Louis Tomlinson, FITFWT24: Jakarta and Australia [2]

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Long dream as shortly as possible.

In the dream I went to this one place where I met a group of young women, if not even teenagers. They were heck pretty and they did my hair and make up. Director, middle aged man, chose me an outfit after my test dance which I passed. It was black tank top (short one), black leather shorts with little chains, black leggings or stockings, knee high black boots, fake cat ears, long black fake tail and some jewelry.

I had to perform / dance with Adrien from Miraculous Ladybug for a commercial or something similar. I think I now, still, was either myself or I became Marinette. Adrien was dressed up as a cat too and our dance... It was amazing! It was flirty, a bit sexy but also so so good!

Some girls were a bit angry I got to dance with Adrien but most were so happy they screamed and rushed to group hug me after the dance! I was still blown away myself, not believing what just happened, how I had press my head against Adrien's chest at the end etc.

I had to leave at some point but luckily I had that dance recorded in my phone so I watched it often, filling with joy. When I returned to my old home, my sister and brother were super excited, telling me they had seen my dance on TV already - something I didn't know about. My mother had seen it too but she didn't react on it unlike my father who was mad at me, asking who the boy was, why I danced with him, he would rape me for sure etc. No matter how I told my father the truth it was not good enough. He ordered my little brother to be my bodyguard.

Later I had to return back to the first place for another recording but this time only 1 girl was there and she helped me to get ready. This time my hair was a mix of purple, pink and big areas of white. I loved my hair but she thought constantly that I hated it. Sadly there never came a second recording for a some reason, me ending up in a house where lived 2-3 older men. They had 31 years old golden retriever, huge one, who had no teeth and was blind. They couldn't keep him so they were looking for a new home to him, giving him away for free.

I considered on taking him but at the same time I was worried about my finances. Could I feed him enough and mostly could I afford vet visits. Eventually I had to refuse on taking him which was difficult to them and me. I really wanted to help and take the dog but couldn't.

There was some other parts of the dream too but I left them out and some I don't remember anymore.

Mình nhớ, nhớ, nhớ cậu ấy, nhớ bầu trời hôm đó, nhớ từng con chữ. Nhớ mọi điều. Mình nhung nhớ quá khứ dẫu cho con tim đang mong chờ bình minh ngày hôm nay cách dữ dội.

February 13, 2024 - Day 239

Breakfast of chicken and waffles for dinner.

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Date: 13 February 2024

Duration: 61 minutes at 10:21 PM

Depth:

No, I haven’t received any signs of growing spiritually while I meditated last night. A few faint sounds from the centre of my head and some inner peace. I still have the blessings of an interiorised sense of hearing and the flow of life energy to the centre of the head.

My attention isn’t as pointed with peace as is possible. That’s ok. I am too far on the inward path to stop now. I can’t stop meditating for the rest of my life. I pray for patience that lasts a few lifetimes of meditating at exactly the depth of mind I was at last night. It’s ok. I am ok.

4 years since...

Timelapse: February 14, 2020

-- WeAreSeriesTH's x/twitter post 13.2.2024 with pond, phuwin, aou, boom, marc, and pawin.

13.2.2024

Źle się czuje sama ze sobą. Bardzo, bardzo, bardzo...

Jutro idę z siostrą z okazji walentynek do kina na "Miłość i miód" czy coś takiego. Mam nadzieję, że będzie fajnie.

louist91 Absolutely loved this leg of the tour. Feels weird that it’s over already. Thank you to everyone who came to the shows and/or supported online. I can’t wait to come back. Until next time.

Louis Tomlinson posted an Instagram reel on FITFWT24: Jakarta and FITFWT24: Australia [13.2.2024]

Abschlusstraining 13.2.2024

13.2.2024

Dnes bylo setkání se zaměstnanci. Každoroční zhodnocení minulýho roku a výhled do toho stávajícího. Řekla jsem si, že když chci na to obchodní, tak teda zkusim dávat pozor. Na konci se ředitelka ptala na očekávanej čistej zisk v €. Nechala jsem vypálit první náhodnou odpověď a pak pronesla tu správnou. HR manager mi za to přinesl šampaňský, půl kila jahod a polohlasem poznamenal, že se mi to na to obchodním bude hodit. Trochu jsem zčervenala a vyslechla si od kolegů řeči o řitilezectví atd. A co jako?? Holka musí jíst, brouku!

Phải chăng màn đêm, vì cơn mất ngủ, tôi chợt tự vấn; liệu có linh hồn nào nơi kia nghĩ về tôi với nỗi nhớ nhung?

13.2.2024 | Winterthur | 20.30h

Der Medizinalbereich (Inhalierer, Salben, Pillen) nehme inzwischen gut ein Drittel ihres Rollkoffers ein, sagt R., die aus Sizilien angereist ist, um Olivenöl, Mandelmus und getrocknete Kaki zu verteilen. Es sei ein Elend und dann abends die dicken Beine, typisches Zeichen einer Herzinsuffizienz, und nachts die Toilettengänge, elend einfach. Immerhin: Der italienische Staat zahle allen Pensionierten Kuren, Fango und Thermalbad zum Beispiel, schon schön.

13.2.2024

Chodím týdně na terapie a snažím se dostat z téhle propasti.