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wanderingpages · 6 months

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Noooo chapter 5😪😪😪😪 we’re coming to a close, fellas. I cannot… and yet. I can. We move forward my sisters in god

Oh…not him spending winter break with her…in the same house… as their parents…with all this…tension…. (Ive seen this [adult] movie before)

Aww he holds the door open for her… helps her take off her socks…walks her to class/.., it really is the little things. His actions… Peach said show dont tell 😮‍💨❤️

Not Cardan being fluent enough in french to have La Chute in its original publishing bye thats so hot of him and dare i say,..timothee chalamet core…. @iknowitwontwork wya (This is rockstar anon btw i am on medication (dont worry abt it peach this a little inside comradery bby)) anyways have i mentioned you write and its like a movie?

““Is it your favorite?” I ask. I wiggle my brows, “Do you think you, too, have fallen from grace?”” – first, not babygirl being versed in Camus 😛 secondly, ohhohoo i love all the biblical references

“His smile is Cheshire in response, “Since the day I met you, little sister.”” - u know what…. At least he honest, like its really now hitting me that hes soooooooo honest about it. Playing a little game as jude said when he was leaving her dorm after the party… like its a game but an honest one. Like am i crazy or is he just trying to see how far he can provoke her w their situation and honesty?

Omg wait not him CLOCKING HER the very next paragraph (By the way i feel like u should know, i have the chapter open on one half of my split screen and the other half is your ask box lol i am literally typing as i go like this is the wattpad comments section fr)

i feel so smart and validated that cardan literally says all of that ^^^ like wow i should have held my tongue (fingers) and read the next paragraph lmao

ALSO BAD THING SBY CULT DIDNT I LITERALLY SAY SHE KNOWS DOT MP3 BEFORE????

I like that his jewelry comes up frequently because its part of him, just like her knuckles come up cus its part of her fr like both of them are so natural abt it too like her playing w his chain and him rubbing her fingers like ugjhhfh SHOW DONT TELL IS SO IMPORTANT

Whoaaa not him clocking ASHA now!! Not jude saying her mamma dead or alive she dont really care, RESPECT

Wait not him pulling up to the gas station to get a first aid kit….like he really doesnt say a word about it at allllllll

And jude said oh, more time alone with him? In a diner? Count me in ❤️

Oh shit cardan has moneeeyyyyyy – “I guess, there really is a lot about him I had no idea of. “I'm an honorary member,” he shrugs, “It’s kind of hard not to be when Daddy funds their lifestyle.”” purrrrr

Oop!!! “ “Ghost is my best friend. It would have been a fight had it been Locke or anyone else,” he divulges, and though I shouldn't be startled by his honesty, it still makes me feel a little too warm. Then he admits, maybe selfishly considering his track record for the past few weeks, “If he had gone further, I would have buried him.”” HELLO

Lol jude got some balls to say ““That's a visceral reaction,” I come to terms with. “Your best friend?” I blush when I remind him quietly, “you’re the one who told me to open my mouth.”” cus like she right tho

Ahhh! I squeaked ! ““Plus, I think you look cute with a dick in your mouth.””

When hes a feminist 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 – ““What makes you think you have any right over my body?” / “I know I don't.””

Hold on hold on hold on wait a minut wait a minute hold on, when did cardan transition from little sister/dear sister to baby? It happened so naturally how am i this far in and catching it???? I love him

Lol jude said fuck condoms we fucking raw or not fucking at allll 😤😤😤😤

“After a while, I notice him staring. “Do you want some of my pie,” I offer. / “Is that a euphemism?” / [..]“Do you want it to be?”” – yes, i do, i wsnt it.

““What's the pipeline between mommy issues and wanting to bend your sister over the bathroom sink?” “ - HELP ME?! – ““Stepsister,” I tell him.” – emphasis on step fr okayyyyyyyyyyy

““It makes no difference to me, Jude. Sister or not, I’d want you the same way I wanted you then, the same way I want you now.” ” - wait why is there butterflies in my tummy 🫣🥺

““I want you to copy me,” he says, huskily, startling me, my eyes growing wide. “I want you to stick your fingers in your panties and do what I do.” ” - PEACH…the gasp i gasped …. !!!! PEACH

IN THE DINER!?

IN FRONT - ACTUALLY !! ACTUALLY IN FRONT OF MY SALA D IN THE DINER?! .. do continue

““I think…I want to do to you what Spring does to cherry trees,” he murmurs. “Open you up…watch you bloom.” ” – DO NOT BE QUOTING PROFOUND POETRY RIGHT NOW IM GONNA FALL IN LOVE.

His fingers in her mouth jus - 🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶PUT MY FINGER IN UR MOUTH CUS U LOVE THE TASTE

“He pulls out of my mouth, a trail of spit losing connection when he finds his way under the jacket, following my hand, and adding his finger to my two. I whimper at his intrusion, and think, disoriented, three. Three fingers.” – no fuc me for real PEACH PEACHERLY ANNE POSSIBLE i dont care that its dirty as hell this shit is poetic

NO NOT THE WAITRESS !!! NOT HIMS STILL GOING TOOO AHH PEACH

My heart racing rn

Oh god.. The soft forehead kiss…like he didnt just rock her world in a booth in the diner… im literally and figuratively unwell

“He kisses me sweetly when we get to his car, and I kiss him back, because we can, for right now. ” – why did this hurt?!

AND ALL THIS TIME HE DIDNT EVEN LIKE CHERRIES

Not is it out of your system!!!! Twk ate w that fade to black fr tho

““Cherries?” / “Me,”” - STOP hes so fucking cute

Okay this might be the longest ask yet 💀 my sisters in god is sending me💀

I think in any fic I’ve ever written, cardan is always holding doors for her lol

Not timothee chalamet core 😭😭😭 @iknowitwontwork ur friend is here, come get her ❤️

lol that is a nice piece of info to be made aware of 💀 I was lowkey wondering if you were switching through tabs lmao meanwhile I’m scrolling up and down trying to respond 💀 lol it would be soooo much h easier if this was the Wattpad comments section. Like they ate w that…that one little thing. They ate.

You did mention the song!

I really do try so hard to show not tell cus I hatttteee reading tell not show in books😭 like don’t tell me he loves her, show me!!! Where’s the build up?? The tension??

lol if cardan is blunt, Jude is ballsy (I hope it comes across this way lol)

Actually don’t know when that transition happened I just be typing stuff 💀

Always emphasis on STEP lmao he’s not the step brother he’s the brother that STEPPED up lmao lemme stop that was uncalled for anyways yes the diner, yes infront of your salad, ues the waitress, yes that song lmao

Also you should know the first time you called me peacherly anne possible, something in me changed like the stars alined and now peacherly is my go to user name for websites and stuff cus slayyyy who tf else being called peacherly ????!!!

Two really did eat w that lmaooo

#asks #sometimes I throw in angsty little one liners to subliminally prep u for the third act angst #just so yall don’t get bamboozled ❤️

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dreamsy990 · 2 years

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various persona 5 doodles i drew the other day on a call after *ahem* the akechi scene in shidos palace. if you know you know. quite a lot of them are akeshu. also some p5 spoilers below, but if you know the scene im talking about then youre good.

if i have a comment on a specific doodle ill put it under the read more

morgana while being the only straight pt, is an ally. he just doesnt like akechi

“god fucking damnit kris where the FUCK are we!?”

dont ask i just draw akechi with a bowtie because he deserves it. also he has a lasergun why does akechi have a lasergun

i like to think akechis reaction to ren was “oh no hes HOTTT”

i exclusively refer to akechis second fit as “yugioh bdsm pajamas”. also man akechis whole breakdown felt really gay like “you’re just criminal trash living in an attic!!!! how are you more special than me!!!??” like sir i get it youre jealous of the attic but we can share it bestie!!!!! also “ill destroy you” kinky quick translation because my handwriting is bad “sorry man. we cant kiss because your beak is too big” “NOOO” *cries so hard he becomes bdsm yugioh*

i wish you couldve ditched the thieves and joined akechi to kill shido because like genuinely i want that bitch dead

just some best girls!!!! haru and ann are great and i want them to be besties

akechi but with makoto hair

consider: ren deserves really long hair because king

the person i was on call with mentioned they hc third eye gives ren red eyes when he uses it sooooo

ended up figuring out how i wanted to draw their eyes here!!!! yes ren has the vaggie eyeliner because hes an ICON

i like to think that throwing a glove at someone is a way of proposing. anyways wouldnt it be funny if instead of just catching it, it either hit ren in the face OR ren just threw it right back at him???? anyways

ren but i gave him the twilight princess beyblade and clawshot

oh also bonus i came up with an akeshu childhood friends copyright free shadow the hedgehog au while delirious and after i rewrote a basic summary here:

got confused with some of the names so quickly gloom - shadow swift - sonic shins - knuckles heads - tails calamity rubies - chaos emeralds

anyways gonna finish the game tomorrow!!!! god is waiting and i will smite him. soooooooo no ending spoilers >:OOOOOOO (just so you know like what point im up to, right at the uhhh yaldaboath fight or whatever his name is)

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plural-swag-competition · 1 year

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LILAC?

Lilac -> funniest submissions?

Oh gosh! There were some great ones. It gets a bit long though, so they're under the cut. Warning for potential spoilers and swearing.

Also this is definitely not all the amusing ones. There's. A Lot. And eyes got a bit cross-eyed towards the end there.

Yugi and whoever I dont even go here but I've seen a meme of "hey get you're headmate to front I want to duel" and thats enough for me

I respect whoever sent this in. Us with the Warrior of Light let's be real. "WoL and Fray and. Whoever" is an equivalent of how we'd do it.

sora’s heart hotel 5 motherfuckers for the price of one:) Sora That boy can fit so many fucking people in his heart. Like. Literally ENA they're soooooooo

It's literally cut off like that. It's great!

Uendo Toneido Subverts the murderous alter trope b/c it turns out they were actually a fucking 5 year old Cassie O'Pia When you give a character multiple physical facets of their personality and they ask the protagonist just who is the 'real them', call them Archetypes all you want, that's plural vibes bay-beee The Warrior Of Light I am pointing at Dark Knight. I am pointing at Reaper. I am pointing at the shadowbringers quests where another shard of your soul inevitably becomes a part of you and you see him and get moral support from him The Warrior of Light Dark Knight go brrrrr (canonically any WoL that picks up the dark knight job has two headmates, one count selfcare demon who is tired of you not caring about yourself and thinks you need to learn how to tell people 'no' and one count traumatized child who did not enjoy all the murder and dead friends that happen over the course of your typical final fantasy experience). Also bonus headmate post the events of Shadowbringers with Ardbert.

Self care demons are great, okay? We have one, though he's pretty short. Though now I'm wondering if there's any Dark Knight recordings done by potato players. How does that work out?

Malik Ishtar (x2) textbook trauma response (with added supernatural egyptian magic bullshit), made funnier by the fact that it's one evil guy... and one even eviler guy. the "but wait ! there's more !" of bad guys, i love him so much <3 Ford Cruller Mind split into several selves due to shenanigans (however, does lack swag) Vyncent “Virion” Sol This guy is an entire DnD party stuck in 1 body Vinegar Doppio (NOT Diavolo) phones the other guy by using whatever he has on hand. feral and insane (affectionate) and also somehow still manages to be cute. his hair looks so nice. on the other hand Diavolo (other guy) is completely swagless, so i guess it balances out

For the record: the other submission included both, and it just felt weird to have one without the other. Plus we just don't know much about the series.

BMO BMO BMO BMO BMO!!!! Roronoa Zoro im gonna be honest its bc his swords talk to him but also mainly. its because i kin him Red Controlled by a bickering incompetent horde of Twitch chat. Somehow became champion anyway. Diggory Graves THEY ARE A PERSON MADE UP OF PEOPLE!!!! Henry Stickmin They told us so themselves ♡ Yahweh, Jesus, The Holy Ghost - The Holy Trinity. Three entities saying they're one entity? Sounds like a system to me! - For the bit. me i have the most plural swag more plural swag than any fictional character ever

#asks

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crossover-enthusiast · 6 months

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soooooooo like-

it's not like a zombie apocalypse or nuclear fallout, instead its a full collapse of society and law and a basic forever purge. basically half the town went on a murder rampage and the few that survived have to fend for themselves.

the for sure survivors are hanna (oc), rick, meerkat (oc), patty, kevin, skid, pump, lila, ross, robert, john, jack, carmen, richard, jaune's husband, frank, and whoever else. and the for sure deaths are jaune, dexter, streber, suzie, radford, roy, mayor evermore, ignacio (haha poor eat shit) and whoever else. most of these people got seperated from eachother in the chaos and a lot of them are just trying to survive or find eachother again.

as for specific character lore? thats where it gets interesting..

kevin is actually only of the guys who went wild killing people, hes a part of a gang called the Romers (purposfully spelt wrong) and is violent as shit. now that society basically collapsed he finally lost it and let out all his pent up rage in the worst way possible- he actually killed radford and ACCIDENTALLY killed streber (the bob incident didnt happen in this au). i dont think kevin would go to this point in canon honestly, but its for the sake of this au having some known enemies that he does.

rick? rick entered his doomguy phase. he saw radford's death and he wrongfully thinks that patty and hanna are also dead, so he basically snapped and became an utter badass out of spite. he's still got his main personality at his roots but hes definentally way more openly angry and violent but not outwardly murderous or evil like kevin is- hes on the right side of things and only kills people if he has to but yeah. hes surprisingly self preserving and puts up a good fight for his survivial.

patty and hanna found eachother and are bunking out with eachother as a team, both trying to reunite with rick as to constrast rick's pessimistic assumption that they were both dead hanna believes intently that hes alive.

ANYWAYS YEAH

OOOOOOOO

This sounds rad as hell!

And yeahhhh I get Kevin. I don't think he'd snap to this extent in canon, but they're in an apocalypse after all, if anyone would be driven to their breaking point by this it'd be Kevin

Rick as Doomguy is honestly a wild comparison but I dig it

Also tbh Carmen and Richard being alive is interesting to me -- they lost everything I'm assuming, including their own son. Lots of character potential there

#Spooky Month #Kevin #Rick #AU

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mythological-survivor-no-mikoto · 4 years

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Episode 2 - hello i am wasted - Abrielle

The round began with a Jigsaw Puzzle Reward challenge. The reward challenge came down to a very close battle with only 12 minutes separating the winning tribe from the losing tribe. Awashima however, managed to secure the victory and the reward. The immunity challenge was a match-up game of Dots and Boxes. Both tribes quickly got into battle, finishing the challenge the night it was announced. Awashima defeated Hiroku 5-2 in the challenge, giving them their first immunity win of the season.

After the results were announced, Sam was quick to throw out Zac’s name to Constance. However, Constance flipped it onto Odd for being inactive socially and Sam agreed. Sam quickly set out trying to gather the votes to go after Odd. However, many people felt Sam was also lacking socially and viewed Odd as a challenge asset and the vote turned towards Odd. Olivia initially felt like taking out Sam was not a good idea, viewing him as a more social player. However, despite efforts to attempt to flip the vote, Sam was voted out in a unanimous 9-1 vote.

“I saw my life FLASH before my eyes. I really thought I was strutting out with an idol. FIRST BOOT”

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Vi mentions to Adam she’s glad they have a connection: “I have a connection...? glad I know about it”

10 minutes later, after talking with Vi: “I. Fucking. Love her”

“I really like corinda”

“im ready to kick ass and take names. also im still so woke at the fact that i was just given an idol like. my mind”

Constance goes on an expedition to the Sado Gold mine and was exiled for 12 hours.

“Alright. That's easy, since by the time I go to work I'll be good to talk to people anyways, oop”

During the jigsaw challenge, Katie and Regan were playing Animal Crossing together: “might ahve wasted a minute hitting regan with a net”

“My dream core 3 would be nikias myself and corinda. Bc I know Abby has connections with Rachael and aly has connections with Constance.”

“Ok I know us losing is tragic but DID YALL SEE MY TIME COMPARED TO ALL THE OTHER HARDS AHAHAHA. Why tf didn’t vi do hard she’s amazing at puzzles”

“how crazy is it that the one person that my score didn't beat was surprisingly the secret one I went up against?!?!?!”

During the match up challenge:

“that was a floor wipe of a first match up”

“2 out of idk am I about to jinx us and make us lose? we'll see”

“Man em is hard to carry a convo with. she just doesn’t give much in conversation”

On his third expedition of the day went to Kanto Plains in Honshu and did the Jenga challenge where he stacked 14 plates to earn 14 expedition tickets

“FUCKING OMGGGGG. BEST PRIZE EVER”

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“I hate pre-merge tribal councils. In my games i am usually out either pre-merge or towards the end. Timing is important and the time for safety on this tribe is over, I trust Olivia and Aly. I like what we created yesterday and the dynamic of it, i don't think i am a target at the moment since they are people who barely talk in this game. I think one of the guys will be going home which would be probably either Sam or ODD i believe, or even Zach since his challenge score have been horrible, i mean i am not talking about the puzzle but how the hell did he lose 24-1? did he throw it for whatever reason? like it feels like you have to try to have a score against you that bad, on the other site V looks like a genious based on her challenge scores so it may just have nothing to do with what Zach did but how smart V is actually.”

So Constance suggested an alliance between me Abby and Him, i think that's another good idea, i just think i may would have to change the dynamics of the bigger alliance chat. Unless i can connect these 2 alliances with each other someway somehow, i may should try to avoid the concept of a bigger alliance at the moment. Idk if Abby see's me in with the alliance that Aly, me and Olivia are trying to make and then she see me in our Trio potential alliance could get me in trouble.”

“yes, yes. To be honest i was hoping to get out Sam instead of ODD and the best thing is that i didn't even have to try hard for it, in this vote my goal was to try to have an unite tribe while at the same time i want it to be strong and ready for the next challenge. Odd is a challenge beast, you can't take that away from him even if his social game is not existing as much at the moment. I was on call with Constance and he was pretty locked on ODD but since he change his mind about the vote and ODD messaged him everything changes, intersting isn't it? Anuway i don't mind that, Constance seems like a good shield for me at the moment and i like that for my game. Right now he is giving the result that i want with out me even have to try hard about it.”

“As man, I really would prefer odd to be voted out rather than Sam. I can see Sam as a future vote and someone I could have a side alliance with if I earn his trust. Odd never fucking talks and he might be better at challenges than Sam? But like who’s to say. I’d rather have someone who gives a shit about the tribe than someone who is MIA lol. And see Sam stepped up to the plate for the challenge and accepted it last night while odd didn’t. Where was odd? Who knows”

Olivia goes on an expedition to the Kanto plains on Honshu, where she completes a challenge requiring her to name and post pictures of birds. She earns the maximum possible advantage: a plus 20% challenge multiplier for the next eligible immunity challenge

“oh fuck yeah”

“Sam is 14 and doesn’t talk a lot but he talks in the tribe chat and in PMs more. Odd never talks in the tribe chat and is bad about talking in PMs and doesn’t talk about gameplay. Sam doesn’t do great in challenges but he at least tried the last one and odd didn’t! But everyone seems dead set on voting Sam out. Is it worth trying to keep Sam in? Or should I just go with the flow. Someone started the hit on Sam and I’m hearing the same thing from everybody”

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“we really did that. Stan Olivia and her win. I can’t believe how close some of the wins were and how long it took”

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“it’s really neat when you put a couple votes on someone and they come back and tell you you’re their closest person on the tribe 🙃 hope my girl Abby is safe at tribal tonight ❤️”

“well my tribe is super boring I like Rachael. I like Katie what a queen she’s my number one. Marc I was shocked to see here. Happy he’s here love him. I dont really talk to Adam much Jay and I hosted multiple tumblr seasons together””

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https://youtu.be/arjTCA2SN_g

“It seems as though this first vote for our tribe is going to be a pretty straightforward one. It was down between Odd and Sam from what the consensus has said and while Odd may not be as talkative, he is someone who excels in competitions from the looks of it, whereas Sam does decent in competitions but has rarely spoken to anyone. If it is to be me this round for some miraculous reason, I'd be very surprised, seeing as I have given everyone nothing but respect and effort on the tribe. I really feel like I can move forward with this tribe with the connections I have if I successfully survive any tribal councils we go to. I am just remaining positive like I have been and hoping for the best!”

“hello i am wasted but here to make a confessional hehehe. soooooooo i am here to update that not much has happened since my last confessional, it seems like everyone is on the same page and there will be a unanimous vote for sam. im hoping this is the case and im not being lied to but we'll see!”

“Sam - man, I tried. I tried”

#Mythological Survivor #episode 2 #Survivor

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saintkimora · 7 years

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here is how my last date went w joel (once again i have mixed feelings about it) plus how things are going now

so i saw him the other night. i got there and it was him marissa and lindsey as usual but they also had their friends moshe and adiena there. so that was kinda awkward (for me at least). they were all just sitting around talking and moshe and joel were playing mario kart on the switch and then joel made everyone watch like category is, read u wrote u, the s8 and 9 finale lip syncs, and the alyssa edwards drop dead gorgeous mix. it was kinda awkward bc the others werent really into it after the first 2 videos (except marissa legend) so i was getting secondhand embarrassment but it was still fun i guess since i got to sit next to my man

BUT then things took a turn for the worst bc joel made some attempt to include me in the group conversation. i got so sweaty instantly and i was wearing a tank so i was like fuck! nothing to cover it up. so yeah eventually moshe and adiena left and it was just us the 4 sisters again

marissa started vacuuming and lindsey was showing us some books she has. then they both went to their rooms and it was just me and joel. he said chris was still in his room playing tekken 7 on his ps4 and he didnt wanna kick him out yet so we stayed in the living room and he made me watch the great british bake off with him and it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO boring omg like this is what yall call a competition? it was not intense at ALL literally flop shows only

then eventually we went into his room and he kicked chris out (after playing one round w him) so it was just us. this is where the date got enjoyable

one of the things he did was he started talking to me about his opinions on like race and stuff currently in america. and his opinions were all p good except for a few so that was fine. it was nice i guess to have like a serious convo w him i guess

THEN he referenced something from his childhood and i didnt know what it was obv so he was like “ive never told you the story of my childhood??” so he told me and oh my gosh it was so SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD omg im not gonna put all his business on here but it was such a sad story and i felt so bad for him and i wished i met him years ago so i couldve been there for him through all of it. but yeah it was v unfortunate i was like shocked like he seriously could not catch a break and he explained to me how the things from back then affect him to this day w like his anxiety for example and yeah. like obv i wasnt happy to hear about all those sad things but i was happy that he told me bc it made me feel closer to him

now for the part i DIDNT like. so at one point he somehow tried to talk to me about what celebrities and porn stars we think are hot. i did not want to have this conversation bc it feels pointless for me bc i dont keep up w celebrities and plus like the guy im with is always the #1 hottest guy for me so i dont feel the need to lust after celebs and porn stars. but whatever he was insistent on talking about this so we did. and the part that made me feel :/ was that none of the guys looked like me. like literally all the celebrities and porn stars he listed literally looked NOTHING like me whatsoever. like i didnt have a SINGLE thing in common w any of these guys. so to hear him going on and on about how hot these guys are and how they could have him any day and stuff was just kinda deflating to me bc they were all like the complete opposite of me in terms of looks. like they were all super buff daddy types and i have like 0 muscles and i dont really have strong chiseled features either. like i know im prob being oversensitive/too competitive but idk it just made me uncomfortable

and then when i told him all my faves it was different bc he did have a lot in common w all the guys i mentioned. he was like “im noticing a pattern here” and hes right, like if i did have a “”type” he would probably be it. i personally dont like talking about hot guys w any guy im currently with bc for me its like if the guy im with is all heart eyes emoji about another guys looks then obv im gonna look at this guy and compare myself to him which is not something i want to do since most of the time the other guys have me beat. so i dont bring up guys i find hot for the same reason bc i wouldnt want the guy im with to feel insecure or inadequate or contribute to a negative body image or something. i know not all people think like this and lots of people are perfectly fine w admiring other guys w their s/o but for me its just not something i like to do

so that was the worst part. it made me feel kinda empty the next day (in the moment it wasnt as bad, it was uncomfortable but it wasnt until later that i realized that i really did not look like these guys at all). actually i think this convo happened before the childhood convo. but anyways after all those convos that is when we fooled around

so this time it was fun! first he had me teasing his hole w my dick. its mildy pleasant to me but he like loves it lol. then he did the same to me but his dick was like lubed up from when i was jerking him off beforehand and it really felt like his dick was THIS close to slipping into my hole omg i was nervous i was like if he moves his hips slightly too much im literally gonna lose my virginity LMAO but it was still fun! he ended up cumming on my hole which i honestly didnt mind bc it was easier to clean since its less surface area than say my stomach or something

then i jerked myself off while he kissed me and played w my nipples and stuff since thats still my preferred way to cum. it was nice and then we showered together afterwards. and i forgot to mention it but a few dates ago we showered together for the first time which was super fun!! that time i sucked/jerked him off in the shower until he came. this time we had already cum so we just cleaned ourselves

then we went to sleep. we woke up and got ready and i got to see him eat breakfast! he had cereal and he looked soooooooo cute omg and then we left his apartment together, then parted ways bc i had to go to my car and he was going to the bus stop down the street. he left bc he is visiting his family back home bc he needs to get some documents to do something for fafsa and he wont be back until wednesday. and i leave on thursday so rip we just have one more chance to see each other

so that was that! also on the date before that we played this really fun game together called lovers in a dangerous spacetime and i had so much fun! omg we were such gaymers

so yeah thats it! one more date before we have to be apart for a month. im really sad about it actually like ive been getting really emotional over it. like im gonna miss him but also hes kinda going through a difficult time in his life right now and it makes me feel really bad that i wont be able to be there for him in person when he needs me. and ofc im still worried he might meet someone else, like a month is a long time so its v possible for him to forget/lose interest and try to find a new man instead. and these gay apps are location based obv so he could be reinstalling grindr or something and i would have no idea since im so many miles away!!! i doubt he would but again i didnt think caleb would do that either and i was wrong on that so im not trusting my own judgment anymore

im gonna try to enjoy greece but im gonna miss him a LOT and i just hope hes able to hold himself together while im gone since i wont be here to comfort him since im gonna be on another continent. if he does meet someone else im gonna be really sad about it but i am gonna try to be optimistic about it and ill still be able to text him like every day so its gonna suck but it could be worse i guess

#personal

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