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mortoinquieto · 13 days

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#ooc #//just found out i still have cancer #//we're looking at new treatment options now so #//going back on hiatus for a little longer #//love and light y'all see you on the other side ✌️✌️✌️

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todayisafridaynight · 2 months

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At which point did you realise that the plot of IW is ass? I've seen people complain only about the ending or the halfway point where the teams separate, while I was already actively rolling my eyes like four-five chapters in

i think the moment i fully accepted that IW's story was. Definitely A Story was the moment ebina announced 'bleach japan'. like i think leading up to that point i was thinking to myself 'oh i hope i see X happen' or being like 'i wonder where this is going' and that sort but the proverbial bucket of ice was definitely that moment

#infinite wealth spoilers #snap chats #what reaaaaally hammered it in too if it wasnt obvious already was the execution of the jimas/daigo like that still irks me LMAO #i cant even remember what chapter that happened in i just know when it did i was utterly pissed #i think i started to take things less seriously once bryce entered the picture but thats only because of how distracting his VA was #like much love the JP voice actors who try to speak english and japanese but i just cant act like it's not incredibly distracting #esp when the character is supposed to be white yk what i mean- or at the very least their first language is supposed to be english #typically i can look over that thing if its a one or two time kind of deal but he had to speak in english much longer than others #im just rambling about bryce tho this aint bout him. i mean he could be a part of it the cult was executed really sloppily #it might have been the introduction of bryce actually ... i remember thinking to myself 'oh brother' with the whole messiah thing LMAO #maybe it was when kiryu told us his cancer cam from radiation instead of. smoking 💀 ESPECIALLY not even five chapters in #like straight out the gate you just wanna drop that on us mr I Can Do Everything Myself I Cant Worry Others ok #thats a post for another day tho im EVERYWHERE #POINT IS this is not about Retrospect this is about First Impressions and memory warps over time #but i know for a fact i found the bleach japan thing utterly ridiculous and was squinting at the plot the entire time thereafter #like ive said this a million times at this point but although i love IW for it's gameplay (pardon some nitpicks like lack of shortcuts)#its story really feels so messy and had much to be desired. which is so sad after the wonderful stories rgg has been making since 0..#BUT OH WELL im still excited to replay it in english. god willing i ever get the time #i still wanna finish lost judgment <- isnt even halfway through the game #and i wanna do a fun stream Maybe with YK2 but ill get into that when i get into that #if youve read this far. thanks LOL id say sorry for the novel but thats what we expect of me at this point

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seungkwan-s · 1 year

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i thought i would update you guys on my granny's condition. so, we found out, she was misdiagnosed. she's prone to fluid in her lungs and the nurses admitted they should have read her notes properly because they saw that and assumed it was cancer. which is honestly horrific and my step dad is angry that we all went through a lot of unnecessary stress and hurt :(

i'm honestly relieved that it's not cancer but still angry that this went on for weeks :(

she will hopefully be out of hospital in the next few weeks <3

#hev.txt #i get mistakes happen but misreading someone's notes??#her notes didn't say cancer they just said she's prone to having fluid in her lungs #when my step dad asked the doctor on friday about the cancer they were confused and asked what cancer? and that's how we found out......#i'm still stressed honestly i've been worried and struggling with this for weeks :(#so excited to give her a big hug when she's ready <33 #cancer tw

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lokh · 1 year

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DID you know u can get blisters on ur clit.

#tmi tw #maybe. LMAO. WELL NOW YOU KNOW #found one source onlirn thats like wrll thats a weird place to get one!#well. i think circumstances made it more likely. that if i go into will truly be tmi #my bro wonders why i wont just give him my tumlr it doesnt matter if i overshare. this is why #if ur seeing this for real leave....#i know this is the kind of thjng where u should like Definitely see a doctor cos it could be worse than a blister #but it looks exactly like a blister.#if its still there in a week ill go. and hopefully i havent developed cancer by then #IT LITERALLY CANT BE ANYTHING ELSE BRO LIKE........ IM NOT GETTING ANY ACTION I NEVER HAVE #ok double checked and testosterone is supposed to make u LESS likely to develop yeast infection #and i really dont think it is one. so.#on one hand im also saying this becos has literally anyone rlse run into this problem perhaps someone on T.#if this turns out to be even somewhat common....................

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detroitbecomefandom · 1 year

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Gents and ladies I promise I'm alive

#here's a little life update on things that have happened while I've been gone in case anyone's mildly curious:#took exams #competed in a game show #took more exams #landed a job at a cancer research lab and children's cancer clinic #MORE EXAMS #found out (somehow someway idek) that I'm valedictorian #mother of god why do I have so many exams #still have more exams to go #but anyway that's just a long and convoluted way of me saying I've been super busy lately and tumblr has been more on the back burner #chrys chats #not dbh

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l0se · 2 months

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vent/rant in the tags🤪

#my mom got breast cancer in the beginning of 2020 #and i found out that i have the BRCA gene #so i decided to have preventative surgeries #i just had a double mastectomy and it’s probably the hardest thing i’ve ever done in my entire life #i hate relying on other people i’m a very independent person #so having to rely on people to help me while i’m healing and having to slow down is so hard #i feel like a burden all the time and it’s honestly the worst part #i’m healing really well and i’m really grateful for my amazing doctors and that i have people to support me #but it’s still really hard and i’m having a tough time #i also have amazing friends who are checking in on me and helping cat sit for me and whatnot #but some of my good friends haven’t checked in on me and it makes me sad #i also haven’t posted anything about this or much about what’s going on in my life to any of my socials #i’ve gotten way less social over the past 8 years in college and grad school #but even so some of my good friends knew and didn’t check in #and that makes me the most sad #i could go on but i’ll end there #if you have BRCA and/or are considering a major preventative surgery please don’t hesitate to reach out #i would be so happy to share my experiences or just chat and make friends

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im2tired4usernames · 2 months

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I hate that I literally just do not trust any of the older folks in my family to do right by anyone

#if i have learned anything from my grandparents parents uncles and aunts it's how not to treat children and spouses #i hope I'm a good wife to my wife and that i never put them through pain I've seen people put their partners through #i hope i never treat any children in my life like they do #i hope my possible children my nephews and nieces and my siblings always know they have a home with me #EVEN if I'm mad or disappointed in them #even if they scream how much they hate me i hope they know i love them I'll still feed them and make sure that's safe #i hope the people in my life never have to question of they're loved or safe with me i hope i can provide for them so they never have to go #with out something they need and then some to spoil them i want these people loved #i don't want my daughter to think because she talked back to me or is dating someone in not super found of that I'm goin to throw her away #i hope all the kids in my life always know I will try to take care of them as best i can no matter what #not trusting your elders to love you sucks ass not trusting your partner to love you through the scary bits of life sucks #i know so many men who just leave their spouses or cheat on them when they're wives get cancer #that's one thing I'm glad my dad did everything he could to try to let my mom know he loved hwr when she was here at least #i didn't understand or like some of the things he did but qt least he stayed with her and loved her then #unlike some people I'm regrettably related to #i hwar people at work talk about their spouses also one lady wants her husband to die #and it makes me sad i hope to God. my wife never has to question how much i love them i hope they feel loved and special forever #i hate how people treat the people they say they love the most i hope i am not like that i hope i never ever get like that

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bladeofthestars · 8 months

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i wish it didn't take so long to get literally anything done in the american health care system

#my doc found lumps and tissue thickening AND a swollen lymph node in my arm pit #i went in because my breast had been hurting for several weeks (it still hurts btw)#now my armpit is hurting too and i don't know if it's the one she found the swollen lymph node in but #there's definitely something swollen in there #i got seen august 22nd and was not able to get a mammogram appointment until september 26th #more than an entire month later!!#genuinely worried i might have breast cancer #and my insurance isn't going to cover a cent of my diagnostic testing because i haven't met my deductible #so it's gonna be fucking six hundred dollars to find out if i have cancer or not #a lymph node on my collarbone has swelled up too #i'm fucking scared #my health has really gone to shit this week and i'm super stressed #having to wait an entire month for a diagnostic (not screening. diagnostic!!) mammogram is insanity #especially given that younger people tend to develop more aggressive forms of breast cancer #i'm so stressed. i just wanna be done and know if i have the damn shit or not. i hate all this waiting #and i hate the thought that it could be growing while i'm waiting #i'm having a really fucking bad time rn

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iliveinprocrasti-nationn · 1 year

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i hate going “hey i might not be up to hanging out im just not doing well mentally” but also i know if im either constantly panicking or completely out of it while we’re hanging out then it won’t go well

#got into a fight with my mum because she was like ‘well why r u still scared when we’re not seeing massive waves and hospitals aren’t #overrun and this 80 year old family friend has had it three times and is fine every time #and do you look at what people who don’t have the same opinion of you are saying’#my response to this was ‘no I do look at the scientific articles that come out though and most of the ones about covid are finding it does #damage to multiple parts of the body’#like. i already have fibromyalgia. we’ve removed the cancerous tumor but i still have iodine radiation and have to hope the cancer cells #they found in my blood vessels didn’t go far enough to spread and if they did that the iodine destroys them #like. is a kid with fibromyalgia not enough. im not doing chemo so it’s fine right just get me sick #does she not fucking remember how it destroyed her husband. she watched it we all fucking watched for weeks as he withered away from this #fucking disease #and then everything we didn’t see we got in twice daily calls from the hospital as they told us how his kidneys failed and they were excited #when he could breathe on his side for two hours instead of just on his stomach and then it killed him #am i the only one in the household who remembers seeing my dad as a barely breathing corpse when we forced him to go to the hospital because #he couldn’t say three words or walk a few steps without panting like he’d just done a sprint #im tired of her making me feel crazy for not wanting this disease im not irrational or insane for this i promise i promise im not #im tired of her coming in 5 minutes after i leave an argument going ‘don’t be angry with me. it’s just that-‘ and then making my only safe #place in this house a part of the argument too #fuck it it’s fine I’m out in a few months anyway #vent tw #sittin g in a corner rn so that the only open space is in front of me and i can pull my legs up to my chest and my fan is on and my windows #are open and im tired of being called crazy and paranoid and irrational #covid tw

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mcmissileproof · 1 year

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jesus fucking christ the past two months have been insane. if the Things Happening would slow down just slightly that might be cool

#since this year started I have #been sick four times (usually get a cold like once a year maybe)#been in a play #gotten two job interviews and two rejections #gotten another job interview but tested positive for covid the morning of and had to reschedule at the last second #(I'm fine. literally just thought it was a scratchy throat until the test came up positive)#taken a longsword lesson #restarted a pathfinder campaign #and found out my cat is dying #that's not even everything that's just what comes to mind right now #(also about the cat. miss has cancer and right now is at home with pain meds for as long as she still wants to do cat things)#(sad and difficult on my end but she has no idea anything's wrong and hopefully she never will)#oh also I've started shadowing at a vet clinic to decide if I want to pursue vet school #also my mom went to the hospital! she's fine but that was scary #also a family friend died and his funeral turned into preaching about the end times #like what is going ON #for the record. I'm okay. it's just that jesus fucking christ

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miragemage · 1 year

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everything is getting to be a little too much

#new self harm activities include exercising until failure and then doing it again and again until my arms are sore and my stomach hurts #i found out my mother has cancer #i found out my brother lost custody of my niece #we have been getting food from churches and food banks and it still isn't enough to make an actual meal #just bits and pieces of things. mostly junk food.#my boyfriend and i both work. he works as a news producer and i am a barista.#we still don't make enough to afford anything.#after our paychecks hit we are both left with maybe $50 to last us the next two weeks #nothing to buy groceries with #just enough to put gas in the car for two weeks #barely.#i have no energy to create anything. when i think about drawing or handicrafts i just feel exhausted #i'm tired #i have never been so suicidal. but even death seems pointless.#if i die i just make bigger problems and leave them for someone else to deal with #i leave my love alone and in agony and worse off then ever.#if i stay i work endlessly to make not enough money to even feed us.#i'm tired i'm so tired i just want to sleep forever.

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moodygirlll · 1 year

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#my great grandfather passed last week and ofc i was upset when i found out but im mostly feeling so relieved for him i think #he lived to be 102 years old #he recently started having some new health issues which we all (my family) kinda knew that he was not gonna be with us for much longer #but like he lived such a beautiful life #and ofc he also went through a lot of hardships #he beat cancer twice! he mourned the death of his children and wife and basically all his friends like going through all of that is insane #he also served in ww2 #like whos going through all that fr and still coming out healthy and well in the end #although i felt uneasy because he didnt want to pass in a hospital but he was so sick during his last few weeks #i wish he couldve passed at home though ig but i just pray his soul is resting at peace now i pray his transition is easy for him

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loversarcanas · 2 years

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#incoming warning for dental trauma;#been having tooth pains for a week now and found out its not just my tooth #but ACTUALLY its a big painful lump at the roof of my gums which is so:)))#this is also the 3rd dental emergency ive had this year alone and no dentist or urgent care ive find yet will see me #also km a hypochondriac and took en edible at 2am so im freaking out about having mouth cancer or my teeth falling out ahaha #but its not like i can do anything about it :)))) i work 6 days a week and my next day off is thursday #and i still need to get my covid booster and flu shot and a bunch of other stuff #why have time for my own health right lol #p sure im gonna die before 30 anyways. with the state of the world and my deteriorating health i might as well

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distraughtlesbian · 2 years

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fuck christianity but when psalms 84:6 called earth the vale of tears they were so right for that

#just found out that my dog has bone cancer :’(#it’s unexpected bc even though she’s getting old she still does seem fine. she might have a year left at most?#but anyway life is suffering it is hard the world is cursed everything sucks forever etc etc #never love anything fr i have the most wicked crying headache.#maeve speaks #dont reblog

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dubiouslexism · 2 years

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not to be super negative bc i'm not feeling really bad like i usually do but sometimes i genuinely do feel cursed

#i just. i don't know.#vent #negative #rant #sorry forgot to add those first n e way so #idk lmao it's just like the people i feel like i genuinely have loved have died #my grandparents my mom #my dad is still alive and i do love him don't get me wrong but i just wasn't really around him as much #he's an enigma and also really troubled. i always have loved him but i've never felt particularly hurt by our separation #if anything it made me feel closer to him. if that makes sense. it probably doesn't #but even then. one of my favourite content creators /dies to cancer/#god i cried when i found out he was diagnosed and i fuckin screamed when i saw he died. i got the stupid channel notif #and then read the channel notif. god #i just feel so alone #so so alone #i have angelo and i have lian. but i feel so close ro losing her bc i'm so fucking braindead and unable to just be normal #like i want to kill myself so fucking badly and also want to kiss her and she doesn't want either so #it's dumb #i'm dumb #i just want to die #i want to hold my puppy and go to sleep together with him cradled in my arms #and maybe see my mom on the other side. i don't know what i expect anymore but i just want to see her again #talk to her #i need therapy #but i don't have health insurance so thats not happening lmfao

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iintervallum · 1 month

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I hate the dismisal of online lgbt spaces as not as important as in real life or what goes on within the spaces as not that bad, because for me at least, I don't have anyone I know in my area that I can talk to about being lgbt, and I'm relatively scared of selectiviely outing myself to find more people, because i really wouldnt want it to get back to my parents somehow.

My point is, online spaces are very important as a point of connection for the many of us that have no one irl, and I hate how any serious method of discussion gets turned into discourse. like people saying there is a severe amount of lesbophobia, biophobia, transmisogyny and racism in the community are not picking fights. we're trying to make this space better because for some of us its all we have! so please, do better.

#aster.txt #kind of a vent more than anything because its frustrating and i'm getting both nostalgia for the past and derision for it #there were two people i did know in my HS that are lgbt but they both moved to canada for uni #one of them is a total sweetheart and I miss talking to her so much #like they were such a wonderful person to complain about our schools stupid rules #and how shitty gender roles are and how conservative indian parents suck #and last i saw shes transfem since they made a secret priv account with she/they pronouns and them wearing a dress as the first post #i hope she found people that they could connect to where ever she is now #the other is not so positive a story lol #she is the main reason why my self esteem issues went from not that good to very bad #like her mind games and the fact that she called me clingy as an attempt to get another friend to stop being around them was shitty #i isolated myself from other people for a long time becasue i thought i would just ruin things if i got too close and showed my personality #despite her doing that i didnt actually hate her until i found out what she did to a friend of mine #my friend was having family issues because her father had tyroid cancer and her “friends” including that person forced her to tell them #and that person had the gall to say that what she was going through wasn't that bad and she should stop making stuff about herself #after they forced her to open up #god i hated high school uni isnt any better but i'm glad its not high school #so many petty people because we're all teenagers going through our own shit and we're still figuring things out #i'm half thinking of just unfollowing a lot of them on instagram becasue they sucked but no i wont do that..yet

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