happy bb szn to those that celebrate 💙 can't wait to suffer for the next 100 days with y'all

tex red vs blue is insanely transgender but im the only one who sees it that way because im crazy in the head.

what if there was a past version of yourself. a woman, a wife, a mother, with long hair and a sweet smile. and she died long ago. and you are her. but you are not her. you're nothing like her, but the people who knew her desperately want you to be her, want to preserve the memory they have in their minds of the woman they loved through you. but you never asked to be her, never asked to carry the burden of someone else's expectation of who or what you should be. you have a new name. you prefer to go by this one. people remark on how weird it is that it's a guy's name. sometimes the people who loved [the past version of] you call you by your old name. they are not referring to you when they say it. you live in the shadows of someone who's long gone, and you're something different now, but you don't feel like you're ever allowed to define yourself on your own terms, to be your own person, to control your own life, because you exist solely through the memories people had of you. and the longer she has been gone for, the more desperately people try to get her back, the less you resemble her and the less you know who you are, or if you ever even got to be anything at all. what i mean is that transition could have saved him

like... what do you even mean you absolute BUFFOON

*takes off feminist hat for a minute*

Greyson “im sorry, did you just say the thunder head used to call you babygirl?” Tolliver

hey y'all, anyone have any good stress relief tehniques or habits they'd like to share cuz I've been more stressed in the last 3 weeks then I was in the last 6 months

I’m going to lose my mind oh my god I am so scared for this quincenera wtf

i was really worried they’d water matt down for this show since it’s a comedy but he’s oddly fitting for the setting. like yeah everything is not nearly as high stakes and bloody but his dry humor fits in really well overall so yea im satisfied

This show has so much promise and I’m trying not to become too invested because I just know it’s going to be cancelled eventually

Another annoying day at work

ough im getting symptoms and problems again why me man why can't I just live my life

for no reason i can conjure up, im thinking about and rewatching gravity falls yet again, and its bringing back a lot of memories and emotions

AUGH

i had surgery last Thursday to fix my nose's Many Problems and i get the internal splints taken out tomorrow and god i wish i could time travel to then these things are driving me insane since the swelling has gone down i can just constantly feel them and also i can't wait to BREATHE like a real person for what is very likely the first time in my life 😭😭😭

also we did a lip biopsy too because of my eternal desert of a mouth and turns out: I have Sjögren's Syndrome :"D which... explains so many of my other symptoms I've had and that have gotten progressively worse over time since I was 18 lmao, that no doctor has EVER been able to figure out wtf is wrong with my body!!! I'm so glad we did that biopsy, since yeah rheumatologist I saw two days before surgery did a ton of bloodwork and x-rays, so far all of which came back normal, like they historically have because my body REALLY wants to keep the reasons it tortured me a secret for some reason 🤪 I think we're still waiting on one more that specifically had to be sent off to Mayo, and I'm also supposed to be getting an mri and echocardiogram, which I'm sure all that stuff is gonna come back normal too lmao because my body is just LIKE THAT. I was genuinely flabbergasted and in disbelief that the lip biopsy came back positive, since nothing ever does for me 😭

There can't be any new succession OSTs because the show ended almost a year ago

i WILL show up to the trial day for the preparatory class tomorrow no matter how much i dont want to and after that i guarantee NOTHING