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*in the style of Rose’s Army of Ghosts/Doomsday voiceover*
“For the first nineteen years of my life, I went from one moment to the next, and it was all predictable and mundane. Then I met a woman called the called the Doctor. She whisked me away in her little blue box and showed me the universe. She showed me a life of wonder and heart racing adventure. I never wanted it to end.
Though like all beautiful things do, it had to.
I am Yasmin Khan. Yaz, to my friends, to her. I am the woman who fell for the woman who fell to Earth. This is the story of how I saved her life, but in doing so, I had to let her go.”
#Doctor Who#doctor who spoilers#thasmin#13th Doctor#Thirteenth Doctor#Yasmin Khan#this came to me in a dream#well an early morning doze#I’ve made myself cry#dw#Yaz#13#dw spoilers#I think the woman who fell for the woman who fell to earth bit is from DWM but I am not sure#if anyone is sure please let me know I’ll ad a link
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OUR BOY IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!
#WE FUCKING MADE IT GUYS#WE SURVIVED#I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR SO LONG#HE’S FINALLY HERE#LITERALLY I'M CRYING RIGHT NO#MY BOY HAS COME BACK TO ME#I WANNA THROW MYSELF INTO THE SUN#don’t ask how long this post has been sitting in my drafts btw#star wars#ahsoka show#isezrahomeyet#star wars rebels#ezra bridger#ahsoka series#ahsoka spoilers#sabine wren#ahsoka tano
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i’ve been listening to I Found you by ApAngryPiggy
and it’s been stuck in my head…so i drew this!!
#made myself cry when I added the song and now i’m never the same#my back huuuuurts#i’ve been drawing for a while now#i need to get back to working on my comic…#YEAHH!!!#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf security breach#fnaf gregory#glamrock freddy#fnaf art#digital artist#fnaf fanart
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#gets me very far. i’m just going through it and annoyed at myself when i shouldn’t be because i can’t anticipate everything —#no matter how intuitive i am or regardless of how much discernment i have.#i hate being here. i feel like i made excuses in hopes of not being here and still ended up here.#i wouldn’t even call them excuses because i thought i was giving grace and clearly looks like grace at my expense is a betrayal.#i’m getting better at choosing myself. at the moment it might feel like a loss and everything feels pointless and all i want to do is cry -#i never want to feel like this again.#anyone who wants to hate me can hate me. i do not care.#i will say that since i’ve posted this - it’s nice to see other folks and their take on self awareness. almost comforting i’d say.
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It’s a ways in the future and Steve and Eddie are a little more settled in their relationship, living in Chicago or something, but Eddie feels adrift in himself. Steve is still working at a Family Video but he coaches little league and does some other volunteer stuff and seems to find it really fulfilling. But Eddie doesn’t really have that. He loves Steve and he loves his life but he’s missing something.
He’s on the way home from work one night and he sees that the local music store is going out of business and he’s devastated but it sparks something. Wouldn’t it be cool if he could take it over?
When he talks to Steve about it, Steve thinks it's a great idea and asks what kind of music Eddie's going to sell. And Eddie's like "Thrash, doom, grindcore, industrial, death metal... All kinds of music really."
Steve pauses for a moment and then he says, "Isn't that all just heavy metal?"
And Eddie grins and says, "Yeah, like I said, all kinds of music!"
(The store ends up doing pretty well—he does end up stocking more than various kinds of metal but it's still the focus—and there’s even a little space for bands to play. It makes Eddie feel like he did with Hellfire, gathering lost sheep, supporting young bands and creating this space where kids like he used to be can come and find music and each other.)
#steddie#eddie munson#steve x eddie#steveddie#this started out silly but now I’ve made myself cry lmao#I think he mostly stocks more alternative stuff though! definitely some punk like…wait if I write that genre will this get blacklisted :P#pizzaqueentxt
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The duality of me is posting a drawing of kian as a fun pretty magical girl and then writing him experiencing every form of internalized homophobia the same day
#i need to just finish this already so i can share it online and make someone cry#hopefully#that is. honestly kind of the goal#i’ve almost made myself cry with it! and i haven’t even gotten to the worst part yet!#lol#just roll with it#jrwi#jrwi show#jrwi bitb#jrwi blood in the bayou#blood in the bayou#kian stone#how many times am i going to post about kian today? only god can say#jrwi kian#bitb kian
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the way this chapter just keeps getting longer and longer 🫠🫠🫠
anyway— posting now that there will be a new firefighter au chapter up at some point in the next twelve hours so i don’t give up on it 😂
#see you on the other side 🫡#i’ve made myself laugh i’ve made myself cry#it’s good tho i think you will like it#minimal trauma for a chapter in this au#avatrice firefighter au#sapphicstacks ao3
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For headcanons: Skids
Headcanon A: realistic
Skids was the best prankster of the outliers. Think “elaborate senior pranks that result in only a fraction of the damage.”
Headcanon B: while it may not be realistic it is hilarious
Once Skids remembers who Prowl is, everyone finds out he can do the best Prowl impression out of all of them. Voice, facial expressions, mannerisms—the whole deal.
Rewind nearly has a spark attack the first time he’s at Swerve’s and hears “Prowl” and Chromedome walk in behind him.
Headcanon C: heart-crushing and awful, but fun to inflict on friends
After Shockwave was hauled off, Skids took part in the efforts to find him. He worked with Orion Pax, Chromedome, and even Prowl, once they convinced him of the depth of the Senate’s corruption.
They were an odd team that didn’t get along half the time, but they all had strong enough personal reasons to track down the Senator. Orion and Skids wanted Shockwave back, and Chromedome and Prowl wanted the truth about the Senate, which Shockwave would be able to provide.
They managed to find where Shockwave was being held, and Skids and a couple of other outliers were sent in to see if they could establish contact with him.
It was then that Ceiling Skids was born. Shockwave was delighted to hear his favorite student through the ceiling panels of his cell.
During their little reunion, Skids let Shockwave know that he, Orion, and a few others were working on a plan to get him out.
Knowing this would likely never work, Shockwave discouraged Skids from trying. He didn’t want Skids to put himself or any of the others (especially Orion) in danger for his sake when he knew his time was short. He assured Skids that he was just happy to know they were all okay.
Determined as ever to do something, Skids refused to listen. He kept coming back each night, relaying messages back and forth between Shockwave and both Orion and Prowl, with the latter demanding to know everything Shockwave knew about the corruption in the Senate.
This continued until, one night, Skids crawled to his usual place above Shockwave’s cell and was met with silence.
Hoping Shockwave was just asleep, Skids tried a few more times to get a response. Soon, reality sunk in:
Shockwave was gone.
Distraught, Skids returned to the others and broke the news. It was one of the hardest nights of his life.
What little hope he had left drove him to wait with Orion at the Ark-1 monument every day for the first few months, but he eventually gave up. War was coming, and Skids had work to do.
Headcanon D: unrealistic, but I will disregard canon about it because I reject canon reality and substitute my own.
As soon as Skids makes it to the Afterspark, he tracks down Quark and pleads for forgiveness. Quark already forgave him ages ago, and they become close friends.
The day Brainstorm’s spark finally gives out, Skids and Quark are there to greet him as he enters. There are more apologies, more tears, and SO much nerding out about the wonders of the Afterspark. 😂
Eventually, Nautica’s time runs out.
Skids is there to meet her, but she hardly recognizes him. She knows who he is, but treats him like a stranger.
Before this, Brainstorm explained to Skids what Nautica did, and although Skids thought he was prepared to see the effects for himself, he was sorely mistaken.
He’s devastated.
However, he’s determined to get to know Nautica again and rekindle what they once had.
Winning Someone Back After Memory Loss: Afterlife Edition.
#I went a bit overboard hehe#and nearly made myself cry too#I’ve just gained two new fic ideas sighhhh#headcanons with nova#nova’s inspiration file
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something fucking wild is I still remember being in elementary school reading the Percy Jackson books and looking up to the main characters as “big kids” who, to me, were practically grown-ups
and now I’m older and I’m looking at Walker, Aryan, and Leah and I’m amazed at how young these kids look to me
and I’m honestly really emotional about that
#percy jackson#pjo#rick riordan#heroes of olympus#riordanverse#walker scobell#aryan simhadri#leah sava jeffries#oh no I’ve made myself cry#oh god
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Honestly if they made a second season of Buddy Daddies, I wouldn’t even need it to have a real plot. Like them just being a family is the plot. Just straight up like a wholesome 90s family sitcom, where any conflict that happens isn’t somehow life altering and is easily resolved by the end of each episode. And each episode could take place every few years, so we get to see Miri grow up and see the challenges the guys face having absolutely no clue how to raise a young girl into her teens.
No life or death situations. No dramatic cliffhangers. Just a silly little family doing silly little family things.
And it could end with Miri moving out on her own as a young adult, and she would tell her papas how much she loved them and how she knew all along how much they fought to protect her when she was little and how she was happy to have them as her family. (And Kazuki would say, “Don’t cry, dude” like in the field day episode, but this time Rei really would break down in tears, which triggers Kazuki to also break down, and it’s just a big ol’ wholesome sob fest 🥹)
#ope I’ve done made myself cry whoops#i just love them so much#kurusuwa family#I NEED to see them do more family stuff#like ep 12 can’t be the very end 😭#buddy daddies
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im so goddamn tired.
#fucking hate being barely able to make ends meet from check to check#fucking hate watching my loved ones struggle and gasp for air and being powerless to help them#fucking hate that im trying to convince myself to just suck it up and deal when all I want to do is sleep because I can’t miss work bc-#-I need my hours up#fucking. god#I’ll be fine. I’ve been fine. I’ve made it this far and have no intention of stopping anytime soon#i just need to scream or I’ll cry#might still cry lmao. whatever#it’s fine. im fine. i just need to keep moving so i dont fall and stay down. no walking or i wont be able to run this race nymore n all that#arty issues#delete later maybe
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the world is infinitely worse off without my friend
#grief#i am sitting in a parking lot crying MAN this year is bad#he was a disaster a mess a fuckup but who cares. he made the world an infinitely better place. most giving person i’ve ever known#it’s also amazing to me how he managed to be an incredibly selfish person but also the biggest support in the world to people he loved. and#the reason I’m saying all this is because if he knew that i was portraying him as some sort of saint now that he’s dead he will rise from#the grave to murder me LMAOOOO he’d tell me to go fuck myself and be honest. so that’s what I’ll do#never have i had someone support me like he did. never. he would go to war with anyone for me. he was there for every decision good and bad#because he knew that the way to get me out of the bad situations was never to turn his back and always support with whatever i needed. and#he was also an incredible sibling. his siblings are so much worse off without him#.txt
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you people are fucking insane
#i know who this is btw they’ve made 4 blogs just to harass me after i block them#i was gonna end up crying myself to sleep tonight anyway so thank you for the material to help with that.#literally what’s the point. why do i do any of this.#why do i bother writing anything when it’s just going to be compared to someone else.#why do i bother editing when the fandom is dead except for harassing me.#who do i bother getting sober and getting clean and going through all of that bullshit.#why do i bother bending over backwards to be nice to people who send me this. and worse.#i’m not even posting the really bad ones i got tonight. that described my mutuals assaulting me in graphic detail.#people i love and care about and consider friends. who i already worry don’t actually like me.#i’ve spent all day stressing myself sick over the absolute terror of someone not loving me. and then this.#and you people know that. you know exactly where i’m vulnerable and you know how to attack it.#i’m done. i’m so fucking done. i can’t do this shit anymore.
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Do you plan on getting any non millipede friends
I do! I’d love to get some more isopods and raise some beetles from larva again. I’d also LOVE to get back into fish keeping my faves are bettas, shrimps, corydoras and kuhli loaches! Maybe a snake or gecko further down the line? But those are what I know the least about and would be most hesitant to get as I want any creatures I get to have the best care I can give them.
I’d say the only creatures on my never list are spiders, roaches, centipede, anything else that moves overly fast or has a bad bite/is venomous/poisonous. Probably turtles too just due to their life spans.
But millipedes and isopods are what I’m able to keep right now as I’d have to get some new tanks for anything else, as well as all the research I’d need to do to be comfortable keeping them.
Oh also I do have two cats I just don’t post about them here, and I plan to possibly get a third next year but we’ll see :3
#bug babbles#I’m pretty much up to keep anything once#but I’m also very aware of myself and I get excited about new things and then often get board about 4 months later#which is when I was fine getting isopods and millipedes as I thought ‘we’ll bugs only live like a year right#so even if I lost interest I’d only need to care for them a few months more I know now that some millipedes can 10 years but that’s alright#as Millipedes have become a key interest of mine so I feel comfortable getting more long lived species and more in general#for fish it’s just the money investment of all the stuff and then the time it takes to set up a planted tank as I just love them more than#fake plants I’ve done it twice before successfully and probably failed about the last 4 times#so I’ve not gotten to the actual grtting fish part yet due to that#I know I could fork out £200 and get the tank and fish tomorrow but that’s not what I want I want a planted tank so it’ll be on going#as for why no spiders my dad used to catch them and out them in my bed as a kid for years so I just can’t handle them as an adult#he thought it was funny and would toughen me up it sadly only made me nearly cry anytime I see one now#for roaches I’m just not interested#centipedes can have a nasty bite so I’d like to avoid them and anything that moves fast reminds me of spiders so it’s a no go
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Crying but idk why
#vent#I’m telling myself it’s because I miss Ryan kopel??#and I guess that’s true but it sounds fucking stupid#and sexuality and gender is so confusing#and I feel like I have a million emotions and words to say and express but they’re all just trapped#and it’s all building pressure and eventually I’m just going to explode#and last night I got so drunk because I thought it would make me feel better#not better but like be able to not think about it all#but it just made me think about everything more#and then I got nauseous and I never threw up but my friends had to take care of me#it was just two of them thank god everyone else had left#but one of them i like#and I started crying and neither of them noticed because we were just outside laying in the grass#and it was sobs or anything it was just a constant stream of tears that I couldn’t stop#I’ve just been feeling weird ig#and going back to school is scaring me so much#I genuinely have no friends there and I don’t want to go back to being alone all the time#this is a lot I just needed to get it out I guess
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do you ever feel like you aren’t actually feeling an emotion, just thinking about it?
#delete later#I think I dissociated a bit too much or smth and now I’m wondering if I’ve been simulating humanity my whole life#but also like. every time I feel something I tend to like. actively think about it#like I don’t just get sad feel sad cry and move on#if I’m sad or anxious or etc etc I will Think About it.#like intellectualize my emotions?#like I’ll actively think about what made me sad and my mind will string together like. lines of text describing all my symptoms of sad#or whatever emotion#like I’m writing the feelings into myself. like I’m some kind of robot trying to feel the most sad#or again. whatever emotion#like I’m trying to capture the emotion#anyway just kind of felt. blank. out of nowhere and caught myself thinking abt it like I was trying to fill in a different emotion#idk#I’m shutting up now
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