physical fat, mentally skinny

idc if im too skinny, rather be that than fat

I just wanna claw at my face at pics of me, I can’t stand it

I’m not being fat forever xoxo

“you’re fine the way you are” literally stfu, no I’m not

I seen most people talk about their new perspective on losing weight and saying how nothing really changes and whatnot but I genuinely believe that I will be so much happier if i wasn’t big anymore 

I hate my body so much I literally don’t want to be here anymore

the only body I hate is mines

Ever since I started to care about my appearance, it’s been getting worse

“you’re getting big” I literally want to rip my hair out and scream

I would zero issues with clothes if I was just skinny

do you ever just look at people who are not your size, who are not your weight and just wonder what would you look like if you were their size?

I wish I didn’t grew up fat, I wish I didn’t eat so much, I wish I could just have self control, I wish I was skinny, I wish I could love my body, I wish to be in a relationship, I wish to eat healthier, I wish I could get myself fucking together

why can’t I pull myself together? I know what I eat and how it effects my body but why won’t I do anything about it? why do I keep continuing on eating shit knowing that if I don’t make a change now, there is going to be consequences? why do I do this all the time? what the fuck is wrong with me?

why am I like this

get me out of this fat body

I love how I keep talking about wanting to be thin but I make little to zero effort into actually slowing down on how much food I eat in a day

me vs me