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bingbongsupremacy · 11 months

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How To Kiss

Pairing: Ellie Williams x reader

Warnings: Confusion about Sexuality. I've never actually read a teen magazine so idk if they had shit like this. Sounded good. Ellie and Reader are like teens in this rn. It's going to fast forward to when they're older in the part 2 im going to do.

I haven't had my first kiss yet. Hopefully someday bros.

Summary: The day you and Ellie discovered you were both gay.

Song: I kissed a girl - Katy Perry

(Btw Credit to Liv McConnel at teen vogue for the kissing steps. I took them from there. )

Also Joel works at an Auto Shop in this.

*Not Proof Read* TLOU Masterlist

Pt. 1 Pt. 2 Pt. 3

*****

My fingers brush over the shiny pages of Savage Starlight. Ellie quietly hums along while tapping her foot on her space themed bed cover.

" Fuck no. " Ellie mutters, flipping the page of the comic. " That ass. " She whispers.

A small grin makes its way onto my face. Ellie's habit of talking to herself while reading her comics is the funniest thing.

I finish the book and turn to look at my best friend. Her brows furrow in concentration. Her top teeth softly bite down on her lower lip, her gaze focused on the pages in front of her. She lets out a sigh and shuts the comic, glancing over at me. " I can't believe we have to wait until next month for the next book. I need to know now! " Ellie complains with a huff.

" I know! " I turn my gaze up at the ceiling. " At least we have the rest of the books to re-read. "

Ellie hums in agreement. " What should we do now? Joel's not going to be home for another hour. He's bringing pizza. "

Ellie's adoptive father was working a late shift at the auto shop he worked at.

" Nice! " I sit up and turn to her. " Guess what I snagged from my sister. " I smirk while pulling open my brightly colored backpack.

" Um uh a dog? "

I roll my eyes. " Why the hell would I keep a dog in my backpack for so long, Ellie. "

Ellie shrugs and leans back against her headboard. " Variety is the spice of life. "

I chuckle. " What the fuck. "

I pull out a teen magazine. " It's a girl magazine thing! My sister has like seventy of these from when she was younger. I found them when I was snooping around this morning! " I grin while flipping through the pages. I open up to a page of Justin Bieber. " Justin Bieber is in like almost all of these! "

Ellie crinkles her nose. " Bro not Justin. "

I roll my eyes and toss one of the magazines to her. " I thought we could look at them. "

We flip through the pages of the magazines. We take some quizzes (All of which Ellie makes fun of) and read some of the advice.

" How To Kiss " Ellie reads out loud. " What the hell. " She goes to turn the page.

" Wait! Let's read it. " I reach for the magazine.

" Why? It's not like you have a boyfriend. " Ellie smirks.

I glare at the girl. " Fuck you, Ellie. I just want to read it, okay? Who knows, we might need that in the future? "

" Fine. " Ellie sighs. " Fine. "

The two of you huddle around the brightly colored magazine.

1. Build up to the kiss.

2. Make sure the kiss has your, and the other party’s, consent.

3. Start things slow.

4. Keep your mouth soft and relaxed.

5. Switch your area of focus and/or your speed.

6. Speaking of area of focus — move things away from their lips.

7. Go easy on the tongue.

8. Don’t overthink it.

9. Talk about it afterward!

" Doesn't sound that hard. I literally could've told you that. " Ellie mutters. " Kissing isn't a hard concept. "

I continue on reading through the different categories. " But like, it seems hard. How do you know if the other person likes it? "

Ellie grabs a small ball from her bedside table and starts throwing it up into the air. " They'll probably tell you. "

" Have you had your first kiss? " I ask while watching the other girl curiously. She would've told me if she'd been kissed, right? I mean, we tell each other everything. It's always been that way, always will be that way.

Ellie pauses throwing the ball and glances down at me. " No. " She admits, a small blush crawling onto her cheeks. " But I mean, kissing can't be that hard. It's like...common sense. People do it all the time. "

I frown. " What if I'm a bad kisser? "

" You won't be. " Ellie shakes her head. " Stop reading that shit, it's getting in your head. Let's just do something else. Like watch a movie or something. "

" Seriously tho, El. What if I'm a bad kisser. What if the person I kiss is so horrified by my kissing, they leave me? " A million scenarios run through my head.

Ellie lets out a groan. " Oh my god. Will you just stop. You're going to be a fine kisser. " Ellie meets your gaze. " Look, if...if you want to...we could like I don't know. Practice or something. " A tinge of red spreads over Ellie's cheeks. She avoids my gaze, instead staring straight at the magazine.

I look at her in shock. Kissing Ellie? I'd be lying if I said I never had thoughts of kissing her before...but everyone has thoughts, right? I mean Ellie's eyes are some of the prettiest I've ever seen. She's definitely attractive. But I like boys. I think. Plus Ellie's not gay. Right?

Ellie shifts uncomfortably. " Never mind, that was-that was stupid of me to offer. Let's just watch a show-"

" No. " I shake my head. " Let's do it. I mean, we both need practice. " Suddenly it feels like my heart starts pounding faster. My fingers feel the urge to fidget with something out of pure anxiety.

Ellie nods and moves the magazine to the side. She positions herself in front of me, on her knees. Ellie eyes meet with mine before she glances down at the magazine, obviously looking over the steps.

I'm about to comment on her hypocrisy when she suddenly puts her hand on my chin. She draws her face close to mine. Her minty breath fans over my mouth, causing me to freeze in anticipation.

Ellie slowly leans in. In seconds, I feel her warm lips on mine.

My heart feels like it explodes. Butterflies seem to soar around my stomach, confusing me. What am I feeling? What is this? How is this happening?

My eyes study Ellie's relaxed face. Her eyes are closed. Her long brown lashes rest peacefully on her cheeks. Deciding to follow her lead, I try to relax. I close my eyes and follow her slow mouth movements.

All worries and thoughts of mine seem to melt away. What are the steps again? I don't remember?

We spend who knows how long kissing before Ellie starts to speed up. She places a small kiss on the corner of my lip before pulling away panting.

The loss of her lips leaves a pit of disappoints in my stomach. I ignore it and look up at her eyes.

An unfamiliar expression is sprawled on her face. Maybe realization?

" That was.." Ellie begins.

" Not bad. " I grin.

Ellie chuckles. " Yeah. Not bad. " Ellie shuts off the radio and turns on the small tv on her dresser. " What should we watch? "

_______

We never kissed again after that. Things remained the same. Ellie and I still hung out every Friday at her house to read comics and watch movies. We sat together at school with Dina and Jesse.

The only things that changed were my feelings. I started to develop a crush on Ellie, not that I could ever act on it. Ellie didn't like me back.

It wouldn't matter anyways. Ellie's sister Sarah ended up getting really sick, causing Ellie's family to move to another state to get better care for her. Somewhere along the line we stopped talking. Slowly, calls every day turned to calls once a week and eventually to once a year.

I get it. Life goes on. I'm in the past. Friendships die. Nothing lasts forever.

#fanfic #fanfiction #ellie williams x you #ellie williams x reader #ellie the last of us #ellie x you #ellie williams tlou #ellie williams x female reader #ellie williams

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leffee · 2 days

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What songs to you think will match with the LPS characters/ships???

Ok ok so I have been thinking about this ask for a long time because quite frankly I didn't know how to answer it cause I'm not that good at matching characters with certain songs. But! Oh boy, I literally just got struck with inspiration cause Marina and The Diamonds started playing on my youtube playlist and yes, there's the inspiration I've been waiting for. Listen, I have never ever been fascinated or crazy over a real celebrity or anything of the sort (singer, actor, etc) but Marina ohohoh, she's the closest I have to loving a real-life celebrity. While I can't say that I love all her songs that I have listened to, there are so many songs of her that don't just hit they s l a p. So I decided that instead of any songs, I will match them with my favourite songs of hers, ok? I promise, they're soooo good. And so:

Zoe - there's so many for her - "How to be a heartbreaker", "Bubblegum bitch", "Primadonna", "Sex yeah"

Pepper - "Power and Control", "Girls"

Penny - "Lonely hearts club"

Minka - "Teen idle", "Ancients dreams in a moder land", "Sex yeah" (yeah, like Zoe), "Seventeen"

Vinnie - "Hermit the frog", "The family jewels", "Oh no!", "Froot"

Russell - "Savages"

Sunil - "Are you satisfied"

I shall not explain my reasoning, they match, in my head (the actual reasoning is just vibes, but also trust me). Sorry, but I will skip the ships part, again, I'm not good at this whole matching X to a song :[. But go listen to those songs if you haven't yet ^ pls.

#lps 2012 #asks

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wellhalesbells · 7 months

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TAG SOMEONE YOU WANT TO KNOW AND/OR SOME OF YOUR BESTIES

Tagged by @kikiroo - thank you, my darling!!! *friendly shark bites at you*

Last song: Probably either The Man or Anti-Hero by Taylor Swift. I just spent a week with my sister on vacation and she had just watched the Eras Tour movie so she was getting both of those stuck in my head all the time, and then we'd have to listen to them ofc.

Last movie: It was Host by Rob Savage (or at least it was when I started this, lol). I watched it 'cause I saw something on Insta about the Top 10 Scariest Movies according to what the average resting heart rate is for it. I didn't find it very scary (got me at the end though, woo boy) but I did love it - but then I love things that use the pandemic well and this definitely did imo. Plus it's all structured around (and shot through) a Zoom interface so it's only, like, fifty-seven minutes long because that's all you get when you don't pay for Zoom, haha.

Currently watching: Goosebumps, Last Week Tonight, The Fall of the House of Usher, Two Sentence Horror Stories, Our Flag Means Death and Ghost Files and I am half-assing all of it. I've either only started the first episode or only watched the first episode on all of those. I have no staying power these days. Though I am only one ep behind on Last Week Tonight \o/

Other stuff I watched this year: Unfortunately for you guys, I write fucking everything down and it is now the tenth month of the year. I GOT RECS. Well, Meg 2: The Trench, which is a cinematic masterpiece and I will take no questions on that (unless they're Joming related). (Cognizant of the month) Here are spooky things I watched this year and liked a lot: X, The Black Phone, The Menu, Terrifier and Terrifier 2 (this is definitely only for gore fans though), Bodies Bodies Bodies, Cocaine Bear (also a cinematic masterpiece, also not taking questions), Interview with the Vampire, Wednesday, Severance, Evil, The Last of Us, Over the Garden Wall, Magpie Murders, What We Do in the Shadows, and Shining Vale (haven't started the second season yet!). Also really liked: Paddington, Nimona, Barbie, Spider-man: Across the Spider-verse, Vivo, Derry Girls, The Bear, The Boys, Mythic Quest, Only Murders in the Building (I haven't watched the new season yet though but I expect great things), Reboot, Tuca & Bertie, Los Espookys, Barry, Extraordinary, Crashing (I literally watched it three times in a row - watching Sam and Fred fall in love 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻 plus I fucking love Jonathan Bailey - I consistently find him ridiculously charming), Hacks, Avenue 5 (so sad this got canceled when I feel like it just hit its stride), Staged (I've watched it probably six times now), Abbott Elementary, A Black Lady Sketch Show, Ted Lasso, I Think You Should Leave Now (just for that one sketch, you know the one and, if you don't, I am HAPPY to tell you about it!), Unstable (petition for Fred Armisen to be in everything though, right?), Black Mirror, Central Park, Elite (I haven't watched the new season yet!), Reservation Dogs (ditto), The White Lotus, Good Omens, Letterkenny, Minx (what's ditto but for the third time?), Heartstopper, Sasaki and Miyano, and The Other Two.

Shows I dropped/didn’t finish: I'm behind on everything all the time so I'm only going to answer for shows I dropped and I don't think I've dropped any this year?

Currently reading: The Dead Take the A Train by Cassandra Khaw & Richard Kadrey (about halfway through), House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski (I'll be reading this until I die, I think), Cunk on Everything by Philomena Cunk, The Fragile Threads of Power by V.E. Schwab (nearly finished!), The Statistical Probability of Love at First Sight by Jennifer E. Smith, My Darling Girl by Jennifer McMahon and The Vampire Lestat by Anne Rice (decided to do a reread of the IwtV series this year since I never actually finished it and only got to book ten and I read it way too long ago to remember anything that's happening if I just picked it up now).

Currently listening to: My calendar alarm telling me to go to my dog's vet appointment.

Currently working on: getting at least a third of the way through My Darling Girl

Also absolutely no pressure tagging @andavs, @callunavulgari, @piratefalls, @clotpolesonly, and anyone else who wants to do this!

#uh oh i've found the keyboard again #okay i really HAVE to go to this appt now omg #meme #meme answers

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wordsandrobots · 5 months

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[The following is not an essay. It is the author's attempt to grapple with the despair at losing something important to him, presented in hopes someone in a similar situation may know such things are worth grappling with.]

Apropos of Doctor Who's triumphant return to having writing and direction I can actually care about again, I've been reflecting on how much casual 'Moffat-hate' irritates me.

Obviously, I need to unpack that a bit.

I'm talking about the reflexive antagonism towards Steven Moffat's era as show-runner, writing tics, writing in general, moment of centrality to British TV and so on that I am no doubt going to run into if I go anywhere near Doctor Who reviews and analysis again. A sneer about perceived sneering here, another repetition of a narrative-construction gripe there. The regurgitation of old arguments because there is a strong contingent of people who loathe that era and Moffat in general, who have every right to that opinion, and who can quite reasonably bring it up when talking about Russel T Davies' new, second era of running the show, however that shakes out.

The me-problem here is, I loved a lot of 'the Moffat era' of Doctor Who when it was being broadcast. For whatever reason, it hit lots of nice buttons in my head and I had a grand old time watching it unfold. The 11th and 12th Doctors provided some really excellent examples of the show doing its best at what it does best. Indeed, 'Listen' may be my favourite example of a story delving into what Doctor Who is all about, ever.

But there is a degree to which my enjoyment is now perpetually enmeshed in defensiveness. Because the fandom was/is wild tangle of very strong opinions, much of them to the contrary, and that isn't likely to change any time soon.

[And for me personally, my best friend hates that era, which threw into sharp relief a lot of hang-ups I have around needing to justify the things I like. Having an emotional breakdown kind of sharp relief. That's not the sort of thing you just shrug off, even after all this time.]

To be clear, I am not here to defend Steven Moffat. I do not give a rat's arse about Sherlock – it was enjoyable at the time but I can't say it registered beyond 'a thing it was fun to watch once' – and I actively despise Twice Upon A Time, the last 12th Doctor story, for pretty much the exact reasons I think most people rag on Moffat's other work. It is a story ostensibly in conversation with a piece of source material that instead only concerns itself with the refracted, pop-cultural version of said thing, for the sake of being constructed like a joke.

Which in general is an approach far better suited to Doctor Who – a series progressively layering 'canon' atop stories that could not be recalled as anything other than half-remembered versions of themselves for a very long time – than it would ever be for something like Sherlock Holmes. Even if I didn't like Twice Upon A Time, I can at least forgive it as a wider pattern and oh for goodness sake, I've started defending the man anyway, haven't I?

You see the problem. I can't make a critique with any teeth because I am braced for the whole to be dismissed even as I home in on the specific part I wish to unpack. Must I defend a writer in toto because I vibed with one piece of their corpus? I don't think I would for anyone else and yet here we are. This is probably why I count myself lucky to have never been deeply invested in Doctor Who fandom in the communal sense, online or off. This and the people who fawn over the racist giant rat story.

[Talons of Weng-Chiang is a Yellow Peril tale, straight up, nothing else. It also jobs Leela, rendering her forever 'the savage' despite the entire point of her introduction being a rejection of the superstitions imposed on her people and thereafter proving herself extremely capable in new and strange situations. It was also written in Britain in the 70s so this is almost self-explanatory. Just fucking own the fact you enjoy the production values and excellent cast while accepting it's indefensible to claim this is the best the classic series produced, you chronic dipsticks.]

See, I can do it with other examples of what I dislike, bare my teeth and go for the throat. But few people argue we should write off Robert Holmes' extensive contribution to the series because he did a massive racism on account of being a British writer in the 70s. Maybe they should. I don't know.

What I do know is, I understand why the 11th and 12th Doctor eras work for me. I am a white cis man who thought he was straight when they started airing and who is exactly the kind of Doctor Who fan who'd want to solve the regeneration limit with a Five Doctors reference. I never felt like Moffat's grand arcs were talking down to me because, I suspect, I was the kind of person most easily able to imagine I was in on the joke by the end. Then again, the writer who's done some of the most extensive analysis and defence of this era is a trans American woman, whose work did more for my appreciation of Doctor Who history than anyone else. So – yeah.

When I said 'irritate', I meant exactly that. This whole topic is a burr, making it difficult to revisit things I once enjoyed. Maybe this would be the case anyway. I have grown a lot since then. So did Steven Moffat, over the course of writing more Doctor Who than any other person ever. He gave us gender-flipping regeneration, tried colour-blind casting and when it failed to make a difference, specifically cast for a black lesbian. And he revisited Donna's ending with an eye on querying the moral failure of it long before RTD2 wrapped around to the same point. Why should I look kinder on his predecessor, who presided over the abusive shit-show that was the production of the 2005 revival season and yet gets to come back to save the programme again?

Oh, yes. The writing. But Russel T Davies annoys me just as much in some places as Moffat does other people. So it goes. Although I suppose Moffat did hire Toby Whithouse to write the central part of Bill's arc and it was a chauvinistic wet fart because it was Toby Whithouse. He also worked for ages with Mark Gattis, whose writing I could shred on similar grounds. And around and around we go, sniping and arguing which of the middle-aged British guys tried their best, or wrote the worst.

[I am still mourning what Chris Chibnall's era of Doctor Who turned out to be. I was so hyped for getting Jodi Whittaker as the Doctor and then we hit Kerblam! and the oldest, most foundational piece of my inner cultural map no longer felt like something I wanted to be a part of. So yeah, he's the worst, for allowing that story to go out, 'the system isn't the problem, it's the people' and all. That's my 'hot-take', years too late. The man wasted dozens of excellent, interesting, diverse writers and actors on what is ultimately, in my opinion, the most mediocre crap since the Saward Era and his big contribution to the series going forward is to fanwank in an explanation for the Morbius!Doctors that essentially makes the Doctor the specialest special whoever specialed.]

At least Moffat previously made some attempt to spork the god!Doctor approach, before deciding they should textually be the reason evil doesn't triumph in the universe. Sadly, that endpoint seems inevitable. We're long past the days of the Doctor being a university drop-out, bumbling around the universe, interfering from the edges. Pick your saccharine alternative, I guess.

What was I talking about before I dived into my own bitterness and angry fan-ranting? How much people deriding one sitcom writer for his faults and prominence within a particular era of big British TV that sparked vast swathes of internet discourse continues to be an aspect of Doctor Who meta? How that makes me feel? Hah. Who cares?

There's no widely applicable point here, just an emotional sore making me wonder if I'm ready to 'get back into' Doctor Who. Because yes, actively being revolted by the Chibnall Era is the real reason I fell out with the show. And yes, maybe I've just grown beyond the point where Doctor Who satisfies, full-stop (let's leave the political rant about The Zygon Inversion for another time; I'll only be repeating other people). But sitting here, being honestly, genuinely delighted by The Star Beast and Wild Blue Yonder in ways I'd frankly forgotten I could be by Doctor Who . . . there's a still part of me that doesn't want to risk going back and running into those same old arguments. I've seen them before. They're boring. They annoy me. I don't have the energy to deal with it. And I haven't yet worked out how to thicken my skin against them.

Someday, maybe, I will sort the love for Doctor Who I had since I was six and watching Peter Cushing romp around in glorious Technicolor from a factional fandom pissing match I didn't even play a part in. I never was someone who picked fights online over this or tried to make grand sweeping arguments about why X, Y or Z was better. I want to be mellow about differing tastes and just like what I like. I certainly don't want to be the kind of person who rags endlessly on things I didn't enjoy, which is why the emotional outburst above is about as far as I'm prepared to go in talking publicly about the 13th Doctor's run.

[I want to go back. I want to love Doctor Who again, flaws and all. I probably will regardless of this. I am not making a plea concerning fandom's nature. I am neither asking for grace nor extending it. The answer is undoubtedly to carry on along the sidelines, a skulking hermit-crab of a Whovian. Yet the burr remains, the grief sticks and the solid ground of a long-held interest remains cracked. Perhaps that is growth. Self-examination does not entitle one to set discoveries aside, job done, card stamped, and return to pleasures-as-were. Yet I can't deny the raw emotional urgh that comes of hearing the same punches struck over and over, about a portion of the show that at least tried.]

Ultimately, however, I like picking apart the things I enjoy and I enjoy watching others do likewise. And I don't get to do that here without cautiously curating my experience to avoid the ten billionth iteration of ten-year-old internet arguments.

I'll keep doing it, obviously.

But it is irritating.

[This post brought to you by listening to El Sandifer's podcast about The Star Beast. Eruditorum Press is a great site for fascinating media analysis and her TARDIS Eruditorum series is well worth a read if you're interested in the show's development.]

#anyway that's why there is probably not going to be a sudden shift to Doctor Who thoughts on this blog #the Gundam posting will continue until morale improves #fandom #pieces from the rant folder

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sadculturee · 5 months

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AINUN'S FILM REVIEW

THE HUNGER GAMES: THE BALLAD OF SONGBIRDS AND SNAKES

Ratings: 9.7/10

It was an emotionally conflicting experience watching President Snow's character development and eventual rise to power when they have freaking Tom Blyth playing the protagonist. I am going to need a few nights to render my thoughts and resolve my moral dilemma 🙂 ✌️. All throughout the film, I cannot help but imagine the Tumblr uproar if this were to be released in 2010-2014. I just know Tumblr girlies (me included) would be completely insufferable, simping over yet another problematic fictional man.

Full disclaimer though, I haven't yet read the book (I will), so my whole review is going to be based on my first time experiencing his story and the film only. Minor Spoiler Alert!

Right off the bat, very surprising (but obviously expected) this film absolutely nailed it. Once again, a Hunger Games movie outmatched previous releases and broke the bad-sequel curse. It would've been a solid 10/10 from me if it didn't push me into a spiral of moral dilemma over Snow's actions and how GORGEOUS he looked when he was younger (/joke) (/but not really) (damn you, Tom Blyth).

Truly, Francis Lawrence did his magic once more, the whole deliverance of the story was a cinematic blessing. The fight scenes and the tension built up before and after the games had me on my feet, gripping the edge of my seat, terrified yet enthralled by what was about to happen. Having read and watched the trilogy, I have a slight notion of how the ending would be. Whatever happens, Snow will survive and rise as the most powerful victor in all of Panem. And to know that, whilst watching the games and his exile story played out, honestly terrifies me.

Having the story laser-focused (and very well written) on the main villain had me occasionally losing myself in his emotions and perspective, I lost grip on the reality of the abuse and oppression The Capitol inflicted on all 12 districts and their people, with The Hunger Games as the peak reminder of their terrors, showing the people who're actually in power. I found myself empathizing with Snow's character during some of his vulnerable moments. For a moment I imagined if only people were nicer, if his circumstances were a little bit more ideal, Snow would have grown up to be a better person (which obviously was a terribly false assumption as this man is honestly devil reincarnated).

ALSO, as a self-proclaimed musical addict, I simply cannot write this review without giving my highest praise to Rachel Zegler, Dave Cobb and James Newton Howard for perfecting the film with their music. Every time Zegler starts singing, I get goosebumps all over. Her verses and emotions took hold of my entire body and moved me to feel whatever emotions the creators wanted me to feel. Midway, I felt like Zegler's decision to pursue acting instead of singing should make hit singers grateful because she would sweep them away so quickly with that voice and talent 🥹.

The film perfectly mirrors how fights against oppression are often harshly labelled as unjust terrors or savage rebellions, deserving of brutal punishments by the ruling governments. Regardless of how these "rebellions" were simply a desperate attempt for the oppressed to survive another day. When the stakes are too high, beyond their control, and the prospect of a better future is bleak, they would have nothing more to lose. Fighting would be the only option they have. It would be either fight or die. A literal, real-life hunger game where the whole world is your arena. And considering current global events, the release of this film feels extremely fitting. Which raises one big question: "If you can stand with the rebels fighting for justice, against immoral and inhumane rulings in movies and books, why won't you stand for them in real life?"

The movie ended with Snow finally getting a spot in The Capitol, a near guarantee of a successful future, with his grandmother and Tigris by his side congratulating him. Not going to spoil the ending for anyone who hasn't watched the film, but I'm just gonna say that in that scene I so wish I could hear both Tigris and Snow's inner thoughts and emotions.

In conclusion, I regret not watching this movie sooner and totally recommend all dystopian fiction fans to watch in the theaters!

#hunger games #the hunger games #tom blyth #lucy gray baird #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #film review #movie review #dystopian fiction #essay #ainun's movie review

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progamersoleil · 9 months

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Kingdom Death: Year 5 [Showdown]

And so our group of survivors, who I am severely lacking icons to use to do much of anything interesting with (oops), arrive at the end of the hunt to defeat the level 2 version of the Smog Singers.

... but first!

... It's time for Goyo to run over that corpse and give herself brain damage.

@meltylxve

THERE'S A GOOD REASON, I SWEAR.

See?

I needed her to suffer brain traumas so that she could get stronger, and suffer, uh. More brain traumas.

Just five more brain traumas, I swear.

Goyo then proceeds to run up to the first Smog Singer and whip it so fucking hard that the entire group now has performance anxiety and can't sing their weird smoggy songs anymore.

And Loki, with her newly obtained and fancy bow, gets yet another crit thanks to its Deadly effect, getting the group yet another free resource as well as making everyone's attacks more accurate.

"My turn then."

"Aw nuts. We just started."

"I have nothing to feel guilty about. I haven't even landed a hit yet."

Trapped failed successfully.

"Let me at em!"

"... I got knocked into a pillar and hurt my head."

"Don't worry Illya, I'll get him!"

"... He punched me."

... There seems to be a running theme with this showdown.

And then thanks to their performance anxiety from earlier, all of the Smog Singers, uh...

... also fell over and hurt themselves.

Yeah this is just a comedy of errors at this point.

Somehow Goyo, despite having suffered numerous brain traumas already, is the only one here capable of doing anything competent. And continues to just savagely maul this one particular Smog Singer.

To the point where it just tries to run away entirely, terrified of the enraged little blue alien girl, but Goyo has no mercy.

And, uh.

I forgot to take a picture of it apparently, but the next Hit Location I drew caused the smog singer to just like.

Fucking pop.

Like I just straight up fucking killed it and removed one of them from the board prematurely.

Damn Goyo. I think all these brain traumas might have triggered something.

#kingdom death monster

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elliewiltarwyn · 8 months

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FFXIV Write 2023 | Prompt #5: Barbarous

(no, I haven't done #4 yet. still struggling with that one. and with this too tbh @.@;)

5. Barbarous (829 words, emetophobia warning)

Savages, she had been told growing up about the many races that make up the population of Eorzea.

Uncultured swine and violent, primitive creatures, like the barbarians that their ancestors had been forced to fend off—barely even civilized. If you meet one, the best thing to do is to either avoid eye contact or kill them outright. His Radiance is doing them a favor, really, look at the Mad King we deposed in Ala Mhigo. ‘Tis the Empire of Garlemald’s sworn right to go forth and bring all these savages to heel under its banner and properly raise them to acceptable levels of civilization.

Those words have always repelled Mia. The mantras disgust her. She had sworn to never give them another thought, to live her life on the opposite end of that spectrum, expose the infuriatingly hollow pit that laid at the foundation for those kinds of beliefs.

She has never believed those to be true, but Thal’s balls, as she bodily drags Aldis by the scruff of his shirt through the late night avenues of the Steps of Nald, she feels herself beginning to slip and wonder if Solus zos Galvus had a point. Very bad path to start heading down, Mia! Don’t do that! That’s a big reason you ran away!

“I sssee you like it… rough, Mia,” Aldis slurs as he hits a bump on the path.

Then again… She grits her teeth. “My preferences are none of your business.”

“See, you ssay that,” he murmurs, and Mia knows he has that slimy grin that irritates her and Mylla so much, “but why would you spend so much time with me if you didn’t want me to pick up on what you like and don’ like?”

“Then you should have picked up that I hate your guts and am not remotely in your presence of my own volition.”

“Ah, a fair maiden of prrrrinciple and integrity!” He rolls the ‘r’ far too long. “What are you doing sullen…sullying yourself down here, among us rough and tumble gladiators of Ul’dah, then?”

What indeed, she grumbles to herself. “Also none of your business.”

She’s certainly not going to tell Aldis, of all people, that she came to Ul’dah to escape the sins of her heritage, her nation, her homeland. That she had looked her father unblinkingly in the eye as he held up a letter from an Ala Mhigan boy addressed to her and demanded she get out before he turned her in for sympathizing with Eorzean savages. That she had severed contact with everyone she had ever known so she wouldn’t implicate anyone else or leave any trace that could be used to indict her new identity, in a new home far from everything she ever knew.

And here she is babysitting this massive trainwreck of a man who had just decided he couldn’t keep the contents of his stomach at bay any longer. She heaves a great sigh and turns Aldis to the side so he at least aims it away from the middle of the street. This is for Mylla’s sake, she keeps telling herself, Mylla’s sanity. Mylla is always profoundly grateful and apologetic whenever she sends her out to “handle” Aldis, and Mia knows she’s not at fault, but her patience is running thin, and she doesn’t understand how Mylla’s hasn’t with him.

…But then, that’s sort of the beauty of it, isn’t it, she ponders, wincing and pinching her nose as Aldis heaves, gasping for breath. The obsession with purity back home…would have had him before a firing squad long ago. And as disgusting and debauched a man as he is… ‘tis no fate that he deserves. That sort of punishment is unconscionable.

One might even say… barbaric.

She can’t believe she’s talked herself into thinking she prefers this flavor of savage than the one back home, particularly as Aldis falls flat on his back and grins lecherously up at her. She groans, bends over, and grabs his collar again and hauls him up to his feet. “You truly are a blight upon the guild and Mylla.”

“I am, I am… and aye, she deserves far better than what I can give her,” Aldis declares, slinging his arm over her shoulders and staggering as Mia gets a firm grip on him and begins to drag him down the street once more. “‘Tis truly a blessing that you’re around to be the role model, the flagship gladiator, she ‘n the guild need.” He pats her shoulder roughly. “And you too deserve better from me.”

“It’ll be wonderful if you still feel that way in the morning and act upon it.”

“We’ll see,” he chuckles, “we’ll see. I’m grateful you put up with me as is.”

Somehow, Mia sighs to herself, ‘tis the lesser of two evils. Life as a gladiator in Ul’dah isn’t easy, but somehow… she still finds the atmosphere vastly preferable to Garlemald’s. We’ll see how long that lasts, I suppose.

#ffxivwrite2023 #ffxivwrite #my fanfiction #to be honest i barely remember aldis and the gladiator quests. but i do know mia hates his guts :V

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Hello! This isn't trying to pressure you or anything, I'm just genuinely curious and wanted to know about your plans for Mario content (since I know you've wanted to do that for a while). Any fun worldbuilding you'd like to share? :)

Thanks for the Ask!

Man, I wrote Mario world stuff ages ago that I completely forgot about... I had a 100 Prompts series and I think I got into the 30s before it stopped. I had tons of worldbuilding for Cackletta and Fawful specifically since they were my favorites :)

I do still keep my [current] Mario drafts around, but unfortunately I'm not sure when I'll post them... I'm never satisfied. I like the canon worldbuilding the way it is and it Does Not Translate very well into my writing style. I've tried for years, but it just... doesn't.

My Mario stuff is "okay," but it just feels very "meh" to me. I think I'll get there someday if I'm willing to work on it, but I'm not able to do that right now. I HAVE actually thought about it and I might post the occasional one-shot, but I'm not sure yet. My worldbuilding is still all over the place and it's very messy and I'm not in love with it.

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One of my stories is called "Political Machines" and it's about how the name "Mario Kart" came to be; it's Peach POV and delves into the culture of racing Yoshis back before karts came around. I like the idea of it a lot, but it's extremely info-dumpy and I've been struggling with it for years. I think I need to write something else first, but I haven't figured out what. Here's a scene from that:

I also love how savage Peach is skdflj:

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I also have two Bowser stories (a one-shot called "1-Down" which is Kamek POV and covers the deaths of Bowser's parents, which I LOVE but can't make it hit right) and a very loose draft for a story called Carapace Rex which is a Bowser backstory 'fic. Here's a good scene from the former:

I do miss this 'fic... I really like how extreme Bowser is despite how badly bullied he is by his abusive mom; he's vicious to her and I love that.

tbh it's actually really nice and maybe I'm overthinking it. I'd love to finish it; I just can't get the emotions right.

That said, I might take another whack at it soon and post when I'm done fiddling since I've already seen how I'll fiddle with it for years if I don't commit to a date /shrug. It's definitely one of the stories that ever was... It's just not hitting the emotions I need it to.

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I LOVE the opening lines to Carapace Rex (not sharing for major "1-Down" spoiler reasons), but I probably won't write the latter since it's been almost 6 years since I started it back in 2018. Getting older, hoping to publish original work, and starting a new long 'fic wouldn't be a good idea (Dog's Life draft started in early 2022 and Factor in 2018; I'm just wrapping up existing projects for now, but Carapace was always super vague so I don't really want to get into it). I might turn it into a one-shot though since I really love the voice in it.

-> The concept behind Carapace was that Koopas were predators of Toads... I actually reskinned the intro for Carapace into a piece of original content I used in my advanced creative writing class in college, then reskinned it again as the backstory for my OC Courtney the snow leopard, then reskinned it again to be the original project I took to a writer's conference this year...

I'm dying to do something original with predators and prey, but I've had a lot of talks with agents and editors and professional authors and we agreed it's not the right time for this content. To make a long story short, I'd either have to strip the fantasy politics out and de-age the characters so it's "animal people middle grade" or I'd have to age up the characters and push the adult angle and I... I don't know how I feel about my public author persona being "adult furry content"...... that's not what I want; I just want wolf kids hunting in the woods for their coming of age and growing up in this post-war world of fantasy politics and ceremonies... sob. The publishing world has categories though and you have to play by the rules.

Maybe someday... but I have a weird relationship with Carapace because of that, because I'm in LOVE with the scenes from it but I'd hate to use them in Mario fanfic when I'd like to use them in original work. Tsk-tsk. Maybe someday once I've already gotten my foot in the door. I'm keeping this project on the backburner as something I might self-publish but I've talked to a lot of people and I'd rather get something published traditionally and try to build my author platform before I invest, because self-pub is... expensive.

Honestly right now Dog's Life is giving me my "we're way too young to be carrying the weight of this many interspecies politics on our shoulders" fix, so at least I have that <3

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I also have an 8-chapter 'fic called "Out of You" which is about Kamek trying to raise the Koopalings (and Junior). I'll probably scrap most of that and rehash it as something else; I don't think there's much worth saving...? I'll have to think about it.

But here's my favorite WIP scene from it, ft. Ludwig and Peach:

Potential's good, fun is good... Just need to find the right kind of worldbuilding that satisfies me. I'd originally hoped to post Mario stuff before the movie came out in April, but I just never got around to it. Maybe someday? It just doesn't feel right, though, and I can't invest my energy in something I'm not in love with.

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That's all I have to say right now; I don't want to say too much about my worldbuilding since it's still super messy. I have ideas about what would be "cool" or "interesting" but I just... don't love those ideas enough to make them part of "my take" on the world. There is a fine line between "Riddle's usual magical realism writing style" and "At this point it's an AU." I think I need to cull back the crazy ideas and stick closer to canon.

Is that "boring" and "uncreative"? Eh, I think that's just where my passion lies; I write fanfics because I love the media, and if I didn't love it, I wouldn't be writing fanfics. When I write, I want to continue writing the worldbuilding that I love, which means basing it closely on the media. I guess I'll always be canon compliant at heart even in a fandom where I'm okay with writing AUs, ha ha.

Maybe I'll dig up some of my really old one-shots from that 100 prompts project, clean them up a little, and post some of them. I know there were some Baby Bowser and Doopliss pieces in there. Might be a nice icebreaker.

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having-conniptions · 9 months

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Love In The Air episode 8 live reaction under the cut (long post)

I was gonna watch the new episodes of Link Click and Jujutsu Kaisen but I saw the PrapaiSky preview and I need it RIGHT NYEOW

I can already tell they're gonna be the death of me

Wait this looks familiar... timeskip back to the race Rain and Sky snuck into?

Yup, definitely. The dude with the half-jorts is there lmao

I am SO ready to watch everything play out from Sky's and/or Prapai's perspective

And THAT'S when Prapai spots Sky. Bruh if I were Sky I'd have melted right then and there with Prapai smiling like that

He immediately has a soft spot for Sky huh

"He's my boy" not yet baby

He's lecturing Sky but he also saved his ass

Sky's annoyed face when Prapai tries to touch his face WE LOVE A STRONG BITCH

Oh that is NOT how a relationship should start PRAPAI I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU DON'T PULL THIS SHIT

I mean at least Sky told him to take what he wanted

And honestly Sky is really going for it so I guess it's not that bad but it's still some weird power dynamic / blackmailing shit soooo... eh

OH WOW

Lmao at the same time Phayu is lecturing Rain until Rain kisses him - idk if I love getting a recap of the whole first half of the series but I guess it helps put the PrapaiSky scenes in a chronological context while also slowing down the pacing so it's not all over in 2 episodes

Ok Sky is mad and I am confused bc how much of what happened did he actually want? He seemed rather enthusiastic but when Pai went for a second round Sky looked rather grumpy but told him to "bring it on" regardless? Very very dubious consent and Sky feeling used afterwards...

"Single life is the best. I can sleep with whoever I want" oh Mr. Braces over here is a player huh? How old is this kid??? Lmao

Poor Sky he deserves to be loved, not used

Aaaaa the montage of PrapaiSky thinking about each other / trying to forget

IT'S BEEN THREE MONTHS

THAT'S A WHOLE QUARTER OF A YEAR THAT'S A WHOLE ASS SEASON

Hehehehe Prapai is such a player... but he can't go through with it because he can't get Sky out of his head, classic

3 months later Prapai is still replaying that night in his head huh... (riding his bike while thinking about Sky riding him)

Lmao Sky is reading Demon Slayer (I already spotted the figurine in his room a while ago)

Hahahaha the little reference to the source material of the series

"I don't know who you are. But if you're trying to annoy me, I'm hanging up." I LOVE HIS SASS

"In case you didn't know, humans are warm-blooded. And I'm a human. It's normal for my body to be hot. You don't have to help me, cause I don't associate with cold-blooded animals. Farewell." I SWEAR HE HAS THE BEST LINES LMAO

HE'S SO SASSY ICONIC SAVAGE HE'S THAT BITCH

Prapai is just being a bit of a creep rn

The way Sky just yeets his phone

Lmao Pai is already so whipped

Wtf is that chicken dance

"You've met P'Pai, haven't you?" awkward......

Hahaha Sky putting the pieces together "Wind... Prapai."

ALSO I JUST REALIZED I FIGURED OUT THEY HOOKED UP AND THEN DIDN'T SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN (before we actually saw what happened) I CONNECTED THE DOTS CALL ME SHERLOCK HOLMES

Sky needs a ride, HOW CONVENIENT

"Rain doesn't know about us, does he?" THERE IS NO "US" YOU GUYS HOOKED UP ONCE THAT'S NOT "US"

I love that Sky is standing his ground

Pai you're being cringe

So the reason why Sky rejects Prapai is because he doesn't believe Pai is actually interested in him beyond sex and thinks he's just gonna use him 😭 awwww baby nooo you're amazing and that's why he will fall in love with you and give you the world 😭❤️

SKY IS SUCH A SAVAGE I LOVE HIM

Ok sunflowers are cool I'd be thrilled to get a whole bouquet of them

Oh he's calling him! Oh he has him saved as psycho... 💀

He's hesitating to throw away the flowers!!

Bonus scene: "sometimes sexy. Occasionally sad. Mysterious at times." That's how he sees Sky huh xD

#another looong post #mainly about how much i love sky #sky is best boy #love in the air episode 8 #love in the air #love in the air live reaction #prapaisky #phayurain #payurain

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debbiechanclub · 10 months

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AO3 is down so I finally finished reading over here. I take my time, sorry. So Finlay is endgame huh? Nellie and David make sense. She seems more secure with him than the others. David just knows what he wants so I'm glad she finally found herself a real man that's gonna lock it down. Jay missed out and I hope it's killing him that she's with David. Now Riley...he really can't do anything right. Kissing her when she was sad and drunk was a big no-no. Nellie stepping over his stuff was SAVAGE. I'm already rooting for evil Nellie 😈

No worries!!! Thank you SO much for reading and taking your time to send this. I know AO3 is down, but I've been thinking in the back of my head that people haven't said much to me about this fic because they lowkey hate what I've done 😅 So this means a lot to me. But yes, David is endgame. And while I'm not gonna sit here and lie that my own personal bias toward him had absolutely nothing to do with that decision, a lot of thought actually went into it. And since you sent this ask, I'm gonna go through and explain individually why all of Nellie's other love interests just weren't it for anyone who may be wondering! (And reveal just how different things could have turned out 😅)

Okay so first up: Jay. There was a point in time where Jay was endgame. You remember that teaser scene I posted where someone is reluctantly congratulating Nellie for being engaged? Jay put the ring there (and Zack was the person speaking). And to be perfectly honest, if I had finished this fic before Jay lost the IWGP title and left NJPW for real, he probably would have remained endgame. But then he left, and I started thinking about how Nellie's whole life is in Japan, and how her career would really just be starting to take off right around when Jay left. And then I started thinking about how he really didn't treat her that well at all, and I realized her taking him back would have looked so spineless. And so I started looking elsewhere for Nellie's endgame.

Now, I still have to write Jay's arc, and there's still some stuff going on between him and Nellie in that. But she's definitely going to keep him at arm's length, and he's going to lowkey try to sabotage her getting together with David (which I alluded to a bit in the first flashback scene). So Jay and Nellie's story definitely isn't done as written yet.

Next up: Kyle. Like Jay, there was a (brief) moment in time where Kyle was endgame! HOWEVER. I base my fics as much in reality as possible re: schedules and real storylines/fueds, etc. And after Kyle and Nellie hookup in fall 2021, based on Kyle's actual schedule (as detailed on Cagematch; I fucking live on that site) and what I had in mind for Nellie, they don't see each other again for a whole ass year. And by the time they do see each other again, Nellie is already in the process of reconnecting with David. (Yes, reconnecting! They go on a date wayyy back in 2017 during Nellie's first trip to Japan, which I also have plans to write about.) And actually, Kyle plays a part in Nellie realizing she has feelings for David—which is yet another thing I plan to write about. (It might be a flashback scene in part 2, actually.)

But to sum up Kyle and Nellie: right person, wrong time. It really is kind of bittersweet. And I wrote a REALLY long scene establishing Kyle as endgame that I might just post as a bonus because I worked hard on it and like it and don't just want to scrap it.

Zack. There's honestly not much to say here. Zack and Nellie have hella chemistry, but they don't work as a couple (outside the bedroom 🤭). And that's basically the entire reason they don't get back together despite Zack being the only one of Nellie's love interests/exes who lives in Japan. He was never (seriously) considered to be an option for endgame (despite that Cruel Summer fic I wrote that I regret every time I remember it 🙃). I do plan on writing a bit about when they were together before they realized they weren't right for each other, though.

And last and maybe least. Riley. Riley was never endgame. (After the rewrite) He was never anything more than a casual ongoing hookup for Nellie before she got together with Zack. But like I've written, she has a soft spot for him because she pities him a bit, I think 😂 That being said, her stepping over his things on the way to the Bullet Club locker room was absolutely a deliberate choice on my part.

So yeah, there's my long-ass explainer, and I hope it helps anyone who may be thinking I just willy nilly threw Nellie together with David. And thank you again for reading and seeing my vision. It means more than you know 💖

#asks #there's some good stuff under the cut if you read my fics #OR if you're just curious!!!

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timeisacephalopod · 11 months

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So I started The Suicide Squad last night (the James Gunn one, not the first one I think gets ripped on too much not because it's a great movie people rip on for no reason it's a BAD movie, but if people are willing to defend Superman dir. Zack Snyder, Batman V Superman, and Justice League then they can't bitch about Suicide Squad. Like I'm sorry if you're willing to defend any DCU movie Snyder has directed you can't seriously think you have a right to complain about Suicide Squad), and the new one is a VAST improvement over the first.

First of all James Gunn would never lead me wrong lol, but also even if I haven't finished it yet the plot is solid, the movie feels like it was made purposefully for adults rather than some in between family friendly and adult shit superhero movies like to pull and Peacekeeper (played by John Cena) is my fav character from it (aside from Harley Quinn. Obviously I'm not a savage) if for no other reason than his one line being something like "I love peace I don't care how many men, women, and children I have to kill to get it" and I was like ohh America has entered the chat 😂😂 (Canada too don't think I'm letting my country off when Harper ruined our rep over seas as a peace keeping country gargling American Ballsack and now all we're known for is being Americas lackies in their imperialism 😒😒)

#winters ramblings #the starfish villian is cool af i want to watch it eat people which i suppose i will once home from work lol

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bingbongsupremacy · 11 months

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Pen Pal

Pairing: Ellie Williams x reader

Warnings: Slight mentions of homophobia

Summary: You've been Pen Pals with Ellie since you were in 5th grade. Will you finally get to meet her in person?

*Not Proof Read* TLOU Masterlist

Pt. 1 Pt. 2 Pt. 3

*****

November 3, 2028 (10 yrs old)

Dear Y/N,

My name is Ellie. I'm a fifth grader in Miss James' class in Wyoming. I like Savage Starlight and cookies. My best friends' name is Riley.

Do you have a best friend? Do you like Savage Starlight?

Sincerely Ellie Williams

November 10, 2028 (10 yrs old)

Dear Ellie,

Hi! It's nice to meet you! I love Savage Starlight! My brother hates them though. He never takes me to buy them at the book store :(

My bestfriends' name is Julie! Cookies are cool! I like ice cream. I have a dog. Do you have a dog? Do you like frogs? I like the color pink. Do you like pink?

Sincerely Y/N L/N

June 20, 2030 (12 yrs old)

Dear Y/N,

How's your dog? Joel's teaching me how to play the guitar! I learned how to play a song yesterday! I'm so happy.

Riley and I are planning on going to the fair tomorrow. I wish you could come. I bet you'd love Riley! Maybe some day you could meet her.

I finished the new addition of Savage Starlight yesterday and I'm so fucking sad. Did you finish it? I won't spoil. Let me know if you did so we can talk about it!

Sincerely Ellie!

June 28, 2030 (12 years old)

Dear Ellie,

I have bad news. Pepper died.

She died last night. Mom said she got really old and died in her sleep. Pepper was a good dog. I'm going to miss her.

I'm really sad. I wish she was still her.

I haven't finished Savage Starlight yet. I'm waiting until I feel happy. Maybe in a few days.

Sincerely Y/N

August 3, 2032 (14 years old)

Y/N,

Riley's moving away. She came over and told me today. I'm really sad about it. She's been my friend ever since kindergarten.

She's moving to Boston.

I found an a cute ice cream shop yesterday and thought of you. Maybe some day you can see it. We could get ice cream there and then look at the comic book store.

I can't believe Savage Starlight is fucking ending. I've been reading it since fourth grade. I don't want it to end. How do you feel about it ending?

Love, Els

August 9, 2032 (14 years old)

Els,

I'm so sorry about Riley. That sucks. I hope you guys can still talk.

I'd love to go to the ice cream shop and comic book store with you one day. My brother went off to college today. He's studying to be a doctor. Cool right?

I don't want Savage Starlight end either. I wish it could go on forever. Fucking sucks.

I think you're my best friend.

Love, Y/N

September 12, 2032 (16 yrs old)

Y/N,

I won first place in the art show! I'm so fucking happy. Joel took me out for ice cream with Sarah yesterday. We had so much fun.

Do you think we should start using email? Or texting? Joel got me phone yesterday! I'm so excited! Here's my number if you want to text xxx-xxx-xxxx and my email: [email protected]

I've started working out at a local gym. I love it. I'm going every day. I think I might do something with space when I'm older. I really like space.

Also, I'm gay.

Love, Els

September 18, 2032 (16 yrs old)

Receiver: [email protected]

Subject: Hi

Els, this is my email! I'll send you a text right after this. I'm so happy for you! First phone yay!! Also congrats on the art show!

The gym is fun! And space is so cool! I'm not sure what I'll do yet when I'm older. I'm still deciding. I'm glad you know what you want to do though.

Also, cool! I'm glad you feel comfortable telling me! I love you, Els. <3

My brother's being a fucking asshole. He refuses to come to my birthday party because his girlfriend's parents want to have dinner the same day.

I wish you could come. Maybe some day.

Love, Y/N

May 2, 2034 (18 yrs old)

Receiver: [email protected]

Subject: So

I think I might not be straight. I'm not sure. I've only told you. I can't tell my parents. I don't know how they'd react. I know my brother would hate me. He's a fucking dick now. I don't know why he's the way he is.

My parents have started fighting a lot. Money problems I think. I think my dad might have cheated on my mom too.

I'm excited to go to college next year. I'm glad we got into the same school! We'll finally be able to meet. I've been wanting to meet you for years. Maybe I can finally get away from all the shit that's been going on lately.

I don't know why this all happened so fucking fast.

I hope you're well.

Lots of Love, Y/N

May 2, 2034 (18 yrs old)

Receiver: y/[email protected]

Subject: So

Hey, so I know how you're feeling. It'll take some time to figure out, but you'll get there. No matter what, I'll love you.

You're family sounds like a bunch of dicks. I'm sorry you have to go through that.

I've been talking with Joel and he said I could do this.

Do you want to come stay with me and my family over the summer? Maybe get a break from your family? We could idk finally fucking meet?

Let me know if you want to come to Wyoming. You could meet my friends. Then we could drive up to school together. It's not too far from my house. Maybe day or two away.

Also, I got a girlfriend. her name is Cat. She gave me this cool ass tattoo. I'll send a pic.

__Pic Attached__

Love, Els

My eyes scan over the email again, making sure I didn't imagine what I just read. Ellie just invited me to Wyoming for the summer! There's no fucking way I'm missing this opportunity.

I'm finally going to get to meet her!

My eyes land on the last line. I got a girlfriend.

Fuck.

#fanfiction #fanfic #ellie williams x reader #ellie the last of us #ellie williams x you #ellie x you #ellie williams tlou #ellie williams x female reader #ellie williams #ellie tlou

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liarian · 1 year

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@random-elsen as you wish :D

summertime writers' asks!

🦋 tell us about your current wip

My current WIP? Living in Reverse! MP100 Mobrei.

I think it's my most personal work until now and the first time I try to make my MC get over someone who meant everything to them.

There's also In Between (the second part of my Bokuaka Stay with me). I'd like to get back to it some day but not in the mood right now.

My Serirei Age Swap AU counts as a WIP? xD

🌿 who is your favourite character you've ever written?

That's a difficult question. I think I'll go with Bokuto, but Reigen gets a really close second position.

🌞 favourite character from current wip

Reigen. No doubt.

🍦 what is your current word count?

On Ao3 312,123 words. I'm a really slow writer and too inconsistent. Just hope I never get into another 10 year rough patch without writing :O

🌻 least favourite character / hardest to write

Not really sure about my Serizawa characterization. Mob doesn't like to talk with me too much. I worked too little with him :S

🍉 favourite wip

MP100 Age Swap AU is the thing that most resembles to having fun writing for me, so I'll go with it

☁️ wip you want to write but haven't started yet

I want to write something with Kitsune Reigen and there's a little comic going through tumblr about Reigen and Mob meeting another version of themselves that has a lot of potential as a fanfic

And the selfcest Manga Reigen/Anime Reigen can be fun if I find an interesting plot to develop with that concept :D

🌸 wip you've been working on the longest

There's a Stucky Omegaverse that I tried to work into an Eruri Omegaverse that has a lot of potential to become an original story (and that just loses more and more A/B/O elements every time I look at it)

The inception of the idea comes from 2014

✨ newest wip

Living in Reverse

🦩 wip you hate working on but are too far gone to turn back

Thank god, the one that made me feel like that isn't a WIP anymore. I can't say I hated working on Chains of the Past (Eruri), I really love that story, but it got my mind in some dark places I'd rather not go again.

🍸 character who inspired your mc

It's been too long since I tried to write some original work so I'm not sure I can answer this one. Reigen is inspired by Reigen xDDDD

🌱 book that inspired your wip

It's been too long since I read it but I know "La Plaça del Diamant" of Mercè Rodoreda but there's something about how she wrote that book that stayed with me.

🍃 what is your genre?

Slice of life? Character studies? I joke sometimes about "I'll stay with you". I made the most boring Magical Realism I could. Even with magic everything feels too grounded on reality :O

🌼 least favourite writing genre

I'm very bad with action. I don't like to write horror.

🥥 least favourite reading genre

Horror

🐠 author who inspires you

As a writer, Eduardo Mendoza, Sam Savage, Ursula Le Guin or Neil Gaiman but I don't care much for writers so I'm not sure how much of an inspiration I can consider them.

🍯 author you know

This one.. not sure about it :O

🌷 writing achievement you want to brag about

I finish things xDDDDDD Not always, but it happened more than twice. Just some years ago it felt like it would never happen.

🍄 name a song that represents your mc

LiR soundtrack is this one :D

Lacuna Coil - Upsidedown

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🍬 a song for your favourite character

This one makes me think in Bokuto

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🌤 name the hardest thing you've had to do for writing

Put in risk my own mental health. Sometimes I get too much into it.

🍰 where you like to write

Depends on the day, but must of the time I need to be on my studio, with my workshop station and my big screen to see my doc, notes and images all at the same time.

🍧 weirdest place you've written

I don't consider it really strange, but in my phone while going back home in the train

🕊 mc's MBTI

I'm sure my characterisation isn't ENTP but who cares xDDD

🍀 character you would kill off if they were not vital to the plot

There's no one vital to the plot I'd like to kill but Age Swap AU Reigen's dad could die and I won't cry for him. That man is an asshole.

🍓 worst thing you've done to your characters

Akaashi got raped on First Love. Levi lived in an spiral of remembering his own suicide again and again once he got reincarnated.

Age Swap Reigen got tortured for what felt months in his own mind.

Lots of bullying in school for too many characters too.

👒 nicest thing you've done to your characters

Give them someone in their lives who understand them and want to make them happy

🌾 book you would / have writ(t)e(n) fanfic for

Strangely, I love Lord of the Rings and Harry Potter but never felt the need to write fanfic for them.

Comics, you can choose xD Haikyuu, AoT, JJK, Rictor/Shatterstar, Captian America, Banana Fish

🌨️ book you hate

Oh! The 7th Book of Harry Potter. That one. I can't. I'd like to burn it.

🐥 here's some writing motivation!

It was fun to answer :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

rb for an ask!

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Darling Eloise, my dearest friend!!

I apologize in advance if my handwriting in this letter is a little uneven; I must admit, my hands are a little shaky right now!! There is some reason for this, and it is also the reason why I am writing to you once again!!

You won't believe it, – good lord, even I do not believe it completely, – but I've just received a message from Igor!! Do you realize that?? This message is right in front of my eyes, but I still cannot believe that all this is happening in reality!!

He's wondering why I've been away from the hotel for so long!! And he called me "DEAR", can you imagine that?? There is no limit to my joy, I cannot stop smiling!!

And, my God, I just realized that I have to answer something. I need your wisdom and a fresh look at this situation because, at the moment, I cannot think straight and judiciously!! If I start answering right now, I am afraid I'll say something unnecessary!! I don't want to be shown to him in the manner of an irrational and inadequate person!! I hope you understand!!

Anyway, I hope you're in good health and you're doing well!!

Sending much love as usual,

Jemma.

To my dearest little post gal,

If you were here I'd imagine our unified harpy screams to be able to shatter glasses and be the horror of every seller of such conundroms. It seems our little friend Igor may have developed if not a crush, a interest in you atleast! You have always been godlike at leaving a remarkable statement with people haven't you goodness gracious. Like the incident with mister Parlemour am Goetheplatz! What a scream such occasion was!

But deary was his handwriting in any way shaky, it may just be a sign of how he was awfully nervous like a giant fawn over writing you. Told you he'd take a liking to you eventually! His "Dear" appears a dead giveaway if you ask the professional matchmaker (still my little heart feels quite insulted you daliated from the service)!!

Maybe try to slip into a different gown for the occasion, like a masquerade. Be cool and casual like a bottle of chilled champagne during a business meeting of the men in suits. Yet, you should retain your original dashing self. The first orange freckled leaf of late summer you are. After all that's what he fell for did he not ~

Okay putting the breaks in there, but mayhaps attempt to find out more on his personalities in life. Whom and what he holds dearly close. Such Informationen Are utmost vital!

Deary I will not apologize for my terrible handwriting, as you well know me and my pleasures taken. You are aware of my favoritism of words - so you shall find it agreeable for us to meet up and discuss everything et all included won't you!

Keep your head safe until then and be all well.

Your dearest wishes, Eloise

PS. Vivian sent you a parcel with a gown for delivery to God knows who. Thought to inform you darling.

PS PS. Have you recently heard the news of what has been going on at the border? They say numerous people were savagely attacked by police officers. Not to stress you.

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sklifasofski · 4 months

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Another Modern COTL AU

Sounds like the Spider-Man theme: "Wall of text, wall of text! I'm so in love with wall of text! 🤣"

My brain will never tire of creating stories for me. Anyway, I'm now thinking about an alternate version of the story on the Cult of Lamb. The action takes place in modern times and some details of the original story have been rearranged. So now Narinder and the other Bishops are members of the same mafia family (with Shamura in charge), where their relationship is still strained (Cat only has a relatively warm relationship with Hekat). Lamb Lambert is now the leader of a small commune with a religious bent (but without the fanaticism and sacrifices) and he himself has become a very charismatic and dodgy manipulator.

I haven't yet come up with the main reason why the Mafia decided to pay attention to the Commune. Probably a matter of money or expanding influence. But in general at first there was a quiet confrontation, where the Mafia showed its power in every possible way, but Lambert did not give a damn. He basically treated the threat with a slight chuckle, as it seemed to everyone. Narinder was sent to him first as a scout and then as a liaison. The relationship between Narinder and Lambert was like a meeting between two strong predators, looking for weaknesses in their rival. But since Lambert is a manipulator, he easily figured out the cat's type and built up a behaviour to be liked by him. Lambert just didn't take into account that his "game" might become something closer, but he accepted it without any arguments in the future.

🐑: Every relationship starts with play. With the interest of "can I do this?" and then "what does he like/dislike?". And that's how friendship is gradually born, followed by love, if the heart desires it – that's what Lambert will tell Narinder one day in private.

At one point, along with Narinder, Lambert is visited by Leshy. I made him a savage, that he is a bit crazy from the power and the fact that he is blind is his thing (blindness does not prevent him, as he perceives the world differently, but it occasionally makes itself known). In general, Leshy bursts with all his authority right into Lambert's ceremony. For weight behind him goes his thug Bulldog with a bat, Narinder stayed at the exit from the hall (the cat in principle was not rude by nature although he tried to show the opposite every time). In general Lambert and Leshy got into a verbal altercation (Lambert is calm, Leshy is a pompous turkey), where the lamb noticed the blindness of his rival and allowed himself to come closer. At one point Leshy gets fed up and pulls out a gun and starts threatening not only Lambert but also the commune members sitting in the hall. Lambert is not frightened by this and plays the surprise perfectly: "Why did you pull out the pipe?"

He needed a second's hesitation from his opponent to make a sharp jerk and hit Leshey in the sternum, from which the latter flew almost to the very exit. The thug came to his senses a second later and tried to hit Lambert with a bat, but the latter, due to the size difference, easily dodged until he intercepted one of the blows and toppled the attacker over himself onto the empty seats (I wonder if it's easy to break benches with a human body in reality or not?). In the end the thug lies down and in the next moment Lambert gives him an ultimatum with Leshy's gun in his hand and he has to obey. After that the lamb calmly turns away and going towards the exit to Leshy discharges the pistol according to all safety rules.

In the meantime, Leshy comes to his senses and becomes furious. "How dare you?!" he shouts and snatches the knife. Lambert throws an unloaded pistol at him with a precise movement that hits the worm right in the forehead. The worm explodes with screams and curses, until Lambert comes over and simply lifts the stunned worm by the scruff of the neck and waist, as if he were just some kind of sack. Ignoring more screams and orders to let go, Lambert walks further towards the exit, nodding to Narinder to open the door, which he does.

It's worth mentioning that in front of the hall there is also a hallway with a sort of reception, where an unfazed hen is sitting. Lambert reaches the front entrance and with a little spin throws Leshy out of the building. And before the thug and Narinder leave the building following on their own feet, Lambert holds the cat for a moment. And though his hand rests on the cat's shoulder calmly, you can see from Lambert's face that he's enraged.

🐑: Tell your boss not to send any more bushwhackers like that to me.

Next up is an episode of Lambert working with the Mafia. Primarily to steer the Mafia away from the Commune I think, or to prove that there can be co-operation between them. Eventually Lambert manages to get a "proficiency" assignment from Shamura and is given the task of collecting a debt from a former Mafia member (or just a debtor?). Narinder is put as his overseer, aka assistant.

At first the dialogue with the debtor fails. Although Narinder tried to push, Lambert persuaded him to give the lamb time. A week later, they are back again and this time Lambert brings some information with him, causing the debtor to change his mind about being impolite. Lambert still maintains his decorum, does not enter uninvited, wipes his feet on the mat, takes his shoes off in the hallway, and generally does everything he can to make the debtor no longer feel particularly threatened by him. Narinder doesn't really follow this plan, though doesn't show any resistance to it.

As a result of some persuasion and suggestion, Lambert decides to offer the debtor a deal. Interestingly, he takes out a contract already prepared and explains that one of the hospitals is under construction, which will be taken over by the Mafia (Kallamar has a place in the health care of the city where everything happens, he is also one of the main Mafia members). The debtor clarifies if this is slavery, to which Lamb also clarifies "are the other alternatives better?". Narinder realises too late that Lambert has taken the debtor out from under the Mafia's nose, because they won't get the money. Lambert has also thought about the money and has demanded only a third of the amount needed from the debtor, the rest of which he will pay with his labour. And so the debtor agreed to this bargain with a heavy heart.

Of course Shamura was not happy with this result, but he recognised Lambert's ingenuity. Only to note that the remainder of the debt was now on Lamb. Neither the Lamb nor his Commune could repay such a sum without consequences for themselves, but Lambert has no choice. But even here he finds a solution, with a slyly mischievous grin.

Narinder had been assigned to watch Lambert, so the cat had to follow the lamb to the night strip club. At first he couldn't understand why Lambert had decided to come here at all, until the lamb told him to sit down and enjoy the show. Lamb seized the moment and climbed onto the stage and started his dance. He danced so skilfully with the pole that Narinder could only marvel. And unsurprisingly, Lambert began to receive a lot of money. However, even this was not enough and Narinder realised this and decided to help by slowly making his way through the crowd "looking in their pockets".

When they were both able to leave the establishment through the back door, Narinder asked if Lambert was not afraid for his reputation. He replied that he didn't have one, as he dressed back and tried not to lose all the loot. But then the one-eyed Ratau, the owner of the nightclub, pulled him by the ear. In the course of a small skit Narinder and Lambert learn that Ratau is a mutual acquaintance of theirs, and Ratau about Lambert's debt to the Mafia. Ratau suggests a game of "knucklebones" since Lambert needs the stolen money so badly. To which Lambert, under Narinder's irritated look, agrees. The cat only urges him to get the lamb fully dressed.

So all three of them enter the club again, but Ratau leads them roundabout to the back rooms, where a small club of dice-draggers has been set up. All the rules and its look are taken from the game. A couple of other players are already in the room, and they are happy to see Lambert again. This is how we learn that the lamb is at home here, which Narinder strongly disapproves of (here we can reveal the beginning of a warm relationship between the cat and the lamb). Having learnt what is about to happen, everyone is eager to get to the table where Ratau and Lambert are seated.

The dice game itself seems to me to be just dialogue between the characters (it could be written here how Narinder is explained the rules of the game, how Ratau is interested in Lambert's affairs, it could be also added a hint that this is where Lambert got the information about the Debtor). But in the end Lambert wins by a large margin, but before he can collect his winnings, Ratau smartly offers to up the ante. He's willing to pay the missing amount to Lambert's debt if he loses, but if he wins, all the money will go back to him. And before Lambert could say anything, Narinder tried to stop his friend. He realised all too well where this could all lead.

👑: You have a debt to pay. Take the money and let's go.

🐑: Come on, Nari! One more batch wouldn't hurt, hee hee!

👑: Idiot! Do you really want to risk everything for a measly game??

🐑: Who doesn't risk doesn't live!

And Lambert gets into the game. Narinder leaves the room in anger. Once outside he was about to leave, but something stopped him. Some friendly feelings prevent him from just leaving Lambert. In the end, sighing heavily, he returns. Then there are purely shots of a tense game, there could be inserted a moment with whispering from the watchers "Fortune is hungry for a spectacle" in the sense that both the lamb and the rat get equal dice, until we find ourselves in the moment with the last roll of the dice that will determine the winner. Ratau is leading by a wide margin on points. Lambert has one last square of his field to cover.

Lambert picks up the dice... and then offers Narinder a roll. The cat has been sitting at a distance all this time, still very sullen. At Lambert's persuasion, he got up and walked to the table. Before he took the dice, he asked earnestly.

👑: Do you not care at all what will happen to your Commune?

🐑: It will be fine. My personal account can cover the debt. I'll have to tighten my belt if I lose, but that's okay. It won't be the first time. – He smiles back at him calmly.

When he realised that Lambert was not going to retreat, Narinder only sighed. Blowing on his fist for good luck, the cat threw the dice. It hit the wall of the table and started spinning. Everyone (excluding Narinder, Lambert and Ratau) reverently whispered "Knuckle of Fate!" and Lambert and Ratau raised their hands from the table so as not to disturb the spinning dice. This scene must look very tense, breathtaking. The dice keeps spinning and spinning, coming towards the wall to get away again. And then it stumbles and the six fall.

Quickly assessing the situation on the table, Lambert jerkily grabs the bone and puts it in the only free square on his field, thus knocking out the neighbouring sixes from Ratau's field. And takes the lead on points. There are sighs and gasps all around, Ratau is overcome by the realisation of his loss, and Lambert jumps up from his chair full of joy at his victory. Narinder smiled involuntarily at his friend's joy.

The action then moves to Narinder's car, where he and Lambert get in to leave. But the Cat is in no hurry to start the engine, thinking deeply about something.

🐑: We forgetting something?

Narinder sits unmoving until he looks at Lambert.

👑: Why are you like this?

🐑: Like what? – Smile. Before Narinder can articulate anything, Lambert answers for him. – Crazy? Unleashed? Chaotic? – A brief pause to see the look on his friend's face. – Because it's fun!

👑: And that's it?

🐑: For the most part, yes. I know it seems silly and unhealthy from the outside, but otherwise I'd be really moody. It's like... um, a way of confronting the world? Its sullenness, its greyness. Because the alternative is to fall into the depths of darkness. Better to have a good time while you can, don't you think?

👑: Yeah... and how were you raised like that? – The question was rhetorical as Narinder started the engine and they were off.

After some silence, Lambert asks.

🐑: Do you want to meet my parents?

👑: What?? - he slows down.

🐑: To meet my parents. – Lambert replies casually. – We can do that right tomorrow if you don't have anything else to do.

👑: Again... WHAT?

Transition to the moment of Lambert and Narinder trip to Lamb's parents. The cat still doesn't understand why he agreed to go. This action is shown in silent shots where Lambert says something to his people at the commune (perhaps warning them that he will be gone all day). Next we see the two friends travelling by public transport. Through the picture dubs, we learn that Cat wonders why they didn't take his car, and Lamb replies to him that it would ruin the secret. Narinder still doesn't understand what this is all about, but decides to stay.

When they arrive at the right place, they walk down an almost empty street. Lambert goes into a small flower stall and buys two small bouquets of flowers. The stall owner, a white ferret, seems to know the lamb. Narinder still doesn't understand anything. So they walk a little more until they reach a high brick wall, along which they continue on their way.

Narinder notices that there are hardly any houses on this street, and that they are practically on the outskirts of the town. Looking up at the brick wall he notices a small arch in it. Beneath this small archway stood a winged statue with a few roses lying lonely beneath it. Narinder remembers that such statues are only found at graveyards or old churches... and we see his expression change at the blood chilling realisation. Stunned, he looks at his friend. Lambert notices the cat lagging behind and their gazes meet, then he beckons him to follow. Lamb smiles softly the whole time.

So they make their way into the cemetery grounds. The guard knows Lambert and waves to him, Lamb nods back. So they walk along the rich tombstones, with lithographs, flowers and monuments. They leave the main street and Lambert leads him between the fences of simpler graves, but no less unique. Narinder involuntarily looks around, noticing the details: there is a well-maintained gate behind which there is a small tombstone engraved with the name of the deceased on white tiles, and next to it are the rusted bars of another forgotten grave, long since overgrown with grass and bushes, of which only a rusty cross is left. He would keep staring at the land of death until they arrived.

Lambert walked behind a blue wicket with white bars, treading carefully on the gravel and placing bouquets beside each headstone with names and photos. Narinder can't help but notice that it's as if the photos have been cut out of some sort of context, as if there were no others where both of Lambert's parents were just staring into the camera.

Lambert greets both tombstones, talks a bit about what happened to him, and then introduces Narinder to them. The cat has been standing outside the wicket the whole time, not finding the strength or desire to go in.

🐑: Oh, don't be like that. Come on in. Make yourself at home. – the lamb smiles at him.

The cat didn't come in immediately, but he did. This is where the debt arch and the close encounter with Lambert ends.

Then there are small scenes of Narinder and Lambert getting close to each other when they are already a couple. I have an idea that Narinder took the love between them... more or less calmly. There's not a lot of passion between them, really, mostly cuddling, spending time together, and kissing on occasions (when Narinder is in a good mood). There's an idea to show how they came to this, but so far it's all murky.

There's one scene I have where they're both lying on the couch undressed. Or rather, Narinder is lying on the couch and Lambert is lying on top of him. In this scene, I imagine there's a dialogue between them about their relationship.

That's enough for now, but I'm not done yet XD

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