I need to stay the fuck off twitter. Full of fat hating people. I don't need your help to hate myself I am capable of that myself

Anyone have that one room in the house where you simply cannot read a book in peace?

For me that is the front room

Ever feel like at 40 you are too old to do anything new to change your life. Yep I'm there

I honestly feel like today I don't belong here. I feel like I have 0 to offer anyone I have 0 skills to do anything

Ever fall down a rabbit hole you wish you didn't? Right now mine is stamping kits I can use in my journal instead of stickers

Sat in a hospital ward bay waiting for my breast lump removal this is gonna be a long ass day

Thinking again

it is stupid o clock well half 4 in the morning thinking about my damned future. I am tired of the same old patterns and things like that.

Not forgotten

about you guys just since I went back into the bedroom I have space to write in my physical journal. I have a proverbial shitstorm as well going on and I would just write there to vent more. I do love one thing though the services say oh you can reach out to us any time and when you do they hang the fuck up on you when you try and chase an appointment!

Ugh after the day from hell yesterday I am sat in a hospital department waiting for worst half

If there is one thing I hate it's traveling and what makes it worse I am travelling alone

Fuck my brain

I just want to rest but no it will not switch the fuck off. I can see myself in bed all day tomorrow and I don't want that

so

It is nearly 20 past 5 in the morning and my brain has gone into let's plan something for the future here's the thing I can't plan anything cause I will only get pissed off if it falls through.

I am trying to be positive at least my brain thinks I have a future to look for and for some reason, it thinks I would be suitable guiding people on health journeys now I am getting back on mine is it something worth posting here I don't know

haha the shambles

I missed a call from a community mental health team Not in my area i might add I called them back to see what the crack is and they HAD NO idea of what was going on What the actual fuck?!

Mildly amused.

I always make myself available if I know I am expecting a phone call yet the gp has its own timetables when this happens. I am still waiting for the phone call, which is nearly an hour late. If that was me the appointment would have been cancelled and I would have been told to rebook tomorrow. Funny that

Well fuck the voices are loud tonight. I will get In touch with the GP and ask him what we shall do I hate having at least 5 different voices constantly arguing to the point where I am getting 3 hours of 'decent' sleep

that is going to be my saying from now on I am past actually giving a fuck

This sucks I want to show true emotions but can't like there is a brick fucking wall there this isn't fair!