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#5x19 A Hole in the World
bronx-bomber87 · 3 months
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Happy Monday lovely fandom. Lots to love about this one. Their opening scene is *chefs kiss* Some good Metro Tim. Really good Tim SL in general. Love this episode it’s fantastic for a lot of reasons. Let us begin shall we?
5x19 A Hole in the World.
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We start off with some domestic Chenford and I’m here for it. Gimme. Lucy is studying in what looks to be one of Tim’s shirts. *squee* Pen in her bun looking all kinds of adorable. Tim stumbles out of her bedroom looking dead on his feet. Lucy having coffee ready for her sleepy boyfriend is everything. Her soft voice and excited features when she sees him is so precious. Gah she loves this man.
Ecstatic she gets to see him before work. Spend a little time together. She asks when he got in? Tim replying depends on what day it is? Ha Poor tired Tim. Lucy shooting back 'That bad huh?' Tim saying he’s eighty percent sure it’s Thursday LOL Lucy crushing his dreams telling him it’s Tuesday….His face is too funny. Poor man needs a day off in bed and snuggle time with his wife.
Lucy asks him what he was working on last night? I just love the whole feel in this scene. Him waking up all sleepy. Lucy is there happy to greet him. Little banter. Asking about what he’s working on. Married vibes in this moment. Lucy saying she stayed up incase she would catch him. Hoping the guy would turn himself in. Risking losing sleep to see her man. My Heart.
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Tim says he did show up though. Showing her his battle scar. I saw a great parallel about this moment. That in past she had to ask if he was ok. Now he just shares it with her. She doesn't have to wonder. *happy sigh* Then we get the most glorious thing of all she calls him ‘Babe.’ Which I absolutely love. I think it’s so fitting for her to call him this. Unpopular opinion alert. I hate ‘baby.’ I legit cringe when I see it in a fic. Will straight bounce if it’s used to death as well. Just doesn’t seem like them IMO.
Babe seems much more fitting. Until I hear that word come out of either of their mouths. (Not counting Dim/Juicy) I can’t accept it as canon in my brain. Anyways that rant is over ha I love the concern and the way she softly touches his wound. Wanting to fix it for him. Can we talk about the tight fitting tank top and scruff? My god this man is trying to kill me. Sleepy scruffy Tim in his jams is welcome anytime. Give me more tank top Tim as well while we're at it. Loving that he has a hoodie there when he wakes up.
Which lends credence to my drawer theory. Man is keeping clothes there. I’m melting from all of these things at once. This is a fantastic opening scene for them. I love the way he shows her his wound first thing. Wanting her to make it better. The softest of humans around his girl. The way she gently touches it has me reeling. You know part of him showed her so she’d love on him a bit. Lucy jumped all over that and a sweet pet name to boot. I’m in heaven.
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Lucy mentioning it was confident of this guy to try and take on 5 metro officers. I'm losing my mind over how once Tim is seated he’s not close enough for her. So Lucy pulls him even closer. Personal space wasn’t a word they knew before they were together. It’s non existent now that they are. Lucy lights up like a Christmas tree once he’s in front of her. Look at her above. Best thing to happen to her morning is him being there.
That line from 2x05 'They look so happy. I want that.' Now she has it and it looks good on her. Tim’s content ‘Mmm' and head tilt has me melting after she pulls him closer. His sweet gone for her smile and rubbing her arm. I'm a puddle. He is just as happy to be near her. Literally so content to share a quiet morning with his girl *internal screaming* They’re so adorable they might kill me. I’ll be writing the remaining reviews from the great beyond. So damn soft I’m on a cloud.
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Once Tim is able to tear himself from her loving gaze he sees she’s studying. Genuinely confused asking what this is all is? I love her playful hit. Thinking he's pulling her leg. Tim is so baffled by this. She reminds him she’s studying for the detectives exam. Then questioning if she told him. I mean she might’ve but the man is sleep deprived and doesn’t know what day it is so...LOL
Tim replying he doesn’t think so? Lucy explaining why she’s going for it. Tim asking if she got the tap? Lucy is beaming when she tells him Harper and Lopez are backing her. (Of course they are. They know what a BAMF she is) Lucy looks so excited to share this news with him. Look at how proud he is of her. Exuding from that sexy smile of his. These are the moments where he’s that big softy for her.
Look at this love struck man. So proud of her he can’t stand it. Lucy starting with a little bit of self doubt. Saying with skepticism all she has to do is score in the top 12. Tim cuts her off before she can doubt herself any further. Saying she will. He knows how good of a test taker she is. Also how incredibly intelligent she is. He is her biggest fan and makes my heart so happy. Something that hasn’t changed from friends to more. Tim’s unwavering faith she will be amazing. No doubt in his mind about her crushing this.
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From day one all he’s wanted is for her to succeed. To have an amazing career. Such the supportive husband not letting her doubt herself at all. I love her ‘Mmm’ as she leans in for their kiss. Heart eyes galore for him. Knowing that’s what he’s doing fo her. Her smile before she goes in for their kiss. *dreamy sigh* Always needing more than one kiss so they sneak in a second one. Forever love that. Such a great shot of a really cute morning kiss.
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I adore the look on his face when he pulls back. That whole she fell first he fell harder resonating here in that look. The sweet rubbing of her arm getting me in feels as well. Can't keep his hands off her. Tim saying they better get used to not seeing each other then. Lucy adding in sadly yes. Between his hours and detective hours it'll be harder. Can see the sadness wash over her. Just as devastated by this idea as she was at the end of 5x12. Hating the idea of being apart from him so much. I do love Tim’s confidence it’ll be ok though.
Reminds me of Lucy’s in 5x12 and her talk with Tamara. Saying how they’d figure it out and they did. Little rocky but they did. This is a new obstacle for them to overcome is all. I love his wink at her when he tells her they’ll figure it out. It is fun to see their dynamic shift a little bit. Lucy being worried they’ll see less of each other. The worry is etched on her face. Tim being the positive one blows me away. Knowing they got this. Now that doesn’t mean they don’t need to have a deeper convo about this.
They for sure do. But I adore the depth of change in this man. With Lucy by his side there isn’t much he isn’t willing to do to figure it out. What happens when you are truly and unconditionally loved. Lucy has brought out this entirely new side of him and I love it so very much. Also it’s good for them to have these issues to work through. It’ll be productive for them even if it hurts a little along the way. Why productive angst is the best. Hurts so good and all that.
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Nothing I love more than watching Tim in Metro mode. Hot damn. Fair warning he makes me very feral in this section. I have no regrets. Grey has looped in Tim and his team to watch Joel. Surveil him since he is a huge person of interest. Something about the the way he commands his team. Does things to me. Watching how he has plans in place.
Communicates everything so seamlessly. Just the complete control he has over this OP got me all hot and bothered not gonna lie. This case is serious but I can’t ignore how much I love watching him in the field. Especially with Metro. Phew lord. So much certainty in his commands and decisions. Crossed my legs couple times watching him in action not gonna lie LOL
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We haven’t really gotten to see him on a mission yet. Be apart of patrol's mission's yes. But run his own OP that is exclusively Metro that we get to see? Haven't gotten that. I loved being able to watch him in his new element. Making calls on the fly as the situation develops. Then we get to see how he reacts under massive pressure running a team. He is watching Joel and it's obvious he is trying to split his team up. Tim can see his play from a mile away. Tim decides last minute to split them up in case. His seasoned gut coming into play in this decision. He's such a damn boss in this portion. Fanning myself as I watch him run this OP.
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If you can watch him in this portion and not be turned on by his boss leadership I'm shocked.... and you're probably lying to yourself. LMAO Man is making me very thirsty in this scene. Just watching him have absolute control over everything around him is incredibly attractive. I need some water. *phew* We watch the hard choices he has to make during this OP. Joel has taken a motorcycle and they’re chasing him.
It’s getting more dangerous the faster he goes to get away. One of his guys is in pursuit and says he can keep up with him. The issue is he's in a car and Joel is not. Tim lets him pursue Joel till it gets too risky. Joel is going 130 entering the free way on that motorcycle. Tim makes the call to pull the plug despite some protest from his guy. He does as Tim tells him to and backs off.
He can't ensure no collateral damage due to the pursuit. Can't have an innocent family possibly get hurt to do it. Having to let him go despite wanting to pursue him. We can see how having to make this call frustrates Tim. It was the right call but damn it sucks. Once again love watching him in the field. Imma need more Metro Tim OP's in s6 writers just an FYI.
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We return to Lucy at the station. They were able to locate Joel at an abandoned house. The kid was saved and removed thankfully. Sadly Tim had to shoot Joel once they entered and located him. He died on the scene. Didn’t leave him any choice in the matter. The shakiness in Lucy’s voice kills me as she approaches Nyla. Needing her guidance in this moment. Very stressed Tim still isn't back from IA yet.
She’s so worried about Tim and her anxiety is coming off her in waves. Harper being the amazing human can see this. She is tells her it’s ok. Harper can see how unsettled Lucy is. So she tries to calm her with some logic. Telling her that these types of interviews with IA are very through. They take awhile. That Tim will be fine. Lucy still looks like she hasn’t taken a breath though. That she can't do that till he's in her sights.
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Tim makes his way into the bullpen and Lucy looks on verge of tears for him. That pull to go towards him is innate. Harper stops her when she sees Lucy move towards him. Telling her to let him talk to Grey first. She loves him so much. The look in her eyes when she sees him and her eyes follow him across the room. Ugh. My heart. Worried girlfriend mode has been activated and she can’t turn it off. There is just so much love in her expression and intense worry. A deep need to automatically make this better for him.
We can see how much she is longing to be near him. Wants to wrap him up in her arms and erase his pain. You can feel the anxiety coursing through her as she watches him make his way to Grey’s office. No one worries and cares for Tim like Lucy does that’s for sure. Plus her empathy is absorbing it all as well. She’s hurting because he is and it’s killing her to be away from him. But she is good and heeds Nylas advice to let him go for now….
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The scene in Grey’s office has me crying. Gah Eric damn you and your amazing acting. He is WRECKED. Absolutely wrecked. Barely keeping it together in front of Wade. You can see the tears brimming in his eyes. He’s so emotional right now and trying so very hard to keep it in check. I'm so glad that they had this scene. Touched on how traumatic this was for Tim. Wasn’t glossed over. This scene showing the impact it had on him. Not only did he take a life but it was another cop's. One who KNEW Tim would have to pull the trigger if he forced his hand. Joel took the cowards way out. Made Tim pay the price for his exit.
Grey can see how distraught he is. The tears in this man’s eyes are breaking me. If Lucy could see this he would be in her arms so quickly. But she isn’t. I'm so glad he saw Wade first he needed this. Was important for Grey to absolve him in this moment. To hear it from someone who was his mentor and superior at one time. Not that Lucy’s opinion or help isn’t valid or wouldn’t help him. It will. He just needed to hear it from Grey first. That what he did was the right thing.
It’s why Harper suggested he see him first. Before she does. Logically Tim knows all the things he’s telling him. But he’s an emotional time bomb right now. So Grey reminds him that he had no choice. That he was dangerous. Tim repeating ‘I know’ because he does. Doesn’t change how he’s feeling though. I love Wade asking if there’s anything he can do? Tim gives his longest answer telling him to let him get back to him. Such a good scene. Broke my heart but damn good.
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We return to our lovely couple catching up in the hallway. What a glow up this is I have to say. Going from hiding to Lucy being on his arm in front of the whole bullpen. The PDA in front of the station got me all in my feels. My heart may implode from how happy this makes me. Love her linking arms with one hand and touching his arm with the other. His reply to her question is such growth for him.
Before when he was keyed up he would just be angry. Lash out at those around him or push his feelings down and pretend he was ok. The fact that he can say he’ll be okay is huge. Tells her this calmly too. What a change in him. I remember seeing good parallel for this. His answer to Nell in 1x12 deflecting 'Yeah' and his reply to Angela in 2x11 when he was upset raging out. That he was fine just needed to blow off steam. With Lucy he's honest and doesn't deflect or explode. How far we've come.
Makes a massive difference when you’re loved by the right person. Lucy tries to be super soft in her approach. It’s why she’s does the soft touch first. It disarms him and she can speak her anxiety. Let out all the advice she’s been dying to say since he got back. Wanting so badly to soothe his raging emotions. Tim cuts her off and says it’s not the first time for him. Being bristly at first because it is still a default mode for him. Grown a lot but still getting used to the love and support of this woman next to him.
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Lucy doesn’t let it stop her from being extra soft with him. She looks like she just wants absorb all his pain. Her eyes screaming as much as she touches her hand to his heart. Telling him she just wants to be helpful. Desperate to absolve him of this. He immediately melts at her touch and reverts back to soft Tim. Especially with her motives being so damn pure and in favor of helping him heal. Two episodes in a row she soothes him with just a simple touch. God I love them.
Tim thanks her eternally grateful for this woman in front of him. That she loves him and cares enough to do so. Put him first even when he’s slightly bristly still. Just like before they were together she doesn’t care if he is. Her main objective is to take care of him. He rubs her arm in the same affectionate manner as he did in their morning scene. This sweet touch speaking volumes for him. He’s so used to doing this stuff alone. To not have someone to be there in the aftermath.
But having her there for him changes everything. That realization melting his bristly reply from earlier. Heart eyes for days the two of them. In front of the entire station and I can’t get over it. Lucy giving him massive ones in reply to his thank you. Wanting so much to just make it better for him. Feeling like she isn't doing enough to help him though this. It's the way her body sags in that third gif. Wishing there was more she could do for him.
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Tim needing the distraction from his emotions asking if she needs help? We watch Lucy melt like a puddle in front of him in the second gif. Loving him asking her if she needs it. Because despite the distraction it provides he genuinely wants to help her. Then we get a glorious call back to 2x02. Him basically recognizing all she did for him then in this moment. Knowing he wouldn’t be a sergeant without her. Without the books she recorded for him. Helping him study etc. Getting verbal recognition all these years later from him.
I too am a puddle Lucy. Not only recognizing her for what she did but telling her he wouldn’t have gotten score he did without her. (He really wouldn't have...) It’s here we see the scene go from serious to flirty as hell. Lucy touching his chest once again with her finger. Saying that’s true he owes her. Lucy seems so excited by this idea. Ready to cash in this long owed debt of his. Tim is smiling when she pokes him. Not an agitated bone in that man's body over this.
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Tim is sassy af in his reply. Telling her he doesn’t owe her. Even though he was just a marshmallow and admitted as such moments ago... The flirty way she grabs his jacket. Oh my lord. The look in her eye as she walks away. Eyeing his lips and pulling on his jacket. Sweet lord this man is powerless before her. He knows it. Doesn’t fight her very long just says ‘Okay’ and goes after his girl. Never seen a man be so happy to be whipped in my life.
He is so ok that she runs this relationship for most part. We all know he actually loves this. Assertive Lucy is one of his favorites. Look at Lucy giving the orders and Tim following her lead no question. How times have changed folks. Broke his brain once again and all he can do is be in awe and follow after her. Such a goner for her and he’s very happy with this setup.
Follows her like a lost puppy out the door. Only Lucy could bring him back from the brink like this. Go from being upset and in his head to chasing after her. I love the amount of flirty sex talk these to have without ever really saying so. It’s amazing. Lucy definitely is owed a debt my god. He’s the one who passed the test but not without her help. Just like in 4x18 a debt is owed sir LOL Damn I love these two so very much it’s insane. S5 was a glorious gift. Kept on giving. Also if you’re needing a post 5x19 fic. D wrote an excellent one I highly recommend.
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Side notes -non Chenford
Lucy is so excited when she runs up to Harper at the station. Ready to sign up for the detectives exams. Telling Nyla she’s ready for this test. Harper is beaming saying she has no doubt. Then Smitty comes up and ruins everything. Saying one of the defective have out it out for her. We knew the 5 player trade could bite her… and it looks like it has Primm found out and isn’t happy about it. Be interesting to see how this will develop on s6.
Aaron’s face when Lucy calls herself one of the cool kids LOL hey man she is... haha
This Ep is Sooo good reminds me why I love this show as a whole. So emotional with Celina’s SL. Makes me cry thinking about my niece and nephew. There would be scorched earth for whoever got between me and them. This was the ep really made me love Celina. I wasn’t sure at first but this changed that. Her forgiving her mom is huge. Makes me cry.
I love Lucy being a BAMF with that offender. Putting him right in his own place when he gets defensive about it being harassment. Never be over how she's come into her own as a cop.
Angela looking up air tagging her kids LOL love her I really do haha
Thank you to my amazing readers who like, comment (love these) and reblogs. You are the reason I do what I do. I shall see you all in 5x20 :)
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margoton20-blog · 3 days
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One of my favorite kiss 🥹🤍
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renegadesstuff · 12 days
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What happened to 'we'? 🥺
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Chenford Crumbs Per Episode:  Episode 5x19 A Hole in the World
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makeitastrength · 11 months
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Short pre-ep for 5x19
It’s late – or maybe early, he has no concept of time anymore – by the time Tim fumbles the key into the lock and pushes his way into Lucy’s apartment. He knows she and Tamara are both asleep, and he probably should have just gone back to his own place so as to not risk waking them in the middle of the night.
If anyone asks, he came here because she lives closer to the station and he has precious few hours to sleep before his next shift. But the reason he won’t say aloud is because he sleeps so much better when Lucy is next to him.
Tim is used to sleeping alone. He did for years when he was in the military and again when Isabel started working undercover. At first, she was home more than she was away, but over time it shifted to the opposite until she wasn’t coming home at all and the other side of the bed remained empty for more than a year.
He spent the night with Rachel on occasion, but their relationship only lasted a few months – not long enough for him to grow used to sharing a bed again. Ashley slept over more frequently, though he still probably spent close to half his nights alone. Which was fine. Besides, he has Kojo, so he was never truly alone.
It’s different with Lucy, though he supposes he shouldn’t be surprised because everything has always been different with her. Sharing a bed with her felt normal from their first night together, and they spend far more nights together than apart. Now that he stops to think about it, he hasn’t gone home alone in nearly two weeks.
So really, he should have.
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karihighman · 1 year
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CELINA AND LUCY CELINA AND LUCY CELINA AND LUCY CELINA AND LUCY CELINA AND LUCY CELINA AND LUCY CELINA AND LUCY CELINA AND LUCY
©️DGE Press / ABC. 5x19 “a hole in the world”
YAYYYYYYY I HAVE BEEN WANTING THEM TO HAVE MORE SCENES TOGETHER!! 😇😇 PS: Melissa and Lisseth pls post a selfie together
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lucylessons · 11 months
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#the chair pull to get him closer to her? #that was for the gays
#30DAYSOFLUCY for PRIDE 2023 THE ROOKIE (2018) – 5x19 "A Hole in the World"
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Tim and Lucy in every episode of The Rookie 5x19 || A Hole in the World "There's no way I would've scored as well on the Sergeant's exam without you."
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dailyats · 8 months
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Best Episode Poll (Poll 10/11)
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The Rookie 5x19 A Hole in the World
This week was good!
John actually raised her voice at Celina for stepping out of line. Kind of been waiting for that
Tim doing SWAT things. Everything Tim and SWAT
Chenford beginning and end of the show (babe, sleepy tim, worried lucy, kiss, walking together at the station and their outfits looked really good)
bailey falling asleep on john and him watching the bachelor "lots of limos and crying" 😅 i mean, he's not wrong
Nyla and Angela being badass detectives
TIM RUNNING SURVEILLANCE
Celina forgave her mom 🥹
Wopez and Angela looking up 10 ways to stop your kids from getting kidnapped cause she always worries 😟 one of the things was put an air tag on your kid lol (I've seen kids with these although a kidnapper could easily ditch it)
good pacing, not too many storylines, i could keep track of everything
not everyone got tons of screen time but i feel like we did see pretty much everyone
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hellofaride2021 · 11 months
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1x18 of The Rookie Feds was titled Seeing Red, which is an episode title name for Buffy the Vampire Slayer where something pretty big happens.
5x19 of The Rookie was titled A Hole in the World, which is an episode title name for Angel, the spin off of BTVS, where something pretty big happens.
Both shows were created by Joss Whedon, who also created Firefly. Nathan Fillion, the main character of The Rookie guest starred in Buffy, was the main character of Firefly and his Firefly costar, Gina Torres, had a role in Angel.
It’s just very strange lol I thought it was funny when I noticed the Feds episode name but I did a serious double take when I saw The Rookie episode title.
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bronx-bomber87 · 4 months
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The Rookie Reviews Season's 1-5 Master List. Will be Pinned To Blog for Easy Access. S6 To Be Added This Summer.
Top Eps Listed Season's-1-4 Made a ranking list my fave eps for an ask. Wanted to include in this list.
Started: 5/13/23
Last Updated : 02/13/24
Works: 98
Season 1
1x01-Pilot
1x02-Crash Course
1x03-The Good, The Bad and The Ugly
1x04-The Switch
1x05-The Roundup
1x06-The Hawke
1x07-The Ride Along
1x08-Time Of Death
1x09-Standoff
1x10-Flesh and Blood
1x11-Redwood
1x12-Heartbreak
1x13-Caught Stealing
1x14-Plain Clothes Day
1x15-Manhunt
1x16-Greenlight
1x17-The Shakeup
1x18-Homefront
1x19-Checklist
1x20-Freefall
Season 2
2x01-Impact
2x02-The Night General
2x03-The Bet
2x04-Warriors and Guardians
2x05-Tough Love
2x06-Fallout
2x07-Safety
2x08-Clean Cut
2x09-Breaking Point
2x10-The Dark Side
2x11-Day Of Death
2x12 Now and Then
2x13-Follow Up Day
2x14-Casualties
2x15-Hand Off
2x16-The Overnight
2x17-Control
2x18-Under The Gun
2x19-The Q Word
2x20-The Hunt
Season 3
3x01-Consequences
3x02-In-Justice
3x03-La-Fiera
3x04-Sabotage
3x05-Lockdown
3x06-Revelations
3x07-True Crime
3x08-Bad Blood
3x09-Amber
3x10-Man Of Honor
3x11-New Blood
3x12-Brave Heart
3x13-Triple Duty
3x14-Threshold
Season 4
4x01-Life and Death
4x02-Five Minutes
4x03-In the Line Of Fire
4x04-Red Hot
4x05-A.C.H
4x06-Poetic Justice
4x07-Fire Fight
4x08-Hit and Run
4x09-Breakdown
4x10-Heart Beat
4x11-End Game
4x12-The Knock
4x13-Fight or Flight
4x14-Long Shot
4x15-Hit List
4x16-Real Crime
4x17-Coding
4x18-Backstabbers
4x19/4x20-Simone/Envervo
4x21-Mother's Day
4x22-Day In The Hole
Season 5
5x01-Double Down
5x02-Labor Day
5x03-Dye Hard
5x04-The Choice
5x05-The Fugitive
5x06-The Reckoning
5x07-Crossfire
5x08-The Collar
5x09-Take Back
5x10-The List
5x11-The Naked and The Dead
5x12-Death Notice
5x13-Daddy Cop
5x14-Death Sentence
5x15-The Con
5x16-Exposure
5x17-The Enemy Within
5x18-Double Trouble
5x19-A Hole in the World
5x20-S.T.R
5x21-Going Under
5x22-Under Siege
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I miss domestic Chenford 🥹🥹
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Lucy wearing Tim's necklace 🥹🤎
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The Rookie 5x19 "A Hole In The World" Promo - Check out the promo for The Rookie Season 5 Episode 19 "A Hole In The World" airing next week on ABC.
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makeitastrength · 1 year
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Solace
Dinner arrives at Lucy’s front door about five minutes after she and Tim do, and he tips the delivery guy and then unloads the takeout containers, nestling them in amongst the array of books and papers and index cards spread across the kitchen island while she retrieves utensils and snags a couple beers from the fridge.
“I was kidding, you know,” Lucy clarifies as Tim picks up a stack of cards and peruses them curiously.
“About what?”
“You don’t actually owe me,” she assures him. “I made those audiobooks because I wanted to help you, not because I expected anything in return.”
He sets aside the cards and reaches for the beer she’s extending in his direction. “Do you not want me to help?”
“I’m just saying, you don’t have to. It’s been a hard day. If you’d rather…”
“I want to help,” Tim interrupts, covering her hand with his where it rests on the edge of the counter.
“Okay.”
He quizzes her while they eat, reading one side of the flashcard and letting Lucy recite the other, and it’s not until they’ve made it through the entire stack – both sides – that silence finally begins to settle in. They’ve long since finished dinner and drained their beers, and Lucy is mentally exhausted, but she knows part of the reason Tim is doing this is for the distraction, so she’s been forcing herself to push through.
Now, though, he sets the cards aside and glances at his watch. “It’s getting late.”
“Yeah,” Lucy murmurs, standing and reaching for their takeout containers and utensils. Tim rises as well, collecting the empty beer bottles, and together they make quick work of recycling the containers and cleaning up the kitchen.
Lucy slips away to use the bathroom and when she reemerges, she can see in his eyes that the events of the day have caught up with him. He looks exhausted, but more than that, he looks wrecked; his eyes are shimmering with unshed tears, and she can tell the burden of taking a life is weighing on him heavily. She knows enough about psychology and about Tim to have a general understanding of his emotional state, and she’s grateful this is an experience she hasn’t had, but that also means she can’t fully comprehend what he’s going through.
“Tim,” Lucy whispers, stepping up to him and resting a gentle hand on his bicep.
Their eyes meet and her breath catches in her throat, because she’s never seen him so vulnerable. The mask he’s been wearing since this afternoon has slipped away completely and the only thing left is pain, raw and visceral and tearing him apart from the inside out.
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