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rwsdarw · 3 months

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Hate this but whatever

#miraculous lb #miraculous fanart #mlb #miraculous ladybug #miraculoustalesofladybugandcatnoir #adrien agreste #chat noir #gabriel agreste #father angst #I miss my dad horribly

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oofuri2003 · 6 months

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#oofuri #ALL THE MOMS W THE BABY PICS!!!!!!!!#kind of horrible that sakaeguchi is left out bc his mom is dead....like what abt a pic of his dad w a baby photo :(#if youre wondering why tf some of them are clearly scans and some r clearly photos let me take you on a journey #i saw these on the wiki and i was like I NEED THEM ALL IN ONE PLACE. NOW!#so i started saving them all. but then 1. oki's mom was missing. and 2. the scans are kinda fuzzy #but i was like w/e I'll just go grab my volume and take a pic of oki's mom #but the line quality is a lot higher so i was like ah whatever I'll just take photos of all of them!#but izumi suyama and mizutani sans are all printed a little fuzzy/off on my volume copy :( so i stuck w the scans!#no one asked. anyway. here!

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opens-up-4-nobody · 3 months

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#its seems we really may be at the end of vanity #i missed a call from my dad and thought we might be in a connors birthday situation but no. not yet #he did say that it feels like this is it bc my mom's situation is complicated bc she has so much wrong at this point #its like a h0use md episode. the doctors dont seem to kno what to do and shes not very coherent #so my dad was saying that i should look at flights and by tonight hell let me kno if i should pull the trigger and buy a one way ticket home #it sucks. he sounds rough. i feel so bad for him. his wife of 29 years is dying #its not fair. shes only 53 #i wanna be there but im stuck here across the country. i wanna go home. thats a bit frighting tho bc itll take me at least 10 hrs to travel #and i dont want her to die while im in the air but i also dont want her to suffer #i hope she gets better but if she doenst i hope its fast. there dont seem to do any good options. shes so tried and its so complicated #and if she does get better than this then what would that even mean? my sister says it doesnt feel like there will b a better anymore after #this. and bless her to the ends of the earth she reached out this morning and was giving me updates #comforting to kno im not just being dramatic. its actually just really bleak #its kinda funny tho. my sister was like meh it doesnt seem so bad and then like 10min later she was like yeah no i was wrong its sorta #horrible apprently shes been deterorating #god. if i go back home do i take clothes for a funeral? do i keep up to date with my genomics class? will i become offset from my graduate #cohort? will i get my wish to play with legos at home? all questions worth considering #well. ill deal with whatever comes. so it goes. itll b fine. i mean ill b fine #just sad ya kno?#three weeks ago she was alright and saying she could fly out to take care of me after oral surgery #now shes dying #unrelated

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twinknote · 9 months

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PLS CONGRATULATE ME, I FINALLY DID SOMETHING THAT I’VE BEEN PUTTING OFF BC ANXIETY FOR LITERALLY MONTHS THAT I ACTUALLY RLY WANTED TO DO (CALL MY DAD)

#i have actually Rly missed him but i do the nd thing of not interacting for months and convincing myself #that they hate me bc of that #don’t get it twisted #i have an absolutely horrible stepdad who i fucking hate #and my mom also sux #i am not in the Good relationship w parents club unfortunately #but my dad is a v nice v autistic jewish man and i love him v much #god i wish he got custody of me growing up… maybe then i would have ptsd -_-#I MEANT WOULDNT

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makkie-is-screaming · 4 months

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I should fucking kill myself

#I have this anger and dislike towards my little brother that’s totally unwarranted like he’s 10 it’s just my issues #n whenever I feel his hatred towards him I want to gut myself like #it’s not his fault that my moms a better mom for him n that he’s not scared of her #It’s not his fault that my dads sober and present for him #it’s not his fault that my older brother is a good brother to him n has never hurt him #it’s not his fault he’s not scared of telling someone he’s hurt or of getting food #it’s not his fault he parrots all of my parents insane conservative views #but I still hold so much anger and resentment #When I look at him I see him getting all the things I never got and being free of the traumas I went through #and I know it’s good and I’m happy he’s grown up in a safer environment but I’m so angry that I didn’t have those parents #and I know he’s also missing so many things I got #But it fucking hurts seeing how loved and safe he is and wishing I had been that innocent at that age #like when he’s fighting with my mom it’s over school work n video games n then he thinks he can talk shit ???#when I was fighting with my mom it was bc she came home from work in a rage #when I was mad at my dad it was because he got drunk n came home n yelled at my mom until she was crying in a corner then left #When I was screaming at my older brother it’s because I was tired of him hurting me not because he called me a name #I’m a horrible sister to him and I hate it because when he was a baby I was so fiercely protective of him and so happy to be his sister #I watched his shows with him and kept him entertained when my parents got bad n I promised myself I’d take care of him the way I never was #but I failed n now I can barely stand being around him #like I’m such a good sister to my sister but that’s it #n it makes me feel worse about my relationship w my brother bc I know I can be better but I’m just a horrible jealous bitch who should die #screaming

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schmweed · 11 months

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#Gerri Kellman #Roman Roy #my gifs #no but listen LISTEN #Roman misses his horrible dead dad #and he knows Logan had every single tape of every single event he was ever at at a special storage multilevel basement #even after conversion to digital the footage needs lots of storage room #so Roman claims it all and everybody looks at the tiny poor rich manboy with the cut on his forehead #and they let him have it #(obviously Gerri has copies of every single byte stored elsewhere)#and heartbroken over Gerri and grieving his dad Roman does nothing but watch all day #then he watches this. and he's like WHAT? WTF is Gerri saying to Greg WHY is she linking their arms #and how DARE Greg stare after Gerri so hungrily #even though part of Roman's brain is aware enough to tell that Greg was hungry for status and money #he's still jealous because how DARE Greg #and he wonders and wonders and stalks Greg #online first because I don't think Roman would be up for anything offline now #and ofc Greg being Greg is superkeen to be in Gerri's good graces #so he's keen to have her in his 'casual' snapshots at events that he then posts to his social media #and even though Roman is 95% sure Greg isn't and was never interested in Gerri like that #and even though the other 5% is the loudest and angriest and yells excuse me? Greg has eyes doesn't he?#what Roman is most jealous abt is that all those ppl get to have the privilege of being in Gerri's presence #when NONE of them knew her like Roman did and none of them was fondly... something by Gerri like Roman was #I miss them so much!#can I also say how DELICIOUS this scene was! the unbelievable twist when I discovered it was Greg not Shiv! after I was SURE it was Shiv!#such incredible writing. incredible characters. incredible everything.#Succession

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add1ctedt0you · 7 months

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Peach Blossom Island

#It's the prettiest location. No wonder Mei ChaoFeng wants to come home #She wants to come home even in her dreams #No wait. Wait. That was about someone else but imo the yearning is the same #Feng heng #huang yaoshi #huang rong #legend of condor heroes 2017 #my horrible gif #Anyway I love the dad-daughter relationship. Amd how both of them miss the mother

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pohlepen · 7 months

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frankie has a younger half brother named owen that i wanna eventually make a blog for (maybe i'll make him a side blog now that we can reply from sideblogs????), but the most important thing to know is that he had a really good upbringing and was loved and safe and their father got clean + sober for THIS second family. and the worst thing that happens to owen is frankie finding him and telling him about her life, because it rocks owen's shit to his core because this whole time he was loving his dad and living his life and there was nothing wrong or bad. and then he finds out that this person he looked up to and respected was totally different and it feels like he never actually knew him at all.

#“ ⍀ headcanon. « we hunger so for vicious things.#“ ⍀ ooc. « i called about the mountain bike and the locked ipad.#( owen: i am a happy guy / frankie: hey u wanna hear about how our dad left my drug addict mom + me / owen: ... oh )#( their dad is probably dead at this point from all the comorbidities that come with being an addict/drunk for 20+ years but )#( he burned the candle from both ends rip )#( owen's entire existence in a lesson in nurture vs nature because his ass is a lawful good type bitch and frankie is chaotic evil )#( literally couldn't be more different if they tried )#( owen: wow this news that my dad was a bad guy is horrible i should drink about this / frankie: i am intimately familiar with that vibe )#( frankie: omg i have a brother this is so exciting / owen: i wish i never met you )#( he's too nice he wouldn't say that but it's the truth )#( lil miss frankie + her ability to ruin lives <3 )#( anyway i gotta go get ready to babysit 13 puppies and then i might be around )#( getting up at the ass crack of dawn tomorrow to watch the eclipse with some friends so i gotta get my beauty rest )#( ok happy friyay xoxo )

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kizashige · 1 year

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I wish seishirou had been yuuya's psychiatrist when he was a kid

#would have been horrible. but also hilarious.#I still miss my hospital au but also the idea of kizami finding out morishige's dad is a psychiatrist and he is just like #I'm going to ruin this guy's life #every time kizami gets a ritalin refill he sees morishige's dad at the hospital and they just smile and nod at each other (Hate

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starsandthorn · 3 days

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literally cyno and cyrus family moments are killing me. they are so...

#personal stuff #thorn plays genshin #someone threatens his dad and cyno has the case solved within the day.#''if it were my son he'd get the scolding of a lifetime!!'' ''luckily i'm also a very principled person :]''#like they are so.#collei and tighnari too wauugh. family.#FAMILY CAMPING TRIP WOOO #i'm sure this won't go horribly and we won't meet the other plotline!#THEY ARE SO SILLY GOOFY....#''ah this is nice. just sitting here enjoying nature :] no agenda or plans...''#not to worry traveler an agenda will find you soon enough. just wait #finished the quest. WHAT IF I CRYY WHAT IF I CRY WHAT IF I CRY....#FAMILY...#head in hands the PICTURES. THE BABY PICTURES OF CYNO. HE WAS SO SMALL........#the constant lisa mentions good for her :] <3 #i miss her sm. love seeing her and cyno interact i really hope we do get to see cyrus and cyno in mondstadt sometime #maybe... for lisa story quest 2... perhaps............

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crown-ov-horns · 1 month

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I was looking through my notes for Good Omens fanfiction, and realized almost every damn story includes Crowley having a baby.

There's the one where Heaven and Hell decide to use an angel baby carried by a demon as a diplomatic tool, leading into Crowley being protected by Michael, and them falling in love.

There's the one where she leaves her baby with Anathema and disappears, which triggers all the following events - from the search, to Aziraphale's trial, and everything else.

There's the one where she has to supply the new Antichrist, which leads to her and Lucifer falling in love, and her being crowned the Queen of Hell. (Well, this one is really two stories set in different timelines, in the second one the "baby" is like 27)

In the one inspired by a dream, she does have a baby eventually, but that's far from the worst thing that happens to her. Gabriel's treatment of her after is... How the Hell will I write this damn thing if I can't even think about it.

There's no baby in the one where she gets tortured with diluted holy water.

I see I have no storyline with male Crowley just yet... Fine, that's not true. I do have some thoughts for Crowley x Fem!Lucifer... It could include a new Antichrist, too. And, Crowley wouldn't be the pregnant one for once. But, dealing with pregnant Lucifer would probably be even scarier.

#diary pages #writing journal #fanfiction writer #ao3 writer #good omens fanfiction #good omens fandom #crowley #good omens crowley #lady crowley #fem!crowley #writers on tumblr #writer life #ffs what's with me and torturing miss/mr. snake #she's either pregnant or she's in some horrible situation or actually it's both #yes i feel damn guilty for doing that but i can't help it #in first two bullet points the dad is aziraphale but he screws up (without even knowing it) so michael steps in...#in the first one and not immediately as a love interest at first just as a protector #don't worry she's in on using the kid for politics and crowley know's there's drama #the second i'd rather not spoil because of the detective/investigation plot #hey but she chose michael herself she was supposed to be with hastur #in the antichrist one all is obvious and honestly it's one of those “good for her” stories for crowley #but in the time jump she is kind of riddled with worry for maxine fearing she'll burn out and so on #grr the dream storyline... the dad is gabriel and don't worry in the end she ditches him i can spoil that this story is so heavy #this story is the ugly crowing jewel of my frustration with crowley saving aziraphale over and over again #what she does to protect him here almost ends up killing her or breaking her it's... seriously no idea how i'll write it #i'm also worried people will think i'm romanticising it when it's supposed to leave the reader sickened like i am #no comment on the holy water thing rn it's a simple hurtfic that develops into a survivor - the previous one is survivor in the end too #i haven't given too much thought for the crowley/f!lucifer but it should be good #fr hell would be so frustrated she chose this moron as her king consort but could do nothing about it #her pregnant would be SCARY - she's terrifying already... well terrifying and to die for

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vamptastic · 1 month

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I asked for a razor for my birthday on account of my lustrous manly facial hair (ratstache wispy neckbeard and the horrifying beginnings of a goatee) and my dad bought me the same model as him and then told me that he was glad he did because when he was buying it he saw a bunch of videos on their website and realized he'd be using the wrong attachment for the past decade. In hindsight a lot of my dad's reluctance to include me in manly rights of passage is probably because his own dad left at 13 and he never had them himself, though gender roles do certainly play a part.

#Like he does do more Man Things with my little brother but I'm not missing out on much + a lot of it is shit he never did as a kid himself #Anyway. Masculinity is so fake lmao I think part of my dad's Deal is that he has a bit of a complex himself #He thinks of himself as like very enlightened and comfortable in his masculinity because he wears pink shirts to work sometimes #But he also gets incredibly defensive over my own masculine expression and over me wanting or not wanting to do Man Things #And generally just has some obvious (albeit very common) insecurity in that regard #But i think me being trans and my brother being uhhh a sensitive lad (I think he's gay but. He's 12 + Prime directive)#Probably made him a bit aware of his own hangups in that regard. He seems to think of me and my generation as very Gender Enlightened #which like we are but he seemed surprised to hear about all the horrible shit people said/did to me in k-12 wrt gender

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maxbegone · 2 months

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#today was admittedly horrible #I have to do some job hunting and I’m so beyond lost #I’ve been saying since tenth grade that I was going to wind up giving myself an ulcer #and I am in no way kidding when I say that #everything is really rough and I miss my dad and I just want to fucking rewind to 2017 #or 2018.#that way I could tell myself to stick to the school I was in and be settled and ok now #fuck it all I’m a mess

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hussyknee · 4 months

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Idk if I can continue posting about Gaza. Woke up from a horrible horrible nightmare about it, started scrolling my phone to distract myself, saw a post about it, had an anxiety attack. Maybe because the nightmare was too fresh or my brain is feeling raw in general.

Otoh keeping away from the news is making my scrupulosity OCD go hog wild. Leading to me obsessing about what might be happening. I don't know why my brain keeps doing this, it's not like a rando with no disposable income in a third world hellhole can do fuck all to help them. What are they supposed to do with my mental health crisis? Eat it?

Doesn't help that I'm wondering whether hyperfixating on Gaza is my brain's way of reminding me that there's worse places I could be trapped in than in this fucking house with the deranged woman that gave birth to me. Although tbh it feels like a toss-up on the worse days.

#how am i supposed to recover from anything living with this horrible witch #sometimes i wonder whether it would have been better if Mum was the one who died and my Dad that survived her #and my brain immediately shut down bc holy hell he would have been worse #how can you be so glad that a person is dead while missing them so much #it's been almost ten years and I still can't believe he's gone sometimes #at least i loved him enough to miss him. i honestly wonder whether i'd even be vaguely sad occasionally when my Mum finally kicks it #although with our luck she probably wont any time soon #God doesn't want her and Satan doesnt want the competition probably #tw: gaza genocide #in which i make it all about me #tw: parental death #tw: parental abuse #personal #life update #knee of huss

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nagitoedit · 11 months

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there are things abt me that i dont talk about not because im being secretive i either just forget to mention it or think no one wants to hear about it but i think it gives like important context to whats wrong with me 💖

#me when im a child of a messy divorce because my dad has crazy issues that he never got help for so he started self medicating #and dealt with addiction and got to the point of stealing money or trying to return items he never bought to walmart for a refund #and got arrested many times and eventually spent 5 years in prison which literally didnt help at all just gave him more trauma and #caused relationship issues between him and his family which left him without healthy connections and support and #then he got accused of a crime even my mom doesnt believe he did and she'd experienced horrible things from him while they were together #and so he disappeared to run from the police and hes been legally considered a missing person for many years now and it is unknown to #us or any of his family members if hes even still alive out there somewhere and ive had dreams that he comes back and #i wonder if theres something that could be done something that could help him maybe we could never truly be on good terms again but #maybe at least he could have a chance at a decent life even if its away from us #i used to sit on the couch with him and watch nascar and monster trucks when i was little #and i still have some of his nascar novelty items in my desk drawer and the pocket tool that used to be his.#the scars of his tantrums are still in our house the holes he punches in walls covered up with copy paper taped over the wall #and im sure i have the same anger issues or whatever disorders he never got properly diagnosed for because i seem to have inherited everyth #ng from him his eyes his face his hair his anger issues even his handwriting somehow #and he is why im scared of ever doing any drugs because i just know im probably genetically predisposed to addiction just like him #and i dont want that to happen to me #recently i cut my hair and i looked in the mirror and i looked just like him #when i visit my paternal grandparents and aunts and uncles i see the family photos with him hanging on the walls #and i see that large painting that used to be in our house #👍

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m00ngbin · 11 months

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Last year was actually the worst year of my fucking life

This is just me complaining you don't have to read it but I need to get it out yk

#occasional mention of suicide #i hate thinking about it but like. the biggest reminders are coming back in august and its gonna start all over again #me when losing friends actually does fuck me up a lot and its not funny at all #dad gets out in august and school starts again in august #being at school is torture i just want to stay home for the rest of my life #i hate leaving my house it makes me so nervous and sad #everything horrible is at school #gray is at school #victoria is at school #its so early that i spend half of my day there sick and unable to breathe #people are there #people are mean and scary and horrible #i swear school will be the reason for my suicide #someone or something at school #i miss vicky but shes so mean and i hate her and her friends #i dont want my dad to get out #i dont want anything to do with him he makes me so miserable and hes going to ruin my life again #i cried in front of almost a hundred people at school because he left me at my last play #LITERALLY CLOSING NIGHT OF THE LAST PLAY OF THE YEAR #my last play ever #i had to be hugged by a bunch of people i dont really know just to calm down #that was humiliating and horrible and i hate him #but that takes so much energy #i just want to die #i have friends but i dont have friends yk #i am all by myself #i want to cry right now but nothings coming out :/#fuck victoria what the fuck was her problem #LIKE A COUPLE DAYS BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY?? ARE YOU FR???#worst birthday ever btw. nobody remembered and we had testing and my dad missed it and i was at school until 9pm doing something i hate and

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