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whyiask · 3 years

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HAPPY NEW YEAR

There are so many people I’ve met on this site, so many friends I’ve made. I joined tumblr only a few months ago, but my life has already drastically improved. I smile more and laugh more and I feel happier all the time, knowing that you all are just a click away. I’ve often heard people refer to tumblr as a hellsite, but I don’t fully agree with that. True, some things on here are crazy, but more than that, I’ve found people like me. I’ve found people who understand me, who think like me and feel like I do. Ya know, before I joined tumblr, I had never met another bisexual person(crazy, right?). Y’all have made life more enjoyable and happier and brighter, and for that, I’ll never be able to thank you enough.

I have soooo many people I have to thank, so I’ll try to keep the list of people as short as possible: all my closest friends and all the people who have been amazing and I have loved seeing since I joined tumblr earlier this year <33

@one-neat-nerd you were the first blog to ever follow me, and I don’t remember if you were the first blog I followed, but you definitely were in the first 10. You were a wonderful introduction to tumblr, and I love everything you post/reblog. We’ve never really talked, but I still want you to know that I appreciate you.

@warblerjeff you’ve changed your url more than 3 times since I first followed you, and it always takes me a second to recognize you aha! But when I do, I’m immediately have a rush of happy memories- all your Glee posts and all of the Glee content I get from you. We’ve never really talked, but seeing you on my dash is always so amazing.

@jesussavedevenme aha hi! We’ve never really talked, but you were one of the first few blogs I followed when I first joined tumblr, and I know I tagged you in a lot of stuff at first (because i didn’t have any other friends lmao), so sorry about that! 😅 You’re really cool and I hope you have an amazing 2021.

@strawberry-seraph we haven’t talked in a while, sorry about that! Talking with you is always super fun, you’re a fun person and I hope your having a great day! You were one of the first TLC blogs I followed and you were definitely the first actual friend I had on tumblr. Thanks for being so nice to me <33

@cerenoya Ceren... where to begin. We haven’t talked a whole lot, but you are such an amazing friend and super kind when we do! You were my first tumblr idol for so long, because I aspired to be like you/run a blog as cool as yours!! Have a great 2021, you deserve it.

@cindersnightmare I felt very distant from you when I first followed you. You were just so COOL and your artwork was so GOOD, I didn’t know how to approach or even begin to express my love for your work. When you followed me back, I tell you, I was s h o o k. We’ve never talked, but I consider you a friend, is that okay? You’re amazing, keep being amazing <33

@books-and-starss oh gosh- I don’t even know where to begin with you! I love you so much, first of all!! So, so much. I love talking with you, you’re really sweet and ahhhh your writing is SO GOOD!!!! You are a great beta reader and so eager to help me- it just warms my heart that you would offer up your time to help me. Everything you reblog is so positive and encouraging and awesome, it’s so nice to see that kind of stuff on my dash. All the aesthetic pictures you reblog are super cool and pleasing to look at. I absolutely ADORE seeing you on my dash every day. <33333

@dylxn-lee aha hello there!! I first met you because you were one of Abi’s friends, but now I’m in your fanclub and ilysm. You’re really cool and nice and deserve to have a wonderful year <333

@theaberrantone ahaha for so long I pronounced your name wrong in my head- I just want you to know... I see you. I see you every day, liking every single one of my posts. I see you in my notifs many times a day and I just- wow. It means so much to me, I am honestly so touched that someone as cool as you takes the time to scroll through my mess of a blog and like the things I slap into it. You’re amazing and someday I aspire to be as cool as you <333333

@mochiowo-20 hi there :333 ilysm, and we haven’t talked for a few weeks, and I haven’t gone through your blog in a while, but I STILL LOVE YOU SO MUCH. You are amazing and ily. Your so sweet and cool and ahhhh you deserve to have the most wonderful 2021 ever. (i love your blog aesthetic btw) <333

@teawithhoneyharper I know you’re taking a break from tumblr for a while, but if you do see this, then I want you to know that I care about you so much. I love you Darcy, and you are amazing. I hope your mental health is getting better and I hope life has been better to you <33 ilysm, take care of yourself, and have a wonderful new year <333

@fablehavenfandom hi there friend!! Your posts are amazing!! I love your writing so much!!! and all your headcanons are beautiful and I 100% think of them as canon now. I hope you’re having a great day, and I hope you have a great year <33

@fairiesandstarlight omG your posts are all so cool! You’ve got a beautiful blog aesthetic and I love everything you post!! I hope you’re having a wonderful new year love <333 wishing you the best

@maya-livingstone hi there!! you’re a very, very new mutual, but I hope we’ll be able to get to know each other and become friends over the course of this new year!! I also just got the Renegades series, and I’ve noticed you like that, so hopefully we’ll be able to talk about that soon!!

@pluckycluckyducky hi plucky!! It’s Joy from the nevermoor server. we haven’t interacted on here very much, but you’re really cool and you should know it. have a wonderful 2021 <33

@fablehavenandfandomsfanatic hi there!! you had to break for a while, but you’re back now and I love all of the things you post! Have a great year <3

@fablehavenfangirl you’re really cool! Everything you post/reblog is great and I enjoy just scrolling through your blog when I’m bored. You’re amazing, keep being amazing <3

@renegadenebulahufflepuff heyyyy! how are you doing? you’re amazing, we haven’t talked much but you’re really cool and I am wishing you only the best for 2021 <333

@bookishfangirl14 hey there!! I love seeing you in my notifs!! we don’t have very many overlapping fandoms at the moment, but you’re still really cool and I love looking at your blog (even if i don’t understand most of the posts). aha, i hope you have a wonderful new year <33

@introvertedtater-tot hii! we don’t talk much, despite having a LOT of overlapping fandoms, and I don’t know why. Let’s fix that this year, shall we? I hope I can get to know you more, you’re amazing and sweet and i hope we can build up a solid friendship in the coming months <33

@devils-on-a-stereo oh my GOD. Okay, honestly? I am still s h o o k that you actually follow me, I mean, c’mon. Your art is literally the coolest thing ever, and I am honored to know you. You deserve way more attention as an artist than you have, and honest to god you are the coolest most i c o n i c blog I know. Stay awesome ;)

@its-liiinh-cinder-official heyyy there!! You are literally a top-notch comedian, I aDORE all of your ‘linh cinder’s random posts’. They are hilarious and your stories are hilarious, and you seem like such an amazing and chaotic person. I wish i knew you in real life, you would be so fun to hang out with. i love seeing you on my dash every day, and you’ve got such a v i b e going on. Have a beautiful, wondrous, and magical 2021 darling <333333

@just-another-freaking-dreamer it’s so awesome to see you in my notifs all the time. You’re really cool and you deserve cool things. Have a wonderful new year and I hope we can become better friends and interact more <3

@ragingbisexualcore ahhaahah you are the single most chaotic person I know. If you lived in a book, you would FOR SURE be that one character who is dead set on overthrowing the government and cackling madly as you take over the world. You are amazing and I hope you take your chaotic self and go wild in 2021.

@queenofsassgard hey there!! I hope you know that occasionally I just go scrolling through your archives and liking everything- anyways, you’re amazing and I hope you have a wonderful new year!

@elysian-starbucks-frappe heyo! what’s up? I hope you’re doing great, you deserve to do great. You’re super cool and amazing and ahhhhh you just deserve to have a wonderful 2021. ily and have a great year <33

@as-the-stars-foretold Caelum. You. Are. Fantabulous. You are my mother, you adopted me into this weird, chaotic friend group, and I will be eternally grateful. You love the stars and I love listening to you ramble about them in the server. You’re so passionate and strong and I love that about you. Life wouldn’t be the same without you. You might love stars, but you yourself ARE a star. You are a star, you shine brilliantly, and you are too good for this galaxy. We don’t deserve you. I love you so much, and you deserve every single goddamb good thing in this universe. You’re always there, ever present, and I love you so. much. Please stay your fantabulous self and I wishing on every star I see that you will have the best 2021 ever <333333

@carolinelikesdinner Carol. God, I have so much to say to you. First of all, thank you. Thank you so much for being you. You first introduced me into the big wide world of the Fablehaven fandom, and ilysm. You’re so cool, too cool for me, and I treasure every single conversation I have with you. You’re so funny and an amazing artist. All of your art is SO DAMB SPECTACULAR. You are gorgeous, your art is gorgeous, and your writing is gorgeous too. Take care of yourself love, stay safe, and have the best 2021 you possibly can <3333333333333

@operation-crown-jewels Caraaaaaaaaa ilysmmmm <3333333333333 I love talking with you and I love you so. freaking. much. I can’t even- I can’t even describe how much i love you. You are so special and sweet and supportive and I just can’t- you have NO IDEA how much that means to me, how much all your little comments mean to me. You are amazing, and special, and ahhhhh. You are SO special. So unique. And I’ll never find another friend like you <33333333333

@addies-invisible-life hey emma :3 You are actually the coolest person I know.You are so capable and smart and beautiful. You are kind and supportive and you are open to everyone who talks to you. You love with all your heart, and I love that about you. In everything you do, I can see the love behind it, the work and effort and love that you put into it. Every conversation I have with you lifts me up and energizes me(which is really rare because most conversations tire me). I still, after all this time, still can’t believe that a person as amazing as you even chooses to be friends with me. I love you so much and I will never stop loving you. You deserve the world, but I can’t give you that, so just take my reassurances that I will ALWAYS, NO MATTER WHAT, be here for you. ily and have a wonderful 2021 <3333333333333333333333333333333333333

@arushahisatroll my god. Ru, I love you so much. You are my internet girlfriend and I care about you so much. You are incredible, honestly. Your art is immaculate and you’re always so cheerful and fill me up with energy just THINKING about you. you always eager to commit arson, which is a very good trait, and I love plotting crimes with you. Every time I see your icon, my face lights up and I internally scream, bc “oh my god someone as perfect as ru exists in this world- i didn’t know that was possible.” You are the best, you are the absolute best, my bestie, and ily. Have a spectacular and immeasurably awesome 2021 <333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

@starry-tea-party Abina. Abina you are my rock. You are my light, my star, my sunshine, my galaxy. I love you so much, I can’t even begin to describe it. I don’t know if I can do justice to just how much you’ve helped me. Words... words have never been my strong suit. I love writing because I can weave stories together, piece together words I like to form sentences, and use those sentences to form narratives. Writing has always been easier for me than talking.... because in writing, I don’t have to worry what others will think, or how others will perceive me. I select the best words, and I present those words- the words I meticulously chose and nit-picked- to the audience. Life is a stage, and I have never been great at improv. I often find it hard to tell people things, to convey my meaning in the best possible way and to know exactly what words I need in any given situation. Talking is hard for me. But with you... with you, I never have to monitor what I’m saying. I never feel the need to reread and reread my messages before sending to make sure everything is in perfect order. It’s... it’s easy to talk to you. It’s easy to speak and I don’t worry when I’m with you. You make me feel so at ease, and I love you so much. I don’t have to worry about saying the wrong thing, because I know that you’ll always support me and be by my side with a kind word and a heart of gold. Because that’s who you are. You are a creator, a dreamer, a lover, a visionary. You’re a friend. You are the hand that pulls people out of the water. The light that shines the pathway. You are the rock- the mountain we stand upon and look out over the beautiful sea. We look down at the seas below us and say, “how have we climbed so high already?” The reason is because you stand so tall, so bright and so magical, that we climb, we climb and we look out at the world below us. Not only are you tall, strong, powerful, but you lift people up right alongside you. There is nothing like the high of seeing the world stretch out beneath your feet, swinging you legs through the open air but knowing you’ll never fall. You represent that high in my mind. You represent and you remind me of the exhilaration of feeling untouchable- uplifted by love and kindness, able to reach heights you’ve never been to before. There is so much that can come when someone extends their hand to you. So much more can be achieved when there are two, holding each other up. You have held me up for so long. Every since we met, you have brought a smile to my face at the thought of you. Every time I think of you, my heart swells and I can’t breathe. Every comment you make or put on something I post has me screaming internally ans smiling uncontrollably. Whenever I see your icon I know my day is about to get one million times better. So thank you, Abi. For being my rock.

#wooh that was a lot #i love you all so much more than you can even comprehend #joining tumblr was the best part of 2020 for me #meeting all of you #happy new year

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outroshooky · 4 years

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hiatus notice.

hi friends,

this is the first time i’m struggling to word a hiatus post, because i’m struggling to believe that this is the right thing for me right now. however, at the end of the day, i need to prioritize my overall health above writing and this blog; thus, i need to take a break from being on here.

life right now feels overwhelming. quarantine and pandemic aside, there is a lot going on in my personal life now that i’m home all the time. i’ve been in a depressive state for a few days; getting out of bed is hard. i’m starting to lose touch with my sense of self, much less the motivation to sit down and write. i need to take time to remember what it’s like to want to write instead of feeling that i need to produce something for readers. if you’d like to read more on this + what i foresee for this little blog, please feel free to continue below the cut. to keep the notice itself short, i’ll end it here.

mutuals, feel free to reach out to me on kakaotalk / line / discord / whatever social media you’re comfortable with so we can keep our conversations going. you are the reason i haven’t gone on hiatus sooner; i adore all of you to the ends of the earth and back.

my plan is to be gone for a few weeks, to give myself a breather and not feel the need to compulsively write for the sake of putting something out there. in the meantime, my blog will be running on a queue. when i come back, we’ll take things from there and see how it goes.

thank you for understanding.

callisto

hello to my friends who have kept reading,

as i stated before, life right now feels incredibly overwhelming. i live in new york, which is one of the centers of the pandemic here in the united states. life has been uprooted for all of us; i have lost out on my senior year of high school because of it. our trip to disney, the penultimate experience for my high school and the culmination of four years of hard work, was canceled. bts postponed; ab6ix concert canceled. spring concert, canceled. finals canceled (a miracle), graduation likely postponed, a pre-college program i’ve been looking forward to for two years, canceled. i lost my job, one that i loved with all of my heart, and now a simple trip to the grocery store has become an expedition in itself. i know i’m not the only one. we all have our stories, the things we’ve lost. it’s okay to admit that that hurts too, losing these things that we looked forward to, that we wanted so desperately.

it’s hard to write stories full of joy when you yourself are not so joyous. perhaps that’s where my writer’s block is coming from; no halo was a very cathartic piece for me for that reason. i was supposed to put out a soulmate!yoongi au that is nothing but pure fluff, but i struggle to envision it when even in my nightmares, i’m screaming at people to stay six feet away from me. i wanted to give you guys something positive to read, to place yourselves in during this time of struggle for everyone. i still want to do that, but i’m not in a good place mentally to do so, and my health will always take priority over my writing.

i see each of my notifications, regardless if it is someone liking a post or reblogging a fic or tagging me in a follow forever. i check every one of them because they matter to me; you guys matter to me in a very special way. each notification is a person, someone somewhere around the world who has been touched by the content i put on this blog. that is something to be celebrated. each note is a person who has felt a certain way because of something i said or wrote or commented on. this to be said, i feel very guilty when i can’t deliver on something i promised, that people were looking forward to, and i deeply regret that i have not yet finished a series for all of my two years on this blog. i haven’t been able to deliver on those promises, and it eats away at me; then i get writer’s block and we’re back where we started.

this leads into my next point. verses and vibes will not be finished on time; in all honesty, i’m not sure if i will finish it at all. perhaps i will push it back a few months to allow myself a breather, to work on other content that is more spur-of-the-moment. i always want to give you guys the most authentic version of myself along with the most authentic fics that come from a place in my heart, works i have an emotional stake in. i will always hold myself to that; unfortunately, that means my original promise from months ago may change because i myself have changed. i want to finish v&v; it’s a series i’m proud of and one that has helped me grow as a writer. i as an author want to see it through, but i need to decide what will be best for me as a person.

on the idea of authenticity comes another concept i’ve been grappling with. my relationship with bts has changed; something i have been trying to ignore for months now, hoping it was where i was at in life and i just didn’t have enough time to follow them. i don’t believe that’s the case anymore. love yourself era was exactly what i needed to hear at that point in my life, a journey i followed with them because i had nothing to lose and nowhere else to turn. the ship sailed and i was on board, but when we came back to port, i stepped off to get some refreshments and it seems to have sailed off without me. i feel like i’ve been left behind somehow― like everybody else learned to love themselves but here i am in my little corner, still struggling to do so. something happened between the summer and the start of school; i think it was their hiatus that really deepened that divide. they needed it, god; they work so hard for us. but it split something in me, and i’m not quite sure if i can get that thing back. i’m telling myself that this feeling is short-term, that they are the same guys i’ve seen in concert four times in two years; that they’re just a hop, skip, and jump across the world and they have their days, too. i’m not so sure if what i’m telling myself is the truth.

if i come to a point where i realize, okay, i don’t want to pursue this anymore; this chapter of my life can end, i will stop writing for bts. however, unless something dramatic happens, i will not deactivate this blog. readers, i want you to continue to have access to my content if it is something you enjoy and something that brings you comfort. i will also stay on tumblr, but simply move to a new blog that is more focused on the other groups i follow (svt/ab6ix). i will also take my current ideas/wips and tailor them for seventeen, writing for ot13 full-time. this is a long-term plan; i don’t expect this to happen immediately, but i want to lay this out for you now so you have an idea of what is in my future. i will obviously post updates about this when it happens and give forewarning so you can find me wherever i end up. editor’s note: i am not moving blogs right now. this is just an idea of what may happen in the future.

this has been on my mind for many months, but i haven’t felt ready to sit down and confront it until now. please be assured, friend, that i haven’t been forced to post any fics that i haven’t wanted to. i genuinely enjoy writing for you and sharing my works with you; merely, i want to make sure that what i’m giving you is from my heart in every way possible. i will always live out my truth unapologetically (curse my aries ass).

this letter is a long but necessary one. it feels so good to finally speak about this after pondering it for so long, wondering if it was right to put it all out there. thank you for reading it, for sticking in there till the end. i won’t be gone for long. stay healthy and stay safe, friend.

all my love,

callisto

#hiatus notice #callisto.doc #personal

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misssunflowersandsangria · 4 years

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Roses

Chapter 2- Yellow Roses

Hello lovely readers! The first chapter was posted in my ficlet collection for SaiIno Week. I'm excited to continue the story. I hope that you enjoy it. A few notes, it does feature a professor/student relationship but they are of age. They also have a history that I'll explore as the story continues. Also, some of the future chapters will contain smut (I've been wanting to write some for them for a while now... hehe...) I’ll let you know when it starts. Each chapter will have some sort of flashback to give you some insight into their past relationship.

I hope you enjoy!

Summary: They had history, but their lives and paths took them from each other. Now, they had to face this new reality and change in their relationship.

Yellow Roses: The symbol of a yellow rose represents friendship, joy and caring. These beautiful sun-colored roses can also convey warmth, delight, gladness, and affection, as well as say good luck, welcome back, and remember me.

Chapter 2- Yellow Roses

Flashback

“Sai….” He grinned to himself knowing that voice, she wanted something. He looked at Ino amused as she flopped onto his bed.

“Yes?”

“Do my art homework work for me, it’s hard and it keeps coming out looking terrible.” He smiled at her attempt to draw a fruit bowl.

“You’re right it does look terrible.”

She pouted snatching the paper away. “Hey be nice!”

“I’m always nice to you. Come here, I’m not going to do it for you but I’ll help.” Her eyes brightened in the way that he loved as she placed herself in his lap. She’d always been affectionate towards him that even now this wasn’t out of the ordinary. Other than the fact that his poor heart was going to beat out of his chest.

Taking a fresh sheet of paper and a pencil he placed his warm hand over hers to draw quick simple strokes.

“What are you going to do without me?”

“As if you’d ever leave me!” She replied with a laugh.

“I told you when we were five-“

“Yes, I know. I’m yours and you’re mine.” He cut her off repeating their well-known agreement. Her eyes sparkled at the words.

“Exactly.” She replied leaning back to rest her head against his shoulder.

“Come on no sleeping let’s finish this.”

“Oh, Sai let’s not pretend that you’re not doing all the work.” She smiled amused while he shook his head and nodded. His Ino was able to convince him to do anything.

“You’re annoying.”

“I love you too.”

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“It’s not that funny”. They all paused before they continued to laugh.

“Girls! Help me.” Ino begged frustrated. She’d gone to Shikamaru and Temari’s place hoping for some advice or comfort. Chouji and Karui had come along as well because since they’d been kids everything they did was as a group. Instead of any kind of sympathy, they found her situation hilarious.

Temari took a deep breath trying to focus. “Fine, what’s the problem exactly? You were friends and now he’s your teacher, it's not a big deal.”

“Except for her massive crush on him.”

She glared in Shikamaru’s direction. “Shut up! I don’t have a crush on him.”

“Please you’re a sucker for those sad puppy dog eyes. You have been since we were kids. You still like him.” Shikamaru replied in that same know it all drawl that she hated so much.

She wanted to tell him to fuck off and that he was wrong but it wasn’t worth it. He’d known her for too long and about her embarrassing life long crush.

“Why did you wait so long to take art? I told you, you should have taken it when we were freshmen.”

“I had my reasons!” She yelled causing Chouji to scatter the bag of chips.

“It’s pretty hot if you ask me. Schoolgirl, hot older teacher.” Karui shrugged. These were the exact thoughts she was trying to avoid.

“Okay keep your fantasies to yourself please. This isn’t that at all, and he’s our age. Besides, he's too good and pure to even see me as anything more than the little girl that would follow him around all the time.” Unrequited love was a bitch. He still hadn’t contacted her and it had been days. He was avoiding her.

Shikamaru sighed. Did she seriously not realize how much Sai adored her. They were both so clueless and yet they judged his love life. “Look the way I see it crush or not you need this class and he’s a good teacher. Get through the semester then figure out whatever the hell the rest of this is. Don’t complicate it more than it already is.”

Ino just sighed but nodded. As much as she may still have feelings for him and how devastatingly handsome he’d become she couldn’t do anything. She’d never want to put his career in jeopardy. She always supported him that’s just what she did but her heart wanted so much more. How was she expected to just be in class with him all semester and act as if everything was fine? And pretend that he wasn’t a ‘hot older teacher’ as Karui described and as she’d heard a lot of her classmates say. Damn it! He was hers first!

Unbeknownst to her, Sai was also seeking advice from his childhood friends.

“You can’t avoid her forever.”

“I’m not going to avoid her, she’s my student and I will treat her as such.” The individuals in the room just stared back unconvinced.

“Are you really okay with that?” They were all friends but he had an obvious soft spot for the blonde.

“I have to be.”

Sakura chewed on her bottom lip annoyed. If they would just talk to each other they could move on from this mutual pining bull shit.

“Sai, we’re happy you’re back but you need to talk to her otherwise you’ll both be miserable. Just a conversation, she deserves at least that.” Sai was surprised at the blonde’s insight. They’d all grown up while he was touring the world. When they were younger they’d been his safety net, they gave him a sense of home and belonging. He kept up with them as best he could while he was gone but they still grew distant. Still, though being together like this as a group, it was like nothing had changed.

He wasn’t avoiding Ino per se he just honestly didn’t know what to do. He struggled most of his life with his emotions and now being here they were even more out of control. He was thankful that his friends were willing to help him but their advice was obvious and rational. He wasn’t looking for that. He knew he needed to talk to her and probably more than once but what do you say to the woman that you loved and haven’t seen in years?

Instead of addressing it he took the cowards way out and didn’t see her till class the following week. She was there on time towards the back. She smiled while she sent him a small wave and he just nodded before turning away. He felt his cheeks flush, she always did look incredible in purple even more so now. She still loved those damn shirts that showed off curves and skin.

The content for the day was easy enough as he began to assess all their initial skills and knowledge. It was as expected that most everyone was there as a requirement but some students showed potential. And Ino, well she tried. When they were younger she’d complain about how he had taken all the artistic skills that none was left for her. What she lacked in technique though she made up in effort and her ability to arrange colors in aesthetically appealing ways. This was from her experience working in her family’s flower shop. She had an eye for beauty.

He smiled at her work and left an encouraging note in the corner. He’d managed to keep his normal persona never lingering or staring at her more than usual, but his body was hyper attuned to the fact that she was there. She had a habit of playing with her hair and he had to physically stop from doing it himself.

“Come in.” He responded to the knock at his office door. He had office hours available so he was waiting for any students that may need some help.

Roses, he looked up as she sat in the chair across from his desk trying not to stare as she crossed her legs.

“Ino.”

“We need to talk.”

He nodded solemnly. “I know.”

“How long have you been back for?”

“Start of Spring?”

Her eyes widened hurt that he hadn’t tried to contact her earlier. “Why didn’t you let me know?”

“I...I don’t know..”

“So where do we go from here?”

“You’re my student. I will help you pass this class and we move on.” He replied simply.

“That’s it? That’s all you have to say to me?” Her voice was starting to rise the way that it always did when she was upset.

“What more do you want from me?”

“Is it so wrong for me to want some answers from the person that was my best friend, that left for years only to see him again as my teacher. We made promises to each other when we were younger. Does that mean nothing to you? What the hell Sai!?” She stood up slamming her hands on his desk.

He stood up calmly meeting her intense gaze. “We’re not going to have this conversation here.”

She threw her hands up in frustration. “Oh, you’re right. Nothing is more important than this job, even me. Fine, I’m sorry Professor I’ll be leaving now.”

“Ino, please.”

“No, I get it. Just ignore me, forget whatever the hell we had. I’ll be the perfect student and leave you alone.” He winced after the door slammed behind her.

This wasn’t how he wanted the conversation to go, she didn’t deserve that from him. Regardless of who they were now, she had always been there for him and she needed more than what he’d given her. He’d lost her once, he didn’t know if he could lose her again.

Ino walked through the campus in disbelief at how he had treated her. She understood not wanting to cross professional lines but it wasn’t like she tried to seduce him into giving her a passing grade. She just wanted to talk. Why was he acting like this?

She looked down at her phone seeing a notification for a text from an unknown number.

‘I’m sorry.’

She wanted to ignore it, knowing that if she did it would really solidify that they were no longer anything to each other. But, she didn’t want that, she wanted him still. If it had to be like this it would be enough for now.

‘Let’s really talk tonight, our old coffee shop.’

‘I’ll be there.’

Ino stared up at the sky hating that her heart lightened a little knowing that she was going to see him.

They were right, she was always weak when it came to him.

Today was a tough day for me and alot of people. Writing is a great escape. If this helped you disconnect for just a little I'm thankful. Hug everyone you love a little tighter tonight. If no one has told you today I love you and I'm happy that you're here.

*Till the next one

Roses:

Chapter 1: Roses

Chapter 2: Yellow Roses

#saiino #inosai #sai x ino #ino x sai #fanfic

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dearlytea · 6 years

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This was a message I sent a few months ago to a friend when I just made my Tumblr account. The question she asked me was “Do you expect to get any followers on Tumblr? Or meet anyone there?”

Of course I didn’t believe her and thought I wouldn’t do shit here.... Yet here we are today celebrating my birthday/first milestone on this blog. Wow, never knew my 69th birthday would involve Tumblr...

I’ve learned a lot during my time here, and it’s still scary to believe that I was one decision away from not meeting all the friends I adore now. Besides learning how to use this god garbage website I was also able to learn a lot more about myself from all of the mutuals I’ve met here. How? Cause I was able to connect with many people and be myself without feeling the need to cover up the parts of me that I thought were ugly. Although, I know this is only the beginning of my time here, but it’s still a huge milestone for someone with low expectations to begin with.

So in all thank you to all of my lovely mutuals/friends. Whether we talk on a daily basis or not I love each and every one of you, and I hope for the mutuals that I’m silent with that one day we can start chatting and get to know each other better (although you might have to be the one to message first cause my ass is still anxious as F U C C)

Anyways yeah... I love all of you dearly

KNEE SLAP

Edit: Apparently some people didn’t get the notification for the tag? Fuck you Tumblr So I had to go over the names again just to be sure... Sorry if you got another notification or something! zzzz

Legend

♔ = Special babies → (Look for your special little message)

❥ = My baby mutuals → ilysm bls don’t think i don’t cause I actually do but I’m shit at showing my feelings sometimes and I’m bad at messaging. Don’t ever doubt that you bummies :((((((

☼ = Silent/New Mutuals → We don’t talk/interact that much but I still appreciate your existence and love you, thank you for being here. Maybe when I’m not a anxious HOE i’ll message you

Bold = Content Creator → YOU TALENTED LITTLE BEAN. GOD FUCKING GAVE YOU THE SKILLS OF A GODDESS/GOD AND YALL ARE BLESSED ASF

I love you all bls don’t think that I love you less because of where you are on this post asiojdoasijd that’s not my intentions and I don’t mean to hurt you :(((((

(There is no solid order with how people are being added, I’m just going through my Following & Followers list)

♔

@champagnehoseok @koalajimin @gukvenchy @agustdabbing @knjddaeng @tinymintyoon @94hixtape

❥

@gukyi @guksheart @introseesaw @kinktae @httpjeon @honeyyhobii @sapidsuga @cloutro @yeehawtaekook @minlucent @joonbuns @honeyyhobii @simplyjoon @equigay @seoksblackrose @kitsujoon @rohobi @namseokis @lovewyself @taewitched @etherealmins

☼

@utopiajeon @hobiwonka @starlightjoons @louvrescript @ggukhoneys @yourstrxxly @bymoonchild@blushoseoks@iliveforjungkookmemes @moonm0chi @jeonpetals

@champagnehoseok: You little donk. I have a love/hate relationship with you, you wanna know why? caUSE ALL YOU DO IS ATTACK ME. I’m trying to live life here and you’ll send me a gif and then I’m (hot and) bothered. Though tbh without you I’ve wouldn’t of been able to leave my shell of shyness. You and your “DEARLLLYYYYYY” in group voice chats and scaring my ass to death smh. Despite being an extreme introvert I do enjoy talking/playing league with you (even though all we do is scream) So don’t take my short response as a “I’m annoyed with you” cause that’s not the case, I’m just an EXTREME INTROVERT. In all thanks for being the donk to my dink, never stop walking, always keep going alright? (this is the softest message you’ll get from me so LOVE IT)

@koalajimin: Morgan bby :((( You are my Libra sister and we relate to each other so much it’s quite unreal. Thanks for letting me scream and rant to you about stuff, it means a lot cause I know I’m a lot to deal with iojasoidjposa. I love how sweet you are :((( You’re the type of friend to go through a huge crowd of people just to make sure someone you care about is okay which is so admirable and I hope you know we don’t deserve your sweetness :((( It’s all too precious. If you ever need my “wise” advice or need someone to rant to just hmu okay? ilysm uwu (also BLS DRINK RESPONSIBLY)

@gukvenchy: Yara you sweet angel :((( Idk if I told you this before but that one night I randomly pour out my love to you on your old account was the first time I’ve went off anon to talk to you and I’m so glad I did cause it made me feel less anxious about sending asks and messages to you. Actually tbh you’ve helped me out a lot when it comes to gaining confidence in general. You probably never realize it but in little ways you do and I’m so glad we are mutuals because I would still be a shy shithead today :(( So thank you for being such a sweet pea and accept the fucking mess I am, ilysm you teasing Queen (I WILL NOT BIAS A BOY WHO POURS MILK INTO THE BOWL FIRST (I still love him but not enough to make him my bias)

@agustdabbing: Ahhh you probably didn’t expect a special message eh? Wrong. I love our late night convos about food, school and other things that I can’t remember cause they were so late at night aisjdijsad. You’ve found me in the rec blog side bar and it honestly shocked me that you wanted to follow or even message me. Like seriously??? I still don’t get why you want to asidjpais but in all I’m happy you got the courage to message me and grateful that you enjoy my random burst of convo starters. If you ever need anything hmu okay? Don’t be afraid to. I will always be here for late night convos about avocados, pastas, stupid things CUBE did and etc. Bless ya soul sweet child uwu

@knjddaeng: BABYYYYCHRSISSAIOJT My sweet tarot reading buddy. I love your curly hair adorable ass. Thanks for being honest, sweet, understanding and caring when I come to you for advice. You know how reserved I am, but despite that I always feel so safe when talking to you about my problems cause you understand why I think what I think and do what I do. In all I’m so grateful that you’re understanding of my messy brain and love me for me. Thanks for all the things you’ve done and I wish well for you :(( Know that if you are ever sad I will fucking send a spirit to comfort you asoidjaoid I WILL FIND A WAY DON’T YOU JOHNNY FUCKING TEST ME

@tinymintyoon: Ah Tiny, you sweet sweet child uwu I don’t know why but I just always have this like “You’re my little sister” vibe with you even though we aren’t that far in ages. You’re such a smart, beautiful and hard working girl and I have so much respect for that. You do things with consideration of others and it’s such a rare sight to see nowadays so please don’t ever forget that. I know at times you will feel down and have the itching feeling to slap yourself for not being good enough but trust me hunny, you’re doing great. Don’t beat yourself up too much okay? ilysm uwu please sleep appropriately so you don’t tire yourself out and hurt yourself :((( also THANK YOU FOR BETA READING SOME OF MY TRASH WORKS ASJDIKJ YOU ARE THE BEST AND I APPRECIATE THE EFFORT YOU PUT INTO THEM

@94hixtape: Lu, you are such a sweetie and I know we recently started talking but I can’t just leave you out on this. When you messaged me for the first time saying you’ve been meaning to message for a while made me so soft like???? You wanted to message ME? And see if I WAS okay??? You are a sweet angel and it still makes me flop onto my bed all soft. Despite your shy character you still would do so much for your friends and :((( ugh that makes me soft. Please don’t be afraid to message me if you’re sad or in need to rant, your presence is god’s gift in this world and you should be happy : ‘)))) ILYSM

I’m sorry that all of these messages are GROSS jsandoaijsdo

#Mutuals #Birthday Mutual Post #Appreciation #post #Birthday #I LOVE ALL OF YOU FREAKING CUTE NERDS :((((#this is queued cause highkey gonna be out #celebrating my b day #pasokjdpoaksdpo fuck i can't believe i'm doing this

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platinum-happy · 6 years

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Birthday Letter for Nina

Dear, darling Ni-ni-Nina,

Happy birthday and welcome to Platinum Happy!

We haven’t talked too much, but we’ve been mutual followers on various social media for a while, so I was so happy to see that not only you had auditioned for Purappi, but you also made it in! It always made me smile to see you in our notifications or in my streams, so I am so, so glad to know that I’ll get to work along with you soon!

My first impression of you was that you looked so cute, like a doll. But by following you over the years, I’ve seen that you’re more than just adorable, but also a person who is seriously strong and who has a good sense of humor. And with how crazy things can get in the group chat and all of the chaos that happened in today’s stream, you still managed to keep a good natured cool feeling around you, so I think you’ll fit in nicely.

I’m really excited to see all you do here and hope we can talk a lot (especially about Team 8 hmu)!

Have a wonderful birthday!

[[Calla]]

#BIRTHDAY LETTER #net idols #nina #nina birthday letter #platinum happy

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5hfanfiction · 7 years

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how you get the girl

on wattpad @ longerr_hours

“So you excited for pride on saturday?” Ariana asks as her and Camila made their way from lunch to french class for yet another hour of confusion.

“I guess,” Camila shrugs, not really in the mood to talk after the depressing lunch period she’d just had.

She’s been listening to her mopey break up playlist non stop - yes even at the gym, really good pump up music (note the sarcasm), and when Ally had asked about it it led to yet another round of questioning about her and Jade’s “break up”. The two were never dating, and it isn’t like the really could considering Jade had a serious girlfriend and Camila just had a hopeless crush, but it kind of hurt once she realize they officially couldn’t be together.

The two had a talk, and it just so happened to fall a week before pride. So no, Camila wasn’t “excited for pride,” as Ari had asked, she was more like, sad about everything.

“Hey but you might see your woman, last year we ended up with her in the end with a few of her friends and word on the street is that she’s single and looking to mingle,” Ariana wiggles her eyebrows and Camila groans but smiles despite herself.

Her woman, also known as Lauren Jauregui, also known as the most attractive human known to date, isn’t really her woman at all. Camila is the tip to easily develop crushes. Whether on her nerdy english teacher who’s perfect in every way, or the girl from her chemistry class who gets around, or one of her internet “friends” who said the right thing at the right time. She easily appreciates people, and usually it doesn’t mean much since she has crushes on literally everyone, but once in a blue moon a crush will come and it’ll last.

Jade was kind of like that but with more feelings and bad luck, but Lauren Jauregui outshines even her biggest celebrity crush Selena Gomez.

Lauren’s like, one of the only openly bisexual people at school, which is how Camila noticed who she was. She came out to Hailee a while back and the other girl immediately suggested they set her up with Lauren. Now, Camila had no idea who Lauren was, and after a few months of still not knowing and Hailee randomly bringing up how hot she is, Camila saw a girl in the hals and jut knew it was her.

Camila is shameless when it comes to fingerling over her too, like one time they made eye contact for an assembly and Camila isn’t stop talking about until… well see she’s still talking about it because Lauren’s eyes were - are the most activating in the world and she completely made a fool out of hereof by forgetting to look way until like a good ten seconds later.

One time she walked by her in the hallway and almost died for a few minutes before freaking out to Dinah who had been trying to keep her from passing out.

She may or may not know the second half of Lauren’s schedule (no she did not actively seek it out, she just noticed her in the hallway, that’s all).

She knows (form Hailee screens hotting her finsta and sending it to her) that Lauren’s favorite season of any show ever is glee season 2, which is Camila’s favorite too (and probably like any gay person’s but that doesn’t matter), so she’s pretty sure they’re soul mates.

And all of this is before speaking one word to her.

She’s added her on snapchat and instagram, but by that she means that Dinah added her on her snapchat since she’s kind of friends with Lauren and forceful about Camila’s crushes. And that when she finally got the balls to follow her on instagram, Sofi did it ten seconds later. Two notifications about two Cabello sisters in a row isn’t fishy at all.

She hasn’t spoken to her though. And she hasn’t had one mutual class either, which is weird because they’re in similar courses, just different blocks.

Ariana is pretty good friends with Lauren though, and now that her and Camila are friends and she knows about this crush, she’s thinking of any ways she can to make it happen.

The first text to change her life is on the friday night before pride. She’s actually walking into the gym after her shift at Stop and Shop - new job, training is a bitch, when she gets it. It’s in the grip chat for the people she’s going to pride with and it reads a few words that make her freeze midstep.

Kendall - hey guys is it cool if Shaun and Lauren Jaurgeui come w us?

Camila thinks she stops breathing for a second.

Ariana had said they might run into Lauren and her friends, but she never said the girl of her dreams would come with them.

Hailee is at senior prom with a friend but she calls her anyways, freaking out about the news and she’s happy when Hailee humors her and freaks out as well, even though she’s in the middle of the gym and Hailee is probably doing stuff that seems more exciting than Lauren Jauregui (key word is seems, nothing is actually more exciting than Lauren Jauregui).

She doesn’t click on her sad playlist this time, no she picks the “good vibes” one because she’s pretty sure her life just got a heck of a lot better.

It doesn’t.

Not right away of course, but Camila is in a pretty shit mood when it’s 12;30 and she’s finally on her way into Boston for the parade. She’s late, because Ariana cancelled on going at all last minute and Perrie is sweet enough to wake herself up to go, but since the girl is a senior and was at prom the night before, she takes a while to get up and moving.

The group they were supposed to go in turned more into a grip to meet up with, which is like, it’s fine because Lauren Jauregui is still there, but this damn train is taking forever.

And once they’re finally there, Troye sees an open spot and pulls her and Perrie there before they can go find the group, since “Kendall is such a bitch why would we want to go over there,” and it takes almost half an hour for Perrie to shoot Camila a sympathetic look since she knows why the girl is so eager to go over there, and finally pull Troye away.

“Guys! What the fuck took you so long?” Kendall greets once they’re there and Troye rants about traffic but Perrie shushes him and explains there was a better spot, making sure to stand so Camila is as close to Lauren as possible. Shaun is between them still, but this gives her a chance at conversation and she’s eternally grateful for Perrie’s presence.

“Hey Mila,” Shaun greets, then goes into explaining everything she missed from the best drag queens to the weird anti circumcision float that everyone got awkward during.

“Is it your first pride?” he finally asked after a few, Camila had honestly kind of zoned out because she was paying attention to Lauren. She was quiet, weirdly so for someone who seemed so confident and perfect, but not like, she wasn’t awkward about it, just kind of listened to Shaun talk but didn’t chip in.

“Yeah it is,” Camila replies on cue, “I didn’t really realize I was gay until like last year but all my friends other than Dinah were high key homophobic so I just didn’t bother coming,” she explains with a frown but then shrugs to reassure him.

“And you like it so far” he asks and Camila almost dies when she notices Lauren looking for her response too.

“Yeah, it’s really cool,” Camila says with a dumb nod, once again holding Lauren’s eye contact for a little too long once she catches it then turing back to Shaun to snap out of it, “really gay, I am, yeah I’m really gay so like, yeah…” she trails off and she would be embarrassed when Lauren giggles at it but Lauren’s laugh has to be the best thing she’s ever heard in her life other than maybe the glee cover of Copacabana so she swallows her pride and laughs too.

She doesn’t really talk to Lauren at all. She stands with her, and they laugh at things Shaun says together because he says a lot of funny things. She makes a point to emphasize how gay she is so Lauren might notice, and at one point Lauren offers her a bag of Mike & Ike’s and Camila eats them with a grin (even though she hates Mike & Ike’s).

It only feels like ten minutes before the parade wis over and they’re all walking back towards the train stop, but Camila is still following Lauren like a lost puppy, but like, kind of subtly (not really, Lauren’s the only one who hasn’t noticed her adoration).

“Wait guys, Hailee got caught on the train and she’s literally about to be here,” Troye starts once they approach the stop and Camila knows this is where her time with Lauren Jauregui ends. “I feel bad that she missed the parade, shouldn’t we like… I don’t know, wait or something?"

It ends up being her Troye and Perrie again until Hailee comes.

Camila spends most of the night with a smile on her face, not exactly because of Lauren but like, indirectly probably because of Lauren. She’s just n a really good mood and that mood only enhances when she gets the second text that changes her world.

It’s at the concert later, the gay one when she opens her texts and sees a bunch from Ariana in all caps and freaks the fuck out before even reading them.This must be important, she thinks, before clicking on it and her heart stops.

Ari - HOLY FUK FUC KJSUFDU BJKV JHV NCAMILA MILA MILA OMGIJVJHVM GUESS WHO JUST SNAP CHATTED ME

Ari - MILA HOLY FUCK LAUREN JUST SNPCHATTED ME

Ari - AND SHE SAID"do you kn ow that girl Camila’ an i said yeah AND THEN SHhe SAID

Ari - "is Camila gay” ?!!!!!!! CAN YOU SE SKED IF UOU WERE GY SHE WNATS THE PUSSY GIRL CONGRSTS OH MY god my babies my gay babies love you !!!!

“HOLY FUCK!” Camila yells as she processes the text, almost falling over but Perrie steadies her with a concerned look, to which she turns her phone to show the texts. “Lauren fucking Jauregui asked if I was gay.”

“Holy shit are you for real?” Hailee asks, grabbing Camila’s arm, jaw dropped in aw.

“Lauren fucking Jauregui.”

Camila like, she doesn’t stop smiling for hours. Days even maybe, she just, she’s so happy with the idea of Lauren Jauregui. She spends the night after pride with Ariana and Perrie, eating McDonald’s and fingerling over the green eyed beauty, and she spends the next day day dreaming about her.

It’s not until lunch on Monday that something else happens.

Now her and Ariana, they’re like, they’re kind of weird together. As in after pride they had a fight with the free lube Camila had gotten in the parade, then covered themselves in it to see what it would feel like to “be one of them hoes” and bough three twenty piece McNuggets to split and eight root beers.

But another thing they did was spend like hours fantasizing about how cute dating Lauren would be, and Ariana decided, covered in lube and halfway through her third bottle (Perrie was present for all of this, smiling and trying not to think about how odd the other two were)to play match maker.

“I’m going to set you two up, then you will owe me your life,” she had promised.

So when Camila gets a text before lunch reading,

Ari - you owe me your life.

she nearly combusts on the spot.

“What happened?” Camila pounces on the girl once she makes her way to their table.

“Geez give a girl some space, would you?” she jokes but Camila’s face shows that she can’t wait. “Lauren said to hit her up,” she says simply, and Camila kind of like, she kind of shrieks and dies a little bit but by the time lunch is over she’s overanalyzing everything. Ariana ends up texting Lauren that she has to hit up Camila herself to spare the younger girl some nerves, but by wednesday, Camila is still waiting by the phone with nothing but thoughts of Lauren.

Luckily, Ariana is on the inside and Camila is reassured that Lauren is just nervous and doesn’t know how to approach it, but unfortunately since Camila is the one with all of the amp, Ariana begins to pressure her to make the move.

Now, how does one, make the move?

Camila’s never done anything like this. she’s awkward, and shy, and not experienced at all, and honestly she’s never been the type to want a relationship.

But this, this is the girl of her dreams. It's the girl. The one she’s had a crush on since six months ago, the one that’s so far out of her league it’s basically t ball vs the major leagues.

This is Lauren Jaurgeui, and apparently Lauren fucking Jauregui is nervous to talk to her, so Camila needs to do something.

And something she does.

After hours of looking, and thinking and trying to force herself to get some balls, Camila finally does what needs to be done.

She snap chat texts her, which is like, well it’s the shadiest way to text anyone but it’s all she’s got and she finally has balls so she has to make her move, and she does.

hey i know this is weird since we’ve never really talked but are you any good at algebra?

Camila like, she’s so nervous that she may or may not start crying a little bit, but Lauren replies in a minute and she manages to keep her cool long enough to open it (a solid minute later because she’s no fool).

depends on the chapter, why?

Here goes nothing, you were born for this, it’s now or never. “You’re an all star Camila, don’t fuck this up,” she says to herself before taking a deep breath and typing.

I was wondering if you’d be able to help me replace my x?

“Nailed it,” she whispers to herself again.

Her and Lauren text for four days straight non stop before their first FaceTime call, and FaceTime every single night, finals be damned, before they finally decide to hangout on the last day of school.

It’s not awkward at all, and Camila is totally, shamelessly smitten with the other girl. They go to Wendy’s for lunch, Camila buys Lauren her food, a little shyly but when Lauren spills her soda everywhere she laughs louder than she has in weeks.

Shaun works at the Starbucks she goes to every day with Dinah so he gives her insight on how Lauren’s reacting along with Ariana, and it makes Camila feel butterflies in her whole body whenever she gets a hint that Lauren might feel even a fraction of what she does.

Lauren wakes her up with bad pick up lines every morning and Camila rants about how amazing it is that she’s giving her the time of day every night.

And like, Camila will still fangirl over her every few hours. Whether she’s with her or not, the fact that she’s like, kind of almost dating Lauren Jauregui is amazing to her. n

The bad part is that neither of them will make any moves.

Lauren’s the one to hold her hand first. They’re watching NCSI and all Camila can think about is how she wants to hold Lauren’s hand but she literally can not get herself to dot it. So when Lauren does it, she smiles for about two billion hours.

They usually watch glee, they started on season two and Camila smiled brightly, knowingly when Lauren grinned and said it was her favorite.

Their first kiss is two weeks and a day after school ends. It’s almost on the third of July, with fireworks and everything but then Lauren’s bus is pulling away and Camila is listing to I should’ve Kissed You by One Direction on loop for the next two hours.

The next time they hangout though, thats when she finally makes the move.

Not exactly actually, Camila wants to kiss her, she does, and they’re lying on the couch, facing each other, so close that with one move she could close the gap, but Camila has a knack for rambling in times like that, so that’s what she does, she rambles, and Lauren watches with an amused grin.

It takes literally half an hour for Lauren to let out a laugh at Camila’s nervousness and finally connect their lips herself, pulling back after a second, only for Camila to follow, whispering something along the lines of “thank fuck,” against her lips before going in for more.

Only since she wasted all of that time rambling Lauren’s dad beeping his car outside breaks the kiss, Lauren falling against Camila in laughs makes it okay, because like Camila said, nothing beats Lauren’s laugh (other than maybe glee Copacabana but she’s not sure anymore).

She goes to the movies with Lauren and Dinah, her best friend has to approve (they’re already kind of friends but still), and freaks out halfway through because Lauren Jauregui is holding her hand.

And later that night, she kind of tells Lauren that she’s had a crush on her since forever ago.

Lauren thinks it’s adorable, says so too and makes Camila smile ten times harder, then ramble for a few before stealing a second kiss.

The kissing becomes normal, and the hanging out every single day that Camila isn’t working does too. She knows not to ditch her friends because she isn’t fake, but she’d only ever really hung out with Dinah and she still sees her every day too, so she’s maintaining her dignity and dating her dream girl.

Well not like officially dating.

That doesn’t happen until the end of July.

Camz - I’m getting a puppy on Sautrday

Lolo Regz - shit so now I have to fight for your attention even more ? totally not fair at all

Camila’s been in Cape Cod for like, well only for four days but she’s actually having a mental break down without Lauren by her side. It’s a family reunion, which is already adding to her being stressed out a little bit because like, who likes family reunions. And all of her cousins are being annoying, and now her mom randomly decided to get a dog which, hey she isn’t complaining but now it delays her seeing Lauren by like a few hours.

Lolo Regz - Im face timing you, I miss ur face too much right now

“Hi lovely,” Lauren greets as soon as Camila answers which is immediately.

“Hey Lo,” Camila smiles, running a hand through her messy hair, wishing she had washed it after the beach. “I miss you tons."

"Me too Camz, I can’t wait to see you, oh my god I’m going to hug you so hard” Lauren says and Camila breaks into a huge grin because it’s Lauren and she adores her back now.

Lauren laughs at her puns sometimes and she kisses her first sometimes too and she holds her hand all the time and she’s taken her out to her favorite restaurant twice now despite not really knowing what to get there since she’s a picky eater.

(Their first official date was on the month anniversary of when Camila texted her but like, Camila wasn’t keeping track or anything.)

Lauren’s like, Lauren’s her perfect match she thinks and she hasn’t turned off her “good vibes” playlist since that day she got that text asking if Shaun and Lauren could come with them to pride.

They spend the rest of Camila’s week away missing each other and like, they haven’t stopped texting since that first pick up line Camila sent Lauren. They text until they see each other until they text again.

When they see each other that saturday they’re with Camila’s whole family so they don’t get to kiss or anything but later on they do, and even though Lauren keeps telling Camila she needs to shower since she smells like new dog, she lets Camila kiss her.

They’re on the last episode of season three when Lauren pops the question.

Camila had been low key planning to get down on one knee with a ring pop and ask Lauren to “go steady with her?” since she thought that shit was cute, but when Lauren asks if she’ll officially be her girlfriend, Camila smiles harder than she ever has before replying, “wait, for real?” and mentally smacking herself until Lauren giggles at her and she’s smiling again.

She gives it the biggest yes she’s ever given anything hands down, and she thanks god that Dinah added Lauren Jauregui on her snap chat.

(and that Lauren Jauregui added her back.)

#UPDATE #one shot #AU #slash #camren #romance fluff #submission #how you get the girl

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lifeinahole27 · 7 years

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I’m Quitting Fandom

Now, this probably doesn’t mean what most of you think it means, so let me explain. I’m not quitting Tumblr, I’m not quitting writing. I’m just quitting the bullshit.

When I joined this fandom, I had this naïve notion that everyone in the fandom (at the very least, everyone in this ship) got along. Horrible assumption, I know. But when I was fresh and new, and everyone seemed nice, this wasn’t a far-fetched idea. I made connections with people without knowing that they were part of different factions, different cliques, among the ship I joined.

Over the last two years, I have been immersed in this show. I love it. I love the characters, and I love seeing such fantastical things come to life on my screen every week. What I don’t love is fandom. I’ve never much been into speculation or meta. I don’t like to sit down and analyze every minute detail, and for good reason: I’m an English major. I have been steeped in analysis since I entered college. I went to grad school and had to analyze even more. I can pick apart the plot of a movie and apply it to Campbell’s famed hero journey in no time. I can argue the different aspects of an essay or story. I can break down a poem and find the flaws with only minimal pause.

So, the last thing I want to do in my personal life is sit down and analyze a television show that’s supposed to bring me enjoyment. The last thing I want to do when I’m trying to relax is have opinions shoved down my throat like propaganda. On both sides of issues that have popped up in this fandom, I’ve seen a lot of bandwagon and propaganda thrown around. I teach arguments for a living, so I can figure out when someone doesn’t really care about my opinion, they want to say things like “Everyone is entitled to their own opinion” and then not give a shit about mine. We know that hijacking posts is wrong, so why don’t we know that slamming each other is a bad thing?

I admit that I’ve participated in such activities. The post I made the other night, which is almost blatantly directed at another group, is not an adult move. It was something I did in the heat of the moment, and even at its childish base is still more adult than the other five drafts I had before I hit “post” so I’m not calling myself innocent in all this, nor am I taking it down. The post exists, as all my posts do, and I have no reason to hide it.

That’s exactly what led me to make this post, though. I’m quitting that side of this toxic environment. I will not engage in any “good -vs- bad” scenarios. I will still likely post spoilers, but I’m not going to speculate on what it all means, because there’s a chance that I don’t see the picture the same way someone else does. That doesn’t mean I won’t have opinions on things; I’m just going to keep them to myself, or talk about them with the people I know won’t immediately start name-calling or have melt-downs because I have a different brain than they do.

I want to keep the friends I’ve made here. I’ve lost quite a few already, for some reason or another. But the ones I do have, I like a lot, and I’m willing to have more friends. Just know that I will respect your opinions if you respect mine. I’ll discuss things if we can have open communication about it instead of “I’M RIGHT, YOU’RE WRONG, SO YOU NEED TO SHUT UP AND LEAVE.”

I’m done with the Tumblr “politics” and “popularity contests.” I’m a relatively small blog compared to the ones with thousands of followers, and I’m happiest that way. I don’t follow a lot of blogs, so I’m okay if a lot don’t follow me. I would prefer people follow my blog because they like what I post, they like what I write, they like seeing what I enjoy, instead of “I agree with their side, so I’ll stick with them.” I don’t want someone choosing to follow me simply because they agree with me on a side of an argument.

I’m quitting fandom so I don’t have to lose my happy place. I’ll be using mobile almost exclusively for chatting and checking notifications so that I can appropriately block and blacklist what I need to in order to keep my little area cultivated to things that will bring me peace or happiness.

I encourage anyone who ever wants to talk to stop on by. Even if we aren’t mutual, I’m happy to chat with whoever stops by. Just know that I’ll have limited things to say about what I think is going to happen on the show, and general reactions to an episode besides “I liked it” or “I think they could’ve done better.” I will not liveblog unless I have something I just can’t stop myself from saying, and even then, it’s likely going to be a detail I found interesting, or a nuance that I appreciate. It will likely not have anything to do with the worth of the show in general because we all have opinions on these things, and I’m happy to keep mine in my bubble so I can enjoy the show.

I could’ve done this all without ever making this post. I’ve seen a lot of people I follow (or followed) fall into the abyss and basically ghost out of the fandom. I entirely understand why they did this. The only reason I decided to make this post is to maybe get through to a giant group of people that there’s something wrong with the way we talk to each other. And there is. I’m not looking for arguments or discussions on whether I should be doing this, and whether I’m right or wrong on this issue. That would just be proving me right if you stop by and yell at me for being wrong.

This show is great, and I feel like it’s okay for me to admit how much I love it, even with its flaws and errors and inconsistencies. I’m a member of the general audience who masqueraded as a fandom member for two years, but I don’t have the dedication and (quite frankly) anger that some people do. I don’t have the energy to be as upset about things not going directly to my specifications. I have no right to tell the producers and writers how to do their jobs just because they did something that I don’t like.

And I will no longer subscribe to the ideals that if someone doesn’t agree with me then I need to side-eye and vague post them into a frenzy. I will not go back and forth with someone I’ve likely unfollowed because the views we had were too different. I will not seek out their posts decrying my lack of intelligence because I don’t find fault in every little misstep. I’m here just to be me, to enjoy myself, and to find gifs of my otp making out or being adorable, and to read about these two falling in love over, and over, and over again.

I don’t think any of you were exactly here for the plethora of meta and spec fic that I put out, so I doubt this will change my follower count because of that, but if you feel that this post warrants unfollowing me, you are welcome to do so without any hard feelings whatsoever. The door is always open.

#sarah for life stuff #Sarah for anti-fuckery #Sarah for anti-negativity #spread love not hate #spread love not bitching #be kind to each other #but also get off my lawn #is what the tl;dr of this would be

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