What do you mean that's not what happened?

Behold, my greatest creation

I hc that during his fifth year, whether due to the Shrieking Shack incident or to SWM, Severus must have had quite a few mental breakdowns

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Tonks!

I wanted to draw her for quite a while (in fact, I already did a few times but they were pretty terrible lol). I inspired myself from the Jim Kay illustrated books (and also from other fanartists) and I'm pretty happy with how it turned out.

Btw here's a lil Remadora art I did just after that:

Still need to figure out my design for adult!Remus

soooo funny when people who ship wolfstar complain if they’re “toxic” like. why r u in the fandom centered around childhood friends who joined a war grew suspicious & stopped trusting each other one got framed for killing their best friend & went to prison for 13 years & the other fully believed he was guilty & then when they do reunite they immediately agree to kill their other childhood friend in front of a group of kids (including their dead friend’s son) & then when the guy gets away they join a war again and live in the same house until the one who went to prison dies. and then the other one marries a younger woman has a kid with her and dies immediately after as well. and ur getting mad at people for writing their relationship as “toxic”???? one has to laugh….

Black sisters angst or Black brothers angst?

sleepover thingy!!

honestly……. once upon a time i probably would’ve said black brothers angst but i think now i would choose black sisters angst. if i HAD to choose.

i think about this post atleast once a day. that’s literally exactly the black sisters dynamic to me and there’s just soooo much there. like there’s three of them and one of them (who’s always been the protector) slowly goes mad, the middle one gets out but still loses everything, and the youngest one stays but lives like a cardboard cutout. their trauma and experiences are so vastly different but it all comes from the same home and they’re never ever free of each other or of that place and what its done to them. andy is away from home, free, for over 2 decades and it’s STILL bellatrix who kills her daughter. narcissa is free from voldemort and death eaters until her son turns 14 and has to take the mark when he’s 16, with bella at her back. bella is a ghost of who she was, a sacrificial lamb and the executioner and regarding incarceration, she believes she has been a prisoner since she has been a daughter. <— poem about bellatrix. to me. and to @themuseoftheviolets who showed it to me and we both felt miserable for days!!!!!!

there’s just so much. and the abuse (to me) that they go through is so different and deprndant on who’s older, middle, youngest. they’re all in the same house and it all leads back to where they grew up, but it looks entirely different for all three of them AAAAAAAA

i love vintage fashion soooo much i’m like one of those annoying historical fashion people but only for the 70s-90s but i do feel obliged to say that irl i am literally one of the least fashionable people ever

so back in november (!) i started drawing little outfit concepts for a bunch of hp characters and of course it spiraled into this massive undertaking of drawing about 6 outfits for nearly every character and i’m super picky about them so they’re taking forever lol. but i’ve never posted a single one before! so here are some wips for harry, ron, hermione, ginny, luna, tonks, lupin, snape, and lily – i’m sooo excited to get to coloring them!!!!!

HC: Snape couldn't stand Tonks...

...But only for one specific reason: He actually held alot of respect for her, even with her teasing. She was a competent young Auror. She was brave and driven - anyone who could withstand Moody was tough enough to earn his respect. What he couldn't stand was seeing her and Remus together. Drove him up the fucking wall. Her flirting, Remus' pining, their sickening romantic moments and their stupid constant bickering. He felt like gagging whenever she made eyes at him over the table in a meeting. The wolf would start nervously playing with his mustache, blushing bright red when she clumsily touched his shoes with her own under the table - bumping into Severus' leg on the way... It caused such a complex swirl of jealousy within him. She was a little like Lily. Just enough to twinge that part of his brain. Brave, talented but still kind... and about the same age. He wasn't jealous of Tonks' affection - he didn't want her to himself - but to see her pining after Remus bloody Lupin was painful. The irresponsible, manipulative, cowardly werewolf... Why do his bullies repeatedly get such lovely things dropped in their laps only to continuously squander them?!? Sometimes he felt like telling Remus he was right when he said he was 'too old', 'too dangerous', 'too bad' for her... ...and sometimes he felt like shaking him by the shoulders to just go love her before you lose the chance forever, you dunderhead...! Although, deep down, if he were put in the same situation... he fears he would act the same way Remus does. Too old, too dangerous, too... socially suicidal. Hypocrite. To see them together was to see something he could never have, the sort of luck that would never happen to him... luck a man like Remus doesn't deserve, but seems to constantly get anyway, and never appreciates. To see them apart was to see his own errors and his own decisions reflected back into his face. The weary outcast, defined by his mistakes, pushing away the only thing that could accept him as he was...

line confidence? Whats that...? Just trying to work him out - don't need line confidence for that B^)

Big nosed skinny people who have an unhealthy obsession with giving their lives to fight for a dead flower-themed loved one - while dedicating themselves to help raise the son said loved one had with a man they didn't get along with... Pearl Steven Universe and Severus Snape, the dream team...?

Just trying to work out how I want this goofy boy to look. Bonus Remus

the problem with hp and other media properties that i enjoy is that i can’t just be normal and obsessed with them like it has to be completely all-consuming. to the point it impedes my ability to be a functioning person in the world because i just want to live in my imagination thinking about the Thing I Like

What's the deal with Regulus/Jegulus?

Who knows! The girlies are just doing their own thing and having fun I guess, not my thing personally but let's leave them to it and talk about the real problem here which is Kreacher Erasure!!!

It's all about Kreacher! Kreacher my beloved! I cannot stand idly by while he's left out of his own story. That miserable old elf in his miserable old loincloth was the most important thing in the world to Regulus and the real reason why he did what he did... this is a teenage death eater who has grown up entrenched in bigotry and pureblood supremacy with his murder pinterest board.... and he sacrifices himself for his house elf. because they couldn't get to him, not fully, they couldn't make him not believe that kreacher was family and someone worth showing kindness to and fighting for. and I think that's beautiful 🥺 perhaps most tragic story in all hp certainly one of the more powerful ones in terms of love and loyalty and sadly, oft overlooked

ok it's Kreacher Hours apparently.

So my idea of Walburga and Orion is that they were jobless parasites socialites who were basically haemorrhaging the family money while attending dinners and fancy parties and trying to pretend they were still as wealthy as ever. Personally I see Orion as kind of absent, always out "on business" (arguing with goblins at gringotts, smoking cigars with other self-important losers, possibly gambling, possibly having affairs) whereas Walburga was the more present of the two, hence Kreacher being more attached to her than Orion.

But I think for Regulus, Kreacher was probably the most stable figure he had in his life. His best friend. Imo Sirius was the golden child up until he was sorted into Gryffindor, and Regulus was somewhat neglected in comparison; so while Walburga steered Sirius around proudly to show him off at dinner parties and focused on his refinement etc, Kreacher was kind of given the role of nanny to Regulus. It's so cute to think about him as playmate/companion/confidante to baby Reg, playing make-believe or gobstones or chess, making him porridge :(

And for that reason I think Kreacher was the one who truly saw and understood Regulus. While I think Walburga did love her sons she was too obsessed with the Black legacy to ever let them be who they were and not what she wanted; when Sirius talks about Reg it's extremely disparaging and he specifically calls him stupid, which Reg clearly wasn't, given that he figured out the horcrux. Meaning Sirius really didn't know him that well. So it was Kreacher alone who saw how clever and diligent and hardworking Regulus really was, and Kreacher who had this fierce pride in watching him grow up...

I always get the feeling Walburga had to suddenly switch her focus to Regulus when Sirius dipped and was always lowkey resentful about what she'd lost-- Reg is described as smaller, uglier (lol) than Sirius, his room is smaller, Sirius himself describes him as dim which implies his intelligence wasn't as obvious as Sirius's was. Sirius was probably that child that is an absolute delight at parties, wittier and more charming than he has any right to be at that age, while Regulus just kind of disappeared into the background. Not to Kreacher though! They were both in the background. I can see child-Sirius being kind of haughty towards Kreacher as he was probably taught to be, then as he grew up and diverged from his family outright hateful, as Kreacher would obviously side with Walburga.

Meanwhile there was Regulus! Quiet, well-mannered, studious, on the quidditch team, perfect penmanship, doing everything to live up to his parents expectations, doing everything that nasty brat Sirius failed to do. And I imagine Kreacher's wrinkled little heart just burst with fondness and pride whenever he looked at him. :')

“We were young, thoughtless – carried away with our own cleverness.”

          - Remus Lupin, Prisoner of Azkaban

More ships! Severus Snape/Charity Burbage, Severus Snape/Petunia Dursley, Narcissa Black/Lily Evans, Narcissa Black/Remus Lupin

thank you very much for the ask, anon! lots of delicious ships here to get into...

charity burbage/severus snape

i'm going to start this one by pointing out something which features a lot in discussions of snape's relationship with dear old chazza b, and which i have elected to find annoying even though it's spectacularly minor:

in the book [or - certainly - in the original edition, which is what i have] of deathly hallows, charity does not say that she and snape are friends while pleading for her life. this is an invention of the films, which are rather more heavy-handed at hinting that snape isn't really a loyal death eater with blood-supremacist views than the text is.

but, nonetheless, she does still beg him to spare her... and so she must retain some belief in snape's capacity for goodness even though she must be aware, as a hogwarts teacher, that he murdered dumbledore only days beforehand...

which is to say that i love the idea of a bit of snarity [snurbage? burbape?] in a story which didn't deviate from the canon timeline. it is just exquisitely nasty to imagine the two coming together during the goblet of fire to half-blood prince period, initially just for something casual - since snape knows he can't commit to anything given his role as a spy - which then turned into something deeper he was occasionally driven to allow himself to imagine might be able to become a real relationship after the war...

...and then him having to look a woman he's fallen in love with in the eyes and arrange his features into a malevolent smirk while this is happening:

Voldemort raised Lucius Malfoy’s wand, pointed it directly at the slowly revolving figure suspended over the table, and gave it a tiny flick. The figure came to life with a groan and began to struggle against invisible bonds.   “Do you recognize our guest, Severus?” asked Voldemort.  Snape raised his eyes to the upside-down face. All of the Death Eaters were looking up at the captive now, as though they had been given permission to show curiosity. As she revolved to face the firelight, the woman said in a cracked and terrified voice, “Severus! Help me!” “Ah, yes,” said Snape as the prisoner turned slowly away again.

and then to have to pretend to be completely unruffled as voldemort kills her in front of him.

delicious.

petunia dursley/severus snape

this is one i really, really back.

i’m fond of petunia, who i think is one of the most interesting characters in the series because of how full of contradictions she is.

and who i think is also a victim in fandom spaces of how the adult cast was aged up for the films [in canon, she’s only in her early twenties when lily dies, and the implication is that vernon is a good deal older than her]. her inadequacies, such as her inability to truly care for either child in the household, seem much more nuanced in a woman of twenty-three, who has a toddler and whose entire family is dead, than they do if she’s pictured as a middle-aged woman with considerable life experience.

and like snape, petunia teeters on a knife edge between various chasms: she's a working-class girl from the midlands made good in middle-class surrey, he's a working-class half-blood boy who spends most of his life in pureblood circles; she ends up with her whole life wrapped up in a square little house when she’s barely out of her teens, he ends up with his whole life wrapped up in spying at the same age; she hates the wizarding world and yet covets it, he hates the muggle world and yet cannot escape it; she loves lily and she hates her and she loathes her for dying, he… well, you know the rest.

all of these similarities - especially when combined with the long history of resentment between snape and petunia [she thinks he stole lily from her! he thinks she was the first person to try and keep lily from him!] - makes snetunia just so compelling.

and if you're convinced and desperate to really get into the mess, you're in luck - because you can read the magnificent regretfully, yours by @maria-de-salinas, which takes snape and petunia's bitterness and awkwardness and grief and guilt and remorse and turns it into something really quite beautiful...

narcissa black/lily evans

ok, so i'm afraid to say that narlily is one of those marauders-era ships which i don't fully get the increasingly popularity of - and so, if you do ship it i would be thrilled to get your recs and manifestos as to why.

my objection doesn't actually have anything to do with narcissa being a blood-supremacist [although i don't think i'd vibe with a story which didn't address this at all - and i'm not compelled by a common version of fanon!narcissa which has her as not sincerely holding these beliefs: she is just as much of a bigot as lucius] - i think something quite interesting could be done with narlily [as in all death-eater-with-a-non-pureblood ships] as a vehicle for an examination of the hypocrisy of blood-supremacy; and with narlily as a femslash ship specifically as a vehicle for an examination of how sex with a non-pureblood which has no chance of resulting in pregnancy would be more acceptable in a culture which is so obsessed with heritage and lineage than sex which could.

why i don't really think it would slap for me, though, is that narcissa always comes across in canon as someone who is conformist and a bit staid - largely, as i've written about elsewhere, because she feels a desire to perform according to the gendered conventions expected of a woman of her class background as a way of deflecting the shame brought upon her family's standing in polite society by bellatrix and andromeda's behaviour. lily - on the other hand - is famously a bit bolshy - cheeky and adventurous and argumentative and stubborn.

and so i simply do not imagine their personalities either working well together in any meaningful way or clashing spicily [they'd clearly both regard the other as not worth their time popping off at].

please change my mind!

narcissa black/remus lupin

this, on the other hand... yes. hook it into my veins.

they both live behind masks - hers of gendered social convention, his of self-loathing - which have, at their core, the idea that a proper witch and wizard must be "civilised". and while they both seem to prefer to embrace these masks, there is the potential lurking beneath them for both of them to break free and be wild and raw in the realities of themselves.

plus... imagine if you've also got the post-1981 context of lupin trying desperately to understand how sirius could have become the death eater who would betray james to voldemort and narcissa and lucius trying to establish the fiction that he was under the imperius curse during the first war with the ministry, well before they feel comfortable becoming as complacent in their conviction that voldemort's not about to return as they are at the start of the canon narrative.

lovely misery.