You can also hear my heart shattering, actually

Look what I captured!

You can literally heat his heart shattering :) mine too if you listen closer

Everyone stop fucking scrolling and look at him

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Reblog if Roman is still your hero.

Roman was defending Patton the whole time and then Patton (after Janus compared him to Remus) just ignored/ looked away from him.

Oof.

Can we just talk about this for one fucking second, please???

like, the shake of his voice, the disbelieving scoff--I just can't wjhshsjshsjsn

Roman Stans: we CRAVE roman angst, no, infact, we T H I R S T

Redux: :)

Roman Stans:

THE SONG WAS SO GOOD I CAN'T STOP WATCHING IT AND THE ARTSTYLE IS SO PRETTY GAIBEOWKSOJR

I have forgotten to say this but

Props to Thomas's acting, again, for naming me forget for the billionth time in my life that the sides aren't all different people and he's playing all of them for real.

Cause wow

Do you have a theory on whats going on with Roman to make him almost snap??

I have some thoughts: He is Thomas’s ego, he was literally bruised in an episode. I think he is afraid that he is unable to help Thomas, to be the hero he thinks he needs to be. He also in the span of this episode was basically told that his selfless act of leaving Thomas’s dreams behind to go to the wedding was basically pointless because ultimately they should have talked to Lee and Mary-Lee which he was obviously upset that they didn’t because he sounded very bitter when he brought it up that the idea was shut down. Now Thomas is listening to Deceit, a villain in his eyes, and he is supposed to be a hero, someone who fihts the villains! On top of that, Deceit compares him to Remus, the very person he never wants to be because Remus is everything Thomas despises. 

There’s a LOT happening with Roman right now, a lot of internal struggles. He already has canonical self esteem issues and has been bringing up the fact that he’s worried he might not be useful or needed. Way back he talked about how maybe Thomas has no need for princes or heroes and now here he is much later definitely feeling the same way? And through the whole “argument” “discussion” thing, he was trying VERY hard to phrase things nicely. He literally sugar coated his nicknames if you go back and listen he stops himself from saying a thing is stupid so when it slips out and he makes fun of Janus’s name? When his careful work trying to do good slips and he’s called as bad as or worse than Remus, of course he;s upset. 

There was a LOT at stake in not going to the callback. Roman gave up something that it is his job and in his core functions to do and gave it up in the hopes that “doing the right thing for others” would make them feel better. 

And then even though Thomas says how he was feeling was one of the dumbest things he has ever said, Roman still came to the conclusion that all of this is his fault. There’s a guilt inside him that’s really really deep and I don’t know if this is something that’s Patton’s fault. I think it’s because Roman is part of the Ego. As someone who gives and gives and has trouble taking for myself, you get this idea into your head that your own desires are less valuable  than other people’s wants. That… your own dreams are second. Roman’s self-esteem issues I think tie into this. He wants to be needed, craves to be heard and listened to and Thomas’s dreams followed and desires met. 

But how often has he backed down? Like all the freaking time. He’s constantly TRYING to compromise for Logan and Virgil and Thomas and Patton. The one time he tries to express his desires, they shoot him down and Thomas admits he is a liar and that this decision to want his desires are WRONG. 

But even more so he was praised for this choice. Not only did Patton think he made the right decision but Thomas did too and Roman accepted and intuited that his self-sacrifice of his very functions was not only good but necessary. Deceit literally told him it was the bravest most selfless thing he;s ever seen but that this action was wrong. 

He must be so conflicted, so confused as to what he’s supposed to do, who he;s supposed to be, why he does and thinks what he does and now on top of it he’s told he’s indistinguishable from the evil twin? The one person that’s literally everything he doesn’t want to be? What a slap in the face especially because he IS trying. 

I’m so worried about Roman, so so worried about what’s going on in his head. Patton used to hide how he feels (and he;s afraid to open up but he;s trying) but Roman buries it, scoops it all under the rug and tries to move on, tries to compromise, tries to give give give give and what the heck is he getting in return? Right now it feels like a whole lotta nothing and I WANT HIM TO BE OK. 

Someone go help him, go tell him he;s needed and that his contributions are valued and his wants are important dammit! 

Ok I’ll get off my soap box.

I am still not over what happened

im really not

@thatsthat24

If one more person tries to say that Patton was purposely being an asshole in the episode I’m gonna have words on here. Like a whole ass analogy post

I’m putting out there in the open: I genuinely don’t think Janus’ nod after Thomas told Roman he was still his hero was Janus confirming it as a lie, I think he was agreeing with Thomas or even verifying it as truth. Roman misunderstood because he’s still stuck in the mindset that Janus only tells lies (and that he believes he isn’t a hero, so he automatically falls onto the belief that Janus is saying just that).

Things i'm freaking out about in the New episode

JANUS SANDERS!!!!!!!!

Oh my god is Janus getting to be a part of the main cast?-

HE IS

WOOHOO

ROMAN NO PLEASE

AAA NO MY CHILD

Please someone take care of him- please-

OH MY GOD DE AND PATTON I LOVE YOU BOTH

(Good god it's gonna take me ages to start constantly call Deceit 'Janus')

Wait what about Roman?

Guys what about roman?

YOU'RE JUST GONNA LEAVE IT AT THAT?!?! WHAT ABOUT MY BOY-

Was roman horrible to deceit (Janus!!) this episode? Yes

Should we ignore that? No

But also please consider, just like Patton has had trouble separating his job as morality from Thomas’ own wants roman also has to have that conflict between himself which we see more in this episode

Roman’s entire ‘being’ is summarised by being chivalrous, heroic and brave- traits which he had been accused of not having in the previous selfishness v selflessness and he’s constantly been told that Janus is the villain, in fact he has even been belittled for believing Janus far too easily but Janus, Janus who has lied and manipulated gets accepted into the group by Patton whilst roman and his wants are once again dismissed out of hand

It’s understandable he lashes out, understandable that he doesn’t understand why he’s suddenly the bad guy for being the hero like Thomas had seen him as the last time

Roman defeats evil, he’s a prince, and he is then told that everything about him is a lie, his entire existence pulled out from beneath him

Was he cruel? Yes

Should we hate him for it? I don’t think so

as a Roman stan, it really hurts seeing all non-Roman stans absolutely shit on Princey. Like yeah, I know what he did was awful but amidst all his confusion and frustration on the topic, he wasn’t in the most optimal mental and emotional state to not fall into old or defensive habits (but you can see that he’s trying to fix those bad habits, it just takes him a little bit more conscious brain power).

I think Roman tries and pushes so hard to “be the hero” and to do “good” because he’s aware that he isn’t all the great and he thinks that that shouldn’t be the case. Heck, he even said that he’s the one getting in the way (Thomas’ desires) and that it’s his fault Thomas is missing his “do-gooder” drive (which by the way I know Thomas said that thats the most stupid (in a nice way!) thing Roman has said but we all know that isn’t enough for Roman to stop believing he isn’t at fault).

He tried so hard to understand the “whys” and “hows” of Thomas’ morality and doing good. Keyword: he’s trying, doing his absolute best to understand. Roman has a difficult time learning complex things and has an even more difficult time unlearning what he’s always known, which is understandable. This doesn’t make him a bad person, it just means he needs more help and time understanding what to feel and what to do.

Roman is scared bc he was wrong about Virgil, and now he's wrong with Janus.

And he thinks that one of them; the other sides and Thomas (for trusting Janus) or him (for not trusting him bc he's 'evil'); must be insane.

And he's scared about this bc he doesn't want to be in the wrong, bc his whole being is made out of things Thomas chose to be acceptable.

Remus and him are literally what he thinks is good or bad, his whole reality is focused on this concept.

And If It's all a lie,

then who is Roman Sanders?

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