i passed out at work on tuesday and i don’t have the energy to get up in the morning but my mum said she can tell i’ve lost weight again so i don’t really care

the weight loss is going great at the moment but the fact i can’t keep my eyes open at work? not so great.

guess who’s back bitches 💪💪 i haven’t eaten a full meal in three weeks im loving life

i wasted cals im so upset

sorry for being inactive i genuinely don’t have an ed anymore. like yh im disordered but its definitely not an ed atm which is my worse nightmare. coming back slowly i hope so i should be more active 🤍

snapchat keeps pulling up “random” memories but they’re just photos of me at my lw 😪

idk what the limit is for a depression meal but i think three rice cakes with bbq sauce just ab tops it

my period is giving me hell this month and i feel like i’ve binged when i had a sandwich and some peanut m&ms. feel like such a disgusting pig but all i want to do is eat away the pain

12 year old that couldn’t regulate emotions so used sh to quickly get rid of difficult feelings vs 19 year old that can now only calm anxiety with pain

maybe im just shit at having an eating disorder but im trying to focus on eating mindfully atm before i jump straight into restriction bc im stuck in a b/r cycle again. its gonna sound weird but i was watching what this skinny guy eats and its seems like he eats breakfast, a snack and then dinner and i kinda wanna try it? id lose so much weight if i stopped binging

my post ab girls with eds was specific bc of misogyny. girls will only ever be silly little girls, and our issues will only ever be silly little girl problems. people hate girls with ed’s bc they hate girls full stop. yes men, and everyone else, face discrimination bc of the stereotype of eating disorders. but that post was about girls with ed’s specifically.

one thing i don’t get is why restaurant cals are so high ?? mf what are you putting in your food?? why is a regular burger over 2k cals it’s beef and bread… same with salads like 1k for some rabbit leafs??? GIRL ??

don’t reblog a post of mine venting and hashtag it “actually mentally ill” go fuck yourself.

i was purging and when i looked at my fingers there was blood on them 😻 pls tell me that’s just bc i scratched my throat or smth bc i can’t see any blood on my mouth/back of my throat

its been so long since i was this bad i thought i was getting better. i was getting better. i was doing so well why do i want to kill myself so badly.

having a panic attack in front of my mentor and then having my manager say “i can read you pretty well, and i know somethings wrong” this is the lowest of the low

i can feel a part of me crumble every day. i don’t think im going to be alive by march.