MY T E S T I M O N Y

Before, I used to say “Wala akong testimony, ano magddrugs na ba ko para may maishare akong testimony ?” Pero I was wrong, siguro naging in-denial lang ako dahil ayokong aminin kung ano ako “noon”. But since God pushed me to share this through some incident that happened earlier in which I’m going to tell on the latter part. Sisimulan ko na. ”INSECURE akong tao” Judge me, pero oo totoo, ako na yata yung pinakainsecure na tao sa buong mundo. I don’t know when it started but the earliest scene I remembered feeling insecure was this.. 12 years ago? probably, when I was on grade 4, nag-out of town kami with my family sa Tagaytay. And there was this group of people na sobrang na cute-an sa sister ko. And they were like “ang cute naman nung bata” While I was there observing, I just felt insecure for no reason. “Gusto ko din nun” “Pansinin niyo ko please?” At an early age I started seeking for attention.  I was telling to myself “if only “girly” din yung nag-alaga sakin dati e di sana it would be much better, etc.”  I grew up na lalaki yung mga kalaro ko since sila lang yung ka age ko, batang España ako. DISCLAMER lang ha. Hindi po ako naging tomboy, boyish lang talaga ko kumilos. Malaki yung naging impact nito sakin growing up. I grew up Insecure, feeling unloved and all of that. In addition to these, nakita ko din yun “favoritism ng mom ko sa sister ko so I was like “Dona walang ibang tutulong sa sarili mo, ikaw lang, kung hindi ka kikilos walang mangyayari. So I did all my best to help myself, to look beautiful and siyempre ang pinakareason is to seek attention. Kinikilig ako deep inside everytime na may nagccompliment sakin. Then I met CHRIST, I became a Christian. I finally found love, security, peace and purpose. Finally at one moment in my life I felt complete. But my INSECURITIES did not end there. There were still times na naiinsecure ako. Lalo na sa mga kaibigan ko, I still didn’t get it but I guess God wired me to be friends with the most beautiful persons in this world. Nainsecure ulit ako, I always cried for “attention”. Dumating pa nga sa point na gumagamit ako ng mga autolikes sites para magmukang “LOVED” sa mata ng ibang tao. But again naiwan akong luhaan at bigo. I end up seeking for more and more attention. I was comparing likes from one friend to another and so on. Yes, it made me happy for quite some time BUT I didn’t find purpose. And all that’s left is Christ, so I recommitted and set rules for myself, I hide posts on my feed that will make me insecure, that would trigger it. I hide posts from some of my friends. It helped me. Now my goal was to bring out God’s glory, gusto kong mawitness ng mga tao yung FROM GLORY TO GLORY na buhay. So I can boast Christ and bring men for his glory. So I did all my best, but my best wasn’t good enough. There were times na even my friends degrade and offend me. Oo sabihin mo ng biro, pero I was hurt deep inside. Yung sasabihan ka na “Saved ba yan? Tignan mo nga mukang jejemon..” and so on and so on. SO AGAIN I was hurt, feeling ko unloved na naman ako. Ang panget panget ko. I started wearing make-ups and dressing up just to show off God’s glory. Pero dahil sa mga nangyari isa lang yung natutunan ko. “ Whatever you do, either for the good or bad, People will judge YOU, ganyan dito sa mundo so you need to get used to it.” You’ll feel dirty, you’ll get hurt and you’ll get offended. WALA KANG TAKAS. But you know what, I was reminded by God earlier by this song “KUNDIMAN”

“..hinding hindi ako magsasawa sayo” 

“Kaya wag kang magtataka kung bakit ayaw kitang mawala”

“No one will snatch them from my hand” –John 10:28

“I’ve never quit loving you and never will. Expect love, love and more love!” –Jeremiah 31:3

Kinilig ako. Kagaya nga nung sabi sakin ni God nung Thursday. “Kahit nakakalimutan mo ko, kahit minsan ako yung last priority mo. I never stop loving you. Kilala na kita even before you knew me. Kilalang kilala kita, kahit bago ka pa maligo o magayos I have loved you. And I even gave up my life just to gain your love. And you know what crazy love is ? It’s me dying on the cross even though you were dead and ugly on your sins.” So don’t you even dare feel insignificant.  Not even worth your time "I knew you before I formed you in your mother's womb. Before you were born I set you apart and appointed you as my prophet to the nations." – Jeremiah 1:5

Now, did you know what started this? Kung bakit ako nagpost ng testimony ko? It’s because I accidentally deleted one of my pictures na may 250 likes and I was crying gaga over for it. Crazy di ba ? Then I was reminded and I asked myself kung ano ba talaga yung priority ko? Ano ba yung nagcoconsume sa mind ko? Kakasip kung ilang likes na nakukuha ko. O kakaisip kung ano ba yung word sakin ni God that day? But you know what’s the craziest thing above it all ? It’s God’s love! He’s madly inlove with YOU! With us!. He is eagerly and patiently waiting for you. To win you back! 

People will always fail pero you should know na only JESUS can fill what you're longing for. NO ONE can replace Jesus! We're imperfect! We all fall short! Kaya walang taong makakakumpleto sayo kundi si Christ. Preach to yourself everyday that YOU ARE COMPLETE IN CHRIST. YOU DON'T NEED PEOPLE para maging secure ka sa identity mo! Para lang ma assure mong maganda ka! Dahil in God's eyes, you are beautiful just the way you are. (But know that our sins make us ugly in God's eyes. The moment when we accept Jesus Christ as our lord and savior. Then and only then can we be beautiful, righteous and perfect in God's eyes. We are wearing Christ' identity after accepting his gift of salvation)

 FIN-

Thursday! Church Day! Peace Day!

The following blog will be in English for 3 reasons 1. So I can practice English 2. So other’s won’t understand deeply what I wanna say and 3. to develop my English skills Haha Same as the first one I can’t really think of something on the third one. Well here it goes …I know I know It’s Friday, Friday Gotta get down on Friday Everybody’s lookin’ forward to the weekend, weekend Friday, Friday Gettin’ down on Friday alright enough with the singing stuff LOL but what’s up with the Title ? Well I just didn’t have a good place to blog it yesterday but here it is.

         I’m off to church at 4:30, we always attend every Thursday for this weekly youth series that I am starting to like. Today a new series’ started called “TOTAL RECALL” . I’d have this confused emotion these past few days, I don’t really know what’s wrong seriously, but one thing I know is that.. that feeling I’d felt? Is the same feeling I did feel when I am longing for that emptiness in my heart before I got to learn about Christ better. The preach today(yesterday) just gives me goosebumps I don’t know why did that happened ? So I’m gonna elaborate more about the preach. The preach’s about SALVATION I’ve heard about it several times from several people and different situations. It isn’t new to me and to tell you the truth I am a Christian not maybe by paper but in my heart (because it's expensive..hehe) :) So at first it gave no impact hearing what’s the preach about. I didn’t expect so much from today’s gospel. But here’s the thing when I’ve heard this words "Being saved is a grace it doesn’t require good works to validate a salvation but it is a gift from God that through Christ ANYONE can be a new creation. SALVATION=FAITH+WORKS It means that by believing, receiving and accepting Christ as your Lord and savior you are now priveleged to receive the gift of salvation. Now the day you accept and live with that you automatically gained salvation. Plus! If now you're in Christ, good works will follow, why? Because works shows how deeply we are grateful for what God did for us, grateful for what a holy God can do to a bunch of sinners showing what real love is. We don’t need to prove anything just for our salvation to be validated, because there is nothing can do to make it more valid. We are saved not because of what we've done but because of what Christ did on the cross.” for more info visit: "victoryubelt.org/youthseries" "*ctrl F total recall" It’s not the exact words but it’s close enough so I’ll continue I cannot remember the exact words when it sink through my heart. I smiled. I mean come on I’ve been wasting my time struggling to please God for what he’s done but he’s already satisfied having me by his side. I didn’t know God’s loves me I mean US that much that he made our punishment that gentle for us. And a God that expects nothing in return from us. Oh wow what a great and awesome God we have. As Pastor Ryan once shared.. the ff. will be in tagalog .."Ang GRACE para yang exam tapos nahuli ka ng teacher mong nagongopya ka tapos instead na parusahan ka niya binigay niya pa yung mga key to corrections sayo. Tapos habang hinihintay mo yung mga kaklase mong matapos sa exam he asked "anong gusto mo sa Mcdo?" See! how good our God is yung parusang dapat sa atin e pinagpalit ni Lord sa righteousness ng anak niya. I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. - Romans 8:31-32 He gave it all just for you! Who ever you are! All of us! Regardless of your standing, race, class, personality, physical features! May ngipin man o wala, maliit man o malaki. And all he is asking is this “My question is… Will you be my child? -John 1:12-13 “I am waiting for you.” -Luke 15:11-32 Name the place, time ! He’ll be waiting ! Don't waste time:)) The reality is when it comes to God's grace there is no CRIME LIMIT, but there is TIME LIMIT.Remember the story of Jonah, God give 40 days to the people of Nineveh to repent or else they will be judge! Maybe God is telling you this is your 39th day! So it's now or never! You choose.. HEAVEN OR HELL? God sees only 2 kinds of people, it's either you're a sinner or you're SINLESS(That's why we need to be born again*repentance=christ righteousness in us") Harsh? Because we don't look up to God as a "HOLY GOD!" But at the same time he is loving and compassionate that there comes a point that God needs to sacrifice and crushed his son to the core so we can be justified*just as if we've never sinned"!For God be the Glory!

3/4s sleeves+ Leopard skirt+ rubber shoes= 

Just Call me Daddy!

Have you ever thought of having another father? Baffle of having a lazy, harsh, opportunist father that was never ever become proud of your accomplishments or maybe a father that didn’t even bother to have that short talk with you and would rather watch tv, a father that smokes, drinks or do every single vice that a man might do.  Wishing that having no father would be much better and all you wished for was having that understanding, loving, kind, honest, and generous father. Just wishing of some time together and spend it with your dad. A dad who will coach you on your baseball or a basketball game, a father that will teach on how you to become a better parent someday. But not everyone holds their fate and never had the chance to meet or maybe know their father, growing up fatherless and getting jealous watching a father-son/father-daughter bonding . Our country wouldn’t be called “Fatherless Generation” or a “Parentless Generation” for nothing. Parents go in and out on the country for work and they never know time’s passing by so fast that their chlild’s outgrown that toy car and stopped chasing their parents and in just a snap parents missed that bond or moment and re-think that they should have spend with their children when they still have time and they start chasing after kids.

            One day I was in this church, Thursday around 5:00 P.M and the pastor’s preach is about God as a father, literally. I was so moved that I chose to write about this, having a great father is some awesome thing one should share about! I am getting tired of stuffs, feeling so worn out, emotionally stressed and about to breakdown. And all I need was someone to talk to or say your rants to. During the preach, the Pastor mentioned that God wants us to call him Abba which means father, a word of endearment, all he is saying is: “Just call me Daddy!” Isn’t that sweet? God wants you, “us” to be his child. We can ask him things, FYI he also provides for our enjoyment, we don’t have to worry if he had enough money to buy things, he owns everything! We can ask for an iPAD, iPhone or whatever we want! God is only a prayer away, a prayer wouldn’t hurt.

            When I got hurt, down, frustrated, or sad that means I need a dad, a heavenly dad to share stuffs with, to share my silliest moments with, to be with someone I can be with when I feel like I’m alone in life’s race. Someone who can make me strong during bloody exams/quizzes, freakish recitations those moments I was about to give up, the worst days. A dad that will always be proud of me and always equipped me with encouragements. An eternal dad that’s always ready forgive with open-arms and willing to start over a new chapter, a second chance of correcting mistakes I made. When things goes down, I learned to look up and after that I always feel awesome and good about everything.

            Dona Florendo, 17, is a student in Polytechnic University of the Philippines 2nd-year college student.

NEW YEAR

EXPECTATION:

REALITY:

Merry Christmas! :)

Happy Birthday Kc!!! (Kc Javier) Stay pretty . Sorry dito ko inupload sa tumblr hassle pag sa twitter e tapos sa facebook wala namang GIF. kahit malayo ka man samin nasa puso't isip at diwa ka namin parang panatang makabayan. Hahaha Mahal ka namin! (MM, Meinard, Papa, Mama, Tita, Joanna) Lahat sila bumabati sayo ng Maligayang Kaarawan! Looking forward for your(siyempre kasama sina Tita, MJ, Lola at Tito Jessie) coming! Mwa! :******

RF: Matagal na kong may tumblr pero this year ko lang siya ginamit. Haha

THINGS TO DO

ME:

Seriously ?

Singing LOVE LIKE WOE like a Boss B)

Sana doctor ka na lang . . . . . Para pag nag pa blood type ako sayo malalaman mong TYPE kita ♥

I LOVE YOU---it’s like saying, ‘I’m having a heart-attack You don’t tell people you have a heart attack unless you REALLY do! Get it?!” - JAEWON <3 :">

Dear CYBER POLICE, Paki una na po yung mga send ng send ng mga Game Request.

Class Suspended!

I was Like...

Si Papa...

Yes! Tipid ako! Walang baon

ME Meanwhile...

OO nga no, Naisahan ako neto...

That moment when you successfully removed the water on your ear.