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💌, ❤️, and 💭 for your spn S/I!!

💌 - any major changes in your selfship lore over time? if so, compare how it used to be with how it's now.

oh man! yeah, theres been some big changes over the years.. she sort of evolved alongside me, and its lore changed to fit what i needed at the time(s). i believe the concept of being part demon part angel was always a thing, but i developed what that means for him over time, how that works, etc. at first he was essentially just some lame transmasc kid (kid in the way a 20 yo is a kid) with a father who was king of hell and a boyfriend who was an archangel. i didnt even have the castiel stuff developed yet... now, the lore and relationships get a bit complex because ive played around with so many ideas. she's now essentially castiel's twin/sibling but in the complex unlike humanity way that angels would experience siblinghood? it chose to fall, leaving cas behind, but he always watched over her during her time as a human. most of it at least. after his 2nd fall, becoming a demon, and "meeting" castiel (again), they don't recognize each other. it takes a bit and some weird supernatural plotline about souls and angel grace for that. + now i have a bunch of au's where i ship myself with different characters, 4 fun. (fun fact, i kept accidentally imagining crowley calling me his daughter, and it kind of aided in me realizing i was genderfluid/bigender & not just a trans guy. the s/i's gender identity changed to match as well (: )

❤️ - any favourite reoccurring scenario?

a bit embarassing but the #1 reoccurring scenario is just several different ways of me being comforted by my familial f/o's. mostly crowley, sometimes cas or the winchesters, if i were braver id think about rowena. my evil grandma. a scene that plays pretty often in my mind is very self indulgent "being grounded by castiel/cas supporting me through Mental Horrors"

i also like thinking about lucifer being obsessed with me a Loottt like lol you want me soo bad. but also like. the mutually toxic cishet (despite not being cis or het) couple trope where im psychologically war-faring him. its ok and ethical hes literally satan and a deadbeat dad. but i love him ^_^ ... but embarassingly pt 2 a very reoccuring daydream involving him is just him being genuinely sweet & loving .. satan is capable of love too guys

i keep going back to daydream about my self insert's time spent as a human girl, running away from home, selling her soul to crowley, (and most importantly of all) how that relationship develops with time, and the awkward beginnings of a young girl imprinting on the king of the crossroads who did NOT sign up to be summoned by a teenage girl just because shes lonely.

LATE SEASONS BUNKER SHENANIGANS!!! i play around a LOT with imagining im annoying the winchesters or that theyre annoying me in like. almost a slice of life way in the bunker. i mess around with a lot of random magic ideas too , ive got a bunch of random "episodes" written out in my mind cuz i wanted to think and giggle about unfortunate magical spells. brb turning dean into a hamster

💭 - are you more of a "has everything written down" self shipper or a "what happens in my daydreams STAYS in my daydreams" self shipper?

im the "wants to write a full length novel about my s/i one day but i have adhd" self shipper. ive written nothing but i want to beam my thoughts into everyone elses minds. you will watch supernatural rewritten with me in it boy

🏅, 💭, and 🍰!

Something I'm proud of: Well, obviously I'm proud of the fact that I've stuck with Dust to Dust for so long, but last month I wrote Don't Misread the Signs (sonyverse ot4, rated Explicit) which was a LONG time coming. I'd been wanting to write a foursome for D.A.V.E. for a really long time, like since the NIGHT I saw the movie, and it was very satisfying to finally get it down. I'm a bit sad it has garnered so little attention on ao3, but I was really proud because it was hard trying to choreograph that many limbs. 😅 Ultimately though I do write fic for myself so like, it's fine.

A headcanon about my own work: I don't really understand this question? But I'll share something I had thoughts on from Whatever Happens (we've got us)... So, my idea with this fic (in which Jubulile van Scotter and the Toxin Symbiote bond after Carnage '15) was, in order to not completely throw canon to the wind, that perhaps after a couple years, shit starts going down with Knull, Absolute Carnage, etc, and Tox is like, "I need to go home and try to protect people." Jubulile is sad to see them go, but she's probably like in the middle of starting university or something. Anyways, so that's how Toxin can still end up with Bren, even in my fic universe!

Fave comfort fics: I HAVE SO MANY... But I'll share just a few that I do find myself rereading over and over because they make me happy.

- Bonds of Honor - my very self-indulgent OC/symbiote OC fic where Isra Al-ard first meets her partner on Klyntar when she's recruited to be an Agent of the Cosmos. I haven't written and published a lot for them but this piece is like... it's so much to me I just love them. I need to finish the fic where they are trying to blend in with 21st century NYC after decades away from Earth lol.

- The Look of You - I'm sorry I literally can't shut up about this fic I love it so much ajshdhsjd it just makes me so happy whenever I open it!!! After a dear friend gave me really really positive reception on it, now I think of her every time I open it. It was really important for me to explore another aspect of Eddie's life with Flash and the Symbiote going right... but also him not even really realizing that it's going right. I actually have an artist planned that I'd like to reach out to and maybe get a piece based on this commissioned, and I kind of want to write the section that was essentially a fade to black. (yes that means I want to write them having sex) They are my #1 ot3 for a reason!!

- Can't You Show Me the Light? - this fic was sooooo self-indulgent it was literally just the symbiot3 looking at each other at different times of day but it's my goodnight fic. There's a bit about the Symbiote describing Eddie and it's one of my proudest paragraphs.

- It's a Pretty Wonderful Life - this was my first symbiot3 holiday special fic, which I wrote for @sircrypts many many moons ago. But it's become a personal favorite of mine and I just love everything about it - the Dr. Steven cameo, me stubbornly refusing to name the most recent spawn, Andi!!!, cameos from a bunch of the spidey cast, and of course kissing!!! and a midnight flight!!! @shadowy-dumbo-octopus also left me the biggest and best comment I've ever received in my life so I encourage you to scroll down and read it, it's amazing.

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💭 What is a headcanon you have about your own work?

jessie has no clue mary may hates her. in any universe. she actually considers her one of her closest friends.

🧠 What’s an idea you have that you can’t quite call a WIP yet?

honestly so many half baked ideas lol. despite the fact ive written for it, jestiny's herald au is more vibes than actual plot, ive worked out very few details on her conversion. ive also kicked around an idea for a chosen! tracey lader au that id like to flesh out beyond the one ficlet i did for it, but idk if ill ever get around to it.

i also have an idea for a role reversal au where john seed is like, a county prosecutor trying to take down the local cult but ive written nothing for it and probably never will because my brain is allergic to doing anything detailed with lawyer john because it defeats the point of doing daily escapism fantasy for me. (if anyone wants that idea they can have it.)

👀 Do you have any WIPs that you would never let see the light of day? If yes, what are they about?

hmmmm so not really, there's a few ive sent through multiple major revision rounds to turn down the level of self indulgence (including some stuff that will eventually end up in wildfire), but that's it. and some things i abandoned back when i was fresh back in the hang of writing that i just don't feel like coming back to.

i wrote a little for a no cult au that i don't think i'll ever do much with, not because i dislike or am embarrassed by it, just because again, allergic to too much lawyer john.