#Going back to the library soon
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once again stressed as hell because i have the opportunity to apply for a job and i feel like i HAVE to take it despite the fact that i really dont want it and also feel like it wouldnt necessarily even be the best move in terms of career… but like. Fatal American Desire To Seize Every Financial Opportunity At The Expense Of My Own Well-being.
#i know i dont want to be a public librarian. if i work in public libraries long term i want to work behind the scenes in some way#it makes so much more sense for me to keep my little no-hours minimum wage job for now and look for something ACTUALLY relevant to my career#interests either an internship or job or something#ugh. i am so susceptible to anxiety over feeling like im missing an oportunity#even when its not something i actually want#i have done all the thinking and rationalizing and it makes so much more sense to focus on school and figure out where i actually want to be#in the LIS world and make those connections than to get a more stressful job in part of it that isnt in the career path i actually want to#go down anyways. and even if i change my mind and DO want to go into public libraries eventually this opportunity will be back soon enough#they hire for this position at least once a year#ecdysing
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some photos of my room :3 the more maximalist, the more recent (if you want to know the artist for any of my things just let me know!!)
#getting personal: i just redecorated my room and couldnt figure out why it made me feel so good. before realizing OH. ITS THE MATPAT.#showing off my room my home so UNIQUELY me nobody else could ever have this combination of shit i just printed out at the school library#really helps. look at my room look at Me. (and going home for winter break soon will make me not feel like Myself too..)#in conclusion look at my room :] look at me . im so sad im about to be torn from it for a bit.. but i can look at this photo set whenever i#missing it. ill be back! ill be home. and im home Right Now#AGAIN if u want the source of any of this art let me know!! its all reblogged on my blog here i think#and obviously im not profiting off of this printed out art any way its just to make me feel happy its just to make my room more Mine#wehhh.wehehehh903I439U238#MINE#CC
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rewatching lockwood & co (because obviously) and i can’t help but get lost in the details of it all. the little nonverbal acting cues, the set decoration, the everything. man this show is So good
#can’t get back on campus soon enough#i Need to go to the library and check out these books#i’m gonna run out of (spoiler free) fic soon and then what am i gonna do? with no new content? just rewatch and reread everything Again?#well i mean yeah. of course. but ALSO i want the other stuff#lockwood and co#lockwood & co
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in 1 hour I will have officially relinquished the $1,032.96 that the library took from me by firing me for handing in my 2 weeks notice and then telling me I could only have it if I waive all my legal rights o7
#just realized one of the things in this contract is also that i cant fight them about my last paycheck#and im pretty sure theyre either a half hour or a full hour short and im so willing to fight that its unbelievable lmao#im not signing your fucking gag order for 1k but i will fight you for $6#one of the stipulations in this thing is that im never allowed to apply to work at the library again or id have to give the money back#i doubt im going to be applying to this hell hole any time soon but that just makes me mad. fuck you you ridiculous bitch#im one of the most qualified people in this entire city. die. i want the option of returning after these people are all dead#because someone is gonna kill this bitch thats not a threat its an observation on statistics#you treat enough people like this eventually theres gonna be a consequence
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just me life updating about moving and other ramblings in the tags lmao
#self obs#not snz#this shit is so stressful what the fuck?????#i also have a million projects due on sunday that i’ve barely started so saturday i move sunday i library#i am so happy to get out of my current living situation cause the people i live with couldn’t give two shits about me#it’s giving my childhood lmao🧍♀️#also i got diagnosed with pcos this week and am going to be starting meds for it next week so if anyone has any suggestions lmk#i heard back about my research and i got accepted so im super excited about that!!!!!#anyways my life is all over the place right now but hopefully after this weekend i’ll be on the up?#all my finals are in the next two weeks so i’m just so stressed#i can’t wait to eat a real meal i’ve been living off of energy drinks this week like 800mg of caffeine plus my adderall#yeah my doctor is very concerned about my heart but like fuck it we ball#anyways i’m stressed so i took a few shots lmao i hope you all are well#hopefully i’ll be more active and posting snz stuff soon#TELL ME WHY I FORGOT ABOUT MY OCS lmao i’ll write for them soon i promise#ok goodnight i need to pack more
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I've got a couple of days left in September when I want to squeeze in some time to finish a couple of books I was reading this month, and Inklings Challenge starts in a couple of days, so of course this was the perfect time to get obsessed with Victober and download a bunch of obscure Victorian books.
#i was in waiting-around situations today where youtube was a justifiable distraction#and unfortunately fell down a rabbit hole#i actually climbed out and threw together an october reading list i was pleased with#a couple of new things but also some things i was planning on reading anyway#some things to continue#some that need to go back to the library soon#almost all very short#i was stupidly proud of myself for coming up with a way to fill all five victober prompts with three books#including two i was planning to read anyway#but then i fell down the rabbit hole again#and downloaded a few more books#see the dangerous thing is that they're all free online#you can pick up books on a whim#and i have so very many whims#the idea is to have them available for future but be aware i likely won't read most of these#but of course now i'm excited for all of them#i need to put down the phone and go to bed and clear my head#but in good news i got the inklings teams posts formatted#i work the next two eves so i had to get it done now#and it's a good thing i was on the ball#because i always forget just how complicated that process is#everything in triplicate#this year all the software worked well thank goodness#no trouble with lost names or lopsided teams#it's just that there's a lot of sections of three different posts to pull together#so it's always more work than i'd expect#i'll still add names if people jump in btw#i just need to have the vast bulk of the work done in advamce
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#i think my grandparents are going home tomorrow. which. lmao thank god#i love them so much they practically raised me i adore them i always have and always will#but FUCK man religious brazilian grandparents are their own brand of psychological torture and i cannot handle much more of this#yesterday i overheard my grandfather talking to my grandmother about how i had two (2) caipirinhas at this brazilian steakhouse we went to#to celebrate his and my aunts birthdays#and he said its the beginning of alcoholism and that i will eventually follow in my mothers footsteps of being a drunk if i keep drinking#like HELLO?????? SIR????????????? I HAD TWO DRINKS. TWO. ALL NIGHT. THE WHOLE NIGHT. TWO DRINKS.#also leave my mom alone sir she went through hell growing up dont shit talk her thats YOUR parenting my man#its just. the micromanaging. the helicoptering. the incessant unwarranted opinions. the nagging. the criticism. im just over it tbh#AND THE GOD TALK. oh my gooooood if i am gifted one more portuguese bible im gonna. idk what im gonna do but im gonna do something#i could start my own fucking library at this point with how many bibles they keep foisting onto me#hopefully by this time tomorrow i will be free of this and everyone can. get some space.#i love my family but jesus crucificado alguém me ajude#LOVE U ALL MISS U ALL HOPE UR ALL WELL MWAH ILL BE BACK SOON PRAY FOR ME PLEASE#personal
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i rly wanna get my head in the game and finish&post some fic bullshit before classes start but i also gotta draw and It Dont Feel Good Right Now but i also just finished a deeply depressing book and i MUST CREATE TO STAY ALIVE AND FIGHT OFF THE ENTHROPY
#delete later#iM!! AAAAH ok. feeling a little strange i'll sleep it off today. maybe library is open tomorrow? if so we go there#but in the meantime I HAVE TO MAKE SOMETHING!!!!!!#i hope the drawing powers come back soon i have things to make and im feeling like someone stole my ability to draw. wizard style
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okay, i purchased like four books and a vintage photograph - i’m calm now
#i think i can sleep#the thing is that i DO want to stop buying books and go to the library#but i’ve decided that i’m gonna do that for like. supplemental information#all the big sweeping overview stuff i’m purchasing my own copy of#because I’m probably going to want to keep them to refer back to#and i’m still very much in the Overview Stage with like. Everything.#and i don’t have any time to go to the library right now anyway#so that will be a 2026 adventure#(what happens in 2025? don’t worry about it…)#anyways - glad i had today to just chill. nap. watch a few films. eat.#i did a LITTLE schoolwork - but i had to leave that mostly as a tomorrow thing#because it’s just been SO constant that i needed the rest#but looking forward to getting back into that tomorrow#(or not actually because i HATE my classes rn lol… but looking forward to getting stuff DONE)#it will all be over soon… just four more weeks of Hell#and then we enter… Hell 2#(maybe hopefully not as bad?? time will tell…)
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The urge to go to my local library and just fucking read. All day.
#OH MY GOD GUY SYOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I WANT TO GO BACK TO MY LOCAL LIBRARY#I WENT THERE ONCE WITH MY MOM AND SISTERS AND OMG I WANTED TO STAY TYERE ALL DAY#BUT MY MOM AND SISTERS GOT BORED#LIKE… HOW???#I WOULD STAY ALL DAY IF I COULD#YOU COULD RENT CDS AND GAMES THERE TOO#OMG#THEY PROBABLY HAVE THE MLP IDW COMICS TOO#I NEED TI GO THERR SOONE#closet rambles again on tumblr
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i swear i'll pipe down about voicebank things eventually but good news i got to 39% completion today ( n i c e ) but bad news that was all the easy samples (end breaths and VVs) and when i timed myself on a standard CVVC sample it came out to roughly 10 minutes meaning that if i work on oto'ing all the remaining samples without stopping or being distracted, the rest of this library will take me roughly 49 hours of work to complete
#im yelling#thankfully this library doesn't need to be complete for another several months but#i am also very much going to be going back to my internship program in the fall#so i would very much like to have it done in the next two or so months#which currently equals out to about#probably at least 40 minutes of work a day#which while not unbearable for oto work#is definitely less than optimal#though very on brand considering salvador AR took like 10 months of exporting and sample cleaning and oto work to finish sdkjfhlk#i really am just grand at shooting myself in the foot huh#first recording for a voice type i physically can no longer recreate without significant strain#then recording basically two reclists per pitch across 6 pitches of CVVC and refusing to condense it#in between those two i also recorded a massive amount of VCV that needs to be manually cleaned because my VST hates me#and coming up soon i am basically combining all of these for an ultra hell dev moment KJHLKJHLSFKJ#i swear to god though i'm going to get this library done#if nothing else than to lay my poor restless soul to peace skjdfghlkj
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it was my last day with summer sons and now that it's being returned I miss it and I'm sad I didn't have time to read it again
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Tell me a secret, Eri 👀
i can't really think of anything exciting but !!!!! there's this really cute girl who works at the library that i have a little crush on.
she's very pretty. long curly blonde hair. pretty smile. she gets this Look in her eyes whenever i walk in like she can see right through me and it leaves me so flustered and off-balance.
the first time i tried to compliment her i panicked and just gestured at her with my hand and said "gorgeous" and fucking FLED the scene.
the last time i saw her she complimented my moon tarot card earrings!!!
#eri's answers#anyways im supposed to go back to the library soon and#part of me is like i hope she's working#and then the other part is like i really hope she's not working#im a biaster#(bi disaster)
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in the less than 2 minutes it takes to walk from the shop back to the library i managed to lose my debit card i should just kms
#literally realised as soon as I checked my pocket in the library immediately retraced my steps back the way I came all in less than 5 mins#and nothing!!! asked the library staff and shop staff if they’d seen anything or anything been handed in but nope!!! i don’t have the mental#or emotional capacity for this shit rn#I’m still 2 assignments behind spending the third weekend in the library whyyyy meeeee lord whhhhhyyyyy#froze my card but my Oyster card noooooo I just put £20 on there 😭😭 and my grocery loyalty cards i had so many points stacked up#and a replacement card will be sent back home rather than my uni address and I can’t go back there for like 2 more months fuuuuuck#i should just not wake up tomorrow
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Rare moment of me sharing my actual life but my dad split the cost of a printer for me for xmas and I am so so excited and pleased with it! I now have way too many test samples of my silly little star wars OC lol. I want to make art my actual career so this is a really cool step toward that dream 💗
#maybe this is lame to admit to but im 28 and i have a degree in illustration#but i graduated in 2019 and ofcourse everything fell apart soon after#i didnt want to make any art for about three years and i was planning to give up on doing it as a career#i even went back to school online for a technical diploma in library studies#and i was good at it#i almost finished the program too but all these hurdles started popping up and getting in the way#i decided go quit that#even though id spent so much time and energy and money on it#to kinda end up back where i started except that i want to draw again#im 28 but i dont feel 28#the last 3 years went by in a blur and i guess i freaked out because im getting older#and no one can make my dream real except me#putting it off isnt an option anymore lol i think id rather die than give it up#if you read all this mushy garbage you get a gold star congrats
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