something really fascinating to me is that ive been able to get away with posting about fucking tracheostomy holes, rape, unspeakable sexual violence and gore. while reblogging photos of corpses and injuries on occasion.

but not only have i never gotten any more than flagged for a community label exactly once, i have witnessed multiple trans women and black people get banned for shit like. posting their face.

Or hammercar threats.

Or talking about getting harassed.

in the same span of time often on the same days ive gotten away with this .

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Followers know that I am always trying to be nice & funny & that my intentions are pure even when I am acting like a total jackass. This is because I’m an Aries or something.

entering the halfway point of spop season 5.. brace for impact....

Alright. Who I gotta commission for some dadfred food

favourite thing overall to draw?

Faces for sure, hair in particular (curse you helmets)

I really like drawing cityscapes/buildings as well, and want to become better at it so that i can stop hating the first 1/3 of making them.

Hey I really need to share this because I’m rewatching the three first seasons of the dragon prince and. I think I have a theory. Prediction even.

So… ⚠️*WARNING, SPOILERS!*⚠️

I’m on episode 1 of season two as I type this and specific scene came up and it made me realize something… right off the bat, I have nothing to back this up but I heavily believe that the box Callum has from the start is the prison Aaravos is trapped in. Or is potentially the key to unlocking him or something on the lines of that. Now if this is true, playing with this idea/going off of this.

Through out the show from season one to now four we see certain symbols that represent all six “Primal Sources,” on the box glow! Now in first season last phew episodes, when the moon was full as the gang is heading up the mountain to save the dragon egg. The Primal Source rune for the moon was glowing! In season 2 episode one. Lujanne the moon elf who’s illusion mage tells Callum for example direct from this scene- the primal source for moon is strongest when the moon is full, and for the ocean when the tide is high. Now going back to season one as already mentioned same last two episodes, the symbol glowed when the moon was full.

That being said my theory/prediction is they need all six Primal Sources at their strongest at once near the box or at the box in order to activate it for whatever it does. And if this is the case, if it involves Aaravos, this would sort of make sense since, finding all six Primal Sources at their strongest at once in order to unlock something would be pretty tough. Also make this fyi would make it hard for someone to break free as their only escape from their prison. With things that happened with Callum in season 4 getting possessed by Aaravos, I have a bad feeling it might have something to do with that. Like an accident or something. Doesn’t help Callum is also throwing himself in his studies when it comes to magic…!!👀👀

I’ll add more as I rewatch everything by and eventually season 4 as well! But that’s all I have for now 👀👀…

This is my theory/prediction- and I’m sticking to it! 👏

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HOW COULD U SAY THAT ABOUT SWORDSMACHINE ITS MY FAVORITE :(

auurghhggg i was drawing some P.I.E. fanart in kidpix and then this fucking happened. gone forever. below is all i could salvage (the second one is brightened to see easier)

in light of my last rb and finding a 15 year old liking one of my posts. dear minors: you still have too much to learn abt life to be here. that's not an insult. i remember the way i was when i was your age and i wouldn't by any means say that at that age, anyone with such an underdeveloped brain and body should be here on this blog . there are a lot of very gross people here who want to take advantage of you and your poor mind. please dni with nsfw tumblr until you are older for your own good . i know when i was your age i would have thought i just knew better abt me and my needs but by no means was i correct . there is still plenty else on this website to enjoy without getting you or any blogger in trouble

I can't believe it took me a year to think about putting some pots out in front of the building.

This is my garden. It is tiny but I harvested blueberries off some of the bushes and this year the Aronia berry bush might give me enough to put in a mixed berry pie. I have 12 tomatoes on my big tomato plant and the cherry tomato has already given me a handful.

I am obsessed with these strawberry blond marigolds. When the flowers die back I will harvest seeds from them and the dianthus for next year. When the cherry tomatoes first ripened I saved & fermented the seeds, because it is an F1 hybrid, so the seeds won't breed true, but they will still give me tomatoes and that's what I'm looking for.

cultivating the aesthetic of a girl who listen to industrial bass

the script is finally out and i have a lot of thoughts. god.. first of all, i think it’s very byler-coded (“his face can light up a room” like BRUH, and also like iiiiih, lmao no i’m not fangirling idk what you’re talking about). we don’t get very much of mike’s perspective (kinda sus imo 👀), but what we do get, i think is very very interesting..

SO, “what are you, like 12-years-old still, dude?”.

i don’t know why (i do know why) this line screams internalized homophobia to me.. but it sure does! i don’t necessarily think this is mike’s exact train of thought, but i do think it is from his perspective. but just because it’s something that may have popped up in his head, it doesn’t mean that’s how he’s actually feeling. i think that line absolutely is a call-back to mike and will’s fight in s3. in that fight and throughout the whole of s3 mike’s train of thought usually comes back to the fact that he feels he needs to grow up. to him, that mainly means letting go of the feelings he has towards will, and getting a girlfriend. focusing on what boys at his age “should” be interested in and care about. and that’s certainly not his very-non-platonic feelings for his guy best friend. i am wholeheartedly sticking to the theory that mike has always had feelings for will, he’s ALWAYS been in love with him, but has never realized the extent of his feelings because in s1 and s2, when he was younger, he felt those feelings were normal. they were kids and will was special to him because he was his best friend, and nothing mOoOore??? he didn’t have to take it one step further than that. mike can’t tell the difference between platonic love and romantic love to save his fucking life man. i.e. why he’s together with el. BUT, as he got older and the feelings for will didn’t go away, and maybe were even stronger than the feelings he was supposed to have for el, he had to find an excuse for that. he couldn’t accept that fact. accepting that fact would mean accepting something he didn’t believe himself to be. mike doesn’t at this point know that he’s gay (or queer). he doesn’t want to be different, he wants to fit in, at least in s3. so he comes to the conclusion that feeling this way is childish behavior and how will feels is childish too. they HAVE to grow up at some point. and to mike that meant leaving those feelings behind, even though he realistically can’t, he isn’t able to. queue repression and projecting onto will.

in their s3 fight, after will gets upset, mike impulsively tells him “it’s not my fault you don’t like girls”. guys, the first sign of projection. it’s beautiful :’) and really fucking sad, but anyway.. he also says “we’re not kids anymore”. here he’s not referring to the dnd campaign, we know mike loves dnd and in s4 he’s gone back to pursuing the things he likes, unapologetically. but he’s talking about him and will, their relationship. he’s basically saying “we can’t go on like this, we can’t act on these feelings. we’re supposed to grow up and do grown-up things and that does not include spending every minute of every day with each other. it’s not normal anymore, that’s something we did, and could ONLY do, when we were KIDS”. he doubles down on this way of thinking when he then says “i mean what did you think, really? that we were never gonna get girlfriends? that we’re just gonna sit in my basement all day and play games for the rest of our lives?” and will responds with “yeah. i guess i did.. i really did.”. OUCH. the first time i watched that scene i thought will was overreacting and i didn’t understand the extent of why he was SO upset. yeah, mike was being a dick but it felt like i was missing something, and what i was missing was that this conversation really wasn’t about dnd at all. the subtext is really fucking strong in this one, and on second watch, i realized it’s not even subtext. when i first heard mike say “i mean what did you think, really? that we were never gonna get girlfriends?” i assumed he was talking about the whole party. like did you not expect me, OR lucas OR dustin to get girlfriends and for our dynamic to change? BUT, what i realized is, he’s not talking about the whole party. he’s talking about just him and will. we know will’s not had any issues with lucas or dustin getting girlfriends. it’s actually been the complete opposite, he’s been supportive and happy for them. the only relationship he’s had a problem with is mike and el. it’s the only relationship that’s caused him pain and he even blames SOLELY mike for their party falling apart in this very fight. NOT lucas. NOT dustin. MIKE. “YOU’RE ruining our party [...] YOU’RE destroying EVERYTHING, and for WHAT? so YOU can swap spit with some STUPID GIRL?”. if this fight was about the whole party, lucas and dustin would be there. but this is NOT about them. it’s about mike and will, JUST mike and will. and again, mike’s response confirms that take on things. “el’s not stupid!” and “it’s not MY fault you don’t like girls”. mike is aware that will is having trouble with MIKE AND EL’S relationship SPECIFICALLY. that’s what he’s alluding to when he then says “did you really think that WE were never gonna get girlfriends?”. he’s literally saying:

haven’t you realized that YOU AND I would HAVE TO get GIRLFRIENDS at some point?

and i have to say that realization BROKE ME. because that little shift in narrative changed the tone of the scene SO MUCH for me. it hit so hard. FUCK. like mike’s basically saying “did you never think you and i would have to move on for each other and conform to what society expects from us?”. ow ow ow ow. it really hurts to think that mike has convinced himself of that, and will’s response just solidifies that theory while also making it so much worse, because he says “yeah. i guess i did.. i REALLY did.”. will’s saying he doesn’t care about the expectations others have of them, he doesn’t care that he’s also terrified of the prejudice, of how hostile society is towards gay people, of how he’s feeling towards mike and what that means for both of their lives. because before el, he thought that mike felt the same. that they were on the same page in all of this. s2 mike would surely make you think so. and now he feels like mike has rejected him, but even then he still wants mike to know how much he values him and their relationship. saying that none of that other stuff matters to him if they’re together. because how much he loves mike surpasses all of that. will thought their bond was so special that nothing would change that fact, ever. well, until now.. i reiterate, ow ow ow ow.

so how does this relate to the s4 script? well, the “what are you, like 12-years-old still, dude?” i think is s3 mike rearing his head. throughout s4 mike’s feelings for will have been brought to his attention again. been more pressing, because mike’s starting to realize things about himself, like having issues telling el he loves her, and how much he really misses and loves will since he moved across the country etc. but i still think, i mean we still know, that mike has trouble accepting these feelings. so he doesn’t know how to act around will, and i think he gets impulses like “it’s not my fault you don’t like girls” even now, but maybe he can at least keep those feelings in his head at this point. which is why we get a glimpse of mike’s confusion when a thought like “what are you, like 12-years-old still, dude?” pops up. and that “still” reaaaaaally emphasizes and confirms that this is truly just a call-back to s3, to their fight. this is something mike’s had an issue with before. mike’s internalized homophobia, the devil on his shoulder if you will, is trying to convince him saying “how can will STILL think like that? you know that’s not realistic”. and i think it’s also really telling how will reads this behavior as mike worrying about el, when he’s really not. like william “i hate who i am” byers wouldn’t be able to tell that mike’s in love with him even if mike fucking told him so lmao (i’m laughing through the pain).

we know mike’s actually the one who’s been trying to reach out to will since the end of s3. not will, but mike. he’s trying to go back to behaving like he did pre-s3, which is his unfiltered, usual, protective-over-will-self. he wants to go back to being super close with his best bud and soulmate and future bf will. and he tries, but he doesn't feel like will reciprocates that. mike even acknowledges that in their fight at the roller rink, and later on when they have their heart to heart at home. will could have reached out more. but instead mike feels like will’s been pushing him away, like he’s “losing” him, which will also confirms in the van scene by explaining that he’s tried to “rip off the band-aid so he doesn’t get more hurt”. they are doing it in an incredibly roundabout way, but THEY ARE trying to tell each other that they actually want to be with one another. they don’t want their relationship to be like this. they both want more. and i can’t fucking stop thinking about the theory that mike’s been trying to call will all of the frickity frockity time since he moved away. because we get dustin saying “joyce has this telemarketing job. always on the phone. mike wont stop whining about it”. and we know mike can’t call el because it would put her at risk, that wouldn’t make any sense. so who the fuck is he calling but can’t get through to because the line is busy all of the time because joyce is on the phone constantly but he gets frustrated because he really wants to talk to this person and has trouble writing to them probably because his girlfriend would see the letters too and like it’s complicated and maybe would be seen as romantic and aaaaahhhhhh i don’t know what to do with all of these emotions???? IT HAS TO BE WILL. like there’s literally no other explanation. and it would kinda make a lot of foking sense why mike’s behaving the way he is in s4 because of that, and why a thought like will “being childish” would come up now that they’re finally seeing each other again and spending time together aaaand talking just them over and over and over, with their billion heart to hearts. because now, mike’s more exposed to and forced to face BOTH his romantic feelings towards will AND the destructive feelings holding him back from him. like bruh. i can’t with this. byler is endgame

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Max's subconscious really went "Will Byers? Never heard of him."