The colors of the seiðr fill his dreams, a tapestry his fingers almost touch, the workings of a fate he knows he's lost his chance for. But even from these galaxies away, he knows the whispered secrets of her longing, the constellations forming in her hands.
The knowing is perhaps the worst of what he hopes is penance. Knowing her growing frustration, the silence that surrounds her in her empty dwelling, a temporary life he thinks she knows his brother has no place in. He cannot reach her. He can do nothing to comfort the hurt that he finds himself drawn to, her dedicated isolation.
The threads that bound him to her are severed, only a mocking reminder of what, for just the glimpse of her face, could have been. Here, apart, the seiðr almost taunts him with that shadows of her life it shows: her umber hair, curled on a decorative pillow, her parted mouth, her languid eyes in the morning. The darkness is gone from them. The hunger, the power, they're gone.
And was it that, the other that his fate entwined with? The magic more ancient than he? The future, cut off as it is, gives no answer.
He hopes, perhaps, it might have been so.
Because, were it her, the visions he wakes to are crueler: laughter and warm, gentle hands; moonlight, and bare, bony shoulders. Grey in her hair and in his. Someone to see through his lying.
A universe. A universe that never formed. That never can come into being.
On December 23rd, the release day of Sonic Adventure, producer Yuji Naka and Sonic and his team went to support the stores in Shinjuku, Ikebukuro, and Akihabara. Thanks to all the shops, it was a great success! He was the first rider in Shinjuku, and he had been lining up since 5 a.m.
Wednesday, December 27, 00:33 UT - Full Moon, 4°58’ Cancer
The key phrases for the Full lunar phase are “culminate, fulfill, illumine, manifest;” and “pour all our energy and effort into our intentions.” We revisit the Capricorn Solstice, with a little more perspective. Make a good wish!
Saturday, December 30, 23:51 UT - Disseminating Moon, 24°00’ Leo
The key phrases for the Disseminating lunar phase are “teach, share, communicate;” and “ease up on efforts with our intentions.” A chorus of loud voices blathering dramatically about how 2023 went for them.
Void of Course Moon
Tuesday, December 26, 07:55 UT (Gemini) - 15:15 UT (Cancer)
Thursday, December 28, 22:57 UT (Cancer) - Friday, December 29, 00:23 UT (Leo)
Sunday, December 31, 05:18 UT (Leo) - 11:53 UT (Virgo)
Retrograde/Direct/Etc.
Pre-retrograde shadow: Juno/Virgo
Retrograde: Mercury/Sagittarius, Vesta/Gemini, Jupiter/Taurus (until Sunday the 31st), Chiron/Aries (until Wednesday the 27th), Uranus/Taurus, Eris/Aries
Post-retrograde shadow: Jupiter/Taurus (starting Sunday the 31st), Saturn/Pisces
Transiting Chiron stations direct on Wednesday, December 27, 03:10 UT, at 15°27’ Aries. Moving forward with our healing agenda.
Transiting Jupiter stations direct on Sunday, December 31, 02:40 UT, at 5°35’ Taurus. We’ve all been dreading the impending year; this will give us a burst of optimism for 2024.
Ingress
Friday, December 29, 18:24 UT - transiting Venus enters Sagittarius
The passages through Sagittarius have been stressful, and Venus’ stint here will be no exception, alas. Recklessness and commitment-phobia, unless we resolve to do our best with difficult times.
Et Cetera
There is one Opportunity Period this week: from Saturday, December 30, 14:39 UT to Sunday, December 31, 05:18 UT. “Despite Mercury being retrograde, this OP is excellent for creativity and celebrating a happy new year.”
I’m guessing “New Year’s Eve Eve” will be a more popular time to party, than the actual 31st: we’ll spend most of the week coping with mutable problems - reckless behavior, feckless behavior, refusal to commit, a certain vague bravado. It’ll be difficult to focus. On Saturday, we should find it easy to come up with creative, fun ways to vent some of that energy.