16th March 2024

It feels criminal that time has gone on without you, both. Hate that I can never see your smiles, hear your laughs again, meet your kids, go to your weddings. Every mile stone, every small moment, there’s a you shaped hole in each of them.

My heart feels no lighter. It’s still heavy.

Crossing my mind more now that you’re in the realm we all must go to, eventually. Love that I got to have those special moments with you, see your kindness, hear your stories, share secrets. Every mile stone, every small moment, there’s a thought of you here with me.

In those moments, however brief. You’re alive.

I always said that your relationship with death determines how you grieve, however it’s my relationship with love that determines how I carry on. I hate that it has to be this way, I hate that you’re both not here, I hate that I can’t get those moments back.

It feels criminal how much I miss you, both.

BEEN ABOUT IT

This track was written for all the underdogs; in a world where we are constantly comparing our progress and success to others sometimes we truly need to remind ourselves we got this and we BEEN about it.

This track is for anyone who’s never felt good enough 🧡

Can I Be Real for a Sec?

I feel like I’ve been on auto pilot since 2019. I’ve buried 7 people in 3 years and just feel absolutely desensitised to life itself; not in any bad way, just neutralised.

I have no clue what day it is, what I’m doing here, nothing. It’s wild. I don’t feel sad, I don’t feel happy. Is unfulfilled the word? I don’t even know anymore - it’s like I switched off and screaming at myself to switch back on again and I don’t know where to start. Is this grief? Is this adulting? Is this *normal*?

Watching people around me just getting on with life and not that I’m comparing, I just am in a totally different routine. It’s weird, if I’m honest with myself. How do you all do it? Does anyone know what they’re doing? Can you help me cos I am struggling to navigate.

IS MIZZY JUST MIZ-UNDERSTOOD?

Or is he just a c*nt? 💁🏽‍♀️😂

For those who haven’t seen, there’s a teen (18) who’s gone viral for absolutely ridiculous pranks that have involved taking someone’s dog as well as walking into strangers homes.

He was arrested, fined and given a TV interview with Piers Morgan in the UK;

https://youtu.be/mdij3Eq0TqQ

And while Piers is probably one of the worst people to “host” as he never lets anyone speaks and says some more than questionable things, my focus here is this young man.

HOW? WHAT? WHERE? WHEN? AND WHY?!!!

Where are these boys parents/guardians? Family? Are they ever going to address or discipline him?? Because their son is growing up to be an absolute menace. He’s a whole 18 and just knows better than these “pranks” and to just act like it’s just not a thing too? HE’S WHOLE ASS WALKING UP IN HOUSES LIKE RALPH YARL WASN’T SHOT FOR *KNOCKING* ON THE WRONG DOOR?!!!

It’s so disappointing that the youth of these days don’t recognise the laws, the real dangers they’re putting themselves in in-order to go viral, DAILY.

WAKE THE F*CK UP!!!

And there’s people truly making comment on the fact that he “may” have this and that, but truly, what if he’s just trouble?

My point, and my advice is this - and it’s simple. When making content, involving the public or not, ask yourself this ——

Is it really worth the risk of someone locking off your jaw or unaliving you? Are you really willing to do time or go sleep forever over a piece of content?

Cos the answer is no. If you’re struggling, it’s really no. This generation need to realise being viral for all of 5 minutes isn’t the be all and end all, anything you do in life you are going to have to work at it - there’s really no easy way to be successful.

This guy’s continuously upping the anti on his pranks and challenges, SO many kids are. We need to be a bit more aware, ourselves, of what the next generation are doing in order to get likes and follows - if we don’t step in and give some direction, it ends up with more kids like Mizzy.

If I was his Mum, he wouldn’t have a phone and he wouldn’t see the light of day nor his friends for the foreseeable future. If I was his Dad, I would rock his jaw until he thought I was sending him back to God 😂

He’s made his family look a mess, himself, his entire lineage. 18, and what university or business is willingly offering a place to someone like this? Cancel culture is very much here and real. The fact that he STILL can’t even seem remorseful is so deafeningly stupid to me.

Hoping someone can get through to this boy, honestly. There are so many other ways to become a successful content creator beyond being a foolish, self centred, unaware, out of control young adult that chases clout for views and likes this.

18 is old enough to know better. Period.

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Honestly, I Am Not Doing Great…

Not one for airing out what’s going on in my life, but realistically it’s eating me up knowing damn well that I have no clue why I became a scapegoat for my Dad’s side of the family. I can’t seem to really to talk to anyone right now - everyone has their own sh*t to deal with - so I’m just left with these thoughts and I need to get them out so they can be gone.

My Dad and his side of the family came back into my life two and a bit years ago and passed away a few months ago, I never understood why they left but alas, family is family - I welcomed them back with no grudges. I’m skimming over the whole of our relationship because it just is a load of he said and she said. Honestly, whole heartedly, none of it down to me or on me. I have no guilt or regret.

But in my Dad’s passing, for some reason I’ve been absolutely shut out. I was asked to not speak my whole truth at the funeral, and I obliged, because, after all, me and my dad were on the best of terms when he passed. I asked about his ashes and if they were being buried, to which I was told they’re going home with his partner - so I asked if I could have some… to which I was told no, and I just didn’t push because I knew it wasn’t the time. I asked if I could have *something* just to remember him by, and I was given NOTHING. I have no where to go remember him, nothing to remember him by. Just the very few memories of us getting lunch or a coffee. The morning after the funeral, my grandmother (his mum) and his partner rang me and basically tried to gaslight me by saying I was at the funeral saying things about my Dad that simply just weren’t true; and the joke is I wouldn’t need to lie even if I wanted to paint that side of the family in a bad light. But nothing was said to anyone, and I’ve basically been cut off from everyone in the family. About a week or two later, my grandmother took every picture of me from her house and posted them to my mum’s as if to say that I don’t exist. The joke, it didn’t even hurt. The worst of the damage was already done.

I’d only just got my Dad back and we were working through some pretty heavy things. I’m devastated that we didn’t get more time but so, so blessed that we had the opportunity to make up for that lost time. I’m gutted everyone else has taken the opportunity to drop out my life as well, but same time, it’s business as usual.

So when you see me and you’re wondering how I’m coping, or why I haven’t been the mourning daughter that you are expecting - or even when there’s family things going on and I’m not there; you can know why. I’m simply just not allowed to be Damion Wood’s first born, his daughter or anything to do with his family. It’s a mess, but we move. And that’s how I’m doing.

Love you Dad 🤍💖

Thank you for apologising, thank you for having those tough talks and for just doing whatever you could to make sure we had moments together. I wish we had more than the time we got, but I am so lucky to have had them same way. Don’t worry about me because you truly left me in capable hands, and I promise I’ll do my best to make you and my Mum proud. I love you, I always did and I always will. Until we meet again Daddio 💖

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