#I'm processing
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Izzy really said queer spirit will outlast empires, I'm so emotional
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CARLOS VALDES
© ian spanier
#carlos valdes#i'm processing#he really is the most beautiful man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ALSO. RING. ringgggg.#literally opened ps just for him
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what is writing if not laying on the floor crying and listening to suddenly, seymour
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If Our Colours Would Mix
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He ascends from above, approaches from behind. Like something that keeps to the blindspot, the Artist creeps up on the unsuspecting audience. Once they notice that he is there, once he is moving to the front - of the room, of the stage, of their minds - his presence is already taking over the room. The Artist is like something that cannot be ignored, something that cannot be denied, something that cannot be avoided.
Something like love.
On a canvas of white, of emptiness, of purity, the performers await the Artist. As he picks up red paint, they start to move. They throw themselves at each other, arms reaching, hands pulling. The Artist splatters them with red passion, red strength, red power, and their bodies clash and collide. They heave themselves through the air, crash to the floor, tear at one another, overcome with red heat, covering themselves in red rage, dangerously close to drawing real, red blood. And then-
Blue.
The Artist splatters it over the performers. It runs down an arm and covers a hand that touches a cheek. Blue calm slows their movements; blue peace guides their embrace. In blue loyalty, one lifts the other who in blue trust lets themself be held up high, higher than they could ever have reached on their own.
As the performers move, the red and blue mix. Luxurious purple blooms, rich and mature. Splatters of yellow from the Artist’s paintbrush mix with blue. Green springs to life, the green of growth, of health, of prosperity. The performers hold one another, unbreakable, unstoppable, inseparable. But then…
Yellow.
At first, friendly and cheerful. Yellow warmth and yellow joy. The performers skip, they twirl, they dance. Then, as more yellow joins the mix, as more blue turns green and the green changes hue…
Yellow sickness, yellow madness, yellow danger.
Green envy, spreading like poison, corrupting.
Some red that remains gets into the yellow and green. Orange, for a moment, the orange that the venerable monks wear, the orange of a burning sunset, of ruin. The performers move, more frantic now, reaching for eachother yet moving further apart. Their white clothes of innocence are stained with their story, stained with their love. Beneath their feet, the paint on the canvas mixes as they move, their feet dragging through the paint and the colours mix, mix and mix. They mix until they can no longer be separated, until they have become indistinguishable, until they have turned to brown.
Brown, steady and reliable.
Brown, like the earth from which new life grows.
Brown, like the earth in which graves are dug and bodies laid to rest.
The performers have fallen. Lying in the brown, still reaching for eachother, arms stretched out, they are too far apart. The distance between them, a distance of brown, is too great. They cannot touch, and will not touch again.
Into that brown distance, the Artist pours black.
Black death.
Black mourning.
Black end.
This scene is like a piece of almond stuck between my teeth that I can't help but poke with my tongue. I want to get it out, if only so that I can chew it and have some of that sweet flavour. So I started googling the meanings of colours, and wondered - what if the colours mixed, creating new colours, new meanings? I know they don't seem to do that in the scene (presumably because of what paint is used?) so this'll probably not make it into Held (though I might use bits and pieces) which is why I thought - why not just throw it up on Tumblr, add it to the ecosystem, see what happens? So here we are. Tell me what you think?
#i'm processing#something is clearly happening up there and I'm not sure what#writing#the sign the series#the sign ep 7#abstract art performance inspired
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anyway do y'all remember when he said "i can feel the fingers going in there"?
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I've never had 10 minutes brake me so badly before
#good omens 2#good omens#good omens spoilers#i have been broken in 10 minuets#but never this badly#I'm processing
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The thing I think a lot of bughead ppl have accepted or are starting to accept is that regardless of what extent we see bughead in season 7, it’s not going to deliver what we really want from the show. The writers aren’t going to address the thorns of the past two seasons, and they aren’t going to make it worth it to have drudged through it waiting for these things to be addressed.
There’s a lot of questions about if there will be bughead in s7, and I really don’t have any doubt that there will be. There was bughead in s6, and even if it only showed up sporadically, when it was done it was given considerable gravitas.
Since the pivot during s5, I’ve generally had the approach that if the riverdale writers want my time, they’ll have to get my attention. But tbh, the content that we really want? Unfortunately, we’re going to have to make it ourselves.
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sorry about all my rambling posts and tags but ball it we fuck
#am having a lot of Thoughts and Feelings that need to not stay thrashing around just inside my head#hoo boy is it good i came back to tumblr before gomens 2 dropped#if i only had twitter or whatever the fuck it's called now my brain would be shredding itself apart#I NEED AN OUTLET FOR ALL THIS OKAY BEAR WITH ME#sorry i've spent nearly 20 years thinking crowley and aziraphale got to spend at least a few lifetimes peacefully living in their cottage#and s2 went and threw a grenade in that fanon#i'm processing#and clearly having a hard time accepting that my dads haven't actually been enjoying the easy life they deserved post-apocalypse-averting#🫠#good omens#go2 spoilers
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sometimes you end a text with "don't call me" and the person shows up in person instead even though it's like an hour by car
#life stuff#i'm processing#i already left voice messages to the gf and besties lmao#it was don't call me as in i'm not mentally prepared to have this conversation not as in leave me alone
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when did this happen???
#my art#my animations#dungeon meshi#chilchuck tims#senshi#marcille donato#laios touden#i wanted to color it but i realized how awful my work process is and it wasn't worth it. enjoy anyways#also first frame senshi is slightly traced i'm sorry he's hard to draw from that angle
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Something something the way that Crowley introduced himself to Aziraphale the first time they met in the garden and reacted as if they had never met before. Something about him later behaving as if he did actually have those memories of their time in Heaven together and trying to pass it off as being someone different now. Something about Heaven's way of punishing angels that go against the plan by erasing their memories. Something about Crowley seeing Gabriel without his memory and saying "ask him properly." Something about "remember it now" "it hurts, to remember. my head isn't built for that" "I know. Do it anyway"
Something about "I know. Looking at where the furniture isn't"
Something about I know
#gomens#good omens#good omens 2#good omens s2#good omens spoilers#fan theory#all i'm saying#is that crowley seemed REALLY familiar with the process of losing and regaining memory when it's been taken#and i think it would be fun to make it even more angsty#if crowley pushed himself again and again until he was able to remember aziraphale#and now he remembers heaven and all that it was#and he wants nothing to do with it#and Aziraphale is going back
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going fucking bonkers going bananas going INSANE [x]
#OFMD#Our Flag Means Death#OFMD Season 2#OFMD S2 Spoilers#Taika Waititi#Rhys Darby#Gentlebeard#Blackbonnet#Edward Teach#Stede Bonnet#Edit#I AM TREMBLING#SHAKING SO SO HARD#HOW DARE THEY DO THIS#I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO PASS OUT LMAO#THIS IS TOO MUCH TO PROCESS AFTER YESTERDAY#GOD!!!!!!!!!!#THAT LAST GIF TOO LIKE#GOD HDFJKDHLJKDHGLJKDHGLDKG
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i am learning. about the scary world of MM adult romance novels
#back in late 2019 when i read the prince x first son book to keep this away from its tag#my reaction to it was mostly like. this is just a well-written fic i would bookmark on ao3 tho#i'm rereading it bc i actually liked the movie that i watched for the cringe and it's admittedly quite good actually#anyway. apparently. in case someone else didn't know. this book belongs to a whole western yaoi danmei genre i just realized is not just#my imagination but in fact very real#and the plots are indeed just. well-written fics you should download in case it gets deleted#the writing style the smut the plot points everything#i'm kinda shook idk why#i'm processing
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#i've been a bit offline but#anyone wanna send me love on tour posts that will make me cry#i'm processing
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first part of my WCI Zoro AU comic!
sorry Sanji not only am I late for your birthday but also all you get is pain shdjjd
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I really wanna draw a happy birthdayboy Sanji all smiley and wobbly 💗💗💗 but cant sketch anything new rn and cleaning the comic is much easier, no thoughts, head empty
Anyway, ramble time
I don't have much experience with making comics, the żabka AU one being the one I roughed out first, but it was much less complicated. I dont recall making a serious comic effort before that... I now have a newfound admiration for drawing fight scenes, found it extremely hard lmao Generally I keep second guessing myself, always thinking I should have added more panels to make what's happening more clear, not sure if the flow of it is right. Even though I already moved onto cleaning I still keep making changes to the sketched out panels that were supposed to be final lol I also second guess the plot I'd planned, maybe I didn't think this characterization through enough? What if people dislike it?
But! If I keep tweaking and overthinking it I'll end up never posting it and I don't want that. And if I focus on other people's judgement I won't find joy in making art and I don't want that either.
So here's to sharing art! Regardless of mistakes and doubts 💗
#the read more feature was a mistake bcs of it I can never shut up#I think about art and process of creartion a lot#most important thing is I'm feeling ok with this comic again#I succumbed to the doubts thats why I made a detour with the żabka one#zosan#wci zoro au#zoro#sanji#my art#luffy#nami#roronoa zoro#black leg sanji#vinsmoke sanji#cat burglar nami#monkey d. luffy#one piece#one piece fanart#whole cake arc#whole cake island#tw blood
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