I miss you

Swing | ST:Ex | 031223

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These last months, I have been so exhaustingly busy with life, studies, and getting work done that I have been unable to draw my own stuff... ...I really, really missed drawing things like this. Sorry to you all who are still out there looking for almalvo content - it has been very sparse as of late; I really thank you for your patience. Big things are coming.

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i know everyone is struggling right now but jesus christ i'm struggling right now.

lazy scribbling of my baldur's gate 3 characters

various fairfaxes and a drawing from my english civil wars hiking au which i never posted :-) [id under cut]

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the first image is a digital drawing of a group of men on a light brown background. they are all wearing hiking-appropriate clothing. from left to right: a young man swinging from a tree; arrows pointing at him read ‘weirdly passionate about hiking’ and ‘like 15′. a man leaning against a tree; arrows read ‘grumpy’ and ‘only here for family bonding with father-in-law’. a man with a cane and one arm in a sling, leaning over to read a map; arrows read ‘has injured himself on every hike so far’ and ‘designated driver’. a man reading a map with a serious expression; arrows read ‘annoyed about everything except hiking and sometimes also hiking’ and ‘only one who can read a map’. a man with his hands on his hips looking at the viewer; arrows read ‘arranges hikes and then doesn’t go on them’ and ‘good at arguing’.

the second image is a collection of four digital drawings of thomas fairfax, a man with long dark hair, a moustache, and a beard. he is wearing seventeenth-century clothing. one is a full-body coloured drawing of him sitting in a chair facing away from the viewer with his legs folded and his hat on his knee. the other three are uncoloured: two are headshots of him as a young man and an older man, and the third shows him sitting at a table reading a piece of paper with an expression of concentration.

the third image is a coloured digital portrait of thomas fairfax as an older man. he is clean-shaven and has long dark hair and a scar across his cheek. he is wearing a dark doublet and a large white falling band, and is looking to the left of the image with a serious expression.

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I am going to throw a quick "sorry I disappeared" post up here because I was so ready to come home and talk to people after my first day of work last week, then I opened tumblr on my computer and it was the hideous new layout and I just gave up and collapsed into bed... and every day since has proceeded in exactly the same way. 😩

I'm only awake right now because I had to complete a 4hr online training before tomorrow morning sob sob sob sob, but usually I collapse right when I get home. And everyyyy time I open tumblr with aspirations of catching up here with all my fave people, the layout immediately makes me recoil!! Why did they have to do that!!! And then I'm asleep again.

Hopefully I'll be awake for more of the weekend this time around and can figure out whatever hacks you all have come up with to restore the non-hideous-iconless-twitter-knockoff version of the interface, but for now just wanted to let everyone know that I'm not ignoring you, I'm just genuinely going from working to asleep for the time being.

ADDA (pathfinder kingmaker) // ADEMARTA (p:wotr)

YELENA (fallout 3) // PRIYA (ofna)

MINA (when twilight strikes) // PETRA (the sandman)

the dears @roofgeese, @chuckhansen, @blackreaches, @multiverse-of-themind, @florbelles and @leviiackrman tagged me to make a few of the loves in this cutest picrew! ty so much!

TAGGING: @griffin-wood, @risingsh0t, @queennymeria, @marivenah, @confidentandgood, @dihardys, @jackiesarch, @adelaidedrubman, @schoute, @yennas, @belorage, @virassan, @rosebarsoap, @aartyom, @aelyosos, @noonfaerie, @shellibisshe, @celticwoman, @arklay, @amistrio, @aceghosts and you!

... Nothing new, but Eric's eyes are so beautiful :') I'm making a gifset for his birthday and I keep getting lost in his eyes and in his angelic voice that soothes my soul whenever I listen to him. Oh, I also I adore his hand gestures.

I think everyone needs at least one unassuming media they read way too much into and like it only counts if you sound absolutely insane talking about it like you Cannot Be Normal about it, mentally you’ve got all the characters and plot points pinned up on a wall and your putting all these strings around and it’s largely incoherent but makes sense To You.

DEATH UNTO DAWN ON SPOTIFY 🥹🫶🏼

What if Tuvok didn’t want to read the letter from T’Pel at first because he was (deep down - he’d never admit to this of course) nervous that she had in fact done the logical thing and moved on. She absolutely could have, couldn’t she? She’s on Vulcan with so many options and it’d be illogical for him to expect her not to, she didn’t even know he was alive after all. It’d be logical to- But then he hears that she’s still calling him her husband and praying for his safe return. And suddenly he very much wants to read it.

fairfax in 70s clothes because i think seventeenth-century men would love flares and incredibly loud shirts and questionable woollen tank tops. i don't have a better explanation than that i am afraid

not to stoop to the level of making this post finally / at all but apology cake meme that says “sorry i haven’t answered your messages in [insert amount of time up to 3 years] i don’t hate you in fact i think fondly about you often (and in the case of my friends every single day) and i [miss talking to you / want to get to know you better] VERY much but i have been going through a turbulent time and struggling with depression and anxiety and my social battery is at a 12% on a good day and i hate that i have become like this but i don’t know how to stop but i sure fucking hope i figure it out soon because depriving myself of the joy and healing our friendship and/or mutualship brings me makes me even more scared and miserable and i know posting an apology cake meme on tumblr [and ideally other social media platforms but i am not brave enough to do it] instead of sending this to the specific people i am directing this apology to is callous and corny and cringe on so many levels but the truth is i’m scared to even attempt to respond to anything because a) i’m scared that you are justifiably sad or angry at me for not replying to you and i’m terrified to face the consequences of my (in)actions in each of my cherished relationships and b) the number of messages i owe responses to is so overwhelming that these days tumblr posts are the only way i can communicate without wanting to bury myself 4746286426 feet underground and never be seen again”

i forget that friendship is like mutually beneficial and people also enjoy spending time with me

i’m gay and in love

there was more to this at one point but

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