself to be more open and actually tell my friends I care about them

30. do you like ice in your drinks?

sometimes, with abit of lemon

31. what are you afraid of?

im not sure really, ig wasting my life pursuing something that in the end I wasn't happy with

32. what is your favorite scent?

freshly washed clothes, lavender is nice too

33. do you address older people by their name or surname?

their name??? im not a fictional character mate

34. if money was not a factor, how would you live your life?

oh boi right, id probably pursue a different uni course to start with. move away from home as soon as I could. visit my online and irl friends more often. buy gifts for them too. send them letters. go to more places. dye my hair.

35. do you prefer swimming in pools or the ocean?

ocean, pools are too boring, you need those waves and the feeling like you will never breathe through your nose again when the sea water gets up in there

36. what would you do if you found $50 in the ground?

if there was no one around I would take it and probably just keep it in my wallet and save it

37. have you ever seen a shooting star? did you make a wish?

probably??? idk

38. what is one thing you would want to teach your children?

i could not tell ya

39. if you had to have a tattoo, what would it be and where would you get it?

I'd quite like a little star, not sure where

40. what can you hear now?

im watching harry potter, I can also hear cars outside and a door in the house keeps drifting open and shut due to the wind

41. where do you feel the safest?

in my room, with the door shut, watching something on my laptop, in almost darkness

42. what is one thing you want to overcome/conquer?

i want to be more open to physical touch with people, hugs and stuff

43. if you could travel back to any era, what would it be?

i really do not know

44. what is your most used emoji?

✨ or 🤩

45. describe yourself using one word.

tired

46. what do you regret the most?

I regret not speaking out when my older relatives were being racist at Christmas. I regret being so shy in secondary school. I regret not thinking more about my future when it wasn't so imminent

47. last movie you saw?

before the one im watching now I think it was ocean's 8

tagging: @happy-rascal @losersclub3000 @panstutteringbill

#this was fun actually #ask game #em talks #oc

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beelspillowpet · 3 years

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Lmao! Melody just really likes fire. It’s so pretty!

But about her hair. So, as a kid her hair was a bit past shoulder length and like a dirty blonde kinda color if you’re curious.

So, the verbal/emotional abuse she endured from her mother affected how she viewed herself in almost every aspect. Looks, intelligence, talent, etc. How she viewed her looks was so bad that the first thought she’d have when seeing herself was “disgusting”

About two years before she was sent to the Devildom, she couldn’t take it anymore. She was at one of her lowest points when it came to her looks, it seemed no matter what she did, nothing made her feel better about herself. Nothing made her feel any less disgusting. She had a breakdown and chopped off all her hair.

She went to a salon about a week after to get it fixed up, and she decided to get it dyed as well just on impulse. The first time she dyed it, it was like an ice blue kind of color.

Now this didn’t solve all her issues when it came to her appearance, but it pushed her to start expressing herself more. Her impulse decision to cut and dye her hair made her realize that was really the first time she altered her appearance to make herself happy. Every other time, she did what she thought others would like, and not what she wanted.

So she kept her hair short, kept dying it different colors, bought clothing that she liked (trying her best not to let what others might think affect how she dressed), got a few piercings, and eventually, she was able to like the person she saw in the mirror. Maybe not completely yet, but she’s better.

I honestly only meant to talk about her hair, but I just kept typing and, yeah.

God I used to have a problem with fire. Id get napkins right? then set them on fire over the stove and watch it burn in my hand. id do that like... A LOT LMAO

And no no ramble ON! IM listen to you, and everyone else too!!!!! I love talking and listening!!!! SERIOUSLY I REALLY REALLY DO!

Im glad melody got to learn to love herself again, even if its not all there. its a lifelong journey and shes doing better than some. i rather like her hair~ its a pretty color and once i have more time on my hands, maybe i could do one of her colored~~~

i have trouble with self image sometimes, which is weird because im cute as hell. so i shouldnt think this way. i cut my hair once and will never do it again. i like being able to flick my hair all over the place- its rare in my area to find black women with long hair naturally, so i want to take advantage of it more~

#Jinx thoughts

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inspiringwhilerespiring · 4 years

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Get to know me?

Yoooo - yall remember Myspace, and people would blog survey posts lol. Well thats me, I’m people. And I just wanna write my lil heart out and avoid all of my real life responsibilities. So found a lil questionnaire thing and I’m gonna fill it out. Also lowkey like doing this every so often so I can look back on it and reflect and see how much I may have grown/changed/shifted viewzzz ya feel? :)

Sooo here yall go <3

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

My neice maybe?

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

People who know me would tell me to put outgoing, but I honestly feel shy on the inside, so it just depends.

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

Literally anyone lmao fuck this quarantine

4. Are you easy to get along with?

Definitely

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Lets hope so

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Kind souls <3 always notice how they talk to their friends and family, but even people they don’t know like servers or janitors, etc. that shit matters heavy.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Probably not

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

A few homies

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Nah not really, just depends

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Not sure -it’s been a min since I had a “deep” connection or convo that I can remember - but was probably with my bestie R’Bo

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“Google that shit” lmao me, giving advice to my friends

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

TOUGH!!!! After Hours by The Weeknd is up there, Cayendo by Frank Ocean (been jamming his shit HAARD lately) and Inside Friend by Leon Bridges & John Mayer….but also been listening to albums - like Childish’s new album, Floreyyy for lo-fi shit, and also got into 070 Shake recently just to name a few.

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

FUCK YA

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

Yeah budddyy

15. What good thing happened this summer?

Idk, my bday party was lit?? And lots of river floats happened

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Lol

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

Cant deny that there isn’t so yaaa

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

19. Do you like bubble baths?

Yes

20. Do you like your neighbors?

Just moved, so don’t know em

21. What are you bad habits?

Procrastination lol and biting my nails

22. Where would you like to travel?

Literally ANNNYY-fuckin-WHERE!

23. Do you have trust issues?

Hmm I wanna say generally no, but I also always keep it one hunnnid with myself, and as much as I’d like to say I don’t have any - I think I def have insecurities with myself, that have the potential to become “trust issues” in certain relationships, but overall no. I live by the whole “you have my trust til you fuck it up” mantra

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Coffee in the morning lately, missed it and forgot how energized it makes me - gives me time to wake up and reflect/set daily goals

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

Stomach forever :((((

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Scroll on my phone, pee usually, or feed my cat lol

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

Tanner maybe?

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

My mom or my best friend R’Bonney - but any of my close friends and fam honestly

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Not directly

30. Do you ever want to get married?

Lol ok, so this is always changing…but lately (and by lately I mean the past few years) its been a no. I’m open minded though and am aware that I’m always changing my mind sooo who knows

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

yeppperoo

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Honestly, those aren’t my “thing” lollike id prob laugh or be awkward or just have to be hellllla drunk - but like I wouldn’t mind Jason Momoa and Tom Hardy tossin me around

33. Spell your name with your chin.

hjaylkee

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

Scocer back in the day - actually went and kicked it like a week ago for the first time in YEARSSSS - felt so damn good

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV, music forreeevverrr

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Lol story of my life

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

“Soooo” then probably ask a question or some shit lol

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

Hmmm…definitely have to be funny/have a good sense of humor. They’d have to be open-minded for sure. Up for trying new things, places, cultures, food, music, etc. Just have an adventurous spirit I guess when it comes to that. Have a good line of communication/openness - and just be able to have a deep/intellectual convo about anything and everything. Bonuses: taller than me, likes cooking, and going to music shows.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

Amazon lol I hate shopping

40. What do you want to do after high school?

To go back to high school :( lmao so much id re-do, cant believe its almost been a decade

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Hell yeah, this is life my dudes, dont take it so seriously - we all fuck up at some point or another

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

Something is on my mind for sure, or im just tired lol

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Yeah

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

DAMNNN WHAT so hard - I guesss if I had to pick, space…just because it’s more rare/harder to do I’d think.

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

My cat lol with his meowing ass

46. What are you paranoid about?

Lowkey a lot lol

47. Have you ever been high?

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Who hasn’t????

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

naw

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Black probably, like half my wardrobe

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

Of course

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

My bad habits

56. Favourite colour?

Yelllllow :)

57. Favourite food?

Oh gaaawwd, literally anything - lately: PB&J’s, fries, wings, Mediterranean, Mexican, pickles, ice cream, ramenzzzz

58. Last thing you ate?

Pistachios

59. First thing you ate this morning?

Cofffeeee w creamer

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Idk, not off the top of my head - maybe something back in elementary

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

Nah

62. Been arrested? For what?

Yeah lmao

63. Ever been in love?

Yes

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

No its really not that interesting and idc to type it out

65. Are you hungry right now?

24/7/365

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

Lol yes a few of them <333

67. Facebook or Twitter?

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now?

Noooo

70. Names of your bestfriends?

R’Bonney is number 1

71. Craving something? What?

Foooood, and companionship? Lol

72. What colour are your towels?

Idk, random, mostly blue

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

A lot lol

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

Lol no, but I have my one from my childhood in my room

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

1 - shout out to you Mr.Fluffy

75. Favourite animal?

I am fascinated by sharks; and like gators/crocs. But I have mad respect for elephants, they’re sooo damn smart and beautiful.

76. What colour is your underwear?

Dont have any on

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

BITCHHHH CHOC

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

All of them

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

Tie-dye

80. What colour pants?

none

81. Favourite tv show?

Game of Thrones prob

82. Favourite movie?

Avatar or Shawshank Redemption

87. First person you talked to today?

Sissy

88. Last person you talked to today?

Friend on FT

89. Name a person you hate?

No one, maybe Trump? lol

90. Name a person you love?

Everyone, fr fr

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

Nah

92. In a fight with someone?

Nah

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

Not enough <3

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

Not enough <3

95. Last movie you watched?

The Decline on Netflix, short lil foreign oil, was deep/interesting

96. Favourite actress?

Not sure-Sandra Bullock? Or Meryl

97. Favourite actor?

Denzel or Morgan Freeman

98. Do you tan a lot?

Nah not anymore honestly

99. Have any pets?

Yessss

100. How are you feeling?

Mediocre

101. Do you type fast?

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

Im sure

103. Can you spell well?

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

Lol im nostalgic af, so yes

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Yes litttty tittyyy

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Probably :(

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Hell yeah brother, I’m from TX

108. What should you be doing?

So much shit lol

109. Is something irritating you right now?

The fact that I ain’t doing all the shit I should be lol

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Yooo yes

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Prob my sister or my mom?? Lol I cry a lot, idk and idc

113. What was your childhood nickname?

Hayls?

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Yes

115. Do you play the Wii?

Back in the day

116. Are you listening to music right now?

Surprisingly, no

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

Nah, unless maybe if its homemade

118. Do you like Chinese food?

Yeah occasionally, more of a Thai food chick or Japanese

119. Favourite book?

Kite Runner

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

Low-key sometimes lol

121. Are you mean?

Hell noooo

122. Is cheating ever okay?

Ok, this is an interesting one lol I mean no, it’s not “okay” - since it usually constitutes lying/hiding/hurting someone - BUTTTT, for a lack of a better term - I wanna say it’s “normal”? But thats because I, personally, am on the fence about the concept of monogamy. Like no, I’ve never cheated nor experienced that in return - but the whole concept of monogamy and like that a person can love and only love or be with one person is WILLLLDDD and I can’t help but note that its a social construct that we, as a society, are conditioned to from the time we are born. Idk if that makes sense bc im high af lol but those are my thoughts…like to sum it up - cheating is fucked up and sucks, but at the same time its not all that surprising/shocking anymore, like borderline “normalized” just as divorces are and shit, so I feel like bc biologically we aren’t made to be with one person lol. I don’t condone it tho. Thanks for coming to my TedTalk.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

Hell to the naw naw

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Hmmm idk about that one, but also can’t deny it

125. Do you believe in true love?

Yeah of course, you’re talking to a hopeless romantic

126. Are you currently bored?

I guess we could say that

127. What makes you happy?

Food and close, loved ones

128. Would you change your name?

Nah, too much paper work

129. What your zodiac sign?

Cancer, with my lil moody, sensitive ass

130. Do you like subway?

I did lol

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Story of my mf life lol literally all my exes are “best friends turned lovers” situation, so guess it would just depend lmao

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

Lol oh godddd; ok off the top of my head - Tupac - Keep Ya Head Up is what comes to mind; just a timeless song and the lyrics are still relevant/apply to this day and idk just really resonate with the message behind that song <3

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

Idk, but it was probably SO dumb, and told to my parents lol

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

Either or, lately open so my cat can go in and out lol

137. How tall are you?

5’6 mayyybeee 5’5 actually lol

140. Summer or Winter?

Fall!!

141. Night or Day?

Def a lil night owl, always have been

142. Favourite month?

April and October for weather at least

143. Are you a vegetarian?

No but I try, and go through phases, I’m definitely mindful the older I get and more focused on my health I become

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

FUCKIN ALLLLL

145. Tea or Coffee?

Coffee but I like tea too, just seem to drink coffee more regularly

146. Was today a good day?

The grateful-to-just-be-alive in me wants to say yes lol but idk, felt off/unaccomplished and cried a lot, so no.

147. Mars or Snickers?

Snickers

148. What’s your favourite quote?

“This too shall pass”

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

Sure why not

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

“After all, what he had always wanted was just that: to know new places.” -The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho

#survey #about me #haylee #thoughts #mine #questions #ask me anything #ask #lets chat #be my frieeennnddd

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delicateheartd · 4 years

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╰ ♡ MUSE 14, OLIVIA HOLT, CISFEMALE┊ have you seen KATHLEEN ‘KATIE’ DONOVAN around hillston? the 18 year old is said to be A SENIOR IN HIGH SCHOOL. the neighbours would say that they’re SHORT-TEMPERED and IMPATIENT, but they’re actually LOYAL and WITTY. SHE often reminds people of dirt stained clothes, long freshly dyed blonde locks, a warm black cup of coffee. watch out, though. you wouldn’t believe that SHE HAS BEEN USING A FAKE ID TO GET BOOZE. ( r, 20, est, she/her )

katie recently within the last few months or so, turned eighteen. has one of those early birthdays, ( JEALOUS honestly ) so she’ll graduate this summer. is a straight a student, has probably been on her hs honors several times and her grades are never anything other than an a. in all of her classes. she loves school, and learning. overall has a good head on her shoulders, until well recently, but we’ll hop into that in a minute !

she will not answer to kathleen it’s katie, kate, or even kat. likely would blow you off entirely if you called her kathleen, it’s just her preference and what she ultimately prefers. doesn’t hate her name, but always goes by katie instead.

she also with her fake id at seventeen ; got a tattoo of a water colored humming bird on her ankle, ( i picture in my mind that the reasoning is of her parents and it’s just a reminder for her ) she’s someone that always wears socks so it’s like well-hidden. likely not something she came up with on her own, a friend probably talked her into getting the id and tattoo. she just went along with it. she has a high pain tolerance so she probably didn’t even feel it, that was her small act of rebellion.

then after that she likely started to hang with the wrong crowd to be talked into buying booze, ( again definitely not something this goodie two shoes would have came up with herself ) and this is only something she’s started doing recently. i feel like at first and the first time she did it. it was fun to see if she could get away with it and if they’d think it was fake. but now these so called ‘friends’ are taking advantage, and making her do it more often. likely afraid of getting caught themselves so they talk her into it doing it instead. but she’s afraid of getting busted. so peer pressure in other words and she also doesn’t want to look like a wimp. believe me she’s probably tried to get out of it. but somehow just.. can’t.

she’s always been more of a tomboy, so to speak and as much as she likely hates that phrase. it’s true. she would have been that little girl in a tutu or a dress digging in mud for worms, or making mud pies. climbing in trees and often jumping off furniture not being bad per se, but a handful. liking to play in mud and dirt and liking to see how long she could stay covered in mud. also her clothes ! always stained as kid, sometimes even now but with grease more than anything else now.

she loves getting her hands dirty. in her spare time now she’s been hanging out at an autobody shop or mechanic shop, and learning about cars and how to fix them. what makes them tick and etc. she’s really passionate about this and really enjoys it. she’s really wanting to find an old car and fix it up herself. i feel like if someone asked her what she wanted as a late birthday present, she’d be like an old car from a junkyard. it’s literally her dream right now to fix up an old car. with the knowledge she has and is still learning. as for what she wants to do after hs ? she is debating maybe getting a job as a mechanic but it hasn’t gone much further than a thought.

after the loss of her parents it made her afraid to get close to others, not wanting to lose anyone else important to her. i do feel like it changed her, and with her buying booze with a fake id ? it set her straight she’s afraid it’ll be the one thing that makes her lose everyone she cares about. and she wants out, she just doesn’t know how to get out. or even what to do.

she’s a sweet girl with a bad temper, and p much says what comes to mind ( not always ) but most of the time, especially when she’s comfortable around someone. can come off as standoffish but despite a friendly demeanor and smile, when she isn’t comfortable or doesn’t know someone. almost becomes shy in a sense. just because she’s so guarded, around people she doesn’t know well.

has also been coloring her hair for a few years now, og has dark hair but dyes it golden blonde. as well as a short hair style ( picture olivia as tandy, that kind of short but cute hair style but one side is slightly longer than the other ) just because it’s easier to manage esp with upkeep of color. and having to buy purple shampoo. and because she does like getting her hands dirty, it’s probably much easier to deal with.

other than that ? i think that’s everything i can think of for katie ! hope you all like or love her as much as me ! listed plots/ideas are below.

best friends ! this is always a must, esp for my kids and it’s always a favorite plot of mine.

partners in crime ( literally SJSJ ) maybe not anything bad but maybe someone she drinks with ?? idk we can figure something out for sure !

maybe someone she’s known since her childhood ?

someone that maybe helps her out at this autobody shop, maybe fixes cars with her ??

#hillston.intro #tw: death

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dilfsdotnet · 5 years

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Yo you should answer all of these scene questions👀👀

:OOO

you think so lad???? shit dawg i was thinkin just a few at a time but if that what u want my dear nonnie i will supply

1. wats ur scene name?

i was thinkin maybe ‘gods mistake’ would be a good one but then. i found a way to make it both danganronpa related, and, even better, a fucking pun as well. ‘kamukura kamukura jasqueen’, or just ‘kamukura jasqueen’ for short is good k thxxx

2. describe ur dream outfit!

oooo gosh this ones trickyy!! there are so many good outfits out there, especially in the scene community!! but it’d have to have a few tiny elements of dr cosplay to add a lil of my dangan-weeb culture in there ofc! more specifically, id really love to get one of kazuichis jumpsuit and just wig out and add shit like this just because i could:

(id just rlly love going out in all those glowy/shiny things at night like all that haha..and yes the shoes would probably kill me/my fuckin feet if i tried to walk in them but shut up i love them theyre cute as fuck)

3. describe ur dream haircut!

oo another tricky one!! i do like my regular hair, and honestly id be lying if i said i didnt love ibuki’s hairdo too but id defs have to go with something like this!!

yaaaassss, so pretty and spikeeeey! maybe id dye my natural hair colour black and/or add some funky colours if i ever actually got this style down!

4. describe ur dream room!

i have a lot of ideas for dream bedrooms actually, but heres a visual image of one of them i found!!!

MIKU ROOM MIKU ROOM MIKU ROOM MIKU ROOM

(this specific idea arose mainly just for the aesthetic but i also find it super cute and a good environment to be in general hhhnnggg)

5. if u could make anything out of kandi, wat would u make?

oh you mean those colourful beads and bracelet things??? i love those man!!! theyre so visually appealing to me aaaaa…id probably just make a fuck-ton of those and most probably use the little letter beads to say random words/phrases like ‘aubergine’ and ‘despacito’ knowing my shitposter self lmaooo! id definitely make a sansmaeda themed one too thoo fr

6. wat would u write on ur shoez?

it’d probably range from things like a simple kaomoji doodle to something randum and stupid like ‘seesaw’ bc yes asjnd

7. wat kinda piercingz/tattooz do u hav/want?

i dont think i rlly want any real piercings (at least not atm) but id totally go for those fake stick-on gemstone lookin’ ones! and as for tattoos, i cant rlly see myself gettin one of those rn either, but id want something like a mario power-up, preferably the bell one/cat suit powerup!!! its my favorite powerup and its sooo cute!!!

8. fave genrez?

i dont rlly have a specific genre, i like most kinds of music, but i rlly like energetic music that i can dance tooo!!! >w

9. fave bandz?

im a big fan of gorillaz and botdf!!! i like p!atd as well but havent listened to it in a while.. gatta catch up loool

10. fave songz?

my favs alternate a lot, but atm im super into ‘slow dancing in the dark’ by joji!!! so much emotiooon quq…also rlly hooked on botdf and jefree star’s ‘sexting’ tooo lmaooo

11. fave lyricz?

‘The world keeps spinning Among this sinning Oh what a cruel and disgusting place The purest moonlight Is bloodied by plight And screaming resonants But somehow I know That it’s all for show The world will reveal it’s true beauty soon And we’ll all reach towards the moon ‘

its so deep but its from a fucking kaito momota fansong and i love that asnkjdnefe

12. hav u evr been to a concert?

not in a damn long while my lad,, rip australians not havin many artists they like from other countries tour there ;-;

13. do u wanna be in a band?

ive always thought thatd be pretty cool ngl!!! tourin around with ur bandmate friends, makin awesome fuckin tunes, people lovin u and ur music, just livin the dream in general,, nice

14. wats da best soda/energy drink flavour?

havent rlly had any as of rn my lad so i wouldnt know :/

15. wat do u miss most abt old internet?

i loved that we could all just be ourselves and act like the kids we are inside without bein reprimanded at all.. it aint rlly that much of an issue for me but i still think itd be a lot nicer if it was like that again sometimes,,

16. wats da best old meme?

ooohhh there are so many i still miss man! numa numa ermagerd and doge still remind me of the glory days…when old animeme was good and you could still haz ur cheezburgers in peace. also rage comics! rage comics were good what happened

17. best place 2 buy clothez?

i dont think theres any hot topics in australia but if there is. i will hunt it down you hear me

18. wat r ur fave accessoriez?

OH THERES SO MANY GOOD ONES??? as i stated b4 i rly love kandi bracelets and other glowy/led things!!! also rlly love ties with cute and fun patterns and long colourful and/or ripped socks like ibuki’s too hehe

19. wats ur best tip fr ppl that just got into scenecore?

im not rlly the best at advice, but my main point would be-just hav fun here dudes!!! dont let anyone else bulli u abt it, we’re supportive people, u can talk to me or anyone else whos willin to listen an/or help for reassurance ofc

20. opinion on furbiez?

oOH MY GOD YES. FURBIES. MY BABIES I WANT 10 OF THESE CHILDREN…I ACTUALLY HAVE A FURBY HE LIKES SLEEPING IN HIS SPECIAL DRAWER AND HIS NAME IS TINGLE I ADORE HIM I’LL POST A OF PICTURE LATER MAYBE

21. opinion on funko popz?

i like em and ive seen lots at eb games, but i dont buy em much..i do have a megaman pop with a broken arm tho loool

22. wats ur fave pattern? (zebra/leopard print etc)

i looove a lot of patterns but not gonna lie im always a sucker for rainbow checkerboard patterns yknow hehe!

23. fave color combo?

i dont have one rlly…soooo many possible comboooos…cx

24. sumthing u liked as a kid dat u still like?

im still going on girlsgogames and recently, ive finally mastered sues beauty machine!!!! its so good and fun all of ya’ll should try it my dudeeees

25. wats ur most used emoticon? 0w0

as most of ya’ll probs alredy know i spam ‘:O’ a lot, but one of my bigger favs is actually ‘x3′ and my fav kaomoji is ‘ଘ(੭ˊ꒳ˋ)੭✧’ (both of them are so kyooot >w

26. wats ur fav typin quirk?

i luv talkin like dis, but i dont rly do it that often loool…i awso wuv tawking in ‘owo’ speak wike dis >//w//>

27. do u wish ur fllwrz talked 2 u moar?

hellz yeaaa!!! i luv followr interaction my dudee! it makes me super happi when u all talk to me heehee! x3c

28. tag ur fave scene blawgz!

:O !!! oh gawd!!! i dont know many atm but heeereee!

@xxadam-antidotexx (op of the ask meme)

@glitchkichi (not sure if this counts but their stuff’s rlly cool >v

@otonashi-banana (scene boyf…wuv im more than anythin >///w///>

29. wat got u into scenecore?

i dont remember exactly how it happened but i’d always sorta wanted to go back to the glory days that was the old web and the scene era, and that, coupled with a bright, colourful aesthetic that i could really enjoy, drew me in like a moth to a neon colored flame ig looollll

30. how long hav u been scene?

i’ve only been officially apart of the community for about a few months now (at time of writing) i reckon so some things are still a lil new to me ig ^^;;

31. wats da best thing abt being scene?

the freedom of bein able to express myself 4 one thing, and its just so fun being so ‘out-there’ yknow???? it feels so great really

32. do u hav a fursona?

i…actually used to but ive moved on from the furry fandom and ive grown more attached to my human sona anyway sooo :/

33. r u in sum “cringy” fandomz?

YEA man!! i dont rlly think dr is inherently considered ‘cringey’ but undertale is and im in that one for sure!!! i also kinda technically never left the skylanders fandom(?) so theres that too ig??? oh yeah and who wants to let me draw my old moshi monsters characters COWARDS

34. do u liek plushiez?

YASSSS QUEEEN!!!! i have HEAPS of them in my room on my desk with my gonta shrine

35. do u liek stickerz?

also a big yaaassss from me dawggg!!! i love them and i love those ones that you stick on your fase like this!

its so cuuute!!!

36. do u hav a friendproject?

i dont, not at the moment a least, actually! didnt even know what it was til recently but it looks kewl haha

37. do u hav any other scene account?

well, i haz this one, and i also have an emowire account for shuichi if that counts!!

38. do u make art? (drawingz, blingeez, etc.)

YES!!! i love to draw and i also make blingee edits sometimes!!! ITS SO FUN XD !!!

39. wats da most scene thing? (anything!)

hmmm, weeell…i think the most stereotyped thing would be that kewl, suuuper big hair like this;

its really prettyyyy, and i love all that colouuur!!!

40. ask ur own randum question!!

hm, oh wowie, since the anon didnt specifically ask this one…POTATOES!!! X3

phew, finally done, that was a lot of typing! this was so fun to do though, so thank u nonnie!!! :3

#ask #ask meme #scene revival #scenecore #scene kid #scene #anon #oh god what now jasu

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softwonwoo · 5 years

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its ok!! nksjdfkjsn we seem to have differing tastes omg i do like chill music but i dont listen to a lot of sad songs!! my taste is more groovy?? upbeat sort of things ((change up and moonwalker are two of my top svt songs for ex))but id love to hear anything you really like!!! oh yeah def hao for apocalypse 1. martial arts training 2. does not take any shit sdkjfnkjn and for 2... id want a groovy concept like change up but ot13.. i think itd be really cool!! how about qustion 3 and 12!!

What’s your favorite hair color on your bias (excluding black)? Which hairstyle would you like to see them try?

HmMMMM this is hard because wonu has only had a limited amount of hair colors…but I love his dirty blonde in clap :c also his mint green hair in the boom boom era that lasted .00001 seconds. I would lOVE to see him (in black hair again) with RED HAIR!!! Ive been thinking about it since last year and I would maybe collapse if he were to dye his hair red jfhyjskldj

What do you associate with your bias?

Honestly I associate intellect with wonu. I love how his capacity to engage in new information and his fascination with knowledge. another thing I associate with him is cats hehe. Every time I see a cat or interact with one I always think I wonder how wonu would react with this kitty ytgfrgthyjuik

HERE IS YOUR PLAYLIST!!! I just comprised a list of songs I have been listening to often!! I really hope you like it :))) (I didnt add any svt bc I thought u would already know it hahah)

none - crush

face - woosung

fall - crush

skeletons - keshi

no longer - nct127

highway to heaven - nct127

Orion’s belt - Sabrina claudio

#im sorry I answered these late again #Ive been having a weird couple of days #like I legit dont know whats going on with me #I actually love showing ppl new music!!!#tell me what you think!!!#(also what would u answer for 3 & 12???)#ask #svtanon

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lily-blue-blue-lily · 6 years

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7, 10, 71?

7. what colour hair have you got?currently ive just got my natural dark brown hair, im going to dye it blue again in the summer though 10. how would you describe your style?okay so imagine dan howells style (ya know, black, skinny jeans etc) and dodie clarks style (like yellow and flowers and pretty stuff) and smush them together, then you get something like my style, honestly thats the best way i can describe it!71. tea or coffee?tbh, i dont regularly drink either, though if i had to choose i guess id say coffee?thanks for the ask!

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agayworthfightingfor · 6 years

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do all the space asks!!!!

pluto: what do you love most about yourself?

i like that a bunch of people think i’m calming to be around. it’s a very good thing to be.

mars: who is your ideal best friend?

@f0xf0ce. i no longer id as pansexual, but we are forever pansexual partners in crime.

earth: what’s your ideal house/home?

decent sized place with friends and partners, in easy walking distance of a convenience store and something moderately fun to do, at the very least. needs space for pets (i desperately want a big dopey dog) and really good lighting. ok now i sound like im on fucking hgtv or some shit wow.

saturn: what’s your aesthetic?

tumblrina punk, which is also my blog title. basically its what happens when u combine flower crowns, glitter, spiky things, and a deep hatred of people who would do others harm.

jupiter: if you could choose your own name what would it be?

i did choose my own name but if i picked again id probs wind up picking it again even though my headmates are all desperately shouting their own goddamn names. especially owen. zie really wants this body to be named owen. i wonder why.

neptune: what’s an album that you can listen through entirely w/o skipping song?

shape shift with me by against me! sometimes i can do a fever you cant sweat out by p!atd but sometimes i get bored of the introduction and intermission and skip those. i can

venus: go to piece of clothing/outfit?

ok theres two outfits that are my defaults. my too cute to be binary shirt w/ my floral skirt + combat boots, plus tights in winter. then there’s my black tank top under my red/white flannel shirt with skinny jeans and my floral converse.

mercury: what’s something you couldn’t live without?

hrt. which.. i currently dont have. and need to figure out how to manage an accessibility issue in order to acquire. lmao fuck

uranus: what’s your zodiac sign?

pisces but like certain things say im an aquarius because im on the veeeery cusp. which is bullshit, anyone whos ever talked to me knows im a goddamn pisces

the moon: favorite quote?

“Blood does not quench fire. It only stains.” from Chameleon Moon by @thesylverlining. which if you havent read it you need to. now. go. get it.

the sun: what motivates you?

the fact that nazis want me and everyone i care about dead and i refuse to ever make a nazi happy.

kepler-22b: if you could go anywhere, where would it be/why?

uh? somewhere where i have partners. ppl i care about. anywhere except this fucking room.

phobos: what was your favorite song as a child?

uuuuum? i genuinely dont know. i remember really liking boulevard of broken dreams by green day when i was like 11 because i was a depressed gay child.

ceres: out of everyone/thing in this world, who would you elect president?

um. thats a big decision. theres genuinely no one i can think of who i would trust with that much power. no.

titan: if you could die your hair absolutely any color and pull it off, what would it be?

i have already dyed my hair most colors that i would ever dye it. id totally go for rainbow though. or like... light pink? esp if i could keep up with it so that my roots never showed and it never faded, that’d be HEAVENLY

callisko: what’s your ideal job?

honestly i really want to just stay home and take care of housework? im good at that stuff. i can keep things clean, i would be able to work on my own terms, and if im living with the right people i would basically never have to wear pants.

enceladus: who is your favorite person? what are they like?

i don’t have like a favorite person in the sense of I Am Extremely Attached To This Person In A Mental Illness Way. which is weird for me tbh. im like... dancing with that kind of attachment to @thenannystate which is an adventure that id really like to not subject her to, thank you very much hellbrain? but shes so smart and sweet and she cares a LOT and like. she holds a hell of a grudge which kinda functions as a reality check for me bc i like. instantly forgive terrible people which is Bad. and just. she’s sO FUCKING GOOD I LOVE FRANZ A LOT

hyperion: do you have a favorite store/shop?

lowkey if hot topic cut their prices in half theyd be my fav but they’re so. fuckin. overpriced. otherwise, maybe thinkgeek.com or something like that

comet: what’s your biggest secret?

...gee i love oversharing but damn thats a hell of a question. the biggest secret im willing to divulge is that im into oviposition but that’s not even a fucking secret at this point lets be real

astroid: what’ your biggest fear? i there a reason why you’re scared of it?

rejection/abandonment. yes there is a reason and that is because i grew up a total outcast and now im not and i will never ever ever ever go back to that hell of being alone nope no thanks

shooting star: who is your ideal s/o?

the xenomorph.

#Anonymous

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yujachachacha · 7 years

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Get to know me

Tagged by @symphonyalpha (I forgot the URL for a second and was like, “Why isn’t Jaewhy showing up when I type it in the user mention???” lol).

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

Last: 1. Drink: Barley water, because that’s what my family drinks ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 2. Phone call: My grandma, telling me what time she needed me to drive her to her doctor’s appointment. 3. Text message: To my little brother, telling him to STFU because he kept sending me dumb shit on iMessage. 4. Song you listened to: Does SIF count? If so, “Sore wa Bokutachi no Kiseki”. If not, I was headbanging to “Paradise Lost” by Chihara Minori after dropping my grandma off at her friend’s place the other day, lol. 5. Time you cried: tbh I probably teared up a little when I was watching the footage from the Lantis preview of the Aqours 1st Live BD/DVDs ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇωஇﾟ)ﾟ｡

Have you: 6. Dated someone twice: I haven’t even dated someone once :’))) 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: I’ve kissed exactly one person, so...hm. There was a period of time when I had conflicting emotions over what happened, but in the end, I don’t think I regret it. 8. Been cheated on: See #6. 9. Lost someone special: I’ve had a grandfather pass away, and this is probably going to sound bad, but...I really appreciated him, and he was nothing but kind to me. However, since I’d only seen him about three times in my life, the biggest way his death affected me was through my mother. It took her a while to get over my grandfather’s death, so it changed the way I behaved around her during that time. 10. Been depressed: Yes. 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Exactly once, because I made the mistake of keeping pace with my uncle in Korea who takes soju shots like a champ. This also happened to be the night before Lunar New Year, so I got chewed out by my aunt (older sister of my uncle) once she realized why I was so lethargic during the festivities. _(:3 」∠)_ I don’t regret it though, because before that I had never been hungover before and was wondering what my limit was, haha.

List 3 favorite colors: 12-14. Red, blue, and...uh...other than those two I don’t have any definite faves. I guess the third would be either yellow or purple...? I’ll just go with purple for the sake of completion.

In the last year have you: 15. Made new friends: #TeamONIBE 16. Fallen out of love: That would require me to fall in love with someone first. 17. Laughed until you cried: I think it might have been when Mayushii and King did that disastrous cooking niconama. Like...what the actual fuck, do they seriously not know anything about basic kitchen safety and hygiene??? 18. Found out someone was talking about you: The number of times I’ve gone on to Discord and found out that someone in ONIBE was talkin’ smack about me... (｡･ˇ_ˇ･｡) It’s all in good fun though, haha. 19. Met someone who changed you: See #15. 20. Found out who your friends are: Nothing says "friendship” like screaming your heart out at an anisong concert, eating McNuggets while insanely drunk, sleeping while squished together in a seedy neighborhood, wotaing loudly in a moving vehicle, and other various activities I did with people I had never met in real life. ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ AX 2017 was hella great for ONIBE bonding. 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: I don’t think I’ve even used FB for non-work stuff since 2016 lol

General: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: If this means “I’ve actually met them in person and have had a decent conversation with them”, then maybe a few hundred? But if this means that I actually talk to them on a semi-regular basis, then, like...10, maybe. :’) 23. Do you have any pets: See my answer in the previous chain post I did. tl;dr I had a turtle and a dog in elementary school, but after that, no pets. I’d like to have a dog when I get a place of my own, though. 24. Do you want to change your name: Nope. 25. What did you do for your last birthday: Watched LLS Episode 13 in the morning and ate Korean BBQ in the evening. 26. What time did you wake up: Today? I honestly don’t remember. Sometime before 9? 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Laughing at dumb shit on Twitter and Discord, probably. 28. Name something you can’t wait for: The Delayed Viewing for the 2nd Live for the US! I’m making plans to meet up with ONIBE folks again and it’s gonna be ~L I T~ 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: Early in the morning. She was like “lol get up and lose some weight” while I was still in bed so I groaned back, “You’re one to talk,” and went back to sleep. 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: I was gonna say “how about eliminating my student loans haha” but I suppose this is supposed to be a more serious question. I guess it’d be nice if I was a neater person. Like, my room is a total mess right now and I’m terrible at keeping track of things I should be working on... 31. Listening right now: Fun fact - I actually only listen to music while I’m driving. Otherwise, it distracts me from what I should be doing. 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yup, that was the name of my debate coach when I was in junior high. 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: People who hate on LL seiyuu. Like, they’re actual human beings who are working really hard to live up to the expectations of thousands - no, millions of people worldwide. To be quite honest, I invite you to tell me if you legitimately want to shit on any one of them (both µ’s and Aqours), because I have yet to see a single person who has had a good justification for doing so. 34. Most visited website: Probably Tumblr/YouTube/Twitter/Reddit, too lazy to figure out which one of those it is.

Jaewhy put in random questions here because they were missing for some reason, so I guess I’ll continue those: 35. Mole(s): I have a few around my face, but other than the one on my right cheek I don’t think they’re that noticeable? I don’t spend a lot of time in the sun like other Californians. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 36. Mark(s): I have a birthmark on the backside of my right shoulder that I’m sort of self-conscious about. It’s the perfect shape for getting a tattoo of a sunflower around it, so maybe I’ll do that some time in the future? 37. Childhood dream: Lawyer. 38. Hair color: I feel like I’ve answered this in a previous chain post, but it’s black. Duh. Though if you hold it up to the sun, some of the ends are more like dark brown. 39. Long or short: Long. 40. Do you have a crush on someone: See #16. Nope. 41. What do you like about yourself: I’ve spent an unhealthy amount of time staring at computers/video games and I still don’t need glasses. :D 42. Piercings: No, but I should probably get my ears pierced at some point? 43. Blood type: O. 44. Nickname: Yujacha, but a lot of people shorten it to “Yuja”. 45. Relationship status: Single. 46. Zodiac: Libra, Dog. 47. Pronouns: I feel like it’s obvious what gender I am, so just go with those. 48. Favorite TV show: I don’t really watch TV these days, but if I’m kicking back with some hot cocoa at like 2am I might watch Criminal Minds or something. 49. Tattoos: Nope, but like I said in #36 I’ve been thinking about it. 50. Right or left hand: Right. 51. Surgery: Wisdom teeth removal is technically dental surgery. 52. Hair dyed in different color: I had highlights in my hair a few years ago, but they faded real quick. I’m vaguely considering dyeing it brown in the distant future...? 53. Sport: It’s fun to watch the occasional match when there’s a World Cup or Olympic thing going on, but otherwise I have no interest. 54. (A question I came up with since #54 was missing) Extracurricular activities: I was a debate kid for most of my school life, and in college I was in the Korean Club and Student Union. 55. Vacation: Does the 2nd Live DV later this year count? 56. Pair of trainers sneakers *American anthem plays in the distance*: I actually need new ones because I’ve tripped while hiking on at least two separate occasions due to my shitty old sneakers.

More general: 57. Eating: Haven’t yet. 58. Drinking: Wasn’t this literally the first question? 59. I’m about to: Eat. 60. (This question was missing so I'll make one up again) Thinking about: What to eat lol 61. Waiting for: 2nd Live DV~ 62. Want: Money tbh 63. Get married: I’d like to at some point, but at the moment I’m kinda tired of hearing about it from every middle-aged woman who talks to me (including my own mother). 64. Career: Working on it.

Which is better: 65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs, because they’re warm and comfy and can be shared by complete strangers. 66. Lips or eyes: I was gonna repeat a previous answer and say “eyesmiles” but since this is “lips or eyes” rather than “smiles or eyes”, I guess my answer would fall more under “eyes”. 67. Shorter or taller: Bruh, if someone’s shorter than me then I’d need to check their ID to make sure they’re not jailbait. Taller. 68. Older or younger: I’ve never dated anyone so I honestly wouldn’t know, but I’d probably look for someone close to my age first? 69. (Lmao why was 69 missing :3c I’ll just make something up again) Outgoing or shy: The former, since I’m lazy. If someone doesn’t drag me to places I’ll just lay in bed all day. 70. Nice arms or stomach: It’s actually really hard for females to have a toned stomach, so any gals with abs are like ooh~ 👀 But I actually like hands! I have smol stubby fingers so I really dig people with nice hands. 71. Sensitive or loud: The former, because I don’t need the entire neighborhood to know when I’m gettin’ laid kthnx 72. Hook up or relationship: Relationship, because sure why not? 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Maybe the former, but if they’re being too much of a lil’ shit then I’d go for the latter instead. I’ve dealt with friends who take like 20 minutes to decide what to order from a menu so I know that feel. :’)

Have you ever: 74. Kissed a stranger: Nope. 75. Drank hard liquor: Yup. 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: I’m pretty sure I annoyed half of ONIBE during AX when I went “haha y’all are blind af” after I found out I was pretty much the only one who didn’t have corrected vision. 77. Turned someone down: I was about to say “no” and then I got a sudden flashback to a certain incident in college, wow thanks for making me remember something I had tried to forget...sooo, uh, yup. 78. Sex on the first date: See #6. 79. Broken someone’s heart: IDK if turning someone down counts as breaking their heart. 80. Had your heart broken: ...yes. I think? 81. Been arrested: Nope. 82. Cried when someone died: Do fictional characters count? 83. Fallen for a friend: Uhhhhh...kind of? It was complicated.

Do you believe in: 84. Yourself: I’d like to think that I do. 85. Miracles: KISEKI DA YO~ ...sorry, I had to. Yeah. 86. Love at first sight: Shukashuu is living proof of this. 87. Santa Claus: Nope, sorry Maki!!! 88. Kiss on the first date: Sure.

Other: 90. Current best friend(s) name: IDK if I have one. :’) 91. Eye color: I’m Asian, take a wild guess. 92. Favorite movie: I don’t really have a favorite, but I did like “Kimi no Na wa.” (Your name.) so much that I made it my phone’s lock screen.

Tagging: I've only tagged people the first time I did one of these and I’m gonna try to keep it that way. If anyone who reads this wants to give it a go, feel free~

#yujachat #chain post #queuetie panther #edited the words from british to american english spelling BECAUSE I CAN HAHA #are these even interesting to people why would u wanna know about boring old me

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darrycurtises · 7 years

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hey fam, do all of the aesthetic asks

thanks sun goddess ily

Flower Crown: when did you last sing to yourself

yesterday bc i always sing in the car, i think it was me putting “starman” “here comes the sun” and “ticket to the moon” on repeat the whole way home

Fairy Lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?

i’d like to know what the world will be like in like a century bc i worry about the world i hope she’ll be ok

Daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life

well i’m a seventeen yr old and not even one of the cool ones that compete in the olympics so its either like UH starting college @ 16 or being published in an official writing anthology

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to your mind, recent or otherwise?

last year when i went to busch gardens w my sister n my mom and i got to hold a penguin named Turkey ON MY LAP i have pictures to document this (i was chubbier back then tho no judgment)

Matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you’re now living?

yeah i wouldn’t be fucking living in florida and going to school id be using whatever money i could to travel overseas, and then i’d go on a big crosscountry roadtrip

Black Nail Polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?

not an official one, just vague “i’d like to do x someday” things

Moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?

yes absolutely

Stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?

last week i went to a funeral and i cried so much they got a picture w me sobbing in the background

Plants: pick a person to stargaze with you, and explain why you picked them

my best friend tomas probably because he’s the only person who wouldnt make fun of me for stargazing

Converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?

BITVH NO LMAO I DONT EVEN TALK TO MY FRIENDS !!

Lace: when was your last three am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?

again, tomas, my best friend. about 4 days ago?

Handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one more person, what would you say and to whom?

oh man i dont even know

Cactus: opinion on brown eyes?

i have them and i love them. got my brown eyed angels all over the place. i know like three people w not-brown eyes

Sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally

Oil Paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?

[Redacted]

Overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?

id get new cars for my sister and mom bc theirs are v old like ten minutes to start and cough like a smoker old, and id pay my mom’s house off, pay off my sister’s student loans, deposit a lot to my grandma who’s living in an expensive nursing home, donate 2 houston, put away more for my college, lots of stuff

Combat Boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?

Yes and yes

Winged Eyeliner: write a hundred letter word to your twelve year old self

I don’t need 100 words I just need to tell her to shut up, stop eating so much, try being friends w the girls you don’t like, they were actually nice, you’re not as funny as you think you are save your words for later and think before you speak. Also, thanks for attaching our self worth to our school performance, this isn’t sarcastic, its turning out really well for scholarships

Pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?

Leaning more towards pastel, but honestly the most accurate thing would be primary colors/

Tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.

I like them but not on me

Piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?

I usually do a quick face for school, but if im in the mood then I like to do the most just because im a teenager and im living in a time of really weird fashion and this is the only time in my life where I’ll be ballsy enough and free enough to buy and wear green eyeshadow. You think that’ll fly when im 30 w a 9-5 job? I think not. Lemme get it outta my system now, while I have ~~~being a teenager~~~ to blame it on

Bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.

This is gonna sound really depressing but I don’t believe in love bc of the avett brothers song “January wedding. He was so in love with her when he wrote it and for years I was like “this is love theyre so in love” and then bam we get the true sadness album and January wedding gets followed by “divorce separation blues.” Who can be that in love with someone and then just. Stop. I don’t get it, love isn’t real.

Messy Bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.

This is too much pressure

Cry Baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.

Ive seen the avett brothers 3 times and they were amazing every single time, just wowowow I got the “fuck it, im standing up and singing” mood. Ive also seen boston and foreigner, which were also fun, but mostly bc of the 50 yr old stoners in the crowds.

Grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?

My papa, and I’d like it to say [classified] and maybe I’d like him to say [redacted].

Space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?

I have a permanent set up at the kitchen table from august thru may, and its perpetually in disarry.

White Bed Sheets: what is your night time routine?

Face mask, hair care, moisturizer, vanilla tea, set up the coffee maker for the next morning, pack my book bag, pray, bed.

Old Books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?

I’d like my mom not to know that she’s kind of annoying to watch movies w (it’d break her heart shes so sensitive aw) and id like my dad not to know where I live

Beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?

I have dyed my hair I went red for a bit but now its brown. Id never do anything that require I bleach it bc I love myself and wont do that to my head

Eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?

Id take my mom, sister, my friends [classified], [classified], and [classified] to new york w me so we can do horrible cheesy touristy stuff, and then I’d have them go w me on a cross country roadtrip

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.

If I tell u my wish it wont come true

Painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.

Its gonna be this year’s ive already perfected the make up im gonna be a mime and its amazing

Lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?

Literally nothing ive never gotten high bc it seems uhhh not fun, but ive gotten a lil drunk before (I don’t like to drink bc it makes my head hurt and it’s a lot of calories) but I get sad id be a sad drunk so I just cried.

Thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?

Anything thatd harm a person/animal. Never kill, never maim. If u handed me a gun and said “shoot a deer ill give you a million dollars” I couldn’t do it. If I had to break someones arm for a million dollars I couldn’t do it.

Storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?

Song, bc I love people, ill just listen to a podcast while I run I guess

Love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realize you’re in love.

Not really, only a little bit of an “I’d like to love them” sort of thing

Clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?

Im a girl and id never rock short hair bc I don’t have the jaw for it, and I like my long hair to make my jaw look sharper

Coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?

I just get iced black tea bc starbucks coffee is ass, and id trust my mom. Not my sister or my friends bc theyd get me sugar in my tea instead of unsweet w honey

Marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?

The things my life has revolved around for years lmao my loved ones and school

#if you cant tell im a fucking loser #im doing notes right now #its friday night im doing notes i should be out #but no im in and im writing notes and theyre beautiful ill post then on my studyblr #also a bonus for how fucking lame i am: i have a separate studyblr and langblr #ask #answered

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The man he used to be

Ask-imagine where the joker is sitting in his club, with harley, and he sees some people celebrating somthing and they are laughing, drinking, and then he has a flashback of before he became the joker, and him, his friends and the love of his life, (his soulmate) y/n are celebrating his birthday, and they are singing to him, have drinks without fireworks in it😂😄 And he comes back to reality, and he miss y/n so much but he y/n Thank you! -A

Warning(s)-none ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ “Haarleyyyyy hurry up” mr.J called out while buttoning up his purple suit. Today it was his turn. Every year the Joker would pick a random day in the year to celebrate his birthday. He didn’t like to celebrate his birthday much because of his reasons from the past, but Harley would always ask him to celebrate his birthday which annoyed him because it would bring back small segments of memories he could remember. Eventually one day he got so annoyed that he told her that he would celebrate his birthday tomorrow. Eventually when the next day came the Joker actually found himself enjoying himself so he told Harley that every year on a random day he would celebrate his birthday. The joker grabbed his black comb and combed his vibrant green hair back. When he started adding hairspray he heard heels coming down the stairs. Putting the hairspray back he turned around and saw Harley. Her pink and blue hair was curled and she had some makeup on. On her body was a gold and blue dress that went up above her knees with spaghetti straps on her shoulder. The Joker smiled as he complimented her. “Ready to go”? “Yes Pudding” she giggled. Putting his arms around her waist he told the guard by the door to keep the doors shut and went off to his purple Lamborghini. Harley walked over to the opposite side of the car and opened the door as she let herself sit on the silky white seats. The joker propped himself in and took his keys out of his coat. Turning on the car he opens his front view mirror to check his hair. The joker wasn’t too fond of the colour green, but the reason he dyed it green was because of Y/N. The joker would have expected him to forget about her after all the electro shop therapy but he never did. How could he ever forget your bright and shy smile. Your gorgeous eyes that sparkled when he told you a joke. Or your beautiful body when he stared at you. Y/N was everything to him. She was the love of his life. His soulmate. But the day he lost her is the day he still regrets.

*flashback* Jack was combing his black hair as he stared at him in the mirror. Out of nowhere a pair of arms wrapped around his waist. “Hey Jack” your smooth, sweet voice greeted him. He turned around and pecked your lips. “Hey Y/N” Jack turned back at the mirror and brushed his hair again. Jack had been wondering all week if he should cut his hair or do something to it but didn’t know what to do. “Hey Y/N”? “Yeah” you asked. “Should I dye my hair”? Your eyes widened as you smiled. “Jack you know I love your hair but I’ve kinda been wondering what it would look like if it were purple….or even green. It would look pretty cool.” He smiled at her and thought for a second. “Maybe I could dye it green?” You gave a wide toothy smile as you thought about Jack with green hair. It would look so amazing. “How bout tomorrow on your birthday we go dye it before we go to the club with Matt and Jess” you asked? “That’s a good idea. I’ll schedule an appointment for my hair and tomorrow we can go.” You stared at him and gave him a kiss but gave a small playful frown as you ran your hands through his smooth hair and told him “Well I will miss your sexy black hair , but I’ll find you more cooler with green hair.” He gave you grin as he went back to kissing you.

*end of flashback*

The Lamborghini came to a stop and the Joker took out his keys. As he stepped out of the car he ran his hands through his green hair and went up to Harley as she closed the door. From the outside of the club they couldn’t hear any music because the club was a little underground. The reason it was underground was because so it would be harder for people to find if they knew about his club. Putting his hands on her waist the goon by the door noticed him coming and opened the door to his club. When he stepped in he walked down the purple and gold hallway until he came to the view of people dancing and drinking. Everyone stopped when they saw the infamous couple walking up to the VIP rooms. When the joker was done putting his cold game face on he went back to his normal bored face again. Harley took a glance at him and saw he wasn’t too thrilled about being to the club again. “Pudding what’s wrong” The joker looked at her and shook his head. “Nothing I’m just going to go sit up in the highest VIP room , get some drinks and I’ll met ya there.” Harley nodded as she skipped off to get her Pudding some drinks. The Joker was in a less playful mood today because on this date was the day it happened.

*flashback* “Okay that’ll cost $55.35” Jack grabbed his cash from his wallet and gave the black haired woman at the counter. You were sitting in a chair reading the newspaper but when you looked up your mouth was agape and you laughed . “Is it bad” Jack asked with a frown. You shook your head as you stood up. “No, no, no , of corse not. It looks so cool . Oh my gosh I love it” you said as you ran your hands through his hair. He smiled at your reaction than put his hands on your waist and guided you out the door. “So, you ready to go now”? You nodded as you held onto his hand. You and Jack were already dressed up in your clothes for his birthday. He was wearing a black leather jacket with a green shirt under it. He also had some back jeans on with some black shoes. You had a small purple classy , cocktail dress on with black heels with your hair down. You both stepped into his black impala and drove off to the club you were going to. After half an hour of talking and driving you both arrived. Stepping out of the vehicle you he held onto your hand and walked to the doorman. “ID” You both held up your id’s that had the numbers 22 and 25 printed on them. The Doorman nodded than opened the door. The smell of alcohol came when the door opened and music blasted out. The club was a small dim club with purple and black on the walls. You skimmed the place and shook Jacks hand as you motioned to him where Matt and Jess were. Walking over to them hand in hand you both smiled.

*end of flashback* “Here Pudding” . Hearing her cheerful voice his head went out of his memories and went back to the present time. Grabbing the drink from her manicured nails he took a sip of the purple soda as Harley sat across him on the white sofa. The joker stared to talk to Harley about how his business had been going well and Harley talked to him about her plans for next week to annoy the bat. Soon after a few minuets of talking Harley finished her drink and got up from the seat. “Pudding can I go dance for a bit?” “Whatever you want” She giggled and kissed his pale cheek as she ran off to find an empty glass cage. The joker watched as she walked out of the room and found a glass cage. His eyes stopped following her when his eyes caught some people smiling and singing happy birthday near him. There were two guys and two girls that were sitting by a round table and had a cake in the middle with mini firecrackers on the cake. On their heads were party hats and they were all smiling. A frown fell and the jokers red lips. His eyes trained down and sorrow came in them. He still wasn’t over her.

*flashback* “Guess what we got” Jess smiled. Jack stared at her confused and out of nowhere from behind her back she held out a large chocolate fudge cake. Everyone laughed as they started to grab purple party hats from the table. You grabbed one and put it on Jacks head than put one on yours. Lighting up the candles Jess walked up to him while you all started to sing happy birthday. The whole time Jack was smiling while you sang with your friends. At the end you all clapped as Jack blew out the candles. You kissed him than walked up to the table across and grabbed the glasses with margaritas in them and mini firecrackers on the edge. Raising the glass you cheered out “To Jack, for officially turning 26 and being the best boyfriend for 8 years, and the most best friend to us in 8 years”. You all started to drink it and clapped at the end. When you finished Matt grabbed the knife and cut the cake up giving everyone a piece. When everyone had a plate full of cake you and Jack walked outside with your friends as you told them to follow you. On the outside of the club was a small patio and large field at the end. You checked your watch as it said 11:59. “Okay now everyone watch the edge of the field in one—”. Out of nowhere came out a large beam of light in the sky. Jack stared up as he saw the bright lights exploding out of the fireworks. They illuminated the sky and flew everywhere. You put you head on Jacks chest as he held onto you. Matt was grinning the whole time , and Jess was giggling every time a new light exploded out. At the end the last firework spelled out “HAPPY BIRTHDAY”. Jack smiled as he gave you a kiss on your lips and lingered on. Your hands ran through his hair as you kissed him. When you were done kissing him, he turned around and gave the most adorable smile ever. “Thank you guys so much for this , honestly this has been the most fun day ever”. You all laughed as you came in for a group hug.

Eventually it was 3:00am so you all had to drive back. Jack was a bit drunk but he decided to drive you back home. You sat in the car and asked him again “are you sure your sober enough to drive”. “Yeah I’m fine” he reassured. You stared at the front of the car as he started to drive. You were taking the shorter way so you would get home faster. Jack had been driving for a few minuets but felt his eyes getting heavy. He kept them open but slowly closed them again. You turned around and screamed “Jack wake up.” His eyes opened wide as he looked at you. “Pull over I’ll drive”. Jack looked back at the road and nodded . As he tried to turn his eyes fell shut again and the steering wheel turned fast. “Jaacc—” The impala crashed onto the side of a large truck which caused it to go off on the side making another car drive away from it and crash Into your car. The impala flipped side by side as you and Jack were in it. You felt a few cuts pierce your skin and one of the widows glass break and stab into your stomach. You let out a small scream at the feeling of the glass in your stomach and blood started to pour out. The car soon stopped flipping and was upside down. Jack looked over to you and his eyes widened. He saw the blood coming from your stomach so he went quickly to open his seatbelt. When he fell down in the glass he felt it ripping his skin. “No, no ,no , no ,no Y/N wake up come on , I’m taking you back out”. He unfastened your belt and helped you get out the car door. When he stepped out of the car he ran over to your side and tried to carry you despite his injuries. Carrying you bridal style he ran away from the car and sat on the edge of the road lying you down gently down next to him. “It’s okay Y/N in calling an ambulance” You stared up at him and smiled as you coughed out blood. Jack stared to scream at his phone while telling the ambulance to come. When he was done talking he shut his phone and he looked at you. You lifted your arms up slightly held his neck while kissing his bruised cheek. “Don’t blame yourself , I love you so much.” Jack felt tears falling down his cheeks as he held you. “Don’t talk like that baby, the doctors are gonna help you and you’ll be better.” After this I’ll finally get that tattoo you’ve been bugging me to get. I’ll even buy you a mansion , just stay with me baby please" Jack saw you starting to close your eyes. He cried out , telling you to stay awake as he heard the ambulance coming. You felt the blood still slightly pouring even though Jacks hand was covering your wound. You smiled as you shut your eyes as your life slipped away. “NOOO” Jack screamed as he saw you shut your eyes. Checking your neck for a pulse he waited a few seconds but felt nothing. You were gone. The doctors came out of the truck and ran up to him as they saw Jack pass out from the injuries he had.

*end of flashback* The joker stopped staring at the people who were laughing and stood up . He was gonna leave the club , Harley could just get a ride home . Walking out the back door the Joker walked up to his Lamborghini and sat in. He already had the lilies in his trunk. After driving for a while the joker finally arrived to the place. Stepping out of the car the joker opened the trunk and took the bouquet of lilies out. Walking around the graveyard he came to the one in the middle that stood out. On it , it read Y/N Y/L/N . Your full name and below it written “A lovely friend and an amazing fiancé ”. The joker smiled and placed the lilies down. This was the one place he could come to and be his normal self again. This was the only place he could feel like the man he used to be , Jack. “Hey Y/N , so I know I’m supped to be out with Harley but since today is your birthday I decided to bring your favourite flowers again.” The joker smiled and stared at our grave. But behind that smile was still the pain and regret he felt. “I still miss you baby, I wish you were still here” he choked out. The joker still blamed himself everyday for your death. Even if you told him not to he couldn’t help it. The joker felt a tear fall down his face but he quickly wiped it away. “I can’t wait to see you again, I’ve been planning on it happening for our 25th anniversary . We would finally be reunited”. The joker stood there and stared at your grave for a few minuets remembering you. He missed you so much. You were his soulmate and he lost you. A raindrop fell on his nose and trained him out of his thoughts. “Well I’ve got to go now considering it will rain. I’ll see ya next week. Bye” The joker started to walk away to his car and and finally arrived. He sat down and stared at his steering wheel. You were the one thing that made him laugh until his sides hurt. You were the only person that had ever made him love. He would always remember you no matter what. —————————————- Hope you enjoyed that sugar. I didn’t have much time to write so it’s a bit short 😕❤❤❤

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