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tojisun · 9 months

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anon from the simon ask here,, sorry if the enclosure thing was to much i didn't know how else to express how insane i am for that man (⁠´⁠-⁠﹏⁠-⁠`⁠；⁠) and never EVER apologize for ranting i love it n i get it ! i don't think i ever saw my feeling so well explained in words. also, i completely understand the competence kink thing there's something so hot about a man that knows what he's doing and simon IS that man like he just looks so capable n ready for everything AND THE WAY HE CARES UGH i could cry thinking of the way he silently shows it. when i first started getting involved in cod i thought he would be this cold cold man but after watching a 5 hours walkthrough (i told you im crazy) i discovered this truly intricate character who seems like he feels so much even if he says so little HHH i just love him. for me his size was a principal attractive because duh but also i feel that it screams safety, like nothing can hurt you as long as he holds you but that could be my own conglomerate of issues speaking ┐⁠(⁠´⁠ー⁠｀⁠)⁠┌ over all, n as dumb as it can sound, he's a big source of comfort for me cuz i feel that if there's someone who could understand me it definitely him.

anyway im looking forward for the new works, i already know they r going to be amazing, and sorry for the long ass ask you can ignore it if you want <3

DONT APOLOGIZE FOR THIS ASK, IM DEVOURING IT!!! thank you for interacting back btw like oh my god i dunno how else to express how ?-$,&2$:$!: i am for this man and so seeing my ramblings be mirrored back makes me so happy 😭🫶🏼 also dont worry about the enclosure thing hahshshd made me laugh so hard, swearr

AND YOURE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING!!! theres something so fucking attractive about a man whos exceptional at what he does. the authority that underlies his competence because well you cant help but trust him; you cant help but want to trust him. AND THE WAY HE CARES??? THE WAY ITS THAT SILENT TYPE??? i (still) dunno much abt him but just like u, i thought hes those cold guys whos a lil bit of a lone wolf yk? then i found out that those dad jokes he kept cracking for soap was to ensure soap doesnt pass out because hes been shot?? i didnt expect it from him tbh but i think thats why i started spiralling harder – seeing how hes just a caring man!!!

N HHHHH THE SIZE AND HOW HES YOUR SAFETY?? ITS LIKE YOURE PEERING THROUGH MY MIND RN??? im sorry in advance bc ive been overusing this phrase but his size, on top of his personality and skills, makes me feel small but in a safe and tender way. does that make sense?? like, when he holds you, it just feels like he’s folding you within himself before tucking you in the pockets in his chest. and hhhh i cant stop envisioning the way that when he loves, it feels like safety and comfort; security and steadiness. LIKE you fit perfectly in his arms, under his chin, your face pressed on his chest where you can hear his heart beating. because he’s alive and he’s safe and he’s back home with you because he’s found a home in you. yk???

I JUST. I THINK THAT DYNAMIC SUITS HIM N YOU SM – HES YOUR SAFETY BUT YOURE HIS HOME RAAAAAHHHHHH hope that makes sm sense bc im typing this w my heart lodged into my throat and ik im rambling all over the place. im just so into him, its so 😭

“i feel like if theres someone who could understand me its definitely him” YEA. JUST, YEA

thank you so so much for ur support omg 🥹🫶🏼 im like a puddle rn its hdhjwjdjd thank you again for this ask darling <333 im sorry that my response turned out long (again) and hhhh sorry for the sporadic capslock usage 😭 take care sweetheart 💘💘💘

#anon #ask #simon is just.. wow yk?#an absolute unit of a man #the way i need him in a visceral way is just. WOW #i cant even explain past me overusing ‘HE MAKES ME CRAZY’ 😭#but yea! thank u again bb for this ask <333 #simon ghost riley

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angelpuns · 11 months

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Ow, Ranting Anon's heart is broken :'C (/pos) THE NEW UPDATE!! First off, the lil apology thing is adorable, kids are freakin weird (especially leo) and SECOND OF ALL- hhhh the fact that neither Leo or Casey say anything! Casey's letting Leo take it all in meanwhile it's finally hit Leo that this is real, he can't really go back home and that little bit of hope he had left is gone and he's gotta, in a sense start mourning what he knows and start learning how to live where he is for the time being. He's gonna be grieving for his entire life, and he's just gotta accept that but at the same time he's like what, 5? How is a kid supposed to deal with that yknow? For him it's like his entire life is just gone, poof, vanished and nobody else gets that but Casey! I feel like he's gonna be a LOT more attached to Cj soon lol-

Ty for the amazing comic, I'm eating ur art like a 5 star meal served from Gordon Ramsey himself <3

I'm glad you liked the update hehehehe <333

I definitely think Leo is gonna be trying to talk to CJ a lot more than anyone else ( except maybe Mikey, since he's sort of already trusting him ). I'm just thinking about them sitting in silence stating at the destruction ;-;

Me at my own comic: bro who wrote this?? Why's it so sad???

Anyway- I hope the next update isn't quite as devastating ( I already know it will be-) but let's hope so anyway teehee

AS ALWAYS TY FOR YOUR ANALYSIS IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY !!

#so many happy stim rn #even tho the comic is sad the feedback is so so goof

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thecatboyfriend · 2 years

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“im sorry if something i said hurt you” bitch have u ever apologized in your goddamn life

#moms now complaining that i told her to take accountability for her actions #shes saying her love is good enough of an apology #KDJSKD SHES MOCKING ME AGAIN #WHAT THE FUCK #BITCH THATS WHAT STARTED THIS WHOLE GODDAMN THING #shes mocking me saying ‘oh do you remember five years ago when you did this??’#YOU HURT ME AND NEVER APOLOGIZED YOU FUCKED ME UP OF COURSE IM GONNA REMEMBER AND BRING IT UP #hhHh #im sorry for venting first thing when i wake up but shes fucking terrible and im so tired #i wanna call k so bad but id have to go outside and its way too cold :C #remi rants #personal #vent

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the-absurdity-archive · 3 years

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If I had a nickel for every time in the last six months my family has spent time with my oldest sister and my niece and they have gotten at least one of us sick (at least once with COVID), I would have two nickels, which isn’t a lot, but it’s weird that it happened more than once.

#that one meme from phineas and ferb #if i had a nickel #covid #hhhh #time for a tag rant #because ONCE AGAIN seeing my sister who I don’t even like that much has kept me from being able to see a certain GIRL #I can’t see the one person on earth I actually want to see #I’m definitely ready for this pandemic to be over #ok that’s all I apologize #also it really feels like nickel should be spelled differently and I don’t know why

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tiredsadpeach · 3 years

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Man I just do not understand

#you sent me that then apologized for not tw-ing it then proceeded to talk about it #I’ve already told you I don’t understand the point of tws in messages (tiktok excluded) and I was sounding uncomfortable enough for you to #apologize and you just kept going?? like hhhh I don’t get it #faking positivity and shit because just I don’t want you to beat yourself up for making a mistake but fuck dude #why can’t you just ask before talking about things especially sensitive topics #and earlier the rant I just hhh I don’t like when you’re angry because I am scared of angry people #it’s very rare I can deal with it I just wish you’d understand that

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moderngirlmp3 · 3 years

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flarrie. discuss.

(I know your answer already but listen i know how much you love them so I'm giving you the most wonderful opportunity to rant)

hhhh bestie ily thank you so much for this.

flarrie is everything. it’s friends to enemies to friends to lovers. it’s the pain of knowing someone you love is hurting and you’re the reason why. it’s the feeling of not being able to help them because you’re hurting so much yourself and you know it would only end in shouting and tears. or worse, in quiet words that sting more than any loud noise could, and looks of the deepest betrayal and hurt because they knew you and you still hurt them and how could this ever be okay again?

and then it’s the awkward and stilted conversations after the first apology. they haven’t quite learned how to talk to you and you can’t blame them. you’re still in shock that they’d want to talk to you at all. but there they are, pursuing the conversation despite any lingering awkwardness, because they choose to. because they want to. and who are you to deny them what they want? you’ve never been able to before, and some things never change.

it’s learning how to love each other again. or, how to express it. did you ever really stop loving? maybe that’s why it hurt so much. it doesn’t matter, because now you’re smiling and she’s smiling back and it doesn’t fade after a moment like it used to. and it reached her eyes and you begin to let yourself notice how beautiful their eyes are when they’re looking at you like that. and you wonder how you ever lived without their smile, without the casual brush of their pinkie against yours, without their touch at all hours of the day, where they wrap an arm around your shoulders and lean their head against yours and when they have to let go, their fingers trail down your arm to intertwine with yours as if they’re memorizing the feeling of your skin against theirs. it’s the effortlessness of conversations with them after a while, the easiness with which you slip back into routines left alone for so long. it’s almost involuntary when you pull her into your side, when you turn to see if she’s laughing too and grin wider when you see that she is.

it’s realizing that yes, you were broken, and she was broken, and maybe you broke each other, but the same hands that ripped each other apart can put each other back together again. and it’s the feeling of inevitability when you finally, finally confess to each other. of course you feel that way. of course they feel the same. how could it be anything different? it’s you and them. a little different than how it used to be, but isn’t it better that way? she tucks her head into your neck and you know she’s not paying attention to the movie anymore, and really, neither are you because all you see is her and her hair and her face and you feel her breath on her skin and her arms around your waist, and it was all worth it, wasn’t it? you press a kiss to their forehead and they mumble your name before falling deeper asleep and yeah. it was worth it all.

#jatp #julie and the phantoms #flarrie #plu answers #sitaarein #my jatp posts

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anarchy-and-piglins · 3 years

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If I may do a bit of thought dumping before I start my essay- there's a scene in steven universe future where pink pearl says "I was badly hurt... how did you stop hurting?" to pearl and pearl responds with "I didn't" and im just imagining that with tubbo and techno talking about the red festival. like maybe it's bc i like fireworkduo but there’s just something about techno admitting he hasnt gotten over the festival to the other person most affected by it (sorry for the random rant lol)

Never apologize for rants/thought dumping, I love to get those in my inbox <3

Also hhhh yeah, that’s good! I have a lot of conflicted feelings over how like, minimizing his own trauma is one of Techno’s more important (and telling) character traits and it makes him who he is - plus as somebody who handles my trauma in a similar way, it’s really nice to have a character I can relate to on that level. But at the same time, it’s BECAUSE he does this that a lot of the fandom doesn’t seem to /acknowledge/ Techno’s trauma either and that’s just a shame and super frustrating, sometimes I wonder how things would be different if he’d speak up about his trauma more. And fireworkduo is an excellent dynamic so I think a conversation between them would do them both good

#technoblade #thoughts #asks #I have a lot of emotions about how techno minimizes his own trauma actually #like the way some people in the fandom still joke about 'peerpressure'#while that just an excellent example of him trying to cover genuine trauma with silly terms #and it's such a mood #it took me so long to even start recognizing how bad my c-ptsd was #and a lot of that's because I'm like Techno #I'll go 'oh no what happened wasn't that bad' and joke about it #and then people don't realize what i'm actually dealing with

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optimisticfruitcup · 2 years

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hhhh gonna put my Big Thoughts into words for my friends who may be curious:

i hate it when people apologize for something that they are not at fault for. let me elaborate, lets say i did something as simple as spill my coffee. frustrating, but no biggie, right? well if im ranting abt my klutziness to someone who wasnt there and their first response is “im sorry” thats abt as annoying as spilling my coffee.

but lets get into it, why do i find that so annoying? not only did they do nothing wrong or cause the situation in any way shape or form, now they feel bad and *i* have to comfort *them.* lets apply this to some larger things ive been dealing with.

ive experienced four deaths in the last 1.5 years. and every person’s first response is always “im sorry.” that hurts so much bc these people did nothing. they didnt know the people that i lost let alone kill them. but now theyve expressed that they feel bad/guilty abt my grief in some way shape or form. and now in my mourning and extreme depression trenches i have to turn around and comfort these people. these are irl friends, online friends, sometimes family, etc. and it just fucking sucks.

i dont share my issues with the ones i love to make them feel bad or responsible. i share it bc i trust them to not judge me and also to explain my radio silence. stop apologizing for things you didnt do. bc youre not helping me by saying it, you are making things worse. id rather my friends say nothing at all sometimes than to say “im sorry.” i cant flip on my mother hen switch in the middle of my grief to comfort u abt the fact im experiencing grief.

im certain none of this is coherent but pls dont take it personally. trying to remove the thoughts in my head and put them somewhere else.

#ellies experiences thoughts #death tw

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dvrlingrenjun · 4 years

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uh hello! this post is just for some of my friends and followers on this app. if you’re not interested, i’ll add a read more cut ٩(^ᴗ^)۶

i’ll start off with this message, i’m not really into sappy things lmao. so uh i hope you enjoy this one-time thing ig? i just made this post to hope you guys know i... appreciate? you guys? yeah anyways, let’s start this thing lol

to my followers! thank you so much for sticking with me and following me in the first place. to give me a platform to show my love for writing, i’m so grateful for that. i’m so sorry for not posting much and i hope to get out of my *funk* so i can post more for you guys!

to my (distant-ish?) mutuals! honestly, i don’t know who my mutual friends are anymore.（∂△∂；）but hello! i hope you guys are doing fine and healthy! i hope to get closer to you guys soon! although, i’m really bad at answering people ;-; i think most of my moots are from jcc? if so! thank you guys for making me feel included and making me feel comfortable with you guys! thank you for laughing at my jokes and for saying it’s alright when i felt i made the convo awkward with my dark humor jokes hhhh. stay safe okay? or i’ll come over to your blog and send slapping memes or smth lmao and this goes for anyone (ಠ ∩ಠ).

my sisters, (philo, jo, ness!) i honestly don’t think i interact with you guys much? but thank you ness and jo for allowing me to be your “sibling” when i said i was the only child ^-^ thank you jo for the wonderful hyuck fic recommendations and i hope to become closer to you (including ness too!) thank you ness for letting me and philo meet your irl friends to play among us bc hhh i would be so scared to share my irl friends to you guys lolol. tbh, before we interacted with each other, i thought you were so cool! and intimidating but we don’t mention that lol. (you’re still cool tho lol) and philo! i have a fun time bullying you •̀ω•́ but i don’t think that matters anyways because you call me cute or smth lmao. to me, you’re like that weird older sister but i can tell you care for us :] (please i want to choke how cheesy this is for me)

my mothers! (aka emmy, jia and brie!) to emmy: ah thank you so much for being so supportive of me, everyone does support me but for some reason you stick out so much to me lol so thank you for that! i’m really sorry for not texting you as much :/ hopefully, i get to text you more soon! to jia! my bad*ss mother (∩_∩) idk why i just get those vibes from you. thank you for dealing with me and fangirling over odd girl out. idk why but whenever i text you, you make me so calm? again, i am sorry again for not texting you much. i hope these apologies don't seem repetitive hhh. and to brie! i believe the first person i reached out to? first of all, i’m not even sure i consider you as a “mother” but i feel like you fit this catergory lol. thank you so much, letting me rant to you from my personal problems to jihoon with blue hair. i really hope you know i’m here for you too! even though, you know i’m really bad at comforting people but there for you take your mind off things!

to my partner in crime, you know who you are lol. hello my fellow renjun lover. you somehow quickly became one of my closest friends and somehow made me feel comfortable ranting to you and spamming you about doyoung? how do you do it? lmao jkjk. but you don’t really know how many times you distracted me from wallowing myself into a small sad ball, it happens too often lol. istg if one day you don’t come over to my school, it’s on sight ಠ_ಠ lmao jkjk again unless,,,,

uh so yeah that’s about it, i’m sorry if i didn’t make a special mention for you :[ i was going to add more people but i’m writing this last minute (of course, it’s me we’re talking about lol) but here is a quick list of people: jenna, joyce, krystal, gwen, kay, redacted, vera, rowan, gia, june, eun, kara, kathy, leyna, mara, milly, osho (my other mother lol) and more. not really going to @ anyone because i am mortified of what’s everyone’s response are going to be but yeah. happy thanks giving?

p.s: i might delete this later but you can totally reblog this or smth. yeah bye? lol

#rose's stupidity #not at me writing this more than my wips hhh #private

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kyunsies · 3 years

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I have noticed that my knee hurts when I jog so I'm trying to take a slight break from that (and I always stretch before to not mess up my knee bc oooof) but it could be that I need different running shoes 🤔 or maybe I need a knee brace while jogging tooooooo...........

Also, please not a disc problem 😭🤧

I have a long lineage of having disc problems from both sides of the family so I'm screwed lmao

(With a generous dash of osteoarthritis 😬)

Plus I've had instances where I've had back pain really bad sometimes but I'm thinking stress is a main perpetrator (with a dash of health problems of course)🤦‍♀️

Welp, anyways I'll be fine 😊💛 (sorry for my lil anxiety about health problems rant lol and ik you'll probably scold me for saying sorry but I can't help it and I'm trying 😅🤗💗💗💗)

oh no love :( i would definitely look into a knee brace and better supporting shoes !!!! and stay away from treadmills they're so bad for ur knees and shins ksjflksj and oh MAN ;_____; not a history of disc issues ahhhh i'm really sorry hun ;_____; all i can say is definitely keep an eye on it !! esp in women when we get older we are at greater risk for developing osteoporosis and the best way to combat that is weight-bearing exercise so it seems like u are doing the right things <3 if u feel excruciating pain in ur back tho i worry if it's a compressed nerve or something :( i don't want to scare u but it's just something to keep an eye on in the future okay !!! and pls pls YES I WILL SCOLD U don't apologize about voicing ur concerns about ur health !!!!! esp to me i'm going to be caring for ppl for the rest of my life hhhh i want u to feel as healthy as u can <3 i will always listen !!!

#asks #delightfuljellybeanmuffin #my sweet moot !!!

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b0ba-chan · 4 years

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my math teacher just asked me if i had any questions and when i asked her my question she proceeded to go oMg tHeReS nOtHing HaRd aBoUt ThiS and i feel so stupid ;w; hhhh thinking suna comforting while you’re crying because your teacher got mad at you to responding to them 😔 (and i don’t even talk in class so liKe my anxiety just went 📈📈) 🍡

wait i’ve been overthinking everything and i feel like in the gm ask it seemed like i just threw in gm to you too randomly but likE ik that was second but i really meant good morning to you too :’)))) (hhh i apologized for my constant trashing of your inbox)🍡

(nvm I’m overthinking again and that last ask seemed very (annoying? idk the word i want) idek why so you can just ignore that i apologize for that just ignore me hhhh) 🍡

BUBBAS RELAX UR NEVER ANNOYING FSHJFSDKFS ur literally the sweetest person out there so hush. never annoying. also fuck ur math teacher

suna loved hanging around you, even when youre on zoom, just lounging on the couch with you listening to the lecture. but when he lifted his head from his phone, he sees you sniffling as you closed your laptop. without saying anything, he opens his arms out for you to jump in and snuggle. he lets you rant about what just happened and yes maybe he wasnt the smartest and wasnt able to help you on math, but he wanted to support you. he doesnt give the best advice always saying he’ll fight the teacher for you, but in all honesty he is great for listening. you didnt deserve this treatment when you were just a bit confused, people were allowed to be confused. hed offer to get you a tutor or ask kita-san if he can help.

#boba!answers #boba!drab #🍡anon #suna

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imagine-organization-xiii · 5 years

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How would the guys react if the reader whispered ”I want to ride you” into their ear in public?

Sam and the others on Discord are pretty much the ones who do all the nsfw stuff for me now LOL

Xemnas

Would not pay the words any attention while out in public. And you BEST hope that no one else heard you say it. Because as soon as you get back to your quarters, or abandoned hallway, or really once anywhere you two are alone, expect your words to come back to haunt you. Lord Xemnas does not excuse misbehavior in his castle, from anyone. Yourself included. So… prepare for some serious torture.

“You wanted to… what was it again, my pet? I can’t seem to hear you. Beg for me and maybe you’ll get your wish.”

Xigbar

Probably will laugh as soon as the words leave your lips. And I’m not talking a light chuckle. I mean a good hearty laugh. One that anyone nearby will hear, along with some kind of comment about how you were insatiable. But Xigbar wasn’t one to hold out on a good time. Within a second, the two of you are warped out of the public eye and to the nearest place that the two of you could be alone. Of course this could be anywhere.

“Ahahaha! Aw babe! You’re an animal, huh? You little wild thing! Welp, Let’s get outta here, shall we?”

Xaldin

You whisper into the towering mans ear as you sat in his lap in the Grey Area. Normally, Xaldin wasn’t one for public affection, but today felt fairly special. But as soon as you finish your request, the dreadlocked man’s eyes go momentarily wide before choking on the air he was breathing and erupting in a giant coughing fit. He did not expect that. At all. BUT– he is not mad. Knowing that the one he loves wants him is like a little swell of pride. And after the coughing fades, the burly man chuckles softly to himself before taking your hand and carrying you bridal style to your chambers.

*cough* *cough* *cough* Oh dear… You really don’t like to pull punches, do you?“

Vexen

No one else was at the lab that day other than you, Vexen, and Zexion; the usual crew. You thought it was okay to be a little flirtatious with your dear partner. Well, you thought very wrong. You whispered naughty words in his ear and the blonde scientist gasped out in audible horror. You could swear his cheeks were also a shade of light pink.

To make matters worse, you then received a lengthy riot act on what was and was not appropriate for the workplace and how you were lucky that he, Vexen, would not be filing a report with upper management. You knew it was only because everyone knew you were an item and no one cared anymore. The real bummer here is that Zexion saw the whole berating and gave you a really grossed out look that teenagers give their parents when they flirt with each other.

”*Gaaaaaasp* Y/N!!!! That is hardly appropriate given our being in the laboratory! This is not something I should expect from someone of your rank and maturity, but i shouldn’t be surprised!“ And you kind of tune out because he rants for a long time.

Lexaeus

Doesn’t matter where you are. You could be alone at home with no one around. Doesn’t matter. You whisper that shit into Lexaeus’ ear and "The Silent Hero” turns into “The Silent Tomato”. But this of course, isn’t at home. It’s in the middle of the grey area with a ton of people around. So it’s worse.

The man is SO red. Redder than you had ever seen him! And you suddenly felt a pang of guilt for even thinking of saying it aloud and embarrassing him so much. Luckily, the only one who noticed was Xigbar, but that also meant that everyone else was going to find out soon too. Later that night, you apologize to the soft man, and you make up and make some soft lovin’s to make up.

“…It’s alright… Knowing you want me… in that way Is reward enough…”

Zexion

This boy is so damn sweet. He is in the lab with Vexen and Lexaeus nearby when you decide to try and give him a little thrill. And not only does this kid turn a BEET red, oh no, his expression turns into one of pure momentary terror and quickly turns to face you, making small but frantic waves and urging you to be quiet. He then checks to see if anyone heard what you had said, and when things look all clear he turns back to you, far more relaxed. It was kind of like a child in fear of getting caught by his parents, or maybe he was just afraid for his coworkers to find out about his personal life? Either way, it was very, very cute!

"Ah! ShhHS ShhhS HHhh ShHhhshhh! ….. Ah.. alright… that was.. a close one.. Maybe.. we should talk about this later.. when no one is around…”

Saix

As you could expect, Saix is one to give a very hot and cold response to just about anything you do. You are in his favorite place by the window when you decide to whisper something spontaneous in his ear. At first, the man says nothing, simply staring at his clipboard as if nothing happened. You assume he didn’t hear you. And no one else for that matter. Oh well. But boy did he hear you.

As soon as whoever was in the room exits, the air changes. In one swift motion, the Luna Diviner has his hands on your shoulders and has slammed your body up against the window. Hard. Honestly you’re surprised it didn’t shatter from the force. The man looks deep into your eyes with his golden orbs, and snarls into your ear. And later that night, you are in a heap of trouble.

“Don’t you ever jeopardize our work like that again. Don’t you worry, I know when you want me. I can sense it. I know when your body aches and yearns and desires. But I am the one that will make the calls on where and when we take care of these things. And this place is Not it. You will know soon enough.”

Axel

You and the Sea Salt Trio sat on the clocktower, enjoying some Sea Salt Ice Cream, as you always did after a hard day of work was done. It was nice to be invited on outings like this sometimes, but as you sat on the towers edge, eating your ice cream and Roxas and Xion engrossed in a conversation about something, your mind went to places dark and steamy. Feeling a little adventurous, you lean over and whisper some sultry words into Axel’s ear.

It takes him a second to process what your saying, mindlessly nodding and ‘uh huh’-ing until he puts the sentence together in his mind. And as soon as it does, his expression changes and his cheeks turn a flushed pink as he covers his nose and mouth with his hand and looks away sheepishly. “Ah– Ah.. Oh.. come on.. you don’t mean that.. Don’t be messing with me like that..”

The kids suddenly have stopped with whatever conversation they were having and look over to see what has Axel in such a state. “Axel? What’s wrong? What did Y/N say?”

“Nothing! Nothing! She didn’t say anything! Come on, you two, its time to head back.” The two younger members groaned as they slowly stood to portal back home. And when they weren’t looking, you caught the redhead staring at you with an expression you couldn’t quite put your finger on. Later that night, you remind Axel of just how cute he looked, dumbstruck and embarrassed.“Alright.. Alright… You got me.. But next time, I’m not gonna be as startled. Got it Memorized?”

Demyx

Today, Demyx is doing what he usually likes to do when he isn’t trying to avoid work or hiding from superiors - was loudly practicing his sitar in the most inconvenient places in the castle. Today that inconvenient place was in the Cafeteria that Never Was. While most times, no one wanted to hear the Melodious Nocturne play, the Cafeteria was one of the places where people didn’t mind as much to hear music. People liked the atmosphere to listen to music as they ate their food and enjoyed small conversation.

You often liked to watch the boy play his music. It was one of the few times that he was truly at peace. But sometimes you got bored and wanted to throw Demyx off his rhythm. So, as he played on and on, you sneak behind the musician and get super close his ear, and whisper something sneaky into his ear. And under the guise of music, no one else could hear. Well, until the boys playing stops completely as the last word leaves your lips.He was still the only one who heard you, you were pretty sure. But with the sudden lack of music, all conversation and excess noise, stopped, turning all the attention to the little musician that is currently turning the deepest pink.

The silence permeated through the cafeteria. And as all eyes fell on him, the small boy let our a panicked squeak and the color on his cheeks started to phase from a pink color to a deep red. It was clear your words had an effect, but now it was a little much. You quickly took the musicians hand and led him out of the dining area and into one of the castles many abandoned hallways. You turn to face Demyx when you finally stop walking. It looks like he may cry. He’s embarrassed. Guilt-ridden, you give the boy a soft hug.

“You alright?” You ask.“Yeah.. I’m okay.. Did.. you really mean that? What you said in there?” You nod and suddenly, the weepy boy in front of turns back into the mischievous boy you adored. “Okay.. good. Because we’re going back to my room. It’s Demyx Time.”

Luxord

The Organization is, for the most part, a very serious organization with serious goals and aspirations. But when the work is over for the day, many of the members of the Organization like to relax and do things they enjoyed in their life. For some of the older members, that was meeting up on Friday nights in secret, and playing a few rounds of poker. This was Luxord’s idea, obviously, but win or lose, many of these members liked to play and forget work for even just the night.

The usual crew was there; Luxord, Xigbar, Xaldin, Lexaeus, and then there was you. Since it was Luxord’s event, you were graciously allowed to come to watch the games when you found out about them. This was unlike Demyx who found out and was immediately ignored when he asked to come along. But you enjoyed these games, and sometimes you even played a round or two.

Tonight, you watched as Luxord’s calloused hands dealt out the cards. Watching his fingers shuffle the cards with such precision and grace was something of beauty, but tonight it brought you to think of your own desires. As the Gambler of Fate watched upon his peers with a confident sneer, you crept over to stand behind him. You leaned down as he waited for his players to fold, and whispered the honey-laced words into his pierced ears.

There was a moment of silent as the sentence the gambler had started hung in the air to hear what his beloved had to say. There was another moment of silence in the room, the others only hearing nothing but your hushed and muffled whisper. And then the room erupted with Luxord’s hearty laugh. The others never did find out what the gambler was going to say before you interrupted him, as Luxord immediately called the poker night to an early end and left with to you to, they assumed, fuck the ever living shit out of you.

“Oh come on now, men! This is Poker!! You shouldn’t afraid to— …… ha HA Ha Ha! Is that so, Love? Alright, Gentlemen. This has been a sheer delight, as always. But I suddenly have much better plans for the evening. So with that, I bid you goodnight. Come now, Love. We have business to attend to.”

Marluxia

While most of his free time is spent in the privacy of his personal garden, what many people outside of the org didn’t know was that Marluxia also frequently liked to read in the silence of the castles expansive library. And sometimes you liked to tag along!

Today, the two of you were not alone in the library however. Zexion, Xaldin, and Saix were all looking through the library, lost in their own books. Everyone, that is, except for you. You were bored. Reading was great but your mind was on… other things, so as Marluxia stood and walked to an aisle to take a new book, you decided to follow. As the slender man faced the shelf, you leaned up from behind him and whispered into the assassins ear.

At first, he doesn’t react, as if he didn’t hear you, but in a swift motion, Marluxia turned a full 180, grabbed you by the shoulders and pushed you back that you’re pinned against the adjacent bookcase. All of this with the most grace and silence. Blue eyes met yours with a look of passion that sent a pang of desire straight to your loins. A long fingers made their way up, gently caressed your face and made their way, tangling into locks of your hair. Then, the assassin leaned down, his sapphire eyes looking into your souls and making you feel as if your body was on fire.

Lips locked. Hands wandered. It was exhilarating. There wasn’t much reading after that. Though getting caught kissing in the bookcases was not your plan of that day. Plus Zexion was kinda pissed to see you kissing on top of his books.“Aw guys… not again… can you.. can you not do that..? Ugh…”

“Don’t be jealous, kid. It’s alright.. there’s plenty of other places we could go…” And with a flurry of rose petals, you were gone, whisked away to somewhere you two could definitely be alone.

#lemons #organization xiii #organization xiii headcanons #kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts headcanon

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So whats your favorite thing about each of your fe3h favs? Anything you could just go on a long rant about for any of them? or interactions between them that you wish had happened or wanted to happen.

Waking up in the morning and going through all of the drunk blogging and “-thank-u-for-weathering-my-deep-need-to-be-liked-and-given-attention-off-main-I-guess” if this isn’t a whole mood on its own I don’t know what is. Anyways it sounds like you had fun and it was definetly fun reading everything. I hope you are feeling okay the day after everything. And to tack on a random question which fe3h character would you want to get drunk with if it was just the two of you?

Hi Hello!! thank u for enjoying my drunk blogging !!! and for the asks!!! (and the lovely comments on my fics actually hi there ur wonderful!!!) i’m currently cursing the damage i’ve done to my sleep schedule and suffering under my (truly deserved) hangover lmao ;p apologies u don’t get drunk me, only uncaffeinated hangover me, but we talk to the same degree and make the same spelling errors lol

ah yes.. im a fountain of moods (all of u still with me here are saints hhhh)

ok content time:

the second one first: i absolutely want to get drunk with ferdinand von aegir. the man’s a hop, skip and a vodka shot away from a mess. i love him. he’d be full of conversation and would buy the rounds every time as a true nobleman should !! he’d probably be really good at instigating drinking games but horrible at playing them.. i love party gay ferdie von aegir.

i’m going to LIMIT the faves i list because truly i love them all very much but i have to at least pretend i have some restraint and i don’t want to make this even More of a wall of text it’s going to become . SO

edit: ok i started writing this at like. half ten pm. when the fuck did it become monday.

edit edit: Disclaimer time: these are my conclusions and my conclusions alone. I’m not saying I’m objectively right or correct. I’m very much approaching this from an English Lit-ish point of view because that’s just how I look at a lot of media. I’m not asserting my opinions or conclusions as the only viable to interpret this media, and if anything I say offends you then I am sorry, it was not my intention but I acknowledge that I have hurt you. This is not the exhaustive list of my thoughts on the whole thing, there’s a lot more depth and detail I didn’t go in to.

My favourite thing about Edelgard is the Everything, but notably I really love her proud nature and how in VW it quite directly gets her *spoilered*, and in CF it’s integral to her success (bc it’s her own rigidity within herself that keeps her standing i think) and I Like Tragic Characters (and it’s very elinor dashwood). because it’s one of the qualities that can throw her character into a villainous light & it’s really interesting !! but at the same time.. it’s not quite ‘pride’ purely, and it’s kinda the wrong word. it’s some mixture of determined/stubbon, anger, self-reliance, and that really hard veneer of personality u develop when you’re around people who aren’t healthy for you to be around, and the very very critical need to be right about the choices you made because the weight of the consequences would kinda ruin you if you weren’t. (the dean winchester effect huh) and wrap that up together with a big scoop of ‘i believe my way is right’ (’and my way Has to be right’) and then u get a lot of what i LOVE about Edelgard’s character

My favourite thing about Dorothea is really how she was the character that Hated the war. genuinely the contrast between white clouds dorothea & timeskip dorothea Breaks My Heart EVery Time I See Her !!!!! that and Spoilers!!! (her last words in AM unrecruited is edelgards name and i literally had to stop and cry about it for five minutes.) she’s one of the characters that post-war doesn’t have a Massive political stake in the war - like there’s her anger towards the current class system (another reason i bloody love her PLEASE give me angry feminine characters) but i think it’s her bonds with edie (or byleth&whoever if recruited) that keep her actually fighting in the war & it’s kinda different and i like that (actually i think she parallels/sends up/contrasts really really nicely with mercedes in that way)

my favourite thing about Marianne is just everything. how she finds worth within herself if you play VW (and the very very harrowing hc that she didn’t if you don’t), how she’s full of a quiet rage for the crest system but you eek it out of her as you play the game. how she’s still loved by the deers despite her appalling mental health (fight me on that canon) and the game essentially has her ‘save’ herself by finding worth and life within herself. i love her so much ok. (i also love her because she committed identity theft.. she and i share a name with the second dashwood sister oho (but i don’t use that name on the internet hhh) (also because my favourite shakespeare play is king lear (no really it is), my birthday is in red wolf moon too, i used to have very long hair i wore in a plait most days for school, little 11 and 17 year old me acted Exactly like white clouds marianne did & genuinely i love marianne von edmund to pieces but God it hurts to see her in game sometimes bc her journey mirrors a lot of mine & i love this character. so much.) WOW that was a lot. am i sure im not still drunk

so claude is not only one of my favourite characters in the whole damn game, but also shares the name of one of my favourite painters so i simply have to love him ;p however i can’t give a proper opinion on him yet because i haven’t finished playing deers yet :( but !! i love how (as is with all the lords) he has a veneer of personality to him, but in contrast to Edie where it’s quite seemless with her actual personality, Claude’s veneer of personality seems very opaque and plastered on. i may or may not just be wildly imagining things but he’s a very different personality in his lower supports with Lysithea than he is in his B support with Marianne, for instance. like, i love characters that are obviously a lot more socially intelligent than i could ever be, and claude is *chef kiss* BEAUTIFUL ON EVERY LEVEL.

i’d wax lyrical about Ingrid too but honestly there’s many better people out there with the good ingrid content than i could do. shortly, i love the New Take on the pegasus knight archetype she brings, and i really like her perspective on femininity !!! she’s such a good character & she brings so much to the game and to the pegasus knight character too!!!!! she’s such a bright personality and altho i wish so many of her supports weren’t centred around make-up (hhh dorogrid fans i pray for you), i think she’s really going to pave the way for whoever’s next in that character slot. (like, you can’t tell me she’s not an offshoot of Phila from awakening lmao)

no ok i’m adding in Hubert because i love this vampire man. i really really love the devoted servant archetype and we all know i love edelgard’s tragedy. and i love hubert. so much. the way he enables edelgard in pretty much everything is just so so interesting to think about, and i love his intensity about it. he’s like the ever present reminder that edelgard’s will kinda has to work otherwise the potential consequences of her being wrong are personified in hubert imo. it’s only touched on in VW in his letter but like. god i wish we got more but it’s a wonderful starting block. i love his comic relief as well, he’s such a fun character to have !!!! and also i have so many hubert fics in my bookmarks that just Get him. i love hubert. oh i love hubert.

i’m going to cut myself off there because . that’s just a LOT.

as for characters i would sell a limb to have them talk to each other, honestly it’s Edelgard/Marianne. (and only 51% because of all the projection i have going on with those two ok don’t at me i k n o w). that support chain would be too powerful and honestly i wish they had one becuauese it would have gone so Hard about what Edelgard was doing and what Marianne thought about it, and how they connected over it & they probably would have had their supports set over cups of tea or smth .. it would have been amazing.

(but i’d rather have nothing than an awakening-level-content support where they talk about eating fucking bear meat instead of talking about how they grew to trust each other with and their ability to save the fate of the world HUH AWAKENING. (i’m salty about fredrobin forever)

also hilda/dorothea supports . we were robbed. they’re best friends and you can’t actually tell me otherwise. they run the disaster bi chat of garreg mach. honestly i just would Love a support chain for them that starts with them talking about self care routines and something really small like accessories or perfume and it goes into how self-esteem and how dorothea has to find the same worth in herself as hilda so easily can. (hilda’s the queen of self esteem she’s a babe) and in CF they could have dialogue and then we cry about it. and in SS they talk about how they both chose their place with Byleth and not at edie/claude’s side like i’m just free balling here it could be Anything and i’d love it.

also big shocker .. dorothea/marianne supports . they both hate themselves in their profile CAN THEY PLEASE CHAT.

also i accidentally fell in love with the claude/edelgard ship and i desperately need them to interact on the same level that edie and dimitri get to because.. aren’t there supposed to be three main characters huh intsys .. and like i get what the game goes for with two of the lords embroiled in a personal war against each other at the heart and the third actually finding something close to the truth because he’s not involved in age old grudge matches but at the same time That’s one of the things that really really falls flat for me in the game. dimitri’s villain is edie, edie’s villain is big dragon wife, claude’s villain is the lack of communication that everyone in fodlan suffers from apparently. lack of communication and lies. ymmv with what im saying rn but i would have preferred if all three lords had strong personal ties to each other and in Each Route it was brought up. or just snip dimitri’s dialogue out of CF because i have beef with how that WHOLE moment went down on so many accounts hhhh honestly it makes me angerey to think about lol

.. back on topic- can the lords pls talk to each other because it would be SO interesting in white clouds and i like seeing how their personality presentations clash

also . can i marry manuela yet. my crops are dying here.

.. im so sorry about this but it’s midnight and i’m too tired to edit so. have this. thank you so much for the questions!!!! very kind (and brave) of you to ask me!!!!! i had a lot of fun writing all of this & as always if anything you didn’t quite /get/ i’m happy to re-explain myself!! :)

#ask #OH HELL THIS IS A POST HUH #fe meta #i mean it's not its just me having opinions rather loudly on ur dash #also that paragraph about edelgard is pretty much what i keep in mind to write her for my rtau fic #this is LONG im SO SORRY but NOT SORRY AT ALL #ur an actual angel if u sat thru this all #anyway. thank u so much for the ask that's so kind of u and i sent this mess back out into the world #my apologies oml #ok it's gone midnight im hitting post before i chaneg my mind #kalinary

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