Notable moment from the fam visit: my niece really wanted me to put makeup on her, and was pretty good about holding still and being patient while I put it on! but! as is to be expected, smeared it all around her face very quickly. so she was running around for most of the day looking like a party girl wearing yesterday’s makeup

Thank you for even making that post because I honestly feel like I’m going to explode!! Championing every issue is EXHAUSTING. I have such empathy fatigue. Bombardment of “rules”, behavioral guidelines, services, companies, networks + food brands & PEOPLE to boycott ALL THE TIME. Fandom is space many of us come to unplug from reality…it’s certainly my hyperfixation & ppl be like “well then get another one because you shouldn’t support–” IT DOESN’T WORK LIKE THAT. Fuck. I can’t take it anymore. Calls to action being in EVERY single place have weakened my mental state even more than it was before which was already on “pending disability” level of severe & now I’m just. burned t-absolute-f out….at everything!! I can literally FEEL myself unraveling. Kpop stans & their toxic activism can go to hell. They’re so worried about making sure to condemn others for “not doing enough” or being bad people, that they don’t even realize their actions are making them into bad people. This shit takes a toll on mental health, there is science behind this, it is real and what happens to human beings when inundated with constant terrible news, and it’s not just being ~too privileged to care~ but these performative mfs have no concept of blacklisting anymore and just want to assume the absolute worst about someone, call them names & wish harm on folks who are at the end of their ropes! It’s maddening! So even if compassion fatigue isn’t why you didn’t go out of your way to Denounce and Drag™️ him (bc you totally have the right to simply not want to do that on a fanfic blog!) I’m just glad someone else stated that this is supposed to be an ESCAPE. fuck.

Baby, burnout will fuck you up. Don't do that to yourself. Take the time you need and recoup. Life is a constant war and you can afford to lose a battle here and there to focus on your own health and well-being. Getting yourself back into a good place mentally will be a huge win. We both know the ppl obsessed with performative activism aren't doing anything from a place of compassion. The real ones are out there making change, not sending people death threats online from the comfort and safety of their mommy's basement.

When I posted the pic of NCT Dream and Big Time Rush, I wrote in the tags how BTR was something my sister and I loved and bonded over. We watched the show even though it was obviously a kids show and we were both adults. It was just something that gave us joy. My sister passed away years ago and anything BTR-related will make me teary because I think about how much we laughed together over it.

So the first thing I get are messages over how problematic BTR is, that I should delete the post or I'm pro-genocide if I don't dislike them. Ngl that made me so upset because I got a bunch of faceless people trying to taint some precious memories of me and my sister. If they came at me trying to educate me on things I didn't know that would be different, but it's straight to judgment and hatred toward me over something I posted that was totally innocent.

Meanwhile I get criticized for posting about a kpop group instead of reblogging every call to action post. I donate my money to these causes, but I don't post about it because I don't need my ass kissed for doing what I know to be right. I am 1000% sure the anons in my inbox that try to police me have never given a dime to anything, but are policing people's blogs for not reblogging posts or talking about it more.

I feel bad that I haven't been very active on here this year so I try to come on when I have some free time to interact with you guys. I make a silly post about Doyoung and get anons tearing into me for it like I'm his social media manager. Okay so because the world is going to shit we aren't allowed to enjoy anything?? Can't make jokes about anything. Can't show support for anything. Just wrong on every fucking count.

Believe me I am so goddamn aware of how lucky I am that I can sit here and say I'm very privileged that I live comfortably in the life I have. I know what's going on in the world and I do my part to help where I can, but I also have to keep functioning. I don't want every minute of my life to be seeped in anger, I did that for a long time and it not only eats away at you, it makes you ineffective in actually changing the things making you angry in the first place.

This was just supposed to be a blog where I posted my stories. One of the few places I could go and not constantly be reminded of how fucked up the world is. I've always said that people who told me reading a fic of mine made their day a little better or helped them escape for a bit were always my favorite. That was what I came here for and I loved being able to share the tiniest moments of peace and quiet with others through stories with guaranteed happy endings.

I'm frustrated because I have 4 drafts ready to go next year. I got the story posts done and made all the headers. But I don't want to post them. I have no problem admitting I'm selfish and spiteful. Even though I can turn off anon, I can't block these miserable people and I don't want them reading my stuff. They don't get to consume my content and then tell me to off myself right after.

A massive fuck you to those of you that ruined this blog for me.

okay tbh i feel like with the whole face claims thing, the safest option is that if you want to add visualisation for your character then maybe a picture without the face is perfect. like there are plenty of pictures of women online with only their outfits and not their face. while i still feel that depicting someone, a random person's body without their consent is still kinda ehhh it's better than a picture of some girl's face. an outfit pic is not that problematic as it can show us our character's aesthetic, vibe and overall look without making some random girl on the internet awkward and uncomfortable. there's also the part about inclusiveness and stuff, like i've seen some writers get hate and like get called out (?) sometimes for using like an east asian girl's picture and stuff, even if it didn't show the face. which i feel if the face isn't showing and it's just a picture of an outfit on a person, then it's completely fine. they're not depicting the oc's features while also sharing what kind of oc they had in mind. people want writers to be inclusive yet forget that sometimes describing a character is a part of the creative process of writing. and the baby thing is so true LIKE YOU'RE USING A BABY PIC OF SOME KID YOU FOUND ON PINTEREST THAT IS DISGUSTING (not targetted towards you) because THAT'S A LITERAL CHILD. they can use the picture of a pair of small baby hands or some gloves or just some baby clothes if they want to share what the oc's kid is like but using a baby is too far and disgusting. you're doing great though and i love everything you put out so keep it up lovie...!!

i do agree with your points anon !!! i think this is getting into more smau territory rather than fic banners if i'm not mistaken? there are so many pictures out there where it's either just the fit or the face being covered up somehow, and i think those are much safer alternatives to just putting someone's full face on the internet and having it being associated with an nsfw fic (sfw fic still feels like gray area just because of whether or not the person wants to be used as a face claim but inserting a random person's face in an nsfw work feels worse imo 😭) like i remember seeing this fic banner (3 pictures side by side kind of banner) for a different fandom a long time ago and it was like a reaction "so-and-so member does [sexually explicit thing] to you" and there was just this random girl from the internet with her tongue out as one of the pictures???? like that could probably pass over someone's head but it just feels like a line's being crossed </3

honestly i've always read reader inserts as original characters, which might just be a wattpad -> tumblr pipeline thing HAHAH but it's never bothered me personally if the reader insert character isn't 100% inclusive (although i do want to keep promoting more inclusivity in writing!!) thing is, i also believe that you do not need to highlight a character's physical appearance for it to be "good writing" nor does it contribute to character depth. i don't think beauty is a prerequisite for female characters to be interesting, it's more about what they think and how they feel rather than how they look. am i getting too ahead of myself but i've read plenty of fiction where physical appearance is mentioned very briefly and have some of the strongest and most fleshed-out female leads i've read !!

the baby/child pictures will always make me uncomfortable 😭 half the time the pinterest pictures are taken from people's instagrams too,, so some mom innocently posted her kid and now her child's pictures have ended up in someone's fanfiction <//3 but yes there's so many pictures out there that don't show the face that are more acceptable to use imo!! but thank you for sharing ml and esp for bringing up the point about just using fit pictures just for an aesthetic/vibe bc i didn't think about that initially either!! thank you sm for reading my works 🥹 hope you're having a wonderful day/night!

Welcome to My Blog Earthlings

Sup! This is a formal introduction to my blog. It's probably the only formal thing here.

My online/pen name is Jean Danika Cresswell, but ya know, Jean's fine. I'm on a bunch of other sites, basically if they have the same user name and profile pic, it's me tho. (Ao3)

Wanna hear the podcast I manage and edit? Of course you do! Follow @thethreematchsticks for more info!

She/Her/They/idrc

I'm Bisexual and annoying. That's a deadly combination. Apparently I'm agender too. Welp, that explains a fuckton.

I live in Australia and my favourite pastime is to mock how Americans stereotype Aussies.

My current fandoms are:

STRANGER THINGS

IT 2017

The Osemanverse

I Am Not Okay With This

Pixar

Percy Jackson (I've only read the main series)

The Hunger Games (not TBOSAS)

if there's harry potter stuff on my blog it's because I was a major Harry Potter kid. I can't be assed to change this entire post so count this as a disclaimer that I DO NOT SUPPORT JK ROWLING OR ANY OF HER WILDY WRONG VIEWS.

@red-in-revenge is my tumblr shit little cousin and I reblog about 90% of their posts. They are my favourite mutual, I'm sorry everyone else. 💕

@dailydoseofdumb is my actual real life cousin who i basically forced to get tumblr. He's like the Steve to my Robin but also the Mike to my Max. @twissty4 is my mum, or more accurately, me using mum's blog. She only has tumblr so she can follow my au blog @byler-makemewanttobelieveitsokay

My tags are:

the au: #mmwtbio #make me want to believe it's okay

me talking a lot: #jean rants

things i really like: #jean's favourites

My blog has absolutely no theme.

My Ships are:

Byler

Lumax/elumax/elmax

Stenbrough

Reddie

Narlie

Imogen x Sahar

Tarcy

Taoelle

Bicci

Wenclair

solangelo

My Brotps:

Mike and Max (Madwheeler)

Robin and Steve

Mike and El

Lucas and Will

Dustin and Mike

Richie and Stan

Aled and Frances

Charlie and Aled

They're Siblings your honour

Will and El

Steve and Dustin

me and @dailydoseofdumb

I don't care if they're romantic or platonic

Henderhop

Elmax

Ronance

Notp

Romantic Mileven

Anthing that involves Billy Hargrove

Bro if you just read all that have a drink. OF WATER NOT ALCOHOL THAT SHIT'S BAD FOR YOU.

Not to sound like a J2 stan, but you are over-generalizing way too much (and misrepresenting information) in your "not just work buddies" post.

That boat trip? Was part of the YANA campaign, so work.

That black and white picture of them eating dinner? Taken during a con and all the other actors were there as well (you can even see Timothy Omundson in the picture). So again, work.

Those 10 year challenge pictures of them out eating dinner? Taken in Vancouver, where they worked. Most likely after work was done for the day.

But they're still just work friends and not comparable to my real friends.

And the SPN actors used to spend even more time working together than I do with my colleagues. It's not surprising or unusual at all that they would also spend a lot of time going out to eat or knowing each others' families if they're constantly stuck together like that.

And it's very telling that now that they're not filming/working together anymore, there's even less evidence (of any) of them hanging out with each other, except during con weekends (... work). And even then, from what we know, Jensen went out with only Jared (+ Clif) for some of these, with only Danneel and a friend from New Orleans for another one, and all of J2M together (plus Clif) for another two now. So Jensen and Misha do not even use the con weekends to spend time with each other alone. And the rest of the time they're usually pretty busy with work and their own families and geographically far apart, so no private hanging out there either (highly unlikely at least). Cockles is nice and all, but I prefer to stay realistic and there'a nothing wrong with them being work buddies.

Man, I don't know what post you're talking about, anon-- but by that logic, I'll have to go tell all my friends that they're not REALLY my friends.

Maria and Cathy, who I met at work-- who both attended my wedding, who come over to my house often to eat dinner and hang out ... we don't have any pictures posted to social media together, so I guess they're just my "work friends".

Stephanie, who I met randomly when getting a pedicure ... we go out to lunch together all the time; but again ... no pictures on Twitter or Instagram, so I'll have to let her know that she'll have to stay my "pedicure friend" and nothing more.

God-- and Audrey, the girl who I considered to be my best friend for the last 25 years! We originally met when we were nextdoor neighbors as kids. That is when we got to hang out the most I guess. But she lives in a different state now and has for many years and we don't get to see each other very often at all. And even though I was able to visit her just yesterday, we spent so much time talking and laughing and hanging out, we completely forgot to take pictures together, so I can't PROVE my friendship of over two decades to you, therefore, I guess that friendship is completely invalidated.

Sorry, Audrey. You're just my "childhood neighbor friend".

Damn ... and I guess this means I need to apply this to my husband too. He's just my "marriage friend". We probably only do things together because we're married! And even that, I wouldn't be able to give you very much evidence! Whenever we travel or go out to dinner or celebrate each other's birthdays or our anniversary or even when we get intimate with one another ... we don't photograph it and post it online.

Well shit ... that really sucks. I need to go wake the guy up and let him know that he's just my "marriage friend" and it ain't that deep between us.

Thanks I guess for letting me know that I've been fooling myself thinking that I have real friends and relationships, or any kind of social life at all.

"Pics or it didn't happen" is way more serious than I had originally believed.

NGL as someone who's written warnings about people online before, I feel like some of your evidence is confusing and, particularly the art comparison part. The leaked chat records are pretty damning, but as for the art, it's unclear what art is attributed to the "wolftingz" identity and what is attributed to the "puppychan" identity.

People like me who hadn't heard of either identity before now (or have and just don't know much) might have trouble discerning what exactly to compare. For the record, I believe you are correct that they are the same person and have looked up the context of who puppychan is, but not everyone is willing or able to do the extra legwork to make sense of it.

If that's not a concern to you, that's fine and no need to pay attention to this ask. I just wanted to let you know that the information is kind of difficult to figure out.

this is very fair. thank you for the advice.

i do agree that the evidence can be confusing (none of this is compiled by me, but sourced from twitter reposts) but theres few places puppys art was successfully archived and i do not wish to put in more effort than is really needed. this account is not something i want to spend tons of time on. in fact the only reason i made this account was because i was upset with seeing mutuals and people i followed being friends with someone they denounced and made fun of when the initial pupkittyfan callout was posted.

maybe if puppy resurfaces (or more evidence is released) ill try to make a more coherent pic of evidence. but at the end of the day i really doubt people will care even if i showed them a screenshot of wolftingz saying "i used to be puppychan lolz". remember people were fine with puppy despite his suicide baiting and contact with minors until there was undeniable proof he was talking to a kid privately and inappropriately. and even THEN there are popular artists that continued being friends with him when they thought nobody was looking.

its frustrating for me personally who has seen the negative effects puppy has had on many young artists and his ex friends. i myself was a fan of puppy when i was younger and even defended him against people like antoons. i really wanted him to do better. i really did.

thank you again.

Love online

Chapter 4

Sorry it has taken me so long to post this. I will get next chapter up soon.

Warning: There are not many, just a little language in this chapter.

The next few days go by slow. Merida and Chris continue to talk through texts on Instagram. Tiffany still won't believe that it is Chris Evans and keeps telling Merida to be careful. Thursday during nap time Merida posts a picture on Instagram.

Disneydoggrl83❤️ I miss my girl! So much!

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Captaindork- Hey! I just saw your post. Those are good pics. I wish there was something I could say or do to help you through this.

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️Thanks. I will be okay. Its just still hard. It's hard going home knowing she won't be there. I also hate going to sleep at night and not having her beside me.

Captaindork-I know exactly how you feel. Its hard when I am gone for work and I don't have Dodger beside me. Maybe this pic will help.

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️That's funny :) and true for us.

Captaindork-Yep. So you have plans this weekend?

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️Tiffany is coming over and we are having a girls weekend. She is taking me somewhere tomorrow night.

Captaindork-That sounds fun.

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️Yeah. I don't know what she has planned. With Tiffany who knows. Hope she doesn't embarrass me.

Captaindork-how could she embarrass you?

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️well tomorrow is my birthday and I know she will tell the waitress or waiter.

Captaindork-Oh! Well maybe she won't embarrass you. ☺️

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️Yeah. Well I need to get going. It's time to get my kids up.

Captaindork-Okay. Have fun. Talk to you later.

Merida got her kids up from nap and changed their diapers, gave them snack and played with them in centers for a little while till they went outside. That evening when Merida got home she was tired. She changed into her pjs and after fixing her self a salad she sat on the couch and watched Avengers Endgame. While she was watching she looked at Instagram.

Dodger lying on Dodger

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️liked

Awww ☺️

Captaindork-Hey! How was work today?

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️It was good. I'm tired. My kids wore me out.

Captaindork-Aww well at least tomorrow is Friday!

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️Yes. I am glad. I am ready for the weekend.

Captaindork-What time is Tiffany coming over?

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️She said she was picking me up at 6

Captaindork- :) I'm sure you girls will have fun.

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️As long as she doesn't embarrass me!

Captaindork-maybe she won't. Well hate to cut this short, but I need to get to bed. I have a long day tomorrow. I probably wont' be able to message you until later in the day. I will be on set all day!

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️Okay. I understand. Hope you have a great day!

Captaindork-Thanks. You too. ☺️

Merida finished her movie then cleaned up her dishes and after she brushed her teeth, took her contacts out and washed her face then climbed into bed. She had another wonderful dream about Chris. When her alarm whet off the next morning she groaned. She rolled over and saw she had a message.

Captaindork-Good morning Merida! Happy Birthday! Hope you have a wonderful day! Have fun tonight!

Awww, Chris is so sweet. Merida thinks to herself. She saw he had sent it at 4:30 am.

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️Thanks! I love the picture. I will let you know how it goes ☺️

Merida got up and got ready for her day. She got a quick shower, changed and then got herself a bowl of cereal and some coffee. After she finished she quickly washed her dishes and brushed her teeth then left for work. When she got to work she saw someone had decorated her door.

Merida smiled and walked into her classroom. She started her day. She changed diapers and played with her kids in centers. They painted, built towers and read books. The day seemed to drag. At nap time one of her coworkers brought her a piece of cake they had made. She sat and ate her cake and scrolled through Instagram. She didn't see anything from Chris. She remembered him telling her he would busy on set all day. She didn't hear from him at all. She missed talking to him during nap time. When the end of the day came, she cleaned her room and headed home. She got a quick shower and got dressed. She decided to dress up a little.

The star necklace was a gift from her father for her last birthday. By the time she finished applying her make up, she was changing her purse when she heard the knock on the door.

   "Hey girl!"

            "Hey! You like nice. I love that dress! I don't think I have ever seen you wear that before."

            "Yeah I got it a while back but never wore it."

            "It looks good on you. Are you ready to go."

            "Yep. Let me just grab my purse. I was in the process of changing purses when you knocked on the door."

Merida left the room and was back a few minutes carrying her purse.

            "Alright lets go."

The girls headed to Tiffany's blue camero. As Tiffany was pulling out Merida says, "Oh Chris messaged me this morning and wished me happy birthday. He sent me the cutest picture."

Merida shows Tiffany. Tiffany glanced at it then back to the road.

            "Is it all the Disney characters?"

            "Yep. Most of them."

            "That's cute. Are you still thinking it's really him?"

            Merida didn't answer.

            "Merida, I'm telling you. It's a scammer. They are telling you its them, but they are fooling you. They are good! They know what they are doing. Please don't let them get to you. Don't believe everything they tell you alright?"

Merida didn't say anything back she just nodded her head. It was quiet the rest of the way to the restaurant. Merida didn't know where Tiffany was taking her. When Tiffany pulled into Olive Garden Merida got excited. Olive Garden was her favorite restaurant.

            "Tiffany! Olive Garden! Really?"

            "Yep. I know its your favorite."

The girls get out and head in. It is a little crowded. Tiffany goes up the podium and tells the lady how many.

            "It will be about 15 minutes." She hands Tiffany a buzzer.

The girls sit down and wait.

            "Merida."

            "What?"

            "You know I love you right?"

            "Yeah I know."

            "I am only looking out for you. I don't want to see you get hurt."

            "I know."

            "I..."

Before Tiffany can finish what she was going to say the buzzer goes off.

            "Looks like our table is ready," Merida says. Glad the conversation was over. She didn't want to argue with Tiffany and she knew that, that was what was going to happen.

The girls followed the lady to their table.

            "Your waitress will be right with you. Enjoy."

The girls start looking at their menu. Merida knows she wants to order peach tea. She doesn't have tea often, but she always orders it when she comes to Olive Garden. Its her favorite.

            "Get whatever you want. This is on me."

            "Thanks."

A waiter comes to the table.

            "I'm Ryan and I will be your waiter this evening. What I start you ladies off with to drink?"

Tiffany looks at Merida. "I'll have peach tea."

     "Good choice. And you miss?" he says looking at Tiffany.

            "I'll have just regular sweet tea."

            "Alright. Any appetizers?"

            "No thank you." Tiffany says.

            "Alright. I will be back shortly with your drinks."

Ryan left and the girls were alone.

            "So has Chris posted anything on Instagram recently?"

            "No. He's been busy filming all day."

            "Is that what Captaindork told you?" She said giving her a raised eyebrow

            "Yes that is what he said."

            "Mmm, well I'm sure he is busy. He is still working on his new movie. Which I do want to see by the way."

            "I'm still trying to decide if I want to see it. It's not really mind of movie. It looks rough."

            "But its got Chris Evans. I told you we can go and just drool over him."

Merida laughs. "Right. I'll think about it."

            Ryan comes back with their drinks.

            "A peach tea for you," he says setting it down in front of Merida.

            "And a regular sweet tea for you," he says setting it down in front of Tiffany.

            "Have you ladies decided what you want to order?"

            "Yes, I want to the Chicken Alfrado."

            "Do you want that grilled chicken?"

            "Yes please."

            "Salad or soup?"

            "Salad."

            "And you miss?" he asks looking at Tiffany.

            "I want the 5 cheese ziti al forno."

            "Would you like soup or salad?"

            "Salad."

            "Alright. I will have your salad and bread sticks out to you soon."

            Ryan left and the girls were alone once again. Just as Tiffany was fixing to speak Merida's phone went off. She pulled it out of her purse and looked.

Captaindork- ☺️hope your bday dinner is going well. And your welcome for the pic. I saw it and had to send it you. Hopefully Tiffany hasn't embarrassed you.

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️Not yet. But the night is still young ☺️ We are at Olive Garden

Captaindork-Nice! Great place! I'll let you enjoy your dinner. Talk to you later ☺️

Disneydoggrl83 ❤️Okay! And yes its my favorite restaurant. Talk to you later. I will let you know how it turns out. ☺️

Captaindork- ☺️👍

     "Who are you talking to? Him?"

            "Yes. He was saying he hoped my dinner was going well."

            "Oh, so you told him where you were going?"

            "Well this morning, I didn't know. But I just now told him where I was."

            "So he knows your not home!"

            "What? Well ya."

            "Merida! Never, ever tell a stranger your not home!"

            "Tiffany, relax. He doesn't know where I live or anything. We have never gotten that pacific."

            "Good! Don't!"

            "Geez, you think I'm stupid, but I'm not that stupid!"

            "I never said you were stupid. Naive at times maybe but not stupid!"

Merida didn't say anything back. Ryan returned with their bread sticks and Salad.

            "Would you like cheese on your salad?"

            "Yes."

            Ryan spread cheese on the salad then put it on the table.

            "Your food will be out shortly."

Merida put salad in her bowl and after Tiffany got hers, Tiffany said a prayer thanking them for the food. Merida remained quiet and ate her salad.

            "Merida, I'm sorry."

            "Tiff, its okay."

            "I know your mad at me. I know how much you want to believe its him. But it's not. Actors don't message fans."

            "Tiff, I said I'm fine. It's okay. I know your looking out for me. It's okay."

            "Alright. As long as we are cool and your not mad at me. I can't have my bff mad at me."

            "I'm not mad at you," Merida smiled.

            "Good."

The girls finished their salad and talked a little about their day. Merida told her what her coworkers did for her at work and about her kids. Then Ryan returned with their food. He put cheese on both their bowls.

            "Enjoy!"

Ryan leaves and the girls dig in.

            "This looks so good!" Tiffany says.

            "Yes, its been so long since I have had this."

The girls eat and when Ryan comes back to check on them Tiffany says

            "It's her birthday."

            "Oh it is! Well  Happy Birthday! I will bring you a dessert in a few," Ryan says looking at Merida and smiling then leaves.

            "Tiffany!"

            "Hey, you get a free dessert!"

            "Yeah but now they are going to sing to me!"

            "So, you get a dessert!"

By the time the girls finish their meal Ryan is back with the rest of the staff and they sing happy birthday to Merida. The rest of the staff leave. Ryan sets the brownie and ice cream down in front of Merida.

            "Happy Birthday! Enjoy," He smiles                        

"Can I get you anything?" He asks looking at Tiffany.

            "No thanks."

            "Alright. Well enjoy. I'll be back with the check." He smiles once again, then leaves.

            Merida looks up and sees Tiffany smiling at her.

            "What?"

            "That waiter was flirting with you."  

            "He was not!"

            "He was!"

            Merida takes a bite of her brownie. "Would you like a bite? Its good."

            "Sure." Tiffany takes a bite. They end up sharing the dessert. Ryan comes back.

            "Can I get you anything else?"

            "Nope, I think we are good thanks." Tiffany says.

            "Alright. Well here is your check. Just let me know when your ready. You girls have a goodnight," He smiles again looking at Merida then walks off.

            "Girl! He is so into you!"

            "He is not!"

            Tiffany opens up the black book where the check is.

            "OMG!"

            "What! What's wrong?"

            "Look at the bottom of the recit."

            Tiffany shows Merida the check and at the bottom is says.

Have a goodnight ladies. And to the birthday girl! Hope you have a wonderful night. Your beautiful! Call me 828-253-9701

"OMG! He gave me his number!"

            "I told you he was into you."

            "Well I'm not calling him."

            "Why not?"

            "Tiffany!"

            "What?"

            Tiffany pulls out her wallet and takes $50.00.

            "Your leaving him all that! How much was the bill?"

            "He was a good waiter!"

The girls stand up. Merida grabs her purse and they head out. As they leave they see Ryan behind the reister and he smiles at them and waves. They get to the car.

            "I think you should call him."

            "No! I am not calling a guy I met at a restaurant!"

            "But you will talk to someone you met online!"

            Merida glares at Tiffany then looks away out the window and keeps quiet.

As Tiffany pulls out of the parking lot she says, "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. That was mean. Forgive me."

            "Sure."

Tiffany arrives at Merida's house and after Merida unlocks her door the girls head inside.

            "Why don't we go ahead and get into our pjs and watch Disney movies?"

            "Okay."

The girls change into their pjs. Merida pops some pop corn while Tiffany finds a movie.

            "Why don't we watch Robin Hood first."

            "Sounds good." Merida says carrying the bowl of popcorn.

Just as the movie starts Merida hears her phone. She looks down and sees it's a video call from Captaindork

            "OMG!"

            "What?"

            "Chris is video calling me. The last time he did it, he said it was an accident."

            "Answer it. I want to see him for myself."

Merida hits accept.

            "Hey!"

            "Shit! I did it again. I'm sorry."

            Merida laughs. "It's okay. I wondered if you did it on purpose this time."

            "No, I was fixing to message you and I hit the video by mistake. I am not use to using Instagram this way."

            "It's okay. Tiffany is right beside me just so you know." Merida says turning the screen a little so Chris can see her.

            "Hey Tiffany. So you're the friend I have heard so much about."

            "That would be me."

            "So how was dinner? Did Tiffany embarrass you?"

            "Yes! She told the waiter it was my birthday and then he and the rest of the staff sang to me."

            "But she got free dessert and the waiter has a crush on her."

            "Oh is that so?"

            "Tiffany!" Merida said elbowing her.

            "Yes, he wrote his number for her at the bottom of reciet."

            "Oh did he now?"

            "Tiffany hush!" Merida said elbowing her again.

Chris laughs.

            "So are you calling him?"

            "No!"

            "Why not? Sounds like he might like you."

            "I'm not calling him."

            "Sounds like I have some competition." Chris smiles.

Merida just smiled. She didn't know what to say. Tiffany just shook her head.

            "So what are you girls up to?"

            "Well we are fixing to watch Robin Hood and eat some popcorn."

            "Sounds fun. I'll let you watch your movie. Have fun. I'll talk to you later. Goodnight Merida."

            "Goodnight Chris."

Chris ends the call. Merida looks over at Tiffany.

            "Do you still think it wasn't him?"

            "It certainly looked and sounded like him but I'm telling you they can fool you. They are good."

            "Okay whatever, lets just watch the movie."

            "I did sense a little bit of jealousy though when we told him about the waiter."

            "What! No."

            "Yes. He did say he had some competition."

            "Well he doesn't have to worry. I'm not calling Ryan."

            "Well maybe he will call you."

            "What! How?"

            "I might have written your number at the bottom of the receipt." Tiffany says smiling.

            "You did not!"

Tiffany smiles and starts the movie. When the movie ends the girls decide to find something on tv. Merida sees the movie The Greatest Show Man on.

            "Oh! I love that movie! Lets watch that! I know its your favorite!"

            "No!"

            "Why? I thought you loved that movie."

            "Not anymore."

            "Why not?"

            Tiffany is quiet for a minute.

            "Tiff. What's wrong? Tell me."

            "I don't like Zac Efron anymore."

            "Why not? You use to love him."

            "Used to!"

            "What happened?"

            Tiffany is quiet again for several minutes. She takes a deep breath then says, "I was scammed by someone pretending to be him."

            "What! When?"

            "A year ago."

            "Why did you never tell me?"

            "I was embarrassed. That's why I have been so hard you. The same thing happened to me that is happing to you. He messged me and made me think it was him. He video called me and it looked just like him, sounded just like him, but it wasn't him."

            "How did you find out it wasn't?"

            "Well at first I didn't think anything about it when he told me to send money to meet him. Said he would help me with what he could, but that I had to send a little."

            "You didn't!"

            "I did!"

             "What happened next?"

            "Well he kept on asking for money!"

            "You didn't give him more did you?"

            "I told him I couldn't send anymore."

            "Then what happened?"

            "He kept on asking. Saying he really wanted to meet him and that it was the only way for me to meet him. That he wished he could just come to NC to see me but he couldn't."

            "What did you do?"

            "I told him I wouldn't send anymore money. Then a few days later his profile on Instagram was gone and then there was a message from Zac Efron on his page about being aware of scammers pretending to be him. That he has not messaged any fans."

            "OMG! Girl I'm sorry. Wish you had told me."

            "Yeah. So now you understand why I am so hard on you."

            "Yes I do."

            "So be careful alright."

            "I will, but Chris has not asked for any personal info or money."

            "Yet! Zac didn't at first. We talked for a month before he started asking for it."

            "Oh. Well thanks for telling me."

            "Your welcome. I care about you girl and want the best for you."

            "I know you do. Thanks."

            "Oh and by the way. I do have a gift for you, but I left it at home. I couldn't bring it with me. I didn't want to leave it in the car while we went to eat. I will get it tomorrow."

            "Oh okay. Well you didn't have to get me anything. The dinner was enough."

            Tiffany smiled. "So what do we watch? Oh how about this?"

She asked clicking on The Last Song.

            "Sure, I like that movie."

The girls watch the movie. The whole time Merida is thinking about what Tiffany told her. If all she said was true, which she knew it was, she knew Tiffany wouldn't lie to her, Chris could be fake. But Merida just knew in her heart that it was really Chris Evans she was talking to, but she knew she needed to be careful after what Tiffany told her.

Okay I'm gonna say it:

I think family channels [channels in this case includes [but isn't limited to]: YouTube, Tiktok, twitch, instagram, etc] where the kids are under age should be illegal. [Or at the very least a lot more laws about it]

Like it's so dangerous. If it's an occasional "Haha, look at this cute video of us/cute pic" [personally even that is :// to me, but I know in those cases its normally just sharing] that's one thing, but accounts dedicated to your children ??

Like how do you not realize posting all your kids interests, when they were born, y'alls location, if they're homeschooled/go to public school, the park y'all go to, their full name, when/where y'all go on vacations, etc etc IS SO FUCKING UNSAFE ???? Like internet 101.

& maybe you're reading this & you're like "I don't share my exact location 🙄/the family channel I follow has never said their location" but w/ the right skills [or knowing the right people] you can easily find where somewhere is ? Like there's this dude [& no hate to him he seems cool**] who's literally known for seeing a sign or grass & getting almost near exact to where that place is w/o more info [& I assume he spent ages learning all that stuff, but my point is, it's possible] ? Also, on a darker note, a guy literally found someone he was stalking through the **reflection** on her glasses.

Plus that's not even to mention how the kid will feel when they're grown up.

Now this post may be fake [I'm not saying it is or isn't**], but I feel it greatly illustrates the very probable reality of being raised in this environment:

In the comments OP says her parents only stopped when one of her siblings tried to commit suicide, as well as saying she would give up all her money to feel safe, because she's constantly paranoid & feels like she's being watched. OP also said: "I truly believe no changes will be made until a child is killed as a result of their parents over sharing online. It shouldn’t have to get to that point" which... I agree. I think people online can yell as much as possible, but until a kid is actually kidnapped &/or killed due to this, I don't think platform's, let alone governments, will care.

Here's the link to the reddit post btw:

I know being poor isn't fun [I am poor & grew up poor] but money isn't worth exploiting your child/kids, putting them in danger, & inflicting this sort of trauma on them.

Plus I've seen SO. MANY. Kid accounts that are like "[baby's name] @[mom] / @[dad]" & you click on one/both of the parents profiles &... The parents accounts are private... Like clearly you understand wanting privacy, but you can't extend that to a child who doesn't know what their foot is let alone the implications of having thousands->millions of followers ???

Sorry if this makes zero sense, it's 3AM, but I hate family accounts so much. It's easy to put up a front & I'm sure some of those kids genuinely love it & in 20 years time they're like "No it was great I loved that !!!! Theres nothing I want down tbh. & I'm psyched I basically got my own platform right away & didn't have to grind for it" But I feel like those kids will be in the minority, while MOST will be like the post above, or at the VERY least, they'll wish a lot wasn't filmed & posted for millions to see.... :/

ALSO TO BE CLEAR !!! THIS IS ABOUT FAMILY CHANNELS. Teens having their on socials is chill imo [but be safe ofc**] & occasionally sharing a family pic is fine. But centering an account around your family/kids is what my issues is***

A lot of e girls are posers.

But also on that girl, she also HATED listening to any criticism or warnings about her practice, she had a fit when I asked her how long she was reading tarot cards

She actually acted like a fucking child when I told her unless you have good cleansing, warding and protections up it's not good to try and communicate with any spirits through a pendulum board

VUT SHE THOUGHT IT WAS OK BC SHE WATCHED ONE YOUTUBE VIDEO ON IT!!??! She also bought a very complex pendulum board to start with. She never wanted to listen when I told her to not mess with it and she also called her "friend" an energy vampire and a toxic person bc she was friends with her ex and they got along really well.

She also left that said friend in a public church ALONE, WHILE SHE WAS TRIPPING ON ACID! Bc she called her ex on the phone bc she was having a really bad trip and was freaking out. While I do not Condone drug usage bc I was raised that way, I think it's worse to leave your friend in a public space while they are having a bad trip bc you are upset that they called your ex

Her and this ex at the time were on speaking conditions, she had a bf but she flipped out bc she still liked her ex??? But was dating someone else for months

She also ended her friendship with this girl, bc she didn't invite her to her 18th birthday party, this party was not a big shebang, I went and it was just kids getting drunk and chatting with food and cake. The irony is

That this girl, didn't invite her "friend" to her birthday party that year either.

She was also chronically online, extremely jealous and possessive and really petty and mean. And a cheater, she cheated on all of her partners

We went to the same highschool 2 years ago (we are graduated now, me for 1 year and her for 2), and she would glare at me in the hallways, bc I posted 1 pic of her boyfriend,, this pic was a dumb pic of him and was posted as friends, and had no undertones of anything other then platonic feelings, she then later came to me after "becoming a witch" and "having a spiritual awakening" to settle the beef between us. As far as I knew. There was never any beef!!

She also blamed anything negative on a "spiritual awakening" literally, it could have been just some bag luck OR THE CONSEQUENCES OF HER ACTIONS!! And she'd go crying to everyone saying she's having such a hard time with her spiritual awakening and people are sending her "the evil eye" and all of this poor me crap.

She stoll acts like this, out of highschool, except now she isn't a "witch" or a "goth" e girl anymore bc it isn't trending atm

The way I hate e girls is much more than just that! It actually has to do with how I believe White e girls actively contribute to the fetishization and violence of east and SEAsian women! I usually find White women/White people who align a little too close to kawaii culture, harajuku, and especially e girl culture extremely suspicious. E girls are the greatest offenders I can see most often. Anime culture is tied closely to e girl culture - so seeing e girls infantilize themselves, use anime voice clips, using ahegao, uwu, nya, ara ara, "is this Asian baiting makeup uwu???", "im a catgirl", and largely take East Asian aliases?? I just,,, I find them wrong. I hate gatekeeping but I just find White people who subscribe deeply to e girl culture problematic and uncomfortable.

I don't mind she's reading tarot but it should be for HERSELF. I've been reading cards for,,, a few years? And don't like reading for other people other than me. I've done like two readings for friends and that was largely situational. idk why people want to talk to spirits and stuff without going through the proper means. Depends on the situation with the ex though, I personally would not be too jazzed if a friend of mine was still good friends with an ex of mine. I don't have much experience with drug usage - I don't have any as I'm the one person the DARE program worked on lol - but that's.... why would you leave someone who is in an altered state of mind somewhere they could get hurt?

I am glad some years of my life are over bc none of this ever happened to me? I had a lot of things going on but socially, it wasn't like this! The spiritual awakening thing is... I don't like saying there's a few things that feel like cults and what not but in witch communities some things just scream "jehovah's witness" or mormons lol.

idislikecispeople, The Most Infamous Dyscourse Blogger: Part 1.0, Rumors

idislikecispeople, also known as many names throughout her time on Tumblr (such as Adele, Kat, Mami, Samantha and Sayaka), was a former Tumblr blogger who became infamous for coining the term "tucute", among many other controversial things she has posted on her blogs. This was supposed to be one, very long masterpost about her, but Tumblr's post editor is a bitch and won't let me do that.

In this post, I'll be debunking or confirming rumors commonly spread about idislikecispeople. The rest of my posts about her will each be dedicated to a specific controversial belief she held or situations she got into. For simplicity's sake, I'll be referring to idislikecispeople as Kat for the rest of this post and future ones.

Rumors

Kat Coined the Terms "Truscum" and "Tucute"

Verdict: Partially True

Kat coined the term tucute, but she did not coin the terms truscum or transmedicalist.

Here's a screenshot of Kat's original definition of a tucute:

Transcript:

What is Tucute?

What does tucute mean?

Tucute is basically just the opposite of truscum, it’s a term and community for trans, nonbinary, and/or non-cis individuals created to separate anti-truscum from truscum and to serve as a safe place from truscum and from cis people, where they believe that being trans requires dysphoria, we do not,where they think that being trans is a medical condition, we do not,and where they deny numerous gender identities on the basis that it “discredits the trans community” we do not.

What are the prerequisites to be a part of the tucute community?

You have to be trans, nonbinary, and/or non-cis in general

You have to accept all pronouns and gender identities

You haveto believe that dysphoria is not necessary to be trans

You have to dislike truscum

You cannot side with truscum or believe in their ideology

You cannot misgender anyone no matter how mad they make you

You cannot be an ableist whatsoever

Did you invent the tucute community? Why?

I indeed did coin the tucute term and community and anyone who says otherwise are creeps who are trying to steal it from me and redefine it for their own nefarious doings. I started this community so anti-truscum could separate themselves from truscum and cis people who are a part of the truscum community, it serves as a safe space from both truscum and cis people.

I’m cis, can I be tucute if I believe in your movement and want to help?

No, you can’t be tucute if you’re cis, you can only be a tucute ally, and you need to be sure to never speak for or over a trans person.

I see a lot of tucuties being just as harmful as truscum, what will you do about it?

There isn’t much I can do to them other than ask them to stop aligning with the tucute community, and of course, that doesn’t mean they will. Also be noted that truscum and cis people will pretend to be tucute just to tarnish the name of the tucute community, so tread lightly, you might be talking to a wolf in sheep’s clothing.

Spread the word, use the tag #tucute and join the army today!

[A digital drawing of Sayaka Miki from Puella Magi Madoka Magica in her magical girl form, with a banner underneath her reading "Tucute 4 U!"]

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Kat Was a Cisgender Woman Who Lied About Being a Transgender Woman

Verdict: False

This rumor primarily comes from a post on Kat's oldest known Tumblr blog, chromaghost, where she claims that she wasn't MTF and only tagged a selfie as such because she thought that transgender people were "cool".

Transcript:

Anonymous asked: are you a mtf? i seen it tagged on one of your photos.

No lol. I wanted to post it to the tag because transgender people are cool :3

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However, Kat addressed this post and made it clear she very much was a transgender woman multiple times on her later blogs. This claim can also be confirmed with nude photos Kat posted online, which I don't feel comfortable spreading, so you'll just have to trust me on that one. I also don't feel comfortable directly encouraging you to go and dig up those nudes, as most of her nude photos were either taken when she was a minor, spread without her consent and/or were uploaded because people pressured her into posting nudes to "prove" she was a transgender woman.

Transcript:

Anonymous asked: you bound with ace bandage in one of your selfies. i don't know what to think about you anymore. according to some people you're a 27 year old cis woman scamming us, but you say you're a 22 year old trans woman. i want to trust you but i don't know if i can. i'm sorry.

Rest assured I’m not 27 years old lol. What you’re referring to is a less than graceful ~art piece~ we did (”Playing a Boy” or something) on deviantART when we were 16/17 (?) and really ill-informed. I ask you to not take that as how I stand currently – as I have learned so much more since, and I have a penis and I was designated male at birth because of it (feel free to purchase a passcode to our nsfw blog to see for yourself). At the time we were developing breast tissue but still had to appear as a ‘boy.’ Don’t bind with Ace bandages, kids, it can damage your rib cage, something we didn’t know at the time.

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Transcript:

[A picture of two prescriptions, estradiol and spironolactone, both prescribed to Adele Sheffield.]

grandtran still gonna think I photoshopped it or what

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Transcript:

Anonymous asked: In other words, you aren't gonna cough up the pics because you know you can't fake that shit because you're actually cis. Cool. BTW why do you keep changing your story about the blog, and if the blog was run by you when you were in denial about being trans because of self hate, why were the pics tagged mtf and you were constantly saying trans people were cool?

Yeah I’m not gonna do something for y’all and get nothing in return except more doubt from you, you see how one sided that kind of request is? Also its technically considered sexual harassment, just because its on the internet, you’re a coward (whats your username btw?), and you think I’m cis and you want me to prove time and time again to you that I’m dmab doesn’t justify sexually soliciting someone when they’re not comfortable in being solicited – for free no less.

At first I genuinely had no memory of that blog, it was only active for all of 2 months and for some reason I moved onto a new email and new tumblr, and I haven’t the foggiest why. As for the whole “me claiming to not be ~mtf~” I don’t have any memories from that time, I can only assume it was a lot of dysphoria fueled self-hatred and wanting to be seen/pass as a cis girl lesbian.

If you’re really gonna solicit nudes from a trans woman (a second time) as they do sex work to try and stay on their feet without offering anything in return just so your transmisogynistic ass can get off to trying to tell me my dick is fake isn’t classy at all. I perish the thought of what you’re parents would think of this behavior from you. But yeah, feel free to send some money to my paypal so I can get the gender markers on my records changed because that’s gonna cost a lot apparently, and I’ll definitely send you the dick pics you want. :)

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Transcript:

[A picture of a a hospital bracelet on Kat's wrist. The patient's name is Adele Sheffield and her sex is labeled as "M".]

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Kat Lied About Having Diabetes To Get Money From Tumblr Users

Verdict: False

This doesn't need much commentary from me, just view the screenshots below.

Transcript:

To the people who keep harping on me buying a $15 video game for my mental health 7 MONTHS ago “with my donation money,” well, here you go, some proof, links and screenshots provided

So for everyone spreading misinformation about me spending $15 on a video game for my mental health, here’s a full list of reasons why there is no way, shape, or form I spent my paypal money on it:

Yes, I spent $15 of my own money after selling one of my possessions, not denying it:

[A screenshot of a Tumblr post by Kat where she shows off a copy of Fall Out: New Vegas, marked with a price of $14.99. The date of the post is marked as July 21, 2014 at 06:28.39 PM.]

Be sure to look at the date, July 21st, 2014 6:28 PM. Now lets look at my first donation post asking for help:

[A screenshot of a Tumblr post by Kat where she asks for donations to be able to afford insulin because she has no insurance. The date of the post is marked as July 20, 2014 at 08:14.00 PM.]

Hmm, one day before the purchase of said game, July 20th 2014 at 8:14 PM. Now, I’ve never heard of a video game store — much less a non-chain video game store accepting payment for video games in the form of virtual Amazon gift cards, have you? Oh, but you’re gonna say, “well you bought the game with your paypal donations anyway!” Well, here’s exhibit C:

[Another screenshot of a separate post made by Kat where she is also asking for donations to be able to afford insulin. The date of the post is marked as July 23, 2014 at 12:27.46 PM.]

Again, looking at the date of this posting which is the original donations post, you can see it was posted on July 23rd, 2014 at 12:27 PM, a full 2 days after I had bought the game. Now, if there’s no way for me to use Amazon gift cards for a real life video game store, then how can I go back in time a minimum of 2 full days to give past me $15 to buy said game, hm? This isn’t even accounting for the fact that I didn’t even have my own bank account associated with it until over a week later, and it surely doesn’t account for the fact that it takes up to 5 days to transfer from paypal to your bank account. All the dates are linked to the original unedited posts so you can see for yourself, and for added measure my first deposit was on August 14th, 2014:

[A screenshot of a deposit made by Kat. The date is marked as 08/14/14.]

Oh but yeah, anti-sjs, truscum, and the like took damniwishidthoughtofabettername’s postthey used to gaslight us with misinformation and you all bought it. Tell me how I could misuse donations that I could not use outside of Amazon and money I didn’t even start receiving until a full two days later, let alone the fact that there’s no way I could have transferred said money and used it two days prior as of the date of the paypal donations post.

I hope some of y’all could reblog this and get the word out, I’m sick and tired of people buying into that misinformation that person did solely to gaslight me as a means to try and disrupt my donations drive.

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Transcript:

[A selfie of Kat holding up a vial of Novolin to the camera.]

Hey anon, I don’t feel comfy giving you my receipts (because doxxing is a thing) but here you go, a selfie with my most recent insulin purchase. 👽

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Transcript:

Anonymous asked: Getting desperate for money again I see. How is your fake diabetes lately. I bet your blood sugar is like 800 this time and you're still able to be alive somehow.

You got me, I’m ~totally faking~

[A selfie of Kat. In the background several items used by diabetics are seen such as insulin syringes, glucose tablets, a blood sugar tester and test strips.]

[A picture that gives us a closer look at the background of the previous selfie.]

[A selfie of Kat holding up two vials, one of Lantus and the other of Humalog.]

Gee, must be one dedicated faker, right? To have hundreds of dollars of insulin equipment and insulin itself. Hmmm… Insulin syringes, glucose tablets, a blood sugar tester and test strips.. oh and insulin, hmmmm….

Oh and because you didn’t learn from last time you don’t die instantly when your blood sugar goes over 600 lol, something anyone who studies endocrinology can tell you, and I would know, being a diabetic, having to be hospitalized numerous times for ketoacidosis where the blood sugar has been too high for too long. Things you clearly do not know and you’re just jumping on the disableist bandwagon. I have an idea of who you are anyway, just doing this for future reference.

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Please Kip I just want advice on a username. I don't always ask for help because they're the best, but because I like them. Plus your username makes me chuckle every time I read it.

I have no idea what constitutes for a good or likeable username I smash two words together. You wanna know the truth? You want the fucking truth? When I first joined tumble my blog’s url was “TheDragonFire” because it was a reference to that time in third grade where I changed my username to that of a classmate I didn’t like on a fucking online jetski math game and embarrassed their smartaleck ass by giving them a bad score in front of two dozen eight year olds and no one believed them for the rest of elementary year because who would believe something as stupid as “I got hacked.”

When I actively started using tumblr for more than just liking gaud posts and fnaf fanart, my username was “afuckingmudkip,” because I wanted to be noticed my senapi favourite undertale artist who had mudkip in their name. I added the word fuck because I was a preteen who thought cursing was cool thanks to peer pressure and now years later I still haven’t broken the habit. 

Then I topple off my undertale phase and in the young years of 2016-2017 I start my zelda obsession. Scrolling through my fresh and topical iphone 5 I discover a piece of mudkip art I did in middle school depicting a mudkip with a leather jacket, Vneck, and sunglasses. Up until now I haven’t made art that I was proud of other than god damn trace art of undertale landscapes, so I haven’t exactly had the motivation to put up an avatar pic. Hey but sure why the fuck not, the mudkip looks decent enough and Pokemon Go is still a thing so there it fucking goes, here I am with a mudkip with rad sunglasses I’m such a cool kid, I’m so fucking hip and trendy. And you know what else is cool? Sarcasm, because I’m at that age where I think sarcasm is interesting enough to be your entire personality trait and also I was depressed, so yehawdeehey, I am sarcasticmudkip. 

You think it’s cool? Gives you a little chuckle? You find solace in the fruits of a preteen’s sad attempts of labour? Good for you and I rejoice and dance at the fact, but don’t think for a god damn second that it means anything. No one knows what the fuck their doing, the origin of creativity is dead. Immortalize your worst experiences, copy the next popular thing you see, let a toad stomp around on your keyboard and memorize those letters because that’s your god damn username now cause nothing in life will matter. The only thing that could possible constitute to a good username is the type of content that that stack of 24 letters and numbers will put out, and hell even I’m failing at that department. 

so FUCK ALL, anon, I dub you tiktokgooseoclock now, that’s your username. goodbye.

call out post for @ratsofftoya

TW: GROOMING/PEDOPHILIA AND SUICIDE MENTIONS

recently @i-am-a-fish got suicidal baited off tumblr for the most bullshitted accusation post I've seen so far.

apparently I-am-fish is a pedophile/ potential child groomer, as said by @ratsofftoya

All because he made a joke on twitter about moving to pornhub, and follows artists that draw lolicon/aged-up smut of fictional underaged characters.

but there are some major fallacies in @ratsofftoya 's accusations (as if it wasn't obvious enough).

moral appeal:

ratsofftoya's commentary on goldie's pornhub and sex toy posts were very moralistic despite the posts clearly being a joke.

Humor is subjective so it's okay if you didn't laugh at this post, but that isn't an excuse to take away its humor to demean someone by making hasty generalizations about his fanbase. We can't confirm his fanbase is mostly kids, but because this claim is based on a hasty generalization, it is an inappropriate appeal to emotion. Trying to imply that goldie willingly exposes kids to child porn, classic "but think of the kids!" argument.

• There is no data we have on I-am-fish 's audience age demographic.

• there is no proof that majority of the fanbase are minors. that's just a hasty generalization.

• I-am-a-fish does not claim to be a blog for kids, not including "18+" in your bio does not make you a blog for kids.

I can't believe i have to point this shit out, but tumblr and twitter are not for kids. Nobody on these two platforms should have to put "18+" in their bios because nobody below that should even be on these two platforms. I-am-a-fish is an adult making adult jokes on an adult platform, to imply he could be a child groomer because he makes sex jokes that minors see is unfair because thats beyond his control. Tumblr and Twitter are adult spaces and yet we are not responsible for kids being in a space where they don't belong, that responsibility goes to the parents. All we can do about minors in online adult spaces is REPORT them.

2. cherry picking:

ratsofftoya specifically picked TWO sexually suggestive artworks by japanese Twitter artist Krskii. problem is ratsofftoya uses these two posts to portay this artist as a highly lewd/fetish account, when that isn't the case. In actuality, krskii's twitter page is a fanart page for a duo from IDOL MASTER: cinderella girls starlight stage anzu fubata(the blonde loli) and kirari moroboshi. it's a fanart page for other IMCGSS characters as well. i use to play game, its alot of fun but its japanese exclusive so i couldn't play much due to language barriers. the fanart page is almost all SFW, but ratsofftoya pick TWO out of dozens of sfw pics to solidify her claim.

you can go on Krskii's twitter and see for yourself:

and my personal favorite:

(ooh lawd this is cute i might have it as a PFP with credit!)

anyway, ratsofftoya ignored these possibilities:

• There is no proof goldie liked the two photos, or any engagement at all.

• there is no proof that he had seen it, especially out of dozens sfw art.

• just because he follows this artist does not automatically confim he has a sexual attraction for lolis or kids. especially due to how the page is mostly sfw.

• goldie could just be a fan of IMCGSS.

this isn't a creepy pedo twitter page, just an idol fan page. but what really is illogical is the commentary ratsofftoya has in regards to loli drawings. Now with using two pics racy pics, ratsofftoya came to the conclusion that Goldie is sexually attracted to children. But lolicon isn't real children, it's not real CP and it's not even a realistic depiction of humans children, so what rataofftoya did was simply pass off her opinion of lolis as fact. I'm not trying to debate on whether lolicon is okay or not and im not gonna share my opinion, because the real point isn't the subject of lolicon but the wrongful accusation. the real fact is that lolicon is still legal, but social opinion of lolicon is very mixed, our opinions on such a complicated subject is not enough to convict someone as a pedophile. you're opinions do not hold that kind of power, especially without sufficient evidence. let's actually move on to ratsofftoya's evidenced and how insufficient it is.

3. False attribution of discord chats

the screenshots provided from the discord chats do not add up to ratsofftoya's claims, making the screencaps irrelevant more than anything.

she provided this screenshot of a mod stating their opinion on aged up fanart, and claims that this opinions makes ALL MODS in that discord MAPS and Pedo apologists. problem is that there is no real sympathy for any pedo/maps in both ratsofftoya and nestbian's screenshots. if anything, it's just some bad jokes, and Goldie doesn't even say one himself.

rattsofftoya commits the same fallacy like with the loli argument; the concept of aged up characters is complicated subject, its not illegal but there is alot of debate surrounding it. Ratsofftoya makes her opinion clear that aged up artwork of characters is wrong. she uses small and insufficient screenshots to to help make her OPINION seem like a fact, and accuse the mods of being MAP sympathizers. she's convicted these mods based on a biased opinion, the concept of aged up characters is not legally pedophilic so whether you think the subject is right or wrong, is still not enough to convinct others with opposing opinions as MAP enablers.

Another issue is how she claims minors are talking inappropriately with adults on discord, but there are no such screenshots, the screenshots provided give no evidence of such accusation. With her convictions based on biased opinions, that accusations is not going to be getting any credibility anytime soon. Many of us know how discord works, it's not unusual for adults and minors to be in the same server, it's not a pedophilic thing. But one thing that discord mods do is have NSFW chats specifically for adults, while minors are exluded and stay in the SFW chats. ratsofftoya has no screenshots on minors in a nsfw chat, you'd figure that nestbian would take screenshots of that if it was actually true.

Lastly, ratsofftoya uses these discord screenshots to further solidfy her statement that I-am-a-fish is exposing sexual content to children. But you don't see goldie or any inappropriate/sexual content in the screenshots, just problematic opinions at best.

4. Bad intentions:

from what i've said in this post above, I can conclude ratsofftoya's post overrall was very manipulative and biased. I think the most manipulative part of the post was the last paragraph:

Using the idea of child exploitation and sexual abuse to pull on people's emotions, a huge inappropriate call for emotion. yet, ratsofftoya has not proven or shown any child exploitation or pedophilia at all. we have yet to see any evidence of abuse! How can I believe ratsofftoya has good intentions when I can easily break the accusations apart and see lies?

As a real victim of child grooming, i won't speak for all victims, but as a victim I really don't like my trauma being used to witch hunt innocent people. My trauma is not for woke points, it's not a badge and it's not for your ego to exploit. It's pretty clear that ratsofftoya did NOT make this post for the well being of children and grooming victims, but the post was made for her moralistic ego. If anything, to use sexual child abuse to lie about others, is exploitive.

5. consequenses:

I commented on ratsofftoya's post, mentioning that there are serious consequences to false accusations. Of course the response was immature af so not sure if she'll ever learn, but I'll say it for those who'll hopefully listen to my advice.

Call out post with false accusations can destroy lives, and put you, the poster, in serious legal trouble.

Slander and defamation on its own can get you a lawsuit, you never know who on this platform has money for a lawyer. If this person you publicly slander is to self harm, commit suicide, or lose their job, you can be legally held accountable for it even if it wasn't what you intended to happen, disclaimers cat save you from that. Just because ratofftoya says the suicide baiting is wrong, doesn't mean that she isn't legally responsible for it, I-am-a-fish can legally use it against her. Even with the legal consequences, lying in its own has social consequences and it will be brought to light.

Remember this, you broke ass college students, no amount of woke points is worth the lawsuit. If you GENUINELY see a real predator, report it!

Story time:

I don't know if anyone cares or wants to read this, but I'm gonna tell y'all when and why did i start believing in Charmie. So buckle up, who ever is reading this.

I've been a part of a lot of fandoms and they were usually about movies/TV shows/actors/actresses. I've always been a shipper of characters and not actors, I'd search their pictures by their character's names, read and write fanfics about the characters, i did everything that involved just their characters. Example : i used to ship Stiles and Derek from Teen Wolf, just them, not Dylan O'Brien or Tyler Hoechlin, same thing with the Maze runner, i shipped Newt and Thomas, and now Thomas Brodie Sanger and Dylan O' Brien (oh Dylan...lol) etc.

And then i saw Call me by your name, and i was shipping (still do) Elio and Oliver, but there was something more to it, i couldn't wrap my finger around it, something was missing, like it wasn't enough that it was just them. So i went online and watched all the interviews with Timothée and Armie.

Honestly, something you need to know about me, i was never involved in a private life of a celebrity or knew all this PR, Hollywood, fake relationships shit until i came here on Tumblr. So when i watched the interviews i was like "Aww they're such good friends, they're really close if they talk like that and touch each other like that, if they compliment each other like that etc", because i was like "You can't ship two actors, are you insane?? Armie's happily married with two kids, his wife looks good (on photoshopped pics, i never zoomed in her eyes and jaw), and Timmy's definitely straight and all that bs."

So time goes by, and I'm still shipping just Elio and Oliver, and Armie and Timothée like bros and good friends (that rolled around naked on bed, and made out for 10+ minutes).

And then TIFF happened and that was a breaking point for me. Even before TIFF when Timmy showed up after being a ghost for 6 months, and he showed up for Armie Hammer. That kind of spiked in my book, that was the first time i gave myself a permission to believe there's more to it than just friends. And then the TIFF hug and everything that happened at TIFF.

So i joined Tumblr and realized i wasn't the only one with that opinion, it was good but still wasn't enough for me. Now, I've seen Charmie being spread around and never really took it seriously, like i saw them as nothing but friends. But that hug, that hug was...everything to me. I'd think of Armie being married and then the hug, I'd think Timmy's probably straight, and then the hug. The TIFF hug undid all the doubts i had of them being just friends.

Then SSIFF happened and the rumor about Tim going to dinner with LRD and then his eyes, those sad eyes, he wasn't sick, we've seen him being sick, it wasn't the same. No, those eyes were pure sadness and anxiety, and i remember seeing him like that and all I wanted to do is fly over to Spain to hug him for whatever reason.

Fast forward to the first Central Park picture of Tim and Lily.

That's when i got very suspicious. Okay, they were at TIFF and SSIFF, there was no interaction, that rumor of them going to the same dinner was just a rumor until the black and white picture came out months later (where Timmy looked like he was holding some sort of guard), how come this relationship just sparked out of nowhere? (Lily was on the set for 2 weeks, no time to fall in love) Then Mud happened, then those pictures from the rain, then those from Central Park, and all the gossips and rumors and made up stories...everything was so suspicious to me. So i log onto Tumblr again and saw all the theories and i tried to develop my very own.

If Charmie was just a fantasy, and it was made up by couple of people on the internet, then it shouldn't bother anybody, because it was just a fantasy, and this relationship began so close to the TIFF hug that got me thinking "What if it's not just a fantasy but something real, and they're covering something up?". Because, let's face it, not in a millions of years would I ever put Timmy and Lily together in a relationship. He was Tim, and she was very problematic (from family to drugs, lbr). It got me to question either Timmy and his choice of women, or his PR team (I learned that here). But Timmy went on being his perky self and this relationship just stunk to the core.

And from that point on, everything was smooth sailing.

Maybe I've gotten far into something I shouldn't have, but the point is, the reason why i started to believe in Charmie is because of the fake relationship. It was too close to them being publicly affectionate and too far from thinking Tim would really fall for a woman like that. I'm sure Lily's okay in a closed room alone, but in public, i don't like her very much and it has nothing to do with Tim, or me being a jealous person that wants Tim all for myself (he's not my type), i wouldn't follow someone like her and her insights in the world. Simple as that.

After that, i turned the film around and realized that they've probably been "together" since CMBYN promo or so. The fact that "friendship" like Tim's and Armie's had to be covered by a fake girlfriend and a wife that was rather a control freak, then i got my thoughts straight.

Now i know what we say about Tim and Lily, and Armie and Liz, they could all be legit and really in love and happy, but...i just don't see it. And i know what we say about Tim and Armie could be false, or it could be true, we're just speculating, but my God, when all the pieces are put together, when all the videos of them gawking at each other, their body language, their eyes and compliments, just them being them...it's hard to see them as just friends and co-stars. They went through something when they were filming CMBYN, and I seriously doubt they stopped at that. I think this movie awoke something in both of them and they deepened the bond and it got them where they are now.

So, thank you PR teams for making me believe in Charmie, you did a shitty job and each time you screw up a bit, I believe in them even more, because the more you try to cover something up, the more real it gets for me. And it's not just them, it's the entire picture, this is very simple and people with logical thinking can see it also.

Conclusion : I am a Charmie, i love and support both Armie and Timmy separately and together, i don't like Lily and i think Liz is very...something. No hate, this is just my opinion on all this.

Have a great day, sorry for the long post, here's some Charmie love.❤️

The Promised Neverland Art Foreshadowing?!

Ok, so I normally don't post myself just lurk, so excuse me if I screw this up, buuuut... I had to share this. If you are anime-only there will be some manga SPOILERS ahead, so read at your own risk!

I recently got hooked to The Promised Neverland, and even got hard copies of the manga, which is very rare for me.

So as I was appreciating my shiny, newly arrived volume one, and promptly started re-reading, this comment by the author stuck out to me:

What did he mean? I thought it was something that must have been revealed by now, so I was thinking I must be able to figure it out, and I wracked my brain. But my only suspects were the sketch on the next page where Emma stands on the wall, or the fact that there is a glimpse of the demons wearing a mask over their mouths (it wasn’t obvious to me they wore masks until it was revealed later).

Neither of those seemed like that great of a foreshadowing, so I felt disappointed... until I started examining the cover art for hints, and suddenly it clicked and HOT DAMN, I think I am on to something!

So the cover art of volume 1 is a nice artistic composition with the kids standing on some funky boxes with books in the front in neat bookshelves and Grace Field in the back. Very nice and spazzy, nothing strange, right? So am I talking about the titles on those books you can sometimes barely read? Saying stuff, like NUMBER, RUN, HURRY UP! ?

WRONG

Oh boy, no it's not the small details, LOOK AGAIN, at the BIG PICTURE. What can you see? Ok, I will help by pointing out a couple of things in red:

Do you see these children standing on a set of STAIRS leading down into a HOLE UNDERNEATH Gracefield House?!?!??!

It's a bit difficult to see in the colour edition, but the inside of the volume cover also includes a sketch version where you can see that the hole isn't just lined by books, but there are also cogs, and what looks like some old, broken columns... which could be ancient artefacts?

Here, I took a picture of my copy since I couldn't find this art online with a quick search:

So I thought, could it be that ever since volume FRIGGIN one we had been staring at the tunnel that leads to the human world at Gracefield that we now know about? Also, if that's the case, it's implied the kids will go through it...

Well, knowing these mangakas, I wouldn't put such a ballsy and far reaching foreshadowing move past them, after all, they have showcased some God-tier foreshadowing game throughout the manga in my opinion.

But what REALLY got me thinking that I might be onto something was a quick google search when I was looking for a decent quality pic of this volume art, and then I found these...

Those are the chapter covers of chapter 10 and 32. Any of you seeing a pattern yet? Regarding a hole in the ground at Gracefield with stairs that the kids all ho through?!?!? Yeah, at this point I don't think it's a coincidence... it would be hard to swallow if it was.

Mind you, if others have already noticed, then please forgive me for this ignorance, but I haven't seen any post on this yet.

A couple other things I circled or pointed at in those chapter arts: Chapter 10's spiral staircase has books again (I wonder if this foreshadows that the secret passage starts in the library? though I guess Plant 3's library would have burned down), and Gracefield is at the bottom, rather than the top. But notice that Gilda is upside down, so I wonder if the world gets switched upside down when you go over to the human world?

I think chapter 32's art supports this, since this one right behind Emma has a gate at the bottom of the whole, which seems to be upside down.

Sooo what do you all think? Has anyone else noticed these details before?

(Also, I can't believe again how great and brave the mangakas are at foreshadowing, true respect to them! They really have their stuff together!)

EDIT: Actuaaaaally, an even wilder thought has occurred to me: could we have been staring at the ENDGAME of the series since VOLUME ONE?!?!

We know we are in the final arc, but so far we have been led to believe that the children has no intention of going to the human world, and right now the only options SEEM to be REFORGING the PROMISE or DESTROYING all the FARMS.

But Author-san has said before that he likes to fool readers. So what if he has planned all along that they would go to the human world in the end, all together (notice how Norman is there with them in all the images), and they had the balls to foreshadow right from the start!

As far as I know Author-san has already written 300 pages script before the illustrations began, so yeah, I think they could have pulled this off!

Or maybe this is too wild a theory? They could just go to the human world temporarily or just for help... but maaan, would it be cool if they had us staring at the ending since right from the beginning!

Zelda & Zach

ihatemyguts: [Ready for a flimsy excuse to talk lmao] ihatemyguts: Question, would Lauren actually be 👍 or 👎 if I turn up to her stream? ihatemyguts: Couldn't tell inandout: ecstatic inandout: her 👚👕👖🧦 could come off inandout: it's hard to tell if she's joking ihatemyguts: I will 🏃 to 🧼 my 👀 ihatemyguts: and time my tip really well before that potential eventuality inandout: smart move inandout: people pleasing ihatemyguts: She was nice, funny ihatemyguts: no 💩 nosing but yeah, I'm not in a position to be picky inandout: she's good at the "older sister away at uni partying but still there for you" role ihatemyguts: do you have a real one? inandout: I've got a brother, he's older than her and less of a party animal ihatemyguts: Mine too ihatemyguts: he's not as old as her but first date @ 18 isn't far off the vibe inandout: Robbie would call that hella awkward inandout: but I don't think mine has had one yet at 21 inandout: unless it's with a 🤖 he created ihatemyguts: that would be as impressive as it is 😢 inandout: he only likes to flex academically impressive muscles inandout: and believes no girls are interested in that inandout: despite being at uni ihatemyguts: 💔 ihatemyguts: Bless inandout: Lauren would knock his head together with every dream girl of his he's surrounded by until it fell off inandout: I'm a pacifist though ihatemyguts: Brothers are stupid ihatemyguts: his 💭👸 might be the stereotype of a cheerleader that doesn't even exist ihatemyguts: just ⏳⌛️ inandout: wouldn't leave me shooketh to find out you're onto something inandout: he does watch Love Island ihatemyguts: 🧠 representation, man ihatemyguts: you do not always get the girl at the end and if you do, you'll have so little in common you should just put her back inandout: I had a mental image of him just forcing a girl back up onto these high shelves we have in our kitchen inandout: not today, honey ihatemyguts: 😂 ihatemyguts: if only people were shelvable ihatemyguts: keep 'em in storage 'til you're feeling 💯 inandout: + if I'm heroically expected to get her down, the stumbling block is that the 🍪🍬🍭 are kept up there ihatemyguts: she'll have to eat it all to save you right back inandout: a love story inandout: we need to pitch it to Netflix ihatemyguts: I have done so much research for this ihatemyguts: Robyn can write it ihatemyguts: Rich can DEMAND actually disabled actors, and Rosie can ask nicely inandout: you have to be the lead, then the viewers will be on edge of their seats when you eat the 🍪🍬🍭 ihatemyguts: Lauren might 👊 me for it inandout: the spotlight would give her a seizure ihatemyguts: Awh ihatemyguts: lucky teen dramas are so moodily lit ihatemyguts: think twilight not spring breakers inandout: so dark that everyone has to squint and give themselves a headache inandout: dizzying camera angles inandout: getting our own back one symptom at a time ihatemyguts: may have to 🔪🔪 someone to make 'em shit their pants ihatemyguts: but you can nominate your brother, that's cool inandout: let him come back as a 🤖 at the end ihatemyguts: how's his Arnie? inandout: hmmm inandout: borderline racist? inandout: but we're Jewish and he's Austrian, I don't think he'll come for us ihatemyguts: not gonna go zombie for that ihatemyguts: definitely free pass for life on all the racial jokes @ their expense inandout: the shortened life span will help make up for it too ihatemyguts: no 🤖 ending? ihatemyguts: 👎 inandout: abrupt fade to black inandout: hopefully ihatemyguts: Iconic ihatemyguts: see your vision inandout: much as lingering death rattle would be an epic punk band or album name ihatemyguts: 🤔 ihatemyguts: you're a frontman, right? inandout: self nominated ihatemyguts: I see it inandout: you're drums ihatemyguts: only if I get to be on a dramatic raised platform above you all at the back inandout: if you swear not to 🚿 us with 💩 ihatemyguts: it would bring the horror ihatemyguts: very Carrie ihatemyguts: but 🤞 inandout: very Slipknot ihatemyguts: I'm down for a mask situation inandout: I'm not 🥵 ihatemyguts: Valid ihatemyguts: but you're cute, people will wanna see you inandout: cute is 🐕🐩🐈 or 🐖🐑🐐🐄 inandout: we can't start an animal band unless you can talk to them and ask if they really want inandout: ...some kind of rockstar life ihatemyguts: True, Ozzy was NOT asking those 🦇 if they were about the fame inandout: and they became another casualty of inandout: sickening ihatemyguts: is that the deal ihatemyguts: my bowel has decided not to work so I get to speak to animals? ihatemyguts: 🤙 inandout: that's a 10 episode series pitch ihatemyguts: god knows there has to be a redeeming feature of a sick kid ihatemyguts: can't be an arsehole who's suffering, not relatable and not enjoyable -10/10 inandout: you can only be an arsehole if yours works inandout: hooray for me ihatemyguts: lucky ihatemyguts: don't wanna flex on you by sparking up, really inandout: can you drink? It's a no for me ihatemyguts: it's iffy ihatemyguts: like it's not great ihatemyguts: but if I don't get big sister at Uni levels, technically inandout: technically same, but who wouldn't wanna get to that level inandout: who's doing it for the taste? ihatemyguts: I personally LOVE the taste of rotting fruit inandout: I have no sense of smell and barely any of taste and even I know wine and beer are both bad inandout: maybe the first sip of spirits will change my life ihatemyguts: that's a dangerous game ihatemyguts: it's already supposedly scentless a lot of the time ihatemyguts: you'd get wasted real fast inandout: not a date then ihatemyguts: not for long ihatemyguts: 🏥 is a fave haunt obviously but not ideal, even for a 2nd date inandout: 3rd? ihatemyguts: s'one way to end up in bed ihatemyguts: sure inandout: kids at my school do keep asking me if I've ever hooked up in hospital inandout: that being my number 1 priority each time ihatemyguts: 🙄 ihatemyguts: like it's some cringy show mums would watch ihatemyguts: with the staff or with all the random hottie in their prime that are just roaming the corridors, yeah, alright inandout: + 🏥 = PICC  in case there weren't a high enough risk of getting caught or mild peril ihatemyguts: the thrill of it all ihatemyguts: worth being sick for all the steamy romance, honestly inandout: don't forget the nurses inandout: another fave topic of everyone in class ihatemyguts: yeah, the stress eating and shift work makes 'em 🔥🔥🔥 inandout: no 💐 allowed to keep the atmosphere romantic either ihatemyguts: 💔💔💔 ihatemyguts: sure your class is not concerned about the vibe inandout: well read inandout: they just wanna touch a boob inandout: which is a good song title ihatemyguts: with potential to make a b-side literally about 🍑 ihatemyguts: high🖐 inandout: hi-hat, drummer girl ihatemyguts: badumtss inandout: 🎤 drop ihatemyguts: 🙇👏 inandout: Lauren swears she'll keep her clothes on to play Breath of the Wild ihatemyguts: I'm honoured ihatemyguts: and not at all disappointed ihatemyguts: 😉 inandout: her wardrobe of onesies are incredible inandout: they'll cheer you back up inandout: 👽🤖🐛🐲🦕🦑 + more animals than you'd have time to chinwag with ihatemyguts: obviously, I need to see this to believe 🖖 inandout: like a 🦄 she has one of those too ihatemyguts: thanks for the inside scoop ihatemyguts: can pretend I'm fully psychic now ihatemyguts: get all those oddly specific requests out inandout: that'll spook her inandout: I'm for it ihatemyguts: 🔮🗣🐒 ihatemyguts: not trying too hard to compensate, AT ALL inandout: I hadn't seen the others before today inandout: that was cool ihatemyguts: For real? ihatemyguts: It seems like you all hang like all the time, from the outside creepin' in inandout: you heard the commander, we're not supposed to post pics or personal stuff ihatemyguts: still a weird rule ihatemyguts: like, I get it, online predators, poor defenseless baby disableds, not ideal ihatemyguts: if it was an IRL group, we wouldn't be going by quippy puns on our name badges inandout: [gives her his socials and Lauren is of course in his friends so she can add her too] inandout: I was gonna suggest a meet up but didn't wanna get shot down inandout: the point is, some of us can't get out and about inandout: hasn't passed me by ihatemyguts: that's true ihatemyguts: there has to be a way we can include everybody though, everybody that would possibly want to ihatemyguts: Christ, if we as a group can't think of accessibility solutions ihatemyguts: but my point is, drop you a 💬 if I have any 💡 inandout: @ Rich inandout: he'd figure it out ihatemyguts: right? ihatemyguts: not that I'm desperate for company but frankly ihatemyguts: no, it could be cool inandout: and she won't say, despite what I said about trading on her fame, but Lauren's anniversary is coming up inandout: she'll want company for that ihatemyguts: I don't know if I should know, and I know I'm not gonna ask her ihatemyguts: but it can't be a fun anniversary, anything we could do to make it less of a shit time ihatemyguts: why not inandout: you're in inandout: cool ihatemyguts: 👍 ihatemyguts: the social engagements I won't need to turn down for this ihatemyguts: busy 🐝 I ain't inandout: I wanna ask if you had loads of friends before inandout: it seems like you would ihatemyguts: Kinda ihatemyguts: and not everyone turned into total cunts either, not trying to be that tragic heroine ihatemyguts: awkward adjustment, mainly for me, I know but ihatemyguts: wish I had a cool illness, you know ihatemyguts: can't make 💩 work for me inandout: what's a cool one? ihatemyguts: there's no cool one to have, I know that, like, intelligently, I get it ihatemyguts: but at least if you've got a decent story or you aren't essentially shitting yourself to death as your quirky symptom, people are more into it ihatemyguts: it's stupid but inandout: something that makes you faint dramatically inandout: that'd be netflix worthy inandout: the harder the name is to pronounce, the better ihatemyguts: exactly, providing I do it gracefully and look pretty whilst doing it ihatemyguts: 'cos what's the point in this pain if I can't peddle it to the masses inandout: you could look pretty doing it ihatemyguts: oh yeah ihatemyguts: the glamour would be unreal 😂 inandout: 🍃 ihatemyguts: 📽 ihatemyguts: cinematic inandout: American Beauty and you're the plastic bag ihatemyguts: that's the nicest thing anyone's ever said to me ihatemyguts: okay, Katy Perry inandout: leave Robbie to do the 🐯 roar ihatemyguts: she's cute ihatemyguts: no offense to you but inandout: how many dates are you two going on? ihatemyguts: do her parents let her out of her house, legit ihatemyguts: 'cos that will change the answer a lot inandout: only for 🏥 inandout: but she'll wanna come to the meet up ihatemyguts: then, we'll have to go on loads of dates ihatemyguts: so I can convince them I'm very respectable and not at all contagious inandout: I know JRA sucks but they'd put her in a bubble if they could ihatemyguts: I get it but also ihatemyguts: stop ihatemyguts: actual case of how it's being dealt with making it worse, when I was in hospital, the first time ihatemyguts: there was this tiny kid, and his ma was like...just insane, which is understandable but, it weren't helping her or him inandout: she could outgrow it when she's 16, that'll shake them up ihatemyguts: serious? ihatemyguts: damn inandout: it happens inandout: that's the J inandout: for being a kid ihatemyguts: I had no idea ihatemyguts: like you stop growing and it stops fucking with you, basically? ihatemyguts: that's cool ihatemyguts: if it happens ihatemyguts: worst fucking false hope if it doesn't inandout: yep inandout: sweet or bittersweet 16 ihatemyguts: like 5 months, she said? inandout: I'm gonna go to the party inandout: you should come ihatemyguts: Yeah? ihatemyguts: you think she meant it ihatemyguts: you can tell me if it was just politeness 'cos she is inandout: loneliness inandout: but she likes us too ihatemyguts: how long have you been in the group? inandout: they gave me the info when I was 12 inandout: I didn't wanna use it then though inandout: last summer I decided to ihatemyguts: I feel you ihatemyguts: like, what should we have in common ihatemyguts: but that's actually like any friendship, you got sat next to them one day in class or they shared with you at break ihatemyguts: I was just being a dick about it inandout: there are those inandout: like fibro inandout: but the core group are cool ihatemyguts: Everyone was decent ihatemyguts: if you're a dick you just are, regardless of our shared experiences ihatemyguts: but that is more than I've got with some of my old friends, that's just facts, whether you wanna accept it or nah, you know inandout: yep, me and my 🤖 brother have nothing shared inandout: his DNA is fine ihatemyguts: how was that ihatemyguts: like, was he mad guilty and did you wanna stomp on his lungs a 🤏 bit inandout: some days inandout: but Lauren says I'm better looking than him so what else matters ihatemyguts: 😂 inandout: how's your brother doing with your 💩 life? ihatemyguts: He doesn't say a whole lot ihatemyguts: that was a thing pre 💩 life too so ihatemyguts: guess he gets to keep being mysterious and my illness feels the least invisible when I'm the only kid let out to the 🚽 multiple times a lesson ihatemyguts: 🤷 inandout: you could suggest home school inandout: Robbie's an expert, she'd do you a pro slideshow ihatemyguts: I already miss people inandout: okay, okay, we'll bring the first date forward inandout: I'll escort you to the party ihatemyguts: what's the dresscode? this is vital and I know she's already said inandout: 👑💎 ihatemyguts: Oh good, you'll look extra adorable ihatemyguts: it'll be the usual trial picking which tiara to wear but think I'll survive inandout: Maybe you can take her shopping for your first date ihatemyguts: 💡 idea I'll have to claim as my own inandout: 🙇 ihatemyguts: do any of you go to the same schools ihatemyguts: or are you meant to not know that, either inandout: I don't know where either R goes inandout: and I'd remember Lauren or Rich if they'd been at my school, I think ihatemyguts: I reckon ihatemyguts: shame ihatemyguts: not that I reckoned there'd be an underground network of secret disabled kids at mine but oh well inandout: there could be inandout: you didn't need to find out before ihatemyguts: True ihatemyguts: ⭐ not being the one though ihatemyguts: have to do some more subtle digging inandout: my school has some invisible and visibles besides me ihatemyguts: statistically, there's no chance I'm the only one inandout: most of the ones in our camp have mental health stuff though inandout: or dyslexia, ADHD etc ihatemyguts: hadn't even considered those kinds ihatemyguts: got a lot of studying to do ihatemyguts: that's how it feels ihatemyguts: I barely get what I've got, never mind the endless possibilities of how a human can be slightly fucked inandout: they tend to have their own forums anyway inandout: not that Rosie wouldn't welcome them with a sleepy hug ihatemyguts: ☺️ inandout: it's less 🏥💉🩸 I guess? inandout: sort of 💊 and 🗪 ihatemyguts: Definite crossovers but not fully the same deal ihatemyguts: I see my pharmacist so often we're on date ... ihatemyguts: dread to think inandout: people don't wanna feel like others don't understand them somewhere where they're going for solidarity inandout: or that they can't get a sentence in over all the rest that are being typed ihatemyguts: it is pretty nervewracking ihatemyguts: even if yours is decent inandout: I used to be a big lurker inandout: some days I still am inandout: Lauren will always fill up the gaps ihatemyguts: you need all types, I reckon inandout: same ihatemyguts: like families ihatemyguts: even the creepy uncle inandout: if I don't have one does that mean I'm destined to become him? ihatemyguts: only if your brother finds a cheerleader ihatemyguts: you're probably alright inandout: he could adopt Robbie and let her live cage free ihatemyguts: that was a bit creepy ihatemyguts: oh my god, it's started ihatemyguts: 👹 inandout: damn inandout: much to think about inandout: a life to reassess ihatemyguts: if you're actually going ihatemyguts: thanks ihatemyguts: for being cool inandout: you were cool first inandout: I didn't lead a revolution ihatemyguts: you had to be cool enough not to shoot it down inandout: I'm so cool I've fallen at the creepy uncle fashion hurdle inandout: can't get a 🧢 on without a haircut inandout: it's all about the 🧦 now ihatemyguts: you know how to paint a picture ihatemyguts: even though I can now stalk your socials in my own time inandout: easier to explain you than Lauren inandout: my friends at school were shook by her ihatemyguts: I can imagine ihatemyguts: she'd be happy with that though 😏 inandout: she was inandout: [posts a selfie with his best attempt at a creepy uncle aesthetic because I doubt I'm finding a gem like that from Finn] ihatemyguts: oh my god ihatemyguts: 👏 ihatemyguts: that would be fully #triggering, top marks inandout: ♟ your move inandout: wine mum or vodka aunt ihatemyguts: Oh, I have perfect wine mum clothes ihatemyguts: had very bad taste a few years back and the 👻 are hanging about ihatemyguts: hold on inandout: I can't make the baited breath comment twice in a day, that's too much inandout: and I know I did in group ihatemyguts: 💔 I'm not special enough inandout: come back tomorrow for new puns ihatemyguts: [selfie in Amma's weird little girl/suburban mom clothing 'cos was not a mood] ihatemyguts: are you sure? inandout: damn inandout: come back tomorrow for a new photo challenge ihatemyguts: alright ihatemyguts: you're on inandout: cool

Taylor's interview with Carrie & Tommy (April 29, 2019)

Carrie: It's time to welcome Taylor Swift.

Taylor: Thanks for talking to me.

Carrie: No worries. Well congratulations on the new single. Almost 100 million views on YouTube. You've broken records on Vevo, Amazon. Are you absolutely buzzing at the moment?

Taylor: Um, yeah. It's crazy. This is insane. The fans have been so, so, so amazing for them to do that. Because you know obviously you put something out, you put all this work into it, you really try to make it something that they'll like and something that will entertain them, and the fact that they would watch it as many times as they have—It's really—I'm so grateful, honestly. I love getting to do this so it's really amazing that they make it so much fun to do this.

Carrie: Well they're loving all the clues that you've put in the song. Is it clues of the new album, the date of the new album release. They're also still going crazy about a pic that you posted in February of you behind a fence with five holes. Can you tell us, is that a clue or is that just a really cool pic of you behind a fence?

Taylor: Oh, my gosh. So that picture, I really just was trying to change up my Instagram aesthetic to get ready for the new album. I was just, like, posting pastel pictures to try to go from a dark to a light and kind of show them what the color scheme would be for the next album, but I love that they're that passionate. They will talk about that, like, in the "fandom"—that will be something they talk about for the next couple of years. They're so funny online of it. But yeah, I should've thought about that.

Carrie: You were just being arty.

Taylor: I love that you know about that. I can't believe you know about the five holes in the fence.

Tommy: Taylor, I thought that we could put all the talk of clues and albums up to rest and you could just potentially tell us when the album is coming out and what it's going to be called.

Taylor: You know, that is such a good idea. That would make it so much easier, wouldn't it?

Tommy: And it would be a real scoop for us.

Taylor: I don't think I'm gonna. I'm sorry.

Carrie: All the billboards you put up teasing to it, one of them almost made me have a car accident because I was coming own a ramp at the freeway and I turned around to look at your billboard and nearly sideswiped my car.

Taylor: No, never look at my billboard. Look at the road. Hands on the wheel, seat belt on. Be safe, kids.

Tommy: Stop making such intriguing billboards. It's your fault, Taylor.

Taylor: Everything's my fault. Let's be honest.

Tommy: Hey, congratulations not only on the song, it's incredible. The film clip is also incredible and it features your new gorgeous cat Benjamin Button. I know that makes it three cats for you now. How many cats do you think before you become a crazy cat lady?

Taylor: As many as it takes. As many as it takes.

Tommy: So that is the end goal we're going for?

Taylor: I didn’t expect to meet this kitten. I met him on the video set actually, 'cause we had a scene where I wanted there to be this scene where symbolically, like, I wanted it to be kind of the symbolism of, like, if you’re into someone, don’t just do what you think people like. Don’t do just what you’ve heard. Don’t give a girl what you just think she would like 'cause you think girls like these things, like, get to know somebody and that will be more interesting if you actually know someone for who they are and what they actually think is cool. So we had this scene where he gives me flowers to try and win me back I say no, he gives me a ring to try to win me back, I say no. And so then he pulls a tiny kitten out of his jacket and I’m like, ‘Okay! You clearly know me.’ So I show up on set and there's this tiny little kitten, that was the sweetest kitten. I fell immediately in love with this cat 'cause he just started purring and immediately we were best friends and it was just set. And then they’re like, "Oh, he doesn’t have a home so.." I just knew immediately, yeah.

Tommy: Single men all over Australia have just gone out to get kittens to give away to women.

Carrie: I wanna talk to you about some of the lyrics in the song because it is an absolute banger. It is caught in my head. We're gonna play the tune now. I love the lines in the song, and I love the line, "I know I'm a psycho on the phone," because it just reminded me of the fact that us girls, we've all had moments of going absolutely cray cray for a man when when we've been in love. What's the craziest thing you've done when you've been besotted with somebody? The most psycho thing you've done?

Taylor: Well, guys have had that moment too on the phone. This is not just a girl thing. I think that with this song we really just wanted to have this song not really be fully taking itself seriously. So the lyrics, that’s a tone decision that we mad in the studio. Like, we literally were like, "Okay, let's say, ‘Hey kids, spelling is fun!'" Because we want everyone to know that this song is not really serious because it's not, like, a serious love song. It’s about embracing and owning that you at times feel like, you know, you’re irreplaceable and I want those times to be more often when they hear this song and it gets stuck in their head. I think with a pop song you have the ability to get something stuck in people’s heads and I just want it to be a mantra that kind of is much more self-love than what we often times feel which is self-loathing and insecurity.

Tommy: Absolutely amazing single. It's caught in our heads. Make sure you check it out now if you haven't already. Taylor Swift just before we let you go, can you please tell us the album name and when it's going to be released?

Taylor: Um, I will just get back to you. Just give me 20 seconds. I'm gonna go pet a kitten and then I'll come back and tell you.

Carrie: Congrats on everything. Chat to you soon. Thank you so much for your time.

Taylor: You guys are the best. Thank you.

Carrie: Bye.

Tommy: Thanks so much, Taylor.

Taylor: Bye!

Tommy: Bye!