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gunsatthaphan · 8 months

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superior girlfriend alert 🥺

#only friends #only friends series #only friends the series #only friends ep8 #chueam x april #chueamapril #ofts #gmmtv #lookjun bhasidi #nonnie pitchaporn #I LOVE HER SO MUCH #I want her as my gf this is not fair #shes a typical jojo girl char and I love that so much #he did good with her #i demand to see more of her please im begging

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booasaur · 2 years

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NCIS: Hawai’i - 2x01

#ncishawaiiedit #ncis hawai'i #lucy tara #kate whistler #yasmine al bustami #tori anderson #ncis hawai'i spoilers #ncis hawai'i 2x01 #kate x lucy #kacy #femslash related stuff #when you're trying to proposition your gf and she just wants to make breakfast #kate's going to have to get used to having the highest-energy person in the world as her gf #I mean she presumably had some inkling after the two nights three days thing :P #man what an episode this was that despite the well deserved hype for this scene it might not even be my fave #how crazy that you could literally create a top 5 ranking in one ep #I mean to be fair it is soft and domestic and quite hot #and being the final scene and fade out gives you the impression they at least get this night #actually I don't know which one I WOULD pick as my fave...#but f/f couples should do more straddling scenes >_>

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hiveswap · 9 days

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Parents will treat you like expensive vermin that theyre keeping around due to being mercyful but the moment you wanna kill yourself it's suddenly bad

#NOBODY!!! WANTS!!!ME!!!!!#my mother thinks im soulless or something and always want to hurt them #my stepfather and i hate each other thats fair i hate him too #my grandmother lied that her and her partner are attending a funeral in a different town on my graduation day #(my mother called the cemetary. there were no funerals that day)#my father and his girlfriend claim to want me around but theyve got a baby now and lmao he didnt want me as a kid either #and they were like. noo sorry cant come to your graduation we'll be out selling karate merch at an event #mfers are doing this self employed. like damn who is going to fire you of youre not both there..........#i just moved out from the dorm im still going back for exams but after that i'll no longer live there #i'll probably drift apart with the roommates i had for 3 years sooner or later. i feel like i cant prevent that #maybe just my abandonment issues though #then theres the guy who just started introducting me to his family as his gf. i love him but i cannot rely on this guy with my emotions #not because of him but because im not throwing my baggage at people out of nowhere like it's a basketball it's a cruel thing to do #thats everyone in my life rn i have two other friends but theyve been out of the picture for about half a year due doing young adult stuff #tw suicide joke

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beautifel · 7 months

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seems like my heart does nothing but break lately

#oh my god dont read the tags. it breaks for everyone :( but on a more personal level #for my gf whos sinking deeper into something n i cant even help bc im a wreck myself but i am so so scared to lose her #still havent even been able to book a psych appointment n i rlly dont know where to go with all these ..em*tions #Guys i rlly dont understand one thing. how come one random freak whos in ur life at some point can derail a whole person like eons later #jeopardise their whole future just by crossing some lines for funz i really dont understand this #not fair not fair at all this is evil #and becasue u got unlucky someone wanted to be disgusting u have to carry the consequences #i rly still cant even say it i still cant even write it #i dont even know how . irl the only perosn i told in some capacity #is dealing with her own trauma and i hate that jsut being understanding is not enoughlike #Wow Lmao Its just Funny How it Shapes You. & U Can Never bury it forever becuz it will always catch up to you😂😂😂😂😂😂#AND THE PAST CAN NEVER BE ERASED 😃😃😁😁😂😂😂🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔪🔪#at least my gf has been taking steps to deal with it for.3 yrs and i just never even #LOL i feel like such a coward but the sh*me and the g**lt associated with the Thing..r so overwhelming i cant even admit it #what would i even do at the psych appointment like straight up what am i gonna say Lol #hai iam here to process something i dont actually remember probably becasue i was a child but imnot sure. n id rather #kms than tell u how i know 😂. So thats also why my heart breaks. for that little girl who was a ball of shame i guess and no matter #how much i cognitively.like rationally know its not my fault the ball of shame n guilt is still there #n it swallows me every time i vaguely start 2 think about acknowledging the Th*ng #or whatever. And thats just my end of the deal but my gf has it worse genuinely bc she remembers everything n still has to see the freak #n it went on for yrs n her family doesnt know n heres the worst thing hes a beloved family member a sweet boy with struggles of his own #well i hope he walks into traffic for doing what he did to her

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girl-bateman · 2 months

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I say this with no malice btw but reading old ask from this blog always makes me wonder if all those people who called me autistic were right

#ok there arent THAT many ppl who have called me autistic. excluding my parents its not even 5 #but reading the things i myself have said makes me think like... yeah ok credit where credit is due #you got me there #im not autistic btw but i sure do sound like that in like every one of those ask games 😒#'i need someone who means what they say': girl after being pissed off that their gf didnt want them to LITERALLY come over right this second #just bc she sent a 'i wish u were here :( i miss u' text #ok to be fair i still think it was cunty of her to not see the romantic gesture of me coming over #so actually fuck her. im not autistic and i react normally to things #relationships are hard at 17 what can i say :'(#i only hope to find someone again whom i may stupidly misread their sappy text. get on a bus for. only to ultimately turn back. embarrassed #i wish for a love worthy of my embarrassment! godbless #!

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oatbugs · 1 year

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the way my heart sank . lol

#tried to get on a call to study w my gf bc weve both been avoiding stuff we Have to do and its been making us anxious #but esp her bc shes been in this cycle for a while and shes struggling w it a lot . and i love her and i want the best for her #and all my friends r like u should push each other to do better even if its uncomfortable somewhat and i agree #so we were like. yh lets do stuff / get on our work tmrw even tho its anxiety-inducing etc...and then we got on a call #and this is the most like. bored/displeased ive ever heard her sound like she seemed extremely disinterested and even mildly irritated #and it honestly shocked me ??? so i ended the call bc i need to do work and it was making me sad #and im trying to listen to words more than tone but it was so extreme and such a sudden change that it literally wasnt good for me . im so #confused rn . like ik facing tasks youve been avoiding for months causes anxiety ik theres like a mental block around it that makes u not #want to deal w it or become irritated at ppl who suggest that you should #but omg?? it was so weird and like. when i said she was making me sad so i wanted to end the call she was like. ok 😐#which is a fair response ig but shes never responded to me that way b4...like what is this what is happening...#i want smn who encourages me to move forward and who appreciated that i want them to do the same #instead of staying stagnant and anxious for months. i talked abt this before on here and everyone collectively was like Be More Patient and #work through it w her etc etc (my friends said the exact opposite tho) and i have been Trying To but its making me feel actively . bad.#like. im Afraid.#to bring it up . and then when i finally did say yh lets do smth lets get thru this tgth she just shut down on me somehow #idk what else i can do #i will talk to her abt it later i just need to work rn. i had to get this out of my system first.#shes so sweet and wonderful and supportive usually. but when it comes to thsi topic. im rly shocked idk #i knew she felt bad abt it but i thought she agreed to move through it w me and i didnt expect her to direct it at me #like whatever i said shed give me the coldest ok 😐. like. again nothing inherently wrong w that but when contrasted w #the way she talks to me usually there IS smth wrong it . its jarring and uncomfortable and made me rly upset bc it felt like she was mad at #me for trying to help . idk #UGH whatever ill talk 2 her later i have to do this lecture itll help distract me

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wyvernwinding · 5 months

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it's finals week can people not leave well enough alone i am trying to study not get bogged down in stupid useless friend drama that i tried to remove myself from a literal year ago

#genuinely screaming ugh ugh ugh i have better stuff to do than this!!!#friend sent a message to my partner condemning his attempt to make a safe place for himself and his friends because it was “exclusionary”#and “otherwise not fair.” he shows me this message #and i am very hurt by the things friend said about me and the person that makes me uncomfortable. friend messages me to offer to talk #and i leave her on read. friend reiterates that she is sorry and i say i'll speak to her after finals are over.#and now gf of uncomfortable guy just messaged my partner to ask to talk????#because “i've heard that there are people that want to make things a bit messy” ??#can you please! stop!! trying to stop people from setting boundaries! and then blaming me because the boundaries i set are ones you don't #like!!! this is so so stupid! i have exams to study for and classes to pass!!!can you not wait a damn week before you go and make my life #miserable with all your stupid questions because you don't know when to leave things be!! good god. i'm so fucking tired.#vent #mufie.txt

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bigothteddies · 6 months

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I have to see them in my jersey before I die.

#teddy posts #genderless post #ownership kink #wardrobe stealing #my name across their back? my career number in big font beneath that? showing everyone that they belong to ME?#n e e d .#queue #throwback to in middle school when I had a gf (horrible relationship but not important)#and she mentioned how much she loved football gf's wearing their bf's jerseys during school #and I brought in my BMX racing jersey to school for her to wear #and she TURNED IT DOWN #she was like nope I don't want to wear that #which like....fair that's your decision and right #but also #COME ON????????#what's the POINT #did you even LIKE me?!

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elprupneerg · 2 years

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I’m honestly really really really glad Isaac’s emotion chip didn’t work in the latest episode. I was hoping what would happen is that he’d go in for surgery and when the doctor tried to connect his chip they’d realize that he was already forming emotions in his own way without it, and that trying to connect the chip was pointless (or better yet, that his initial lack of interest in the whole thing would be respected!). Idk, treating this whole situation like “asking a partner to go to therapy” felt wrong, since I read it more as “this person’s girlfriend is asking him to act/be more neurotypical and alloromantic to conform to her desires rather than respecting him as he is” which as a neurodivergent arospec person feels Really Really Bad To See

#the orville #I just really like my vaguely autistic robot man ok??????#like I understand Claire wanting him to return her feelings cuz reciprocity in affection is important!#but also it feels like she wasn’t actually looking at his behaviors and his way of expressing himself #or at least didn’t Understand that he was trying to express shit in his own way #I ship Claire and Isaac together and I hope they can move past this #but also like. if my gf asked me to be less autistic or less aro I’d have to break up with her #cuz that’s not a fair expectation #asking someone to go to therapy or change a harmful behavior is absolutely valid!#but asking someone to just. change how they experience the world or how their biochemistry works? that’s fucked up #and yeah I know a kaylon doesn’t have a ‘bio’ chem that’s beside the point

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deus-ex-mona · 2 years

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i thought of my family. i ✨shrivelled up inside✨

#incoherent ramblings that may or may not be oversharing af in the tags. you have been warned #the lyrics just… really hit home at some parts. infidelity ain’t cool man. :(#ughhhh i just. the song’s just…!!!!! aaaaaaaaaa #now i really wanna take a crack at tling it bc. the…. aaaaaaaa #i can’t really explain my feelings about this song? but i have lots of them #like it brought back memories of being there in the cigarette-scented living room of my old place as my apparent other parent called his gf #i’ll never forget how sickening the softer and sweeter(?) tone his voice took on as he talked to her. it was grossssss #like it was such a huge shift from how he was towards his biologically female family members (my mother and myself)#just how was he able to be so soft towards that lady while also slapping the living daylights out of us? >:( it isn’t fair!!!!#my brother was spared from getting hit though. and he was spared from being involved in their fights too. male privilege ig. it’s not fair!!#not that i’d want that asshat to be sweet to me in the first place. heck no.#there was this time he asked me what kind of music i listened to. i told him t-swift bc i didn’t want him near my fav song: caramelldansen #he looked up one of her songs on yt to seem relatable，i told him ‘i don’t listen to t-swift’，and he screamed at me :(((#and there was also that time i was screamed at for calling him a perv for pointing out mosquito bites on my inner thighs :(((#and yet… just *how* was this ugly ass loser able to get girlfriends as a married man??? he’s 155cm so he doesn’t even have the height factor #ughhhhhh cheaters always remind me of this clown. i hate him. i really do. i hate tons of things but he’s the thing i hate most in the world #i can’t get rid of that mf though >:( the cons and cons of being literally named after him bc he was disappointed that i was born a girl ig #well. this sure got off-topic… i probably need therapy lol #but therapy’s too expensive (and too complicated to get) so tag therapy it is!!!!#i’ll just vent my life’s worries in the tags here all while everyone else suffers with me >:)#but… kitto wakareru yo’s a beautiful song (musically speaking). chico’s voice and the instrumentals are so good and very emotional…#but the dude mentioned in the lyrics can go cocc himself ig. cheating is unforgivable!!!!!!!#it is suiyoubi my dudes #inedible blubbering

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xamaxenta · 1 year

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My gf is like im struggling with this pose im drawing and im like oh yeah lemme see

And she deflects like its bad and then fuckigng shows me an absolute banger of a sketch and im just 💀 bitch this is so good

#just when i thought I caught up to her!!!#she’s like it sucks but then shows me the most incredible passionate pose with wonderful overlapping limbs and stuff #like. h o w?#🥺🥺🥺 idk how she does it #well I guess i gotta work harder then #i want to catch up and get better than what i can do now #to be very fair she draws two characters interacting consistently all the time #but i often just draw stand alone single character content so I haven’t practised posing two in a long long time #i say im gonna do marcoace and then i never do #*clenches fist* my gf is so fucking talented yall shes so fucking good at the art thing !!! and im so inspired by her amazing talent #so i want to do good too 🔥🔥🔥#basically if i didnt have the mental capacity and attention span of a flea #and i didnt get nerfed to shit by depression sapping my energy and making it hard to want or like to draw i would be so powerful #but its ok im only ever going to get better and thats ok at my own pace #uhh motivational posting for myself hha

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waterandsilver · 11 months

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i often think about the fact that my parents got married within 7 months of knowing each other having both just gotten out of long term relationships with other people and that actually worked out for them and they're still married and in love and stuff . guiness world record for most successful rebound ever

#to be fair. i think it helped that they both knew what they wanted #they both wanted to get married to someone and buy a house #they were on the same page yknow #it does mean that there are Certain Topics i can't mention because i know my parents associate it with their former partners #like my dad's old gf was Scottish and he lived with her in Scotland foe a while #sometimes he'll randomly provide trivia about Scotland and ill be like huh how do you know that- oh. okay!#also one time my mom say a middle aged dude on the street and started dissociating so i guess that was her ex bf #*saw

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moonybadger · 2 years

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Tiny shipping pet peeve (not here to police anyone’s shipping preferences this is just a me thing) but man I dislike ships that are popular in a fandom where one of the characters in the pairing brutally and remorselessly kills or helps kill the other character in canon 😐

#bored badgering #like I get being able to work around it (I've certainly bent over backwards for ships)#but man #this is partially cause I've been seeing a lot of Sleek and Needle from WC shipping lately #(where to be fair Sleek only HELPED kill Needle with no remorse and it mostly Darktail doing the killing)#I GET THE APPEAL OF THESE TWO I REALLY DO #but in canon Sleek never liked Needle and was always kind of a jerk to her #like if you want bad bitches being bad together Sleek literally ran away paw in paw with a lady cat named Raven #let Sleek be evil and have an evil goth gf #like all that set me off but it also gives me war flashbacks to Feferi and Eridan shipping #which is similar to my dilemma with Needle and Sleek but 10000 times worse lol #cause he has a history of being really angry at her for not returning his romantic advances and harassing her and her new bf #who he also attacks #like yeah jack was manipulating him or w/e but he definitely zeroed in on those two to attack first before anyone #SORRY I HAD. THOUGHTS

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neverendingford · 3 months

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#tag talk #seeing hornyposting on tumblr makes me realize just how insecure my last bf was about his weight #and how much internalized phobia he had about so many things (but thinking about the fatphobia specifically here)#which like. tragic because I deadass forget that people irl do have and perpetuate fatphobia #like. he was so good and chunky and I loved that but he was so wildly insecure and wanted to be skinny again and I was like noooooo #the amount of times he would make fun of fat dudes and then turn around and shame himself for putting on weight.#not very healthy and also it's like that thing how it's hard to compliment someone if they always deflect it and insist you're wrong #hard to let someone know you actually do think they're hot as fuck when they're always like ew I'm ugly I wish I were different #also... a fat guy isn't gonna use his chub in a sexy way if he's insecure about it.#like. yes pin me down with your weight and make me breathe it in. but if that just makes you insecure about your body then you're not gonna #kinda like how if you like dick but the trans woman you're with is dysphoric about it then you're not both gonna have a good time #anyway. fat people rule and chub is good and one of my many goals is to assure the people I sleep with that I think their bellies are hot #I showered with my gf a few nights back and like. honestly damn. she asked about what I thought and I was like girl you're serving classical #like. very heart shaped in the way the belly lines lead toward the thighs. idk it's very beautiful and I like it a lot.#I get that a lot of people prefer my hyper-slim body type and sure that's fair. but don't erase us who prefer heavier people.#like. I keep thinking about her.#I don't remember which art period it is that's got her specific body type I said Renaissance but I looked and they're thinner there #anyway. still figuring out how my sexuality relates to my own body because gender dysphoria forever. but I know how I feel about others

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faultsofyouth · 7 months

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I haven't eaten a pizza lunchable since I was 16 and I threw up an entire undigested one (3 distinct pizza crusts) while I was on acid

#my posts #that acid trip sucked #for one thing the only person i was tripping with was my 23 year old coworker who i didnt know very well #my actual friend was supposed to trip sit me but all he did was blare super overstimulating lights and music that i didnt like #and then when his gf (also my bestie) showed up she was in a bad mood so he spent the rest of the trip talking to her and ignoring us #and then because she was in a bad mood she and him decided that they should fuck with me and tell me how mad they were at me #because months before that they came into my house uninvited to look for acid that they didnt tell me they were sending to my house #and because they came over uninvited the only person home was my MOM who doesnt like acid and was not okay with having it in her house #so then my mom found out that they were shipping drugs to my house and wanted to call the cops on them #so 5 hours later i got home from work to discover all this and so then i had to tell them they cant send drugs to my house or my mom will #call the police on them. and unbeknownst to me they were both already on acid so then they started freaking out about getting arrestes #arrested**. and somehow it was all MY fault that they had a bad trip. because i told them that they werent allowed to ship drugs to my house #and that my mom was pissed at them for lying to her and to me. so then they decided to take revenge the next time i was tripping and they #werent??? u know. ive never thought about that too hard before now. but that was kind of shitty friend behavior all around #like first they do something super illegal but be sure to use My address so they dont get in trouble for it if the drugs got caught #and then they got mad at Me for setting a boundary and then decided to Punish me for setting that boundary at a time when they were too high #to be handle it. all at a time when they knew i wasnt staying at my parents house because my stepdad had threatened me #(while my bestie was there to Witness) so i was highly dependent on them for a sense of security #and they knew that and they thought it would be funny to fuck with me anyway???#okay but then after that i stole her boyfriend so i guess all is fair in love and war

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oatbugs · 1 year

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i feel conflicted abt my relationship...need advice etc . in tags . pls i need input sm

#i love my gf a lot and i think our relationship is doing rly good rn . i miss her a lot bc im in a diff country to her but ill see her #in a few weeks etc. anyway things are good....HOWERVER. i am worried abt . our future #like u are supposed to live in the moment and have fun and be young etc etc but this is like..the fact that its going well #is making me consider how our life paths would go tgth and if it would be fair to stay in a relationship u know wont work forever. like #this was one of the reasons why i felt hesitant at first etc. basically i swore to myself i would only date an academic or at least someone #who like. has. A Thing. that they are working towards that they are rly rly passionate abt. bc i thought it just wouldnt work out otherwise #and it seemed after a while of talking that she IS like that...shes applying for a graphic design degree and she seems to genuinely #love art etc so much and also she is amazing at it. HOWRVER...she hasnt drawn in a while #and is working a min wage job despite meaning to quit for ages...and as far as im aware #she still hasnt made a portfolio...etc etc. but im so confused bc like...shes great and ik she can do it i just dont #understand why she wont. she could also get an internship etc in the relevant field but i still dont get it...and its not my place to be #pushy abt it. like i already suggested these things and asked abt them but i dont want to ask any more bc like. its her choice #what she does w her life etc. but anyway its like...am i being pessimistic/impatient and everything is gonna #go well for her or do i hold genuine concerns. and if the latter/both potentially...is it unfair to be like #hey babe ik things are amazing rn but we have to reevaluate bc idk if in 10 yrs i would be happy w where we are #my friend was like. Break Up W Her from the beginning bc he thinks u shouldn't get into a relationship w smn whom you think will not also #elevate u in some way..and ur life paths dont align etc...but he is genuinely married to his academics like hes sworn off #love so i didnt rly listen bc hes rly extreme w his. love gets in the way of academics. etc #but also his point was valid i think? that you want the person u spend ur life w to elevate you. u want them to challenge you and make you #want to work harder and be better and achieve more and more...and i do want that and i have been trying to be that for them #but A) i can only be that to a reasonable extent for them before it starts being like nagging/being pushy and #B) i feel like if they end up going the way they are rn they can never be that for me. is that bad #like am i a horrible person for thinking this way. obviously i am not casting a moral judgement on her or anyone #for whatever path in life they choose to go down but also is it like...Silly to give up on a perfectly good #relationship bc ur like. as it stands i do not see you walking alongside me in 10 yrs etc #like im lich rally 20 . but what if it DOES end up going rly well and it DOES end up being thr case that we end up staying together #and then im like. feeling discouraged bc my partner in life is just not the kind of person i imagined being w when i was 19 or 20...#like in terms of careers etc. more importantly is this a discussion i should have w her . bc i literally do not know how to raise this #without sounding like a dick but is that bc i...am being a dick? is this a bad thing ?? is this thought not that of a good person ?#it sounds so WEIRD to be like hey babe either u have to start being more ambitious and insane abt ur art or i might break up w you. like :/

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