Fuck... I'm pregnant

(Repost)

Tired and stressed but I got one of the things I needed to do done

eds are real funny cause you think you’re the one in control until you realize you can’t tell the difference between you now and you 20lbs ago

I went to court for my self harm habits, because I assaulted an officer while I was hitting my head, I decided to non contest it because of the situation. So now I'm on 2 year probation. The situation is fucked.

Really just tired of feeling like my life is meant to fix everyone else's

These nightmares won't stop, my therapist told me to talk to my psychiatrist and my psychiatrist said that only therapy will fix it.😵‍💫

Everyone is so hurt, you don't even get the chance sometimes.

Not many people talk about how deep emotional neglect hurts you.

I’m afraid to want things. I’m afraid to ask for help. I’m afraid to tell someone something if they seem in a bad mood. I can’t process when someone is nice to me. I can’t handle rejection, but my brain literally short circuits if someone gives me a compliment to the point where sometimes the rejection is better.

There are lots of overlap with emotional abuse, but emotional neglect hurts just as much. And it’s even worse that it usually goes undetected, so a lot of people can’t tell they’re being neglected until it’s too late.

FUCK THE POLICE

I got A&B on a police officer during a panic attack

Just got out of jail, it sucked

“It's taboo to admit that you're lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven't left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you're not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are. A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn't transition well to adult life, that you'd fall right through the cracks. And look at you now, it's happening.”

Mary Oliver, from long life: essays and other writings