Since I trust you guys, I need to get something off my chest.

I spent over $700 on gems for the mobile game Merge Dragons.

okay. well. tell us nr 1 of the art asks 👀

thanks nudel!!

1. Art programs you have but don't use

i FUCKING own clipstudio paint EX!! like i bought it with my own money!! I just can't use it because it requires to be used on mac or windows and TURNS OUT the thing i own that looks SO MUCH LIKE A LAPTOP is actually just a tablet with a keyboard :) I bought it a while back ago, and I was and going to continue to be slightly pissed about it until i can scrounge up enough money for an actual laptop

i came out to my therapist today and it went really well!!

I need one of those hugs that turns into sex. Ya feel me?

List of parts I loved from Enchanting Grom Night

"Ah, a severed hand! Perfect response."

"Medieval tortuture seems like a weird theme for prom, but hey!"

"LUZ CHOP" *screams and charges with a stick*

Luz realising there's a spider on her face, slamming her face on the mud and rolling away

"This one says 'I'm an otter! With a dark side >:3"

Amity beating the crap out of Hooty

A slowed down version of the end credits music playing when Amity saw Luz's grom outfit

"You going soft on me Blight?" "In your dreams"

The couple from the beginning of the ep ripping off their grom outfits revealing sports jerseys that read "GROM" and they both scream "YES GROOOMMM"

"You're not coming from a place of intellectual honesty, so debating you would be pointless."

"Well, if that's the rule"

"I know, i know, imagine everyone in their underwear." "Gross! Why would you do that?" "I don't know, I always do that. Haha, I am a little weirdo."

"SPICY TOSS"

THE ENTIRE DANCE/FIGHT SCENE!! THE ANIMATION!! BRO I-

King getting comfortable to sleep on Eda like a cat.

The group photo!!! 💞💝💗💖

im so glad you took the steps towards fixing your design! so many people will probably say it's just a persona theyre drawing but im happy you took the time to realize tango didn't like it :)

Yeah, I’m glad you’re happy about it anon.

Honestly I’m just glad that I’m talking openly about all this. I’m hoping it will bring more awareness to this whole thing instead of artists having to find out the way I did. I’ve been seeing so many people attacking fanartists and complaining about them drawing Tango with horns when, they should remember, most of us don’t watch his livestreams! For me it’s a case of timezones and bad internet.

(addressing general fans now) If you are wanting to make an artist aware of how Tango feels, the best way to do that is to show the words actually coming out of his mouth. Show them those clips I provided a few asks ago. Demanding them to stop drawing Tango with horns is really not the way to go. That’s what people did with me, and that just made me want to draw him with horns even more, out of spite. It’s gonna take a while for the non-horned Tango to catch on, so be patient with artists. I’m super new to the fandom but from what I can tell, horned Tango has been around for a really long time, and that image isn’t going to change overnight.

Please be kind, we are all just here to have fun and enjoy some dorks playing Minecraft.

ok the only thing i’m scared about this season is how the execute this plot. I’m not too worried about the Eliott, Lucas, and Lola plot, but i’m worried about the plot of dealing with grief, death, and possible drug addiction. Those are very serious topics that many people deal with a lot throughout the world, and it’s probably their most sensitive subject (2nd would be s3 or 5). As we saw in S5 they did add unnecessary drama, to draw away from the actual plot of the story which angered some people, including me. I feel like if they do decide to add unnecessary drama to this season to draw away from something so heavy as this, I wouldn’t be really happy about it, due to the fact that this is really tough subject that it takes many years to overcome. And honestly Skam France doesn’t have the best track record when it comes to seriousness. They have given us a very good plot, but i really hope they don’t fuck up a strong story line that is relatable for many, as many people do turn to drugs and alcohol to deal with this type of thing. So please for the love of god Skam France, plz do not fuck this story line up

hey so since gender officially ended yesterday i m just gonna go ahead and announce I’m coming out as non binary ! so there’s that

I've been working for two months now, and it's been kind of exhausting (emotionally mostly) but I get paid so yay, but I dont have enough motivation to do what I have to do. I wont get fired if I do something wrong. I mean they will tell me and I know I wont like it. For the proyect I have to do (which is in groups, btw) I dont have motivation either. It's a competition (sort of like shark tank) and I dont like it, also it's a topic that I'm not really interested, but it's really useful for the company, but I dont find enough motivation to care to the extent of wanting to win.

Also I've been thinking a lot about my future and the fact that I'm graduating next March and I just dont know what to do with my life (I know I'm thinking way ahead of my self but my cousin is graduating on Tuesday and she already has a job so that brought up my doubts).

I've been thinking a lot about traveling and maybe studying abroad (maybe studying French or perfecting my English or something related to what I majored in uni) but I'm not sure. I havent shared my thoughts with my parents but i will soon (my mom will visit this weekend, so I'll guess I'll tell her then). Also, I've sort of come to the conclusion that I dont love big cities (I dont hate them, is that sometimes I feel really lonely, like right now, mostly because my closest friends are really busy and they live with their parents and they are introverts as well who dont like to leave their houses). I know I cant go back where I grew up because I'll feel like I live in a box and everyone knows me and I still think a lot about what other people think of me.

This match just made me so angry as well because of how the women’s nt is treated but still give their all and they played a muchhh better game while the men get all the praise and support and money but play like how they just did. I hate it all

Uncertainty... yet again

My doctors are discussing the idea that I may be autistic, given my past and how I act, and that my depression and anxiety may be symptoms of it instead of wholly separate health issues. It would explain why my meds never seem to work. I wish there were some easy answers in this world, I really feel like I need them now.

namjoon and his nose

i just wanted to get my say in about this, because it is truly devastating that people accuse him of using a deviated septum as an excuse to have a nose job. namjoon has never needed plastic surgery. point blank. but the fact that he had a CPAP machine and couldn’t breathe properly, meant that he needed the surgery. this was not for cosmetic enhancement in any way, shape, or form. it’s truly disgusting that his health was at risk, maybe not as severe as it could’ve been or as severe as other health risks, but doing that much activity; such as dancing and rapping at the same time, or dancing in general- is hard to do when you have a hard time breathing. the man needed to get it fixed so he can perform better and with more ease. as someone who’s suffered sinus issues and troubled breathing, it’s terrifying when you legitimately cannot breathe. cut him a break, he did this to better his health and not his appearance. he does not and has not needed to change his appearance. hes is one of the most handsome men i have ever seen. and besides, if he wanted to have cosmetic surgery, or change the way he looked in any spectrum, that’s his decision. it’s like lip injections, or botox, or implants. it doesn’t effect you, so stop tearing him down over something he did to better his health.

Also if you think filming his funeral is okay or that it’s “for the fans” you are part of the problem. You are enticing the idea that it is okay to put idols on inhuman pedestals in the most terrible or personal situations, as if they owe something to you, as if they are not human. You are normalizing the separation between being human and being an idol, like this is some kind of public event, even when his family said they wanted it to be private between close friends and family. PLEASE respect him as a human.

What is cgl/why is it bad?

well basically it’s this kink/lifestyle where people take on the roles of a ‘daddy dom/mommy’ and a ‘little’ (essentially, a young child). this can be sexual or non-sexual but it is technically a part of the bdsm community. these people will often use child-like things in this relationship, such as toys, bottles, pacifiers, bedtime stories, etc. often times the ‘little’ will talk and act like a child.

so basically what gets into dangerous territory are a few things that i’ll try to break down simply. let’s take that last bit i said, the ‘little’ often acts like a child. whether or not this is sexual (but especially if it is), psychologically, the people in this couple will begin to associate seeing a child doing these things with their ‘lifestyle.’ i think it’s pretty clear why that could be dangerous, but, in essence, this can cause either one but especially the ‘daddy’ to get horny or think abt their s/o whenever they’re around children which is pretty…creepy? overall terrible? pedophilia? yeah, so, not good.

let’s just think about this. this isn’t jokingly calling your favorite celebrity ‘daddy.’ this is people who are fetishizing the relationships that parents have with their children. personally, i believe these people need to ask themselves why they can’t have a good relationship without such a thing. it just comes back to the creep factor tbh. so it’s pretty much promoting incest, pedophilia, and child rape all in one. this is particularly offensive to people that were assaulted as children, if you think about it.

this also can end up harming minors because with this mindset, it’s easier for them to be tricked into getting into a relationship with someone much older, since it may just be played off as a ‘caregiver’ and such. so i don’t believe that these littles need to be fought and stuff, but rather that they need to be helped out of that situation.

another problem is there is a phenomenon regarding normalizing abuse in these relationships, what with the spanking and punishments that a child would receive. obviously it’s a pretty well known thing that spanking can be a sexual thing, which is fine, if it’s separated from this. but as per usual the ddlg community took it, associated it with kids, and made it sexual. and the really really bad thing is the daddy dom, if they’d like, can choose to manipulate these littles bc they’ll just play it off as being naive and all and they wouldn’t ever question their daddy spanking them extra hard one day, or spanking them for no reason, or being just a tad too rough. so i just fear for these people that no matter the amount of trust that they have with their ‘daddy’, they can and may take advantage of the ‘young’ mind. the one that supposedly doesn’t know any better.

another thing that just annoys me to no end is the constant need of permission, and that can pass abusive boundaries as well. even just learning about healthy vs unhealthy vs abusive relationships this year in school, i was thinking ‘wow that’s a little bit Bad’ when i thought of these relationships. the little may have a set of ‘rules’ (dont get me started omfl there should be a power balance in every single relationship) and so having to ask ‘daddy’ permission for things is so annoying. and one should never have to ask permission if it comes to visiting family/other people, appointments, going out, etc. there’s no shame in asking a s/o to go with you places or to help you plan an appointment, but never should you ever feel as though you need to be permitted to do these things.

also, it’s generally offensive, especially to people that genuinely need a caregiver, and from what i’ve seen, people that have speech impediments. if you pretend to talk like a child (stuttering, ‘wuv’, etc.), it’s pretty ableistic. in other just little ways, it’s just annoying to see these things pop up in tags like ‘pastel’ or ‘kitten’ on tumblr. i wanna look at some damn cats not your kink, please and thank you. and also when it comes to stim videos (like ones with slime, etc) those are often created to help mentally ill people, and the people who support this kink for some reason…think they have ownership? like it’s not out there to help ppl?

ok so i had a friend that was really into this and i questioned it for a while at first bc obviously she had her ‘ships’ and liked to apply it to them (and herself and that’s a whole other story but i won’t get into that bc it’s more personal), but just hearing how she would talk abt it and act it out was pretty yikes. and just generally annoying. do you know how exhausting it is to wanna just hang out with your friend like a normal kid and ending up feeling like you have to take care of them?? it’s not normal! but after a while i just said ‘eh ppl can like what they like.’ but still every time i hung out with my family it became weird to see baby cousins with pacifiers and stuff and that pissed me off!! it shouldn’t feel weird and inherently sexualized!! now i myself luckily was never ever into it so i never thought of it that way, but it popped up in my brain since it was so prevalent with my friend. not long ago i was released from this friendship (which was kinda controlling) so i finally felt free to…dislike this? and i realized in turn just how creepy it actually is? and so i’m glad bc now at least i don’t have to think abt this disgusting behavior when im playing with my baby cousins.

i am a minor and i dont want to feel like there are predators and pedophiles out there that get off to the idea of young kids! no one should! even if i myself am not a young kid i have a huge family so i have lots of younger cousins and such and the fact that people sexualize and fetishize this stuff makes me rlly sick and rlly angry!! i don’t want to feel like i should have to be so defensive of them but i am bc of this, bc there are sickos out there that are being validated by this.

a few disclaimers: obviously, not everyone in the ddlg community is probably aware enough to realize that they are, in fact, being very creepy in this, and that’s mostly just the minors who have heard about it and think it’s a really nice thing. i don’t blame them. they just need to be taught, and helped. i do blame the ‘consenting adults’ for condoning this behavior, however. also, there are people that age regress from what i understand for completely different reasons, and i don’t know much about that, but i believe it is not harmful so long as it is not related to this.

ok so anyways in case this gets into any of the tags pls don’t interact with me about this if you are an adult!! that would make me very uncomfortable and if i see that i’ll block you. also, anon hate isn’t really gonna hurt me, and i wish the world were kinder so there’s no need to send it anyways!

and as always the thing i believe very much and hold close to my heart is that you can always watch disney movies and cuddle with your significant other without roleplaying as a three year old.

edit: ahh I realize a bit where I was very problematic!! it is very okay if you are in the mind of a three year old or a younger age and cuddling with a s/o!! there is absolutely no shame in that and I realize that now, I apologize. it still stands that no one should sexualize that but don't feel bad for age regressing!! again I apologize for saying that!!

*whispers* ...I don’t think Tom Hiddles is cute.

I don't know what it was about last night but I'm right back to hating my body and how it looks. I was just getting better and now I think I wanna cry over how my body looks. My knees are too close together and my hip bones stick out top much, I'm so skinny you can see bones again. Why can't I gain the weight I wanna keep? I was just starting to enjoy my body, but...