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minimoefoe · 2 years

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Once, Upon Time Rewatch Thoughts

Also currently making two other posts that came from this rewatch which I decided to put separately bc they kinda go on a bit but anyways, this is a bit shorter (I think) than the previous two but still a mess:

I love hearing what the Doctor was thinking during the end of the previous ep. Very cool

I like the dark coat a lot more actually seeing it in the ep. But I don’t think it’s the fashion statement others seem to think of it as lmao

Dan and Diane are so cute and I really hope they get a happy ending at the end of all this

Saw someone complain about Diane asking Dan why he isn’t married, I guess as if it was Chibnall making some kind of statement and pushing the idea that people need to get married at some point and I’m like.. What are you talking about?? That was very clearly a conversation between two people who fancy each other and the way she asked that wasn’t accusatory, it was flirty.

Jodie Whittaker in a police uniform is something that can be so personal

Also lmao at her banging on about satsumas. I wonder if Chibnall was like ‘Yeah, Jodie, just ramble on about whatever you like’

The way the point where the Doctor managed to get through to Yaz was when the woman the Doctor was replacing was leaning over to wipe food off Yaz’s face

‘Don’t mind me, I’m trying not to be distracting.’ is so fuckin funny

Kills me that Ruth was disgusted at the idea of looking like 13 in Fugitive of the Judoon and she felt the exact same in this episode

The way ‘Yaz’ says ‘We’re your team.’ Was that just Mandip saying it weird or was it supposed to be the accent of the person she’s representing coming through?

I have many thoughts about Ruth!Doctor showing up again because I’ve seen people say it’s rude/disrespectful/in poor taste/whatever for her to essentially just be used as a way to aid Thirteen on whatever journey she is going on but I’m kinda like.. Well, yeah, isn’t that obviously the point though? Like, it makes sense that every time Ruth shows up, Thirteen is going through something arc related, at least right now. Because we’re right in the thick of figuring things out. I get people wanting Jo Martin to be able to play a bigger part in the show. I want that too. But it’s just...not about her. It’s Thirteen’s era. Thirteen is going on this ‘finding out her past’ journey. Chibnall could have introduced us to another completely new incarnation of the Doctor in this episode instead of giving us Ruth back and that would have been fine too. Because it doesn’t really matter which version of the Doctor our Doctor sees in that mirror, just that it isn’t the face they’re expecting.

That guy in black showing up and then disappearing yet again! I think in my rewatch post about the first episode I said he was the one character I didn’t really give a fuck about but now I am well and truly giving fucks. I wanna know what’s up with him.

During my rewatch I didn’t have as much of a problem with the focus on Bel but I’m still not completely sold on her. Like, she’s a nice character and I do like her and Vinder but I’m not really in it for them, I’m in it for the Doctor and her companions, so anything that doesn’t focus on them I can get kinda meh about. Although I assume they’re going to have some kind of importance of the next 3 episodes otherwise what was the point in it all.

The Grand Serpent gives me 10/10 bad vibes

That nimble fingers line and then the Doctor appearing is really a thing that happens huh

The way she says, ‘Yeah, well, I’ve got a bit more practice,’ is kinda rude?? Idk. Just her vibe being amazing yet again.

There must be a reason why Yaz was put in the future, Dan was put in the present and Vinder and the Doctor were put in the past

The Weeping Angel appearing in the game is actually scary

Yaz asking what an angel is is so annoying to me because of the comic set in Series 11/12 where she meets them. Like, I get that the TV show is the canon but idk, I feel like comics are really not that obscure and it’s surely not hard for writers to do a five minute search (or get someone to do it for them) when they decide to bring an alien into an episode to see if the characters have met them before in another media. And I actually think it would have made it more interesting if Yaz did recognize the Angel. All it would have taken was a little comment from one of them that establishes that Yaz has dealt with them before. And then if you wanna go off and read that story then you can, but if not, it literally doesn’t effect the episode. I wonder how much more this is gonna annoy me in the next episode where the Angels are the main focus. Not that it’s annoying me a ton now, I just think it’s kinda a shame because that comic is one of the good ones and it’s been retconned when it really didn’t need to be

Jo Martin was clearly on a questionable green screen but the flickering between Ruth and Thirteen is so good.

Old Swarm is really gross.

I also wonder if ‘old’ means old as in previous or old as in aged. This might be dumb but I was thinking about what if Swarm didn’t regenerate he just made himself younger? Which I guess is regenerating. But not to a new face, just de-aging his current face. I feel like that’s defo not the case because they have different actors which I assume is supposed to purposely make us think of it as a regeneration like the Doctor’s. But just the difference between Swarm and Old Swarm is very weird and doesn’t scream your average regeneration to me.

I hope we actually get more info on who/what Swam and Azure are and they don’t just stay mysterious because that would be annoying.

The way Thirteen and Ruth handle themselves so differently is great. Thirteen looks Feral, like she’s enjoying what they’re doing but Ruth looks pretty calm, like she’s just doing what needs to be done.

Bel is cool but there’s no way she’d kill all those cybermen lmao

So basically Vinder outed the Serpent guy as an asshole and then got sent to a new post in the middle of space as an almost punishment for tryna take down that guy, Sucks bro

The Doctor’s desperation at wanting to stay for a while to find more and then her desperation at wanting to get back in is great. I just love actually seeing the Doctor emote and be sad and upset instead of trying to keep it all locked down.

The Flux being caused on purpose doesn’t shock me too much but I wasn’t expecting the Doctor to be the reason for it. That’s defo interesting.

And I wonder who tf that old woman is. I think her being Tecteun would make sense. Because the way she spoke to the Doctor was kinda motherly but like, Bad motherly. Like she’s talking down to her kid. Idk.

The way Yaz handles the Doctor when she gets out of that place is so good. I don’t even know how to explain why I love it. Just, I feel like Yaz really sees, maybe for the first time, that the Doctor is struggling. I think very possible that Yaz has known for a while that the Doctor is struggling but this is the first time that the Doctor hasn’t completely hidden away the pain and desperation she’s been feeling.

The way Swarm points and says, ‘Dan Lewis’, is so funny

DO AS YOU’RE TOLD! Dan’s instant reaction to not give a fuck about what the Doctor is warning him about his great. Felt like a reminder that they actually don’t know each other, despite how much they’ve been through over the last couple of days.

Vinder knowing what a TARDIS is. I feel like that’s only shocking because we’re used to humans seeing the TARDIS and being like uh wtf is that. But we know Vinder is some other species so it makes sense that he’d maybe know what a TARDIS is I think

Interesting that when Vinder asks Yaz if he can fly the TARDIS or whatever, Yaz doesn’t say anything about how the TARDIS isn’t actually hers, she just goes along with it. Like she is so comfortable there that she has no problem kinda taking ownership of the TARDIS. I’m sure that’s gonna end well.

‘Does everything have to be a discussion.’ The Doctor really went straight back to hiding as if she didn’t just have a full on break down in front of everyone. I feel like it’s too late for that now. Yaz has seen how the Doctor is feeling under her ‘I’m fine’ mask. She can’t just go back to pretending everything is fine and expect Yaz to just go along with it. I really am just waiting for them to either have some kind of screaming match or cry in each other’s arms.

I just wanna know how long Bel has been pregnant for???

‘I wonder if he looks different.’ I kinda feel like this isn’t going to be a big deal? Like sometimes when you don’t see someone for a long time they just... look different. I don’t think she’s talking about something as wild as regeneration. But who knows, maybe she is.

I wonder what Vinder’s home planet is called.

I think the only part of this episode that I didn’t particularly care for was Bel’s moments and some of Vinder’s moments. Otherwise, I loved a lot of the shit in this episode. And I definitely liked it more after rewatching.

I think my problem with this series as a whole is that while I like all the reccuring side characters, I would always rather be seeing the Doctor, Yaz or Dan. For me, the focus of Doctor Who, and what I care about, is the Doctor and the companions, which I think is why a serialized season is just not for me when it comes to DW, even if I am loving this series so far. If this was any other show I wouldn’t even be thinking about how many different side stories were being told but in a show like this where I’m so used to having a couple of main characters and then characters that come and go every week I’m just like ugh, take me back to the Doctor.

That’s almost been a thing with all of Chibnall’s era for me tbh. In Series 11 and 12 he tried to get you invested in the side characters of each episode by spending a lot of time on them, almost as if it’s going to be a serial and not just a one off episode where we never see these people again, which leads to the Doctor and companions getting less screen time, in favour of characters that at the end of the day don’t really matter.

And that’s an even bigger problem when there’s three companions that all need airtime. Thankfully, I still love the fam a lot and do feel like we know them well, it just kinda annoys me and makes me feel like we missed out on having more moments with them. There is surely a way to get the set up out the way quicker. Well, there defo is a way because Moffat and RTD did it just fine.

Because this series is serialized I’m not annoyed that we have recurring characters, because you need that for a story like this, but it just isn’t the way I like DW to be so I am begging RTD goes back to the monster of the week format.

#doctor who #dw spoilers #nataliechats #dw txt

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chickenfreeblog · 3 years

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Watching Dan reacting to his childhood videos is something that gives me the most to think about his gender identity. In that stero he indeed was talking about femboys from the most cis man perspective but i think it's maybe because he still is somewhat protective over his manliness. Like he's only looking at the clothes he wears and says they are "boyish" but that's not the point. He just gives The Vibe apart from clothing. Especially that we know he wanted to buy that "female" garment back in Manchester ditl, i think? I imagine he doesn't want to admit sth to himself and thus he chooses his more "manlike" clothing bc of his experience with bulling. Even when he actively fights gender roles he dose that subconsciously. And he forgets that gender is much more that just what we wear.

Not want to assume anything but these are just my thoughts

yeah i get you! that reacting to childhood videos video is wild and i have a lot of thoughts that i can never really verbalize about it lmao.

i think what surprised me about that stereo and why it stuck in my head is just that like..... we make a whole deal out of how he tends to dress in more androgynous stuff and likes the big sweaters and the lace thing and so on, but then he describes that stuff as "pretty manly" or whatever he exactly said? like i think some of it is defensiveness about not getting perceived as deviating, but also..... i think that made me realize how much he probably just kind of bumps up against the fact that the boundaries of "manly" clothes are so limited?

like i think it's really easy to be like "oh, obviously the lace thing is super girly, he must be trying to be perceived a certain way," but like..... i mean, knowing dan's affinity for kind of nondescript black oversized things anyways, i feel like it totally makes sense that he could look at that and be like "okay, i want something slutty and this is the slutty version of what i already have." like it's black and nondescript, it's just lace now, so what's the big deal. the only really novel part is that it is lace and it's kinda weird that we've locked down an entire category of fabric for one gender, to the point that it's seen as this huge leap, y'know?

kinda the same thing with his big sweaters? i feel like a lot of times it's perceived as really feminine bc it's kinda quirky, but....... i guess i just wonder how much of that is us projecting gender ideas on something that he might just wear because it's mentally comfortable for other reasons? like i think he just genuinely likes oversized stuff, and.... it is kind of funny that some plain-ass brown or black sweater will automatically get perceived as feminine just because it's big. like maybe he secretly likes the gender perception that comes with it, but also.. idk if that really factors in or if it's just that it's really easy to wander over some arbitrary boundary and end up in "oh, it's girly" territory whether he wants to or not? idk!! i don't know but that comment did make me think really differently about why he's picking certain things

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karmilleryn · 4 years

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For the current situation, and going along with our collective hc of way more of the Foxes being POC than are explicitly identified as such in canon:

(I can’t find them now to link them, but I’m pretty sure I saw a post the other day that said the Foxes would totally kneel during the national anthem, and I def saw one that said something like “Andrew said ACAB” with quotes from the book [like him calling Higgins “Pig Higgins” and saying he didn’t trust the FBI to give Neil back, I think], so this kinda runs along the same lines as those)

Even though Neil doesn’t usually like to think about/embrace his fame and influence, he does like to use it sometimes for good, like when he can set an example for others.

(But not being so outspoken that the Moriyamas would be bothered. Which, idk if that would be the case with this, but let’s just say it’s fine lol.)

And this is one of those times. Especially because this is an issue that directly affects some of his closest friends family. Nobody fucks with his fellow Foxes.

(The originals at least - the ones from his freshman year. The ones after, minus Robin, can fuck right off lol.)

So when the protests start, once Neil gets Andrew on board,

(which probs wouldn’t be too hard for Neil/OOC for Andrew bc if nothing else, Andrew hates cops

and Neil could reason that it would earn Andrew some brownie points with their pro team’s PR [they’d be on the same team by now, right?] by doing what they’d actually want him to for once

[which he has to do every once in a while to not get fired from/kicked off the team... the last time might have been when he created his Twitter account in the first place lol. Neil’s slightly better at following the rules, but only slightly, and only because, again, he has the Moriyamas watching him]

assuming they’re on a good team that actually shows/want them to show support for this rather than staying out of it

and he was probs bribed with some ice cream too, lbr lol)

Neil tweets this [I’m just writing it out since I have no clue how to make social media edits, and putting slashes in the tagging so I don’t actually tag anyone accidentally lol]:

‪@/neiljos10: “I’m challenging the Exy community to join me & @/ajminyard in supporting #BlackLivesMatter by putting on your favorite Black Exy player’s jersey and joining your local protest. (As well as donating if you can and continuing to educate yourself, which we are also doing.) #ExyForBLM‬”

(And makes it a thread with another tweet - he’s getting better at technology! - that tells them not to use the actual hashtag for BLM, just #ExyForBLM, so they don’t clog up the other hashtag and push down tweets with resources, etc. [Although would quote tweeting his tweet still do that since his had it? I don’t know those details of Twitter that well lol.])

Attached is a pic of Neil and Andrew from behind (so you can read the names on their jerseys), standing side by side at a protest, holding protest signs facing toward the camera with different messages of support

Neil is wearing a Boyd jersey (either his old 04 Fox one or his current pro one)

And Neil got Andrew to wear an old Wilds 01 Fox jersey

Dan replies to the tweet with several hearts and these reaction pics of Matt attached:

And later quote tweets it with a pic of them at a protest, either wearing each other’s jerseys or ones for other Black players they want to support [I couldn’t decide which I liked better... maybe one at the first protest they go to and the other at the next one because you know they’ll keep showing up]

Andrew replies to it simply saying: “Junkie”

Allison quote tweets it with a pic of her at a protest wearing an old Gordon 06 Fox jersey

And a shit ton of fans and players quote tweet and/or fill the hashtag with pics/tweets of them accepting the challenge/following suit/showing support

(coaches, refs, announcers, etc., would probably tweet to show support without the pics since they can’t show favorites by wearing one specific jersey?)

Anyway that’s it idk how to end it also sorry this got way too long lol

(If anyone more talented/skilled than me sees this and happens to want to draw or make edits of these tweets/pics, feel free! Just credit/tag me please!)

((The credit for the idea of using those pics for Matt and knowing that they even existed goes to a post I’ve seen on here that’s a Snapchat edit where Matt (at least I think it was Matt... esp bc the pics are of Reece King, who most people fancast as Matt, myself included lol) finally snaps a pic of Andreil kissing so he posts it, and then at least one if not two (can’t remember which) of those pics above as his reaction, and then a blurry pic of him running away saying something like even if they catch him and he dies, Allison or someone still owes him for winning the Fox bet of being first to get a pic of them. I tried so hard to find that post to link it here (and to get the pic from it to use it), but again, no luck. So I just Googled pics of Reece King crying lol bc I at least knew it was him! And I actually found a series of four (all at separate links bc they were all separate posts that I found under “related” of course lol), so I decided to use them all as a full face journey haha. So here’s where I found them: [x] [x] [x] [x] ))

#otp: i want to go back for you #andreil #aftg #all for the game #tfc #the foxhole court #sportsball #black lives matter #bullet hc #reece king #karmilleryn original

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kae-karo · 5 years

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Hi I used to be into the phandom so much but fell out in like??? 2017??? Maybe??? Has anything big happened at all? Has anyone died/caught on fire ( ;) )??

oh dear god where do i begin??? well fortunately both our lads are still alive. let me just start with saying 2018 has been like. probably the best year for dnp to date? i’ll try to go in some kind of order here but bear with me i’ll touch on a bit of 2017 stuff and then go into 2018 for ya

so first of all i’m not sure when you left the phandom in 2017 but the lads moved out of their previous flat in april of last year (x) (april-ish it was def before they posted the vid)

also our dear lil dani snot on fire is no longer not on fire (x) so uhh is he on fire now ig? i mean yeah that’s arguably true

*insert phil’s badaladala sound bc on the scale of Significant Things i don’t think anything else massive happened*

day one of demon month, we got this amazing vid from phil wherein viewers (aka dan) picked his outfits n he looked like a snacc and a half (would’ve been 2 snaccs if he’d embraced the quiff sooner but that’s getting ahead of things) (x)

!!!! then a week or so later dan posted his vid ‘daniel and depression’ where he opened up abt his struggle with depression (x) which was imo the start of him just being more open about himself in general. he also started working with young minds (a mental health org for young people in the uk) and shortly thereafter with prince william’s program to help prevent cyberbullying

then! on the day love was invented! dnp released their board game, truth bombs (x - yeah i linked the second vid and not the first, and wot) which u can buy if you’d like but it’s a lot of fun (x)

then these idiots did a conjoined jumper baking challenge and didn’t fucking wear shirts under the jumper like what dumb gays idk (x) but it was real funny and Good Content

then early nov dnp announced the interactive introverts tour (x) and then uhhh it happened (like 80+ shows??? in a ton of countries???) (x) and they’re releasing the filming of it along with some bonus content like a director’s commentary and u can preorder it (x)

also pinof 9 happened which as a legacy phan u know is always a Thing but this year it was especially a Thing so i recommend catching up (x, and the bloops - x)

and phew okay that’s the majority of 2017 Important Events but before i go on to 2018 i’ll just recap a few important events from dapg (basically just some gamingmas stuff):

wherein dan smacked phil in the face

and phil crushed the presents but dan helped him up

where phil pretended not to remember gamingmas was happening, leading to the most iconic simultaneous heart eyes howell/love eyes lester to date

dnp singing baby it’s cold outside together whilst playing yasuhati

iconic pinof 9 moment

dnp play charades but it’s phil’s turn, and he’s touchy

the not my arms challenge!!! playing mario kart

okay! and before anyone starts yelling i know there’s more but god if i put every iconic thing in this post would break there’s Too Much so let’s hop into 2018 bc it’s gonna be a long one

first i cannot believe dan fucking gave phil a philussy cake and phil’s parents asked phil what it meant jfc dan (x)

THE EARRING!!! dan’s first selfie with the lil hoop and it never leaves and we love it (x)

phil is just trying to take a selfie and dan ruins it (x) spoiler alert: phil gets him back in colorado (x)

okay big sigh two large events happen in march: the first, dan’s ‘trying to live my truth’ vid (x) it basically dan saying ‘i’m still figuring things out but i want to be more authentic and true to myself, and also authenticity is important for some people to feel happy in life’ vid that a lot of people hyperfixated on the end line of, where he said he would go ‘laugh at a joke with a chocolate bar and...something else in my mouth’ which people assumed meant a dick and therefore it was a subtle coming out vid, dan did a liveshow afterward (x) wherein he said that wasn’t the point of the vid and people got mad at him for ‘backtracking’ (if u want more of my Opinions on this feel free to check em out - x)

the second v v big event happened at the end of march when phil posted this iconic selfie that would be the downfall of the fringe (x) this has been titled the quiffening by some

shortly after that he began styling his hair in a quiff permanently which was probably the best decision he’s made since responding to one of his obsessed fans back in 2009

quick detour dan’s proud of his hubby (x) for winning fortnite and ‘fuxkung’ is now what ‘fucking’ autocorrects to in my phone

we also had dan releasing his merch (x) which is basically all black and themed around the eclipse logo and ‘don’t talk to me’, though he just released the exist line for world mental health day which has his quote ‘have the courage to exist’. he’s also mentioned possibly wanting to do more creative things like wide-necked or asymmetrical shirts dan just do a fashion line pls oh and he mentioned in a recent ls he might do an internet support group mug sometime soon

and then,,,,,pigeonfest. we watched. five hours. of phil livestreaming their patio. and literally nothing happened bc someone was like down on the street feeding pigeons so there weren’t even any pigeons for like 90% of the liveshow. but he literally didn’t talk it was just five hours of their patio and we all watched it. we all just watched it like the whipped phannies we are (x)

and then we got a brief but overwhelming dose of,,,,,,something from the easter baking vid (x) phil was hopped up on sugar and also confidence from his quiff and probably smth else as well

everything just blows up from there we have giving the people what they want (x) where, in preparation for ii (for which the underlying theme was ‘giving people what they want’), dnp reacted to pinof 1, swapped clothes, did the ‘yoga challenge’, recreated ditl manchester, ‘got a dog’, and made phil say fuck. honestly it shook the entire phandom to its core at the time but like. i’m less shooketh now? it’s sort of just fallen by the wayside in terms of how unpredictable dnp have been this year

then phil drops week in the life of dnp shortly thereafter which is just very very domestic even for them and their ditl style vids??? (x) phil filming dan in bed being one of the big demon highlights at the time

it’s right around this time too that insta stories start and my god it just goes jfc like i don’t even have the mental capacity to recall all the Iconic ones but i recommend checking out this playlist (x) which has all the ii tour stories goddamn there were a lot though they really put out that content didn’t they

in early may we get phil talking about why he changed his emo hair (x) and arguably the first official vid of the casual rebrand - phil’s more open and genuinely vulnerable about his fears about making a change to his hair, and i don’t think we’ve ever seen him that open before. the vids don’t stop being open though, with what dnp text each other (x) giving us coop and doop along with other iconic stories, dnp basically sitting on top of each other in that and other gaming vids on the tour bus, phil being very open abt his attraction to men (x) and the iconic final google feud vid with way too much of a specific kind of Energy (x) (ofc again there are More Vids but i don’t have the time/mental capacity to recap them all so i’m pickin the Big Ones)

monochrome mates (x)

phew okay so the tour in general as well - like if u don’t mind spoilers, i did a big ol analysis of what that was all about (x) but one of many many highlights is dan calling he and phil “best friends and soulmates”

finally finally finally after months of waiting we also get some phil merch! (x) plant and animal themed, and he even released a lion plushie which sold out like instantly and he claimed he’d do more of but we have yet to see that. he says he’s got more ideas for other merch as well

now okay fast forward to october after the tour’s over bc i think the insta stories and the analysis cover it but then. then. then we get the pizza mukbang (x) thirty three minutes of dnp being more open and honest and casual than literally they’ve ever been on camera maybe ever, and i’m including liveshows in this statement. no holds barred, authentic vulnerable dnp. a religious experience

end of october spooky week hits us and i think the key vid to call out here is the creepy mind of phil lester bc i think it was another open honest authentic vid (x) where they talked a lot, casual domestic w.e got some insight into phil’s mind it was v good

and then they carve pumpkins jfc which was an experience (x) there were a lot of innuendos but also one of the first years they didn’t do a halloween baking in a while (though they have hinted at possibly doing christmas baking) idk i’m fully overwhelmed at this point lmao like a Lot happened this year

phew okay and Then just yesterday philly dropped his vid on why he went to (the) hospital (x) idk soz that’s a british thing i think like we say ‘the’ anyway. which i’ve been talking abt quite a lot lately but it was another very open and honest vid in which he expressed a lot of vulnerability and fear and perceived flaws and it was just a quality like. open vid.

jfc okay hope that helps obviously there’s a lot i didn’t mention, but this should at least get you caught up on some of the big stuff!! and while i’m at it have a few more Important Gifs from this year

a very important moment of communication whilst on tour, deciding whether or not they’re okay with doing a ‘third wheel’ pose

dan flinging himself off the chair in anger whilst playing getting over it

nose boop from phil’s instagram explore pages vid

subsequent nose boop from the extreme tetris vid

and a cheek boop from the overcooked 2 vid

dan pulling phil’s hand off the mouse in fear during spooky week, swamp simulator (shrek slender)

touchy!dan during pizza mukbang

oh god. okay. again, this is not everything, just a big list of some big events over the past year-ish. i’m sure i’ve missed some important stuff but i think i covered most of it! hope this helps ya get caught up dear!

#dnp #so dan and phil in 2018 eh #what's that about #phan #dip and pip #kt #anon #ask

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lady-charinette · 5 years

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Hello *waves* Since you like ask games i decided to just ask some basic qs ab urself if u dont mind? :) 1. Fav animal 2. Fav quote 3. Fav flower 4. Fav colors 5. Fav hobby ;) 6. Is your fashion sense more "masculine" or feminine? 7. Do you enjoy glitter and sparkles? 8. Fav book? 9. Fav scent and why? 10. Fav food? 11. Fav dessert? 12. Biggest pet peeve? 13. Most romantic thing that has happened to you? I hope you can answer these so we get to know you better ^_^

1. Fav animal: (domesticated) cat, (wild) lion

2. Fav quote: (I have more, but these three were the ones off the top of my head)

4. Fav colors: black and red

5. Fav hobby: Writing, making AMVs/editing photos/movie clips

3. Fav flower: Roses

6. Hmm...I dress comfortably/sporty/practical. It depends on my mood honestly, but mostly more 'masculine'. If I'm in the mood I also dress more feminine.

7. ....I don't mind it seeing it on kid's birthday parties (I used to work at a kindergarten) but on anything else? Nope.

8. I have so many... just a few bc I can't decide: The Yard by Alex Grecian, To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee, Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen, The Book Thief by Markus Zusak, Dan Brown books (love 'em), The Picture of Dorian Grey by Oscar Wilde, Crime and Punishment by Dostoyevsky, Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, Adventures of Sherlock Holmes (Arthur Conan Doyle), ...sorry I'm rambling. Ahem.

9. Fav scent and why? Vanilla, I always loved vanilla, it was such a sweet and mellow scent, idk why really.

10. Fav food? Rice, vegetables and meat (something like asian wok but with rice instead of noodles) oh and schnitzel & spaghetti

11. Fav dessert? Oh that's a hard one, I don't often eat cakes or the like...maybe apple strudel (with and without vanilla sauce). (It's this pic btw)

12. Biggest pet peeve? Assuming that people hate you when they disagree with you on something. People interrupting you. Just...difficult people who are very emotionally draining and manipulative. Oh! And people who cough or sneeze and don't cover their mouth.

13. Most romantic thing that has happened to you? Haha, oh hmm...let me think. I think it's when someone touched their nose to mine and did that adorable af eskimo kiss and held my cheeks at the same time and we both laughed during it and my heart just melted. XD I'm not sure if it's really 'romantic' but I'm a simple person, that was cute as all hell. ^_^

#ask #anon #anonymous #ask away!#ask games #haha these were fun #thank you for the ask!!

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copyrightedsnakes · 7 years

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This River Is Wild

Title: This River Is Wild

Length: ~5k

Summary: Phil decides to attend a show put on by the circus traveling through town. When he stumbles across a boy with brown eyes and bruises, he knows he has to do something.

Warnings: cursing, violence/abuse, mentions of alcohol, Dan and Phil are kids for a large majority of the fic (is that a warning? idk)

Author’s Note: will I ever write a normal phanfic again? here’s to hoping. anyway, here’s a oneshot. it was inspired by the song this river is wild by the killers (though the song and the fic aren’t similar at all so idk how that happened. I still ended up putting song lyrics at the end bc I’m a loser) annnnnnd yeah. I don’t really know what this is but I hope you guys like it anyway.

As a seventeen year old with rent to pay, Phil knows he probably shouldn't have bought a ticket to the circus. After seeing posters for the event all over town however, childhood nostalgia took over and he couldn't help himself, getting off the train and heading down to the fairgrounds. The ground is thick with fallen leaves, colors of orange and red and brown swirling around him as he walks, approaching the giant red tent on the horizon, where a slightly unsettling clown on stilts is collecting tickets and smiling down at children. He and an abnormally muscular man in suspenders are guarding the open gate, the only visible entrance or exit in the portable fence surrounding the event. Phil is granted entry without a second glance, heading into the big top to watch the performance.

He's arrived rather early, able to watch as spectators fill the stands. His proximity to the ground enables him a few peeks behind the curtains whenever someone walks past too fast behind them, and seconds before the show starts Phil sees the face of a young boy peek between the curtains, seeing his big brown eyes for only a moment before he disappears again. Then a drumroll begins, a spotlight falls on the center of the tent, and the boy strides out. He has on a too-large suit, complete with a top hat pulled over his shaggy brown curls, slightly ragged coattails, and black shoes shined within an inch of their life. He raises his arms to the surrounding crowd.

"Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to the show!" His voice rings around the tent from a portable headset, the microphone a black sphere near his mouth.

He's the ringleader, to Phil's surprise. He can't have been more than thirteen or fourteen though he looks much smaller, his baggy clothes doing more to extenuate his tiny arms and legs than to hide them. He's obviously talking from a script but he does rather well, only a few stumbles to his bright voice, every gesture large and sweeping for everyone to see. And the performances go without a hitch, with clowns and acrobats and little dogs doing tricks.

"Please welcome Pierre, our fearless lion tamer!"

A hush falls over the crowd as a genuine, larger than life lion walks out, led on a thick rope by a man Phil assumes is Pierre, a white tank-top tucked into his orange and red pinstripe pants. Spotlight hits the lion's face, and he growls.

"Pierre can't do this trick on his own." The ringmaster says, as Pierre curls his goatee with a spindly finger. "We will need a volunteer!"

Hesitant chatter breaks out, no one seemingly keen on getting too close to the beast, and Phil finds himself raising his hand. The ringleader meets his eye for a moment before waving him over. There's a smattering of applause as Phil walks out, a second spotlight following him.

"Our fearless volunteer will now place his head inside the lion's mouth!"

Phil didn't know that was what he'd agreed to, turning to the creature and being met with the large maw opening, it's teeth sharp and it's tongue very red. Obediently, Phil lowers his head, hot breath surrounding his face.

He feels the lion move before seeing it, ducking away, a loud snap and rumbling growl echoing throughout the tent as the lion's jaw closes fast, being yanked harshly up on its hind legs by the lion tamer. Phil stumbles back, his wrist grabbed tightly by the little ringleader, who tugs him into a bow. Stunned applause crashes over them, the lion being pulled back into submission as Phil glances over to the teenage boy in the coattails. He's surprised to see a huge, hand-shaped bruise wrapped around his tiny forearm as his sleeve falls back to lift Phil's arm into the air. He also can't help but notice how his smile, slightly gaunt upon closer inspection, doesn't reach his eyes at all as he thanks Phil and sends him back to his seat. It's concerning and distracting and Phil can't think of anything else, his mind still troubled on his walk back home. He shoves his hands into his pockets, freezing on the spot at the extra space for his fingers. His wallet is missing. He knows he had it upon entering the fairgrounds but that's as much as he can remember, turning tail and beginning to walk back. It has to be somewhere at the circus.

A few floodlights is all he has to see by as he approaches, night already heavily fallen. The gate is locked but that's barely a surprise, Phil walking around the perimeter before he finds a stretch of tent that's dark and on the outskirts, scaling the chain link and dropping down behind a set of barrels. He's about to move when something--someone, he realizes a second later--stumbles out of the tent nearby, falling into the dirt. The muscular gatekeeper he'd seen before follows out after, his footfalls heavy under his weight, fisting a meaty hand into the first person's shirt. He has to grab a large amount of the material, pulling the person up to their knees, and Phil finally sees his face. It's the tiny ringleader from the show.

"Th' hell wassat?" He says, shaking the boy. His voice is thick and sluggish, and he sounds drunk.

"I--" The boy begins, a 'smack!' ringing through the air and he's hit across the face.

"There was almost blood on our hands today becaussa you." The man growls, and Phil is reminded of the lion from earlier in the most horrible way.

"But that was Pierre, not--" The boy falls silent again, but not from being hit; he's caught Phil's eyes in the darkness, averting his gaze a second later. Phil knows he needs to do something, about to move when the boy is thrown back to the ground, the man turning away.

"Good fer nothin'." He grumbles, heading back to the tent he came from, his walk uneven from intoxication as he tromps away on his thick legs. The boy stays there in the dirt for a few minutes, his bangs obscuring his face as he lays on his side. Phil wants to go to him to help, but the boy is in plain view of the tent entrance, and the last thing he wants is to cause more trouble.

Thankfully, the boy does sit up, wiping furiously at his face with the back of his fists before moving over to Phil's hiding place.

"What are you doing here?" His eyes and nose are red and while he isn't crying anymore, he still looks scared. "If you're caught they'll kill you."

Phil doesn't know how real that threat actually is, but his wallet has all of his money and the key to his apartment, so there's no point in going back home without it. And he tells the boy so, who gives him a look before turning away.

"I'll help you, follow me."

They weave behind tents and through shadows to avoid being caught in the lights, and Phil can't help but feel that the boy has done this before. It's not until they reach the large tent where the show had taken place earlier that day that he relaxes, and Phil feels safe to speak.

"What's your name?" He asks as they walk towards the spectator stands. "I'm Phil."

"Daniel." The boy replies, glancing up at him for a moment.

"How old are you, Dan?"

This questioning look is held longer, but still Dan answers.

"Thirteen." He says, and Phil isn't surprised. "You look old."

"I'm seventeen." Phil tells him, stooping down to start looking under some seats. "I just graduated from high school."

He spots his wallet sitting nearly exactly he'd expected it to be, on the ground near where he'd been sitting. He grabs it, and as he straightens up he hears the unmistakable grumble of a hungry stomach. He knows the sound isn't him.

"You haven't eaten dinner yet?" He asks Dan. Dan wraps his little arms around his torso, avoiding Phil's eyes.

"I don't get food tonight, because the lion almost ate you." He says quietly. Phil's mouth opens in indignation at the unfairness of it all.

“Nobody is giving you dinner tonight? But you need to eat.” Dan is much tinier than he should be already; his shirt is an adult’s, dwarfing him, tucked into a pair of shorts that are cinched up so tightly that they’re bunched up on all sides. Dan doesn’t look at him, simply shrugging. Phil wishes he had anything to give Dan to eat.

“Where are your parents?” Phil finds himself asking. Dan just shakes his head.

“I live here.” He says.

"So why don't you leave?"

"Leave?" Dan echoes, his eyes going wide as he finally looks over.

"They're not feeding you, and I know they abuse you. I saw it." His eyes go back to the bruise on Dan's arm, the mystery of it now solved. Dan sees his gaze and does a motion that looks like an impulse, an attempt to tug his sleeve down over his hand, but the movement is futile; his shirt, stretched and worn, has short sleeves.

"I don't have anywhere to go." Dan finally says. "But you have your wallet now, so you should leave."

Phil wants to protest, or do something, but Dan just slips between the tent curtains and back out onto the fairgrounds and he has to be quiet. He's led to a stretch of fence more out of the way and optimal for climbing, Dan giving him a last look and disappearing into the darkness.

By the time Phil wakes up the next morning, knows he has to do something. He can’t just stand by and let the circus roll out of town with Dan in tow. He’s unsure of what plan he’s actually going to put into motion, but he mulls over a few options as he gets dressed. If Dan has any family, he should live with them, but Phil feels that he probably doesn’t, not if he’s living with a traveling circus troupe. Or he could take Dan to an orphanage, but the thought of not knowing what could happen to Dan yet again makes him uncomfortable. He’s leaning towards his last option, the one the most far-fetched and unrealistic. He thinks Dan could come live with him.

He knows he probably doesn't make enough money to support both himself and another person, and that his pathetic apartment isn't optimal for raising a kid, even if the kid is already in his teens, but he also knows that his twin-sized futon, lawn table and chairs, and reused plastic dishware is better than malnourishment and abuse. He packs a bag of snacks and clothes that don't fit him anymore and heads out, his resolve in his plan strengthened.

He doesn't make it to the fairgrounds until noon, but the area is still closed to the public as the show doesn't start until evening. Thankfully there aren't many people milling around, Phil climbing the fence easily. It's that moment that he realizes he has no idea where to find Dan, eventually deciding to simply poke his head in a tent nearby and hope for the best.

Dan isn't in there, met instead with the sight of a single man sitting at a table. His back is to Phil, a sponge in hand and halfway through applying white face paint, bent nearly double in front of a small mirror. Phil's shadow alerts the man of his presence, but thankfully he doesn't turn around.

"The hell are you doing? Go and get ready." His voice is nasally and grating.

"I'm looking for Dan, do you know where he is?" Phil asks, hoping the man doesn't recognize the unfamiliarity of his voice.

"Still cleaning up after lunch, probably. What d'you need him for?"

The man begins to swivel in his chair so Phil ducks out, leaving before he's seen. He doesn't know when lunch is served either, but now he has something to look for instead of just ducking his head in every tent he comes across.

The smell of food helps, and before long Phil sees him, washing dishes in a trough-like metal bucket.

"Want some help?" Phil asks him, unable not to smile as Dan's eyes go wide. Dan however, doesn't smile back.

"Why are you here?" He asks again, but his voice isn't as hushed this time, much to Phil's relief.

"I brought you some things." Phil says, digging through his bag. "Some clothes, some food... It's not much, but I thought you might need it."

Dan's face is a mask of full surprise, dropping the last of the dishes on a towel in the grass and accepting the bag when Phil offers it. He looks at Phil questioningly, but doesn't ask anything.

"Let's go to my room." He says instead. "No one will look for us there."

Dan's room is less of a room and more of a cramped corner behind a curtain, the floor space just enough room to sleep. There's no mattress, or comforter, or anything like that, just a mess of thin blankets and old clothes strewn about the floor. Dan plops himself down in the middle of the mess, Phil doing the same and watching him rummage through what Phil brought. He holds up each piece of clothing to see how it fits, Phil noticing that many of them are too large.

"They're a bit big, sorry." He says, but Dan's enthusiasm doesn't fade in the slightest and Phil realizes that these clothes, despite being a few sizes too big, will still fit better than what Dan already owns, the holey adult-sized shirts and sweatpants cinched incredibly tightly around the waist that drag along the ground.

"Dan, I need to talk to you about something." Phil begins, having no idea how to proceed. Dan pulls himself from his exploration, meeting Phil's eyes.

"What?" He asks. There's a small bit of light in his eyes that Phil's never seen before, though he gets the feeling it's not from a lack of noticing.

"This is going to be strange, because we don't know each other well, and I know that, but... I can't leave you here like this."

Dan simply blinks at him.

"I think you should leave, and I want to help to get you out of here. To the police, or a relative, if there's someone you could live with." He feels there probably isn't, if Dan is here instead. He stops again, but Dan is still simply watching and listening, able to tell he isn't finished. "Or if you want, you could live with me. I have my own place, and it isn't much, but it isn't this." He gestures around. Dan's eyes fall to his hands in his lap, fingers curling around the pair of blue shorts he's holding.

"You can still keep those." Phil says quickly. "They were a gift, sort of. I don't need them anymore."

"I just... I can't go." Dan's voice is quiet. "I can't leave."

"And why not? Other people can learn your lines, or wash the dishes."

"He..." Dan trails off for a moment, Phil knowing he's probably referring to the man he'd seen throwing Dan around the day before, the man seemingly in charge. "I should be grateful. These people took me in when I didn't have anywhere to go. That makes them my family, right?"

These words sound like a regurgitation of things Dan has had said to him, possibly by the owner that throws him around, and it makes Phil’s blood boil.

"Nobody that hurts you is your family." He says vehemently. "Whether you’re related to them or not. That's not what family does."

Dan falls silent, his eyes still on his hands. They hear someone stumble in, Dan's head shooting up and his eyes widening as he places a finger over his lips, telling Phil to be quiet. Phil nods back.

"Danny boy!" Yells a gruff voice. "You in there?"

"Yes sir!" Dan yells back.

"Get your ass ready, we have a show tonight! And make sure you practice your damn lines this time."

"Yes sir."

The intruder leaves, Dan's chest falling.

"I really should get ready." He says, getting to his feet. Phil bites the inside of his cheek to keep himself from protesting, despite how much he wants to. This has to be Dan's decision.

"Well, just... Just think about it, okay?"

"We don't have a show tomorrow." Phil reaches up to pull back the curtain and make his exit, but Dan’s words stop him. "So if you wanted to... To visit me, or something, you could."

"Do you want me to?" Phil asks carefully.

"Yes."

"Okay, I will."

Dan finally looks at him, a small smile on his face.

"Okay. See you tomorrow, Phil."

Phil smiles back before stepping out, only one thought on his mind. I have to save this kid.

As he's walking out he passes by the circus owner. His fist clenches without him realizing but he doesn't dare swing; this man towers over him in height and brawn combined, and Phil isn't supposed to be here, anyway. His attempt to simply slink past the man doesn't work either though.

"Hey!" The man stops him, grabbing hard on his shoulder. When Phil looks over, the man's eyes are traveling over him, narrowed, the rest of his face bunched up in a way that suggested he was smelling something particularly foul. "Who the hell are you?"

"Nobody." Is all Phil can still think to say. The man shoves his chest, Phil stumbling back a few paces.

"Okay, smartass. Get the fuck off my property."

Dan meets Phil outside the fence the next day, a small ways down the road. He's wearing all new clothes and Phil is pleased to see that they at least fit him a bit better, but the comfort from that revelation is completely dampened by the cut Dan is sporting on his left cheekbone. It isn't deep, more of a scrape, and Dan tells him he got it from falling. There's a greenish purple bruise that's blossomed out from the ripped skin, and Phil can't help but wonder if Dan fell on his own. But Dan is smiling, so he doesn't ask.

"Where do you want to go?" Phil asks, and Dan just shrugs back as they start walking. Phil starts walking into the city, figuring he'll think of something when he gets there.

It's amusing in a sad way, how Dan looks around and points in wonder at the most mundane things, Phil realizing that while Dan has probably been to most of the country--if not the continent--with the traveling circus, he probably didn't see much outside fairground. It gives Phil a few ideas.

"I think we need milkshakes." He tells Dan, leading the way to the newest fast food joint. The smell of the food is too enticing though, and the end up getting full meals and sitting inside. Dan's injured face and disheveled appearance gets them a lot of looks from a lot of people, and maybe it's the stares that has Dan reaching up to hold his hand as they exit with ice cream. Phil's already spent more than he should this week but he can't seem to help himself with Dan there, exiting a shop more than once with a few new knick-knacks in Dan's pockets. Phil keeps an eye on the time, and about a half hour before sunset they start heading back, Phil presuming that it would be easier to sneak back in near dark. He tries not to think about what they're returning to, but it becomes impossible as he watches the full, genuine smile that grew on Dan's face about an hour ago slowly wither. Then it dies completely, Dan stopping in his tracks, the slight tug on Phil's hand making him stop too.

"I don't want to go back." Dan says, his voice barely more than a whisper. "Leaving home is scary, but... I don't want to go back."

"You don't have to." Phil says, and suddenly he's scared too, scared of the responsibility he's giving himself. Scared of failing Dan. "You don't need to go back there ever again."

"I want to live with you."

Phil lets himself hear the words, lets them fully crash over him before kneeling down in front of Dan so he could properly look him in the eye.

"Are you sure?"

Dan's lip quivers--he looks as though he's about to cry--but he bites it, and his voice is steady when is answers.

"I am."

"Okay." Phil straightens up, and he can't help but smile. "Let's go."

But still Dan doesn't move, even when Phil tugs him in the other direction. Phil gives him a questioning look, and Dan looks apologetic in response.

"I'm sorry, but... The clothes you gave me. I want them."

"Couldn't that wait until tomorrow?" Phil doesn't want Dan going back; the owner will have doubtlessly have noticed his little ringleader's absence, and the possible repercussions scare Phil.

"We're packing up tomorrow and... And leaving." Dan explains. "This is really my last chance."

Phil looks down at Dan's hopeful face before sighing.

"Okay." He says. "Let's make it fast."

Dan gives him the tiniest of smiles, and they set off again towards the circus grounds. The sunset is ahead of them as they arrive, but it seems far off, dusk already settled in around them. They both scale the fence, Dan nimbler than Phil himself, but they've barely gotten their feet on the ground before a roaring growl reaches their ears.

"Where the fuck is that little shit?!"

"Run." Phil hisses, but Dan isn't moving. Phil can see his silhouette shaking, realizing he’s probably too afraid and doing the moving for him, grabbing Dan’s hand and breaking into a run. Phil doesn't know where he's going but thankfully the pull spurs Dan into action and he leads the way, his little legs moving so fast that Phil actually has a hard time keeping up.

They duck into Dan's room to find it thoroughly torn apart. Dan runs around, gathering clothes in his arms, and as Phil finds the bag and holds it open, all he can think is that this isn't worth it at all.

"Okay." He closes the bag once Dan puts the last piece of clothing into it and loops it around the boy's neck. "We need to go."

Dan nods--his jaw is clenched, his eyes wide and scared, taking Phil's hand and exiting the tent. He goes out first and crashes into the owner, unable to stop in time, the collision knocking him off his feet. Phil catches him under the arms, looking up at the giant man. He looks back at Phil, his eyes narrowing as recognition crosses them.

"You!" He growls, jabbing Phil in the chest with an unsteady finger. "You're stealing 'im from me."

Dan scrambles a little to get his feet under him, but when he does he doesn't try to bolt like Phil wishes he would; he's paralyzed, staring up at the giant man breathing down at them. He lunges forward and grabs a fist full of Dan's shirt, who begins whimpering out apologies.

"I oughta slap you silly, boy." He says, his voice dangerously low. "I oughta teach you a lesson, you ungrateful little tick."

"Let him go!" Phil yells, swinging his arm and hitting the man in the jaw. Pain shoots up his arm from his knuckles and he bites down a yell of agony. He can tell he's hurt himself more than the circus owner; he’s poked the bear with a stick, the man red faced and furious, his eyes flashing dangerously. He throws Dan aside, the boy landing heavily, sprawled in a heap in the grass. But he's out of the owner's grip now, and that's all Phil really cares about.

He has to duck quickly as the owner's fist flies towards his face, jumping aside. The man is strong, but all the muscle makes his movements slow. Phil is able to dodge him but not much else, hoping Dan will soon get up so they can make a break for it. A crowd has gathered, everyone peeking around tents and pretending they're not watching, making no attempts to intervene.

Phil decides he needs to help Dan to his feet, getting as close to the owner as he dares and jabbing two fingers towards his face. The man closes his eyes but Phil's fingers still meet their mark, scratching at his eyelids, and he howls like a wounded animal, lurching away. Phil, shocked to find blood on his hand as he pulls it back, tries to ignore that and runs over to Dan instead.

"Can you get up?"

"My ankle..." Dan starts, but a wild roar cuts him off, and Phil is hit squarely in the stomach, flying off his feet. He rolls on his side and wraps an arm around his torso, struggling to both breathe and to not throw up.

"I'll kill you, you fucker!" There's blood running down the side of his face from a cut under his eyebrow that Phil's nails must have made, his face having gone from red to purple in anger, his veins bulging. He lurches forward, and for a wild moment Phil thinks he's going to tackle him, but then he crashes to the ground next to him instead, falling to his knees.

Dan's standing behind him, extremely pale and unsteady, a large wooden board falling from his hands. Phil doesn't waste any time waiting for the man to get up, grabbing the board from Dan's grip and smashing it into the back of the man's head. Phil swears he hears the man's nose crunch as he hits the dirt and thankfully he doesn't move to get up, writhing and cursing on the ground. Phil takes a full breath in, taking Dan's hand to get him towards the gate. Dan is hobbling, favoring his left ankle, but he's hobbling quickly.

"I hit him." Dan says. He sounds breathless, like he's on the urge of panicking, and Phil is reminded all over again just how young Dan is, how small he is and how innocent he's supposed to be, and feels a heavy rush of emotion. "The board I hit him in the knees with... I think it had a nail in it."

"Good." Phil says, trying to breathe himself. "How is your ankle? Are you okay?"

"I can walk, I think."

They're far enough away that Phil feels a little safer, slowing their pace to a more comfortable walk for Dan. Phil's mind is reeling, caught up in disbelief about what he'd just done, but when he thinks about it he finds no remorse or sympathy for the bloody, balding lump they'd left behind. He takes the bag from Dan to carry it himself, and Dan looks up at him.

"Where are we going?" He asks. Phil sighs, filling his lungs with the crisp autumn air and giving Dan a small smile.

"Home."

A light fall breeze comes in through the window, gently tossing the curtains and running nicely over Phil’s bare shoulders. His hand fumbles at the bedside table for a moment before finds his glasses with his fingers, picking them up and putting them on. The movement causes the blankets to stir though, and he hears a slight sigh from his left, glancing over at the man next to him and unable not to smile.

Dan is waking up, the late morning sunlight hitting his face and making him look wonderful. He catches Phil staring, smiling a little bit before rolling to press his face into Phil’s neck and wrap an arm around him.

“Stop looking at me like that.”

“I can’t help it.” Phil confesses, laughing a little. He feels Dan smile wider, and there’s a comfortable silence, Dan burrowing a little deeper into the blankets.

“I love sleeping on a mattress.” He says, Phil looking down at him in surprise.

“It’s been awhile since you’ve told me that.” He remarks, wondering if he should worry. The existence of a mattress, and the ability to sleep on one was something Dan thoroughly enjoyed when he first came to live with Phil, a significant improvement over the pile of clothes on the ground he had in his tent. As he’d grown though, the novelty had worn off. They’d both grown, lived and worked and flourished, and somewhere along the line, years later, they realized they also had fallen in love. “Are you okay?”

“Me?” Dan asks, lifting his head. His hair is everywhere, obscuring his face, Phil reaching down to fix it. “Yeah. I’m just… I don’t know. Thinking about stuff this morning.”

“A dream?” Usually, when Dan’s thinking back on his childhood, it’s because of some nightmare. Dan frowns, shaking his head.

“No, nothing like that. I’m just…” He presses a kiss to the closest part of Phil he can reach, the skin on his neck, right under his chin. His voice is soft. “Thanks for saving my life.”

“You don’t need to thank me.”

“I know.”

“So how many times do I need to tell you until you believe it?” Dan’s brown eyes find his and he laughs a little, looking slightly abashed, Phil leaning in to give him a kiss. “I’m just glad I found you, Dan.”

“Yeah.” Dan sighs, collapsing back onto the pillows and Phil watches him, watches his gaze on the leaves falling outside. “I’m glad you did too.”

I just want to show you what I know // and catch you when the current lets you go 'Cause it's a long, long, long way down

#phanfiction #phanfic #my fic #this is probs weird I'm sorry in advance #I've had the idea for a while tho #that's how phanfics work with me tho #that's why they're so few and far between #I've gotta have an idea #and then mull it over for like 5 months #but anywayyyyyyyyyy #idk

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sophisnotofuckingkay · 7 years

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every even number you haven't already answered 😈

2. Favorite Youtuber? Dan and Phil hands down always have been always will be4. best comeback you’ve told? omg i’ve actually been wanting to tell this story for so long one time at work when i worked as a cashier a male customer jokingly said “women always want money” when i told him how much his purchase was and i replied “yeah that’s why we go to work” and to this day this is still one of the best things i have ever said6. Are you good with make up? i mean…i’ve been doing my makeup for ten years…no i am not good at it :D there’s a specific way i like to do MY makeup and that works great but i’m shit at blending, contouring, eyeliner, i don’t wear highlight, my foundation never matches (which is’t actually my fault believe me i would LOVE to find a pale, very yellow-toned foundation), i wear black in my waterline despite that my eyes look incredibly small already because of my -6/-7 glasses…i pretty much break every makeup rule but it’s okay because i like the way i look the way i do it8. What’s your sexuality? bi as FUCK12. What was your first Fandom? the phandom…and it has’t let go since…14. First OTP? every show and movie i’ve ever watched had their own OTP and most of the time one wasn’t better than the other but i do always say Chuck and Blair from Gossip Girl were the original OTP i shipped them so hard before i even knew what shipping was16. Why did you sign up for Tumblr? bc of Dan mostly. don’t know what i was hoping i would gai from it but boy did it change my life22. Have you ever gotten in a physical fight? if you count that i fought off my mom with my legs once cause she was about to hit me or do idk what with me24. What’s an inside joke you have? ICH HASSE DIESEN. MATTHEW MCCONAUGHEY26. What are your side blogs? i don’t actually have any i just have a bunch of saved urls but this is my only blog32. Dream home? hard to say. ranges from a tiny apartment in canada cause i don’t need much space to a luxurious villa in beverly hills34. First URL? sophiezozy36. Morning routine? wake up after pressing snooze for like 45min, have breakfast, go shower, put on makeup, put clothes and shoes on, blowdry hair and sometimes straighten bangs when i need them to stay straight for longer than blowdrying keeps them straight, and leave. if i only have a doctor’s appointment i don’t put on any makeup, and sometimes i’ll eat when i’m back instead of before the appointment. in those cases it’s just shower, put on clothes and shoes and blowdry hair38. Favorite toothpaste flavor? imma steal Viva’s answer and say the one they make for kids and then also just regular minty toothpaste. are there any other flavors of toothpaste42. Favorite book? i don’t really read like ever (which is not a good thing but depression (i assume)) so i don’t have one44. Can you sing well? that’s a funny question bc i love singing and i wanna be in a band and stuff and everyone i’ve asked says i can sing well but i’m not an obviously good singer like it only sounds okay under certain cirsumstances like when the planets align and i usually think i sound obnoxious, sometimes i’ll have a good day and think “hey this isn’t that bad” but i never think “OMG I NAILED THAT” but at the same time i wanna take vocal lessons to get as good as i possibly can? but generally my singing is one of my biggest insecurities because i want it so bad but i’m never good enough

#ask #anon #ask game thing

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shakespesre · 7 years

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things i did not like about beauty and the beast (2017)

oh man am i in the minority in this situation (also this list is comically long) spoilers, obviously

honestly

most of it

during the opening sequence with the enchantress as she was narrating the prince’s actions didn’t match with what she was saying (like he didn’t dismiss her again or beg forgiveness even though the enchantress is saying he did) details like that irk me

also the whole “guys who wear makeup are somehow morally destitute” trope needs to die

the staging of belle made the town feel like its a half an acre big which made for some awful blocking

it just looked really repetitive in terms of staging like there was nowhere to go because the set wasn’t big enough

belle talking to the minister about the books was short and dispassionate

emma watson can’t sing to save her life

the little robot following her around fixing her voice the entire movie should be paid good money

ok i get that making belle the inventor is supposed to be “empowering” but it goes nowhere??

the hill she runs up during the belle reprise is cgi af and it doesn’t feel right??

honestly you couldn’t have found an actual hill

also the fact that maurice being captured was happening concurrently w the number and the sky being all dark made the wonder and longing of it all weaker

i know it’s in the original fairy tale but honestly why did they bring back the rose stealing as the inciting incident for the beast to punish maurice

it makes very little sense

especially given that maurice took A Rose from what he assumed was an abandoned castle

how did maurice get back to the village? like we see at the end that belle has the horse

BIG ONE RIGHT HERE

why did lumiere and cogsworth show belle to her room instead of the beast???

why would you cut the first interactions between your main characters that actually establishes a connection between them?!!?

the west wing loses some of its gravitas bc of this too

and like????? the beast never even considered that belle would be the one to break the spell?????? WHY NOT????? DUDE???????? YOU MORON even the original beast considered that!!! he’s actually lampshading you all the way back from 1991

but the “this way to the east wing. or as i like to call it the Only Wing!” line was funny i laughed at that

audra mcdonald deserved more to do and to sing

mrs potts looked creepy As Fuck

idk the “come down to dinner” scene was played kind of seriously this time and i get why but i think cutting to inside the room changes the dynamic a bit like in the original you never even see belle and she holds all the power but this is a nitpick

why did they cut to black after be our guest??? did the editor lose a bet or something??

gaston was a fun number but the cuts were absolutely nonsensical

you could barely get a feel for the space it took up

they don’t cut to any kind of demonstration of gaston using “antlers in all of his DECoratING” which kind of tells you all you need to know about how bad this movie was at visual storytelling

so many composers and lyricists write music to visuals and there aren’t sufficient visuals to bolster the gaston number

and it felt kind of overcrowded? maybe that one’s just me

the plot just seriously drags

the fact that we spent so much time with kevin kline and gaston out “searching” for belle kind of slowed the movie down a lot

as did the whole “attempted murder” thing

so gaston blows up and tells maurice he’s only helping look for belle bc he wants to marry her

and maurice is like “my daughter is never gonna marry someone like you you’re an asshole!!”

and then gaston punches him in the face and leaves him to die in the woods tied to a tree

and then this miserly old beggar lady comes and saves him and has him accuse gaston of attempted murder

the entire thing is completely unnecessary

back to the enchanted castle

was it just me or did belle not even get that close to the rose? like the animated belle took the case off and was literally about to touch the actual plant and in this one she like brushed the table with her hand

the wolf scene was fine

they lifted the dialogue from the patch up scene directly from the 1991 film except without any of the energy or emotion

also the prince’s backstory is like?? really thin???

the fact that it was literally just inserted into the plot so he and belle could have a “dead moms” connection is so flimsy

they take this random subplot and roll with it instead of actually taking more time to develop belle and the beast as romantic interests

ANOTHER PROBLEM

ok so like the beast was somehow really hurt by the wolf attack right?

so he kind of drifts in and out of sleep for a while and one time he wakes up and belle is reading to him

AND THEN OHHHH AND THEN

HE MANSPLAINS ROMEO AND JULIET TO HER

AND HE GIVES HER THE LIBRARY BECAUSE HE THINKS THAT ANYTHING IN THERE IS BETTER THAN WHAT SHE LIKES

COME ON

WHAT THE FUCK

THATS SO CONDESCENDING

WAY TO UNDERMINE A SWEET MOMENT THAT SHOWS EMOTIONAL DEVELOPMENT BETWEEN YOUR TWO ROMANTIC LEADS

the new song days in the sun is pretty but combining the servants desires with belle’s make for some conflicting messages

they actually sing something there?

like move their mouths sing

this is another nitpick but like i always thought something there was their internal monologue and it feels weird to see them actually sing them idk

THE BOOK

OOOOOHHHHH THE BOOK

belle and the beast are talking and he’s like “LETS RUN AWAY TOGETHER!!!”

what

ok movie i’ll bite where are we running away to

so the enchantress for some damn reason decides to give the beast a magic book that can take him anywhere he wishes to go

why??? who knows????? certainly not the movie!!!

and he’s like to belle “think of where ever you want to go and we’ll go there just 4 u!!!!!” despite the fact that he literally just said that the world wouldn’t accept him as a beast

so they go to this little house in a Goddamn windmill on the outskirts of bohemian paris

it’s cramped and dark and drenched in a blue filter so you can’t actually see anything

and it’s this useless detour about how belle’s mom died

and it connects to nothing it’s not a plot twist or some big reveal it’s just that she died of the plague

there wasn’t even any emotional backing to it because belle didn’t know anything about her mother because maurice never told her

like if belle had thought maurice just walked out on her mother and resented him for it this twist would have some emotional significance

but that’s not the case

the ballroom scene looks really awkward

like the beast looks especially computer generated here and that doesn’t help the fact that emma watson expresses almost nothing during the entire dance

the whole “you must go to him” scene goes way too fucking fast and there’s no time for the emotions of that scene to actually breathe and release

she rides off in the (ugly) yellow dress which is another nitpick but looks weird

WHY IS SHE IN SUCH A RUSH YOU COULD JUST USE THE BOOK

evermore grinds the momentum of the narrative to a fucking halt

and i swear to god if this wins an oscar for best song while how far i’ll go lost i will dissolve the entire academy of motion picture arts and sciences myself

just love yourself and listen to if i can’t love her it’s honestly a much better song

the part where gaston is hyping up the crowd to go kill the beast progresses in a similar way to the “you must go to him” scene

gaston decides that the beast is a threat to them before he realizes belle has feelings for him which again undercuts the original emotion of the scene

the gaston vs the beast fight feels a whole lot less personal

in such a way that gaston is a good 40 feet from belle and the beast when he shoots him

there is no intimacy no emotion in how gaston mortally wounds the beast because he’s literally a Chasm away from them

the beast yelling "I AM NOT A BEAST" to gaston was the hammiest thing in the movie

they just really hate subtext don't they

AND ANOTHER THING

HOOOOOHHH BOY

the enchantress is the old lady who helped maurice when he was left to die in the woods

and yes she’s still dicking around in the forest for???? some reason?????

the beast dies

straight up dies

and the servants have this tragic goodbye sequence where they all turn inanimate it’s the most emotional scene in the film

belle’s love didn’t save them

she doesn’t say “i love you” and the last petal of the rose falls and they all either die/become inanimate

THE ENCHANTRESS JUST COMES IN AND FIXES EVERYTHING?????

DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT DOES?

THAT MAKES THE ROSE TIMELINE COMPLETELY SUPERFLUOUS

THE ENCHANTRESS HAS BEEN IN!! THE!! VILLAGE!! THE ENTIRETY OF THE CURSE

SHE COULD CHANGE HIM BACK WHENEVER SHE WANTED

in the original there was this finality to it and this hopelessness of being cursed by magic that isn’t understandable but permanent and that there is only One Way To Break It

the fact that the enchantress is the one to break the spell and not The Power Of Love undercuts the entire intended parable of the original fairy tale, animated movie, and WHAT THE BEGINNING OF THE MOVIE WAS SAYING

also the fact that she’s there makes the entire transformation less intimate???

like there’s this third old woman creeping up in the background watching them when belle and the beast are supposed to be at the height of their emotional connection

also the transformation itself was kind of hard to follow visually like i don’t even think there was a clear shot of his face

the growl wasn’t hot

i didn’t even notice it when i saw it in the theatre

you all need to get laid

why didn’t they just let audra fucking mcdonald sing the final end version of beauty and the beast

also the actual timeline the movie took place over was strange?

someone can clarify this with me if they want i’m genuinely curious

the prince when he’s cursed is played by dan stevens so like it couldn’t have been more than? five years that he was a beast?

and then when the plot with belle starts, the opening number happens, maurice leaving, belle rejecting gaston, the belle reprise, maurice’s wolf chase scene, the prisoner switch, and the gaston number all seem to take place within a 48 hour timespan

^^^ this is all pretty much the same for the animated movie there’s no problem with that

be our guest and all new added numbers (along with the come down to dinner scene and belle’s wolf chase scene) all happen sometime around here too

but my issue is at the end of gaston where maurice asks if someone would help him look for belle

generously, the time spent searching for her is a day

then maurice is left to die in the woods and is rescued by agatha

he couldn’t have been out there more than two days without dying of dehydration

then, at most, five days from the opening belle sequence, maurice accuses gaston of murder and is about to be locked in an insane asylum when belle rides back to save him

if you’re following correctly, this gave belle and the beast a maximum of four and a half days to fall in love with one another

what?????

i know in the original there’s the whole issue of maurice out in the woods searching for belle but that was addressed by the directors and producers as an oversight and they meant to show that belle was in the castle for at least autumn through winter

so the remake’s timeline is completely unrealistic and goddamnit movie

like at VERY MOST the main plot takes place over six days

TL;DR

most of my issues were story problems, they changed fundamentally so little from the original animated movie and what they did change dragged the plot along or straight up undercut what the narrative was actually trying to impart

the rest of the bullets were either self-described nitpick and trying to work out the timeline

to be clear it’s not wrong for you to like the movie go see it again another three times

this list is for humor

and i didn’t comment at all on le fou for one thing because i was neutral on him but also because it’s not my place to say whether this is good rep or not

#feel free to talk to me abt some of these #just dont be rude i am v tired #beauty and the beast #beauty and the beast 2017 #batb #disney

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