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peachbottom · 4 months

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Period.

Authors Note: Hi sorry I haven’t posted in months, but I have this that has been sitting in my notes for ever so here you go. Please leave feedback sorry if you hate it

Summary: When you unexpectedly get your period in the middle of a special moment, don’t worry Bucky makes its all feel better don’t be embarrassed. <3

Warnings: Potential maybe allusions to smut but no actual smut, non sexual nudity, periods, fluff, bad grammar, not edited

——————————————————————————All day you had been looking forward to going home, taking a shower and spending time with bucky. Your back hurt, you were tired and just overall feeling down. Thankfully it was Friday and all the worries of the week will wash away with the weekend.

Bucky was supposed to get home half an hour after you, he was out with Steve and Sam for the day and you couldn’t wait till he got home. When you walked into your shared apartment you dropped your stuff and went straight to the bathroom. You started a nice hot shower, put on some relaxing music and did all the steps you’re usually too lazy to do in the shower.

You must have been really into it because you didn’t hear the front door open or even the bathroom door. You did hear the shower door open though, to reveal a very pretty, very happy Bucky. He was standing holding his shirt in his hand, buckle undone and barefoot, ready to join you if you’d have him.

“Oh Jesus bucky you scared me”

“It’s hard to hear over the shower and music. Mind if I join you baby?”

“Yeah sure” you say while trying to maintain warmth under the water while the draft of cold air blows in from the open shower door bucky stands at.

He drops his shirt then pulls down his jeans and boxers in one motion. He steps out of them and soon enough he’s right next to you holding you close. He leans down to kiss the spot on your neck that he knows makes you giggle every time. True love is about knowing someone inside and out, and Bucky makes it a point to know you in all the ways.

After a little romantic and steamy shower where you washed each other and got a little excited, you and Bucky decided to move the moment to the bedroom. You wrapped up in a towel and moved to sit on the bed, bucky climbing on top of you with a towel slung low on his hips.

“You are so pretty, baby I can’t believe I get all this” he says as he plants kisses one by one down your body. You just feel an overwhelming need to kiss him, to show your love for him. So you reach down and lace your fingers through his hair and pull lightly on his roots.

He looks up at you, forgetting his prior mission of covering your body in kisses. You stick out your lips in a pouty kissy face so he understands what you want.

“Oh honey you want kisses? I can do that.” He leans down to lay next to you and pulls you on top of him. As he pulls you up to kiss you, you let out a small uncomfortable groan but he doesn’t let it go unnoticed.

“What’s wrong, are you okay?” He’s quick to address the situation and try to find the problem. He holds you gently and looks at you as if he’s waiting for you to tell him the most important thing in the world.

“My stomach just hurts, I’m okay it’s been like this all day. Just shush and kiss me already.” And if James Barnes is good at one thing it’s following directions, so kiss you he does. It’s passionate and slow, sweet but firm. It’s perfect and comfortable and it helps melt away all the bad of the day.

As you continue to kiss him you feel desire burning in your lower body, you feel wetness forming between your legs and you can’t wait for what comes next.

You feel Bucky’s hands wander lower towards your towel. He undoes the knot you have holding it up, letting it come loose around your body and allowing him access to your chest. He presses his hands in between your bodies to gently toy with your nipples and encourage the soft breathy sounds from your mouth.

You slowly grind your hips down into Buckys, feeling his hard length through the towel. He lets out a soft moan when you grind down harder, continuing to play with your breasts he makes a noise to roll you over again.

He slips his left arm around your back holding you close as he drives up with his hips and flips you over so he’s on top. He plants one last kiss on your lips and nips at your lower lip before making his way down your body again.

“Doll I love you so much, you are everything to me.” Bucky had a big smile on his face ready so feast in between your legs like a starved man. As he moved down your body he removes your towel and grabs your thighs to make room for himself between them. As he parts your legs his smile falters.

“Oh, um”

Immediately you spring up from your laying position to see what was wrong. Red, it was all red. The inside of your thighs were covered in blood along with the towel and other things.

“I think you got your period baby, do you want to get back in the shower and we-“

You don’t even listen to what he has to say, you are so mortified you jump up and run off into the bathroom. Nothing he could say or do would make you feel any less embarrassed that his face was inches from your blood covered body.

You lock yourself in the bathroom making sure Bucky wasn’t coming in. That’s when you let out a silent tear, you feel the oncoming tears and try to hold them back. Thinking quickly you turn on the shower to drown out the sobs of embarrassment. You knew something was wrong today but you never even thought to consider this as the reason.

Gently stepping into the shower you wipe your tears and try to tuck away the mortification, it’s not helpful but at least you stop crying. You start to wash the insides of your thighs and your center. Just then you hear a knock on the door, loud but not aggressive.

“Honey, babydoll please let me in. I need to know you’re okay.” Buckys voice is still heard over the sound of the water and through the door.

“I’m fine.” You say back, voice cracking through the tears threatening to spill. If it wasn’t for his super solider hearing he probably wouldn’t have heard you. Then you hear him let out a soft sign and an “okay” before he retreats away from the door.

The fact that he would walk away to fast without trying harder makes you kinda sad. Maybe he doesn’t care that much or maybe you really grossed him out. But another part of you is happy he walked away so you can clean in peace.

Once you finish cleaning yourself you step out of the shower, look for a tampon, thankfully you have some, then wrap yourself up ready to face bucky. You wish you could lock yourself in the bathroom forever but unfortunately you have to face the embarrassment at some point

Opening the door you walk into the bedroom to see candles lit, the tv playing a movie, your heating pad plugged in and some comfortable pajamas folded neatly at the edge of the bed. As you take a second to take it all in a smile comes to your face as you think about bucky doing this for you. Just then bucky comes back from in the kitchen with a hot mug of tea in his hand. He slips right past you into the room to place the mug on your bedside table.

“Bucky” you whisper through a cracking voice as tears threaten to break through again. He’s quietly turns around and walks up to you with outstretched arms. His one arm goes around your lower back and the other cradles your head into his chest.

“It’s all okay, why don’t we get you comfortable and we can watch a movie. No pressure for anything else, okay?”

You nod and look up at bucky, still tears brimming your eyes. He uses both thumbs to swipe gently under your eyes and places a soft kiss to your lips.

He leads you over to the edge of the bed telling you to sit down next to the folded clothes. Gently he reaches out to where you are still holding your towel, “Can I, sweetheart?” You shyly let him remove your towel, still crawling with embarrassment from earlier.

The towel falls around you as you look down at your lap avoiding eye contact. “Baby please look at me, I want to see your pretty face. Come on gorgeous let me see your eyes.” You slowly lift your gaze to meet his eyes, “Thats my girl, good girl baby” he softly strokes your hair from your face while praising you for simply looking at him.

“I know your being really brave and vulnerable with me right now and I know what’s hard for you but your doing so well baby, so good for letting me help you and take care of you.” His words make your heart skip a beat, he makes you feel so seen and understood.

As he reaches for your pajamas he keeps one hand on your thigh, softly stroking the skin. He grabs a pair of comfortable underwear from the top of the stack, letting it unfold before he grips your thigh right above the knee and picks your leg up, sliding his hand down to your calf putting your foot through one hole. He places your leg down and does it again to your other leg, sliding the underwear up your body.

“Lift up for me sweetheart” he speaks softly into your ear as he supports your body and pulls the underwear past your butt. He eases you down to the mattress before grabbing one of his tshirts to pull over your head. You both laugh a little as he pulls your head through the hole and fixes your hair from how messy the shirt made it.

He hooks his arms under yours and lifts you into his chest, moving one arm to support under your butt. He moves the towel off the bed and pulls down the blankets with the other. Crawling into bed with you still wrapped around him, he makes sure you’re nice and comfy before pulling the blankets up around you.

He holds you close and kisses your forehead without saying anything, just watching the movie. “I’m sorry, I should have known better that was really gross and I’m sorry” you say softly, it’s all you could think about you had to say something.

He pulls back looking at you, he seems almost hurt. “Oh baby, no. Don’t ever, ever feel bad about anything like that. It’s natural and your body is healthy and that’s what matters baby. It’s not gross and I’m not upset, I just want to make sure you are okay, okay? It’s all fine, no need to be upset or embarrassed.” You want to cry again and he can see it. “Oh no don’t cry please don’t cry I don’t want you upset.” He kisses your nose and all over your face while running his hand up and down your side squeezing at your hip.

“You’re just so perfect, and i can’t thank you enough for being so kind and gentle with me. I’m so sorry for ruining your night!” You cry into his arms and he holds you like it’s all okay.

“Nothing is ruined it’s all okay, I’m here with the you. Yeah maybe I’m disappointed we aren’t going to have sex but I’m not upset because I know you aren’t comfortable. Do you understand I’m not upset, I’m not angry or grossed out by you. I still think you are gorgeous and amazing even if you are crying all over me.”

You pull away from him a little bit to laugh, you really cried all over him. He rubs your back some more and lets you breathe for a minute. You can’t help but feel bad about ruining the mood, he was ready to go and you just ran away.

“Is it really okay? We can just watch a movie and cuddle and you won’t be mad?” You ask while rubbing away tears.

“Of course baby, let’s watch our movie while I hold you. Do you need anything, pain medicine or something? Oh I got you tea, here you go” He leans over and grabs the tea from the bedside table and helps you sit up, slowly handing you the mug.

“Oh thank you” you carefully take the mug and take a little baby sip, delicious.

Bucky rubs your back and rest his head on your shoulder while adjusting ur heating pad in your lower stomach. He asks calmly if it was in a good spot and then continues to rub up and down your body.

You place your now empty tea cup on the bedside table and then roll into Bucky even more. “Thank you, I feel so much better now” he kisses the top of your head in response.

“Go to sleep honey I’ll be here when you wake up, I love you so much”

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Masterlist

#bucky barnes #bucky comfort #bucky fluff #bucky x reader #bucky barnes x plus size!reader #tw periods #bucky x female reader #james bucky buchanan barnes #bucky fic

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peachbottom · 9 months

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Not Hungry

Authors Note: I actually kind of hate this but I spent some time on it so I might as well post it. I wrote this with a similar body type to mine in mind, though it can be pictured anyway you like it does hint at a midsize/chubby reader. Give me feedback if you feel like it. Much love xoxo

Summary: You are self conscious eating in front of people so you decide to wait until you get home to eat. But unfortunate weather has you stuck at Buckys apartment and he is determined to make sure you don’t go to sleep hungry.

Warnings: food, not eating, body image, insecurities, hints at mature themes, pet names, possibly disordered eating habits, barely edited, bad formatting (pls let me know if I missed any)

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You and Bucky had been together for a little while now, about 6 months. You both agreed to take it slow due to your own situations.

You really did like Bucky, loved him even, but you still had your habits and behaviors that you used to mask your own anxieties.

For example, you don’t eat in front of people. Even Bucky, and not because you don’t trust him but because you get in your head.

You will eat food with him but never a full meal. Part of it is because you don’t want him to judge you for eating too much, too little, too fast, too slow, anything really. People have always had something to say about your body and appearance and you came up with this coping as a way to keep them from having more to judge.

It started in high school when girls would make comments that you eat too much or you always were hungry. That’s when you not only developed insecurities about your body but you’re eating as well. You would notice when you went out with friends they wouldn’t eat much and you didn’t want to be the one eating more than everyone else.

So whenever you were with Bucky he would always suggest getting food or having a snack. Who knew super soldiers that workout all the time eat so much. Your reaction to this was always say you’re not hungry, you ate before you came over, you didn’t feel good, you had a list of excuses. You never ate more than a couple bites or a small snack of anything. You would always wait to eat when you got home.

Thankfully your relationship was young and you were taking things slow, you had never spent more than a day together and never spent the night at each other’s places. That was until one night when it was quite stormy and dark.

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You and Bucky were sitting in his apartment on his couch, you had your legs tucked under you and were snuggled up to his side, head on his chest, with his arm around you. You were very comfortable and very warm, your eyes started getting heavy and you felt truly at peace in his arms.

Bucky starts rubbing up and down your arm to get your attention, he turns his head away from the tv screen in front of you and looks down at your curled up form tucked into his side.

“Hey it’s getting kinda late, I would say maybe you would want to go home but I don’t like you going out in this weather. How would you feel about maybe staying the night?”

You reach out for your phone on the table in front of you to check the time. It’s 11pm and it’s storming out. Rain is coming down hard, wind whipping, and it’s freezing out, he has a point you don’t really want to go through the city in this weather at this time of night.

You think about what he said, about staying the night. It sounds so nice being able to fall asleep next to him, but you can’t help but think about the pain in your stomach. Your so hungry, and eating in front of him seems so embarrassing, especially to have to ask for food. You planned to just eat when you went home, when Buck had ordered food earlier he asked what you wanted you said you weren’t really hungry you had a late lunch. The truth was you were hungry and you forgot to eat before you came over, you figured it would be fine though because you could just wait until you got home. Now that won’t be until tomorrow morning.

“Yeah, I mean I would love to stay if it’s not too much of a hassle”

He smiles from ear to ear throwing his arms around you and pulling you into him.

“Oh yeah! I get my girl all night now”

You can’t help but laugh at his goofy reaction, he’s truly such a sweet soul. You are laying half in his lap as he gently kisses your head, turns you around and places you so your head is laying in his lap looking up at him.

“This is so exciting, this is our first time spending a night together. I’ll get you some clothes to change into and you can shower if you want, are you hungry because you haven’t eaten anything all day.”

You simply smile up at him as he softly tucks your hair behind your ear.

“I’m okay, I told you I had a late lunch. And im not ready to go to bed yet can we stay like this for a little longer”

Still playing with your hair and looking down at you with a sweet smile he responds. “I’d be happy to stay like this for the rest of our lives. But maybe you could eat something, even if you had a late lunch it’s been hours and i worry”

He moves his other hand to rest on your stomach, if he had tried to do that at the beginning of your relationship you would have freaked, but he’s showed you that he truly loves every part of you even the parts you are the most insecure about. You rest your hand over his on your belly to reassure him you are fine.

“I’m not hungry I’m fine.”

“But you don’t eat enough, I barely see you eat. Please just have at least a little bit for my peace of mind.”

Just as you go to open your mouth and speak you feel and hear your stomach make horrible noises as if screaming to take Bucky up on the offer of food. You just close your mouth and look away from Bucky feeling guilty for lying to his face and embarrassed for having your stomach be loud enough to drown out the television.

“Let’s go, come on im making you some dinner” He sits you up and stands in front of you with his hands out ready to take yours. You still can’t process what just happened, you are beyond embarrassed. So you look up stunned at not only his reaction but his persistence in wanting to care for you, you take both his hands and stand up.

He moves both your hands into one of his and walks you towards his kitchen island, where he pulls out a chair for you and motions for you to sit. He then rounds the counter and opens the fridge taking inventory.

“Okay so we could do spaghetti, Mac and cheese, a pb&j or a grilled cheese. Pick your poison baby” He lists off all the options and turns to look over his shoulder at you.

You look up from picking at your fingers and see him gazing back at you, waiting for an answer. “Umm whatever is easiest is fine, thank you” your response is quiet but he hears you and starts to take things out of the fridge.

As he makes you food he hums soft melodies of old songs from his childhood. Swiftly and easily moving throughout the kitchen without any hesitation or look of upset.

“Here you go doll, eat up please it’s made with extra love” he places the dish right in front of you and turns to grab you some water. On the plate in front of you is two grilled cheese sandwiches, cut into perfect triangles.

Bucky places water down next to you and then takes the seat beside you.

“Please eat” he says as he places a hand on your back rubbing up and down your spine.

“Why did you make me two, I don’t need that much.” You say in a slightly anxious way.

“Well because I didn’t know how much you wanted and I didn’t want you to be uncomfortable to ask for more if you wanted it, that’s all. Just eat what you want and leave what you don’t, it’s not big deal.”

You look at your plate, you are really hungry and it looks so good. You pick up a half and take a bite, it’s just as good as it looked. But you can’t help but feel awkward just having him watch you eat. “Will you eat too, I feel weird eating alone”

“Of course you don’t have to ask me twice I’m always ready to eat” so he picks up another half and takes a bite.

You both sit and eat in silence for a minute until he places a hand on your knee and asks you a question. “Why didn’t you just tell me you were hungry, earlier or now? I feel like your never hungry, or at least that’s what you tell me. What’s the matter baby, tell me”

You swallow the grilled cheese and take a sip of water to wash it down before speaking.

“I don’t know I feel weird asking for food, I mean I feel weird eating in front of people in general especially you. Your so..you know all muscles and hotness and I’m squishy, I guess I just didn’t want you to judge me.”

The hand in your knee grips a little tighter, “Oh baby no don’t think like that. First of all I think your all curves and hotness so don’t ever think I’ll judge you for what you look like or eat. I love you so much and I don’t want you to feel like you have to go hungry while your with me because you think I’ll judge you for eating. It doesn’t make any sense to me baby, you need to eat that’s what keeps you alive and healthy and full of energy.”

“It’s not that I don’t eat, I just don’t like eating in front of people. Maybe you think I’ll eat too much or that I don’t eat all super healthy food. People can be really mean, and I think I just developed ways to stay safe from judgment.”

He wraps his arms around you and kisses the top of your head, holding you close. “Oh honey, your always safe with me. You could tell me you wanted to eat six whole pizzas and I’d buy them for you, sit next to you and eat seven myself. You are never going to be judged by me, never I promise you. But you have to promise me that you will eat when your hungry because I worry. Can you do that?”

You lean back and look him in the eyes, nodding your head yes. “Yeah I can do that”

At this point you both finished your food and are ready to get settled in for the night. Bucky takes the dirty plate and puts it in the sink to take care of tomorrow.

You follow him to his room where he pulls out some clothes for you. He hands you a shirt and a pair of boxers then leads you to the bathroom.

“Here is all my shampoo and soapy stuff, and I there are some extra toothbrushes under the sink. Help yourself to whatever you need, and I’ll be just out there watching some tv.”

You offer him a warm smile and he leans in, grabs your jaw and places a soft kiss on your lips. He was such a good man and he did everything he could to make you comfortable. It’s like he was your saving grace ready to scrub away all the dirt and scuffs people had left on your shiny soul and bright heart. So that way he can show you how beautiful of a person you are under all the damage people have done.

While in the shower you can’t help but feel like a weight had been lifted off you after your conversation tonight. You know Bucky loves everything about you and it makes you feel like all the bad things people had ever said to you didn’t matter anymore. The one person that does matter is erasing all those negative things they ever planted in your mind.

You wash up and brush your teeth, then put on the clothes that Bucky let you borrow. The shirt hung loose over your body stopping just below your hips, the boxers were soft and comfortable.

You leave the bathroom and walk into the bedroom to see Bucky leaning back in the bed on his phone. He’s wearing a pair of shorts and no shirt, and boy does he look pretty.

“Did you have a nice shower doll?” He asks not looking your way, he then turns his head to look at you. “Oh don’t you look pretty in my clothes.”

You laugh and walk up to the edge of the bed, pull the blankets back and sit down. “Your crazy, James I swear”

“Oh first the clothes now calling me James, ughh you are doing something to me.”

You blush and look at him, both of you with goofy smiles on your face. You and him have never done anything like that before. (taking things slow, remember) So you knew he was mostly just trying to get you flustered, and it was working.

You both get fully under the blankets and snuggle up together, you being the little spoon. You were never a small girl but next to him you felt like it. It felt comfortable and safe, like you knew nothing bad could happen when he was by your side.

He rests his hand over yours on your stomach, giving it a slight rub. “Is your tummy nice and happy, she’s not hungry anymore?”

You laugh at his silly question but you know he’s serious and he really does care. “Yeah she’s good”

“Good, if my girl is happy then I’m happy. Good night my love sweet dreams.”

“Sweet dreams Bucky, I love you.”

That night you dreamt of grilled cheese, your sexy shirtless boyfriend and his caring heart. The best part is, when you wake up in the morning it’s all real and it’s all yours.

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Masterlist

#bucky x female reader #bucky fluff #bucky x y/n #bucky barnes #james bucky buchanan barnes #bucky x reader #bucky x you #bucky barnes x plus size!reader #bucky comfort #bucky fanfic #bucky #marvel fluff #marvel fanfiction

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peachbottom · 10 months

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Emergency Contact

Authors Note: Hi, this is my first fic please be nice, but give me some feedback. I hope you enjoy <3 I’m dyslexic sorry I’m sure there are mistakes with spelling and grammar I didn’t see.

Summary: When you are really bad at taking your birth control so you decide to surprise Bucky with an iud, but it doesn’t go very well.

Warnings: implied smut, nudity, talk of iud, talk of intimate themes, “ass” said like once, (y/n) used one time (please let me know if I missed anything thank you)

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You feel the back of your knees hit the bed frame. While still maintaining the connection between you and Bucky you fall back into the bed. You land with a soft thud, Bucky catching himself with the hand that was resting on the nape of your neck. As he hovers above you you can see the dark lust in his eyes mixed with pure adoration. He gives you a soft smile as his other hand moves from the back of your head to your hip, tracing small circles with his thumb on the soft skin.

You’re both are naked after stripping off each others clothes on the way to the bedroom right after Bucky got home from a mission. He had been gone for two weeks, you missed him in all kinds of ways. From his smell, to his touch, his sweet words and warm hugs, but at the moment the thing you missed the most was the feeling of him inside you.

As bucky looked down at you for permission and you wished he would just hurry up already, missing the feeling of connection it brought you.

“Did you take your birth control or do I need a condom?” He asked in a very sweet tone

Oh. This again. You hated that you had to use condoms with Bucky, you were both clean and committed to only one another but you weren’t ready for kids yet. You had talked about it when you started dating, you both decided you were going to try not to get pregnant, so you started taking birth control pills.

“I’m sorry I forgot again, I really tried to remember”, you blurt out anxiously with a shameful look on your face.

Bucky knew you were bad at remembering to take your birth control on time, or even just taking it at all. He had gotten in the habit of asking you if he needed to get a condom or not, the answer always being yes. But he knew you were trying to be consistent, so he would always ask just incase one day the answer changed.

“Hey it’s okay bunny, no big deal. Just give me a second to get a condom, I’ll be right back”

He placed a kiss on your forehead and got up walking into the bathroom. You look over it the birth control packet on your nightstand, some days still having pills, some were taken but not consistently. You felt like a disappointment to your boyfriend, like you were being selfish because you make him wear a condom during sex even though you knew it would feel better for him without it.

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That night after you and Bucky finished your “activities”, you thought about what you could do to make it up to Buck. You knew he said he didn’t mind, and he really did mean it, but you still couldn’t help but feel selfish.

You couldn’t sleep. You really couldn’t get the idea out of your head, there had to be some way you could do this for Bucky. You clearly were not going to be able to take birth control pills effectively, but maybe something else could work. So while Bucky was asleep next to you with his head on your chest and arms around your belly, you picked up your phone and looked up some possible ways to ditch the condoms for good.

You came across a girl online who was in a similar situation, she also wanted to be able to have bare sex with her boyfriend. Her solution was to get an iud, it was long term and you didn’t have to do anything with it besides get it put in and taken out. They were supposed to be really effective and that way you wouldn’t have to worry about taking birth control everyday.

You decided to get the iud and not tell Bucky until after the period of time you had to wait after getting it, so you could surprise him. You really wanted to do this for him, to show him how much you trusted and loved him. You wanted to make things feel better for him, and you too wanted to feel that connection with him without anything in the way.

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The day of your appointment you woke up to an empty bed, bucky had already left for the gym with Steve. You roll over to check your phone and see a text from Bucky,

Bucky: Good Morning bunny, at the gym should be home soon didn’t want to wake you when I left

You text him back, smiling at how thoughtful he is

You: Morning baby ❤️ love you, see you soon.

You get up to get showered and dressed, you pick out comfy clothes and head over to the bathroom you and bucky share. You place your clothes on the counter and start the shower, nice and cool to hopefully wake you up a bit. You didn’t take too long because your nervous and couldn’t fully relax into the shower like you normally do. You get out of the shower and quickly dry off and get dressed.

You plop down onto the couch in the living room, scrolling through your phone to kill some time. Though it only seemed like 20 minutes it was actually closer to an hour. Now running late, you rush out the door with your purse, keys, phone and grab one of Bucky’s hoodies that was sitting by the front door.

On your way down to the street you call for a car, living in the city had its perks but the speed of public transportation was definitely not one. While on your phone you see a message from Nat

Nat: Call if you need me😊

She was the only person you told about this whole situation. You didn’t like sharing intimate details of yours and Bucky’s relationship but you wanted advice and support, and you trusted Nat.

You find your car waiting outside your building, give the driver the address and you are on your way.

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Once at the doctors office it starts to sink in how nervous you are, you have heard horrible things about how much an iud hurts or how terrible the effects are. While sitting in the lobby waiting to hear your name called you try to distract yourself on your phone

Bucky: Where did you say you were going today? Some doctor?

You see Bucky’s message come through and decide not to give him too much detail.

You: Yeah just a check up thing, should be home soon😘

Hopefully now he won’t worry or ask any questions, he was always protective and you know how much he worries over you.

Finally you hear your name called and follow the nurse to the room. She checks your information and has you go to the bathroom to take a pregnancy test for protocol. Thankfully it was negative, though a baby Bucky wouldn’t be the worst thing now was not the right time. Once you are settled in the exam room the nurse asks you to undress from the waist down and cover up with the glorified paper towel they give you as a modesty sheet. You smile and give a polite thank you, after the nurse steps out you undress and wait nervously for your doctor.

After a few minutes your doctor steps in, thankfully her friendly personality is soothing. She asks if you have any questions and walks you through the procedure. But only one thing was on your mind

“Will it hurt, I’ve heard it’s pretty painful”

“I won’t lie, it’s not comfortable. But it will just feel like big cramps and then you should be fine.”

You know that’s just doctors way of saying yes but trying not to scare you.

You are told to lie back and get into the correct position for the insertion process. You still get embarrassed being so exposed like this in front of people, even Bulcky sometimes, but this is your doctor so you just push the fear away and focus on your breathing.

Your doctor talks you through the process step by step, starting off with a normal routine exam. Taking deep breaths is supposed to help but once your doctor gets ready and uses the clamp to hold your cervix in place you could care less about your breathing. It feels like something hole punched your insides. You don’t make much of a noise just some pained faces.

“Are you doing okay?”

All you could manage in response was a grunt

“This is the next big cramp, take some deep breaths”

She inserts the first tool, to measure how far the device should go in. You try your best to breathe but it’s useless, your body starts to heat up, your hearing goes fuzzy and you get very nauseous.

“Almost done just one more thing to do”

As she inserted the actual iud you swear you were send to hell and back. You felt dizzy, nauseous and hot all over. You saw stars and started to sweat profusely as all your senses started to fade.

You hear her saying something but you aren’t sure what. The pain was so extreme and sharp but radiated in a numb wave throughout your body. It felt like the worst period cramp you have ever had but 10 times worse. The intensity was persistent even as the sharpness started to fade.

Your doctor was done at this point just working on putting you in more comfortable position. The nurse in the room could see how pale and clammy you were. She made her way over to your side and started to recline the bed more.

“Just breathe, what do you need, water, ice, pain medication?”

You just mumble in response,

“I’m gonna be sick”

She was quick to grab the trash before you got sick, it only making the feeling worse. Once you let out all you had in you, you lay back down. Your doctor now bringing you water and an ice pack. You very slowly sip the water and place the ice on your neck. You still can’t hear all too well, everything was fuzzy. You hear the nurse asking you something, you weren’t able to focus enough to fully understand what it is she was asking, you just nod and hum in agreement.

…

“Hello? Is this Mr Barnes?”

“Yes, may I ask whom I am speaking with”

“This is y/n’s gynecologists office, we are calling because you are listed as her emergency contact.”

At that moment his heart started racing

“She is okay, but she had a bit of a difficult reaction to getting an iud inserted today”

“A what, what does that mean?”

“It a intrauterine birth control implant. She’s just very nauseous and in pain and we think it’s best if she had someone to come pick her up”

“Yeah, yeah I’ll be right there. Thank you”

“Of course Mr Barnes, I’ll see you soon.”

…

Once you come to a bit more and are out of your state of half conciseness the nurse places her hand on your arm to get your attention

“We just called your emergency contact to pick you up, you still don’t look so good yet just lay back until he gets here”

He!? He!? As in Bucky!? Oh great you forgot Bucky was your emergency contact. Now you have to explain this all while also trying to keep him from worrying. At this point you realize the doctor had left the room and the nurse was just stepping out. You do just lay back until he gets there because if you get up you just know you will pass out.

You know Bucky is there when you hear his deep voice outside the door talking to the nurse. He seems to be okay but you still aren’t fully recovered from your reaction to the iud. Who knew a little piece of plastic could knock you on your ass so hard.

Bucky opens the door to see you laying on the table covered by that sad excuse for a sheet. He softly shuts the door before walking towards you.

“What’s all this about doll? You had me worried, are you okay?”

He says in a soft caring voice

You give him a half smile because that’s all you can muster up, and a quiet

“Yeah I’m good”

He smiles back subtly, placing his hand in yours and rubbing your knuckles with his thumb.

“How about we get you dressed and go home”

You nod in agreement and try to sit up, but then nod off and sway to your left, right into bucky. He’s quick to catch you and lay you back down.

“How about I just get you your stuff and you stay right there.”

You laugh a bit and point to your folded stack of clothes in the corner on a chair. He walks over and picks up your underwear and sweatpants along with your shoes that were kicked off to the side. He sets the clothes on the bed next to you and helps you remove the paper sheet off your lap. You make sure to keep your legs closed, feeling slightly embarrassed with Bucky seeing you like this right after something so uncomfortable happened. He doesn’t say anything about your reaction instead just picks up one foot at a time and pulls your underwear up to your knees where you reach out to imply you can pull them up the rest of the way. He goes to pick up your sweatpants next.

“How are you feeling?”

You nod and go to pull up your pants the same way, from your knees.

“Nauseous, dizzy, in pain.”

You say quietly out of embarrassment. You were expecting more questions but he just helped you get dressed and put in your shoes. Then he walks up next to you and helps you sit up slowly, very gentle with your aching body.

“There you go. Now take a breath and then let’s try and stand in a second, okay.”

You agree and then he does exactly that, he supports your back and holds your hand to help you stand up, he’s always close enough incase you need him. You stand for a second and then shake your head a little bit to let him know you are good. He lets go of you and grabs your purse and sweatshirt you had hanging on the back of the door. He turns around to you and helps pull the sweatshirt over your head, remembering how cold your skin felt when he was helping you get on your pants.

“Thank you”

You say as you take your bag from his hand and press a gently kiss to his cheek. He offers a soft smile in response. He then takes your hand and walks you out of the room and into the lobby.

In the parking lot he walks you over to his car and opens the passenger door of his truck. He helps you get in making sure you are safe and okay before he closes the door and walks around the truck to the drivers seat. Once he’s in and buckled he checks in with you one more time before driving off

He didn’t say anything the car ride home, just offered to stop and get you something on the way home if you needed it and played some soft music in the background. You could feel yourself start to bleed and got scared about it getting on the car’s seat. But you were almost home so you didn’t say anything. Bucky put the car in park and got out to help you, but by the time he got around the car you were already stepping out of the truck. He was fast to put out a hand to help you but you didn’t need it. Bucky followed very close behind you all the way up to your shared apartment. You were feeling much better but still in pain and kind of dizzy.

“Slow down please, I’m worried your going to pass out on me here”

He says with a tinge of humor in his voice. You step into the elevator where you turn into him and whisper into his neck

“I’m bleeding, I want to get to the bathroom”

He pulls away concerned, looking at you as if to confirm you meant bleeding from where he thought you meant. You nod softly and look down at your feet to avoid any further questions. You were already embarrassed as it was, knowing you would have to talk about this whole situation soon enough.

You didn’t want Bucky thinking you were hiding things from him, but you were also embarrassed in general because you knew you would have to talk about topics that aren’t the most comfortable to talk about. The doors open and you walk to your shared apartment door, unlock it, drop your stuff, and rush off to the bathroom. Bucky is close to follow, having questions; most importantly, were you okay.

You get to the bathroom, shut the door and sit on the toilet. You look down to see blood in your underwear, you knew this could happen, your doctor went over it all but still scared you a tiny bit. You decided a shower would be the best thing right now but standing for that long sounds awful so maybe a bath. You step out of the bathroom to collect clothes and towels and you see Bucky sitting on the bed on his phone. He looks up and puts it down.

“I looked it up and it says it’s normal to bleed after an iud as long as it’s not a lot, is it a lot, are you okay?”

You walkover to him and give him a hug

“I’m okay it’s not bad, I’m sorry”

“Sorry? For what, baby?”

“For all of this, for them having to call you and you having to pick me up. Because I didn’t tell you I was doing it and for probably making you worry.”

You pull your head off his chest and look up at him

“And now your being so sweet and I’m sure you have questions but you have been so patient with me, i’m sorry”

“Oh honey, no don’t be sorry. It’s okay, it’s fine i promise. How about we get you in the bath or something and we can talk.”

You think for a second, a bath would mean getting naked, not like you haven’t been naked in front of him before but right now it feels so vulnerable.

“Only if you get in the bath with me”

“If that’s what you want princess”

You get into the bath together, with you laying on his chest. You feel very crampy and you don’t want to move but the hot water is helping.

“Can I ask you some questions, baby?”

This was the moment you feared but you just answered with a small yes.

“When I got a call from the office saying you needed to be picked up because you were having a hard time after getting an iud, I was confused why you got it that if you already take the pill.”

He looked down at you and waited patiently for you to formulate an answer, rubbing a hand up and down your back the entire time.

“Well you know I’m really bad at taking that everyday, this way is really effective and that way we could-“

You cut yourself off before you could embarrass yourself further

“We could what, bub?”

“Well I don’t know, I was thinking then maybe we wouldn’t have to use condoms anymore. I mean I know guys don’t like having to use them, and I didn’t want you to feel like I’m making you use them or not because obviously it’s your body and I want our sex life to be your choice too. And I want you to know I trust you and i love you and I wanted to feel that. I don’t know maybe it was stupid and I’m making things worse.”

He waited patiently for you to finish your nervous ramble, only speaking when you were done and ready to hear him.

“Honey calm down, first, I don’t feel pressured into anything and I do it because I love you and being with you intimately in any way is a privilege. I feel honored you share your body with me in anyway, and I hope you know that. Second, i would love to feel that with you but you don’t have to put yourself in pain just so we can have raw sex. Nothing is worth you being in pain. And the last thing is I know you love and trust me, because I love and trust you too.”

You blush a little at his words.

“So you’re not upset I didn’t tell you about this?”

“Well I’m not going lie, I wish you would have told me so I could have been there for you but anything you do to your body is your choice.”

All of the sudden a sharp pain was born in your lower stomach and bloomed like a flower from hell throughout your body. You hissed and Bucky wrapped his arms around you to provide some type of comfort in a situation where you needed all you could get. As the worst of it passed you leaned down and placed a gently kiss on his arm as a thank you.

“Let’s get you dressed in something warm and dry.”

When they get out of the tub Bucky wraps you in a fluffy towel and leads you into the room where he has you sit on the bed. He searches through his dresser and yours to find a pair of your underwear and a baggy shirt of his. He repeats what he did at the doctors office earlier and gets you dressed for a nap. Once dressed he helps you get under the fluffy blankets on the bed. He gets himself settled and dressed, to then slide into bed where he grabs you and kisses your forehead.

“I love you bunny. Take a nap I’ll be here when you wake up”

And that’s what you do, while he holds you and rubs your stomach when you start to move around too much. He truly does love you, and all he can hope is that you made this choice for yourself and didn’t feel pressured to do it for him. And you sleep peacefully knowing you will wake up in the arms of the love of your life.

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