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reidlover13 · 2 years

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Euthanasia

Hyunjin x reader

Warnings: suicide attempt, suicidal thoughts, angst, crying, blood, self harm, depression, self destructive activities.

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"living was more painful than the cut on my wrist. "

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You really needed someone and hyunjin would hate you for disturbing him was what you thought, standing in front of his dorm room with shaky hands you realised no matter how hard you scrolled through the numerous numbers enlisting your contacts, the only one you stopped at was hyunjin's.

But knowing how busy he was with the upcoming comeback you had no courage to walk up to him, after contemplating for what seemed like hours and and days of not feeling like living anymore you knew you had to get rid of this before you fell right back into all the bad habits you quit about 4 years ago.

It's been hard, quitting anything is hard indeed, specially if you're totally used to it. So knowing you couldn't harm yourself had you shivering and running away from things you really needed to face.

And hyunjin barely ever meeting you just sucked more than it should've, maybe it was the fear he'd hate you for asking for help when he's not free. Even tho you knew he would never not help you, he'd constantly leave sticky notes telling you how well you were doing.

And you couldn't help but burst into tears as the apartment door shut close early in the morning, feeling your heart aching for no reason was what you hated the most but always had to face. You could still feel the kiss he left on your forehead, and as you sat up to see a glass of juice with a sticky note "good morning baby thank you for waking up today ily :)" had you tearing up all over again.

He knew exactly how much of a hard time you were having, and you felt lucky to know he wasn't feeling accused but helped you instead, in the best ways possible at that.

You decided to walk towards the dorms, hyunjin moved in with you when you both made it public, changing his dorm room into a small studio. As you walked past the security you found your legs trembling and heart throbbing, realising how bad you looked right now.

The skirt wasn't, it just wasn't fitting you right, you shouldn't have eaten so much last night. You shouldn't have been here either, ugh, could you not just walk right back out? Before you could ponder further and go back you found jisung cheerfully welcoming you to which you awkwardly smiled, realising there really was no way out anymore.

You rushed in trying to act as okay as possible. And you hated the fact chan was right there, he could always read all the members and you like an open book. "Hyunjin is in the studio" chan stated and you nodded letting out a breathe you didn't know you were holding.

Your heart throbbed harder as chan gave you a soft smile, and you smiled back, hands trembling inside your pockets. Chan nodded in acknowledgement and you walked off to hyunjin's studio, each step felt heavier than the last and by the time you were standing in front of his room, you could feel your lungs squeezing for air, no matter how deeply you breathed, you still felt breathless.

You legs shook hard as you contemplated just going inside the room or walking back out, 'it isn't too late, he'll hate you' your head felt heavy as tears bubbled up in your eyes again, you regretted coming over, and even more so not walking right back out, when you heard a door clicking, seungmin yawning as he walked out of his room. Lose shirt dropped over his toned muscles.

The panic rose further as his eyes met yours, your hands stinging from how hard you dug your nails inside your palms. And suddenly you were rushing back out and blocking the members' calls for you seemed way more sane than anything that filled your brain in the past weeks.

You rushed towards your car, shakily starting the car, and driving off fast, your breathe quickened as you sat in the driver's seat. The red light felt like hell and you swore you wished a truck would come and hit your car, but it never happened, and by the time you reached your apartment, you could barely breathe, gasping heavily as you limped over and tried to open the door the best you could.

The key just wouldn't enter the keyhole and it had you crying harder for some reason, "please!!! please oh god!!!!" you sobbed as the door finally clicked open. Throwing away the key you ran up to your room, and before you knew you were stripped into nothing but your thin shirt, that had you shivering in cold, and shorts, a blade sitting upright your wrist, thighs leaking blood into the peach bedsheets.

You regretted it, you extremely regretted cutting yourself and the only way you felt was possible to get rid of the immense guilt was to die. You sobbed hard, gasping for air and bending over as your chest burned from the lack of air, drool slipping past your torn and chapped lips as you resisted the urge to dig blade right into your wrist and kill yourself.

Meanwhile, hyunjin flinched at the loud thump against his door, dread filling up his viens as seungmin breathlessly explained how you ran away, crying. Crying. Hyunjin was leaping down the stairs in an instant, regretting ever leaving for work.

Hyunjin thanked minho as he hurriedly pulled open the door to the car, changbin sitting in the front along with chan in the back, immediately easing up his nerves as he teared up.

He knew exactly what could happen and he hated himself for not addressing it earlier and waiting for you to speak up yourself. And he couldn't help but shiver at the thought of any harm coming up on you.

His hands shaking hard as all the heart wrecking possibilities filled his mind, chan slowly patted the younger's back, trying to comfort the shaking boy. By the panicked look on seungmin's face as your ran out, chan knew how severe this may be and he couldn't help but frown at how they failed to help you.

And you could only apologise as you hurriedly called hyunjin. Sobbing out series of apologies as your wrist burned, warm blood oozing out and staining everything around you. "It's okay baby hold on for just a while hm? Breathe deeply, I'll be there in a moment" hyunjin spoke with a confidence telling you nothing would happen and he'll make it better but will he even get a chance to?

His other hand shook horribly as chan held it tightly, his heart aching at your loud sobs as a weird silence filled the car, minho gulping as the only sound he could hear was your loud cries and hyunjin's reassurances. Everything felt unreal as hyunjin cried out for your name, when no answer came from your side he couldn't help but feel his heart quickining even more.

"hurry please" hyunjin sobbed, clinging onto the driver's seat as chan called in an ambulance at your address. Changbin felt helpless as he watched minho shivering as he drove past the speed limit. Not having a will to say anything over the loud cries.

There was nothing more than reaching the house at time that the four boys wished rn. And as minho pulled into the parking at your place, hyunjin was hurriedly jumping out, and rushing upto the door, finding it half open and feeling his heart aching at the scattered clothes, the boys rushed in after him, following hyunjin to both of your's room.

That's where you laid, body limp and minho hissed at the blood pooling over the floor. Hyunjin rushed over to you in an instant and changbin rushed over to press a clothe firmly on your slitted wrist. "Oh God please" he begged as he pulled you into his arms, pulling your lifeless body close to his as he felt his hands trembling more. "Please please wake up" he cried softly holding your head as he shook you in hopes for some reaction.

Changbin sat near hyunjin, pressing the clothes over your wound hardly, letting out a shaky breathe as he felt your faint heartbeat. "The ambulance is here" chan yelled and hyunjin was immediately hoisting you up in his arms, rushing over downstairs.

The rest was a blur as hyunjin sat on the small chair provided by the hospital, the rest of the boys sat near him silently, not knowing how to comfort the sobbing boy. Chan softly patted his back, telling him it'll be okay but feeling all the words dying down at the possibility it may not be.

Hyunjin didn't know what to feel or think, all the emotions mixing up and making his head ache horribly, if only he talked to you sooner...if only payed attention....it was all his fault, all his fault.

He could hear the faint footsteps as the nurse rushed in with something, not having the courage to look up, ears ringing loud enough to make him feel deaf. He didn't want to hear anything either way, except your voice, telling him it's okay, telling him you're okay.

He had his elbows resting on his shivering legs hands cupping his whole face as he tried to put all the deafening noises to a pause. "Hyunjin." Chan started, kneeling down in front of him as he sighed, "you've to be strong for her, right now she needs you more than anyone else. You shouldn't be giving up on everything not right now-" chan's words were cut off as the doctor and the nurses slowly made their way out of the closed doors hyunjin wished to never see in his life again.

The nurses rushed away as the doctor stood outside sighing as he asked for your family, to which hyunjin immediately stood up. "She's okay right?" Hyunjin cried and the doctor sighed before nodding a small yes. "Try not to yell or do anything that could further trigger her, she needs a lot of rest and support to get through this, i hope no one will put any kind of stress on her at this time." The doctor adviced before telling they could meet her.

Hyunjin hurriedly nodded, wiping off his tears as he rushed inside the room, the 3 following behind soon, a nurse who stood near you, showed hyunjin where to call for them if needed before nodding at the boys and leaving the room. "Oh god.." hyunjin sighed out, eyes tearing up as he sat next to you.

Cautiously threading his fingers through yours, seeing you lying to lifelessly did nothing but push him more to edge as he sobbed. Minho finally patting his head while chan and changbin sat on the couch near, chan on a call with the company about the situation, while changbin called the other members telling them about the situation as calmly as he could.

You let out a breathe, head throbbing but it wasn't something you haven't gone through before. The tight grip on your hand had you turning your head to see hyunjin sobbing while grasping onto your hand as if you'd leave if he stopped holding you. Minho was the first one you made eye contact with and he gave you a shaky yet reassuring smile, making you tear up as all the memories flooded back.

"hyunjin" minho muttered and it was the softest you'd ever heard of him, hyunjin sobbed out loudly before turning to look at the older one almost out of instincts, and as he motioned towards you while patting hyunjin's head, you could see the gears turning in your lover's head, his breathe hitching as he quickly turned to look at you, eyes wide and red with all the crying.

You had sure seen hyunjin crying before, so hard that you couldn't even control his shaking with your whole body snuggly wrapped against his, but the sight in front of you had you own eyes watering yet again. Hyunjin looked disheveled, blood staining his off white and almost see through shirt, hands termbling so hard as he held yours firmly, tears painted all of his face and you swore if you could move you'd hug him the first thing.

No, you hadn't moved past any of feelings of death seeping inside you and no you couldn't thank anyone for saving your life, but right now all that mattered was how hyunjin engulfed you in his arms, you could hear the small thuds as the boys left you both alone, you body awkwardly laying and sitting at the same time as he pushed you as close as you could be with him, your wrist stinging but you couldn't help threading your fingers through his long locked that were tangled horribly. His hand coddling your head as he sobbed into your shoulder.

"i can't- please please don't leave me please" he begged as if this was all a dream and the moment he lets you go, you'd be dead. You sobbed in return, not having the will to promise anything as you hopelessly trembled against his arms. "I'm sorry jinnie I'm so sorry" you apologised nonetheless. You knew it wouldn't just get better out of a sudden.

You knew just because an attempt was unsuccessful doesn't mean it couldn't happen again. You knew if you promised him to never do it again it could only be a lie and he knew so too. But the way he held you, told you he'd help you through anything. he was given one more chance and he'd forver be thankful.

"i love you" you both whispered in unison as he pulled away to put his forehead on yours, both of you chuckling as he cupped your face in his soft hands. Maybe living wasn't so bad if it's with him.

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reidlover13 · 2 years

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𝗙𝗼𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂

Lee know x reader

Warnings: crying, aftereffects of breakup, major angst, fluff and comfort in the ending. Minho crying, overworking, starving, forced breakup. And angst

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"𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐢 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐠𝐨 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐚 𝐦𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐧𝐨 𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐮𝐩."

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"we need to break up." he whispered, taking in sharp breathe at the way your hands dropped the spoon back in the bowl of chewy cereals that you managed to make in the middle of the night, binging the new run BTS episode you had been waiting for ages, while waiting for your boyfriend, minho to come back home from the dance practice, specially since your anniversary has started not an hour ago and because tmr was a weekend, a holiday both you and minho craved.

"uhm- h-happy anniversary?" You cheered not so cheerfully. Looking at minho awkwardly, was this a prank? It's a prank! it has to be. "Y/n" he sighed, rubbing his temples as he looked down at his feet, face contorting in pure frustration. "You're kidding right?" Your voice was small as tears welled up in your eyes, the small shaky breathe you took in had minho dropping his bag near the couch as he came up to kneel down before you, his knees on the both sides of your legs.

You dared not look into his eyes, fiddling with your fingers and wishing he'd laugh and tell you it was a prank. "They saw us kissing, everyone knows, it's all over social media- the company....I've no option but to end this baby..." An audible gulp echoed through the room as you tried to blink through your tears.

You knew how much skz meant to minho and you'd never ever ever make him sacrifice his dreams for you, but a little part screamed at you for thinking you could somehow beat his everlasting dreams. "Y/n?" He asked, his own voice lacing with a pain and you looked anywhere but him, biting your trembling lip while trying to bite back the loud sobs that thretened to escape, your eyes glistening with tears as you blinked through the tears.

"I'm so sorry" he whispered, pulling your hands in his as if it would make anything better, as if it'd stop the slight tremble in your fingers. "Look at me please" he stated. Somewhat sternly. And you let out a soft sob, while looking down at your lap, then finally letting his gaze catch yours. "I don't like it when you cry like this" he furrowed his own eyes teary, as he wiped the salty tears off of your face.

It was as if his touch triggered something in you, and your loud sobs echoed past the thin walls of your apartment even louder, and minho couldn't help but let go off the tears he was holding himself. He wasn't the type to show his emotions and seeing him cry like that just hurt you more. He still had a small smile on his face, silently thanking you for everything.

"they're waiting for me outside....i need to go now." He whispered, pulling himself off the floor, taking in a deep breathe he went to pick up his bag. Your own eyes widening as you watched him walk towards the door and before you could think you were latching onto his back, arms circling his waist, face burried in his sterdy back.

"please" you sobbed, begging the gods to let him stay for a little while longer, if this was a nightmare please let it pass quickly. You could feel his hands shaking as he held yours, pulling the tight grip open so gently, and you only just realised HOW much you loved him.

"please please min- don't" you sobbed as he turned to look at you, your teary eyes desperately begging him to stay and he chuckled through the tears. Kissing your moist eyes then your red nose, then your wet cheek and you loved the way his face lingered so close to yours as he stared at you. And it was as if you knew what he was asking for, you immediately pressed your chapped lips against his, neck bending upwards as you clinged to his shirt, hard.

He kissed you with an urgency, a pain. And your sobs were loud throughout the kiss, the knock on the door had him pulling away as he pressed a last kiss to your now moist lips, then he walked away and you had a ting of hope as he came back to kiss your forehead. "Happy 2nd anniversary love" he whispered slipping a small box into your shaking hands before opening the door.

Your watery eyes following him and your eyes met han's and he passed you a soft smile. Comforting you in ways others would never know. And as the door closed shut, your found your breathe quickening, knowing he wasn't really coming back again.

Your legs shook hard as you walked back to the couch and sat down sobs turning into hiccups as you clenched the small box hard. Eyes clenching shut as your heart overflowed with pain.

After what seemed like hours, you finally stopped crying, eyes stinging horribly as you stared at the box, a small bow and a note of "ily <3" making your eyes water again. Then you sighed pulling open the shiny wrapper to find a small locket inside.

"Keep me close to your heart forever, sweetheart. Will always be here, the actual gift i prepared for you was ruined but....i hope i make up with this i love you so much i know i never say this enough but thank you for everything. I'll keep you close too.

-a stupid admirer of yours<3"

the small note said and you found tears sliding past your cheeks again. Then you picked up the frail locket, it had one side of a broken heart and you cringed at his choice, softly smiling as you locked it behind your neck, forever. The coming month was horrible to you, the company hadn't yet passed the statement of both your breakup or anything related to the rumors the way people had started treating you like a celebrity just triggered your anxiety to the point you had come to lock yourself back in your small little apartment.

The mailbox filled with overflowing letters and you decided to ignore all of them as you walked back inside. You sighed, feeling the cold tiles against your feet, the apartment seemed colder the more you lived inside it without minho.

Minho had found himself in his room yet again, eyes the various pictures of you he had collected secretely in his phone. Tears now falling freely once he was hidden from the world, he hated having to leave you, he hated not choosing you.

Everything seemed like a blur as he overworked himself to death, legs trembling by the end of every night as he practiced his ass off daily, just to keep your silly smile off his mind. He'd sleep for barely 2 hours daily and skip meals as much as he could.

Dancing was the only escape and it wasn't resulting him any peace anymore either as his joints ached. A knock on the door had him throwing off his phone on the bed and wiping his tears, pretending to be fine again, what was he even doing this for anymore? He didn't know.

"minho." He heard chan's voice and his eyes welled up with tears yet again, minho liked to keep his emotions hidden but every now and then he needed chan to help him let go off all the burden he carried. this time although, he couldn't even get started as sobs echoed past his door audibly, finally letting go off the pain of having to leave you. He couldn't find himself to walk to the door as the sobs only incresed in noise, "hyung open the door please" he heard han's voice accompanied by changbin's muffled yell that he couldn't make out.

He wanted to walk over and open the door, but the amount of pain he felt had him biting back the loud cries, hands turning into fists as he dug his nails inside his palm hard. Knowing he couldn't avoid it forever, he managed to get up on shaky knees, looking down at his feet as he walked off to the door, he let in a sharp breathe, before opening the door.

He found himself looking anywhere but the members and seeing him this way was probably the most heartbreaking things the members have encountered yet. His eyes were dull and hopeless as he stared at his black socks, mind wandering off to how you would always say he looked hot in black. A soft chuckle left his lips as more tears gathered at the brim of his eyes, "you can talk to us, you know?" Changbin muttered feeling his heart aching at the sight of how utterly destroyed minho looked.

Chan exhaled deeply before pulling minho to his chest, the rest of the members soon gathering up around the door as minho sobbed onto the older's shoulders. After what seemed like hours, the boys were now huddled up inside minho's room, finally getting him to eat properly after ages.

"I'm thinking of leaving the group..." Minho whispered, digging the fork into another piece of fruit and the awkward silence accompanied had him sniffling. "I don't want to be all this anymore......not without her" he continued and chan nodded in acknowledgement.

The rest of the members looked equal parts of understanding yet heartbroken and minho sighed again. "I'll talk to the company and if they still refuse to let you two stay together.....you may as well do what you feel like doing, being here when being unhappy won't do any of us good." Chan sighed and minho nodded.

At this chan stood up, pulling out his phone as he walked out of the room, to probably make a call to the company. Minho sighed, playing with the food as he resisted the urge to just go meet you right now.

"they called us at the company." Chan came in breaking the awkward silence and the boys all huffed as they got up, leaving the room for only chan and minho. Chan walked to the bed sitting beside minho as he patted his shoulder. "I support you." He whispered and minho chuckled dryly, tears already filling his eyes again as he thanked his hyung.

The drive to the building was awkward as the members shuffled around the car in discomfort. At this point minho couldn't seem to bring himself to accept everything that was going on. You occupied his head every second he was left free, your soft hands moulding into his, the way your soft lips felt against his, your smile, your shiny eyes as you told him about the things you loved, the sleepy whining whenever he tried to get up from the bed during the weekends. The way you'd fit into his lap, sitting ever so comfortably wrapped up in his arms.

And before he knew he was crying again, wishing he was a bit cautious, if only he payed attention you both wouldn't have been caught. He blamed himself so much he wished he'd die right now. It was getting harder and no matter how hard he tried to pretend it was all okay it just wasn't. He knew, the members did too.

His feet ached as he walked to their practice room, ready to give up everything just to see you once again. And when he opened the door and saw you sitting on one of the chairs, fiddling with your fingers as you bit your nails nervously, he felt his eyes brim with tears yet again, he didn't know how many times he cried today or since the day he left you.

The soft sob pulled you out of your trance and you immediately bursted into tears at the sight. Minho rushed over to you, before pulling you into his chest, face buried in your shoulder as he sobbed about how hard it was without you and how he's willing to give up anything to stay with you....or how much he loved you.

You whimpered when he pulled away, wishing to stay in his arms for a little longer, scared by the fact he may leave again if you don't hold him tight enough, your hands clenched tightly onto his shirt and you stood up with him when he tried to stand up, eyes wide in fear and he chuckled. Wiping off your moist cheeks, you looked so tired, as if you hadn't slept for ages, but the way your eyes shimmered at him had him pulling you into his chest yet again.

"won't leave." He whispered in your ear when you refused to let him go, you shook your head as you continued to cling to him and he couldn't help but feel all his nerves easing as he felt your body against his. "I love you so much" you sighed shakily and minho hummed over your head, swaying you side to side softly.

"if you both are done- can i?" Chan started awkwardly and the members laughed loudly making you blush. "You can continue being in the group while dating her." Was all chan had to say to make you burst into tears again, at which minho cooed, laughing over how adorable you looked.

And the members watched fondly as they watched the goofy boy come back after a month of constant struggle, it was all thanks to you, or maybe your presence? The members knew about you both for ages and knew exactly how much you loved each other, keeping you away from each other was the worst thing that could happen to both of you and the members were willing to do anything to prevent that.

"thank you" minho whispered as they walked back to the car, you fondly sleeping in his arms as he admired you. Chan chuckled at that, patting minho's back and leading the both of you inside to head back to the dorms, this time without loud sobs wrecking the building.

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reidlover13 · 2 years

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Silent Cry

Seungmin x reader

Genre: comfort? angsty themes

Warnings: Reader has depression and gets overwhelmed easily, mentions of self-loathing, medication, and bottling up feelings

WC: 0.8k

SONG TO LISTEN TO: Silent Cry

Suffering from depression was nothing fun. Your condition had been getting worse lately and you had been slowly isolating yourself from everyone

After another exhausting day of school pretending to be fine, smiling and laughing as if nothing was wrong, you were so tired and ready to give up. Your friends didn’t see anything wrong with you. But Seungmin did. He could tell you weren’t as okay as you said you were. After all, he was your best friend.

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reidlover13 · 2 years

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03:25 PM — lee minho

pairing: yn x lee know

genre: comfort fic

warnings: anxiety and depression

wc: 708

now playing: winter by benee feat. mallrat

Suddenly, it had been three days since you washed your hair. Suddenly, it had been a week since anyone had heard from you. Several of your friends had tried to call you. Minho, in particular, had tried to get you to open your door for the last two days

Despite your friends’ obvious efforts, you were in your room convincing yourself that everyone secretly hates you. You felt scared everyone was growing tired of you and your “lows.” You hadn't been sleeping for the past few nights, endlessly scrolling through your Instagram feed, looking at your friends’ posts. They all looked so happy without you there. Not even a trace of them worrying.

Maybe, it would be better if– No! Don't go there.

You lay in bed. Eyeing the ceiling as you feel nothing and everything all at once. Your phone vibrated again, another text from Minho.

[3:25 pm]

i found my copy of your apartment key

im going over and you cant stop me y/n!!!!

And suddenly, you felt the urge to cry.

The tears rapidly built up in your eyes as your chest and throat tightened up. Minho couldn't see you like this. You couldn't have Minho see you like this. Granted, Minho had seen you like this plenty of times already. He was your best friend after all. It was just different this time. It embarrassed you to think that, yet again, Minho was coming to your rescue.

You hadn't gotten out of your house in almost three weeks. Dirty clothes littered your room, along with the stray bowl from when you decided you could stomach something. Suddenly, tears were streaming down the sides of your face as you thought of the mess in your living space.

You heard Minho as he closed your front door, calling out your name to try and locate you. You didn’t look up at him as he swung your door open and silently closes it. He could see the tears building up and falling from your eyes as he silently sat at the foot of your bed, patiently waiting for you.

Suddenly, time had finally slowed down. There was a moment of stillness within you. “I feel so overwhelmed Min,” you sniffled, your tears never-ending. “Time is passing me by and I feel like I haven't accomplished anything.”

Minho stood to scoot closer to you, brushing the stray hairs from out of your face as he sat down. “I know baby, scoot over. Let me hug you.” Instead, you sat up, Minho burying your head into his chest. Minho knew not to ask questions anymore, all they did was overwhelm you further. “I’m sad, Min.”

Minho didn't reply. He simply stood up to grab several things laying around your room. When he sat back down you noticed he had grabbed your remote, quickly turning on the television to play your favorite YouTuber. You then noticed that he had grabbed your hairbrush.

Minho grunted as he gestured you to sit in front of him, taking a seat himself to start brushing through your tangled hair. It had been a while since you had felt someone be so delicate with you. Again, those same tears built up in your eyes. You felt so grateful to have a friend like Minho. A friend to take care of you. A friend who tried to understand you.

“And, done! Do you wanna take a shower?” Minho quietly asked from behind you. You took a deep breath, nodding your head as you finally felt a bit better after a long while. Minho quietly stood up to get you a towel as you picked out some clean clothes that were still in the hamper on your floor.

You sit on your closed toilet, staring at the wall in front of you. “Hey? You okay? Take as long as you'd like y/n, you need to destress,” Minho says as he hands you a clean towel, kissing the top of your head before exiting the restroom.

And suddenly, you felt better knowing you were in Minho’s care.

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reidlover13 · 2 years

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10:20

Bang Chan x reader (Platonic..?)

Genre(s): vent, fluff, angst, overall Chan just being Chan and giving comfort to sad reader

Summary: You ask if Chan can give you a hug, even though it late at night, because you feel upset. you didn’t expect him to actually show up…

A/N: Random, short piece because I felt really bad and Chan always brings me the most comfort. If you need this, I hope you feel better after reading this and know that you are not alone; You always have stray kids and other stays. Anyways, enjoy!

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reidlover13 · 2 years

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badboy!yeonjun x innocent!reader

word count: 21k

angst, fluff, smut

when your teacher asked you to tutor in the beginning of the school year, you were hesitant even then.

you knew that it meant your lunch period and one study hall for the day were gonna be completely booked, helping younger kids grasp the basic idea that the mitochondria was the powerhouse of the cell.

but then you met one young girl desperate to pass her first test in october and knew your teacher had gotten you, sending a small, defeated smile her way as you gave her the okay to put your name on the list.

you didn’t expect to come back from winter break with the news that the next student you’d be tutoring wasn’t a sweet 7th grade girl but none other than choi yeonjun.

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reidlover13 · 2 years

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day and night (2)

pairing ↠ jeno x you x haechan

genre .. warnings ↠ smut, noncon, mean!dom!jeno, implied sub!haechan, gun play, degradation, slapping, kidnapping, oral (m receiving), sadist!jeno, implied dacryphilia, a bad bad jeno to haechan ratio I am So ashamed of myself

summary ↠ weeks have passed since you last knew freedom, and since you were locked away inside of a room with nowhere to go. your attempts to escape are futile, and your only option now is to accept your fate.

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day and night

pairing ↠ haechan x you x jeno

genre .. warnings ↠ smut, noncon, unprotected sex, forced breeding, mean!dom!jeno, implied sub!haechan, knife play, gun play, degradation, bondage, slapping, kidnapping, sadism on jeno’s end

summary ↠ after being kidnapped, the last person you expect to find responsible is haechan: the cute boy from the school baseball team that you tutor. but when you realize that he’s merely the partner-in-crime to jeno, captain of the baseball team, you find everything less surprising - considering your kidnapper’s are stark opposites.

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↠ part two.

maybe all of the signs had been staring you dead in the face - the shy glances haechan casted you, only to glance off as swiftly as possible the moment you caught him staring. the way he always blushed whenever you praised his efforts or called him smart. how he was always so curious about you, and maybe his cute face and innocent smile had lured you into telling him a little more than you should have.

after all, he was merely a stranger before you agreed to tutor him. just the cute boy in class that did his work and kept quiet, and was only found to be close with his fellow teammates on the baseball team.

but you thought that it only meant he had an innocent crush on you. never did you imagine that all of it would culminate in this way. that you would wake up in an unfamiliar room with haechan towering above you.

“you’re awake,” haechan whispered, more inwardly, as if he meant to keep the words inside of his head.

you glanced around, nothing short of confused. the bedroom was quite clearly not yours. for one, the bed you were lying on is much bigger and comfortable. second of all, it’s so much more decorative, looking more like your ideal bedroom than the one you actually own. it’s filled with your favorite colors, posters of your favorite musical artists, and things alike. almost as if you designed the room yourself. but you knew you didn’t.

when you tried to sit up, you were forced right back in place. you glanced up and realized that your wrists were bound. the feeling of the rope digging into your skin made you grimace. haechan’s eyes flashed with arm, and he rushed to your side. “is it too tight?” as soon as you nodded, haechan went to loosen the ropes. not enough so that you could free yourself from them, of course, but enough so that it wouldn’t be prying into your skin. “better?” he asked. you gave him another nod, and he sported his signature cute smile. you only wished that you could still trust it.

merely seconds later, haechan made another move. he seemed to be pensive and mull his decision over, taking one step forward, then another back, and then he made a few more forward until he was right at the edge of the bed. he reached for your shorts, and in an instant you realized what he was trying to do. you tried to kick, but he held your legs carefully, trying not to hurt you in spite of your attempts to kick him away. “please don’t do this, haechan,” you whimpered, shaking your head. your throat hurt when you tried to talk and your breath picked up a rapid pace to the point where you almost couldn’t breathe.

haechan frowned, but he didn’t let up. “i have to - i’m sorry,” he said quietly.

your brain immediately began to think of reasons why he would have to do something this terrible to you. why he would have to kidnap you and lock you inside of some bedroom, presumably in his house. you had never been. all of the studying sessions took place at yours, and he had all of the time in the world to learn every little thing there was to know about you that made you vulnerable to this kind of situation, simply by paying attention. then, it occurred to you exactly how you had been abducted - belt wrapped around your throat from the backseat of your car, until you eventually lost consciousness. that didn’t seem like haechan’s M.O, though. sure he was stronger than you, that much was obvious from the fact that he was holding your legs in place, but even then, he was gentle. the ambush in your car was anything but, betraying every effort of preserving your comfort that haechan had put forth. and then, it clicked. haechan wasn’t the one that had kidnapped you.

then, who had?

“did someone put you up to this?” you questioned, trying hard to ignore the burn around your neck. the belt was no longer there, but the pain lingered. as soon as the question left your mouth, haechan seemed to freeze, and you knew by now that that meant you had hit the nail on the head. haechan was merely someone’s partner in crime, but you couldn’t imagine who. someone from the baseball team? i don’t even know anyone else from the baseball team. who… who, hyuck? you can tell me.”

he only shook his head. “i can’t.”

you bit your lip. “is it someone from the team? you don’t have to do this, hyuck. you can let me go.”

haechan was still hesitant, but his reluctance didn’t side with you this time. unless, he was telling the cold, hard truth when he replied, “no one forced me to do anything.”

you didn’t want to believe that. it made you sick to your stomach to think that haechan was fully willing to do something like this to you.

“come on, donghyuck.”

“he’s right,” added another voice, deep enough for you to tell that it obviously didn’t belong to haechan. your vision panned to the doorway, where the last person you thought you’d see appeared - lee jeno, captain of the baseball team. “this was a group effort. teamwork, if you will.”

“jeno…”

jeno lifted his hand and wiggled his fingers before stepping in the room, “that’s me,” he announced, smiling. it wasn’t sweet or even kind, though of course you were biased in that description; he was the one pulling all of the strings. it was… victorious. like the prideful smiles he sported after winning a championship game, when people would flock towards him with their congratulations and asking him how it felt to be so utterly undefeated. at least then, you thought he was respectable. he never acted as if he carried all of the weight, never forgetting to mention that it was teamwork that rewarded him with a victory. but now he was looking at you as if he had won possession over you, and you felt nauseous.

jeno glanced at haechan with a displeased look, chiding, “haven’t even gotten the bitch naked yet? what good are you for?”

haechan hung his head and whispered, “sorry.”

jeno sighed and shook his head, then began to walk towards you. and that was when you began to panic. when you were alone with haechan, you felt a tad bit safer, considering you had at least trusted him at one point and he was gentle with you, but jeno wasn’t like that. you didn’t know him personally, but he worked hard, played hard, and nothing about him was ever soft. he reached for something inside of the bedside drawer, and your eyes went round when you realized that it was a knife. he leaned towards you and shut your eyes, begging, “jeno, please don’t hurt me, please, i’ll do whatever you want.”

the man in question tilted his head. “whatever i want?”

tears rolling down your cheeks, you nodded. your eyes only opened again once you heard something rip and your skin suddenly felt cold. jeno had tore your shirt apart with his knife and the air was hitting your bare skin. your chest heaved as you made eye contact with him, so much fear in yours and so much power in his.

jeno dragged the knife down your abdomen and to your underwear. you held your breath when you felt the cold edge of the knife against your bare skin, and soon it was slitting your underwear open. he wasn’t as careful as haechan, and the only reason his pace was even relatively slow was because he knew it would unnerve you. he asked through thick breath, “will you give me something?”

you gulped, mouth going dry. you knew what he wanted. it was clear as day - what both of them wanted.

carelessly, jeno threw the broken pieces of fabric somewhere across the floor and ran a finger over your cunt. instantly you squirmed, trying to pry your legs shut, and you managed to land a kick on jeno. “you fucking bitch,” he spat, visibly now upset. he stormed over to the uppermost end of the bed and tightened the ropes around your arms again in punishment, satisfied when you let out a loud noise of pain and discomfort.

“hurts?”

you nodded, lips trembling.

jeno snickered and moved back to the other end of the bed. “good.”

he shot haechan a look and he swooped over, holding your legs spread. never had you ever felt so helpless and betrayed. you just couldn’t believe that this was happening, couldn’t fathom why it was happening to you.

“i don’t want this,” you croaked, hoping that maybe something could get them to stop. something could deter them and get them to change their mind.

“i don’t give a fuck what you want,” jeno retorted bluntly. and just like that, the hope vanished. jeno got an idea and said, “haechan, it’s your turn.”

haechan meandered towards you slowly, almost looking shy. he saw the way your eyes begged and pleaded for mercy and knew that you saw something in him that you didn’t see in jeno, but you weren’t ready to accept how similar they were. that haechan was capable of terrible things, just as much as jeno was.

“i want…” haechan trailed off, looking down at his feet.

eyebrow arched, jeno urged him on, “you want what? spit it the fuck out.”

haechan cleared his throat. “i want her to ride me.”

for a second, you were glad that jeno’s teasing wasn’t directed towards you at the moment. he laughed, amused by his teammate’s honesty. “you’re fucking kidding. you hear that, babe? haechan’s so pathetic that he can’t even fuck you. he needs you to do all the fucking work for him.”

then you saw it. the tent in haechan’s pants. as humiliating as the situation was, he was aroused.

jeno walked back to the top side of the bed, then grabbed your jaw and warned, “listen, you little cunt. i’m gonna untie these ropes and you’re going to be on your best behavior or else i’ll have to hurt you - really, really bad. is that what you want?”

rapidly, you shook your head. jeno went to untie the ropes and you felt a little relieved to have your wrists freed, though they still stung.

“now be a good girl and ride haechan.”

haechan stripped himself of his clothes and simultaneously you of all of your dignity. it was your turn to hesitate: should you cave in to their desires, or resist and possibly make things worse for yourself? it seemed like no matter what you did they always had the upper hand, and your only option was to submit, whether you did it willingly or by force.

“just do what he says. please,” haechan told you, giving you the most pitiful eyes. whether he was telling you that for your sake or for his, you didn’t know anymore. you thought that there was a chance he wasn’t as sick as jeno was, but clearly you were being proven wrong. his hunger for you obviously outweighed any sense of conscience he had, his moral compass broken. and you felt disgusted.

you swallowed to wet your throat. “do you have a condom?”

“haechan’ll pull out,” jeno said, unperturbed. much unlike you. the last thing you wanted was to have a baby and especially by either of them. “won’t you, haechan?”

haechan’s eyes flickered. “i don’t think…”

jeno repeated more sharply this time, “won’t you, haechan?”

slowly, haechan nods. you didn’t trust it - especially considering jeno had essentially just forced haechan into saying that he’d pull out - but it wasn’t like you had a choice. you couldn’t imagine the things he’d do to you if you resisted. so with all of the strength you could muster, you walked on your knees towards haechan and straddled his crotch, slowly pushing the head of his cock into you. haechan tipped his head back almost immediately, a high-pitched noise escaping his lips. a noise left yours, but it wasn’t one of pleasure. it burned and tears pricked your eyes.

at least you had control over the pace. that was the only thing that you had power over in this entire situation. you weren’t sure how to feel about that.

“good. you’re complying,” jeno remarked, only observing from the sidelines - for now. “don’t know why you’re crying like a fucking bitch. we haven’t even gotten to the best part yet. you should be glad haechan’s such a wimp - i won’t be going so easy on you.”

“shut up,” you hissed. you hadn’t really meant to say it aloud, but it was too late - you already had. and now you were definitely going to suffer the consequences.

anger flashed on jeno’s face in an instant and he didn’t hesitate to reach for your jaw again, forcing you to look at him so rapidly that you thought your neck would snap. “what the fuck did you just say?”

you had never regretted anything quicker. gulping, you swiftly tried to save yourself, “i’m sorry-“

the words had hardly left your mouth before the palm of his hand landed against your cheek, and it stung like hell. if you weren’t crying already, you were sobbing now.

jeno repeated, “i said, what the fuck did you just say to me?”

you hesitated, but in your best effort to not get hit again, you whispered in the tinest voice, “i said… i said shut up.”

jeno swung his palm towards your face again and you closed your eyes in preparation, but it never came. you opened your eyes again after a moment, met with the sight of laughing in your face. whether from anger or genuine amusement or a combination of the two, you couldn’t tell. much to your surprise, he let go of your face, but you should have known that he wouldn’t let you off the hook so easily. the words left his mouth and you gawked when he spoke to haechan, “cum in her.”

“no- no, you can’t!” you yelled to haechan, immediately trying to get away before he got the chance. but you felt something cold against your temple and immediately froze.

“move and i’ll have to coat these pretty walls with your brains. you wouldn’t want that, would you?” jeno asked, holding a firearm to your head. you couldn’t breathe, couldn’t move, couldn’t do anything. the fear plaguing you had broken you. it took every bit of strength you had to even shake your head. “wouldn’t have had to do this if you just behaved like i told you to. but since you wanna be a fucking brat, i guess i gotta treat you like one. see this as your punishment.”

when haechan came with a loud cry, filling you to the brim, it wasn’t long before they switched places. and when jeno forcefully bended you over, you knew that you were in for one hell of a ride.

and it was going to be a long one.

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“🎵 I got chills, they’re multiplying and I’m losing control 🎵”

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WARNING— rough sex, recording, hair pulling, degrading, riding, marking, name calling, choking, biting, edging, vibrator, dacryphilia, unprotected sex, oral, praise, body worship, face riding, cum eating, begging, tongue piercing!

IN WHICH— Beomgyu and his roommate decide make money through porn after figuring out they can’t pay this months rent, while unconsciously falling in love with each other.

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“I got something today while I was out” you heard Beomgyu say as you empty out the rest of yogurt that had been inside the bowl and opening the pack of strawberries, raspberries and granola that you had set off to the side cutting up the red fruits on the cutting board.

“Hm? And what exactly did you get?” You arch your brow as you use the knife to slide the fruit into your bowl. “A toy, we can use it when we record… if you want to that is” he trails off watching as your sprinkle chunks of granola into the bowl as well.

“Well what kind of toy are we talking about here Gyu?” You ask as you toss the knife into the sink and dip your spoon into the bowl mixing around your slight lunch. “A vibrator” he says as he walks up to you taking the spoon from your fingers and eating what you happened to think was going to be your first bite of food since coming home from your lectures.

You slap his chest with an almost offended face snatching the spoon out of his weak grip watching as he chews your food. “I don’t mind. When did you want to use it?” You ask as you take a spoon full of yogurt and practically shoveling it into your mouth.

“After you’re done eating? I can set up now in your room and we’ll try it. But if you don’t like it we can stop” he says softly licking the corner of his lips the small ball metal on tongue peaking out the corner of his lips leaving you clenching your thighs at the sight of the yogurt on his tongue letting too much of your imagination get to you.

Only blinking as you catch yourself staring at your roommate blankly “yeah- yeah that’s good I’ll finish quick” you say turning around and continuing to eat your yogurt almost excited to film.

You almost choked on your food as you practically scooped up half of the contents inside your bowl and shoveling it down your throat and leaving the bowl on the counter to sit and revel in the dim light of your kitchen half eaten.

Walking back into your room seeing how nothing had changed except your roomate had sat on the edge of your bed looking down at his phone with confusion. “What’s up?” You ask as you sit next to him, thighs pressed against his you peak into his phone seeing how his screen was displaying something the both of you had never seen before.

“I didn’t know you could live stream on here” he mumbles as he looks at the options of recording, live-streaming and other things. “If you want we can try it” you whisper. “But what if we try the vibrator and you don’t like it?” He asks now turning his head towards you.

“Then I guess we’ll just have to use it before we go live and see” you suggest and it made your stomach flip. The idea of having sex on camera for money was one thing, but doing it off camera was another. “Are- are you sure?” He asks squinting at you in hopes to not find any hesitation or regret on your face from your words.

“I’m sure. I think I can handle it Gyu, I promise” you say and it absolutely made his heart rate speed up. “We can take it slow, start off kissing and stuff and progress whenever your ready” he says his hand resting on your thigh rubbing it gently.

“Okay” you answer softly moving closer to him, all of this was still so new, yet you didn’t mind at all. The warmth of his breath on your skin as your eyes flickering from his eyes to his lips hoping your unspoken action could close the distance between the both of you that you were disparate to fill. "Play with me" your eyes darken as you lock with his "yeah?" He asks leaning close enough that the tip of his nose brushes against yours.

"Mhm" you hum as you press your forehead against his letting your hand trail to his neck your fingers against the hair on the back of his neck feeling his long black hair against your fingers. "that’s all you had to say” He says lowly letting his eyes move to your lips. Sucking in a deep breath Beomgyu closes all space between the both of you as your lips trace over each other gently.

The bridge of his nose grazing yours from time to time, he pulled you flesh against his body. His hand squeezing your hip as you let out a small groan, you could feel your knees knocking against each other as the kiss was only passionate and rough.

Pulling away his lips trail down your jaw and neck leaving behind red marks and nipping at your skin and with time would form hickeys. "Fuck" you whisper harshly forgetting about everything going on in your life. The rent, school, your low paying job— all of it was gone in an instant.

he let his fingers graze your skin setting it ablaze, his feet move as he gently pushes you backwards until your back was arched against the mattress. His hand that once rested on your hip now slipped under your shirt as his palm greets your chest with a firm squeeze that makes you let out a soft moan.

As your tongues caress over each other's the cold metal ball of his tongue ring against yours almost too intoxicating as the taste of strawberry’s and yogurt makes your head spin. "You taste so good” Gyu murmured against your lips stealing small pecks he pulls away.

Your lips ghost a grin as you feel his tongue licking small stripes on your neck and kissing the same spots with ease as his hands slide under your shirt and finding themselves groping at your chest under your bra leaving your back arched as you let out a soft string of moans.

Kissing down your jaw and neck to your chest Gyu pulls your shirt over your head letting your hair fall, you could feel the aching in your panties as they begin to stick to you. Biting your lip as you let out small whimpers at the feeling of his tongue on your neck.

Your fingers card through his hair “you seem so excited” he whispers against your skin “you want me to touch you?” He asks pulling away from your neck seeing the red splotches on your skin. “Hm?” He asks as he grips at your chin to make hard eye contact “yeah” you answer him breathily.

No words to be spoken he pulls away in an instant turning to your beside table, you hadn’t even realized where the pretty red and white vibrator sat idly. “Take your pants off for me?” He asks and you abide taking off the rest of your clothes and dropping them on the floor with no regard. “Come on sit in between my legs” he mumbled as he pushed his legs wider.

You could feel your heart in your throat hearing your best friend spill those words past his lips but the slick feeling between your thighs left you aching and wanting nothing more than to seek out your own pleasure.

So doing as he offered you took a rightful place between his legs with your back pressed against his chest. You couldn’t see behind your head but if you could your eyes would be bestowed with a smirk on the plump lips of Gyu and how hard he was growing under the confinements of his sweat pants while his hair messily fell over his forehead.

Looking over your shoulder he sees your panties with a wet patch on the fabric as it sticks to your pussy. It’s embarrassing how fast you soaked through your panties when all Beomgyu did was offer use a vibrator on you off camera, but the utter thought left your body tingling.

Not that Beomgyu minded all he could do was wear a smirk on his lips as he trails his fingers over your panties and over your clothed slit earning a small whine from you. You let out a small moan as his fingers make friction with the fabric that pressed against your needy pussy.

“I- can’t, please touch me” you whine as your hips grind against his hand. “You want me to take your panties off?” He asks softly as he presses harder down on the fabric on your clit. You moan and nod your head rather eager to feel his finger touch you.

His hands didn’t hesitate to move up to the elastic band of your panties as they meet half way down your thighs. Looking at your pussy as it glistens under the dim lighting of the TV in front of your bed that casted a pinch of lighting onto them.

all you could hear was heavy breathing and the small grunts coming from Beomgyu. His hands rub against your inner thighs to ease any nerves he kisses your neck. The feeling of his tongue ring against your skin cooled down the heat of his touch.

Your head was spinning, you couldn’t get enough of this moment. His middle and ring finger slide against your folds as the slickness begins to build he groans into your ear lowly “you’re so wet, it’s almost cute” he says as his fingers find themselves rubbing gentle circles on your clit.

And just as he puts more pressure you let out a loud moan only to be cut off by his soft lips catching yours, your hips grind against his hand as the sloppy sound of your pussy reaches your ears his tongue licks a stripe against your bottom lips waiting to be granted entrance.

As your mouth opens his tongue traces over yours as he lets out a groan, the feeling of you sucking on his tongue almost made his eyes roll back. His fingers move away from your sensitive clit down your slit and to your entrance making you shudder at the feeling of his fingers pressing into your entrance penetrating you slowly.

Pulling away from the kiss to peck them once more he lets his finger ease against your warm rigid walls whispering "I know, it's gonna feel good- I promise" he says against your ear and his other hand needs the skin on your thighs as his fingers push in and out of you slowly.

His other hand reaching for the new toy which makes your body almost shiver as the sound of him pressing a few buttons and adjusting the setting meets your ears. When the soft sound of vibrations could be heard you almost whine. “You ready?” He whispers into your ear as he tries to catch your eyes over your shoulder.

“Yeah” you whisper back nodding as you rest the side of your head against his as you feel his fingers pressing deeper inside you which earns a small moan. The vibrations on your clit making you gasp at the feeling.

The sloshing sound of your pussy made Beomgyu smile. Your moans reverberated off the walls inside his room as your back arched against his chest and your head slips back onto his shoulder as you moans. "Its too good Gyu, fingers are so long" you babble as you lose your mind on his fingers.

The pace was too slow for you, your smaller hand push against his as you guide them to move faster. The sticky feeling of your slick on his fingers left him in a lust daze- not one that he minded at all. In fact he kissed and sucked at the skin in the nape of your neck as the moans that breathily ripples your throat leaves him wanting to hear more.

Teasingly Beomgyu presses the vibrator against your clit harder making you moan shakily. Biting your swollen red lips you grind against it almost becoming addicted to the vibrations pressed against your pussy. Beomgyu’s fingers feeling how much wetter you’ve become and how you clench down on him.

"You're so deep" you whine as his fingers begin to pound into you making any pornstar seem like an amature. You clench around him tighter as the feeling of your orgasm began to build. "I'm close" you mumble as you open your eyes only looking at the ceiling as pleasure seizes your limbs, Gyu was addicted to this view.

Falling apart in his lap as you try and ride his fingers like your own personal sex toy "yeah? You gonna cum all over fingers for me?" He asks as he goes even faster than before ignoring the ache in his wrist and fingers the sound of you getting off only pushed him further and it didn't help that his harder in his sweats was being grinded against as the more your hips move sporadically the closer he got to his own orgasm.

“You like this don’t you?” He asks as he changes the setting to n the vibrator, the rhythm of vibrations against your clit “yes, yes- it feels so good” you whine almost sobbing in pleasure.

"Cum. Do it, I got you" he says as his fingers rub against your g-spot as it pushes you over your hips buck and your walls spasm around his fingers as you let out a deep moan that tipped him over the edge as well releasing into the confinements of his pants shamelessly.

"Oh my god" you whimper as your thighs snap closed shyly as you were now brought back down to earth as you realized your roommate just gave you the best orgasm from fingering in your life. Pulling away the vibrator and shutting it off you could feel how intense your orgasm truly was your thighs shaking at the feeling.

As he slowly pulled out his fingers as he kisses your neck trying to keep your mind away from the pain you see his fingers soaked in your essence as milky strings of your cum connected the two of his fingers stickily.

You watch as he brings his fingers to his lips and sucking on them as his eyes flutter shut content with your taste. Pulling away his clean hand grips your chin forcing you to look at him as he gives you a few pecks and pulling back to press his fingers against your lips.

Your lips wrapping around his fingers as you taste a mix of his saliva and your cum, you just couldn’t get enough. “That’s it” he coos as he brushed away the strands of your hair that clouded your view. Humming as he pulls his fingers out of your mouth you take a deep breath.

“You wanna take a break? Or do you want me to start recording?” He asks softly making you move out his way as he continues off the bed to set his phone against the wall. “No, you don’t need to baby me. I can take whatever you give me” you say with a hint of an attitude in your voice that makes Gyu pout.

“Okay. So how about you sit on my face?” He asks as he doesn’t even turn to look at you. “What?” You ask your tone is just above a whisper. “Sit. On my face” he says as he gets back on the bed laying on his back he looks over at you was stripping off the rest of your clothes.

You didn’t even have to answer. Your knees dig into the mattress as you crawl over his face your thighs trapping his head between your thighs, the smile on his lips makes your stomach flutter. You were nervous to sit down all the way, making you hover over his face cautiously. "What are you doing? Sit all the way" he spoke to him with a small laugh that made his chest bubble.

But before he could press your hips down he's met with the pretty sight of your pussy and thighs glistening in your slick arousal. Looking back up at you his gaze darkened as he gave small kisses against your thigh.

You gasp as you watch his head disappear between your legs. The heat of his mouth nearing your pussy he licks small stripes against your clit before he sensually licks from your entrance to your clit, and sucking on your clit with fervor.

You moan as your head falls back and your fingers find their way to his hair. The sounds you make are so pleasurable to his ears. He presses his nose on your clit, inhaling your scent deeply before his tongue dives inside your waiting pussy. You pull onto his hair, writhing against his face as the feeling of his tongue ring makes friction against your pussy.

"Oh fuck" you manage to whimper out you tug at his hair as he groaned, your eyes shut as you moan neediness dripping from your tone. His hand moving from your plush thighs, his thumb rubbing harsh circles on your clit he pulled away licking your clit once more.

Pulling his head away he looks up at you with your juices on his swollen lips and on his chin his thumb begin to move opening your eyes you look down at him feeling his gaze as he watches you react gasping as the feeling you grind down against him "you like that? Don't you?" He says as he licks your essence off of his lips you seeing the silver glimmer of the tongue jewelry in the dim lights peaking through your window.

His hair now disheveled as his cheeks were heating up, yet if it weren't for the small bit of light coming past your blinds into your bedroom you would see his raging blush. you nod eagerly "yeah? You want me to go faster for you?" He coos feeling you clench around him at the sound of his lewd words.

"Say it" he demanded, making you clench harder "yes please- please go faster" you say losing your mind as you absentmindedly grind down on him. He hums as he watches your body move against his finger so desperate to feel something. Moaning at the sight with sparkling eyes. His fingers hitting all the right places stuffing your pussy as the sloppy sounds of his fingers pounding into you as if you were his personal fuck toy.

"So good just for me right?" He asks as his tongue finds its way back to your clit, he looks up at you choking on your moans "yes" you say feeling a familiar pressure build in the pit of your stomach. "I'm so close" you whimper.

sending tingles down your body before he licked big stripes of your cunt, sucking on your clit, his tongue working wonders on you. "Cum for me" he says possessively. Your hips grind against his face as the feeling of his fingers so deep inside you curling had you gasping for air desperately.

His thumb replacing his tongue as he rubs circles on your clit, your hips shake as your mind is clouded with the sudden rush of your orgasm. You let out an almost pornographic moan as he continues to pump his fingers in and out of you until you ride out your high.

"So good" he coos as you grip his wrist as overstimulation starts to creep in. Waiting for you to come down he slowly removes his fingers as he is eager to taste you.

Beomgyu's dripping fingers make their way up to your clit as his mouth makes its descent to your puffy lips. he pushes his heavy fingers on your clit as he adorns your lips with light pecks and kitten licks before using his free hand to pull them apart and licking your entrance. his mouth sucks hard in its endeavour to taste all of you.

Your hips buck at the feeling the sloppy sounds make your head spin. one of your hands moves to grip the hair on the back of his head and you push his face into yourself even more "oh god" you say shivering at the feeling. Pulling away his eyes look up at you while his lips attach themselves to your thigh, he bites and sucks the skin on your thigh in different spots leaving red and purple spots to bloom into hickeys as the hours pass.

Pulling away he lifts his fingers still covered in your cum up to his lips sucking on them becoming addicted to the way you taste. Licking whatever remnants of cum was left on his plump lips "You taste so good" he mumbled as you pulled away from him getting a good look at his body that sat against the mattress fully clothed showing the tent in pants that seemed to grow. And once your eyes meet the bulge your eyes visibly widen.

Watching as he rolls off the edge of the bed you look at him with curious eyes and furrowed brows as you puzzle his next moves “where are you going?” You ask softly “I’m just getting undressed. Where did you think I was going?” He asked with a small laugh his tongue running over his lips giving you a sight of his ring once again. “I don’t know? I thought you were just gonna leave me alone without you knowing… cumming” you say sheepishly as your hand picks at your blanket.

“After I let you sit on my face, and used a vibrator on you? No.” He says sitting up he gives you one more look before standing up off the mattress you shuffle until your back pressed against the pillows on the bed you watch him with sparkling eyes. The duvet covers your body as you cuddle into the sheets for comfort.

Plucking the buttons on his shirt, the faint sight of scars and moles that freckles his skin had you entranced. Watching as he discards his shirt onto the floor with no regard for anyone else but you. Next riding his hard on if it's confinements including his boxers making you bite your lips as you eye him from head to toe.

steeping closer until he trails over onto the bed crawling over your figure until he's hovering over top of you. Your hand finds it way down past the ruffled sheets to his lower abdomen trailing until your hand flush against his cock, the tip of your finger rubs against the slit of his tip leaking hot precum. His hips jolt at the feeling which makes you capture his lips into a perfect kiss.

Sloppy yet rough. Teeth clashing and tongues dancing against each other; you couldn't be happier in the moment. you wet the palm of your hands with your tongue before taking his shaft into your fist, slowly jerking and teasing the tip with your thumb earning you a moan.

Your lips against his give him a sense of euphoria that no drug could. Wrapping your legs around his waist as you pull him into your closer "fuck me" you whisper, pressing a chaste kiss to his lips and rubbing his tip against your entrance makes his head spin.

Pressing his hips against yours he watches as your soaked and tight walls envelope him with a choked moan "you feel so good" he says as he presses forehead against yours which makes you giggle. As he pushes into you deeper and slowly you whine your legs without a second thought push his hips into you deeper earning a gasp at his actions "fuck" you moan at the feeling.

Beomgyu makes it his personal mission not to baby you like you had requested. His hips already moving against yours sharply you moan at the feeling of his cock rubbing against your rigid walls. Biting your lip and letting your eyes flutter shut you let the feeling of pleasure take over you.

But the sound of your phone vibrating has your eyes opening and reaching around your sheets immediately. Beomgyu made no effort to stop his thrusts as he watches you find your phone look down at the contact as it read Soobin.

You press your hand to Gyu’s chest as you pick up the phone “hello?” You ask you were quite curious, Soobin never just calls you out of the blue “Hey, y/n um Gyu didn’t pick up his phone so I was just gonna tell you instead” he trails off making you speak up “Yeah, he’s pretty busy right now” you make up a false excuse as you drop your hand from his chest.

Taking that as his chance he pulls out and pushed you onto your stomach making your brows furrow in confusion. “Well, me and a few people we usually hang out with were planning to go out for drinks sometime this weekend to talk about our spring break trip. Do you think you guys could come?” He asks.

“Sure. I don’t think either of us would mind” you answer as you feel Beomgyu readjust your position so your chest was now pressed into the sheets and your back was arched. You could feel his slick tip pushing inside you once more making your jaw slack as you let out a tiny moan.

“Great. Jay said that his parents are willing to let us stay at their cabin” he says, you could hear the smile in his tone. “That’s great. I’ll-“ you cut yourself off as you felt him thrusting into you fast enough to have you squirming under him. “You okay?” Soobin asks making you cover your mouth with your palm in hopes to not be caught. “Mhm, I’ll have to thank him when we go out” you say shakily.

“Alright I’ll see you until then. But don’t forget to tell Gyu, he fucking sucks at calling back” Soobin says as he’s ready to end the call you softly answer “I will, promise” you squeak trying not to let yourself moan into the speak and quickly hang up the phone without even granting your oblivious friend a goodbye.

Tossing your phone into the sheets you let out a moan “what would he think if he found out you were getting fucked” Beomgyu says with utter intentions to embarrass you. You could only moan at his words, the thought of being caught left you turned on alone.

“Being such a slut” he degraded you, the words left you clenching down on him as your hips buck into him. “You’re a slut aren’t you pretty? Answering the phone while I’m fucking you? Hm?” He asks as his hand wraps around your throat. “Yes” you whisper as you feel his grip on your throat tighten while you moan at the feeling.

“That’s right, and you got a little audience to watch you too” he says as he thrusts into you harder the sound of skin slapping leaving you taken aback your eyes squeezing shut tightly you you press your back against chest as his soft lips press against your neck.

Leaning over your shoulder you feel his teeth brushing against your skin making you gaps. Biting your lip hard enough you could taste blood being drawn. The sudden pleasure and pain of his teeth sinking into your neck has you moaning even louder. Your back arching as you move faster wanting to cum so badly “keep going. Don’t stop” he groaned

His hair messily pushed against his forehead as it was covered in sweat and his eyes rolled back “god You’re gonna make me cum” he says breathily.

"Oh- fuck” you whisper shakily. His hips guiding a pace, the harsh sound of skin slapping with your loud moans could be heard throughout the room.

You looked so good with your chest bouncing and your hair all messy. You looked good with small sheen of sweat on your skin and your makeup smeared, he was addicted to you all fucked out like this because of him.

His hips piston into you as your thighs and ass jiggle at the repetitive thrusts “oh baby” You heard him coo as you feel him pounding in a certain part of your walls. You tighten around him as your essence forms a white ring around the base of his cock.

“fuck, please go harder” you moan as you reach behind yourself his stomach churns at the words spewing out. “Yeah? Want me to fuck you harder?” he groans as your stomach begins to tighten and Gyu’s death grip around your throat released as he finds his hands getting tangled in your hair pulling it back into a ponytail as your head was pulled back against his shoulder almost sending you over the edge if it wasn't for how hard he was pounding you.

You nod eagerly as you began to alternate between grinding and bouncing, your nails drag against his wrist as his hands force you to fuck yourself against him leaving behind a red and irritated trail- yet he didn’t mind it as it made him dizzy at the feeling.

You smile as you let your moans fall past your lips, the sensation building more and more. His large hands onto your spine as making your chest push into the sheet, not that you minded at all.

Gyu from behind absolutely loses his mind at the sight of you. Fucking into you with harsh and sharp thrusts that have your toes curling. Your ass bouncing against his lap has him tossing his head back leaving a stinging sensation in both of your thighs.

you begin to bounce and grind against him to meet his hips. It felt like he was in your stomach and you didn't mind at all, your hands clutch the sheets as he used his other hand as they disappear between your thighs rubbing harsh circles on your clit.

"Right here? Does it feel good here?" He asks as he drags his cock against that same spot again and again "yeah, it feels so fucking good baby" you moan as your eyes roll back. The feeling of his sweet lips on your skin as you feel like you're in heaven.

Your thighs are practically shaking at the feeling, pleasure practically taking over your body as Gyu pounds you into your sheet without a single care in the world. Pushing your face against the mattress while he becomes sloppy and rougher with every passing second you could feel the pressure in the pit of your stomach growing and waiting to be released.

"It’s too much" you moan as you shake your head "I'm gonna cum" you whimper as you feel warm tears slide down your cheeks. "You can take it baby, you didn’t want me to be easy on you right? So take what I give you" he orders sweetly in a faux tone. His thrusts are non stop and you can't help but let the pleasure envelope you.

"Oh fuck" you gasp as the feeling of release comes closer "cum for me. I know you can" he coos at you while pulling your hips into his harder than before tipping you over the edge as your walls clench around him sporadically earning a guttural moan ripping through his throat.

“Fuck” he groaned as warm spurts of cum filled you, grinding down and letting the cum spill past your walls and down the base of his cock you hum as your content with your orgasm. Your thighs shake at the feeling of him pulling out. And moving away from you to end the video.

“What did Soobin call about?” He asks as he looks down at his phone. “Something about a trip for spring break at Jay’s cabin. He said we’d go out for drinks with everyone to talk about it” you say breathlessly as you roll out of your bed heading to the bathroom.

“Can we afford to do that?” He asks as he tosses his phone onto your bed following you out of the bathroom. “Well, I highly doubt we’ll need to pay for anything since it’s Jay, but you know that Soobin and Yeonjun hate making me pay for stuff” you shrug as the both of you walk down the hall and into the bathroom.

You watch as Gyu opens the shower curtain and turning on the warm water “perks of being pretty” he says with a sarcastic scoff which makes you giggle as you go to use the bathroom.

Without realizing the both of you had accustomed to a sort of comfortability with each other since you two had started the whole pornstars in the making thing. “Or maybe it’s just them being gentlemen unlike you, who ate from my bowl of food” you sass his as you watch him step into the shower.

Cleaning yourself up you get into the shower right behind him. “It was some good yogurt though so I’ll give you that” he snickers as you threw a weak punch at his shoulder. “Let’s just see if we can afford it and then try to manage to go” Beomgyu says as he lets the warm water trail down his skin.

“Sounds good. Spring break would be absolute shit if we had to stay here” you said grabbing a wash rag and some soap. “Get outta the way so I can get some water!” You whined, making Beomgyu laugh “maybe if you hadn’t gotten in while I was in here we wouldn’t have this problem!” He shouted back.

The both of you leaving the bathroom filled with giggles as it steamed over from the hot water. You both hope you could make it to the spring break trip this year if it ease going to be anything like last years which was filled with fun.

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